#I put way too much effort in these idk why

[forgettable-au]

In case you're curious this is all art related to my AU!

Art/mini comics dump

Papyrus does NOT like hotland, something about that place really gets on his nerves...

Second one is just based on a crack comic I made when I FIRST made this au lmao, wanted to redraw it and post it. It's not serious at all

Then some concept art:D

#forgettable-au #wanted to post a lot of stuff together and see how it goes #wow drawing for this au again #same characters #makes me realize how much my art has improved #I even drew backgrounds ! #I put way too much effort in these idk why #anyways #actual tags now #papyrus!gaster #papyrus #undertale au #papyrus is gaster #alphys #undertale #sans #sans undertale #undertale fanart

[vixenicks]

gonna be annoying in the tags

#i have never understood the character = actor thing #like genuinely i dont fucking get it at all #if anything i think it both discredits the actors effort and the people that actually created the medias efforts #actors very rarely have anything to do with the characters creation nor do they have anything to do with a character outside of portraying #them like tbh i feel like its a massive insult to the work that goes into acting and writing #plus i just dont really care for actors personally #but thats just a me thing #idk!!! charlie cox does not equal matt murdock he had nothing to do with creating matt murdock #or like cillian murphy as jonathan crane #i dont like jonathan crane because he looks like cillian murphy i just like jonathan crane #like yeah he did a great job with acting in the trilogy and portrayed him great #but cillian murphy doesnt have any of the traits i like in jonathan crane idgaf about that guy aside from like two roles hes done #i dont know man #i just feel like itd be shitty to put months or years into the creation of media #into method acting and portraying these characters with the help of writers and directors #just for characters to not be acknowledged as seperate from their actors #idk. like jonathan crane is played by cillian murphy they have the same face whatever #but that is in no way shape or form the same guy at ALLLLL #idk. also fucks with fandom portrayals of characters #i.e booktok white women projecting poorly written smut onto every middle aged man ever #like you dont look at animated media and equate that character to their VA why would you do it for live action shit #you dont look at writers work and equate their characters to themselves #uuugggggghhhhh #plus i think the film idustry in general tends to give actors too much credit for the creation of media #not to say actors do nothing because they definetly do im interested in acting myself #but brother they r not the ones that direct and write and edit and sound mix and all this other shit #skyler posting #soigh #anyways

[talentforlying]

need more people to know this man colloquially as "con job", it's one of my favorite nicknames for him.

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS. #hello i'm on a paper break #anyway i'm obsessed with the way that so many of his nicknames are based off his last name and not his first #if they're not calling him 'john' then his friends all refer to him with varying flavors of connie / con job / conj #same with fellow con men / grifters / habitual liars #meanwhile johnny / johnny boy is either a romantic pet name or you're trying to piss him off there's no in between #idk on top of the obvious that his dad named him the most basic name in the book bc he hated him too much to put in effort #i get really curious about why constantine's so hung up on using his last name and not his first #i think it's a reputation thing as it usually is with him. no one's scared of 'john' they're scared of 'constantine' #that's his Professional Name

[louderfade]

exene talking about the state of the world. the good stuff starts at eight minutes. or you can just read the transcript complete with the usual errors that accompany robot transcribed speech (the irony of which is not lost on me). maybe it's not about transhumanism and living forever (or maybe it is who knows), but there's definitely an agenda of surveillance and control at work which is designed to keep the powerful in power. cash rules everything around me and you will own nothing etc. the future is worse.

#google has helpfully flagged this as a 'conspiracy theory' which let me know it was definitely worth paying attention to #sometimes a conspiracy theory turns out to be flatearth-tier but anything those in control are putting effort into discrediting #concerns me and makes me look deeper. if they're going to the effort to control the discourse there's something there that #threatens them. anything google calls a conspiracy theory is worth a closer look. it often means someone has gotten too close to the truth. #she's brave to be talking about this shit they basically cancelled her and forced her to apologize for talking about how they want #to take our guns and the media is lying to you and stirring up fear so they can get away with passing gun control #like wtf leftists should be all about gun rights. a disarmed population is totally at the mercy of the state's authority #it's not very punk to surrender entirely to regimes in power and let the only people with guns be the police #like c'mon guys we need guns. and it's like drugs. they exist anyway. better they do so in broad daylight than in the shadows #they let adam curits talk about this stuff for some reason and no one calls him a conspiracy theorist idk why but there's a reason #i guess his stuff is not a threat to them bc it's dense and heady and seven hours long so the masses will never absorb it #ex punk rocker yelling about new world order in plain language monologues of digestible length is a much bigger threat #i swear there are secretly fifty people in control of everything and their entire aim is to make sure it stays that way no matter what #but it's really gross how obvious it's getting like the whole system just funnels money straight to the top and they don't even care #about hiding it anymore they're just doing it out in open and denying objective reality with confidence it's too much sometimes #i swear i can feel my grasp on reality deteriorating. it's as if there were a loud buzzing in the out of doors that was getting #louder every day and nobody ever said anything to acknowledge that it was real nobody talked about hearing the buzzing but it just #keeps getting louder and i'm finally like wtf is with this buzzing and everyone gets mad at me for shouting over their netflix show #that they weren't really enjoying in the first place. like no one is happy in the modern world. why can't we talk about why without #turning against each other. that's why doug saying 'maybe we're all the same' is such a big deal to me. anyone who is trying to unite us #is doing important work. that trump supporter is not the enemy. they are the victim just like you.

[viatrix-glow]

I HAVE FINALLY FINISHED MY RENDERS/LAYOUTS/WHATEVER FOR MY ENSTARS OC….. and now i will dump a bunch of information about her 🤲🏽

here’s some outfits for her!! tbh the winter one was made on the spot soooo idk if it’ll actually stay

here’s the faux scout cards <3 they took way too long to make and yes i stole the bg of the second one from mika’s card (the first is also from the game). i’m not drawing a background

heres some more info about her. no organization im just gonna spout some rapid fire facts. keep in mind she is a little bit (a lot bit) of a self indulgent oc <3

-she is what i am dubbing a fill-in idol. essentially, she’s an idol who fills in for other units when they’re missing a member for a performance . this is why she works with valkyrie most often (she can take the roll of shu or nazuna for ex songs)

-her first name comes from a song (hikari by royal scandal). no real reason i just like the song lol

-she left switch on very good terms (she’s still besties with all 3 of them). she just left because she thought the unit functioned better as a trio (“you three shine brighter on stage without me~”) she still performs with them from time to time though (usually for smaller audiences, or she just joins them for practice)

-she’s been friends with mika since before they entered yumenosaki (they applied together), and became close to arashi in her first year too. she had planned on trying out for valk alongside him, but got caught up with switch

-speaking of switch! she runs into tsumugi on the day that he first visits the library (with the key rei gives him to get into the secret area) and recognizes him as one of the fine members . she goes with him to the library and meets natsume there (same scene as canon just. she’s there .) she gets along really well with him (and with mugi), which is why she ends up as a member of switch during her second year.

-she used to have a crush on nazuna (product of watching the performances and going to mika’s practices) . not really relevant i just wanted to throw it out there. does she have a crush on someone now? i don’t know

-her last name (yuuta) is intentionally the same as my twst oc, aurelia . they are sisters (aurelia is the older one by a year and a few months -(her bday is 2/2)). my thought is that when aurelia is sent to the world of twst, somehow the people who know her in her or world forget about her, so hikari doesn’t remember her as of now .

-she works part time at the same diner/restaurant/whatever as niki. he has to teach her a Lot about cooking though (she’s getting better)

-she absolutely Hates hates hatesssss rinne and crazy:b when they first start to cause trouble. she’s very protective over her friends and the other idols at es. even though she dislikes eichi for everything he did, she recognizes and appreciates the work he’s put into making es. she doesn’t like how crazy:b throws themselves into others live shows (live shows are so important and personal to units!!), and she gets very snappy and upset with them for it. however, she does her best to keep the peace when she’s around them because they’re under the same agency. after the main story stuff in !! finished though she begins to understand the position rinne +the bees were in, and she starts to forgive them and grow somewhat close to them. i would put them in the frenemies area

-i think her shuffle unit would be flambé!…? i tried to make it branco since they only have 4 members, but since she works with sora so often i think that disqualifies her. i really would like her to be in blend+ but again. same problem

-i think she’s close with anzu too. girlies gotta stick together! her, anzu and naru can go out for girls nights together

-the only unit she doesn’t really fill in for is 2wink because . the whole twin dynamic. kinda hard to replace one . and mam/doubleface obv

ok i’m running out of thoughts it’s 12am but that’s my oc!!!! if u read all of this thank you i love u <3

#my art #my oc #enstars oc #idk what else to tag this as #i’m a little embarrassed posting this and idk why this isn’t my first rodeo #but i get self conscious like aughhggfgebs am i being too self indulgent… #anyways i hope u guys like her. and the art i put way too much effort into it #and it didn’t really work u can def still tell it’s my style. but i really did try with the shading

[unclefungusthegoat]

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#idk if its just hormones #but depression kicked in hard this morning #literally yesterday my mum sent me an acting job #and I said the words 'I don't want to put in that much effort' #and it's haunting me #because I don't #I never try #because trying when you have no self belief is really hard #and when the application inevitably ends in failure #I feel worse #because it's more evidence that I'm never going to achieve my dreams #so why bother #also the self tape required having no make up #and my self esteem issues about the way I look kicked in too

[casperthecat]

my body’s made of crushed little stars .

#my art #tw gore #tw body horror #< just to be sure ^^ #mitski #furry art #I put way too much effort in to the ribcage idk why

[mejomonster]

I'm so tired

#rant #i need a break. like a big break break #i been reflecting on a lot and maybe i still give away too much of my energy despite how much Me Alone time i plan #like i very rarely have a friend who schedules time with me themselves. makes time in their schedule to accomodate when I Am free #drives themselves. who would wait and not cqncel on me if i was running 2 hours late and had to shuffle plans #(i never do that. but i hqve many friends who shuffle plans the day before the day of and for the whole week so its convienient #and works around their schedule. but for mine i set a plan and DO it qnd dont cancel on people unless im sick) #im just tired. i wanted to go somewhete big with a friend and they cqncelled and want it reschedulef #and im kinda like why dont i just fucking go alone. i have to drive hours either way #at least alone im not bending my plans over multiple days until something finallh works #i think its good to work around friends and help be flexible so yall can hang out #but like. idk ive been reflecting and notice. i do it a lot for other people #but most people i know arent doing it back for me. #i think if i told mosg of them i was busy? they wouldnt even put in the effort to reschedule. theyd just give up trying to hang out with me

[chisatowo]

I love unit swap Kohane sm I can't wait until I finally get around to drawing her I wanna make her look like she hasn't slept in 3 years and got thrown down a flight of stairs

#rat rambles #sekai posting #unit swap au #girlies who drink way too much coffee and energy drinks but caffine doesnt even work on them they just gave themself a caffine addiction #also shes a bit (a lot) depressed but shhhhh #hey at least I didnt strip her of her only pre unit story irl friend. yet. #ok I dont think I will cause I dont think theres any reason she and minori wouldnt know eachother here but yknow #I took all of an's friendships out back like old yeller as a sacrifice to keep minori and kohane as friends /j #kohane and minori are weak butch strong femme solidarity fr #strength alas does not cancel out her loser girl cringe however 😔 #idk if I actually will make unit swap kohane butch tho tbh since Id need to think more on my canon kohabe hc design more first #mainly cause shed probably end up being a more like toned down version of that? since she doesnt put a lot of effort into her looks but I #think shed still impulsively at least get a start towards how shed like to present herself in an ideal world #but that can be later in the story idk #most of vbs rly just would look the same tho if not a bit more tired looking #thats why I had to give them fursonas /j #anyways I need 2 sleep gn gamers

[account-name]

idk if i'll end up with anything nice enough to post but i am finally out of art block for now and am working on redesigning my designs of the trio

#my old designs just don't have the right vibes #tbf i came up with those designs on the spot and just kinda went with them #no thought put into them just my first instincts #rn i only have a couple designs of yellow guy but so far he looks a lot more accurate #absolutely not looking forward to duck though i know he's gonna be a pain to figure out #i've never been great at drawing animals and birds are no exception #like what is going on with that beak #idk i probably won't get to him any time soon though i'm being too much of a perfectionist and spending way too much time on each doodle #why did i commit to making all of these fully colored and shaded #well not fully shaded since i'm not doing all the highlights but mostly shaded #this is why i keep getting in an endless cycle of art block #j draw one (1) thing and then i put too much effort into it so it takes a week to finish #and then i take some time to not draw because i just did a big thing #and then i forget that drawing is actually fun and have art block for a month #and repeat #at this point i just gotta accept that this is how it is and as soon as i finish these doodles i'm gonna be back to art block #oops my adderal kicked in and i've been stuck rambling in the tags oopsie #i'm not gonna go through and edit any of these tags #i need to stop #anaacdotes #update: frick i did the designs and never posted them i should do that whoops

[pulquedeguayaba]

Im so dumb, didnt realise it was for censoring the tt 🤡

Amazing fanart tho 10/10 she never disappoints 🔥

#when the hatred towards your tts out of dysphoria and dysmorphia blind you to see them in stuff 🤡 #surprisingly this fanart is one of the very few (surely can count with one hand) instances when i dont mind it as much #and dont find the ordeal tolerable put of it being a chore #idk last times ive had fucked and ppl go to my tts its like yeaj whatever be done with it #most of them werent good fucks to begin with #still wanna go and do the experiment but feel like i need to lose more weight #like ive already lost some but for my sick self is still not enough and i know i can go further #this current regime works and will work even more after i start the phd #plus setting my massage chair during the weekends cos that means more effort and more calories burnt #my grasp on my hunger changed after the accident #it doesnt bother me as it did before during menstruation too #idk why i dont really recall being hungry? we had lunch like an hour before we hit the road #and were planning on grab something after go feed the cats #anyway i cant believe hiromi grew in me like that and sighs #came across a pizarnik quote earlier and sigh #lets see how the experiment go have got better at being more sincere but still in a very guarded way that doesnt feel as hostile #or so it seems #huh #ranting in tumblr tags my beloved

[omgrandomwords]

me when i flop fr

#bro the point of me doing One class and One job is that i can put more effort into each compared to having Six classes and Two jobs #so why am i procrastinating on these the same way i did during the full semester #what the fuck man #im hating myself Again i love shcool so much guys #it’s all self inflicted too all i did today was lie down scroll on phone and take three hours to watch one episode of bridgerton #im so pissed off and idk how to fix myself

[halfricanloveyou]

sometimes it’s nice to know boys can be openly cute and genuinely about love and romance the way the rest of us are.

men can get butterflies in their stomach when thinking about their crush. they can turn red and get flustered at the thought of kissing or dating the person they like. men can get nervous and word vomit if their crush gets too close to them. men can worry about taking things slow in relationships because they wanna make sure things work out. men can experience romantic yearning and feeling heartbreak without needing to blame someone. men can hear ‘i’m sorry but no’ and respect that answer without attacking or blaming their crush. men can light up and get excited if their crush says yes and then whoop and holler and yell and dance because they’re so happy. men can sigh longingly and accept unrequited love without trying to come on to their crush while knowing they’re already with someone. men can take rejection with dignity even if it leaves them feeling heartbroken afterwards. men can love someone even when that person does something they find gross and unattractive. men can still be in love even if the person they love decides to change their appearance or wear clothes that he doesn’t like without trying to coerce or manipulate them into not doing that. men can write poetry and make music and art about the person they love as a person - not about how he loves their appearance or what they do, but them as a whole entire person,

…but most of them won’t. they actively choose not to. that’s why it seems so shocking when they do those things. it’s easy to forget about something when you never see or hear about it.

#men #i guess #idk what else to tag this as #but that’s why i enjoy reader insert fanfic and romance as a whole #because the only way i could imagine what it would be like to experiencing someone feeling that way about me #about genuinely loving me #is in fiction #i do think it’s sad and depressing #but not because i’m lonely. because living that way seems sad #it’s why i don’t like men in general #i feel bad for them to an extent #but they’re too proud to ever realize than and that’s why i don’t interact with them much #they train themselves out of empathy and rarely choose to put in the effort to learn even when they watch at it hurts other people and them #selves #also obviously ‘not all men’ if it doesn’t apply to you great good for you move on #but i’m not gonna leap to your defense and edit my post #ya’ll don’t need that. if you wanna talk about men’s problems make your own post #i’m talking about the problem i have with men

[a-passing-storm]

Also! Sorry, I am in a Rambling Mood! According to the substitute teacher, one of my teachers described me as his most intelligent student, and I'm like... I would be lying if I said that it did not go straight to my head, but I also think it's super weird and fucked up if he did say that, but I also really doubt that he did. I imagine he said something like "they have the highest grade in the class" or "they have shown the most demonstrated interest in the class," (<- still skeptical about that one, because it's subjective), but like... Wild. I want to ask him about it, because it went straight to my head because I'm really curious about what he actually said, but I don't think it's a thing I could Bring Up.

#i am so conflicted on this. i really really don't think he would ever say anything like that. he seems to be... like... an ethical teacher? #about not picking favorites and about viewing all of his students as equally capable. and also he Definitely seems the type to view #intelligence as very subjective and not a good indicator of actual... like... anything. so like. #he doesn't seem the type to describe ANY of his students that way. but i also especially cannot see him describing me that way. #i did so poorly in his class last year and he could definitely Tell that i was bullshitting half of it and not putting much effort in. #also why would my substitute mention it to me... #she called on me first to present a project but my partner wasn't here so i didn't have to present #but then she called me over and she was like "i asked you to go first because your teacher said you were the smartest and i wanted... #to see what an a would look like for this presentation“ like... i think i literally was like ”... is that really what he said?“ #anyway she asked me to recommend the Second Smartest Kid In My Class which was WILD too. like. excuse me??? #admittedly i was complicit in that system though because i did recommend one of my friends to go first but like... #hmm... also i swear my presentation is so much worse than like... 80% of the presentations that went today... so. the substitute #will be very disappointed when i present tomorrow i guess. it's a lot of pressure. but like. yeah. i'm really so fascinated by that. #i shouldn't. i really shouldn't think about it it shouldn't matter what my teacher thinks of me especially if he's stupid enough to call #any of his students the most intelligent or whatever. but um. i am thinking about it i'm a people pleaser and i compare myself to others... #sigh. #dante dicit #might delete #idk how to tag this

[milo-is-rambling]

Me when I’ve been taking my meds consistently for a week and then I suddenly feel like I have no motivation for art or poetry 🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪

#I’m almost more depressed when I take my meds bc I am happy but all of my passion is gone #like all I do is sit around and smoke weed and watch watch tv instead of curating mood boards or writing poetry or trying three different #art mediums in one day #like it’s so fucking depressing that I either have to be so fucked up mentally that I can’t hold a job or I have to be so happy that the #only thing I have any real calling for is doing something repetitive and boring for money #like girl this can’t be my way of life forever it just can’t be #feel like I’m going to cry thinking about being mentally ill forever #either I take meds and feel like a numb zombie or I don’t take meds and I’m creative and passionate but I also might hurt myself or worse #like bruh. why can’t I be happy and also creative #idk if I’m taking too much or too little meds. might up myself back to my regular dose soon of a pill morning and night but I just hate #taking meds and that opens the door for it to be even harder for me to remember to take them morning and night and it gives me heartburn ugh #wah wah wah I’m a big whiney baby because I don’t want to kill myself and therefore I have to go be an adult and try to get a job that’s #really my fuckin issue. I’m just whining and bitching cause I don’t wanna put the effort into being happy #I’ll get over myself and journal or read or just step away from the internet for a little bit and suddenly I’ll be back to loving life

[pizzapizzadickz]

Haaaaah. It's frustrating living like this tbh.

Like. Its been years and I'm still struggling as much if not more than I did as a child.

I wonder, does anything ever truly change?

#diary #personal #i know it may not seem like it but ive put a lot of effort into growing as a person. yet i still struggle oh so much. #its funny hearing bout ppl with an insane amount of allergies bc inrelate so much. #and it sucks. bc living every day has felt like a struggle for far too long... #...i wanna go back to not working. #idk. im still unable to function one way or another. but at least then i had time and space to exist. #i guess the upside to now is i at least leave the house ig? #idk. i started this job bc of a self destructive cycle i was in. but i feel worse. #i hate working. god. ik everyone around me would say to suck it up but... idk #if living wasnt this painful i would. but honestly. my existence feels like utter suffering. with moments of okay interspersed between #sometimes I wish I had a normal life. but i wouldnt be me that way. now would i? #i... just wish there was something. anything really. to make this trash life feel okay. #like. what am i existing for? why am i trying so hard? whats the point anymore for any of this? #idk. i dont have the answer. maybe you look down on me too for complaining. but i dont care. im just tired.