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DID, OSDD, and amnesia can present so many ways. it's different for everyone.

amnesia may present for one as forgetting things that happened in childhood, while having great memory for recent events. it may also be remembering everything that happened in childhood while having terrible memory for recent events.

amnesia doesn't have to be complete loss of memory, either. a lot of people do have that kind of amnesia, but sometimes amnesia is being able to recall a memory but it being so blurry and indistinguishable it's pretty much like it actually is gone, or something like remembering pieces of what you just did while you can't actually find the visual memory in your head, as if someone just told you what you did but left out major parts of the story.

it might also present as emotional amnesia, where you are unable to recall the feelings you felt at the time of the event, while you otherwise can remember what happened.

you don't even have to forget that you've forgotten. while a lot of these are more common in DID and OSDD, none of them are necessary other than the fact you have amnesia of some kind, and in some people with OSDD, none at all.

you don't have to have every single type of amnesia, you can have multiple or all types of amnesia, you can also have only one. any amnesia counts.

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i feel like what a lot of people dont understand about npd + avpd comorbidity (or even npd + social anxiety) is that they are not opposites. they can function like opposites for others or they can just be an addition to someone's npd or someone's avpd.

i am someone with covert npd, however i have very overt avpd. i am so timid and anxious you wouldn't even think i would have npd, and for the longest time i didn't think i had npd either. so many of my npd-like behaviors were covert to the point i didn't even realize i did them until someone pointed out to me.

i would try to subtly nudge people into believing i'm really good at things. i would practice so hard just to be better than everyone. i was so competitive because if i wasn't the best then i was not good enough. but it was all unnoticeable. no one knew anything about why, they just thought i was really that good. i wouldn't brag, i wouldn't overtly show any of this, it was just something i subconsciously did. i didn't even believe i was good.

but it felt good to be admired, i liked when people would tell me how good i was at something. i was so happy with every good grade i got, i was happy to even follow the rules because i was then labeled as a good student. it was the only thing that made me feel like i was actually someone worth something.

but overtly, i struggle to make friends. i'm scared to talk to someone to order something, i show feelings of inferiority, i don't have any friends besides from two, i can't talk to strangers and other than very close people (and/or safe people) social interaction is basically impossible.

i didn't realize i had npd for so long, even after my avpd (and other disorders) had been apparent to me for years, because i felt like i was "too scared of people" to have npd. my partner who also has npd with social anxiety disorder had felt the same way, despite when we both looked into why we did some things we did, it was very apparent that it was npd.

npd and avpd can act like a cover for each other, in my case it was avpd covering the npd, but it is very possible for npd to cover avpd, or social anxiety, or any disorder. disorders can cover up others to make you look more neurotypical than you actually are.

the point really is that npd and avpd can present a lot differently than others with just npd or just avpd present, and that goes with every disorder. the more disorders you have, the more differently your symptoms will present from other people with that disorder.

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Introduction Post

Hello and welcome to personalitysystems! Here we aim to support younger and newly discovered systems, systems with personality disorders, and various other plurals with mental illnesses and/or neurodivergence. We plan to provide resources and guidance for those who need it as well as speak about our own experiences.

Disclaimer

We are not professionals, we just are very passionate about psychology and helping those who need advice. Do not ask us for medical advice and do your own research. Do not ask us to diagnose you.

Here's some things about us:

We will keep our system name anonymous for safety reasons, however you can call us C. We use he/him pronouns collectively.

We are very mentally ill and neurodivergent, which includes autism, ADHD, dyslexia, dyscalculia, dysgraphia, C-PTSD, DID, AvPD, BPD, DPD, NPD, StPD, OCD, and GAD. We are also physically disabled, and semi-verbal (but not semi-scribal).

We are a HC-DID system of probably over 1,000 members, however about 400 are currently known. We are traumagenic and partitionary as well.

Before you follow:

We are pro-endogenic, pro-parogenic, pro-self diagnosis, and don't care for discourse of any kind. If you find our resources and experiences helpful, then you can interact and follow.

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All posts which require a trigger warning will be formatted as "tw xyz" and "xyz tw". If the fronter would like to identify themselves, it will be tagged with "-(letter) (emoji)". Any reblogs will be tagged with "reblogs".