#I'm putting notes for myself here

[tonyzilla]

ok so I got invited to a halloween party

I rlly need to start working on my allen cosplay soon

I might ask my dad to bring me out shopping tomorrow for stuff.....

#I'm putting notes for myself here #red hoodie #double breasted denim jacket #yellow red blue black fabric paint #yellow woven fabric #white sneakers #INTACT jeans #fingerless gloves #silver square studs #red fabric #tiny belt buckle type things #black fabric #big metal charm(will find a CLOSE ENOUGH sub) #haircut ngl

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 3: Enveloping Feelings.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 4 (soon))

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #Yungmeng Jiang training arc AU #I wanted to try out a different paneling style for this one - sorry I'm a day late! (there will still be a post tomorrow to keep on track) #The original 3 panel comic idea was fine but the point of this new schedule was to take time to push myself a bit more. #I was taking a look back through some comic artists I felt inspired by #and I really loved how Lynda Barry fills her gutters with patterns and doodles! #Obviously I'm not going as absolutely wild with it as she does but it was a great exercise! #I truly think the gutters are the most important and most overlooked part of any comic. There's lots going on in that space. #It's the same with timeskips. The implied movement between moments that we don't see changes depending on how wide that gap is #You're here for the funny tags so here's some that ties this time talk together: #I think LWJ was thinking about that second note from day 2 but it took him 7 days of hazing to commit it to paper. #I think he sends it a day later and immediately regrets it. Chasing down the messenger and everything. #You know if something actually happened to his brother he would never ever forgive himself for putting the bad vibes out there. #Third time skip was the hardest because there was so many possible flavours of jokes here. Day 8/9 was a personal favourite. #day 14 was also funny (week by week). I think the debate on 'how long does lwj take to catch feelings' is more or less: #'how long does it take for him to arrive at a particular stage of grief and yearning (and awareness of it all) #This is a symphony. There is an act by act structure. Every day he is fighting to keep his old sensibilities. He is losing so badly. #(I'll be returning to the main comic soon but there is more of this AU to come!)

[mintjeru]

i would like to award kaveh the highest honor i can bestow 🖤💚🤍

open for better quality | no reposts

#kaveh #genshin impact #genshin #fanart #myart #doodle #this is The Prettiest kaveh and probably The Prettiest art i've ever drawn period #he is very special to me for many reasons #i love him so so much and i'm very thankful to him #and i tried out some of the new csp assets i got recently hehe #the sun/rainbow/dust and lace and clouds are all tools i'm trying out for the first time #and look i incorporated the wood pencil brush #it's so my style it makes me feel like i'm drawing traditionally which is enjoyable #wish i could redo all the apps i've submitted in the past to include this in my portfolio bc- #this lineart feels like it's truest to my style!! and this is what i'm really capable of!! #gonna stop patting myself on the back here but. i'm very happy w/ how this came out #oh and as a note i looked up flowers to put in the bouquet and acanthus means 'fine arts' which was fitting #one site said they can be used to celebrate an architecture graduate so!! perfect for kaveh

[ride-a-dromedary]

Again I know it's supposed to be a haha reference to the turns into a bear when he's too aroused thing, but in again refusing to brush just over the surface of this character: "I must be careful or I'll lose run of myself again. An Archdruid should show *some* restraint." comes across to me as more melancholy than perhaps intended when a. You take it into consideration that several lines imply that Halsin has issues with self control and self servitude, and presenting an "acceptable" version of himself as an outwards facing authority figure, to the point where he brushes over his own feelings, or pushes things that he wants down in the effort to reflect better what others want from him.

And b. Remember that Halsin was essentially just an apprentice when he was forcibly situationally promoted to Archdruid - he wasn't taught *how* to be an Archdruid or trained for it, or mentored; he was thrust into it because they didn't have any other choice. But they needed someone, so he stepped up. Halsin has spent the last century studying and learning things on the fly or through trial and error, and in a position of leadership like that, he is aware that every failure to uphold that mask *counts* and others *are* very much affected. How many times has he muttered that same mantra? Or heard it thrown around? An Archdruid not having control over their own magic is a big deal. Even when he is no longer Archdruid, he still grumbles it to himself. He's been at it over a century and he *still* doesn't feel like he's gotten it right. Even when he is in a place of progression, of trying to gain hold of himself again, those wisps of failure and self doubt still creep into everything. And that's sad to me.

#BG3 Musing #Halsin Posting #haha funny line in response to saucy line that man is about to go feral ooh se- HEY TRAUMA #it's like a med student being promoted to the head of emergency #or an admin assistant suddenly being put in a ceo role #like i know it's a meme scene!! but halsin sounds *humilated* when he accidentally wildshapes during his romance scene #he sounds flustered and embarrassed and is so quickly launching off excuses with a tone that indicates *he thinks it's over* #like he fucked up he fucked this up just when he was *starting* to come into himself again and it never stops #i keep thinking of that one lyric from big thief 'i can't find surrender/and i can't keep control' #and again i'm reading too deep into it but halsin's struggle with failure really is embedded here you just have to...like listen to him #Even when he *says* that there's little point in denying oneself #he does it literally all the time - he did it for a *century* #and i'm not saying he doesn't have fun or not enjoy things but he cuts himself off so early at the root #or buries himself so thoroughly in a self indulgence until it wrecks him and neither of these things are healthy #note that he says as long as others aren't affected - he doesn't say as long as i'm not affecting *myself* #anyway i'm unwell #maybe i was never meant to be archdruid - you weren't! you were meant to protect nature's spirit and roam with the wilds #and yet he still did the best he could and people *admire* him and followed him but he may never come to see it that way #you ruined a perfectly good wood elf - look it's got trauma and anxiety (and larian turned him into a meme and i won't forgive them)

[quarks-pussy]

[Images description: Twelve pictures of Star Trek actors. The phrase "thank you for being both amazing actors and amazing people" is written across most of the images one word at a time, except for the two images in the middle. The middle images are of William Shatner, reading "not you!" and Robert Beltran, reading "or you for that matter". The actors in the other images are George Takei, René Auberjonois, DeForest Kelley, Gates McFadden, Wil Wheaton, Kate Mulgrew, Patrick Stewart, Siddig El Fadil (aka Alexander Siddig), Nichelle Nichols and Leonard Nimoy. End image description.]

Non exhaustive list of course. Many more such cases, in fact feel free to add

(insp)

#i considered putting sid's full name in the image description but i felt that might complicate things for screen reader users #but just so it's in the post i'll put it in the tags #siddig el tahir el fadil el siddig abdurrahman mohammed ahmed abdel karim el mahdi #yes i did copy paste it my memory is shit. i can't even remember my own full name... #(i gave myself like five different middle names at one point because if i'm already changing my name for trans reasons i might as well have #fun with it right but eventually i stopped using them because i literally kept forgetting my own name and had to look it up) #(i still have the note btw and since it seems i won't legally be using that last name anyway (nor any of the middle names) feel free to ask #anyway #star trek #not star trek #(schrödinger's post lol) #oh!!! i forgot one version of sid's name!! here goes #صدّيق الطاهر الفاضل الصدّيق عبدالرحمن محمد أحمد عبدالكريم المهدي #to be fair there's nothing in that tag (right now) but i guess i'm a completionist. or something #the others are ofc already findable because of the image description #oh and just fyi if you wanna add others do feel free to add new trek actors. i didn't include any here essentially because as soon as i inc #include one of them people are gonna complain i didn't include more of them. plus i ran out of space. sorry tawny #oh and to that one anon: i WILL still answer but i needed a break lol #original posts fresh from quark's pussy

[taegularities]

some men are textbook villains fr

#tw religion? #kinda need to rant.. kinda wanna explain what's going on #some ppl are part of humanity but don't know how to be humane... like the guy i started talking to almost 2 weeks ago #liked him a lot bc he was funny sickeningly sweet mature and understanding.. until he was not #tl dr version is that we somehow drifted to the topic religion and i told him im not too religious and don't believe in superstition much #i was extremely respectful and even when he said that he does believe a lot i was like 'thats cool!! different people believe in different #things!!' and at first it was a normal convo until man went all psycho on me (after one damn week!!!) and started talking about how #id have to be religious in a relationship with him.. my dude i barely know your fav food can we not talk about relationships yet #but he says he doesn't even need a woman who cooks/cleans just someone who believes.. n im like i get it but i can't change myself like that #and then guy moves to marriage and is all 'well my entire family is religious' n my mom and sister (who's 16) would be putting pressure on #you n force you to pray etc.. and I'm like???? who can force anyone to a thing like that are u kidding #things escalate and my absolute STUPID ass tells him about my deepest fkn trauma to explain what made me abandon religion bc #life just never got better and this trauma remained for yrs... and he gets so angry that he says he wants to stop talking to me just to spam #me all day next day.. he'd keep messaging me switching between 'i still want you we shouldn't throw this away i have feelings for you' #AFTER A WEEEEEEKKKK!!! and then goes back to 'i wasted my time with you you were so unnecessary im in a bad mood bc of you' #even said 'you'll never find a guy with a trauma and mindset like this. i will find a religious girl but no one will love you like that' #and the worst thing is that he told his friends and mom about the trauma i had just to spite me.. note that he promised to never tell anyone #(and then still asked for forgiveness and for me to rethink whether we want to end this after telling me 473626x he wanted to end it) #(nothing even ever started you bitchass) #also note that his mom knows my mom n basically most of my relatives.. so i was here trembling for days fearing they'd get to know about it #mom somehow convinced her to not tell anyone bc it's important to me and very very fucking personal.. #but he harassed me all day - i wouldn't answer and he'd send 55 messages.. multiple missed calls like dude i got so fkn scared #my heart jumped whenever he texted he was so fkn aggressive and SO MEAN #'you just needed to adjust and we would've been okay' 'tell me are u gonna fkn be religious or not????' 'you ruined everything' kinda mean #i just :') it was the worst time and i don't think i've ever seen someone degrade me so much or make me feel this defective #but.. it's finally over. his mom called my mom and mine was like pls teach him some manners.. n since i couldn't and wouldn't text him back #and literally avoided whatsapp bc of him she ended it all for me and now it's hopefully done forever #anyway i saw jks gcf performance yday n him singing still with you put a genuine smile on my face.. ill stick to THAT boyfriend honestly lol #def gonna delete later #but ty for reading if u did <3

[all-mighty-axle-arc]

sword, would you wear this dress? i was doing some looking and thought it would be a good style for you, swordfighters tend to have really defined shoulders after all

https://i.pinimg.com/564x/52/45/36/524536d4a166b0e6a7725ac5b92639d7.jpg

(link because i can't post media on anon)

-alitz anon

"uh.. yeah, sure! not really the type to wear dresses but i think it looks fine? i can't tell myself."

#how do people walk in these? #it's definitely an interesting challenge to not accidentally trip over myself! #//alitz i respect and thank you so much for this ask LOL #//this is the first proper dress i've drawn in such a long time and it's so funny that i'm putting it on this dude #//also nice taste in dresses tbh #sword phighting #sword answers #sword parody art #roblox fanart #phighting sword #phighting fanart #//side note i thought it would make more sense for sword to actually speak instead of type here #//just act like this is going on separately from anything else rn

[omaano]

For Day 7 AU/Freebie of @dincobbweek - I don't feel like cleaning this up, but I really wanted to take the chance to go wild with some tattoos here.

Special thanks to @tosye for helping with brainstorming (even though a good part of them is covered up) and for the motivation to finish this <3

#dincobb #dincobb week #dincobbweek2022 #my art #cobb vanth #din djarin #the mandalorian fanart #I didn't suffer an hour with Cobb's arm to later realize that that would be the arm he maybe loses #so I'll just make a note for myself that all those tats are supposed to be on the other arm #I don't hate myself that much #so he got a scar way too low and we'll be just ignoring that one yeah? #I had to pull up so many of my own pics here for reference it wasn't even funny XD #quick sketch I said so that I could show something for two days of the week LOL #I'm not putting variations of my sister's tattoo on my faves not at all #I need to sleep now it's 3 am wtf #waaaay past my usual posting time T^T

[just-slightly-chayotic]

obviously, i can't confirm that this is The Sweater™️ but i think i found Jeff's sunflower sweater from today!

#i can't afford it myself rn unfortunately but 😭 #i'm definitely getting it when i can #so i figured i'll put it on here too #partly so i don't lose the damn link in between the 1000 of notes i have on my phone #jeff satur #kinnporsche #kinnporsche cast #maybe it will be sold out by the time i finally get around to buying it and i'll calm doen #down* #i'll regret my entire life but whatever #jeff satur fits #I actually should still have the link to his pearl/metal beads necklace somewhere #i bought that one seconds after finding it and it was the best 80€ ever spent #it's a trait of my personality now #i literally wear it every day

[thatdykepunkslut]

No popular lesbian artist has all five:

Draws people of color

Draws trans people (realistically or at all)

Draws fat people

Draws people with short hair

Draws butches (related to the previous 2 but not synonymous)

#punkblogging #there's like AN artist on twitter that's pretty good about this stuff #but all the art on here that gets hundreds of thousands of notes is #retro 50s skinny high femme stereotype making out with her practical mirror image #or there'll be a girl with an undercut and a GIRLBOSS t shirt or whatever #and I'm still working through biases myself like I'm not better than anyone else #I'm just noticing shit and trying to put it down in words so I remember to do what I can to change it

[optiwashere]

Needed to lay down and try to sleep for longer than an hour today, and in doing so I blearily looked at general fandom tags because I wanted to see silly fanart.

Instead I got hit full-force with reality of so much drama over the wildest little shit. I've been cursed with sight.

I have also never been happier to stay in my own bubble away from... all of that.

All that to say, I'm keeping this blog free of more stuff like this but holy fuck it hit me like a freight train. All this drama exhausts me and I don't know how anyone keeps up with it. I prefer to think of this place as the equivalent of a cabin in the woods, one where I emerge every few days with a few thousand words for people to devour with their eyes.

#personal nonsense #random fandom thoughts #these tags are deranged because it's very late here and I'm running on chunks of sleep no human ever should #holy fuck I knew people were going to be weird but watching a ~4 month speedrun of one of the WORST fandoms I've ever seen in my life is... #and now the weird VA shit I knew was going to be weird has gotten... weird! shocking. quelle suprise. #it's incredible tbh and I find it hilarious because I was playing over here in my corner by myself until then #I mean I'd gladly take weird shipping bullshit in my asks rather than some of the other weirdos that make it personal #but I'm beyond grateful I've managed to avoid that entirely I am blessed and my crops are watered #“I could never put another character with Character X because that gets in the way of Blorbo Y!” is a little cute at first #until you reach the logical conclusion of that holy fuck lmfao #on a minor note I'm glad I chose to stay away from the subreddits bc I peeked in and saw the equivalent of “I touched fire and it was hot?" #there is one person in particular obsessed with shadowheart there but is violently defensive of One True Wayism and it's insufferable

[sincaraz]

I was tagged by @fedalgaard and today I will finally do one of the games you tag me in (thank you I love you)

Rules: bold (or colour) stuff that applies to you and then tag your friends.

Appearance:

i'm over 5'5" // i wear glasses/contacts // i have blonde hair // i prefer loose clothing to tight clothing // i have one or more piercings // i have at least one tattoo // i have blue eyes // i have dyed or highlighted my hair // i have gotten plastic surgery //I have had braces // i sunburn easily // i have freckles // i paint my nails // i typically wear make-up // i don’t often smile // i am pleased with how i look // i prefer nike to adidas // i wear baseball hats backwards.

Hobbies and talents:

i play a sport // i can play an instrument // i am artistic // i know more than one language // i have won a trophy in some sort of competition // i can cook or bake without a recipe // i know how to swim // i enjoy writing // i can do origami // i prefer movies to tv shows // i can execute a perfect somersault // i enjoy singing // i could survive in the wild on my own // i have read a new book series this year // i enjoy spending time with friends // i travel during school or work breaks // i can do a handstand.

Relationship:

i am in a relationship // i have been single for over a year // i have a crush // i have a best friend i have known for ten years // my parents are together // i have dated my best friend // i am adopted // my crush has confessed to me // i have a long distance relationship // i am an only child // i give advice to my friends // i have made an online friend // i met up with someone i have met online.

Aesthetics:

i have heard the ocean in a conch shell // i have watched the sun rise // i enjoy rainy days // i have slept under the stars // i meditate outside // the sound of chirping calms me // i enjoy the smell of the beach // i know what snow tastes like // i listen to music to fall asleep // i enjoy thunderstorms // i enjoy cloud watching // i have attended a bonfire // i pay close attention to colours // i find mystery in the ocean // i enjoy hiking on nature paths // autumn is my favourite season.

Miscellaneous:

i can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // i am the mom friend // i live by a certain quote // i like the smell of sharpies // i am involved in extracurricular activities // i enjoy mexican food // i can drive a stick-shift // i believe in true love // i make up scenarios to fall asleep // i sing in the shower // i wish i lived in a video game // i have a canopy above my bed // i am multiracial // i am a redhead // i own at least three dogs.

I'll tag @serve-cunt @drinkthislcl @bluetackbaby @drunkenromantic @shambolicchaos and @jcferrero (no pressure just love)

#you tagged me on my main but I'm putting it here instead #this was fun #also various notes here: #some days I do like how I look #just depends #I can cook or bake without a recipe but sometimes it tastes Bad #I had to do a somersault on my bedroom floor to test myself and now there's dog hair all over my back but I succeeded so it's a win #I 'dated' my friend for a few days in middle school. not counting that #my cousin started teaching me how to drive stick shift in july and i got up to 3rd gear at one point but only in a parking lot. doesnt coun #my parents own three dogs and I consider them my own because I still consider it my primary home even though I don't live here all the time #tag games

[metalandmagi]

I don't normally make posts like this, but I think it's really interesting how the Barbie movie seems to be in that spot between "queer enough to make conservatives mad and get it banned in certain countries" but somehow not queer enough for some people to still ask "what's queer about it?"

Queer themes and vibes come from more than just two men or two women making out. Allan is the basic representation of gender that doesn't conform to being a Barbie or Ken. Weird barbie is the lesbian experience, full stop. Barbie has the asexual experience of never wanting a love interest and feeling fulfilled without a sexual or romantic partner. Also...whatever the hell was going on with Magic Earring Ken and Sugar Daddy Ken.

I think what this movie has done is depict themes that are queer enough for people who have these experiences to recognize and see themselves on screen (I see myself in Allan and in Barbie's disinterest in a romantic partner), but people's milage may vary. If you wanted things to be more explicit, that's valid. If you liked it and saw yourself represented, that's valid too. If you're disappointed with the representation or lack of it, that's understandable. We all have different experiences, and at the end of the day, it's just a movie.

All this to say, I think it's just an interesting phenomenon (and kind of reflective of Gloria's "it is literally impossible to be a woman" speech).

#barbie movie #i know i'm setting myself up for angry people coming after me here #sorry to put the person in my notes on blast but i literally mention allan and weird barbie in that post as examples too #i can understand the different viewpoints about its themes and how some people might hate them or love them #but i can't understand how some people don't think it's queer at all

[red-moon-at-night]

I am very Normal

by the way, if anyone has a higher quality image of the back of the Undercover CD I would be most grateful. because I am low-key fighting for my life here with some of these runes

#don't worry the image I have looks better than this it's just the notes page screenshot that's compressing it #anyway. watch me find out someone decoded this already (if so... please share I am most interested 👀) #I do have to remember though that this is quite frankly unhinged behaviour and maybe I really am the only one out here making these choices #milgram #am I actually putting this in the main tag #capri talks #okay but I need you to know this deciphering business is giving me great enrichment and stimulation. I want you to know this brings me joy #also I need to say this is just my current workings and its messy and incomplete so. don't judge me I'm exposing myself here I'm vulnerable

[vulpinesaint]

did the outline for it and this unit assessment is going to be fine actually. i know i always hate the very thought of an assignment until i spend five minutes on an outline but in my defense i have been uncharacteristically fucked up and unwell all week and this has been severely distressing 😭

#still not gonna be Good i'm gonna hate doing it. but it'll be manageable. esp if i have miffy there #not even a question of quality like i know it's going to be good work i'm the one doing it. #the thought of having to put in the effort to Do that good work is overcoming my whole body with terrible stress chemicals though #hate it here. going to actually sleep tonight. my promise to myself #AUGH. THOUGHT I WAS READY FOR TOMORROW BUT I DIDN'T DO EVERYTHING AFTER ALL... #it's okay. bracken of tomorrow morning remember that you need to do your creative writing workshop responses at work tomorrow #the kids haven't been coming in until like 7:20 i'll have plenty of time... just have to bring the lappy top... #valentine notes #academia

[bbibbirose]

Crazy how our habits are acc just a huge collection of the habits of everyone in our lives and/or what we've been told

#concept of acquisition !! who'd have thought ! #but jay's note taking habits are subconsciously my own now bc I thought they made my handwriting pretty(ier) #I showed my other friend now she uses it too #I play w my necklace when im rlllly nervous bc I used to read abt a book character playing w their ring and I j never owned a ring #I still put ranch on my pizza bc I was told NOT to do it but don't we all love doing things we're told not to #my roommate is a huge prankster and I was never one for doing them but I've found myself pulling some harmless ones for the hell of it #I've also given a good amt of my floor a Taco Bell addiction #I'm here to spread the word #.text