#I did some stretching at least

[dont-offend-the-bees]

Wooooops I let my brain atrophy again

#I started the day without a plan and the folks have been out all day #so instead of doing anything productive/creative I just rotted #I did some stretching at least #but it really doesn't feel good atm #genuinely my muscles haven't bounced back from that weird virus I had in Feb #and I probs need to work em out a bit more to start building the strength/flexibility again but it's hard and unpleasant and i don't like it #baby steps i guess #anyway horror of horrors folks are staying out even longer #so i have to feed myself without supervision #and who knows how long I'm gonna put that off #I don't feel very hungry rn but I should orepare food before I start feeling the hunger #but if I can't feel the hunger I cba with food #fuck my stupid baka life #think today's a bit of a write off #mr. bees speaks

[puppyeared]

I CANT USE CSS ON ARTFIGHT...............

#I WAS REALLY HOPING TO FIX THE FUCKING. PARAGRAPH WIDTH. SIGH #idk why but it stretches across the ENTIRE page like. it takes up the full width of the browser and it BOTHERS ME. ON ALL THE PAGES #i could try manually putting shift breaks but im worried it might not look so good on mobile. ugghh... auyggghhh..... #im already learning CSS and API so i thought i could put it to good use but. AUGH #this whole time ive had to go into the inspect panel myself and change the padding so i dont have to read the length of the screen #like a fucking typewriter... i would have also loved to use custom fonts and animations...... #i did find a guide for BBCode which the site uses on default and it covers basic styling but its not the same. sniffle #you CAN unlock CSS if you donate $25 to the page which seems fair. and if i could do it i would but. i do not have any way of #sending or receiving money online </3 i really need to figure out how to do that so i can set up comms like i said i would last summer #but it intimidates me.... and im already kept on a short leash when it comes to that so it feels like a lot of things could go wrong #i think toyhouse allows CSS or some sort of code...?? i remember seeing some oc pages with custom layouts #if thats the case i'll try fiddling with it but im not very familiar with using toyhouse so thatll take a while #(thanks again for the code sal ^_^ ill put it on my pin once its ready but im trying to learn my way around the site heh ;;) #at least i can use my pixel dividers.. ive been digging around for pixels to use and found some really cute ones #yapping

[madamescarlette]

💐

#shocked with myself (maybe pleasantly surprised? is the right phrase) #at actually liking barbie a great deal more than i had prepared myself to #it was just a lot more sincere than i had expected; i was afraid it wouldn't be/be more on the snarky side of cinema lately #but it was strangely so much more heartfelt than that #of course some points felt rushed/too on the nose #but the girls and ryan gosling made me so happy #and her at the end saying (spoilers obvs) that yes YES she does want to take life by the hand and pay the price to live and live #also as a former representative of unrequited love the throughline felt a lot gentler than i was prepared for it to be #it was a lot more about emotion and the joy of growing up and growing old than i expected #i don't necessarily think its heart is as pure as a truly great movie?? #but it didn't laugh AT you. it made you laugh and it also meant what it said #which idk idk in a sea of endless winks at the camera laughing obnoxiously loudly media i appreciated the at least #wanting to live and live well aspect of it all and how it took that seriously #like someone on my dash said. i don't really know if it was a good movie?? but the borders of my mind are stretched #something in me is dreaming because of it. so i think that at least is worth it all #also all the girls in the theater laughing their heads off did something to me!!! #there were countless friends (including mine) decked out in pink and it was so so so sweet to me #(anyway. you didn't need these thoughts and maybe I'll retract it later when I've come down from the high of hugging both my buddies)

[hella1975]

so it turns out it was actually never that serious

#the exam literally went fine what the fuck just happened i feel like i just hallucinated that #like im not one of those people that go 'omg i did soooo badly :(' just to come out with top grades if i say it's going to shit #then it's becuase i genuinely wholeheartedly believe it #and my headspace before this exam was the worst it's been in MONTHS like i havent felt that bad for an exam since first year #and i sat down opened the paper and. remembered everything. like i literally just Knew the answers #im not saying ive passed bc am i fuck about to jinx it and i was still riding mainly blind bc i have NO idea where that knowledge came from #but at the very least there was a 35 marker that i KNOW i aced like i could picture the exact lecture slides it wanted me to discuss #and i had all of them memorised so at the very least ive got like. 30 marks. which is enough for me to pass the module #bc this exam is only weighted 75% and with my marks from the other 25% i only needed like 20 marks to pass this exam #which... makes it even more embarrassing that i failed it the first time but whatever!!!! #oh my god im so glad that's done im so happy IM FREE #just been in the kitchen dancing around to my little tunes and texting my friends <3 #im meeting up with one of them when she gets off work at 5 and we're going for drinks #so ive got until then to nap and chill and then ill go to the shop and get us some food and wine #and she's gonna come here for a bit & then we'll go. like actually look at me. im having people over at MY HOUSE im going out to buy us WIN #im literally a functioning adult living independently who IS she a misty memory #alas i do only have £23 in my account so this is gonna be such a slay seeing how i make that stretch for a night out #i acc could budget for england when it comes to alcohol i think like the way i manage to have a good funky time with MINIMAL funds #is downright impressive. it's a skill idc what you say #hella goes to uni

[dreamlogic]

...

#chronic blogging #shit chat #well at this point both of my parents (who i inherited my Just Tough It Out streak from) have #upon hearing how bad my post-hysterectomy pain has been #told me 'umm no you need to go see someone.' and 'please just go to urgent care i will pay for it if your insurance won't.' respectively #haunted by the ghost of my right ovary (sharp stabbing pains & debilitating muscle spasms around the incision site) #it's been 1.5 years since surgery and it's getting worse not better #at my 1mo post op i was like 'hey right side hurts a lot worse & the incision seems really wonky & off-center. thoughts?' #they said it was nothing to worry about give it time i might still be feeling pain up to 6mo post op #sooo 8mo post op contact surgeon again 'hey remember that thing i mentioned? yeah still hurts bad enough i struggle to walk sometimes' #she says eeehhh maybe you developed pelvic floor dysfunction or always had it and surgery made it worse. read this book & do some stretches #book stretches & muscle relaxers helped for a bit so i just carried on but it was not improving in fact becoming more persistent #lil over a year post op contact surgeon like 'HEY do not ignore me i am in an amount of pain that is NOT NORMAL and you WILL see me' #drive 1+ hrs for her to poke at me for ~10 minutes ignore most of what i was saying and determine it's just muscle spasms do more stretches #said physical therapy MIGHT help if i did it 2x monthly for at least 6mo. which would've involved commuting over an hour during the workweek #no THANK you i'll just keep doing my stupid stretches. and the thing is. #the stretches ARE helping. i feel my overall balance/flexibility/stamina improving #but that by contrast is making the STABBING PAINS WHERE MY RIGHT OVARY USED TO BE all the more obvious #'oh it's just muscle spasms' well why the FUCK are my muscles spasming around THIS SPOT EXCLUSIVELY for SEVENTEEN MONTHS STRAIGHT #i have essentially no pain on my left side at all. i feel overall just fine & dandy but i am convinced there is something #like. very seriously wrong on the right side causing this #and yeah if my surgeon won't listen to me maybe i will check myself into urgent care and demand an ultrasound #(which btw i asked for during my last visit & she told me it was unnecessary & to fuck off) #but now the two people who instilled me with a very deep mistrust for the medical industry #and from who i learned from via a lifetime of observation how to dissociate from chronic pain in order to function #are telling me 'yeah no this is bad you need a DOCTOR.' umm. i probably need a doctor. #was talking w/ E last night about degrees of pain & like. avg day is like 4-6 on a 0-10 scale. good days 2-3. #i don't consider calling out from work unless it's like an 8 or higher cause i'm just so used to it. #i'm sick of it. so fucking bored with being in constant pain. i want my life & energy back. i want a personality beyond Oh Just Tired back. #i wanna be able to enjoy touch again with immediately hitting overstimulation threshold due to pain.

[non-un-topo]

The irony of trying to start a "pain journal" but being too fatigued and having too much brain fog from said pain to start one

#is that irony? idk. i can't think. #i try so hard not to get crabby when i'm in pain like i genuinely try so so hard to be kind and patient #posting this on fb not to make my parents feel bad but also maybe to show them how bad this is #far as i know i don't have scoliosis like my dad. i was checked growing up. but there has to be some kind of curve #and at this point i will not tolerate anyone telling me it's just posture because it canNOT be just posture now. #i wake up in pain now. at the moment it's so bad i was just crying and waddling and pacing #it's my spine right in my mid-back. like where my bottom ribs connect to my spine #trying to stretch. took some naproxen 3 hours ago and it genuinely did nothing. put some tiger balm on #does tiger balm make anyone else drowsy??? or is that just brain fog from the pain? #fatigue and brain fog are things i literally just realized. like this whole time i thought i was just a lazy person #needing to lie down for most of the day unable to concentrate on even fucking reading. #but no it turns out when you're in pain every day all day for at least 11 years it makes you foggy and exhausted. #the more you know #literally drag me by the hair to a doctor because i cannot do it. i cannot be told to just Do yOgA and go on birth control or w/e #if you're afab it's always gotta be your period huh. that's a physician's only answer.

[hikayunas]

#my style clashes hilariously with aoki ume's #anyway. a peek into this tiger's brain #to see scraps of how i imagine juri #her wings and tail at least #i would've added other parts of my juri headcanon #like 'claw mark' scars on her cheek from yuna #among other scars and scales #but it clashed too much with the model to look good #one of these days i'll properly draw how the girls look in my head #also excuse if anything looks odd (comma) i did this all with my mouse #anyway. #hello tag readers i hope you're all doing well today #go get some water do some stretches etc etc #ooba juri #okt art #mine #oh and also if you saw me post this earlier and then delete it #no you didn't

[plateauofmemories]

TBH I think it's been a little while since I've played or read anything new, and my brain has been kinda drifting for want of something to dig it's teeth into.

I started the second season of Spy x Family this week, and that's been good, but dumping one whole playthrough of a vn route into it last night has really got my brain buzzing.

It being an R18 otome game makes it a little complicated but that's alright

#one of those days you really hope there's no telepaths in the office y'know #and hope my face isn't being weird as my brain cycles through the content and analyzes it #i also think this route may have had more smut than some of the others will? i guess this route was a Kickstarter stretch goal #but the main routes are supposed to have at least a few sfw cgs. i did not get any sfw cgs with maxim and nika #anyway! #platextsofmemories

[bonestrouslingbones]

managed to completely curb a whole ass rant about all the Discussion around undertale yellow by getting completely distracted trying to make my guys in another picrew. if any of the 14 of yall are picrew makers or future picrew makers i am begging you right now on my knees to let the characters have foreheads without looking fuckin ugly please. please. please

also a karma attempt bc i never make him and this is probably the closest i will ever get. if he were biblically accurate he would have an undercut and very few bangs and a way fuller beard but i'm working with scraps here man i couldnt even make his post-void design

#yess i KNOW i drew out the main four a while ago but i like to rotate them in my head still. human designs are way more fun im sorryyyy #the forehead thing Pains me btw. the most bangs i ever give edge is like a single little ahoge in the front everything else is slicked back #karma should be darker than fluff's half-white ass but then he would have the same skin tone as edge #which aint a problem except for some reason on karma it just looks like a bad sunburn #they're both just tanned!! please!!! why can you not use normal colors!!!!!! #the first one isn't so bad but i only did russ and stretch bc oh my god the outfit options are simply Not There #not even the backup denim jacket so i could get SOME blue on russ..... aaugh #sigh. at least i can almost always give everyone the horrible eye bags they deserve

[simcardiac-arrested]

hey, i understand if you don't have the energy/motivation, and i don't want to force you. but i think you should consider exercising a little! even if its just 30 seconds. you might find that moving around actually makes you feel better than not moving! i personally get exercise in by (sometimes) pacing around when i'm deep in thought; maybe taking a walk outside and/or listening to a nice audiobook could work for you? (sorry if im making you uncomfortable! and feel free to call out bad behavior

i don’t think this is a weird or bad thing to say at all. thank you so much for this ask. like actually

#after i got this i went and stretched and got some push ups in which i havent done in a while #exercise always makes me feel a bit better but i also always forget to do it or i put it off bc it will take ‘too long’ #and then it takes like. 7 minutes UEHEUEJSGSJSH #went and brushed my teeth and showered too. which are not things you’re supposed to do at 3pm but eh. we ball #i also watered my plants. so if i don’t do anything else today i can at least say i did that #one of them is drying up btw and i have no idea why …… i google it and it tells me that i either water it Too Much or Not Enough #and it’s like girl. make up your mind. either one or the other #he already almost dried up once but then he started getting better and getting new leaves. but now he’s doing it againnnn idk why!!!! Freak #also i wouldn’t have minded taking a walk at all but i’ve already spent the last 2 days walking until evening #and also there is. um. a uh. a snowstorm outside. and i don’t wanna walk through the snow. #so er. happy april 30th #normal weather👍 #anyway yeah thank you anon it really did help. tjey werent lying #cramswering

[troglobite]

i love* when chronic pain flares up SUPER fucking bad for no discernible reason, completely canceling all plans and hopes i had for the day

*fucking loathe w my entire existence

#ankles in braces rn #have taken a lot of aleve today #laid on heating pad #did not stretch but slightly massaged #that pain has gotten slightly better but now my whole body aches in various locations #this fucking sucks ass dude i'm TIRED #like i'm actually tired and also i'm tired of this bullshit #at least let it be a LITTLE predictable y'know? #lemme be like ah shit i brought this one on myself whoops #but today was just like ??? the fuck? WHY TODAY??? #anyway i was going to wash and change all of my sheets #and also maybe get some work in and some gameplanning in #BUT FUCK ME I GUESS HUH!!!! #this is the most i've typed all day bc my hands and arms have been hurting so badly! #also if i have to be understanding of my mom's shitty moods i'm gonna need her to understand #that i'm not personally mad at her when i fucking snap or complain or seem down #I AM IN LITERAL CHRONIC PAIN PLEASE JUST LET ME BE FUCKING CRABBY

[boxchewr]

im not really a homestuck fan anymore nor do i ever have the patience or time to reread it properly but. i will still fight tooth and nail for the fact that there's still a lot of value to that comic

#text #it lands solidly in 'good' category to me it does a lot of things i like but a lot i can't stand #what it does well it does so so well and tho it's very obviously a thing that started in 2009 by someone from newgrounds #and by the end you can tell everyone was tired of it going including the author #and then the fucking. shitty ass followups that seem to actively mock and loathe the fact that theyre homestuck followups #i think the meat and potatoes of the comic itself can be incredibly good more often than it's bad #its Long As Fuck but you know every facet of the significant characters. you grow and bond with them so much #absurdly long stretches of nearly pure dialogue back and forth between characters on a page #and then the next page with even more dialogue back and forth them just talking going on rambles and making jokes #but its so natural and most of the main cast feel super real like these are just some kids having a conversation on skype or smth #also it's still one of the funniest things i've ever read no cap. some of the jokes still stay in my mind forever #its not at all for everyone. not whatsoever. its 85% dependent on you liking these characters enough to see more of them #and just wanting to spend time with these little losers and their dumb overly complicated game #but i did like them! i think abt these characters a lot in my random life still despite not interacting significantly with it in years #and i feel like people are kinda a bit too mean abt it nowadays. acting like it was all a waste of time and there wasn't anything good #when no i still like a good amount of it up until beginning-middle of act 6 onwards when it just gets too confusing to keep up with #i still suggest reading it if you have time. can look past a lot of the early acts saying slurs and such. and have interest in it #at least try to get to act 5 if not beginning of 6 and then go thru 6 until u can't stomach anymore of it or if u reach the end #bc yeah act 6 being a nightmare confusion world is a lot of why i think ppl think it sucks #plus the first acts being a bit. 2009 newgrounds core #but even in those acts there's still some good stuff i wish ppl didn't shrug the whole thing off #Just give it a try see if its for u or not #it was one of the biggest Things on the internet for a while for a good reason #and i think it's a shame that it's mainly just considered. something shameful to like and stupid and has no inherent value to it #when there really is still a lot to like #give it a whirl see how you feel #i'm still never personally touching it again bc of. Generally who i was when i was hyperfixated on it #so. lmao

[sysig]

Ughhhhhhh

#I just......wanted to work on some new video editing techniques.......... #Spoiler: It went........so fucking bad lol #Like restart my computer because it basically stopped functioning bad #That seems like a non sequitor but believe me getting from A to Z was an awful ordeal #I've been curious for a while if I could sync up my footage to the audio - y'know cut the video up in time with the music! Classic #Normally I'd fall back on WMM but it has this annoying desync glitch(?) where it renders everything correctly but previews it out of time #So trying to line up the visuals to the audio - well I have to restart and listen through everything so far for it to align properly :/ #Lightworks is being a bitch as well - I guess it just stopped?? having a feature that it had a couple years ago that controls clip length #So I get random-length clips! That I can't stretch or extend! Y'know - The Thing I need to do! #I also tried Openshot and by about the point the advice had me changing my security settings I noped out #Literally would crash if I tried to import one (1) .png >:P #And I'm not about to give my info to Yet Another freeware like DaVinci Resolve since it went So Well with Lightworks #Didn't stop me from downloading and installing the wrong version for like an hour which Greatly lagged out my computer #And then as said it was the wrong version even if I did have access to it so I wouldn't be able to use it anyway! #How come we have such good opensource video capture and streaming software like OBS #And like LibreOffice for word processing and Audacity for audio and just - so many good opensource programs! #But video editing is a step too far #Ugh #Today's been a wash >:/ #At least my uptime is all shiny sparkly new for streaming maybe tomorrow lol #I dunno it depends on how sleep goes - y'know how it is after being frustrated for so long #I really wanted to! I wanted to do a lot of things >:( #I'll see how it all goes #Guess I'm going back to WMM - ugh - once I've properly cooled down and Actually Prepared for the slog #If anyone has any video editing software recommendations I am all ears tho #Obviously not any of the ones mentioned here as they Did Not Work lol #I just want........an intuitive place where I can drag-and-drop images and be able to crop their length up or down to the audio #Hell I'll take a patch for the desync if such a thing exists lol - looks like it's been a problem for like 10 years! Hgg #I just want to Make Thing In Head happen! It is not a lack of will! I am 100% blaming my tools on this one lol #I'm an amateur video editor I have the right to be whiny! I want a tool that isn't hell to operate! JFLHFJKLFHIOSEJF Anyway lol

[gaylos-lobos]

like i think the insane thing about the episode is how it continued to push the collector-luz, luz-philip and philip-collector parallels throughout it to then just hand wave it, like why do ALL THAT and then just drop it? like why put so much focus on it and then just, nothing?

#also kinda turning hunter into fanon caleb two point O is. yikes to say the least. #like they had so much time to course correct and put focus on what’s actually important and just didn’t. #like if they wanted to kill Philip of in an unsatisfying way they could have just let him die at the end of kings tide and concentrate on #the collector or just cut the collector and keep focus on Philip if he was anyways gonna be the final boss. #they could have done hollow mind part two either with the collector in the beginning or when luz died she could have manifested in Philips #mind as she was passing on (<- i guess(like is the inbetween purgatory or what is it?)) #make her go through his memories let her restore some of them. let Philip deal with the guilt you set up in kings tide. HELL LET GUS DO SOME #THING HE LITERALLY KNOWS FOR MONTHS THAT HE FEELS ACTUAL GUILT ABOUT THIS. LIKE DO ANYTHING PLEASE. #hell let the collector turn Philip into a puppet. trap him into one of those mirrors. like let the collector work together with king and eda #to trap Philip as luz is weakening him as she treads through his mind both in his stead and as an observer of it all #like what the collector did to Luz. Eda and King in the beginning episode is what the Caleb delusion did to Philip in ftf. #like what was the point of setting up Gravesfieled as a horrid cesspool that hasn’t changed. that literally forces outsiders to conform or #they’ll make their lives a nightmare to then just do nothing with that. like do somethin give us payoff for what is in the TEXT OF YOUR SHOW #like why make EVERYTHING HAPPEN BECAUSE OF CALEB ABANDONING HIS BROTHER AND BECAUSE OF GRAVESFIELD BEING LIKE THAT IF YOU ARE SIMPLY GONNA #DO ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WITH IT? especially after knowing that you would have to wrap up everything sooner why not course correct sooner then #the literal finishing stretch of your show. why hand wave it after setting it up? why not just cut it then (<- which still would have sucked #ass but at least it would have given them time they needed to write a more satisfying ending) #ramblings #toh spoilers #watching and dreaming spoilers #toh critical #<- i guess

[welcometogrouchland]

Strategizing my silly show rewatches to see what will produce The Most Emotion in me. And then soundly debating on whether or not that's actually a good idea

#ramblings of a lunatic #I probably think abt this too hard. thats the tism for you! #I'm gonna finish frog show 1b and then probably rewatch some of the willow and amity centric eps of s1 #before starting 2A (but also i might rewatch eclipse lake AGAIN bc i watched it today and got reminded of how good it is- #-and then paused to be like. but what if i enhanced the experience even more) #the willow eps rewatch is in prep to rewatch asias (HELLO FAV EPPY SODE!!!) and as a treat to myself cause i love her- #-and theres so little of her in 2A (willow fans were genuinely the strongest ppl during this time. gus fans 2 but at least they got ttlgr) #BUT I ALSO LOVE AMITY she occasionally posseses my brain but not often! i normally leave the Amity scholarship to others on here #(namely eliot yardsards and smokey smokestarrule bc they have elevated amity opinions) #but i wanna study her like a bug myself sometimes!! eclipse lake reminded me of that. she's not well!!! #plus with some s1 eps back under my belt the blow of how fucking brutal s2B of the owl show is might be somewhat softened #it's my fav stretch of the show tho don't get it twisted. i love the slow build of 2A #AND the sheer marvel of quality despite circumstances that is s3 specials #and yes even the silliest of s1 eps #but 2B is just unbeatable to me personally. best emotions associated with it #but I am finishing s1 of frog show before i get to do All That #and then i might rewatch the rest of frog show to hold me down til the finale airs #tbh rewatching amphibia and remembering how much i love it and how insane it still makes me gives me comfort in the face of toh ending #just because something's over doesn't mean it stops giving you the same feelings that it did before or that you stop loving it! #obviously I'm hoping for more one day bc of how the show was cut short. i personally really want those comics danas talked about #but the show is still gonna be there when it's done and i can still be insane abt it for however long i want #and that's nice y'know? #oh god this got too sincere #ANYWAY. current watch pattern is going 1B of frog show -> bits of s1 and then 2B of owl show -> 2A frog -> s3 owl #fun times. owls and frogs

[orcelito]

Guys I think the writing for fire emblem engage is somehow worse than fire emblem fates. Im a longtime fire emblem fan, I've played every recent game, and this... this is just Awful lmfao

Im still having plenty of fun & I have my handful of characters I love soooo much. But God fucking damn this writing is just some of the worst I've ever seen in a game

(Major spoilers in tags. Ran out of tags so I can't spoiler tag hfkshfj.

Final conclusion (since I ran out of tags): What Even Is This Fucking Game. Definitely my least favorite fire emblem game in many respects, but By God I'm going to finish this bitch and I'm gonna have plenty of fun as I do so. And I'm also going to make fun of every narrative choice it makes along the way bc the writing in this game is just SO fucking bad holy shit. I just need to finish this game and get on with my life already. God fuckin damn.)

#speculation nation #ive been critical of it from the start. bc it really isnt good. tho ive softened in some respects #it's plenty of fun thankfully. i enjoy the battle system a lot & the maps can be challenging in a fun way #but the moment i stop to think about Anything it all just feels so ridiculous #there have been a few moments it's surprised me. plot twists that were Almost cool. #but most of the time it's just throwing a bunch of shit out of left field at me and expecting me to be invested (im not) #so it's like. the 'plot twists' are either things i saw coming from a mile away OR things that r just so fucking insane it's not satisfying #like. the game saying 'oh man this thing you need to get to is at the bottom of this biiiig frozen lake! however will you get there?' #'how about... you trust the woman who has been an antagonist THE ENTIRE GAME UP UNTIL NOW to be telling the truth & to be helping u' #'heres a magic item she used the rest of her life to make! how sad! dont you feel bad for her? she wanted to be a mother!' #'no dont think about all the times she hit your little sister :) she feels bad about it so it's obviously ok actually :)' #'anyways take her magic item. itll get you to the bottom of the lake. how you ask? underwater breathing? PHHHSH' #'NAH your ass is going a thousand years into the past to break this thing b4 it fell into the lake OH ALSO you meet your past self #from when you were evil. good luck! :)' #im. not making any of this up. im not making ANY of this up and i really wish i was. #i was just rubbing my temples for that entire stretch of story it's so fucking stupid. #i think one of the most interesting things it did from a narrative standpoint was take away the rings 12 chapters in #so you hit rock bottom and have to crawl your way back out with the help of some unexpected allies #like. yea that's interesting. EXCEPT from a GAMEPLAY standpoint it's one of my least favorite fucking things in the game #you get used to this set of mechanics but halfway through you have to switch gears to an entirely different set of mechanics #and by the time you finally get everything back & ur army is full and whole. the game is almost over. #itd like that narrative choice SO MUCH MORE if it didnt set me back in such a major way & restrict total gameplay access to the End #every game has a slow trickle in of new characters so you dont have everyone until later in but EVEN THEN #you generally have everyone by 2/3rds way thru the game. then the last third you pick ur favs and u train them for the end #in this game. you dont get everyone until fucking chapter 23 of 26. my army is full and veyle is such a delight to have #but i only got her in CHAPTER. FUCKING. TWENTY THREE OF TWENTY SIX. #i just finished chapter 25. im nearly at the end. i love my main army but it feels like ive barely gotten to know them as a whole #bc it only finally formed TWO CHAPTERS AGO. #im just. god this game is so frustrating in a way ive NEVER experienced before. and ive played a lot of games!!!!! #like dont get me wrong im still having fun with it. i love a lot of the characters and the gameplay (now that i HAVE all of it) is So fun