#Getting better is always possible

[doodlesandbooks]

I used to be sick, but this morning I realised that this is the start of my birthday month and felt a surge of excitement. That felt like such a privilege to me. I saw a magpie eating seeds, a Robin bathing, I was so grateful to see them. I wouldn’t have noticed them before. I found a little bird egg and felt so happy, I would have felt mournfulness for a new life before. I smell the flowers and see smiling people and I can smile back, I can say good morning and really mean it. I was sick, and when I was sick I thought there wasn’t going to be anything left of me if I got better, but It’s such a privilege to be well. I was sick for so long that it’s taken a long time to get to know myself again, but now, even a walk to work, even laundry can bring me happiness

I was sick, but what a wonderful thing it is to be well.

#Depression #Recovery #Getting better is always possible #Depression recovery #Taking joy in the small things is now possible for me and I hope it will be for you as well #I’m sure it will be even if your not there yet #Recovery takes time #be proud of even little steps!

[inkskinned]

oh you know it's all latestage capitalism but the thing is. how are you supposed to be a person inside of this. a person trying to be a better version of yourself.

oh, you started working young, which was kind of hard, but it's just the way stuff works sometimes. and it was 2008 and your family couldn't afford heat. but it's fine, you grow a spine and get used to the professional world and besides it was the suburbs we're talking about here, like, your life could have been actually hard, so what if your father lost his job and you can't afford to move or turn the lights back on. and once you start making money, it's good. you keep doing that. because now they're relying on you. so you have to do that.

oh you were in thousands of dollars of debt at 17 years old so that you could go to school, because you have to go to school if you want to get a "real" job. you even did it "right", you worked parttime and attended community college before you transferred to a public school. you were under so many merit scholarships.

which is fine. you pick yourself up and you say like, okay. i graduated college. i'm holding down a job. i'm doing the Adult Thing, which looks and acts like this, according to all the books i've read. you start with the shitty job and then you climb that corporate ladder.

but the shitty job doesn't cover rent and you stretch yourself too-thin so you get sick. good luck with that. the shitty job no longer pays for your meals. everyone asks why you don't just move, but there's nowhere to move to. and with what money are you going to be moving? and then the loans come back, because they were never going to forgive them, because you were 17 and trying to do the right thing, which was stupid. people are now saying you shouldn't have even gone to school.

which is fine. but because you have no other option, so you do the shitty job, and you apply every day for like 5 new ones, and despite the fact everyone says "there's no one who wants to work!" it's actually just that nobody is fucking hiring so you can either work for 13 dollars an hour in the shitty place you know (where at least you have a passingly friendly relationship with the manager) or you can start from scratch again with a different 13 dollars an hour without knowing how much abuse from the new job you'll be taking.

and if you quit you lose your insurance. if you quit you lose your housing. if you quit, you'll be another burnout kid. the lazy ones. these assholes, look at them!

and you come home to a family dinner and you hear from your father the same old thing. how he worked hard at his job and yes it sucked for a while but he was able to provide for the family and then the house and the dog and the rest of barbie's dream vacation. how the insurance did cover some of it. how you just really need to start speaking up more in manager conversations so they know you're a go-getter. you want to tell him - did you know we're actually doing more now hourly than any previous generation? - but you can't remember where you heard that statistic, and you're far too tired for the fucking argument. and then he starts in on his usual bit. where's the house? where's your kids? where's your ambition.

the same job the same money the same hours doesn't do it anymore. the same nose-to-the-grindstone now just shreds your face off. there's no such thing as upwards mobility, not really. and as far as you're aware, the money certainly is not trickling. you do the soulless stupid shit you signed up for because you fucking have to or else you literally risk your life (food, the apartment, the insurance), but it's not getting you anything. you download the stupid "save more" app and you budget and you do every right thing and then the price of eggs is 7 dollars and you say - oh great! another thing i have to fucking worry about now!

and you go to your stupid job and everyone in your father's generation just tells you to be better about being an adult. they have their homes and their savings account and their bailout and they say. well have you tried not drinking starbucks. well your generation just spends too much on clothing. well you might just be too addicted to travelling. and you - because you need the job - you bite your tongue and don't say i am being held prisoner and you're suggesting i stop pacing my cell if i don't like the scenery and you don't say what the fuck do you think i've been doing with my money and you don't say i haven't spent a cent on something nice in literally forever much less coffee you arrogant asshole. you open and close your bank app and check your loans and check your credit score and check fucking zillow and ziprecruiter and apartments.com just one time more. and still they give you that demeaning little grin and say - see, what you need is -

what you need is for your meds to stop being so fucking expensive. what you need is for the housing bubble to explode into dust. what you need is for billionaires to choke on their wealth. what you need is actual help. what you will get is more economic advice from people who are older-and-wiser.

and above you, almost in a glimmer, you can see the wedged smile of your debt getting toothier, wider.

#i hate when people try to tell me i didn't do it right #what should i have done better #i did it ALL the right way #(not that there is a right way) #it's just that others feel comfortable believing that THEY did it the right way and that's how they made money #whereas i must have just committed a sin somewhere in there! i MUST be doing it wrong!!! #and i'm not a victim!!! im simply experiencing consequences! #and im like. where . where. wherewherewherewhere #i graduated top of my class. i was almost the student speaker. #i have always excelled at work and i work hard #i have been working since i was 13 #WHERE !!!!! IS MY FUCKING !!!! MONEY!!!!!! #ps please do not make the assumption i am ablebodied or neurotypical. #i am neither of these things. #it DOES get worse if u are either of those things. so fuckin much #but @ the one anon who was like ''u could be X that would be worse u don't know how lucky u are'' #.... don't i? #do i need to be luckier than someone else #or is it possible we are BOTH victims? #and that we need to work TOGETHER to resolve it #not just wave it off since it COULD be harder for someone else... it can be true we BOTH deserve better

[tangledinink]

I’ve been having your aus in my brain for a while. I absolutely love them 🥰

Question for Swanatello, have you ever had a strong desire to go back home to the lair or do you even remember much about the lair being your home, even with the bracelet and board? Like, have you ever in the middle of the day just randomly think “I want to go home” while thinking about the lair?

Of course he does. He doesn't remember details very often... but the one downside of the bracelet is that now he is almost constantly aware that something is wrong. Even when he doesn't understand what's going on-- he almost always knows that something is wrong with him and with the world around him. He wishes for things he can't remember. He aches over the absence of things that he can't recall. He misses people that he doesn't know. He can't remember home, but he knows he's not there.

Swanatello hates to be alone now. Overall, it's for the best, it helps, but every evening he's introduced to the idea that something is horribly wrong, and then he's promised that someone is going to be there soon to help. And every evening, he has to wait to see if that promise will be fulfilled and if his family will come and help him.

#luckily they pretty much ALWAYS keep that promise #and they've gotten very very good at getting the timing down #and minimizing that waiting period as much as possible #while still allowing swannie the time he needs to process everything and be ready to have them there #because they know it's difficult for him #still #it's very high stress for swanatello #its not WORSE than what it was before. in most ways its better #the lows are all a lot less low now #and there are far more highs #but its still difficult #and they all know it #asks #swanatello #rottmnt #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt donatello #rise donnie #rise donatello #donniesona #memory loss

[tofixtheshadows]

I see a lot of people headcanoning that Marcille and Kabru will become friends postcanon over a shared love of gossip, but to me the biggest thing they have in common is that they're both deeply concerned with the inequality between the races.

I think before anything else, as the two people closest to the throne, they'll probably end up banding together over their shared desire to fix the divide between the races. Marcille has to give up on her dream of magically changing humanity, but she can help Laios achieve it Kabru's way, through political and social change.

#Dungeon Meshi spoilers #there's a lot of ambiguity over magic going forward and what the demons did to the different races.... #but I think it's overall a very “you can't always have the exact thing you want” ending #so I don't see the lifespans reversing as a possible outcome. for better or worse we find a way forward regardless. #you can't magic your way out of everything ... but you CAN get three meals a day and proper exercise! #anyway even if Laios didn't really think of it in those terms he did want to create a place for everyone to live in harmony #and I like the hints that he achieves that with the kids of different races shown in the epilogue #I think that would be something Kabru and Marcille focus on a lot #musings with Dea #I just love thinking about the Golden Country trio you guys

[natelia-aldelliz]

They exchanged their dog tags because they're cuties

Ghost isn't sure if he prefers Johnny Riley or Simon MacTavish, though, he'd probably doodle both and draw little hearts around it as he's pondering the question

Price : okay, you've been sighing and staring at nothing more than usual, what's up

Ghost : if you had a boyfriend, or girlfriend, or whatever, and they're probably thinking about getting married, would they take your name or would you take theirs ?

Price :

Ghost : cause i have this friend, and it's happening to him right now and he's getting a little overwhelmed so he asked me but i don't know so i'm asking you

Price : *sigh* right, a friend, so you should probably tell him to ask his boyfriend about what he thinks, first off, and to consider just putting a hyphen between both names, and also chilling the fuck out because you just pulled your heads out of your arses and started dating two weeks ago

Ghost :

Price : *tired dad stare*

Ghost : so, what sounds better, Riley-MacTavish or MacTavish-Riley ?

#ghostsoap #soapghost #mw2 #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #this is all a joke btw #i think ghost would be absolutely terrified of getting married and also of getting in any kind of serious relationship #because he's scared he's gonna be a terrible partner and also he has abandonment issues so he prefers not to get too close to people #but soap knowing all that and still staying and wanting him and always being his usual ball of sunshine #eventually makes him want to take that risk because maybe the possible future heartbreak is worth it if he gets to hold soap in his arms #also the first option sounds better

[sunnykeysmash]

Man of words

#s16 spoilers #iasip #it's always sunny in philadelphia #always sunny #macdennis #analysis #parallels #I didn't exactly know how to name this thread but i had some scattered thoughts on it #dennis is the one mac depends on to define things. he's the man of words. but this situation is very limiting #firstly because mac can't read subtext. and dennis will rarely be open in his words. but he also doesn't know everything. #cant define everything. and by forcing the situation to have dennis speak for both. what actually happens is mac gets silenced #and when mac cant speak. no one besides dennis can ever possibly understand him. and that is very isolating. because den wont be open. cant #but they trust each other. theyre following each other's lead. and they're missing the right words #den defines his own self worth in the relationship by being able to have the right words. mac is the man of action! after all #but if mac learns to speak for himself. if mac doesn't depend on den (chokes). if mac is noticed for his appearance as den becomes insecure #(''what if my shirt falls off?'') what does den have left for mac? but mac will fall for him no matter what. #''make up or not you are the golden god! it's all about what's in here💗'' #maybe words arent necessary anymore. dont ask just do. and mac's the man of action... OR IS HE. #mac doesn't really act now does he. they got it backwards. don't they? mac got a lot better with his words in time... #idk lots to think about let me know what u think lolll #threads

[comradesummers]

i hate how much shameless keeps trying to convince me what a genius lip is when he's literally the dumbest person on this show.

#it also doesn't help that he always seems to think he's so much smarter and better than fiona #like fiona fucks up a lot don't get me wrong #but lip is the gold medalist of stupid decisions and he has the audacity to constantly look down on fiona #like when he was so convinced that she couldn't possibly get her ged because she's not “book smart" #and then she went and got it in like two episodes #shameless

[jasontoddenthusiastt]

The compelling thing about Jason as a character is that I never doubted that he cared about the world just because there weren’t panels of him being overly zealous about “restorative community care”

I’m not coming after anyone who wants to see that kind of stuff, but I do think seeking | that | as confirmation that Jason cares about the world is pretty narrow

#shoving an arc like that into his comics to “show he cares about people” #after having him repeatedly say things like “nothing I ever did was for good. it was all just selfish anger” in recent comics #would be the final nail in the “see! he's redeeming himself! he CAN be likable!” coffin (pathetic) #it's literally what his antis have been suggesting would make his character “so much better” #kelseethe #see also: “people would have a hard time knowing whether Jason loves them” #why did he gift Thomas' watch to Bruce all those years later + possibly even after utrh happened #why is he always silently forgiving the shitty treatment from his family almost like he wants to maintain some sort of relationship w/ them #as for “showing that he cares about the world” #the most obvious “evidence” is right there #why would he continue to fight tooth and nail to have a place in Gotham as a vigilante #both warding off and enduring harassment after harassment from Bruce while hearing the same message every time #“hey. you're doing this to yourself. you can make it all go away if you just do as I say and quit for good.” #“you'll even get to be my son again” #it’s not like he gets recognition/praise for doing what he does either unlike Bruce Dick or Tim #what could possibly be in it for him #wouldn't it be that much easier to “not give a crap about the world” on a beach in Capri instead of in the Gotham sewers every month #anyway Jason should decapitate rapists and poison more child traffickers and not cry about it five seconds after

[justapieceintheirgames]

tagged by the wonderful & talented @kimdokjas to do this fun lil picrew~!! thank you 💕

I tag: @the-melody-of-words, @aiku, @itafushii, @dogboytits, @backwardshirt, @arashi-hime, @prringlecan, @trashlie, @josmottt, @kiryuuiins but ofc no pressure! I hope you have a nice day :)

#me whenever I do one of these: how do I make the colours as bisexual as possible #moots I know it takes me months to reply but it would be cool to get to know y'all a bit better! also I didn't include a few people since #they'd already done it? sorry if anyone was tagged twice #I always spend wayyy too much time on these and the last time I did one I had much cooler hair but this time I got to include my cat hehe #also Gaby I gasped when I saw the design you picked out... recognition of the self through signature combat boots :')) #I actually really wanted to do this one so I was happy to see your tag 🙈 #thanks for thinking of me! #picrew #*disclaimer: my kitty is a calico not a tortie but that was the closest match 🥹

[1980ssunflower]

💫STARCHILD💫

Slight design update ive been putting off for Ozzy Kozmic so that he represents current me a bit better. Would love to hear what you guys think of this update and if you prefer this design or the original

#self ship community #self insert #self insert art #s/i:💛spaceship superstar⭐ #my art #i was debating on giving him my blonde hair highlights but that would have been overkill then my design wouldnt look possible for the show #at least on a main character design i just feel the design its at is like. as much detail as im allowed to give him tbh GHFDJS #hes always had space themeing but i hadnt stuck w him being represented by stars until later #then i thought of this little design to replace the saturn and i liked this a lot better 👍 #also in general longer hair because i like my longer hair #and when i first designed book 4 ozzy i was still just starting to grow out my hair #and the tattered shirt is also for my current metal style #anyways i might end up going back to the og book 4 ozzy if i feel this isnt working for me #i want to try to draw this new version w some expression examples to get a real feel for it along w interacting w m & r

[uncanny-tranny]

I think many people cognitively understand that retributive justice is often ineffective and simply violent, but they don't want to rid themselves of the almost collective anger mindset that permits this kind of justice to remain in place, even socially. In short, the mindset still treats people as though they must be punished as severely as possible, and when one is wronged, the mindset goes to how violence can be used, which is not inherently the same as righting wrongs.

Justice is complex, and it's messy. That's why it's so important not to treat it simplisticly with only one solution.

#politics #retributive justice #and like... when it's you and your anger and your hurt it becomes really hard and i GET that... #...i just don't know if that impulse will always help either party... #...like i said justice is complex amd anger and hurt can make that really hard to remember #it is really hard to grapple with these feelings especially knowing like... there's going to be no consequences for my abuser... #...no retributive justice no anything else. not even acknowledgement as everybody pretends they didn't witness my abuse and the drama... #...but even as this happens - would i feel any better with retributive justice? what about everybody else? #that's what i mean when i say it's complex... #...that most injustices will go unpunished and that's part of the reason (i think) why people immediately swing to violence... #...because it feels like... we are so angry about this being brought to light and the ONLY way to ammend this is with violence #and i know that somebody might project onto this post that i'm saying that every Bad Person should be handled with kid gloves... #...and that's not really what i'm getting at. what i'm getting at is that we should be more critical of solving EVERY issue as violently... #...as possible - INCLUDING in social settings #violence is often inevitable especially at a large scale but that doesn't mean it is always the most effective nor the most realistic

[thatonegayship]

I loved the cowboy comic so much that I wrote a oneshot for it. https://archiveofourown.org/works/50934235 🥺 your art is BEYOND amazing, ty for the food

INCREDIBLE!!!!!

#billdip #I honestly loved this story start to finish with the ambience and quick pace #hadn't considered the possibility of Bill and Dipper actually working *together* but it's always a good time when they do ❤️ #sorry it took so long to reblog 🥲 #I read it like- Right when you posted. But I had to catch a plane and then drive an extra hour home and immediately get on zoom for class #and today i was just all around exhausted so i slept roughly 70% of the entire day dndsjdndnd #all that to say that I had your fic in the back of my mind and I very much wanted to set some time aside and re-read it when I got the chan #honestly with how well you set things up I would've loved to see your own rendition of their first kiss #You established their relationship really well at the start and brought them together by the end after outsmsrtong those bandits #it feels like you have a better understanding of who they are to each other than even i do 😌 very much a fan #i love when stories incorporate those sort of 'habits' that the love interests fall into #that confuses character A while character B is so clearly using it as an excuse to get close and spend more time with them #i squealed like a maniac when Bill was like oooph lemme walk you home 😏🤠 #sir i am going to wrangle you up if you don't compose yourself #and Dipper's just wary of him because people as handsome as bill used to pick on him 😢 #little does he know he's grown into a 10/10 cutie patootie that any cowboy would be stupid NOT to smooch #I'm a simple man. I read oblivious low-confidence cowboy being pursued by a hottie on a horse. I lose my shit #Awesome wonderful writing!!! so happy to have caught your eye and i hope to continue pumping out content for this wonderfully weird ship

[multicolour-ink]

Hello everyone 👋

I'm ok. I've just had things going on and I've been feeling so exhausted because of it. I haven't even had the energy to come on here. I want to be more active on here but I'm afraid it will be every now and again.

I really appreciate you all 💗🫂

#multicolour ink #not much else to say #don't want to go into too much detail but I'm stressed about the possibility of losing my job because of stupid changes #I just don't want to go through all that #I feel better today because I actually managed to get up and do vacuuming and cleaning but my llace is still a mess #I always feel better when my home is clean but that's rare

[soaps-mohawk]

When it comes to kneeling, with the first kneel was reader on the floor and then Price in a chair? Then second kneel session they were both kneeling?? I like when authors describe the actual positions of the characters but I think I got a little confused 😅 I was trying to figure out the positioning just so I could make more sense of the scene. If you know what I mean?

I get what you mean!! I'm so bad at remembering to describe things like this properly too 😭

So in both instances Price was sitting and reader was kneeling on the floor next to him. To give the clearest visual, Price was sitting facing his desk, and reader was kneeling right next to him on the floor beside his chair also facing the desk. Price only drops down to kneel next to her once they're done, mostly just because reader's kind of boneless and has very little control in those moments and he's not going to let her fall and hurt herself.

I hope that clears it up lol.

#i know a lot of writers struggle with positioning stuff #sometimes i'll be reading and body parts are in places and i'm like...is that even physically possible to do that? #it sounds so uncomfortable lol #always happy to clear things up like this #i'm sure someone else was wondering too #i'll try to do better about stuff like that #i just get the vision in my head and forget y'all can't just see it too lmaoo #answered

[binghe-malewife-goals]

Even though I know Jayce and Viktor's relationship in Arcane likely wasn't ever meant to progress romantically, I still can't help but feel like we've been blueballed sometimes.

I don't know if everyone working on the staff was just ignorant of what they were doing, but so many scenes with Viktor and Jayce feel intentionally romantic on purpose, only for a lot of us as viewers to understand we probably realistically won't ever see a romantic relationship between the two.

#s2 is always possible but i very highly doubt it despite how much id love to be proven wrong #im be just a smidge 🤏 cynical about it all #id love to see an actual gay relationship like jayce/viktors on screen bc i feel like we dont have enough of that #but you know 😔 despite things like this becoming much more common (ilu nimona good omens ofmd) i dont trust riot lmao #arcane lol #jayce talis #viktor arcane #jayvik #btw hate when ppl say “but caitvi” like somehow makes it better “wow! we get one queer relationship? omg so generous we cant complain”

[chaldeanu]

rotating sweet soft-spoken sunday in my head as i’m typing this. i think about his control tendencies that slip through in private… he’s definitely the gentle, nice type who fucks like he hates you.

and then there’s dr. ratio… but i wouldn’t say he’s a mean type, just painfully direct without sugarcoating his opinions. which can be tough… but he definitely softens if he wants to be close with someone.

#always thinking that these two were introduced to us as teachers #the cosmodyssey special interaction about them lmao #and that sunday was willing to teach us about penacony when we first met him in a dream #ratio is demanding and strict but will help you achieve greatness #sunday will explain to you concepts as best as possible without getting impatient #but it won’t get you anywhere near the top… it’s just for your own understanding #depending where you aim which one of them is better for you #but sunday won’t hit you with a chalk— if you’re serious about learning things #then ratio won’t have the excuse to do that lol #i’m sorry for talking about them again (i want them both badly) #thirsts ノ