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myriad-of-things · 4 years

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Dream and George headcanons:

I know people tend to write about them as youtubers, but my headcanons are about their characters in Minecraft. A lot of this follows my headcanons for Minecraft lore and Players, you don’t have to read them to understand this, it just adds to everything (heads up they’re both kinda long). Also this is kinda long too.

George was a Developer so powerful that he kinda just ascended beyond Player form. He was Minecraft, he could control anything and everything in the world. Thankfully he wasn’t too interested in world domination, he just sat in his corner messing with things. The only interaction he had with the outside worlds was gleefully killing Players that dared to disturb his work. It was so easy that he slowly stopped viewing Players as people. The rest of the world too forgot he was originally a Player, since he lacked a physical form and most types of emotions as well.

This all ended when he crossed paths with a speedrunner named Dream. Well it was more like Dream crossed paths with him, since George wasn’t particularly interested in talking to people at that time. Dream had heard of a powerful entity that no one had ever lasted long enough against to even get a word in. Speedrunning was getting too boring for him, so he went looking for a challenge.

Upon their first meeting, George went to kill Dream without a thought. But to his surprise, the speedrunner not only survived the attack, but began taunting him. George finally felt his first emotion in ages: embarrassment. What happened next was an epic battle between one Player and the might of an entire Minecraft world. Eventually, Dream lost. There was no way he could win against Minecraft itself, but he was the first to survive for so long. George went back to his code, expecting Dream leave him alone like all the other Players, but to his surprise, he just respawned and asked for a rematch. No one had ever come back before.

George was absolutely baffled and for the first time in forever, he spoke to another Player just to ask why. “Because it’s fun” wasn’t the answer he expected and he honestly felt ridiculed that Dream returned just to mess with him. Another round of Player vs. Minecraft ensued. This time George was vocal about it, returning Dream’s taunts and having his first real interaction with someone in ages. There were a lot of firsts that day.

When he won again, he realized that Dream was right, it was fun. Dream respawned, and by now George was so familiar with his tricks that he killed him instantly. When he respawned, he did it again. And again and again and again. Now it wasn’t fun.

When Dream finally recovered from the death spam, George found himself apologizing to the speedrunner and asked to play again. Dream agreed, but on one condition: they (aka George) would have to follow some rules. It was only fun if both sides had a challenge. He could only use the mobs, or he could only use the environment. He won if he killed Dream, and Dream won if he killed the enderdragon.

Eventually George realized it wasn’t much of a challenge if he had so much power, so one day he just appeared beside Dream in Player form. He hadn’t taken a physical form in ages, and Dream was still under the impression that George was some kind of code entity. Needless to say both of them freaked out, Dream by the unfamiliar Player, George by the experience of having a physical body again and then immediately getting attacked by the only person in the world he thought was his friend.

George died for the first time that day and he wasn’t too happy about it. He finally realised how terrifying Dream was in person, and how he himself must have appeared to other Players when he was an omnipotent Developer. It was around then their friendship really developed. It was hard being friends with an entity that lacked a physical form, but easy when said entity wore funny glasses and screamed a bit too much.

TLDR: George is smart and Dream is clever, but the two of them are idiots together.

Some notes:

George and Dream’s first interactions were inspired by their Player vs. Minecraft videos, where George takes over the mobs or the environment and Dream tries to beat the game.

with George’s help, Dream eventually becomes a rouge Developer. He was told off by the head Developers for doing stuff against their rules, but he doesn’t care and just does whatever he finds fun.

if anyone saw my previous post about Player headcanons, Developers each have an object through which they access their powers. For Dream it’s his smiley face mask. For George, it’s his clout glasses (they also help with his colorblindness). You can tell sh*t’s about to go down if either of them start shoving stuff on their faces

At one point the Universe created a Herobrine of George to try to counter his power, but George just wrote over its code, named it OoogaBoooga, and now him and Dream use it to chase them around on speedruns (I saw that the skin they used in the terminator episode was a Herobrine skin and jumped on that idea).

also from my previous post, Developers have very fluid physical forms, which was why George didn’t have physical form for a bit. He can also shapeshift into any mob in the game, but each of his forms will always be wearing his glasses since that’s what he controls his powers with. His favorite form is an enderdragon. Also Dream can shapeshift into the little smiley dude in his profile pic I guess.

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chrisevansluv · 3 years

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I’m going to both options:

1) He doesn’t sleep around/hook up as much as people love to claim. Not saying he’s a monk, but he doesn’t need to get his dick wet every weekend

2) He’s smart and makes sure they aren’t going to spill anything, and chooses the right women for it, so they don’t run to gossip sites or blogs.

Personally? I believe it’s a mix//

Yes I agree with you anon but also,I want to say it's the first one mostly.

People have this strange expectation of celebrities(especially the attractive and male ones) to lead some kind of casanova/playboy/fuckboy lifestyle. Many men regardless of status have that kind of lifestyle but honestly since following Chris he doesn't give off those vibes. Especially lets say since 2013-14 he seems like a very......regular dude lol. I don't think he was THAT wild back in his 20s. Also if anyone brings up the whole "his team cleaned up his image!!!!!!!1!!!!!!!!!11!!!" puhleaseeeeeeeee.....there's just so much you can clean up lol. The clean up was probably some dumb shit he said in his 20s and spoon feeding him lines he can say for MCU interviews,which imo all MCU actors had to do as per protocol.

Also why aren't these women,whoever they are,not spilling the deets? Maybe because he's not sleeping with those kind of people. Hear me out,but remember the interview back in 2012 or 2014 where he said that even his friends are sometimes surprised at the women he crushes on or dates? I know everyone loves to think Chris is a dumb manchild lowkey misogynist,but tell me......who among his public exes except JS was truly publicly problematic? Minka doesn't exactly count. People base his tastes and dating style from his 3 public girlfriends and some people he was seen with/rumored to have dated. Other than that we really,truly don't know how he is. It is possible he's hooking up and dating women who aren't big mouth clout chasers and respect him and themselves enough to not go chase 15 minutes of internet fame.

Once again this fandom is fucking weird for painting their person of admiration and fantasy as someone so negative when he isn't close to some of the exaggerated claims "fans" have been regurgitating since forever!

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thesportssoundoff · 4 years

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Playoff Droughts And Who Can Break Theirs

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Baseball season is approaching and in the interest of breaking up the monotony of what figures to be a LONG and painful spring training, I wanted to take a peek whimsically while looking backwards. There's no more enjoyable story than when a team that's been excluded from the postseason dance for quite some time gets their invite. Sometimes it's years of hard work and team building and other years its due to ownership just throwing money around and sometimes? It's just a fluke luck circumstance not to be repeated for quite some time. For the sake of doing something of a bit of a project, I decided to take a brief look at teams that have not made the playoffs in over five years. I chose five years arbitrarily I suppose because to me five years or more without a playoff run is a genuine drought whereas four or less just feels like a lull regardless of expectations. Yankees fans may consider three years without the playoffs to be a drought whereas that's if anything a lull or a break in tradition. Teams that have been out of it for five years or more are teams that are either mired in long term BAD baseball or embracing mediocrity at best and so five years just felt right. Also I wanted to do it since the invent of the two game wild card but then it would be literally just three teams and nobody wants that.

Of the eight teams who have missed the playoffs for five years straight or longer, who are most likely to break that streak and join the dance? Well...

1- Philadelphia Phillies Last Playoff Appearance: 2011

Last year's darling picks, the Phillies have been out of the playoffs since 2011. For fun facts, 2011 was also the first year of the Chromebook, snapchat and the release of Elder Scrolls: Skryim. If you read this space for MMA? 2011 was the year Jon Jones beat Shogun for the LHW title, the Strikeforce HW Grand Prix started and Alistair Overeem's UFC debut. It's been a while and to the credit of Philadelphia, they've tried a multitude of ways from riding out the final years of aging veterans to rehauling their farm system to spending and spending big. It's not for a lack of trying they haven't made it back to the playoffs! Last year they seemed armed to roll through a perceived weak NL East with big names and big money across the board. Of course little did we know the Nationals would be better without Bryce Harper and the Phillies wouldn't even crack the top two of the division. Out goes Gabe Kapler and in comes Joe Girardi who will be tasked with VETERAN MANAGING his way through this ultra talented and underachieving roster that has added the likes of Zach Wheeler, Didi Gregorious as well as Andrew McCutchen who was lost early into 2019 with a torn ACL. The Phillies boast an insane line up as if Didi and Cutch are healthy and productive then you've got a core of Jean Segura, JT Realmuto, Didi, McCutchen, Rhys Hoskins and Bryce Harper. The rotation is pretty damn spiffy (health permitting) with Wheeler, Aaron Nola, Zach Eflin and Jake Arrieta plus flostam as a fifth if need be. The Phillies are always going to be a team that has slumps magnified and streaks glorified (such is life with Bryce Harper) but I can't see them not cracking the playoffs in some form or fashion this year. If they don't make the playoffs, we may need to try and discuss if there's some kind of a curse out there on the Phanatic.

2- Cincinnati Reds Last Playoff Appearance: 2013

Gotta admit I had no idea the Reds had a playoff cameo back in 2013. Guess that's just one of those years lost to time. Fun facts of 2013? Grand Theft Auto 5 came out that year, Yahoo purchased this hell site and the UFC brought women into the organization for the first time ever. The Reds spoke openly about wanting to spend a bit in the offseason and so they did, flexing some financial muscle with deals for Mike Moustakas, Shogo Akiyama and Nick Castellanos to help out a lineup featuring the likes of Joey Votto, Nick Senzel and Eugenio Suarez. If the Reds are going to make a serious run of things, it'll likely be on the arms of a rejuvenated Sonny Gray, mercurial Trevor Bauer and the league's best kept secret to casual fans Luis Castillo. There's obviously going to be concerns about a team that hits a lot of dingers but strikes out a bunch and a somewhat unheralded bullpen but the Reds have power, they've gotten better and they've got a cadre of arms to flex at any time. Also? The NL Central figures to be up in the air as the Cubs seem to coast with the core they have until the rebuild comes around, the Cardinals and Brewers underwent massive changes and the Pirates figure to be flat out bad. There's never been a more clear path for the Reds to make some October noise.

3- Los Angeles Angels Last Playoff Appearance: 2014

The year is 2014. In the real world, Colorado legalizes the purchase of wacky tobacky, selfies became "a thing" in need of forever going away and the occulus rift creates a youtube grift genre. Sports wise? The MLB struggles through record rating woes, the Cowboys finally break through in the Jason Garrett tenure with a 12-4 record, the UFC is undergoing massive upheaval as stars retire or are suspended for PEDs, Bellator hosts its first PPV which in turn leads to the ousting of Bjorn Rebney for Scott Coker and LeBron James leaves Miami to go back where it all began in Cleveland. That's the last time the Angels saw a playoff game and it's been beaten to death at this point. "WHY DON'T THE ANGELS MAKE THE PLAYOFFS DURING MIKE TROUT'S PRIME?!" is tired and done to death but for those of you who feel the same way, 2020 marks the BEST chance for that to become a fad question (or perhaps just morph into "WHY CAN'T THE BEST PLAYER IN BASEBALL WIN THE WORLD SERIES ON HIS OWN?!") since the Angels are pretty damn loaded for bare. With the Astros about to endure a pretty weird season and the A's always lurking, the Angels will roll into the year with three bonafide superstars in Anthony Rendon, Shohei Otani and Mike Trout. The pieces around them aren't bad shakes either as Andrelton Simmons is a defensive whiz, David Fletcher is one of those solid under the radar types and the rotation isn't flashy but it should be competent with minor league depth to make moves if they see a big fish out there. The Angels would've been higher up had they gotten Ross Stripling and Joc Pedersen in a deal but since that fell off, I feel like 3rd behind the Reds and Phillies is a fine spot to put them in.

4- Chicago White Sox Last Playoff Appearance: 2008

2008 will probably best be known as the year of change headlined by the election of Barack Obama as President of the United States. It was the year Fidel Castro stepped down in Cuba. China got the olympics in Beijing and people were TOTALLY cool about that with nary any controversy whatsoever. Beyond that? 2008 was the year I got into MMA and that was a special time, dudes. It was also the year where the White Sox saw their last real sustained succeed with its last postseason appearance. The White Sox feel like they've been in a rebuild since pretty much the end of the Ozzie Guillen tenure and despite multiple managers, multiple attempts to figure it out, rebuilds aplenty and some damn good talent coming through the organization, it's been a rough go of it for the majority of 2010 to 2019. Put it this way, the LAST time the White Sox made the playoffs, Chris Sale was a 22 year old rookie and Paul Konerko was still an active player. They've got a chance to kick off this next decade as a bit of a sleeper team in the Central. This team can hit and one can assume that another year of development for phenom talents like Yoan Moncada and Eloy Jiminez can only help. Tim Anderson for better or worse has a style and swagger that generates attention but it is fair to remember that for at least one half a season, he was a phenomenal player worthy of the acclaim. The White Sox have tried hard to secure elite free agents (Manny Machado and Zack Wheeler) but it's been a bust so at this point it's going to be up to them to draft, develop and trade for it. It would not surprise me if the White Sox are good enough in June and July to make a big deal to try and push them over the hump and chase for the second wild card.

5- San Diego Padres Last Playoff Appearance: 2006

The Padres last made the playoffs in the year of the Nintendo Wii. Floyd Mayweather hadn't even come up with his Money Mayweather gimmick yet! Lost to baseball obscurity, the Padres had at the very least an interesting team out west. The likes of Manny Machado, Fernando Tatis Jr, arguably the worst defensive outfield in the history of the universe and freakishly good young arms like Chris Paddack and Joey Luchessi at least made them fun to watch. They weren't "good" but this is a team that was still struggling to balance expensive veterans with clout (Machado, Eric Hosmer, Will Meyers) with really good young talent trying to figure things out. The Padres figure to be better with a full season of Tatis Jr, more production from guys like Hosmer and Machado plus improvements in the outfield with Tommy Pham and Trent Grisham (hold your jokes, Nats fans) figure to give this team a chance. There's a pretty good bullpen (Emilio Pagan is a sneaky nice pick up) and plenty of talent in their 26 man roster. The NL West has so much legit top talent with the D-Backs and Dodgers figuring to be really good that it's hard to make an argument for the Padres to be a playoff contender but they figure to try and trying is truly half the battle.

6- Miami Marlins Last Playoff Appearance: 2003

It's kind of a bummer that we didn't get our decennial Marlins "The fuck?" World Series win but they made up for it by giving us Jeffrey Loria and David Samson fucking things up for most of the decade leading to Derek FUCKING Jeter opting to get into the management game much to the chagrin of most folks on all sides. The Marlins are in the midst of rebuilding....again. Don't expect them to compete but they've got some good talent to at least want to see play. Brian Anderson, Caleb Smith, Jorge Alfaro and a bundle of veteran signings that will at the very least make the Marlins a fun trade partner in July will keep this team relevant. Wouldn't surprise me if the Marlins flirt with a 20 win swing from where they were last year.

7- Seattle Mariners Last Playoff Appearance: 2001

My god man. The Mariners were SO close in 2018, winning 89 games and finishing a few spots out of a Wild Card spot. As if they decided that this core couldn't do it, the Mariners went to work tearing their team apart and were rewarded with a pretty blegh squad that was once again picked apart at the deadline. To their credit they have some spiffy talent worth watching, namely the infield duo of JP Crawford and Shed Long. They’ve also got some fun young arms who might take the next step. Just don't expect them to win many games.

8- Detroit Tigers Last Playoff Appearance: 2014

The Tigers are aways away from being contenders. They're not trying to be contenders. They're in the midst of what could best be described as a multiple year rebuild after riding out the end days of the core from the start of the 2010's. They will be bad but god bless 'em for embracing it.

#MLB #playoffs #baseball

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iamknikbentley · 7 years

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Hope that stain is off your sweater…

This one of them tings when it just happen. Not to downplay it like I didn’t care for you, but it really did. I don’t exactly remember how we became friends, but I knew it was because of the time in your life; it was dark. You was dating a dude that was in military school, but he was fucking up. He would only want you around for sex basically and you would come for me for advise.

You would walk to my house with the big glasses and braces lol it was cute. We basically said we were best friends. I played dumb, I knew what you really wanted to become… I couldn’t do it. I’m still new to all this.

I fucked up when talking with the guys on our way back from Rockford. Our business was out when I shouldn’t have done it. Niggas was chasing clout instead of minding their business. My bad for that… it was a troubling time for you. I didn’t mean to make it a even worse one..

Haven’t really spoken to you since that year. If you hold that grudge on me forever, I’d understand.

#life #short #exsandinterludes #past #future #learning

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theconservativebrief · 5 years

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Right now on the hypebeast resale site Grailed, a pair of Crocs is going for $500. To be fair, they are not the normal kind of Crocs that you can find at, like, J.C. Penney; they’re from the brand’s collaboration with the streetwear brand Alife from earlier this summer. Still, it’s a lot of money for a squishy orthopedic shoe that Time magazine once included in a slideshow of the 50 worst inventions.

But it’s not all that surprising, given that Crocs have been a kooky side note in high fashion for a few years. Crocs regularly clomp down runways at fashion week; there are heel versions and fur versions and platform versions that cost $850 and sold out before they even went on sale.

Yet most of that industry clout has been due to its collaborations, like the ones with streetwear brands such as Alife or established houses like Balenciaga, in which the Platonic ideal of the classic Croc is reimagined by a high-profile creative director. And the rest of it overlaps with the fact that, somehow, hideous sandals in general are in vogue.

Crocs themselves aren’t responsible for the confounding relevance of footwear like Birkenstocks and Tevas over the past five-plus years. The Crocs we know today have been around for more than a decade; their existence just happened to overlap with the fact that suddenly, their particular brand of ugly is on trend.

And with its new collection, Crocs is actively chasing the customer who probably already owns an ironic pair (or a few). Brand employees told me they even have a special name for him (he’s a dude): the “explorer,” the hypebeast-adjacent Gen Zer who stores his Crocs next to his Yeezys.

“We know this group is all about self-expression, which is why our spring 2019 collection features a bright, bold color palette, positive messaging, oversized logos and trend-right platform silhouettes,” explained Michelle Poole, senior vice president and chief product and merchandising officer of Crocs.

A slide from Crocs’ spring 2019 collection. Crocs

Alongside the brand’s standard fare of flexible sandals, bedazzle-able clogs in a rainbow of shades, and dad-approved water shoes, the Crocs collection preview on October 30 featured certain styles that wouldn’t have looked out of place at, say, an Adidas store. There were minimalist slip-ons in sleek black-and-white combinations, a sneaker that looked almost like Allbirds but with techier fabric, and a rubbery slide with a millennial pink upper and a translucent red flatform. They’re shoes that pair well with current fashion: casual, streetwear-influenced clothing that’s relatively unflashy.

The move is similar to what pretty much every other brand is doing, with the hope of attracting devoted customers that will be around for a long time (and especially when they start holding jobs with disposable incomes). Kodak, a camera company in an era when people already have cameras on their phones, is targeting teens obsessed with old-school analog technology with its collaboration with Forever 21. Formerly struggling fashion brands like Abercrombie and Delia’s have attempted rebrands to capture fresh Gen Z consumers who don’t remember when they were trendy the first time around.

And Crocs’ courting of the cool teen appears to be working. In a recent survey conducted by the investment firm Piper Jaffray of about 8,600 teenagers, Crocs was ranked 13th in the “top footwear brand” category, up from 27th last year. It’s a statistic that’s clearly influenced by the larger trend of ugly shoes as status symbols, and of ironic fashion in general (which also explains the rise of brands like Vetements and Off-White).

Even though most teens can’t afford to drop multiple hundreds on the versions peddled by other brands, they’re probably a lot more likely to spring for Crocs’ regular ol’ $30 to $40 versions. People are even creating their own imaginary brand collabs on places like YouTube, which has dozens of videos of people DIYing their concepts of Crocs by Supreme, Off-White, and Gucci.

Sales of Crocs may be down from their 2014 high, but focusing on the cool-young-person market could help. And Crocs appears to be leaning in: “Our ‘explorer’ consumers play an important role in shaping our global product and marketing strategies,” added Poole.

It’s hard to say how long ugly shoes will be cool — fashion is a pendulum, and trends tend to arrive as a backlash to whatever came before — but as long as teens are buying Crocs, it seems that Crocs will be giving them what they want.

Original Source -> Crocs is now targeting teens. Somehow, it’s working.

via The Conservative Brief

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29theageofunderstanding · 7 years

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New years, the worse year. 2016's last big laugh

So my current situation is bleak. Recently I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder after having a complete depressive breakdown at work and feeling like I was so completely unloved. Part of feeling like I was being gaslighted part feeling like I was actually having a mental breakdown. I went in to the e.r. to voluntarily entering a mental health in patient center. That pretty much ended with me not really having answers as much as more questions. They rushed me thru more or less even they I just sat there forever with nothing. Waiting in a phyc room with Valerie by my side. It felt like such a inconvenience for her, but she stayed. And I appreciated that so much. But I ended up being diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. Valerie said it was either I get help or I loose her. And I tried, I tried to get help but the docs did a horrible job and pretty much brushed me of and did the absolute minimum for me getting me nowhere. So in trying to make things better for the relationship, it made them worse. I was suppose to get help but I didnt. So the issues that were suppose to start getting worked on never did. I was still jealous and insecure and worried about if valerie loved me, if she was telling me the truth let alone wanted to be with me. We would still argue but we always got past them by ending them laughing somehow. Our latest argument has not ended up with a joke in the same sense. It was 2016's joke. Starting off going into 11pm-1am new years day things were good, I was sort of anxious and quiet but I slowly warmed up and me and valerie were having fun. There was a bigger dude who was flirting with her most of the night when she would go up to get drinks but I think she sort of just rolled with it as the conversation turned to a friend of hers being single or not. But I still let that effect my night and I shouldn't have. The night which originally and ironicly started off great. I made her french toast in bed Which I enjoyed taking care of her a lot. She was my baby and she meant the world to me. Later we took a nap and woke up. I went to the store to get stuff for the night and she made her butternut squash soup. When I got back in inadvertently started a argument about a ex of hers and if she had messaged him l, which she had and that wasn't the issue. I'm very insecure about him because I know how valerie feels about him. Or at least I know from the beginning of the relationship when I had caught her lying to me about him which caused arguments and a distrust in her. Truth be told I thought he was a ok dude. A ass hole for how he treated valerie but other then that a ok dude. So valerie texted him about coming to hang out with us for new years, and some other friends and I tried to explain to her that it made me uncomfortable to be around him and with Valerie drinking I wasn't sure how she would act as well as me drinking and how I could react. And frankly it just was a situation in wanted to avoid. Well we argued and she said we should just stay home then because I had already ruined the night. I insisted we go out still as it was suppose to be a special night for us. And I didn't want it wrecked for some dumb reason.which noe looking back would have saved it.. we were drinking and our table had copious amounts of alcohol at out table valerie probably had collectively 2+ bottles of champagne in her. 5 gin and tonics and I believe two shots of taquila. For her this was alot. She was acting bubbly and fun but started getting sloppier and boisterous. I was on my 6th or 7th whisky sour. And I had a couple cups of champagne in me and a shot of jameson. I had a pretty good buzz on but still maintaining and had my whits about me. She had made mention of a ex of hers that she openly admitted to using him and manipulating to get to this other dude. And how he was at the bar across the street. And how we were lucky to be at this bar because he would gladly jump her bones. Just hearing those things Ontop of my own insecuritys sort of changed my outlook and her prior statements about how the people at the next table were ugly as shit and looked like dogs and how hot she was, which I agree she was so fucking beautiful. But I did tell her she was being rude as shit. Which at this point she had just started drinking champagne and her buzz was starting pretty good. Sort of the whole night she had this clout of being the shit. And being better then everyone. And it's off putting when she acts like that. I.mean to a certain extent I agree she is incredible. And I won the fucking lottery with her. When she drinks or smokes bud she becomes "lost" asking where is she and stuff like that with a demeanor of just not following what's actually going on but still just going with the flow. I sometimes admire it and sometimes it makes me feel like I have to babysit her or tell her when she's had to much. She doesn't really do moderation. She just keeps going untill she cant. And that hurts to see because I know what those are signs of. Plus she had already had a past with drinking in excess. What I feel like is with this being her first year with out her father and her mother taking alot out of her I understand why she was overly stressed. And I know inside she misses him so much. That the drinking was a coping mechanism. To deal with her internal emotions she can't let go of. But it's in those senarios that she gets so drunk that she doesn't have to feel. I can completely relate. And I've been there and yet I feel like I can't stop her or that she will find someone else who allows it. It's very hard for me to deal with that. Because I try so hard to make people happy. I know exactly what started the shit storm. I walked away and made her feel like i was abondoning her. With the other issue Ontop of that it was done from there and I fucking g regret just walking out of the room her irrational thinking compiled with my absence it quickly added gas to the fire. I asked her friend for a cigarette because she was acting overly drunk and roaming around her friends house chasing the cat, digging thru his stuff and just not respecting his space. She didn't have one so I walked out of the apartment and onward to the car. To have one and warm up because it was to goddamn cold and I only had on a flannel that was light. So I wanted to warm up and my lighter had gotten to cold and wouldn't not start so I used the car lighter. She called and said we were over and how much of a piece of shit I was. She called again and I answered it actually seeing a phone call this time. And she just went off. She was screaming and crying completely irrationally saying how much she hoped I had died and worthless I was and just tearing down and making me feel as tho I was nothing to her. With her excuse of I was keeping you safe. Which I didn't understand what so ever and with her punching me in the face and verbally distroying me I was broken. I was done. I walked home and waited. She called saying she was going to be waking home. Instantly I thought she can't be walking home its way to cold. So I went and found her and drove her back home where we got into even more of a argument and her being agressive twords me because I grabbed her phone so she could calm way down and she was grabbing at me and pushing me. When I grabbed her I put her against the wall in order to try and get her to calm way down that didn't help what so ever. She started screaming help me oh my god help me. After about 15 seconds of seeing this was not going any wear I let her go. Where I pleaded with her to listen and calm herself down but she wouldn't. She cared absolutely zero about me. On my knees in front of her she grabbed at my head in the way of catching a basket ball and shook my head. I gave her back the phone and her bank card. I wanted to get out but she kept stopping me she was on the phone with the police telling them what was going on and how she was trying to keep my inside and they kept telling her to let me get out. I finally got out and waited for the police. I filled out out a statement and so did you. The next thing I know is you are being carried off by the police, handcuffed and scared. I was really becide myself and scared about what would happen. That's why it sucked so bad....

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