#I’m having a very bad day

[teethpaste]

I wonder what it’s like to not live in constant fear of yourself? This weekend I was so close to relapsing and like with the weight of grief and my dads death date approaching I just constantly keep thinking about going on a bender and totally derailing my life

I’m not gonna do it. But I am already falling into the old stages I was last time where I am constantly hitting 65 hour work weeks then going out all weekend. Literally trying to avoid any grief thought with friends or drinking or sex. I know I need to snap out of it and be present and just feel my feelings, but holy shit it’s so painful

I’m hoping after this next month with the one year anniversary in the past I’ll feel a little better. That post Tokyo work trip mental breakdown is gonna hiiiiiit

#I’m having a very bad day

[inkprincesse]

At least when i start crying on the floor of my basement in the middle of sorting laundry tgere is a little shih tzu who will sniff my face in concern and sit in my lap to be cuddled while i sob

#I’m having a Very Bad Day

[sevenoffine]

imagine if what finally pushed me over the edge was my expensive vegan hotdogs being ruined lol

#i’m having a very bad day

[bushrat2319]

Moving to the basement and found some of my college pieces from my color theory class.

Lol I hate coloring but man I loved that class

#I’m having a very bad day #so just taking a break to cool off and try to find something good about the day

[notyourgun]

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#I’m having a very bad day #BUT #i love my girl #this episode #😱😱😱😱😱

[cherruni]

svsss memes that definitely have been done before

#luo binghe #shen jiu #shen qingqiu #yue qingyuan #liu qingge #svsss #svsss memes #scum villain’s self saving system #was going to do more but i’m having a very bad no good day

[mattodore]

you belong to me and i belong to you and so on

#river dipping #ts4 #ts4 edit #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #a burning house to live in #echthroi #have been editing this so slowly throughout the day bc this vaccine shot has been kicking my ass 😔 #but looking at mattodore kissing for so long is no hardship trust me i’ve been having a blast #ummm what else do i wanna say here before i go back to watching catfish and downing acetaminophen……. #oh!!! #i got an ask yesterday night that i wanna reply to once my muscles stop hurting so bad 🚶 #so know that i’m gonna work on it! #just… 🧎 it will take me a bit #i’ve just been sitting here staring at a wall thinking abt it but my brain is nawttt functioning v well atm lmao #i have started replying but didn’t get very far before i was like. none of this is any good jdgshdhhdd #so. will start over when i bounce back! #…i also just realized it’s pretty late uhhh so if you see this then <3 a little kiss #i love posting things when ppl aren’t online apparently #i do it so often jfhsjfhfj oh well #for the mattodore fans out there here u go 💐👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨

[goldenhypen]

⋆｡⠐ happy ✧｡♡

✴︎｡⠐ birthday ⠐⚬⋅｡

⋅｡⠐ to the kindest cutest most loving cheerful hard working greatest prettiest handsomest funniest hottest jakey sim 🦭 ⚬♡⋅｡

⎯ ⋅ ♡ ⋅ ⎯

jake, my love and admiration for you go beyond words. thank you for blessing me with so much joy and love in my life. you’re an inspiration to so many and i’m so grateful for you and incredibly proud of where you are and who you’ve become. and you deserve all the best things, or at least to have the best birthday of your life this year <3 eat well and celebrate lots my love <3 i love you and happy birthday <33

#THE FIRST PIC #has me on my knees 🥲🧎🏻‍♀️ #I CANT TELL YOU WHY I HAVE REAL TEARS IN MY EYES AS I PUT THIS POST TGT #i RLLY miss him :( #i love you jake with my whole entire heart #have the best day ever :’> <3 #sparing you all from the spam like last year djsnjd #life has gotten the best of me lately but i hope to be more active soon :’> #sorry i keep disappearing my loves #OH i also tried so very hard for the past idek how long.. MONTHS? to write smth for this special day but aha.. #it looks like your girls stuck in a bad case of writers block again :’> #anyway i’ll come back soon #i miss you guys :( #i hate that i’m using his bday post as an update post 😭 #happy jake day my loves 🥹🫶🏻 #em speaks #♡ #happy jakey day! <3

[tanglepelt]

Dc x dp idea 18

Ghost are the embodiment of what they represent. An example skulker is the embodiment of hunting. Without skulker no one could hunt. It just doesn’t exist anymore.

In this a dc villain captures amorpho in order to find out hero’s identities. The villain has to figure out how to utilize amorpho. He’s only managed to trap him using tech from the fentons.

Danny cannot find him amorpho in time. The villain manages to take away disguise from everyone but himself. For Danny it’s not as big of a problem as it is for every other hero.

Danny has two whole separate identities not so much a disguise. (He transforms not just throws on a mask. Same would apply to captain marvel)

This leads to a pre teen and a teenager both pretending to be mature trying to find amorpho. They both have no idea what there doing.

After a bunch of nonsense they free amorpho. Disguises now exist again.

#danny fenton #danny phantom #dc x dp #dp x dc #dp dc crossover #dp x dc prompt #dp x dc crossover #billy batson #cass could theoretically join the fun #depending. like I’m a bit behind on her stuff but what i recall she doesn’t really have a civilian identity #i believe she stopped really using her civilian identity i may be very mistaken #Danny and billy revealed themselves to each other #they took full advantage of the lack of disguises #the dc villain was not expecting two children to be the ones tracking him down #Bruce is very much not okay with this. #it doesn’t help that caption marvel did not bring his communicator #so he can’t even get a progress report #lots of robbers get arrested cause ppl could see there faces through the ski masks #good day to be a cop #bad day to be a criminal #no hero’s are out and about but major villains aren’t either #Damian put on his mask #Bruce was like i can see your face #everyone tried after that #at the same time he got an alert from the watchtower

[once-in-a-blood-moon]

Solomon who’s lived for so long he can’t remember most of the things he’s done so most things feel new to him 🤝 Me who has the worst memory known to man that things I’ve already done also feel brand new

#we’ll experience ‘new’ things together wow! #i know this man is generally forgetful too so it makes me feel some better #like it’s bad #the amount of times i’ve watched game grumps play wheel of fortune and play along to it knowing i’ve solved the puzzles before but can’t #remember so whoo! look i just solved that one! #the most simple of things as well are forgotten to the whirlwind that is my mind #three things i have planned to do for the day… only remembers one #i’m very thinky but won’t remember anything #thanks depression 👍 #sorry for the rambles in the tags 😗 #obey me #obey me solomon #jo’s thoughts

[flowercrowngods]

they tell you about school and they tell you about work and they tell you about taxes and responsibilities and ideals you have to reach. they don’t tell you about baking chocolate cookies from scratch at the ungodly hours of 11 at night and sitting on your kitchen floor while watching a home decor competition show while you get to munch on a cookie that tastes like the hot chocolate you used to make when you needed a reason to live as a teenager. they don’t tell you about getting to eat another cookie while you think about capturing this moment in a mason jar and shipping it through time to your younger self who gets scared so easily by school and work and taxes and responsibilities and ideals. your younger self who wonders if there’s still comfort, still good things, and if you get to claim them for yourself at some point or if comfort is always a question of dependence. they don’t tell you about that, when for years we do nothing but dream about moments like these

#i’m weirdly emo about these chocolate cookies i made from scratch. i’m not someone who bakes. this very much feels like magic to me #love #🤍 #but also it’s just so crazy how we all vividly remember thinking ‘when i grow up i can have as much ice cream as i want’ #like. what do you wanna be when you grow up? i wanna be someone who can make cookies for themself just because. #isn’t this it? isn’t this the dream?? and i didn’t even have an outstandingly good or bad day today it’s Just A Day. and now i have cookies #idk idk it’s my first time being alive okay?

[daffi-990]

Seven(ish) Sentence Sunday ✍️

Tagged by @wikiangela 😘

Haven’t had the brain capacity to get much writing done since Friday, but I did manage to tippity type a little something something for LA Lonely 🏙️ . So have some of Buck’s inner self deprecating thoughts.

Prev snippet here

As the weekend rolls into Monday, Buck tries not to think about Eddie but somehow the guy has burrowed under his skin, an itch that Buck can’t scratch. He finds himself doing a double take at every fit, 6 foot brunette man that he encounters while on a call, both disappointed and relieved that they aren’t who he’s hoping for.

Not that he’s hoping to run into Eddie again. The guy didn’t leave his number or take Buck’s, and Buck’s been playing this game for so long he knows what that means. Because Buck is only good for one night, maybe a weekend if he’s lucky. No one wants to take a chance on him.

He’s used to it, so he doesn’t understand why he can’t get Eddie out of his head. The sex was good - incredible actually - and Eddie was hot. And kind. And his smile could light up an entire room. And Buck really needed to get a grip.

Eddie had his fun and then he left. Just like everyone else.

No pressure tagging: @diazsdimples @spotsandsocks @hippolotamus @lover-of-mine @wikiangela @wildlife4life @athenagranted @watchyourbuck @devirnis @dangerpronebuddie @goforkinard @bigfootsmom @bidisasterbuckdiaz @exhuastedpigeon @elvensorceress @evankinard @eddiebabygirldiaz @rainbow-nerdss @thewolvesof1998 @try-set-me-on-fire @theotherbuckley @tizniz @alliaskisthepossibilityoflove @shortsighted-owl @sibylsleaves @donationwayne @fortheloveofbuddie @giddyupbuck @honestlydarkprincess @homerforsure @hoodie-buck @jesuisici33 @king-buckley @ladydorian05 @loserdiaz @captain-hen @bekkachaos @neverevan @nmcggg @missmagooglie @mellaithwen @monsterrae1 @spagheddiediaz @sunshinediaz and as always, anyone who wants to join in and share something -> consider this your official tag.

Also sorry if I forgot anyone .. there’s been a few url changes and it’s gotten a bit confusing 🫤

#daffi writes #wip: la lonely #I wanna finish the last chapter of rivals soooo bad but the smutty beans have taken a break to recharge #doesn’t help that I’ve also been feeling pretty shitty overall these past few days #(I’m okay - just period hormones and a stupid cold) #anyway .. I’m enjoying this little fic #it’s almost at 5K and I still have so much I wanna cram in haha #can’t seem to just write this happened then this .. no I gotta dive into the details and stretch things out #*long suffering sigh* #😅 #buddie wip #buddie #also if anyone is concerned: no Eddie did not just have his fun and leave #he is very much enamoured by Buck #allllll will be revealed in the end

[dailyjevil]

Day 150 of posting Jevil every day

#jev :] #I feel bad drawing such a simple jevil on what’s otherwise a big milestone but todays been rough on me #I’ll be fine I’m not hurt or anything but I still don’t feel like drawing #nevertheless it amazes me how far I’ve come. Here’s a bit of lore of the person who runs this- I actually have a super hard time- #-doing projects that are long term. Whether it’s big projects or things that take a long time I just can’t bring myself to do em #and yet here I am on day 150. I didn’t expect to last a month!! #I feel like I say this every day but I’m very proud of myself #and I wouldn’t have been able to do this without everyone’s constant support #thank you all verrrrrrry very much <3 #dailyjevil #deltarune #deltarune jevil #jevil #jevil deltarune

[seagull-scribbles]

Birthday gift for @kito-oh-kito

Sometimes, before you trudge through sewage to get home, your Bro will patch up all your wounds and tell you how “sick” you’re moves where tonight, and you won’t be able to make eye contact

#tmnt 2012 #raphael hamato #casey jones #casey jones 2012 #rasey #kito-oh-kitt #I have wanted to draw these two so bad these past few months but I didn’t have the energy #but we all know I’m a sucker for gifting art #and I love kito’s rasey posts #so ask and you shall receive xxxx #it’s more implied than obvious but I’m not very good at obvious stuff #anyway I hope you like it and have a good day #my sister gets married next week so I’m going to be inactive again

[why-the-heck-not]

19.12.23, tuesday

0.5h of coding lol

wasn’t having the best day so decided to finally watch the barbie-movie (it’s on hbo rn) bc figured that could cheer me up

but bc the universe loves a good timing, on the grocery store trip after, some dudes came to me like ”which one of us would u fuck?” and that annoyed me way more than it should’ve. Like cmon, it’s 10pm at a grocery store; if you’re not cottage cheese or olive oil get tf out of my face

just a short evening walk bc it was windy and I was annoyed

#also the barbie-movie; it was fine #not my favorite but I didn’t think it’d be bc I don’t rly usually go for that genre #also at this point the hype had got to me so my expectations were very unfair #the set tho; it looked so good #I love how I planned that I’d be a machine now this week so could actually not stress during christmas but it’s looking out to be like one #of the most unproductive days I’ve had all autumn lol #i’m thinking if I should just call it and start the holidays now and just idk catch up on some of the days in between christmas & new years #and I do have 8 days after new years before other courses start #but idk if I do thay I might not rly be able to chill during christmas #like rn I’m thinking if I should bring my laptop with me just in case I could squeeze a couple hours here & there during the few days #which is not the thing to do obviously; like it’s 5 days I can be apart from my laptop for 5 days #but it feels like with the amount of stuff I’ve gotten done I rly couldn’t afford a 5 day break rn #idk I’ll figure it out I won’t bring a laptop just to haunt me #(I’m bad at fully relaxing; there’s always the ’’u could be doing something productive tho’’-voice) #(which I don’t listen but then I just get nothing done and also never rly relax which is good super good) #(can u tell im still annoyed at everything rn lol sorry for the tag rant) #december 2023 #2023 #today

[puppyeared]

Ouhhhh friendship I love friendship……..

#I’m reading volumes 14-16 of the ouran manga OOUGHHH MY HEART #I love this weird little friend group so much its unreal #like u have this charming sweeps you off your feet prince but he’s actually a huge lovable idiot with a kind heart and his friends #who are all misfits that he reached out to and drew in because of his kindness and own weirdness like that shits TIGHT BRO #and the trauma part where he has some deep seated issues with love bc he thinks that itll break a family apart like with his mom #how his family isnt allowed to be together because his mom and dad fell in love and how he says he wants to build a big house #so that way one day everyone will get along as a family like. all he wants is not to lose everyone and the only way to do that is #by maintaining a certain order.. he both wants a complete family so bad and doesnt want anything to sour between anyone #so he assigns each of his friends a family role based on how he sees them and YEAH its mostly played for giggles and tamakis #already weird so its his way of showing theyre close to him but. god damn this boy has LAYERS #it also feels kinda meta towards how found family tends to get thrown around to assign characters as 'siblings' or family roles instead of #using it to describe characters who are close enough to be each others family. cuz tamakis doing that EXACT THING in a way tht #ties in with his character and i have to say its fascinating using that within the story itself and its completely plausible #theres a lot of things i can say about ouran that are good bad and questionable but. god i love it when characters are niceys to each other #i remember i really liked the kyoya episode bc him and haruhi got to spend time together and their relationship isnt very close #but it was really nice to see their personalities bounce off each other. i think i also wouldve liked to see haruhi alone with kaoru #i also firmly believe all of the hosts are at least a little in love with haruhi and this can be anything like endearing romantic cuz like #who DOESNT love haruhi. kyoya i think would want to study her under a microscope like his fascination with her draws him in #but im fucking obsessed with whatever haruhi and tamaki have going on because YES hes obsessed with her YES he jumps at the chance to #put her in a cute costume but haruhi? she just fucking goes with it because she knows hes fun to be around even if hes a little wacky abt i #theyre all so. NNGGHHHH #ouran #ohshc #yapping