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You are beautiful!

You are beautiful when you said “No, I am not, just a typical one” politely

You are beautiful when you laugh too much and say “I’m sorry, I must be too loud” and then you bow your head

You are beautiful whether you tie your hair or simply falling your hair over your shoulder

You are beautiful every time you fight for your rights, you look bolder and stronger

You are beautiful each time you say you'll never give up on your dreams and will work hard for it

You are beautiful every time you fail on something but, there is no evidence of regrets in your eyes because you believe this is only a trial tasked to you

You are beautiful every time you look upon the skies and look at the stars, your eyes glimmer and so is your heart smiles

You are beautiful when you eat a lot of food and; you believe food is more important than anything else

You are beautiful every time you set yourself aside and do prioritize others first because you love your friends and fellows so much

You are beautiful each time you make a good stand and well-thought point of view, you got brains but still keeping your feet off the ground

And you are beautiful not because of the expensive things you own, not because of the fancy clothes you wear, and not because of the thick lipstick and cosmetics

But because you are beautiful in different ways and because you have accepted who you are and what you are.

We are all equally beautiful

We are all gorgeous in many ways the only difference is how we accept ourselves

Beauty resides not only in the physical features but both in good heart and great mind

People who value and appreciate can see it clearly by just within looking into your eyes

I hope you aren’t afraid anymore, you beautiful thing, come out of your shell!

You are a beautiful woman; when I say you are beautiful, it means you are worth everything. I hope you know that

 From my deepest heart and thought, I say this sincerely, we are all beautiful!

-  J a n  

#youarebeautiful #woman #girl #poetry #appreciation #poem

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Have I told you that I write tons of poetry?

I read romantic and fictional stories

I watch anime and tried reading manga

I attend musical plays

And even watch Japanese films on theater

I eat desserts that much although I don’t like

I tried drinking tea although it tastes like

something my mouth can’t recognize

I tried listening to songs of Panic at the disco and

Chemical Romance although they are totally not my jam

I look at stars every night I could

I look up at the sky and starts to appreciate its dark blue hues

I read Grammarly blogs and always try to improve my English grammar and skill

And do you know what is the reason behind?

It is because you told me you love doing these things

That’s why I started loving them too, hoping I could make it up to you

And I’ll be trying hard on doing these things

As long as your thoughts linger inside my head

 -  J a n

#poetry #eps

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Have I ever told you that you were my answer?

An answer to every question that has been thrown to me

You were my and always be my answer

To every who

To every what if

To every yes and no

To every why not

To every of course

To every how much

To every how long

And to every complex question

That may seem to not have profound answers

You were my answer

For every impossible thing to happen

Because I have faith in you

And I love you that much

 But you know why it hurts me so bad?

It is because of the fact that you can’t do the same thing with me

I was never your answer and not either your choice

I’m just in between

 -  J a n

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47 Questions

[I got this questions from my friend, godna, in aff. I was interested too to answer such things and since I haven’t posted anything for a while so voila! 47 queries for you and of course, 47 answers too that you haven’t found out from me before. Well, actually the questions aren’t too personal or important so yay! here:]

1. Do you want a boyfriend or girlfriend?

- Boyfriend of course, and I'd be the happiest if my ultimate crush becomes my boyfriend but still, Lord will take the way. Girlfriend? Only if it's rv members, especially wendy.

2. When did your last hug take place?

- This morning in my bedroom, with my pillow.

3. Are you a jealous person?

- Perhaps I do. I easily get irritated but turns out, it was jealousy driving me.

4. Are you tired right now?

- no, I just woke up from a 10 hrs sleep.

5. Do you chew on your straws?

- Yes. It was a habit, i had acquired from idk but God knows where, it’s fun tho.

6. Have you ever been called a tease?

- Yes. And bully! because I like to make fun of my friends.

7. Have you ever been awoken for 48 hours straight?

- No. Only more than 24 hrs but less than 48 hrs. Damn, it's terribly exhausting.

8. Do you cry easily?

- Yes. But some tend I'm not.

9. What should you be doing right now?

- Eating my breakfast.

10. Are you a heavy sleeper?

- No, but I want to be one since I think I barely got enough of sleep these days.

11. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?

- I don't think I'm capable to answer this since I haven't experienced to be in a relationship and I don't know how will I act if I'm in one. But perhaps, yes? Since I'm loyal to my crush. *smirks*

12. Are you mad at someone right now?

- Yes!!!! I'm extremely mad with my best friend until now since the day he left us without even saying goodbye properly (!!!) Damn that biatch.

13. Do you believe in love?

- Yes! Who does not believe in love??? When our crushes, oppas, biases and wenrene exist???

14. What makes you laugh no matter what?

- Watching Hong Jinkyeong, Unnie Slamdunk and Reading WENRENE fics!

15. Who was the last person you talked to?

- Karen, my close friend.

16. Do you get butterflies around the person you like?

- Yes? Who could resist if your crush is so awesome, cute, fluff and every good damn thing in this world.

17. Will you get married?

- I hope so? God knows what will happen. Recently, I've been thinking about marriage and having a family. I'm 16, do you think I'm weird for thinking that thing?

18. When was the last time you smiled?

- uhm, you mean smile as precious as shining stars? Last night! Since my crush uttered comforting words to me, I felt like crying eternity because damn I'm so kilig.

19. Does anyone like you?

- Romantically speaking, I D K. But as their friends? A lot of my close friends say they love me.

20. Do you secretly like someone?

- Yes. Idk if he knows that but I didn't confess to him and I'm not planning to.

21. Who was the first person you talked to today?

- My mom

22. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

- Beth, my bestest best friend. She knows everything about me even the darkest things I obtain. If i have anxiety and I can’t control it anymore, I’ll run to her and one word from her silence my soul. She had witnessed already the best and worst of me. She doesn’t care if i look svck potato everytime i cry. Thank you be, i love you.

23. What are you NOT looking forward to?

- School. I'm not yet ready to attend class again especially I still have so many left feelings with my 4-year classmates. It's so difficult to move on easily. I don't want to have another set of classmates again. I am not yet ready to learn another brain-freezing lectures.

24. What ARE you looking forward to?

- To become successful in the future. To become the person I wanted to be. To see red velvet in person and tell them I love them so much.

25. Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?

- Yes? But I don't think he really mean it. Duh we're all still young to be fools in love.

26. Suppose you see your ex kissing another person what would you do?

- Go on and kiss more! I ship! *hearts everywhere*

27. Do you plan on moving out within the next year?

- No. I don't have enough money. I'm still financially dependent.

28. Are you a forgiving person?

- Yes. Time is fast and everyday counts, forgive if you should, and love as much as you can.

29. How many TRUE friends do you have?

- Idk, few? I don’t count them.

30. Do you fall for people easily?

- Maybe? Perhaps? No? Yes? I D K

31. Have you ever fallen for your ex’s best friend?

- I have no ex at all which means no, I didn't fall for that 'ex's best friend'

32. What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?

- Drinks. Coffee.

33. Who was the last person you drove with?

- I don't drive. I don't have license yet.

34. How late did you stay up last night and why?

- 12 am? I wrote a poem.

35. If you could move somewhere else, would you?

- Yes. I would love to move into Korea.

36. Who was the last person you took a picture of?

- My mom.

37. Can you live a day without TV?

- Yes, as long as my laptop exists.

38. When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?

- Last last month. My best friend and I bought shirts to an online shop which turns to be terribly awful. I won't gonna buy stuff again to them.

39. Three names you go by.

- Jan, Janiks, Nika

40. Are you currently in a relationship?

- NO. Study first. [ wala munang magjojowa hanggat di naiintindihan ang lesson ni ma’am ]

41. What is your all-time favorite romance movie?

- I have lots. But my top 3 are Flipped, Pride and Prejudice and Your Lie in April

42. Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?

- Yes.

43. What’s your current problem?

- That I'm anxious and problematic.

44. Have you ever had your heart broken?

- Often times. From my crush, biases, books, movies and fics.

45. Your thoughts of long distance relationships?

- it is fine tho as long as trust and loyalty are there.

46. How many kids do you want to have?

- 2? But depends on my other half.

47. Have you ever found it hard to tell someone you like them?

- Yes. Basically, it is hard since life isn't a movie wherein if you confess to the one's you love that doesn't mean they can/will reciprocate the feelings. You'll be lucky if they will.

[ so yah here it is! sinagutan ko to ng 10 am so kaya ganun :) ] c i a o

#47Questions

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Now is the time

Maybe it's the time to see things clearly through the use of our naked eyes together with the responsibility of our intelligent brain and setting aside for a while the means of this heart

And maybe it's the time to forget the old ones and accept with our widely open arms the new ones you've gone through lots of pain and suffering yet you're still here smiling outside although you're vanishing inside

Maybe it's the time girl to forget and to move on from everything you deserve to be loved the way you love yourself and maybe, maybe it's the time to make another memories with the new one who's coming soon

Yes maybe, oh no yes indeed. It's the time to let go the things you had held for a long time. It's the time to let go all the memories. It's the time to forget and to remember another again ENOUGH OF TEARS! but instead more laughs to come. ENOUGH OF PAIN! instead more of joys! Maybe it's not the time yet to fully recover from the pain you've brought but inch by inch and step by step i'll learn to move on. All I ever gonna say again is to thank you for everything until the end thank you, but for now? let my brain completely forget you and my heart completely feels nothing unto you. Yes you're right I don't deserve to be in pain, i deserve to be happy just like everybody else. And now maybe it's the time to overlook things and appreciate the one who's been there for all the times.

OKAY.SIGE.MAG.MOVE.ON.NA.KAHIT.WALANG.IMOMOVE.ON.KALIMUTAN.NA HINDI.KA.KASI.NAMIMISS.NUN.MOVE.ON.NA.OKAY.ANG.HINDI.MAKALIMOT. P A N G E T SOOOOBBRAAANGGG P A N G E T :D

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I wrote you a story a story that will not be told a story will forever be untold I wrote you essays a hundred thousand words it won't still suffice it's not enough I wrote you paragraphs an almost hundred one sentences but still can't fill the spaces I wrote you sentences a sentences that you'll never understand because of the meaning not profound I wrote you words every single words has its own meaning but you'll never understand

then you wrote me you wrote back you wrote me a phrase a phrase a phrase a phrase

at that i found your answer it was shocking answer a phrase.

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TORN

I did not do the distant thing. I know I can’t and you let me not to pursue it. You stop me from running away for unknown reason. I agreed. I doubted myself from doing such things. I questioned myself if i could really do such things but in the end I can’t.  And here we go again continuously talking sometimes flinging (or maybe its just me) like were couple but no.

And as the time passes by, i slowly becoming stranger to you, and so do i. We’ve been like this for a long month but how come i slowly seem not to know you. You became so distant and so do I.

I am torn from ‘should i wait?’ or ‘should i stop?’

because i am afraid of things might happen. efforts that might wasted. I am afraid to know that my willingness of waiting, patience and understanding might all be wasted and not appreciated. You deserve better than I, and I deserve more than you. And we? don’t deserve each other’s accompany.

should i stop? maybe, perhaps. 090716

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Traffic pero worth it

Hindi ko alam kung bakit nong oras na bumabyahe kami na sobrang traffic at umuulan at kasabay ng senting mga kanta ikaw yung naiisip ko

tumatakbo sa isip ko yung stop lights, sasakyan, yung gas, ulan, at mga nahihilo kong kasama pero most of the things inside my head it’s you. ikaw ikaw ikaw, pangalan mo, first name, second name, middle at last name. Yung mukha mo. Yung profile picture mo nafeeling ko nakangiti sa’kin that time. Naiisip ko lang yung boses mo na kinakantahan ako ng marvin gaye at hey jude. Iniisip ko lang yung drawing mo sa ID ko. At higit sa lahat iniisip ko yung mga salitang lagi mong sinasabe “mag-ingat ka!” “goodluck” “galingan mo :)”

therefore I conclude . . .

masaya pala kapag traffic habang umuulan kasi ang nagpasaya e yung pag-isip ko ng ikaw :)

#e #bes

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I love this guy named:

A guy who looks great in blue pants even in fading color pants A guy who looks great in shirts even in polo, blue, black or whites A guy who looks good in everything even in a glimpse of dark, he is dashing

A guy who smiles at me even the talks are boring A guy who still laughs at me even the jokes are stupid enough to laugh with A guy who never lifts his eyebrows up even we have this small, little fights

A guy who knows how to draw even painting and sketching, he knows A guy who knows how to bake a little even it's no pretty, it looks tasty A guy who looks so nice even he doesn't dress up so fine

A guy whose eyes doesn't meet mine but i still like it all the time A guy who looks like sad everytime but when you meet him, he's so cheerful anytime A guy who made my nose bleed/s because of his english skills

A guy who listens to me 'til dawn everytime i feel so unlove and alone A guy who's always there everytime the world seem to be unfair A guy who never said damn things to me but instead, always give compliments and best things

A guy who knows I'm pretty and lovely even i don't see it and believe A guy who supports and cheers for me everytime the world seem to be so dull A guy who doesn't know i fell in love with him the moment i look into his eyes

I love this guy even he doesn't know even he can't look at me at all

even he can't sense my love even he can't see me well I still love him

every part of him and although it hurts to be falling in love with him

I still want him with all of my heart A guy whose name is E

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What am I to you?

What am I to you? Just an ordinary girl? Just an ordinary typical buddy you can lean on whenever world seem to be so damn to you? I can see the whole world in you, the shining lights, the galaxies in your eyes, the beautiful song in your mouth, the creative thinking of your mind and everything; anything about you is seem to be perfect in my eyes. But you? What am I to you?

An ordinary human? What are we exactly? I guess, we are nothing but a stranger who met in the line full of darkness and secrets untold. What are we exactly? tell me were we nothing at all?

#whatareweexacty? #idontknowanymore #painful

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I was in there

you were there too;

i met your eyes, you met mine

you smiled at me. likewise i did;

and that satisfy me

that moment was enough

#fromafar

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L.O.V.E what is love for you?

Love. They say love knows no boundaries; they say love is blind; they say love can be found everywhere; they say love is an art that isn’t hard to master; they say love is something we can’t define because we have different perspectives about it; they say love is like an air we can’t see it but we can feel it; they say love is eternal. For some it might be true, for others maybe not. What does it mean to love someone? To love without expecting anything in return? To love with no limits? To love someone as much as you love you? To love without any hesitations and doubts? To love without any reason? For some it might be true, for others maybe not. There are many kinds of love. Feverish, Intimacy, Romantic, Passionate, Unconditional and many more. All different kinds of love, there is not just one single kind of love. Love comes in all shapes and size or so they say. But some say love is just a chemical phenomenon inside our brain. Love is just a fantasy that we always think every night and even during our dreaming hours while we sleep. Love only exists in novel or movie world that we just fell in love with the characters that won’t exist in real life. Or some just say love only exists in God. It might be true or not but that depends on your belief. What is love for you? Is love something you’re ready to give everything up for? Is it really all that worth it? Is it to be given by the will of God? Is it something you’re willing to get hurt for again and again despite the obvious fact that it will always be unrequited? Some say love is not for everyone. That they can live without love. They don’t need love. They don’t need to be love back from the others. They despise the very idea of love. But that should not be. They need love, all of us do. Love is freedom as some say. You are free to love anyone and anything. Though like everything, it has limits. But the limit is based on your morality. What are you willing to do for love? Giving up your family? Your home? Your humanity? Your dignity? That should not be. But some says do it all for love, what does that mean? To love someone is giving up on everything? To love someone is sacrificing everything you have? You shouldn’t give up anything for love because love is free.  Love does not expect anything in return. Love is freedom and love is free. Despite the hurt, despite the pain, despite the scars left by the pouring rain. Love shouldn’t even hurt at all. You should love like it doesn’t hurt. Forget the pain, but rather continue to love. Despite what they say, despite what you fear, you shouldn’t feel like you’re being held back. You shouldn’t feel like you are constantly in fear of being hurt, like you’re never going to find someone, like you’ll always be alone but no. You will never be alone. And no one, never ever, will be alone. You have love. Even if it hurts. Even if it feels like it doesn’t feel like love at all. Love like you can’t feel anything but love. Love like it won’t happen again. Love like it will be the last to love. No sadness or pain or anything, just love. Love with no fear and regret. Love with no boundaries. It is okay to be afraid to love. Maybe you’re not ready, maybe you’re trying to find the right person, and maybe you’re waiting for something to happen. But maybe this time love is not ready for you, maybe this time you are not ready for love. Maybe love is like a shooting star that you forget to see. But still when you love you shouldn’t expect anything. Love will come to you. Love will lead the way to your heart. Love moves when it is supposed to. God already gave it to you the moment you were born in this world. Love already exists around you from family and friends. You are always surrounded by love, maybe it’s time to overlook it, maybe it’s time to look at somewhere else rather than to stay in your place, craving for the thing you called ‘Love’. Maybe love is in your place but not exactly you want to have, so try to overlook things and search for somewhere else. Love has already come to you and you’re just unaware. Love has already come, you don’t need to wait anymore. You don’t need to cry. You don’t need to be in pain. You don’t need to suffer anymore. Love comes to you when it is supposed and leaves when love must. Love has come. Love is everything. Love is sadness but it is also happiness. Love is pain yet love is also bliss. Love is an illusion yet it is also real. Love is love. Love is you. Love is real, if it’s not real then it is not love. Just like what I always say even it hurts to be in love and even it always gives you false hopes and gives you a lots of agony but still at the end of the day encourage yourself to love again. Now, talk to the person who is nearby you and say “Love is you and I love you”

j.e

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this would be the last essay i will post here

#Love WhatIsLove?

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LET ME

Let me feel the cold wind that makes me calm Breathe me the simplicity to feel us warm Let me feel and hug the mildness of a wind And embrace its valuable and listen as it whispers through my ears

Fires are burnng like my eyes in the summer time Let me see its beyond beauty and see how its fine Fire that burning through its finest Like my heart exploding through its best

Let me discover how calm the blue ocean is And let me swim to its darkest deep Let me shine the undersea to seek its elegant treasure That make us fascinate and give a lifetime pleasure

Let me walk into the land without doubts and hesitations And make me jump into the happiness 'til you hear my hearts vibrations Like the flowers that smiling so sweet Cuddle with the soil that make them grow 'til it attains its peak

The world is such a nice place for living There's no time for regretting All you need is a matter of realizing How wonderful our world is, God is so amazing

And so let me feel and sink with the beauty Now just with the fantasy I want to see the art of Almighty So let me in with the reality

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na sapagkat ang pagmamahal ay kapighatian at dala nito'y lubos na kalungkutan ngunit himukin ang sarili na magmahal parin sa huli

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Sir: “malapit kana sana e. okay na sana gurl, dapat ipinaglaban mo pa!”

me: paano ko po ipaglalaban kung alam ko namang wala akong ipinaglalaban at hindi ko alam kung sa papaanong ko siyang paraan ipaglalaban at may mapapala ba ako kapag pinaglaban ko siya?

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Books are life :)

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