#I’ve actually had no training at all

[iusedtohavesixtoes]

Midday Tea.

#nahomie’s art #fire emblem three houses #seteth #byleth eisner #setleth #he’s complaining #she’s enjoying their time together #he’s also enjoying their time together #but has a lot to say about everything #Naomi tries watercolor brushes #not gonna lie #I’m terrible at watercolors in real life #my young students think I’m amazing but #I’ve actually had no training at all #this is kinda like a postcard

[stuckinapril]

you guys have no idea what crazy friday plans i have (putting on a cute comfy fit, lip gloss mascara and spf applied, kilian’s love on pulse points, hitting the gym first thing in the morning w flash cards, studying at the library until sundown)

#haven’t gone out in a minute and i don’t even feel like i’m missing much #this is literally my ideal friday these days #oh and i’m probably getting my nails done this weekend :) w a v day color #AND my neuro clinic training starts next week. #the neuro clinic / research falls under the med school in this city so i’ll be at the on campus library all the time. #studying in the presence of actual med students #my pre med student heart will b so happy about that #i’ve had so many extracurriculars happening ive had to work around lately #so it’ll be nice to devote a whole day to uninterrupted studying like i used to #p

[transboysokka]

The earthquake was 6 days ago and they just today were able to free (and find) the remains of a young family under meters and meters of rock, unable to even be IDed from appearance. Two of the bodies were still embracing. It’s A Lot…

Edit: I guess a week ago now damn

#death toll is only at 16 with only 3 still missing which is actually great but it still sucks… a whole family 11 8 and 5 years old… #most of the deaths were hikers crushed by landslides #also one lady a teacher had her house collapse and got out on time #but went back in for her cat and got crushed in an aftershock #that shit is so hard #like the country is so small I’ve been to all these places and hiked all these trails… #the cat lady was a teacher… #you know? anyway sorry #reminds me of the huge train crash a couple years ago I was driving near… I was supposed to be on that train… #death mention tw #tian talks

[sweetpaintedladie]

listening to the hackney diamonds live “album” [those like 7 songs that they recorded live] and it’s honestly so jarring how much better the new material is without the horrific production, like truly just astounded the production of the album was so horrible that a group of 80 year old men just fucking around on stage sounds so much better ? you’d think it’d be the other way around but alas andrew watt seems to be in a competition with himself to see how horrendous he can make an album sound via production

#i like the album and all but i had to train my ears to not hear the production which is… not good #the first listen i tried not to let it effect my thoughts on the actual music but it was very hard to ignore #like my heart dropped when the first line of keith’s song came on and he sounded SO autotuned #i think it’s a fine album #good turn your brain off stones music #not like as good or as bad as other albums #but that production is so horrific #it sounds really good live which i guess is what matters since that’s what you really really pay to see #but like andrew watt really fucked it up in the studio #which sucks ! because this is proof that you really do not need to be doing all that #and i’ve said a few times but it should not have been *that* obvious keith wasn’t behind the boards at all #like him and mick produce in a way you barely notice and so having so much production made it so bad 😭 #tired of andrew watt is a savior narrative because he really dropped the ball and im terrified for him to do new music with other artists #tbh #it’s really really…. mmmm #also if the stones release another album with the hackney outtakes they better not go with watt again #he deserves to be locked in a closet

[ofdustandashes]

#oh my gooood #I had to take a break after I carrion (Icarian) #maybe the best song I’ve ever heard in my life #and I had to stop bc we knew it was all the most devastating setup #oh my god #and a musical interlude that’s actually GOOD!!! #his mind! #if I were a riptide I wouldn’t take you out!! #get fucked #it opens in the darkest possible dark and he doesn't want the light and it ends with him awaiting/watching the sunrise #having lived a full life in the dark #vehicular manslaughter! (kinda) and THATS the moment he realized he was doomed to love her #holy shit #hozier #you have done it again #there were so many times I wanted to go back to relisten but there was no getting off that train #I'm going to BITE and CHOMP and MAIM when I hear these songs live #like I carrion fully brought me to the edge of tears #and the first time I heard the choir come in on this version of Unknown my jaw fucking dropped like actually it was the most powerful #sonic experience of my life and I just fully accepted nothing like that would ever happen again but listening to the whole thing In Order #I knew it was coming and it still got me like the first time #unreal unearth

[no-brand-gays]

if i became a school idol and the other members made my image color gray i would try to take down the group from the inside

#i’ve never said it but i’ve always thought it and i think a lot of people have given all the attempts to pretend kotori’s color is green #i do actually think it works for yoshiko but just for me it would feel so much like the short end of the stick #like everyone else is wearing sakura pink and sky blue and warm orange and i’m over here in a gray costume like yes this was my first choice #the reason I’m thinking about idols actually is that it took me 2 months of living in japan to realize i can go see idols #more specifically it took 2 months and the member of an idol group to hand me a flyer on the street and like very persistently and cutely #ask me to come until i was like okay yes ofc #i had literally just gotten off the bullet train i was wandering around and there she appeared #i love idols dude I really love idols so much #kpop is so much more accessible between fandom loudness and content more regularly being available for free but jpop!!!!!!!!! #jpop is my first love!!!! #i saw that live Friday and they said they were performing again Monday and o just happened to be staying in akiba again #so guess what i did last night #i am not immune to idols also you get to take pictures with your oshi as a thank you for your first and second time coming #so after both shows i got to talk a little w the member who found me #ik it’s their job but she remembered me the second time around and also the performances themselves were so fun and cute #it just really reignited the jpop flame in me i love idols so so so much #personal #hope you are all having a nice start to your week!!!

[harryswinks]

this has been bugging me so bad for months now but the whole camping out/queuing from early hours of the morning for gigs is so bizarre like when did that become a thing and why do so many people boast about it on twitter

#why are you queuing at 6am for a 500 capacity venue literally whenever you stand will be a good view #and for INHALER of all bands but do not get me started actually that’s a whole other conversation #but like firstly camping outside a venue probs isn’t safe and i see teenagers doing it???? #where are their parents??? #the only time i’ve turned up ‘early’ to a gig was once at brixton bc there was no trains so had to go to from epping and it was the only #time we would get a lift and we were probably queuing for like 3 hours #and another was we’d been in camden all day and had been round the market 50 times already so headed off to the venue at like 3 #but i would never queue from the morning?? #like even to get a good view standing in an arena i’ve never had problem just turning up at doors #like some girl saying it’s a job trying to control the camping queues girl you literally don’t have to do that #like you can just turn up at 6pm instead of writing numbers on hands or whatever ffs get a life #stacey speaks

[akkivee]

biggest gripe is when they don’t include kuukou’s kindness in writing even tho it’s as integral to his character as his brattiness

#vee queued to fill the void #i’m not going to beef with the stage play again nobody wants to see that lol #like when you make kuukou’s attitude the main focus of conflict i get it genuinely!!!! it is an ongoing source of conflict for him #and the easiest route to write down if you don’t want to challenge kuukou who is incredibly self actualised #kuukou will be his own hype man acting like he’s the hottest shit lmao but he knows and readily admits he’s still weak and has growing to do #that mindset isn’t the easiest to challenge (esp in bat vs mtr play where the story rightfully had other things to focus on) #so rolling back his development unfortunately makes sense lol #but removing kuukou’s kindness makes no sense to me actually lol esp since it undermines all the work he’s put into his religion #i’ve said it once i’ll say it again: you don’t get as far as kuukou has in his ascetic training without understanding the core values lol!!! #wisdom and compassion!!!!! wisdom and compassion!!!!!! #the unami chapter puts him in a tough spot because even tho he’s in the right it wasn’t necessarily the correct answer to the problem #and he had to grapple with ichiro’s hands being tied due to the bigger picture and trying to help unami blindly without the whole story #which is exactly how you need to challenge him lol his principles are right but life isn’t fcking easy lol!!!! #the brain’s about to start vomiting about kuukou’s life cycles and that needs to be a whole other post so lemme not lol #but kuukou’s adventures start because he sees a boy in trouble and wants to help #and kuukou wants to be able to look at his life when it ends and say he did good he lived it to its fullest and he wasn’t ashamed of it #and some of that impact gets taken away when you remove his kindness 😤 #c: kuukou👑

[woundedheartwithin]

I think my favorite part about Ishin being historical fiction based loosely on something that really happened is that I can make up whatever shit I want to and nobody can say anything about it

#she speaks #yakuza #ishin #for instance the real todo joined Shieikan a year before the Shinsengumi was started #and accounts only say that he began to take his meals there #not that he actually trained there #he trained in hokushin itto and there’s no actual evidence that he knew Tennen Rishin #but in all my zhaomaji fics heisuke trained in shieikan since he was an early teen and had known okita that entire time #because I find that dynamic more interesting and they don’t say shit about his actual tenure at shieikan in game #but even if they did fuck that it’s AU time lmao #I write what I want and nobody can stop me #not even the abysmal numbers I’m getting on these fics #because I like them and I’ve made them my dolls to smash together and giggle over

[knowlesian]

i get why “this character has never done anything wrong, ever in their lives” is a fandom joke, but i feel like when it hits a point where people very seriously say that their favored antagonist made no mistakes it’s perhaps hit a dial it back, remember it’s a joke point

#like it’s obvious i’m thinking about one or two characters in particular but it’s not NOTa general issue #not even with antagonists happens with any kind of character tbqh #but it’s particularly glaring when you have people out here arguing for moral relativity so hard they lose the plot #its… okay that your blorbo did something wrong #like to say the quiet part loud starting to develop a flinch response to this re: the gremlinman #i see people argue things like oh he’s done nothing wrong (i’m not joking) over and over #its okay! let your blorbo have made a mistake #its fine you can still like them i swear #but like. not loving seeing people calcify the joke into being like “no here’s why they had to be cruel and they don’t need to change” #i keep seeing the idea that izzy shouldn’t need to grow or change people should justbe nicer and coddle him #because you see it’s their fault he acts like this #if they were better at their jobs or patted his wee head he wouldn’t have to be like this you see #and it’s like…for a million reasons no #i am still on the same train i’ve always been: i’d like to see an izzy redemption arc #if only for the sake of the world and the people who will have to be around him in the future #and saying he somehow doesn’t need to change is. weird. #everybody on this show did! even the characters who were pretty close to already self-actualized had growing to do! #so why oh why would izzy be the only exception #just. think about this stuff maybe #and like. to be blunt if you’re white and saying izzy didn’t do anything all that bad i am particularly sideeying #because it happens a lot and it’s like really? nothing? he didn’t make a single mistake? #if you say so… basically.

[toxtricity-v]

I know posts aren’t written with a universal audience in mind and that when people make posts like this they are probably not talking to me but

I HATE posts that are phrased to talk to everyone and say shit like “you NEED to be eating X”

shut up! you do not know a persons needs. just saw one that even went so far as to say they didn’t care if a person has a condition that makes it hard. shut up shut up! things that are healthy for most people are not necessarily good for everyone! like. my body does not tolerate cellulose. it makes me throw up. I can only tolerate vegetables in very specific circumstances, and I’m even then I will, not might, WILL, throw up part of the meal. I also receive premade meals in the mail as a disability accommodation. These meals are inevitably designed to cater to the Healthy Diet For Everyone. and as a result, I can’t eat like half of every single one because it’s steamed vegetables that will make me sick. nothing I can even do about it. it’s not possible to receive medical meals for MY medical needs. not to mention all the other stuff they send me that is prohibited for me (whole grain bread —I’m on a low fiber diet. milk —lactose intolerant. pineapple fruit/juice —allergic. tomatoes…allergic again.)

idk man it is an active problem in my life that everything presumes there is only one way to be healthy. I’m so sick of dealing with it. I DONT want to see it on tumblr too! leave nutrition advice to people’s doctors!!!

#rant #disability #actually disabled #actual diet advice from MY doctors that actually know me: #low fiber (GI specialist) high sodium (cardiologist and geneticist) drink lemonade instead of water (urologist) #reduce vegetable consumption (GI) drink high calorie beverages to supplement calorie intake (GI) #the only ‘normal’ advice was to avoid large amounts of fat #which I do because it makes me as sick as the vegetables #stop presuming you know what’s good for people! #I watch my bf do caretaker training videos to hired to care for me and the nutrition and meal planning section was all the same shit #I cannot express enough that if you try to make me live on high fiber and meals that are half steamed veggies with water to drink and #no salt #I will become malnourished #I will throw up so much that I lose weight and lose cognitive function #I will start collapsing whenever I stand up #and I will become so bloated that I only try to eat once a day #I know this because I’ve been there already due to stupid doctors that tried to shove me into a one size fits all diet #it was the most miserable time of my life #toward the end I was only able to stomach cups of tuna #i developed an aversion to eating in general bc I had linked the act of eating with being sick #I lost like 30 pounds in two months #sorry if I take the subject a little personal

[yawn-emoji]

#who i was march 24 2022 and who i am now are completely different people. i remember crying in caffe reggio to zay sun and adiba because #my dad was in the hospital and we didnt know why and we werent even there to support him and my mom because we had travelled to nyc that #morning. and the whole trip was overshadowed by this sense of grief and fear and horror at what was unfolding back at home while i was #trying to pretend everything was okay and that i was fine. i never cry in public but i cried on the q train while visiting my coworker who #lives in manhattan and then i sobbed in a xi’an famous foods location in manhattan w my brothers because the cheapest and earliest train #home was that night and i had no idea what to do w myself #and when we got home finally we all knew what the diagnosis was but nobody wanted to say it not even the doctors. i dont think anyone used #the actual word cancer to us for months. they cloaked it in such technical terms so as to make it easier to swallow but it was still like. #an elephant in the room yk? nobody told us the stage either but it was a stage iv glioblastoma and i remember going on r/glioblastoma and #just crying reading all the posts abt how difficult this disease is. most projections were six months to a year and a half. a lot of people #even chose not to get treatment because of the high probability that it would make no difference to the prognosis. i have no idea whether we #made the right choice going w chemo or not honestly. only time will tell i guess. inshaAllah this will prove to have been the right choice #idk what im even trying to say now. i just dont reflect a lot on where i was when this started because it’s… almost too painful. i have #given up so much for my dad at this point and i still feel like it’s not enough but also i’ve been trapped by this sickness and i’ve given #up my life to it and idk how to rebuild myself from here. i need to move on w my life but what if these are the last moments w him and i #take those for granted by not staying home to take care of him and spend time w him. again idk what im trying to say here i just have no #idea how we got to this place. it still feels like some insane fever dream that i will suddenly awaken from #seeing pictures of my dad even from 2021 is the hardest thing. i have no idea what happened to that bright funny charismatic loving man. he #is literally a shell of himself at this point and i hate it. it actually turns my stomach sometimes because it all is so wrong #none of this was supposed to happen he was supposed to retire peacefully somewhere tropical in a couple years not get diagnosed w cancer #journal #illness tw

[ghosthart]

when will i find a job that doesn’t ACTIVELY try to push me out and make me quit out of frustration or feeling overwhelmed like i actually like my job but they never listen to me when i say i need to do sales floor for my mental health cuz every job i’ve had i end up quitting with no notice just stop showing up cuz i can’t do it anymore and have a meltdown and i rlly don’t want to leave this job cuz it fits me so well IF they would let me do sales floor but they literally REFUSE to switch my primary job so i’m like wtf do u want then?? me to just quit??

#and like actually i don’t mind cashiering but they make us push credit cards #and we have quotas and stuff #and i’m getting in so much trouble for not meeting the quotas #and i’m worried they can fire me over it #or will start cutting my hours #like they just don’t value me as an employee enough to realize i would do better on the FLOOR not as a cashier #but instead they just want to fire me or push me out instead of keeping an employee that does their job and not having to train a new person #i just don’t get it #and idk how to bring it up like actually address my mental illness things #and i’m worried too that they’ll just not care at all #or try to be like oh really u don’t seem autistic or u don’t seem like u have severe anxiety u function just fine to me #like when i tell ppl that they don’t believe me at all cuz i hide it well to ppl i barely know #only my mom and bf see me have breakdowns and stuff #that’s why i just quit places without saying anything cuz i just snap from the stress of having to hide my issues all day #but like my managers aren’t therapists so they would probably be like uhhh not my problem find a different job #or try to be like well just figure out ways to deal with it like everyone else #i’ve had a boss say that like they were just like it’s not our problem u don’t do well in high stress environments so i had to quit

[presentfuckingmic]

My first watch through of mha, I didn’t care for Mic. I haven’t had a second watch through. I don’t know what happened. Why am I here? How did I get here? Why is he all I think about?

#jk ik my exact train of thought that lead to this #first watch through I still had my long blond hair (gross gross gross) and that was all I could see when I saw him and it made me feel Bad #cause I hated having long hair #then I cut it. then the fifth season came out. I already knew abt oboro but I still cried on the kurogiri scene. #and everyone was talking abt how it affected Aizawa and I was like what abt Mic???? huh?????? #then I started making shit up #then I realized I was projecting #then I started thinking abt him more and more and this is my life now #it’s going GREAT #I’m not kidding this is great #personal #present mic #oh yeah somewhere in there I saw the smart Mic post and that just sealed the deal #smart blond green (RED-) eyed bastard? yeah I can project onto that #also the funny sunglasses #that’s a must for being one of my favorites #also this is like. the first hyperfixation I’ve actually fully let myself have #Phineas and ferb comes CLOSE but not quite #mic? absolutely #gottem!