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facts.

“what’s the song of the summer” ?? it’s DANCING IN THE DARK by bruce springsteen for the 40th year in a row

#repost #bruce springsteen #dancing in the dark

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tale as old as honey, a moment everybody knows History of Man (Maisie Peters) x The Prophecy (Taylor Swift)

#taylorswiftedit #ttpd #the tortured poets department #taylor swift #maisie peters #the good witch #the prophecy #history of man #repost

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bahahhahahhaa loved where this was going

being a marauders fan is a red flag.

it’s also an orange flag.

and a yellow flag. and a green, a blue and a purple one.

you’re gay.

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reposting cause its beautiful and i wanna remember it and also its so true

time is so fucking scary. because it does not care if you are happy. you will think I wish to stay like this, right here in this moment. i have found my place. but then time comes like a wave and pushes you forward. you cannot stay. and neither can the people you love. forward forward forward. time has ripped the claws from my hands, and the teeth from my mouth, as I have tried to cling to yesterday. but you must move forward forward forward. Forward forward forward. Forward forward forward. Forward forward forw—

#soph rambles #repost

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this is the most wholesome thing ever

i need everyone to hear the story of colman domingo meeting his husband bc it's just the most beautiful thing i've ever heard

#colman domingo #romance #couples #repost

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wtf was that i loved EVERY SECOND OF IT

guys holy crap look what I just found

THE FREAKING TRANSITION IM ON THE FLOOR

#percy jackson #repost

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torn between getting a girlfriend and getting really into russian literature. i feel like the two are mutually exclusive somehow

#gay girls #nerd #gay girls problems #literature #bookworm #repost

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Shout out to all the Black ppl that can no longer participate directly in the fandom they love because of the stresses of racism 👍🏾 you contain multitudes of value and I'm sorry that the color of your skin and the power of your voice makes people not want to acknowledge that.

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i gave you all x crimson rivers

SPOILERS crimson rivers chapter 50 !!!!!!!!!!!!!

for those of you who have read it :

here are the lyrics to i gave you all by mumford and sons, interwoven with quotes from chapter 50. because that song fucks me up, and that chapter fucks me up, so you know. might as well make a deal out of it.

don't thank me for the tears ;)

Rip the earth in two with your mind

"Betrayal is betrayal is betrayal!" Regulus shouts

Seal the urge which ensues with brass wires

"Grow up, Regulus." 

"You won't let me!"

I never meant you any harm

"I was a kid, too." 

But your tears feel warm as they fall on my forearm

"The one who didn't grow up is you, Sirius, not me. You're still that kid trying to protect me at every turn, but I got older, and I learned to take care of myself, and I don't need you anymore." 

But close my eyes for a while

"Shut up," Sirius says reflexively, his mouth dry, heart thundering hard in his chest. You do, he thinks desperately. You do need me. You'll always need me. 

Force from the world a patient smile

"What I regret most isn't that you broke your promise, Sirius," Regulus continues. "It's that I wasted time caring enough to ask for a promise from you at all." 

How can you say that your truth is better than ours?

"And I don't anymore," Regulus presses on. "Care, that is."

Shoulder to shoulder, now brother, we carry no arms

Sirius' mind just—doesn't accept it. Not this. Not from his little brother. His little brother. Always his little brother. 

The blind man sleeps in the doorway, his home

"Oh, you're clever," Sirius breathes out

If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy I could have won

"You're not going to fight me." 

But I gave you all

"No," Sirius says. "I'm not." 

I gave you all

"You're my brother. I love you. 

I gave you all

That's what it is, that's what it's always been, and that's what it will forever be." 

Close my eyes for a while

"Only one of us can make it home" 

Force from the world a patient smile

Sirius softens, helplessly. "I know, and that's you."

But I gave you all

Regulus doesn't move, doesn't break his gaze, doesn't do anything for a long moment—and then, calmly, he says, "Are you willing to bet your life on that?" 

I gave you all

"Yes," Sirius says firmly, then holds his arms out and leaves himself an open target. All Regulus has to do is throw his dagger, and that'll be it. He doesn't. 

I gave you all

"Are you willing to bet someone else's life on that?" Regulus asks quietly, holding his gaze. "Your moon's, perhaps." 

And you rip it from my hands

And you swear it's all gone

Sirius doesn't let him finish. Doesn't even give him the chance. In seconds, he has Regulus flat on his back on the ground, hitting him once, twice, a third time. 

And you rip out all I had

Just to say that you've won

Everything seems to fall apart, and it hurts, because this—it's proof. It's convincing. Sirius, for the first time, doesn't believe in his brother. Because Regulus wants to say Remus' name, and that would hurt Sirius more than dying by Regulus' hand.

And you rip it from my hands

And you swear it's all gone

After everything that Sirius did for him. 

After everything that Sirius suffered for him. 

And you rip out all I had

Just to say that you've won

After everything that Sirius tried so fucking hard to fix. 

You've won

"I gave everything for you!" Sirius shouts, then hits Regulus again. "And this is what you give to me?!" 

Well now you've won

Sirius hits him again, heaving out a harsh breath that escapes him like a sob, hot tears dripping down the length of his nose as he confesses, "I hate you. I fucking hate you. Why would you do this? How could you do this to me, after I—after all of it? All I've ever done is love you! Everything I did, I did for you! It's your fault, and I hate that you were ever fucking born!" 

But I gave you all

"You'll have to kill me." 

I gave you all

"I will! Don't fucking push me, because I will," Sirius snarls, vibrating in place, suspended in this moment of horrible, sickening rage, and hurt, and betrayal, and fear. 

I gave you all

"It's okay," Regulus gasps, one bloodstained hand coming up to shakily cover Sirius' around the dagger. His fingers are slick as they wrap around Sirius' hand, and he swallows, he swallows his own blood just to look right at Sirius and choke out, "I love you, too. Wanted to say it for a while. Sorry. I'm so sorry I didn't. Sorry I'm saying it now, but I do. It's okay, right? It's okay. I love you, too."

sorry for butchering's zar text, i swear if the song had been longer i would have done that with the whole chapter. fucking masterpiece, that chapter is.

#crimson rivers #black brothers #chapter 50 : brother #marauders #wolfstar #i gave you all #mumford and sons #marauders x lyrics #regulus black #sirius black #remus lupin #zar #bizarrestars #jegulus

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regulus and james are so black cat and golden retriever coded its mad

#jegulus #regulus black #james potter #marauders #starchaser #james x regulus #crimson rivers #just lovers #bfb #only the brave #otb #ahb!

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do you think that remus saw sirius before he was sent to azkaban ?

do you think sirius begged him to save him, to not believe them, to come rescue him, to not give up on them both. do you think remus saw that and didn't believe him ?

or do you think sirius kept apologizing and saying "i killed them, i killed them, i killed james and lily, it's my fault", so that remus thought he had actually done it ? but then that would mean that remus saw sirius, broken with tears and regret, and didn't try to understand ? didn't try to make sense of the tears ?

or do you think he never saw him again, just woke up one day

and was left completely alone ? do you think the last time he saw sirius was screaming on that newspaper ?

do you think he recognized him ? do you really think he believed sirius had done it ?

but then how could he not ? had sirius not betrayed him already ?

#sorry for the rant #i need your opinions #i'm going crazy over here #wolfstar #marauders #sirius black #remus lupin #the prank #atyd #all the young dudes

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hey soph! i don’t know if you’ve talked about this in here before, but i really do love your writing style and your storytelling and i was wondering if you have any book recommendations or favorite writers you enjoy and feel inspired by! i’ve been struggling to find books i feel connected to the same way i do with fic so i was wondering if you have any recs for that :) sorry to bother in case this is too nosy!!!

Okay, I have talked about this before but i'm gonna give a slightly different version of this list, that's sort of suited to like, books i think are specifically good bridge between fanfiction and published works and also that i love (i am sure i have recommended all of these in some way before BUT)

The Green Creek Series by TJ Klune (Wolfsong, Ravensong, Heartstrong, Brothersong) it's queer, found family and werewolves, but very hp-esque in the type of fantasy, like our world but there just happen to be werewolves (and also witches), and if you like the way i write you'll probably like Klune because we have very similar styles, in general just an absolute gem of a series

Villains series by V. E Schawb (Vicious, Vengeful), angsty anti-heroes and complicated friendships for dayyyysssss, i feel like if you like Regulus you will appreciate the protagonists of this series - victor

Simon Snow series by Rainbow Rowell (Carry On, Wayward Son, Anyway the Wind Blows) started very much as a parody of drarry fanfiction, but by the second book turns into a genuinely excellent stand alone series (not that the first book isn't great, it IS, i just think it plays into the gimmick a bit more, where as the second and third books are just sincerely good), but wizard-orphan-chosen-one falls in love with his school nemesis and they fight the big baddy and deal with the consequences etc.

A Gathering of Shadows series by V.E Schawb (A Darker Shade of Magic, A Gathering of Shadows, A Conjuring of Light) probably the most traditional fantasy, the first book drags, the second two are PHENOMENAL, you have triwizard tournament meets hunger games, gay pirate queer love story, brother angst, the whole shebang!

#repost #book recs #fic recs

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WHY DID NO ONE TELL ME ABOUT CHLOE AMENT

HOW DID I STUMBLE ACROSS HER MUSIC WITHOUT BEING READY AND I CHOKED

LIKE WHAT

A WHOLE EP ON THE MARAUDERS

WHY DID NO ONE TELL ME ABOUT THIS

no gate keeping i need people to lose my mind with, go listen to broken bodies broken hearts by chloe ament RIGHT NOW

#marauders era #marauders music #wolfstar #jily #first wizarding war #crimson rivers #all the young dudes #atyd #chloe ament #broken bodies broken hearts

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💥🙌👏

#repost #henry jenkins #absolute legend

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this just made me think of that one scene in tvd, when damon dies

"please don't leave me"

"i don't have a choice, baby"

and elena falling apart, hiccups and tears and everything

yeah i'm always gonna see jegulus in that scene now so thank you for that

Reading Crimson rivers chapter 40...

i can'ttttTTTGKJHFASDKFNQKSJSHKS

#repost #marauders #dead gay wizards #jegulus #starchaser #crimson rivers #sunseeker #crimson rivers zeppazariel #zeppazariel #james x regulus #regulus black #james potter #fuck jkr #sobbing my eyes out #tvd #the vampire diaries #damon salvatore #elena gilbert

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do you ever just

go CRAZY

about fictional characters ?

like you're thinking about their lives, the sadness they must have felt, and suddenly you feel it in your bones, you want to cry all the time, you think about them non stop and you make yourself sick over a life that is LITERALLY NOT YOURS

idk if it's adhd or the marauders fandom or just me going MAD but i'm dying over here

i can't focus on anything, i'm listening to marauders playlists on non stop and every song makes me want to SCREAM

please tell me i'm not mad

#tumblr rant #marauders fandom #70s wizards #adhd #wolfstar #marauders #all the young dudes #crimson rivers #adhd things #hyperfocus #insomnia #is that just me or

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when lorde said "i am my mother's child, i'll love you 'til my breathing stops" and when mitski said "mom, would you wash my back this once, and then we can forget" and when lucy dacus said "my mother hates her body, we share the same outline, she swears that she loves mine" and when lauren stokes said "the floor soaks up my screams as i am left alone, and i'm trying my best to break through to you” and when phoebe bridgers said “i wanted to see the world through your eyes until it happened and then i changed my mind" and when lucy eaton said “my mother has moved away, she never liked that town, i am so afraid that having children held her down” and when leanna firestone said “i don’t wanna be my mom’s least favorite only child anymore”

#repost #mommy issues