#I NEEX TO DIE

[dragonridernoobie]

OK SO I NEEX SOME HELP WITH THIS RN, BECAUSE I'M A HEAVY SELF SHIPPER WITH ZERO WRITING SKILLS AND I'M HAVING TROUBLE VISUALIZING HOW FELL SANS WOULD REACT WITH AN S/O WITH THIS PERSONALITY

basically, s/o is kinda bat shit CRAZY. I'm talking about full blown like serial killer who would kill people in odd ways crazy. Basically, s/o lost their mind. BUT, THEY LOOK FANTASTIC. like, they look like the type to do that, but still very pretty. Kinda like mob-wife pirate vibes when it comes to her wardrobe and stuffs. Shes like, super loud as well!!

Hmmm, i will try my best. I hope you like this!!!

UnderFellSans X Reader

When unferfell sans meets reader, it was when he was at his post.

He was half asleep there intel he hears a scream.

He would telaport over there, just to see who was the poor fuck that's dieing.

What meets him was somthing he was not expecting.

There, was a cute ass human killing a monster.

If this was normal sans, he would have tried to stop them but fell sans just stands there.

Aw strucked.

After the human was done.

Fell sans would make his move.

He would go next to reader, lean on a tree, and speaks.

FellSans: "you like jazz?"

Reader would be surprised and ask why they aren't running away.

Fell sans: "Nah sweetheart. I like seeing a demon know what they are doing~"

Ya, this dude got it bad.

He would be with reader when they go into snowdin.

There, he would somehow convince his brother not to capture reader or hurt them.

Papyrus fight them though and sees how strong they are.

He would be fine with reader dating sans since they seem to be a reliable mate.

Fellsans and reader would beat up and kill some monsters here and there when reader becomes blood thirsty.

Dude, this dude would be so fucking turned on when he watches reader kill and laugh like crazy.

He loves when somone is powerful.

This dude is a simp.

#headcanon #sans x reader #x reader #underfell sans x reader #underfell sans #underfell #killer #crazy girl

[pienhime]

i feel like im going crazy and i want to die and also need to sleep and neex yo do my essay

#my post #vent

[dittolicous]

The worst part is how money is the core of my issues. Money would fix... not everything but close to it. But when you say that you get accused of greed and greedy people don't deserve help.

(and it won't solve the core issue that I'm unable to get a job that actually pays a living wage, so it is pointless in the end)

Plus, oh, it could be soooo much worse, you could be this or that, and I'm just sitting here like. I wish I was. I wish I was violently ill. Terminal even. I wish I was prone to hurting myself. I wish I was worse. Because if it was worse, I might be able to get help. Or at least have my suffering recognized for what it is. But because I get by, I can smile and nod, I don't physically hurt myself, then I don't need or deserve help.

Instead I'll be left as the one that they never saw it coming. Because that's how I've always been. Good enough to not need therapy. Good enough to not neex antidepressants. Good enough to not need intervention. Good enough to scrape by until everything that makes life worth living has been scraped away and lacking the safetynets to catch me.

Thousands of people die in poverty. Getting out of it is statistically unlikely. Even in high-school I would often fearfully wonder how I would survive as an adult, because I couldn't see a job that would pay the bills or make me happy. I've never had a career desire or a future I envisioned. And things have only gotten worse since then.

The only reason I live is to care for my pets but honestly, they'd be better off in other homes. And even if I didn't have then, I can't do homelessness again. I can't survive that pathetic feeling, the worthlessness of being an adult who can't even. Carry their own weight. I'm fucking 30. But I'm just as useless as I was at 10.

And, lets be real. Resources should go to people who really need them. Who have goals and desires and a purpose to live. Who actually bring something to the world. Not to a scummy adult who's too pathetic to handle being an adult. I want help, but I don't as well because I'm disgusting by my own uselessness and greed and worthlessness. I won't accept anymore because it's better that way. Better to just fully stick to my guns. Help should go to the more needy. Hungry families. Sick people. The homeless. People who are actually trying. Not some blackhole disguised as a human.

[urbanammo]

Mixes To Die For: #001 - Luke Brancaccio presents 'The Calling Mix' by MusicToDieFor #001: Mixes To Die For Tracklisting 1. Luke Brancaccio & Gai Barone - ‘Silvias Calling’ [Music To Die For] 2. DOP - ‘Vape’ (Dave DK Mix) [Bar 25 Music] 3. Yamagucci - ‘Omer Relex’ [Maccabi House] 4. Susan & Daniel Klose - ‘Let’s Get Lost’ 5. Luke Brancaccio & Gai Barone - ‘Boarders’ [Renaissance] 6. Luke Brancaccio & Gai Barone - ‘Leia’ [Music To Die For] 7. Eekkoo - ‘See You In The Fall’ 5302 8. Blank Page - ‘The Silent Space’ [Sekora] 9. Luke Brancaccio & Gai Barone - ‘Curious & Humble’ [Music To Die For] 10. Rufus Du Sol - ‘On My Knees’ (Adriatique Mix) [Rose Avenue] 11. Caiiro - ‘The Akan’ [Onwit Music] 12. Mike Tohr - ‘Whales’ 13. Love Over Entropy - ‘A Time Before Time’ 14. ID - ‘ID’ [Music To Die For] 15. Luke Brancaccio & Gai Barone - ‘Brokheimer’ (Renato Cohen Mix) [Renaissance] 16. Yamagucci & Millero - ‘Follow The Hihat’ [Maccabi House] 17. Adam Ten - ‘High On’ [Crosstown Rebels] 18. Alphadog - ‘Golden Boy’ (Adam Ten & Mita Gami Mix) [Maccabi House] 19. Stephan Bodzin - ‘Tron’ (Raxon Mix) [Systematic] 20. Digitalism - ‘World Wide Night’ [Magnetism] 21. Andrea Oliva - ‘Rio’ [All I Neex] 22. Robert Babicz - ‘Dominate’ [Kelch]

#Progressive House #melodic house #indie dance #IFTTT #SoundCloud #Deep #chilled #electronica

[theocseason4]

#i neex her to know id die for her

[finn-got-tall]

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#im in art school and critique is wgen you bring in your work and your peers give you critisizm and stuff #it always makes me so drepressed #my peers tell me that i should start over. or that everything is wrong. or everyone tells me one thing is wrong over and over #and i hate it #i hate it so much #i never get and positive feedback. #just that everything sucks #and i neex to start over #it makes me want to stop doing art #i fucking hate it so much it makes me too defensive and my teacher keeps telling me i like to but heads which i really dont. #i just dont like people telling me what is wrong with the thing i spent fucking hours on and that i am happy with #i dont like when people assume things about me that arent true #hiky shit i hate everything about this #im going to have another fucking panic attack becayse of this shit #i wanna fucking die #im not good at anything #im fucking useless #i cant create anything good enough #i could have painted the mona lisa and everyone in my class would ask me where tf her eyebrows are #i hate this so fucking much i wanna hide in the bathroom and scream

[deadboykills]

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#hey hahaha i neex to die #:3) #why do i have no friends #ik im an asshole but like.... #i have a good collection of stuffed animals #why does everyone seem like they secretly hate me #hahahahaha emotions? #what? #never #pfft #anyway so yeah whos gonna kill me #hahahahahahahaha im not even real what am i on about

[11331133]

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#i am horrible i sm a disgusting human being who doesnt deserve anything good in life haha lol why cant i just fuckigj [EXIT] thus goddamn #world ive had enough with myself i am so disgusted with myself akd ebrrythung that i do i am horrible i am worthless eberytnung. sboug me ks #just not okay!!! #*i wish i was imvisible socno one can see me i wish no one can see ho awful i sm i hate how fat i smim so . disgusting everyoke who looks at #me is probably tjrowing up in their mouths rn 😀 #i dont feel good i dont feel myself at all #do i neex help r smth LOL #i just wanf to . feel anythung else but tbjs i don t like thjs j do nt like how i am feeling if i am jusr [DIE] i would be sl much better my #family wojkd be so much bettrr without me becaude they wont have to worry about me i dont rven have any friends who worry abkug me i dont #even have any frirnds tk begim ekth LOL my onlinf frienfs wouldnt care jm so replacable thry csn find skmdime else in three seconds theyll g #grt over me my boyfriend wouldnget over me in tbree econfd everhone wojldnt cate kf i was GONE i njsf want to be gone from . Earth. I just #dlmt see my future getting brighter i dont see myself getting healthy physically and mentally and emotionally anf spirtually im jsut mkt a #healthy person im really not #i have to track what. iam eating nwo #god i really am just. disgusting huh ahahhahaa #rants #rant #im like completely over myself im so. Serious

[obannthepunished]

notes this week are shite yall youve been warned

mostly commets to myself ngl, (*) is irrelevant to anyone but me its just things I think I could bounce off of or that I found purrticularily interesting

Nott tries to water walk, fails, gets attacked by an octopus Jes and Caleb BOTH roll 1s for initiative

"Umbrella Fuck"

Fjord gets octopus'd Beau beats the shit out of him but it just fucks up the octupus lmao Molly carves him out of it.

Ashley: "-'Cause I'm a light bearer?" (Yasha drop???)

Another one hits caleb, my baby!!! No!!! Beau monk shits jumps from one boat to the other and finishes off the octopus Calebs hair is slicked back with blood

Fucking earth elementals

Yasha and Jester are stronk and row away too quick to be caught

Beau: "I'm always a fan of going down" (*)

Caleb puts his hands on Molly's shoulders to use frumpkins vision Molly, aside from being kinda shocked, just kinda pats his hand??? i felt my heart twitch i dont think thats meant to be possible

Nott hits a trap and gets shot in the thigh

Nott disarms 1.3 traps, Yasha gets hit with two more bolts Beau hangs back like a dumbass and gets hit but manages to deflect most of the damage, just stabbed in the chest a bit

Theres a puzzle with symbols for the eight schools of magic (Fjord + Beau figureout the symbols), a triangular plinth with a hole in the middle that goes down a foot and a half Fjord tries to feel inside the (inch and a half) hole for grooves and finds none, it's a platform

Jester confirmed good at finding holes.

Molly: (To jester) Do you have any healing cantrips? [...] it's for this one (gestures @ Yasha)

Nott, disarming traps, gets shot through her thumb into her wrist. Owchies.

Beau: Yeah, you might need opposable thumbs. Nott: HEY! It's too soon.

Caleb puts a hand on Beau's shoulder this time, and SHE puts her hand over his and i am crying because everyone cares about Caleb (*)

Art gallery??? (OOC liam: ooohh no this is some dragon lair shit)

upper chamber: "a relief in the centre of the chamber" one torso two faces, empty circular eyes. Chains from ceiling affixed to a red clay urn- about a footish square, a foot off the ceiling Faint glimmer of something metallic in the rock slide on the other side of the room Metallic shine is vaguely magical- abjuration magic. (Abjuration is NEVER good!!! oh its protective BULLSHIT ive only ever seen abjuration used for evil, cept counterpell) (Later retcon, Jester uses sanctuary on Nott during a battle so I have to eat my own words.) its a rod. copperish. Clay urns in acorn alcoves, three urns

inside the urn in one alcove, it is half full of ash. Yasha wedges it out with her sword.

Fjord pulls the magic rod free

"The circus bouncer" im amused

little glowing orb goes for Yasha and Nott nat 20s it as immediately as possible lmao, Nott 28 points it before Yasha can be hurt. they deal lightning damage, which was retconned out.

Beau punches a ghost. it has resistance. Resistance to cold damage too Beau punches the ghost again gods i love this.

yasha necrotic damages it. this seems very important?

Molly smashes the urn from the alcove on his side of the room, the will-o-the-wisp disappears

Caleb scorching rays the remaining two urns and makes a cool explosion. "Oh shit, that's hot!" (like fire hot)

"I FEEL GUILTY FOR HAVING NEEDS" Nott

Fjord puts coins in the eyes of the two heads on the torso and the relief and it collapses, Nott JUST manages to catch him with a Featherfall spell amorphous floor, heavy smell of decay, dust, and ash, long rotting clothing. Charred bones. Yasha drops the torch down. Caleb heads down the rope They find a little bottle of something or other, i missed some of it bc my internet pissed itself (The bottle is a potion that provides resistance to necrotic damage)

Shmidt puts the rod into the hole downstairs does nothing

"Beau?" "Yeah?" "Can you... punch this?" (trying to get the glowy purple rock out of the cage) (she does)

"Is that your new nickname? Simple tool?" M "... yknow what, that's fair" B

jesters mad she was right about using magic on the rod

Jester necrotic damages the rod, theres a slithering sound. oh god. the pillar opens and gives an enemy- a gelatinous cube??

New caleb spell: Maximillian's Earthern Grasp

Beau to yasha: DO WE JUST SLAP JELLO? Yasha to BEau: I THINK?

Beau punches it and her hand goes numb Yasha cuts a whole section off of it!!!

Acid damage for yasha owie Beau decks it again, TWO WHOLE FUCKING NUMB HANDS beauregard you dumbass

THE CUBE KNOCKS OUT JESTER D:::

Yasha fucking kicks its ass lmao

Fjord gives Jester a healing potion + she wakes up talking about oskar cause of course she is

"if anything starts to happen, I want you to run for the door." - Molly to Jester

A false wall opens, smell of old decay, i missed the rest. Burnt hair?

Liam actually doing the hand gestures for the spell in the background is actually my sexual orientation.

Nott: HOW AND WHEN WILL I DIE Yasha: I cant tell you that nott Nott: BUT YOU KNOW Yasha: ... yes, of course. Nott: (SHOCKED EXPRESSION)

Beau: Caleb. I love you. But we are missing out on some shit right now. Caleb: That's sweet thank you (*)

caleb finds a book its a journal in draconic from Siff Duthar (sp) about a war, weakness of flesh and the neex to endure beyond. the TLDR is that they wanna be a lich lets be honest Siff lost his legs to a  spyyy??? who was then burnt. Saved by a bounty hunter? fuck the gods? i dont process a lot at once and i was eating so i couldnt transcribe all must come to ash, and from the ashes will rise again

its getting cold in the room, their breath is visible now.

Dark ghostly shadow thing comes up from near the circle, not teleporting just appearing. molly sees light in one of the urns.

#Critical Role #Critical Role Notes #time to sleep

[cries-and-sings]

BIG OOF

9-4-2020 jesus christ im horny… johns fault,, god hes so hot. But honestly i'm thinking about a

Even though im texting GI JOE.

Fuck…

I messaged GI JOE.. He is upset with me, but god im so fuvking horny. So like i said i messaged j. And he wants nothing to do with me at least right this moment. Oof. so i messages a. Jesus am i all hormones, and drunk.

that s a first, being drunk at my parents after palying mario odyssey. And gosh i neex to pee again. Oof. the message to a delivered but didnt download. Oof 2.0

I guess theres always jon? Hahahah.

Jeeeeeeesus am i drunk.

So how am i feeling hay un dicho que dice that kids and drunks always dicen la verdad……….

So what now?

Polish my pearl?

I guess. Como dice selena Q… no me queda mas.

Big off. In all seriousness.

I helped him get him there. Did I …. Now for those dark feelings. Those tears.

10l almost 11k messages. I am a mess. I helped him get there. But now im fone. Is that a core feeling. I feel used.

Dear josie, i think we are done. I think im done i wanna die i wanna take all of the pain away, i want to run to my mom and ask her to tell me it’s all goin gto be ok but i know it’s not. Im so vulnerable right now. I feel so ahhhhhhhhh

I don’t know how to numb every negative feeling i am having right now. It hurts so much. I just want to end it. Everything hurts so damn much…

I often think about just ending this numbing , it’s like everyone;s so proud of him.

I want to die .

My guilt is telling me to be reasonable o understand why he is posting everything, but with me hes just so whatever.

SOnmy josie, i think we are done.

I am so resentful. I know it may sound silly to you but i am.

I know i am the one that ended things, but honestly throughout our relationship i always just felt like the sidekick. like robin to batman, he is there to build up the hero but never be one. I get that you are gurting right now. But youve done bery little to alleviate the problem. You only notice the problem when i tell you theres a problem. You dont notice it by yourself.

I was so miserable and you never noticed. Our life has always been about you i dont think i can ever get over it. My depression has been a long time coming, yet you never noticed until it was too late.

But i guess you should do you. Ivemade my life about you and now that i decided to take a break, youre angry at me. Youve said youre there for me, but ive never felt it. In the end you only really care about yourself.

YOu only post to get to me. You might say youre not, but think about it, when we were together you did very little,

I am in so much pain it hurts, and honestly, it’s been like this throughout our whole relationship, but honestly my worries have never been yours. You say you care about me. I have been incredibly deep in love with you. I feel like i’ve sacrified so much for you, literally everything. I stuck it out with you for a decade,

I kept sticking it out, because i really hoped you would love me as much as i cherished you.

I cant believe you let me go though a decade without papers. I honestly really can’t.

Even my educational career i sacrificed for you.

O really want to die but i cant tell you that. I wish i could.

Im not sure what i expected though,

I stuck it out because i thought you were worth it.

#DrunkInResentment

[finn-got-tall]

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#i dont want to be sad anymore #im too fucking tired #id rather die than live life unhappy #i just want to be happy #i dont care about grades #or school #or anything #i just wanna be happy #i wanna be okay #i wanna live #not just exist #this isnt living its breathing #its bull shit #i want to fucking disapear #i want to love myself #and i want to love #life #bugt i dont #and i neex to start over #i need to stop #being sad all the goddamn time