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luvyblossom · 8 months

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Love me (not) Pt. 4

Hello Lovelies,

Here is the long awaited part 4. I've been swamped with me thesis :( (I'm still not done.) I tried to proofread it but my eyes are tired so excuse any typos. This is a spicy chapter so MDNI. As always, my requests are open and let me know what you think!

Enjoy!

W/c: 6.7k

Pairing: reader x Hyunjin, reader x Felix

Warnings: this fic contains sexual content. MDNI

Series Masterlist

content tags: smut, fluff, college!au, nonidol!au, jealousy, use of red light system, rough sex, unprotected piv (wrap it before you tap it), alcohol,

I think that's it. let me know if I missed anything

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"See you tonight," Felix gave you a quick peck on the cheek before leaving you at your usual study spot.

You smiled at him and waved bye as you sat down across from Hyunjin. He rolled his eyes at you and mock-threw up. "Stop that," you playfully hit his arm.

“You’re busy tonight?” Hyunjin tried to sound casual about it. This was the fourth night in a row where you had plans with Felix. He barely has time with you nowadays except for your study sessions that Felix could no longer attend because of his taekwondo practice. It took everything within him to tolerate Felix but he didn’t want to lose what little time he did get with you.

“Yeah we’re going out for dinner,” you answered, taking out your books. Exams were coming up so you had been trying to keep up with all your work.

"What time do you think you'll get home tonight?" Hyunjin asked for purely selfish reasons. He felt reassured that you had not spent a night with Felix, always coming home alone after your dates. Not that he really cared about your sex life- he assured himself. No, he didn’t care but he didn’t like Felix and he didn’t want him touching you.

"You can't stay over," you hastily said. After every one of your dates, you had come home to Hyunjin waiting for you, ready to take his spot next to you in bed. You were grateful that Felix was not the jealous type because you often had guys who had wanted to choose between Hyunjin and them. Hyunjin always won.

“Why not?”

“Cause I may not be coming home alone tonight,” you giggled. You appreciated how sweet Felix was but you had been dating for long enough and you were starting to get impatient. Your makeout sessions were getting more and more handsy and always left you wanting more. You had the cutest lingerie picked out for tonight and you hoped that you wouldn't be left wanting more once again.

Hyunjin glared at you, his jaw tensing at your words. "Why exactly won't you be coming home alone tonight?"

"Um cause Felix might stay over," you gave a questioning look to Hyunjin.

Hyunjin willed himself to see past his rage. If he said anything it would just cause another argument between the two of you. He started packing up his stuff and got up.

"Where are you going?" You asked.

"I have to meet up with someone." He said coldly and started walking away before you could say anything.

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You opened your door to let Felix in. He handed you a bouquet of flowers. He’d been getting you some every week so you never had a day your vase went empty. “I’m almost ready,” you smiled at him as you picked a pair of heels to slip on.

“You look beautiful as always, Love,” he kissed you on the cheek as he held out his hand so you could walk out together. You took his hand, blushing at the nickname he had taken to calling you. Since you and Felix had officially started seeing each other, your moments with him left you nervous, heart beating fast, and trying to overcome the butterflies that erupted whenever he touched you.

Felix wore a black button-down shirt with the sleeves rolled up perfectly displaying his forearms. You admired the veins popping from his arm as he gripped the steering wheel, following one vein down to his hands. You began to imagine how those hands would look wrapped around your neck. You shook your head to get rid of the thought. Being with Felix recently had been mostly frustrating. Here was a gorgeous man and after spending time with him and with your make-out sessions getting more and more intense, all you wanted was for him to pin you down and fuck you.

Tonight you dressed as sexy as possible. Everything was shaved and you had on the cutest black lacy lingerie under your skimpy dress. You sat across the table from Felix, once again lost in the thought of his toned arms and his fingers, the ways he could use them. You managed to get through most of your dinner joking around with Felix, allowing you some reprieve from your earlier thoughts but you hadn't forgotten about your plan.

“What’s on your mind?” Felix asked pulling you out of your daze.

You looked at him, summoning all of your confidence you said, “Nothing, just thinking about all the things you could do to me for dessert.” You gulped, trying to battle the nerves that arose from your statement as you waited for his reaction.

Felix coughed, choking on the sip he had just taken of his drink. He looked at you in awe, not used to you being so blatant. You had been very shy since the night you both watched the sunset. Felix had only been encouraged to take things even slower with you. He adored how shy you would get, only making him want you more, but he hadn't wanted to push you. This was a new side to you that he was seeing, "What's gotten into you, love?"

Instead of replying you kicked your heel off, his reaction fuelling your confidence. You traced your foot up his calf under the table, earning a surprised look from him. His look quickly turned to a smirk as he leaned across the table to whisper, "You’re being really naughty today baby. Are you sure you can take the punishment?”

You weren’t sure if it was his deep voice or his words, probably a bit of both, but it sent a chill up your spine. You could feel the heat from your core rising to your cheeks to cover them with a blush. You were grateful when Felix waved over the waiter and asked for the cheque so you could finally leave the restaurant. Your panties were already wet as you climbed into his car. Your heart was beating in anticipation as Felix drove.

The hand that he had placed on your exposed thigh was beginning to inch upwards. You were craving his touch as his fingers pressed up your thigh, giving your flesh a little squeeze. Finally, his hand reached your panties but instead of touching you where you needed him, he fluttered his fingers on the edge of your underwear. You let out an embarrassing whine asking for more.

“What is it, baby? Can’t be patient?” Felix teased. You squirmed in your seat as you continued to soak through your panties. Felix chuckled as he kept teasing, slipping one finger under your panties. “Fuck.” Felix groaned, “You’re already so wet for me.”

“Please,” you were shamelessly begging him now for some stimulation. Felix continued to trace the outside of your labia while you bucked up, trying to get more stimulation than he was willing to give.

Felix clicked his tongue when he felt your hips jerk, moving his hand away from your pussy to trace up to your chest. Your dress had been far too revealing to wear a bra so Felix was easily able to trace over your hardening nipples through the thin fabric. He pulled more moans from you when he pinched the sensitive buds. You tried to snake your hand down to provide yourself some relief but you were too slow. Felix quickly grabbed your hand, "You've already been so naughty, Love. Are you sure you want to add to your punishment?"

You gave him a pleading look to no avail. Any ounce of dignity you had disappeared as you begged the gorgeous man sitting next to you for just a single touch. Felix was kind enough to bring his fingers back to your core, letting his fingers lightly trace over your clit. He began to tease one finger at your entrance. "Felix, please."

He smirked at you, "What is it, baby?"

"I want you to fuck me." If words could make a man cum, those words would be enough for Felix to bust. He tried to keep his composure as he searched for a place he could pull over. He had wanted to wait until you both were home, but at this rate with the way your words dripped with lust, he didn't think he could last for the entire drive.

Felix located an empty parking lot and pulled the car in. You climbed onto his lap as soon as he shifts into park. Felix giggles, "You're so impatient"

Before he can let another word out, you crash your lips onto his pulling him into a deep and messy kiss. His tongue traces your lips and you give him entrance letting him deepen the kiss further. You both swallow each other's moans and you begin to grind down on his hardened length over his pants. You both gasped in harmony, finally feeling the friction you needed.

Felix's hands were all over you, feeling every curve of your body as you continued to grind down on him. He squeezed your ass before tracing over your back to resume playing with your nipples. He pushed the straps of your dress off of your shoulders, allowing the flimsy material to fall and reveal your bare breasts to him. He just stared.

"What is it?" you started to feel a bit self-conscious under his gaze.

He managed to peel his eyes away from your chest, looking up at you with lustful eyes, "You're so fucking hot."

You blushed at the comment. A moan left your lips as you felt Felix latch his puffy lips onto your nipple while pinching the other one between his fingers. You couldn't get enough of him. You started to clumsily unbutton his shirt until you reached the waistband of his pants. You took your time unbuttoning his pants and lowering the zipper. You pulled out his painfully hard cock, admiring how much precum was dripping out of him. You wrapped your fingers around him and rubbed his precum over his tip using your thumb.

'He's so tall and handsome as hell.He's so bad, but he does it so well,'

Felix groaned as he felt your fingers wrap around him. He brought his lips to your neck, nipping and kissing all the sensitive spots he's mapped on you, and brought his finger back down to your sopping pussy.

'I can see the end as it begins, my one condition is,'

You slowly began to stroke his length as you felt his finger push into you. He fucked his finger in and out of you before adding a second finger in.

'Say you'll remember me, standing in a nice dress, staring at the sunset, babe.'

The car was filled with moans as you ground down on his hand, riding his fingers and feeling his palm brush against your clit. He bucked his hips, trying to fuck your hand. Between moans, you whispered in his ear, "I want to feel you inside me."

'Red lips and rosy cheeks.Say you'll see me again,'

Felix quickly pulled his fingers out of you and lined up his throbbing cock with your entrance. He slid his length along your wet folds, making you jolt as he rubbed his tip over your clit. He began to tease your entrance with his tip

'Even if it's just in your wildest dreams.'

You froze, finally taking notice of the music. You almost ignored it, but you knew your mind would wander if you didn't acknowledge it. You looked apologetically at your boyfriend, "I'm sorry baby. I just need a second."

You reached over to the passenger seat, grabbed your phone, and answered the call, knowing who it would be before you picked on account of the special ringtone you'd assigned to him. "This better be important." The words came out in a whimper as you felt Felix's tip enter you.

"Y/n?" his words slurred, giving away how drunk he was. "I was scared you wouldn't pick up," you heard his voice break as he said these words.

Worry clouded your eyes as you placed a hand on Felix's chest to signal him to stop his movement. "Hyune, what's wrong? Are you okay? Do you need me, tell me what I can do," the questions frantically spilled from your mouth. Hyunjin barely cried, there was something wrong.

"I miss you-" his sentence was cut off as you heard him gagging.

Another voice was on the line now, "It's Chris. Are you able to make it over? He's a mess, almost and he won't listen to us, he's been begging to talk to you."

"Yes. I'll be there soon." You hung up the call. Your heart which was racing because of Felix just a minute ago was now pounding in your chest as you worried about your best friend.

Felix looked at you with a fallen expression that he was trying to conceal, "where do you need to be?"

"Can you take me to Hyunjin's?" You moved back to the passenger seat when Felix nodded yes. Both of you tried to look decent and then were back on the road. You looked straight out of the windshield, nervously chewing on your fingernails. Your attention was distracted for a second as you felt Felix's hand wrap around yours and give it a reassuring squeeze.

"What's going on baby?" He asked between clenched teeth, knowing that whatever was going on was because of Hyunjin. He tried to keep his cool, always reminding himself that you were dating him and not Hyunjin. You had chosen him. But damn Hyunjin was starting to really get on his nerves. This better have been important because if his date had been ruined over a tantrum, Felix would have some choice words for him. The only thing that had held him back until now had been his respect for you and not wanting to appear too possessive and controlling.

You were too lost in your thoughts to recognize Felix's rage. "I'm not quite sure, Hyunjin is a drunk mess and he sounded so upset. Apparently, he's not listening to anyone and was asking for me. I should've noticed that something was wrong. He's been a bit distant lately and he left so abruptly. I should've asked him what was bothering him." You felt so guilty for not being there for him. He knew how to party but Hyunjin rarely let himself get wasted. And allowing himself to cry in front of others, there had to be something really wrong.

You almost shot out of your seat as you neared the familiar house. Whatever event had been going on had started to die down by the time you reached. You smiled over at Felix giving him a quick kiss on the cheek, "I'm so lucky to have you. Thank you. I promise I'll make it up to you."

Felix's heart softened with your gaze, allowing him to momentarily calm down his anger, "Of course Love. No matter how late it is, please call me for a ride home. You can also stay over at mine if it's too late."

You gave him another smile before saying your goodbyes and rushing into the house and up the stairs. You turned the corner into the bathroom and found Han, Changbin, and Jeongin crowding at the entrance. You pushed past the familiar faces of Hyunjin's frat brothers to find him with half-closed eyes sitting on the floor with his legs splayed out in front of him and leaning against the toilet. A very concerned-looking Chris sat next to him, trying to get him to drink some water.

You squatted down in front of Hyunjin, taking one of his hands into yours, "Hyune, I'm here."

Hyunjin gazed at you through his lashes, giving you a sleepy smile. You could see where the tears had stained his face, eliciting a pang of pain deep in your stomach. You never liked to see Hyunjin upset.

He turned his hand so that he could intertwine his fingers between yours. He pulled you towards him, causing you to lose your balance and land awkwardly on his lap with your face in his chest. He held you tight against him in a big bear hug, making it difficult to move.

“Fuck.” You heard Chris curse. This was followed by 'ooohhhs' and 'you're in trouble now' by the rest of the boys who were still in the bathroom. You tried to pry your head out and see what the commotion was about. You looked up to see Chris, dripping from the water that he had been trying to coax Hyunjin to drink, likely as a result of Hyunjin pulling you. Somehow the water had avoided the both of you, landing only on Chris. You let out a giggle, enticing the rest of the room to burst into laughter as well, including Hyunjin. Chris gave him a small punch in the arm, it seemed innocent but considering his physique, you were sure it must have hurt a little.

Hyunjin let out a dramatic cry, "Owwwwww, Y/n he's hurting me."

You were relieved, happy to hear Hyunjin return to himself after the sad state you had heard him in earlier. "I think you deserved it. Now let me go."

"Never." Hyunjin let out a contented sigh, holding you even tighter as you struggled.

"You boys could help me," your voice came out muffled as your face pressed into his chest. Changbin and Jeongin fought with Hyunjin managing to help you escape from his grasp. You looked down at Hyunjin, still slumped over on the floor. “Do you feel better? Are you done throwing up?”

He nodded yes, briefly lifting his head, his face covered in a pout after your great escape.

You turned to the boys, “Changbin help me get him up, Han and Jeongin grab him some food and water. ” You didn’t do much to help Changbin drag Hyunjin to his room. Hyunjin groaned when Changbin tossed him onto the bed, rolling over onto his side. The boys had already put a couple of slices of pizza on his side table.

You sat down next to Hyunjin, rubbing soothing circles on his back. “Hyune, get up. You should eat something and then you can get some rest.”

“I don’t wanna,” he was still pouting.

“Okay, then I’m gonna go since you don’t need my help,” you teased.

He reluctantly sat up, facing you and opening his mouth, expecting you to feed him.

“You’re such a baby,” you teased him while you fed him. You handed him a water bottle after he was done. “Drink, I’m gonna get something to clean you up a bit.” Hyunjin complied and you returned with his toothbrush and a warm washcloth to wipe his face. You went into his closet, picking out some sleep clothes for him. “You need to change into PJs.”

Hyunjin just lifted his arms, “I’m too tired, I need help.” His words were still slurred.

“You’re wearing a button down you idiot,” you said as you pushed his arms back down. You began to unbutton the black shirt he wore, giggling when Hyunjin squirmed when your light touches tickled him. Your breath hitched when you had finished unbuttoning the shirt. It had been a while since you had seen him like this. Had he been working out? He had a perfectly toned torso with washboard abs. You helped him slip off the shirt, not failing to notice his muscular arms.

“Stop staring,” Hyunjin’s words brought you back from your daze. “Pervert!!” Hyunjin covered his chest with his arms.

You just rolled your eyes, slipping the t-shirt over his head. “I am not changing your pants for you.” You turned around to give him some sort of privacy. You could hear the struggle as he tried to change his clothes while drunk. “Are you done? Are you okay?”

“I did it,” you turned to see Hyunjin on the floor again, now wearing his pajama bottoms and grinning proudly. You helped him back into bed, settling him under his blanket before picking up his clothes and tossing them into the hamper. You moved the garbage bin next to his bed, just in case he did feel sick.

“Are you comfy?” Hyunjins hummed contently. “Okay. Goodnight, I’ll check in on you tomorrow okay?”

Hyunjin slightly got up from his comfy position, “can’t you stay? Please stay.”

It was pretty late, and you were tired after helping him into bed. “Okay, I’ll stay, lie down I’m just gonna take a shower.” You went and grabbed yourself one of his t-shirts to change into, and a towel before going in to take a hot shower. The shirt covered more on you than your dress had so you didn’t feel the need to wear sweats. With how much heat radiated off of Hyunjin you would be sweating anyway. You climbed into bed next to Hyunjin expecting him to be asleep already. You sat up and opened up the book you’d been working your way through on your phone, not quite ready to fall asleep yet. Hyunjin felt you getting settled, he moved towards you, placing his head in your lap, and wrapping an arm around you.

“I thought you were asleep,”

“I am,” Hyunjin said with his eyes closed. You laughed, running your fingers absentmindedly through his hair. You felt Hyunjin’s hand on your exposed thigh, rubbing small circles along your leg. You could feel that familiar tingly sensation beginning to form. You grabbed his hand, hoping to stop whatever was going through your mind. You chalked it up to you being a little extra sensitive because of your unfinished business with Felix earlier in the night, choosing to move on from how Hyunjin’s hands had just sent sparks through your body.

Hyunjin wrapped your fingers in his hand, “your hands are always so cold.” Both of you sat happily in silence as you kept reading through your book.

“I love you,” Hyunjin interrupted the silence with his slurred words. You looked towards him, finding him looking back at you.

You gave him a warm smile that truly came from within, his words warming you up. “I love you too Hyune.”

“You do?” He looked at you with wide eyes, looking like a kid at that moment.

“Of course I do. You’re my best friend,”

Hyunjin settled his head back down in your lap, closing his eyes with his lips forming a small smile. “You shouldn’t love too many people, it’ll get diluted.”

“Hyune, that's not how it works. You can love lots of people, there’s not a limit.”

“It’s less special then.”

You giggled, hearing his childish tone as he tried to argue with you, “You’re very special to me. Don’t worry.”

“Okay.” He seemed happy with your answer.

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You woke up well before Hyunjin. Still tired from the late night, you decided to enjoy the warmth of bed a little longer, scrolling through insta on your phone. Hyunjin clung to you as usual so it wasn’t like you could move anyway and you didn’t want to wake him. You were momentarily released as Hyunjin turned, allowing you to get up and grab a glass of water and painkiller for Hyunjin before settling back into the warm covers.

Hyunjin peaked at you through squinted eyes and groaned, “Why do I feel like shit?”

You handed Hyunjin water and the painkiller. He sat up a bit, gladly accepting it. “You were so needy last night,” you teased him.

Hyunjin’s head snapped to look at you, “what?” He said nervously, still blurry on the details of the night before. He wasn’t sure if he had said something stupid in front of you.

“It’s okay,” you reassured him, “I forgive you for taking me away from my date night.” You had mistaken his nervousness for guilt over his actions. You turned to look at him as he rubbed the sleep out of his eyes. His hair was a mess and his face was scrunched up.

“Why are you staring at me?” Hyunjin said.

“You are just so cute,” you pinched his cheek as he gave you a death glare.

“I’m not cute, I’m sexy.” You just giggled at his response, reaching to pinch his cheek once again. This time he grabbed your hand before you could get to him. His other hand began to tickle you.

“Hyunjin noooo!” you screamed between your tortured giggles.

“I’ll stop if you say Hyunjin you’re so sexy” You shook your head in refusal, unable to get words out at this point. You tried to use your free hand to tickle him back but soon lost that too. Hyunjin easily pinned both of your hands above you as he continued to tickle mercilessly. “All you have to do is say it.”

You kicked your legs, still trying to win. Finally succeeding, you knocked Hyunjin’s knee. He lost balance and his tickling hand landed beside your head as he stopped himself from falling onto you, his face just inches away from yours. You should have moved but you were frozen in place, the only thought in your mind was the way you could feel his breath fan against you. Hyunjin loosened his grasp on your hands, allowing you to free your hands but you didn’t move. You were drowning in his dark eyes as your heart thumped, loud enough that it drowned out any sound around you.

Hyunjin was the first to move, clearing his throat and sitting up, letting go of your hands completely. You were still frozen in place, trying to get your brain to become functional again. You managed to croak out, “Breakfast?”

Hyunjin, already red-faced after getting a look at you, turned his head to look away from you, “Um-uh do you want pants?”

It was your turn to blush. The little tickle fight had left you disheveled with the t-shirt you wore riding up your stomach, exposing your very skimpy underwear. You scrambled to cover yourself, wanting to die from shame and cursing yourself for not wearing pants. “Yes please,” you squeaked out. Hyunjin quickly climbed off the bed, quickly tossing a pair of sweatpants your way before walking out of the room and closing the door to give you some privacy. You whisper-screamed into a pillow trying to figure out how you could be around Hyunjin after exposing yourself like that. After taking a couple more minutes to wallow, you slipped on the sweats and made your way downstairs to the kitchen. You were a bit relieved to not see Hyunjin there. Instead, you saw Chris working away to cook breakfast and the boys fooling around at the table.

“Good morning,” you said as you took a seat next to Seungmin.

“How do you want your eggs?” Chris asked from the kitchen.

“Scrambled please.”

“How was your date?” Seungmin teased you.

“So did you two finally make it official?” Han piped up before you could say anything.

You nodded your head, a bit surprised that Han knew about you and Felix.

“Really? We thought so because Hyunjin hasn’t had anyone around in a while but we haven’t seen you either so we weren’t sure,” Jeongin added.

“I don’t know why he’s been such an ass recently then. You gotta make him more cheerful Y/n,” Changbin added.

The boys spoke so fast that it took you a second to process the conversation. “No, I’m dating-” you were interrupted as Hyunjin entered the room and loudly pulled out the chair at the edge of the table closest to you. “Felix” you finished after he sat down. “The date was good but cut short,” you answered Seungmin, glancing over at Hyunjin.

Chris came in, balancing plates with food for everyone. Everyone said their thank yous and began to dig in. “We need to figure out where we’re staying this spring,” Chris said as he took a seat as well. He was referring to a spring break trip they had been planning and you’d been invited to as well.

“Are you going to bring your boyfriend?” Han looked at you. The rest of the boys followed with ‘oohhs’ making you blush.

“I think I will. If he’s not busy we can add him to the list.” Hyunjin choked on his food while you were talking. You patted his back hoping to ease his coughing. “How are you feeling?”

“Gross,” Hyunjin managed to croak out between coughs.

The rest of breakfast was spent planning out more trip specifics. You headed back to your place after, needing a shower and to prepare a sorry for Felix after last night.

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You were greeted by Minho when you got to Felix’s. Instead of a greeting he let you in and pointed to Felix’s room. You walked in and saw Felix sitting in front of his computer with his headphones on and entranced with whatever game he was playing. Not wanting to bother him, you took a seat on his bed, putting your sorry gift on his side table.

You were startled as you heard Felix scream. He took off his headphones and said, “When did you get here?”

“A bit ago. I brought sorry lemon squares,” you pointed to this dish on his table.

Felix came to sit next to you in his bed, pulling you close to him, “You didn’t have to do that baby. You don’t have anything to be sorry about.”

“You’re sweet but I am sorry for ditching our date. Thank you for being so understanding,” you rested your head on his chest.

“There is one thing bothering me,” Felix said hesitantly.

Concern clouded your eyes as you looked at him, “what is it?”

“Did you go home all alone? Did you get a ride from someone else? You didn’t ask me for a ride and I was worried. It’s not safe for you to be walking so late at night.”

“I’m sorry. I should have texted you, I thought you were asleep already. I didn’t go home alone. It was late so I just ended up staying there. I really am sorry, I’m not that used to having people worry about me.”

Felix didn’t feel all that great about you staying the night in a frat house but he decided to hold his tongue, not wanting to sound jealous. “It’s okay baby,” Felix gave you his warm smile letting you know he meant it. “How was Hyunjin?” He asked, knowing he didn’t care about that but wanted to know what exactly had happened that would justify cutting your night short.

“He was just drunk and upset. I think he just wanted a friend nearby. But there is something wrong. He just isn’t telling me what it is yet. Even the rest of the guys said he’s been off recently but I guess he’ll tell me when he’s ready.”

“Do you know all of those guys well?” Felix pried.

“I’m not super close with them all. Seungmin and I are pretty good friends but I know the rest of them,” you answered. “Oh, that reminds me. Do you have any plans for spring break?”

“Nothing solid, what were you thinking of?”

“The guys have been planning a trip for ages, will you come with me?”

“Of course. I wouldn’t want to spend the time with anyone other than my girl.” His words made you blush. Felix had taken to calling you sweet nicknames pretty early on but this was the first time he had called you ‘his girl.’

“Stop it. You’re making me shy,” you hid your face in his chest.

Felix reached for your chin, pointing your face up so you would look at him. He placed a soft kiss on your lips before peppering your face with kisses, “You’re so cute.”

Felix and you settled in his bed, deciding to watch a movie. Just as you had picked one you heard a familiar song playing.

“Hey, did you get some rest?” You answered the call.

“Yeah, what are you doing?” Hyunjin said, still sounding a bit groggy like he had just woken up.

“I’m over at Felix’s.”

Hyunjin let out a dramatic sigh, “will you ever have time for me again?”

You tsked at him, giggling at his antics, “You get most of my time. Let’s plan something though, if you feel neglected.”

“Do I need to call your secretary to schedule Ms. L/n?” Hyunjin replied sarcastically.

“Okay grumpy, I left a treat for you in the fridge so hopefully that’ll put you in a good mood.” You had stopped by Hyunjin's on your way over, hoping that your lemon squares would help brighten his mood.

Hyunjin sounded a bit perked up, “Did you make my favorite?”

“Yes, I did. I made extra for the boys so share!” You heard Hyunjin grumble a bit about sharing but he reluctantly agreed. “Okay, I’ll see you tomorrow, bye-bye.” He hung up before you could confirm if you were free.

“He really likes interrupting us,” Felix huffed out when you hung up the call.

“I think he’s not used to having to share my time,” you gave Felix a peck on the cheek. “You’re sounding a bit jealous,” you teased.

Felix looked at you with darkened eyes, causing the grin to fall from your face. “You have no idea. He gets most of your time?” Felix asked deeply.

Your mouth was dry, unable to answer the question as you took in his new demeanor.

Felix gripped your chin once again, this time much more roughly than before. Bringing his face close to yours he said, “I don’t want to share you, baby.” His voice was so low, every word sending shivers down your spine. His face was so close to yours that his lips ghosted over yours with every word. You tried to reach up to close the very small distance between the two of you but Felix roughly held you in place. “Are you impatient now princess? What about last night? You didn’t have an issue then.” Felix drew a bit away from your face to lock his eyes with yours. “Do you want to make it up to me, love?” You gulped and gave him a steady nod, studying his dark eyes that were flooded with lust. Felix placed a chaste kiss on the side of your mouth before whispering in your ear, “Green for keep going, yellow means this is good but no more, and red for stop,” the tickle of his breath stimulated you more, a wet spot forming in your panties. “Is it okay if we keep going?” Felix pulled away to look at you and you nodded. “I need your words, baby.”

“Green.” That was all it took. Felix crashed his lips onto yours, pulling you into a messy kiss. His hands were quick to explore your body, slipping under your shirt and tracing over your lace-covered breasts.

He pulled away from you, “off.” He helped you tug your shirt and pants off leaving you in the pretty lace lingerie you had selected. Felix looked you up and down hungrily before positioning himself on top of you and kissing your neck. You moaned as he sucked on a particularly sensitive spot, definitely leaving a mark behind. You tugged at his t-shirt, feeling like it was a bit unfair that he was still fully clothed. Felix ripped off his shirt and pants, returning between your spread legs and continuing his kisses along your collarbone. He kissed down to your clothed breasts, sucking on your nipple over the lace. You let out whimpers at the sensation, moving your hips up to grind against the bulge visible in his boxers.

Felix groaned at the friction but quickly moved his hands to pin your hips down, “you just keep being such a bad girl. Don’t you realize you’re in trouble?”

You screamed as he delivered a firm slap to your clothed pussy before resting his hand on the lace, running his index finger gently over the wet fabric of your panties. You shuddered at the light touches, “Please Felix? Let me make it up to you. Stop teasing me.”

“Yeah?” he groaned out in that low voice. He stood up, getting off the bed and motioning you over him. You scrambled up and stood in front of him. He let a chuckle out at your eagerness. “Kneel.”

You dropped to your knees, now eye level with his bulge. He pulled his boxers down and his dick sprung out, hitting his stomach. His tip was leaking and behind the facade Felix felt like he could cum just from the way you sat with your mouth hanging open, waiting for him to fuck your face. He tangled his fingers in your hair, pulling it so your hungry gaze was drawn away from his cock and you had to look at his face. His dark eyes softened for a second, “tap on my thigh if it's too much.”

Felix pushed his tip into your mouth, slowly sinking deeper until you felt him at the back of your throat. You wrapped your lips around him, hollowing your cheeks and pressing your tongue on his length. Felix moaned lowly, pulling out of you. When he didn’t immediately thrust back into your mouth, you leaned forward, taking him into your mouth. “Fuck, baby,” Felix’s moans continued as you bobbed your head on his cock, taking him deep into your throat. You gagged around him as he started thrusting harder, fucking your face. Your eyes teared and you drooled around his dick. Felix took in the sight of you, roughly yanking your mouth off his dick by pulling your hair.

You stared up at him, pupils wide and consumed with lust. Your panties stuck to your core, you were practically dripping on the floor now. “I want you to cum in my mouth baby.”

Felix pulled you up, bringing his lips close to your ear he whispered, “I don’t think you’ve been nearly good enough to be making requests. On the bed, now.”

You quickly followed his command, eagerly waiting for him to touch you. You needed to be touched so badly. Felix pulled you to the edge of the bed so that your legs hung down. He knelt before you, face so close to where you wanted him most. “You want me to touch you, baby?”

“Yes, please. I need it,” you begged him. You gasped as you felt him lick a stripe along your clothed pussy, bucking your hips trying to prolong the contact.

“You’re such a slut. So wet just from sucking dick.” Felix licked you once again, treacherously slow. You were writhing, begging him continuously to give you more. Finally, he ripped off your panties, tossing them across the room. He ran a finger through your wet folds, flicking your clit in the process. This was enough to cause you to jolt. Felix continued the motion with his finger, slowly flicking your clit and watching you jolt each time. You could feel the heat pooling but his slow motions weren't enough to make you cum.

“Please, I’m good, I’ll be good just fuck me, please,” you begged shamelessly.

Felix finally relented, grabbing a condom from the drawer of his side table and rolling it on. He lined himself up with your entrance. He wanted to tease you further but he needed to feel you around him. He thrust into you, filling you up and stretching your walls. Your walls spasmed around him and he stilled for a moment, letting you get used to him but also warding off his orgasm which he knew would come embarrassingly fast if he didn’t pace himself.

He began fucking into you, moving slowly at first as you still adjusted to the way he stretched your walls. You were a mess of moans, not letting out anything coherent. He quickened his pace, bringing his hand down to rub circles around your clit, pushing you closer to your orgasm.

“Are you gonna be good? Are you gonna cum on my cock?”

You moaned out a string of ‘yes’ as you felt your orgasm approach. Your body spasmed as he fucked you through your high, coming shortly after with his hips stuttered. Both of you panted, recovering from your orgasms.

Felix joined you on the bed, pulling your tired body into his arms and gently kissing you. He pulled away and looked at you. He really looked at you, eyes locked with yours as if he was trying to peer into your soul.

“What is it?” You asked under his intense gaze.

“I love you.”

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End of Part 4

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likedovesinthewindd · 10 months

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gwen stacy x fem/gn reader (your choice ofc) where they’re both in an argument and confess in the rain and have a kiss in the rain?

gwen and reader are in college in this, btw.

gwen stacy x fem!reader

a/n: as I was writing this the only thing I could think about was how pissed I'd be if someone made me stand in the rain, I'd actually cry if my hair or clothes got wet 😭

Ever since college, the amount of time you and Gwen spent together had decreased dramatically, the both of you becoming too swamped in work and several other extracurriculars. But you still tried to make time to hang out; hence why you had managed to keep the tradition of Saturday movie nights alive. Every second Saturday one of you would choose a movie to watch, prepare a shit ton of snacks and catch up on each other's busy lives.

You'll admit, you always managed to talk a bit more than her, always having something to vent to her about. And she didn't mind; she'd always listen attentively, chiming in with a sarcastic comment or joke every now and then, but tonight what you had to say had her speechless to say the least. No joke or quick quips at hand this time.

"A date? With Harper?"

Harper was the girl you'd been talking to for a few weeks now. Gwen's met her once, and in that one time alone she had concluded that she didn't like her. She didn't really know why; Harper was a nice girl, kind and funny and outgoing like you, but Gwen just didn't like her. It definitely had nothing to do with the huge crush she had on you. Definitely not.

"Is it really that hard to believe?" you asked with a little laugh, insecurity lacing your voice. She shook her head rapidly. "Of course not, I'm just suprised that's all," she said, trying to not sound as bummed as she felt. She didn't know why the thought of you dating someone bummed her as much as it did. Maybe because you like her, dummy.

She shook her head again, trying to let the thoughts somehow dissipate in her mind. "Why are you suprised? I told you she might like me," you said, and she hated how small your voice sounded. Gwen didn't know what to say; how on earth do you tell your best friend about the crush you've been harboring on them for years now. The uncomfortable silence streatched on until you spoke up once again. "Why's it so difficult for you to imagine someone liking me? I get it, I don't often go on dates and stuff but I'm also human, I have feelings," you said.

"That's not what I meant, of course I'm happy for you, I just don't really like her, that's all," she tried. "Why not?" you asked, and Gwen winced at the slight anger in your voice. "I dunno I just," she took a deep breath, "I dunno, okay!" She wanted to crawl into a hole when she saw how her raised voice made you flinch. You quickly gathered your belongings and laced up your shoes. "I don't think I wanna do movie night anymore," and before she knew it, you were out the door with a slam.

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It had been a week since you had last spoken to Gwen, and now you were sitting in your room quietly applying the last bit of makeup as you stared blankly at the mirror, your mind running a mile a minute.

Gwen was your best friend, you valued her opinion over everyone else's, but she always did this. Every time you liked someone, she'd be weird about it. She never liked the people you dated—always the excuse that they weren't "good enough for you" and always discouraging you from getting together with anyone.

The pellets of rain hitting your window broke you from your daydream. Great, now you had to go fishing for your umbrella. When you eventually found it and got more rain appropriate shoes, you made your way through the busy city on your way to your date.

You didn't enjoy the idea of arriving at the restaurant while soaking wet, so you were walking as fastyou possibly could, boots making little splashes with every step.

A small thwip sound and before you knew it, you were being hoisted up to who knows where by the top of your umbrella. Your grip on the handle tightened as you closed your eyes tightly, only opening them again once you felt solidity beneath your feet.

Before you had the chance to scream at the fact that a masked vigilante had potentially kidnapped you, the mask was being pulled off and Gwen was standing infront of you.

"Gwen?! You're—"

"Please don't go on that date," she said breathlessly. Your shoulders slumped. "Gwen, don't start," you said, trying not to get angry again. "Please, Y/N, I'm begging you," she said once again. If she had to get on her knees right now she probably would. Anything for you to not be mad at her anymore, to talk to her again.

You hadn't noticed the grip on your umbrella loosening until a strong wind caused it to fly right out of your hand. Gwen had tried to catch it with a web, but it was quickly way out of her reach thanks to the strong weather. Now you stoof on top of a building, wet and irritated beyond believe as your best friend (who was a superhero? maybe?) tried to get you out of a date.

"If you don't give me one good reason why you don't want me going on this date, I am going to turn around and leave, and I will never talk to you again," you said through gritted teeth, the cold already setting into your bones. You knew that to some degree it was an empty threat. Damn, you weren't even going to be able to walk away, but you were getting tired of whatever game Gwen was playing with you.

The silence, that felt like it lasted a lifetime and a half, was all you needed and you scoffed, turning around to hopefully find a roof hatch. When you saw it, you quickly made your way to it, mood souring with every splash your boots made. Like deja vu, you were once again roped in by a web, this time catching you totally by suprise. You basically crashed right into Gwen and before you had the chance to push off her or give her a piece of your mind, her soft lips were crashing into yours.

And for a few seconds, it felt so right. So perfect that you couldn't help but wrap your arms around her neck and kiss her back with equal passion. It only took you a few more seconds before your mind caught up with your actions, and you realized that you were kissing your best friend. You unwrapped your arms from her and pulled away as soon as the realization hit you.

"I can't let you go on that date because I can't stand thinking about you with anyone else," she stammered before you got to say anything. "I don't think Harper is good enough for you, I don't think anyone is good enough for you, including me. But I just want you to be happy. I wanna make you happy. Or try at least, but if that's not what you want, I understand, and I'll let you go—"

You figured the only way to silence her racing thoughts would be to kiss her again, so that's exactly what you did, and by the time you pulled away again, the dazed look on her face made your heart thump with happiness.

"You do make me happy, Gwen," you said, sounding as breathless as she felt. "I just wished you would've told me how you felt sooner. Would've known that I feel the same," you added before she pulled you into another brief kiss, clearly overjoyed at your confession. You pulled back one last time with a smile that quickly turned into a frown when you felt the way your clothes were clinging to your body.

"Now get me out of the rain, please!"

#gwen stacy x reader #gwen stacy x you #gwen stacy fluff #gwen stacy fanfiction #spiderman atsv #likedovesinthewindd

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gingersnappish · 10 months

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Hi!

I’m Ginger: artist-nerd, citizen-scientist, make-garden-not-lawn enthusiast, and avid baker-of-cinnamon-rolls-from-scratch! I very much enjoy fandom! What is my weekly fanfic consumption like? High. Very High. Some of my current favs include: Star Wars (especially Kylux), The Witcher (here meaning I saw about an episode and a half of TWN, found the fandom, and wandered happily off towards Lambert and Aiden), LotR, sometimes StarTrek…..assorted others! I am passionate about creating things, too! Often, that means drawing fan art and/or comics. Actually, I’ve found myself stalling intermittently in that department over the past year or so. I’ve been almost exclusively drawing Kylux things using only Procreate, for a while now. Which I love doing! But I suspect doing just that one type of art for going on 4 years now is starting to have an effect of the breadth and depth of my creative well. So I’ve decided to change up how I create for a while! A good friend gifted me a sketchbook IRL and I want to fill it with traditional media drawings. I want to try drawing from more fandoms, try out new digital techniques and styles that maybe I hadn’t allowed myself before. I want to invest some time into art forms besides drawing, even - I’ve always enjoyed fiber arts and I’ve got a jack loom I’ve meant to finish repairing for a while. Once that is working, I want to learn to weave. And I want to share some of these things here! On that note, I suspect more than a few people who follow me on Tumblr are here because I have drawn a lot of kylux. Especially the long-form fan comic ‘Dying Is Easy Young Man, Living Is Harder’. WRT The Comic: Kraken and I are still fully intending to see it to it’s conclusion! Honestly, though, it’s been on unofficial hiatus for a while now and it’s likely to remain that way for a bit longer. Kraken is super busy with retraining and job related demands IRL, and I am also pretty swamped and trying to get back in a more sustainable groove artistically. The whole sitch doesn’t leave us a lot of room to create a big project like DIEYMLIH together, right now. I know firsthand how hard it can be to wait a long time for a story you enjoy to get finished - so I want to say ‘thank you’ to everyone being very patient with us! We will get there eventually! If you want to check if there has been an update or just re-read the kylux comic to-date, the best place to go is the DIEYMLIH Site

If you want more kylux themed stuff in the meantime, I’m still putting my Kylo Amidala and other AU stuff for them on my Patreon

If you want the whole complete collection of my art (kylux or other)…. I'm working on that. I’ve historically been really inconsistent with tags. I'm trying to be better about that and also go back and fix all my personal art so it is consistently tagged. It’s gonna take a while. Eventually!

#about ginger psa

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maydayissleepy · 1 year

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Creation lore for my AU GO!! !

For those of you who thought this au was a recent thing for me I'm proud to say it's not. Just ignore the fact that I have less than half of the plot written I am chronically unable to finish projects

. Anyway it was ORIGINALLY just about the visual themes in my mind but then that lore bit about Chen and Clouse got me Thinkin and. Well. Yeah

I'll likely have a second post with like actual story and plot things but for this one I just wanted to show off the aesthetic stuff, because as much as I loved the vermillion and snake theme it did not mix in my mind with time travel.

So, for my AU, the Twins do not have the vermillion for their villainous faction (respectfully, I would still love for them to exist with the rest of the serpentine because their concept is so so cool) and, instead, I've created some steam powered robots to go with Krux's theme! And also attempted to redesign the Iron Doom to resemble a dragon more so than a snake. However for both of these I was once again realizing that I have a tad bit trouble designing robots and mechs

Aaaaand the last visual aesthetic change I think I made was changing the swamp to an ancient city's ruins in the desert? Because, yknow, desert, sand, hourglass theme? But also I think a past city's ruins plays on Krux's past theme a bit

WAAH I don't have a good drawing for the ruins city so here take this and also a lego build of the clock tower

I do plan to push the ninjas' outfits for the season more twoards steampunk or cyberpunk individually, but that's something I have yet to work on

But of course, as I will also note when I eventually make a post for the story things over my au, I do my best to write and draw these things as respectfully as possible! I genuinely appreciate feedback on my work and I want to create things that everyone can enjoy, though, having not really interacted with the fandom I may be a bit out of the knowledge on what you guys like and accept. Though I try very hard not to, I tend to be a bit oblivious at times, which is usually my main deter for interacting with fandoms. So being said, I would love and appreciate kind pointers if you guys have any feedback!

#wow i forgot to mention but my AU is called The Eleventh Hour!!#mayday's the eleventh hour

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butchriptide · 4 months

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genuinely really frustrating that people will like. choose to accept the age mistake made in assassin as canon for deathbringer when it actively contradicts older material. like. sorry idk if this is me being unfair here but genuinely like. why would you think it's intentional when deathbringer is described in main series as maybe a year or two older than glory at most, and can canonically not be any older than 9 due to stated timeline facts in the main series.

like. I get not liking glorybringer, i really do. no ship is for everyone. hell, even if assassin specifically makes you feel weird about it, so be it, to each their own. i can undertsnad that too. and yes, the glorybringer fans who think the age gap are canon are also in the wrong. they're being really gross, i don't think it's necessary to disclaim that, that feels given, but like... that only comes to my point still of like, i really don't understand taking a spin-off as canon over the main series. i don't really understand prioritizing later content as canon as opposed to the main work over spin-off as canon. why should a spin-off take jurisdiction just cuz it's newer? i feel like the older the canon is, the more likely it is the newer stuff will make mistakes. to me, in the case of a contradiction, the main series should be taken to? a spin-off is meant to supplement the main series, so shouldn't it only supplement canon that doesn't contradict?

like also, i get being frustrated it isn't fixed, but also. like. i obviously have not worked with a publisher before, but if I was writing for fucking scholastic books, no matter how well fucking beloved my series was, I don't know if I could risk being like "hey. can you pull my books from shelves and e-stores for me so that I can edit one line?" Like. I really don't think there's any reality in which I can make a corporation agree to that kind of thing, no matter what that one line may fuck up about my main story. like it's not even the only mistake she makes in the winglets. she calls deathbringer a rainwing in the flip book, but we're not hailing that as canon in retrospect, right? I don't know. I think it's unfair to presume that she's choosing not to fix it as opposed to it being an improbable to downright impossible thing to ask of a publisher. like yes tui is an incredibly successful author but i really don't know if we can presume she has that much actual sway on her publisher.

it's just really exhausting as a deathbringer enjoyer to feel like if I want to talk about and enjoy his character, and yes, that includes context given in the assassin winglet once you ignore the timeline error, i feel like I constantlyyy have to be saying "yes I think the timeline error is an error. no i don't think deathbringer is 13." like. every time i bring him up. i'm a riptide fan I'm used to it but also it's sooooo tiring to go into a character tag for a guy i like and be swamped with hatred for him and it's so much worse for deathbringer than riptide because in the deathbringer tag I have to deal with being actively accused of excusing gross shit for liking him instead of people just saying that my blorbo is boring.

#by nightwings standards deathbringer isn't even a fucking adult. like even when I was first reading the books he never read as an adult to #me. and the assassin winglet only further adds to this for me not lessens. he reads so much as #teenager/barely in his 20s guy who grew up #way too fucking fast for his own good but fully buys into his own narrative that he's got everything sorted and together #the way the age system works as I've always interpreted it is that like. each age up to 7 covers a wide but decreasing number of human #maturity years every time and then slows to the years being one-to-one by the time they're 7 #with 7 corresponding to 18 #which makes the nightwings not counting dragonets as fully grown until 10 the equivalent to how 21 is kind of like being an Actual Adult #law wise in America at least i mean to say #deathbringer can't even legally buy beer yet is what I'm saying. some hotels wouldn't let him check in without an accompanying adult #deathbringer #misc #wings of fire #wof #sorry for complaining in main tag but I'm so fucking tired of being made to feel gross for liking a character over material that #no casual fan of the series is even going to know exists or read that is so clearly a timeline error based on everything in the actual #series that I read #does my joke about him not being able to buy beer make up for it #do you guys still think i'm cool #on the note of publishing too #there's no reason to think scholastic could even make it happen in a timely fashion even if tui did ask for the change to the books. like.#looking up working with scholastic reviews some of the most common negative reviews are about poor management #i'm not trying to white knight for her or anything i think she's a flawed human being like anyone else I just think if ur gonna critique he #you should do it about stuff that's like actually poorly handled in her series. not a timeline error in a spin-off. like. come on.

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chromaji · 4 months

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after finishing replaying the main story of SoV, which started pretty suddenly for the sake of doing research for a game i've been in the early stages of making...

i can safely say act 2 still ended up being my favorite all these years later🫡

There's something I really enjoy about the more personal stakes of helping others in their pirate (and necrodragon) related troubles while being on a pilgrimage to a temple. I mean you know how FE tends to be, continent spanning struggles and wars between royalty of nations, with the smaller-scale bandit stuff just being for a few chapters, if that.

I dont mind the big royal stories of course but Celica Act 2 really is some fresh air, especially since it happens after the more typical FE plot had already started on Alm's side.

...To be fair once the plot started, the smaller scale troubles are also pushed aside here. But there were at least sidequests to help people throughout.

Onto more general stuff, yeah sidequests like this were a nice thing to see in an FE game. I liked the earlier ones where you went back to a shrine to fight a miniboss, and the ones where you had to trade between armies to complete early.

And i've talked about how much I love the fact that there's dungeons to crawl in this game, since it was one of the main reasons I decided to replay for research. One thing I will say is that the dungeon battles got monotonous after a point, especially when enemies were just too far away for my team to one-round, but they weren't quite weak enough for me to auto battle without worrying if someone would die. There's a lot i've taken note of in the dungeon aspect so far for my project, but I haven't even tried the postgame dungeon yet so i'll have to see if anything gets added there.

Also not related to my research but why's the turning like that when running in dungeons 😭

Onto non-dungeon battles, the map design was overall... yeah not great, kinda ass. However, I cant say this too confidently rn considering i'll need to make strategy maps for my own game idea, which i've never done before, so my stuff may also end up kinda ass!!! We'll be ass together!!

Anyway I liked the early "mostly barren fields" for Alm because it put into perspective a literal army's cavarly units vs your ragtag footlocked crew with like 1-2 cav and fliers that probably couldn't be sent off on their own. But after a bit it was like okay thats enough empty fields with cavalry approaching. Also i'm not forgiving this goofy ass setup

Celica's desert+swamp maps weren't fun at all but man these maps always gotta show up in some FE game so this isnt a Celica exclusive.

Overall there's definitely things done in SoV that I wanna consider for my own project, so this was def worth replaying & experiencing the good & bad myself instead of just watching a playthrough or smth. There's probably a lot more i could say but i've been typing for a while agh

#feesov playing

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c0d33 · 5 months

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2, 8, 11, 23 :)

2. Album of the year?

I've listened to a lot of great albums this year, but if I'm sticking to ones I found in 2023, then I'll go with the Chicory: A Colorful Tale soundtrack! It's a great mix of absolute bangers with some really nice music, and it has plenty of variety between all of the tracks! I especially like Abandon Me and Gulp Swamp :)

8. Game of the year?

Oh boy, it's hard to choose just one. I played so many great games this year that choosing just one to be my game of the year would feel like a disservice to the rest, so I'm just gonna list all of my favorites that I started this year :D

Warframe

Easily my biggest timesink of the year, I started Warframe in April and have put nearly 560 hours into it already. It's gameplay is just so satisfying and addicting once you get past the initial hurdle of the new player experience, and is probably the least predatory F2P game I've ever seen in my life. It's just been an absolute blast and I'll absolutely be putting more time into it in 2024!

Lethal Company

Probably not a big surprise, but Lethal Company is insanely fun. I've been playing quite a bit with some of my friends, and every session is an absolute blast and can send me into hysterics at some points. Plus, I love the monster designs :)

Chicory: A Colorful Tale

An awesome game that's really fun and puts out a great message, I thoroughly enjoyed my time with Chicory! Great gameplay and soundtrack, highly recommend it!

Chants of Sennar

Very enjoyable puzzle game about deciphering languages! There was one part in particular that completely blindsided me and was easily the highlight of the game for me, but I won't spoil it just in case anybody reading this wants to play it themselves

Ultrakill

Also probably not a big surprise if you've looked at my posting activity in the past few days. Extremely fun gameplay, awesome character designs, great music, etc. :)

Honorable mention to all of the games that I didn't start this year but I still played and obsessed over, like Battlefield 1

11. Something you want to do again next year?

Tough question, since there's not really anything super special I did this year that I haven't done before, but I suppose I do want to try cooking more! I've been more and more interesting in cooking and baking ever since I made empanadas earlier this year, so I wanna try finding more recipes and making more stuff :D

23. If you could send a message to yourself back on the first day of the year, what would it be?

Another tough question! I think for me personally, not a lot changes between the first day of the year and the last, so I wouldn't really have many serious things to say since we're basically in the same position. I think one thing I would say is to try not to sacrifice myself too much to other people. I took a lot of mental health hits this year by essentially acting as a therapist for people (By my own decision, absolutely nothing to do with them), so I think I would tell myself to take it easy. I don't have to solve every issue, and as much as it pains me to see my friends in pain, I would often be in more pain after hearing their struggles. That isn't to say I'd completely shut myself off from hearing them out, but I would try not to overextend myself emotionally in these circumstances. That is the struggle of being as much of an empath as I am

#ty for the ask! sorry it got a little sad at the end lol #at least i got to talk about video games :)#inbox

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xadoheandterra · 3 months

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Ok, have some Alastor and Husk content from this scene I'm working on for Chain On Your Neck.

A few quick notes before the scene itself. Alastor 100% views Husk as a pet cat who just so happens to be able to speak to him in a coherent and understandable manner. He knows Husk was human once, and like everyone else did something to get himself into Hell. He chooses to primarily ignore that Husk was human and view him instead as a cat.

Unless Husk pisses him off. Then he gets treated like a person instead of a beloved pet...but usually that means Alastor being cruel.

Husk essentially has some form of Stockholm Syndrome involved with Alastor, and they are both well aware of it. Honestly the entire thing in this, even being platonic in its nature, is very much not a healthy relationship between them, and they are completely aware. Neither of them gives a shit, really, that they are all sorts of fucked up between the two. They take their comforts where they can.

This scene is also completely in Alastor's viewpoint. When I write stuff I write it from that character's headspace normally, so everything within the scene should be taken with some salt and not as gospel. Each character is, at their core, an unreliable narrator. Alastor sees what Alastor wants to see in regards to Husk's behavior. Husk sees what Husk wants to see in regards to Alastor. So on and so forth. It is also why the tone of this scene might very from the scene before that I shared.

Anyway enjoy the somewhat soft Alastor and his pet cat Husk that this scene ended up being. IDK. Alastor went "QPR!" and Husk got dragged along for the ride.

His room was his safe haven, a place were he could dress down and be himself; a place where Alastor could set aside the Radio Demon and, for the moment, relax. The door opened up into the muggy familiar heat of a bayou, the ground beneath his boots murky and wet just past the doorway unless one knew the paths to walk. Alastor knew those paths like the back of his hand, and with a cheerful hum walked them past the endless front space until he vanished into the depths of a cold morning fog. Past the fog lay the real room. The bayou--the sound of the swamp, the crickets, the thick blades of grass the the faint gurgle of the water--was still there, but here it resembled mostly a room and not the swamp. A lavish bed with fitted sheets and a deep, black canopy above it settled against the clearly defined wall. It blocked out the twinkling sky overhead that mimicked the night of home, of the little house he grew up in with mær before all of that city nonsense. Alastor stepped toward the dresser, settled into the wall just away from the bed, and carefully placed his microphone down with one hand while the other eased the bow-tie from around his neck. With nonchalance he scuffed the shoes off his hooves and let them settle into the plush grooves of the carpet. His jacket quickly followed, placed perfectly upon a coat-rack before Alastor stepped around the bed and toward the lounge settled just in place that he could see into the thick wood-scape that shielded his more private quarters. With a relaxed sigh he settled into place, hooves curled up at his side as he snapped a decent two fingers of rye whiskey into place on the small table. His grin was noticeably smaller, here, although still present. He may have 'dressed down' now that he was in a private space, but he could not find himself to be fully rid of the smile unless he was about to head to bed. There was still far too much to do for him to rest now, either way. Another snap of his fingers as Alastor pulled the glass up to take a sip settled a notepad and paper into place. He scribbled down the few vague thoughts he had gathered from his walk through Pentagram City until he had reached the edges of his territory. The city had certainly expanded since he had last walked the streets and pressed near up to the very edge of the circle it resided in where before there had been at least some space between the points of the city and the edge. The streets themselves were also so unfamiliar, and even worse somehow in the seven years of his absence those dilly Overlord’s had lost control of most of the subjects within their own territories! Why, Alastor could easily see places where Vox so pleasingly overstepped and they just let him! Alastor couldn't plan too much without the information Husker would undoubtedly bring him once the feline had gotten himself cleaned up. His gaze tracked up toward the door, which had so far remained close, as he hummed thoughtfully. He hadn't seen Husker in such a sorry and pathetic state in quite some time, although these fits of his pet did seem to come around every now and then. Alastor had to wonder if Husker had spent too much time among the city folk and needed to have his freedoms restricted for a bit--it had happened before, after all. If you let a cat roam too much, why one day they may not come home at all! On the other hand, Alastor had never liked keeping his pets solely indoors, even if it would ultimately be better for them.

The door to the room opened with a soft creak and drew Alastor out of his thoughts. He glanced from his half scribbled notes toward the door where Husker shuffled his way into the swamp, shoulders hunched in thick, nervous energy. Softly Alastor scoffed to himself as he set his drink down and lightly knocked the notebook off of his lap. It landed on the table, the pen casually vanishing into black static as Alastor tilted his head and let his eyes glance over to his lombraj from where it had grown against the wall. He watched, faintly amused, at the way it’s ears flickered down and back as it’s grin turned more into a grimace with the edges still curled into a smile. It shrank itself down, and like a shot darted through the mist and bayou to reach Husker. Husker noticed something, as Alastor expected. His fur stood up on end and he began to glance around quickly, pupils nearly pinpricks they had contracted so much. Alastor let out a pleased chuckle, allowed the sound to reverberate through the area if only to see the way Husker shook. His lombraj curled up and out of Husker’s own shadow, claws out to land gently upon Husker’s shoulders. Husker yelped, and in the next second his form dissipated into the shadows only to reappear in the corner of the couch Alastor had settled himself in, pressed close into all of Alastor’s sharp edges.

“Hello my dear Husker,” Alastor nearly purred. The radio static provided the right edge of a growl to his voice as Alastor reached up and scratched lightly at the base of Husker’s ear. He watched, pleased, how the feline’s lips thinned and his eyes darted right to Alastor’s side. Such amusing, grumpy reactions his pet constantly gave him! Ah, Alastor did so miss dear Husker these past few years. “Did you have to send the stupid shadow, boss?” Husker grumbled, and Alastor could feel the way he trembled faintly against Alastor’s side. To his left his lombraj hissed and leaned forward just the slightest bit into a three dimensional space, just a bit of a threat that had Husker pressed even closer. Alastor bit back the laugh he wanted to let free. “Mm. No,” Alastor decided, and then tugged Husker lightly by the ear until the feline was pressed completely into his side. The soft fur was such a comfort against his claws, and the succulent flesh that coated Husker’s form in a nice, comfortable layer of fat was gentle against all of Alastor’s sharp edges. He could feel his own ears becoming less and less alert as he gently rubbed at Husker’s head. The tenseness in Alastor’s own form eased bit by bit. “I thought you wanted an update on the territory?” Husker grumbled as he settled himself just a bit more against Alastor’s side.

“I do,” Alastor agreed gamely. He directed a tendril of shadow to grab the folder out of Husker’s claws and deposit it into place on the table. Another shadow poured a generous helping of drink for Husker into a second glass. He scraped his claws lightly against Husker’s scalp until he caught the faintest sound of a purr barely covered up by a grumbling half-groan of annoyance. Alastor laughed, soft and light and rubbed the pads of his fingers up one of Husker’s ears. “Go on. Tell me of the territory in my absence.” “Not while yer pettin’--” Husker started, and then shuddered as Alastor dragged his claws down the back of Husker’s skull. “Then be silent and let me have my fill,” Alastor countered lightly. It was the closest he would ever come to admitting that he had missed his darling pet. He missed this soft fur beneath his claws, the subtle purring that Husker hated, or the press of Husker’s fat covered form against his side, soft in all the places were Alastor was hard. For several long minutes Alastor kept Husker there and based in the comforting warmth the other sinner gave off. At some point he twitched his fingers and the radio began to play soft jazzy tunes as Alastor felt himself sink more fully into the couch. Husker leaned further and further into Alastor’s side and nearly tumbled right into Alastor’s lap from the gentle stroking and petting. The only other noise to accompany them had been the faint burble and gurgle of the swamp in the distance. It was peaceful. It was comforting.

Alastor pulled away once he had his fill, and Husker flopped over in a half-asleep state that the radio demon had left him in. For Alastor he merely stood and stretched his limbs, let the bones creak and pop out of their relaxed state. He picked up the folder Husker brought him, and then his glass of whiskey, and with a faint hum began to flick through the pages and papers bemusedly. Husker resettled himself on the couch now that Alastor wasn’t there to hold him tightly into place. His paws reached out greedily for the drink Alastor had poured him and quickly swallowed a mouthful, face set into a perpetual frown that Alastor had always found so amusing. With the alcohol in hand, and Alastor now out of Husker’s reach, the other demon settled out into the couch in a languid, feline fashion. “Alright, boss, now do you want that update?” Husker asked as his tail flicked near agitatedly beside him. “Mm, what have the twins been up to?” Alastor questioned as he flicked through the pages. “Keeping you relevant,” Husker grumbled as he took another sip of his drink. “They’ve been going through your recorded broadcasts and sending ‘em out every few days or so. On top of runnin’ the re-broadcasts from the news.” Alastor hummed. It was good to know there had been some quality radio while he had been away. He’d hate for the ether to be completely bereft of his influence or presence. The recorded broadcasts had been a just-in-case; Alastor did not want his shows to become another clambake just because he hadn’t been there. He felt a bit of the tension ease from his shoulders with that news. “And the Overlord’s?” “Think yer dead,” Husker grunted. “Most of ‘em. Or hiding. Or doing who knows what.” Alastor’s ears went back and his smile thinned. “Swell.”

#hazbin hotel #alastor hazbin hotel #fanfic #fic: chain on your neck #hazbin hotel husk

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fantomette22 · 7 days

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bloodborne asks : 1, 11, 19 (besides Gehrman), 30, 50 !!

Ask game from here.

Favorite boss fight

Hm good question as well XD (I'm bad at choice I love many bosses!) But my favorite is of course Lady Maria. As in the boss fight. I need to redo her for sure but I always very enjoy the most fight. It's like a dance I love it! it's hard but not too hard as well. It's impressive, frightening and beautiful all at once.

11. If stats weren't a thing, what would you wear?

Well except when I need to go in the poison swamp or fight the winter lanterns, fight a very strong boss or try a new outfit just for the drip or references I do stay all the time with the same clothes.

That mean this : +the hat

very gender I know I love it. Wish it was real I would buy it x)

19. Favorite Old Hunter?

Besides Gehrman? Well Lady Maria obliviously duh.

😂 Ok i am joking let's not count her either. And let's not take Ludwig into account too. Well this 3 gone I would say hm Archibald and Izzy perhaps? Gratia as well. (80% of the shit I made about them are basically headcanons but it's not like 98% of the stuff I made up for Paarl jfeznfbf) + I really like Valtr, Henryk & co of course! (a bit everyone lol). But if we count like the nightmare hunters from that era my fav is literally an OC who became the beast possess soul 😭

30. Is there anything you always do in your playthroughs, even if it's not necessary to beat the game?

Hm get at least 3 Umbilical cord at least XD. and do all the bosses + try to have all the set & weapons! (items, runes etc Well the expensive weapons & outfits not all the time for sure.)

50. Tell me about your hunters!

Well I have Lucen Venator of course! (hunter on the pic above!) And I made a 2nd one for a new playthrough, I think I named her Claire bc I didn't want just a feminized version of Lucen's name lol but she's an equivalent of him for sure. One day I would need to make a third hunters for sure.

I made a couple of posts about Lucen & art + my friends did amazing drawings of him 🥺 (from Katy, Chess, Crow & Odds)

(He looks way too much like me smt help. I need to change my icon to the small chibi one day)

SO hm what can I say... ah yeah let's go with the oblivious for me :

In my main headcanon (fic verse) He was born the night MP was summon, but far from Yharnam.

His parents came from Yharnam but flew the city

He's related to Cainhurst a bit. (His mom (Louise) & uncle are from a servant family). The amount of her stress this poor woman had to go through during her pregnancy was quite insane too.

He have an uncle (Lupin) who still live in Yharnam, an old hunter that he don't have news off since some times.

His grandpa on his father side (Blaine/Blair) was an old hunter as well, he's an old friend of Gehrman.

Gehrman literally babysit Lucen's dad (Emil) when he was a baby and save him from being crucified decades later.

Somehow Bloody Crow (Voron) was around when he was born lol. Before he return to Yharnam. Do what you want with all those crazy infos.

Either he became the next crow hunter or baby squid great one.

On my first playthrough I choose "last survivor" but I'm not very settle on what happened exactly besides he got scars on his face for it.

He's a kind individual most of the time except when it's time to kick ass if that make sense.

#bloodborne #my asks #ask game #lucen venator #bloodborne headcanons

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innocence-wont-save-you · 1 month

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[An overseer is ‘sitting’ next to the scavenger as they look at Innocence’s sleeping form.]

Hey bud, isn’t it kinda weird our friend is uh… still sleeping? Like, we should be moving out by now. I mean I know we’ve been waiting for like, six minutes, but it feels like a month! And yeah, I know you don’t understand me.

(OOC: Heyyyy so uh, sorry if it’s rude but I didn’t see a place to submit an ask on the website so I’m asking here. Is this blog ever going to be updated in the near future? If not, do you plan to still continue it or is like, irl stuff putting weight in your shoulders? I wanna join the disc and ask questions but stupid anxiety is making me not do it. If you’re still working on it or left the project, don’t feel pressured to continue, it would be selfish of me to ask that of you.

tl;dr: I kinda just want an update on the current situation Innocence Won’t Save You is in.)

OOC: YES HI HELLO I'M STILL ALIVE THANK YOU FOR ASKING ACTUALLY

Short answer: Yes there's. Shit going on in my life. Mostly school work; this has been one of my busiest quarters so far and I'm constantly swamped with work and haven't had the free time to really sit with IWSY and work out what I want/need to do.

Longer answer: Yes there is currently no way to submit on the website I am so sorry. When I said this would move off Tumblr I meant it and I was finding ways to do that, but I kept hitting roadblocks because I started learning web dev Solely for IWSY. Ultimately my progress on the javascript tutorial stalled (due to aforementioned busyness) and other people let me know that Neocities isn't... the best place to host comments locally? So that threw a wrench into the plans.

I've admittedly not written much for IWSY in the time since I announced we'd be migrating off Tumblr. In hindsight I kind of wish I'd waited a little, but I think this quarter would have done this to me regardless of if I'd wanted to migrate or not. However, I still want to work on IWSY. This project is NOT abandoned. I'm just very busy :'D in a good way though! After a bit of a rough spell, my life right now is, without exaggeration, the best it's ever been, and aside from just plain being busy, I'm also trying to enjoy being alive for once. Unfortunately it means things have been and will continue to be very, very slow here for the foreseeable future.

But I do have a small update. I gave up on trying to code comments locally, and instead found an open source commenting plugin called Isso that I'm hoping to install on the website. Actually doing so will require time I don't currently have since I. Uh. Don't know python. But if all goes well, I will have that set up at some point, and then I can get started on scene 14. I can't guarantee anything on that while this quarter is still going on unfortunately, but I will promise you all that once my summer break starts (which is in June since my school runs on a quarter system), I'll put more time and effort into this again.

If you'd like to help get the comments set up I would deeply appreciate it, but again I don't think I can see myself writing any long form creative fiction until I have the time to dedicate my mind to it, especially given what IWSY is. I'm really sorry about that, but I'm glad to hear that you're still interested in this story! So sorry about the radio silence, I really should have updated a few times since the last post I made, but thank you again for asking and reminding me to at least say something.

So TLDR, no the story isn't dead, I'm just hella busy and trying to appreciate life.

#for a more personal update: i befriended my roommate and now i have access to cuddles :)#he's a very sweet person but he also happens to be a partial cause of me not having as much time #because i opt to spend time with him instead of cooping myself up in my room working on my laptop #way more fun? yeah! but it means i have less time for stuff like this while the quarter wears on #i also have some research obligations on top of four classes so i am Swamped #bear with me while i ride out the rest of may and the first half of june #but mark my words. i Will be back #and i'm slowly cooking stuff for IWSY in the process #nothing i can reveal but there has been some new stuff since i last wrote for this story #also if you've seen my work on the mods wiki: shhh #it's easier to write nonfiction

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adobe-outdesign · 2 years

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I’d love to see a review of the hippopotas line if you haven’t done them yet!

I just love the general idea of Sand Hippos. Like, hippos don't get nearly enough attention for being Creatures That Will Kill You, so taking something as powerful as a hippo and then slapping it somewhere that isn't the water just makes them that much more terrifying. There's also some neat biological elements, though we'll get to that later.

Anyway, Hippopotas is charming, and captures the cuteness of baby hippos pretty well. The eyes are fun, as they allow it to sit in the sand with only the eyes visible, like an exaggerated version of IRL hippos:

Also, the females have an inverted color scheme from the males. Pointless sexual dimorphism is always something I enjoy, so I like the attention to detail here.

However, while I like what Hippopotas is going for, I'll admit that the design doesn't quite do it for me.

First, this is solely personal preference, but something about how huge the nose is relative to the rest of the body, especially the eyes, throws me. It feels a bit disconnected from the body.

Secondly, the camo markings. I like the idea of them, but the way they're on the torso and nowhere else in the design makes the head feel even more disconnected from the body.

And this one's minor, but what's up with those two flaps by the eyes? Like, why are those there? Once again, not major stuff, but just stuff that keeps me from liking it as much as I could.

Side note, it looks the best when lying down and I wish it was depicted like this more often.

Hippowdon is a bit more my speed, mostly because it fixes the stuff that bugged me on Hippopotas. The markings on the body are now consistent, the head isn't as oversized and has more defined anatomy, etc.

But what I really like about it is the way the sand works. It eats sand for sustenance, then blasts it out of those holes on the body. That's just cool!

Though with that said, this line REALLY needs to be placed near sand in the wild as much as possible. In PLA they're just in a swamp, and the coolness of the sand element is completely lost. Likewise, it lost the lying down pose and all of the sand when it was converted to 3D, and that's just not nearly as good.

My only real complaint (outside of the pose thing) is that the colors don't quite do it for me. It's got kind of an ugly phlegm-yellow shade to it rather than a more neutral tan, and the grey and yellows are too close in lightness; the grey either needed to be darker or the yellow lighter to give the design proper contrast. Hippopotas' colors were much better in this reguard.

The female is all grey, which I actually like a bit more, but it's weirdly inconstant. Shouldn't the yellow and grey areas just flip-flop, like the way the colors do on Hippopotas?

Also, side note: I like this 'dex entry. Hippos have some mutualistic relationships with fish for cleaning purposes IRL, so I like seeing some strange Pokemon-style mutualism in action.

So overall, these are some pretty cool sand hippos, even if I prefer Hippowdon a bit over its pre-evo. Keep them in the sand though Gamefreak, please I'm begging.

#hippopotas #hippowdon #pokemon #pokemon reviews

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writerfae · 7 months

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Hi! In honor of learning that Aiden loves kids (CALLED IT) I thought I'd tell you about Adél's little brother, Ákos (because I think Aiden would be the kind of babysitter who kids love, but he almost gets lost in the woods with them, and I just want to see him with Ákos).

So, Ákos is 10 years old when the story takes place.

He is really smart and he loves to read. He is always curious. His life's goal seems to be to know everything about everything. He always has to be learning something or else he gets bored and becomes really restless. But the things he learns do not have to be big or exciting. He can just study the pattern on a wall and he'll be good for a few hours.

He is pretty socially inept, due to being raised in a castle all his life. He is really nice, but he asks too many and sometimes unintentionally insensitive questions. This means he doesn't have a lot of friends.

A lot of people find him annoying, and he can be, but it's never intentional. He is a sweet kid.

Unfortunately he is also really naive. Because nothing that bad has ever happened to him, he doesn't know how dangerous a situation can actually get. Combine this with his curious nature and... well curiosity killed the cat, right?(he doesn't die)

He thinks that every person who lives has something cool about them because to him everyone's lives are different and exciting.

But the coolest people are his siblings (including Bendegúz, who is not raleted to them by blood but they knew echother since he was born!)

I want to once again stress that he is really nice and sweet, and when he loves someone he loves them deeply!(sorry, I've been in a lot of fandoms where the kids are called brats and are despised for getting into trouble and I have ptsd)

I feel like I'm forgetting something but I don't know what so for now this is him!

Also, he has a cat mask that Adél made but she gave it to him, and it was practically his safety blanket in the Black swamp, he rarely takes it off, and I think Aiden would adore it.

Also also I think Adél and Maya deserve to have a calming cup of tea together.

Hey there! So I got finally around to answer your ask (again, I’m sorry you had to wait)

Ákos sounds like a good kid! I feel like he’d get along great with Henry since the two seem to have some stuff in common!

I love characters that are curious. And I think it’s really sweet how he seems to be so interested in getting to know people and their stories, I feel like he’s a very empathic person.

If even the smallest things are worth to learn about for a person, that’s always great. Love that Ákos seems to appreciate the little things, too.

You made me curious about his relationship to his siblings! They seem to adore each other (and you know how much I love that). It’s good that he has them, especially since you said he doesn’t have many friends.

It makes lots of sense though, of course growing up within castle walls and being protected makes one less aware of danger and more naive. That’s always the risk if rulers raise their kids like that. But he’ll surely overcome that eventually.

The fact with the cat mask sounds really cute too! In general I think the boy sounds really adorable, he deserves all the love he can get!

I’m sure Aiden would enjoy him too. And you’re right about Aiden babysitting btw. Children love him but he’s also lowkey chaotic (maybe that’s why the kids like him?).

For his niece he is the one and only babysitter (she doesn’t want anyone else). Especially in modern AU they get lots of interaction and have a good relationship. So I think Aiden and Ákos would get along quite well too! He could join their fun babysitter adventures while Adél drinks tea with Maya

As a little bonus, cause I made you wait so much, here’s two snippets showing Aiden’s superb babysitter skills TM

“Hey babe, I was wondering if maybe you’d like to go out?” Talon asked when Aiden answered the phone. “The new movie you wanted to watch is out now.”

“I’d love to, but I can’t today. It’s date night, Henry and Callan are out, so I’m taking care of Celene.” “Oh I see. Stuck babysitting, eh?”

Right on cue, the young girl came running, throwing her arms around Aiden’s legs, looking up to him with big amber eyes.

“Is that your boyfriend, uncle Ad? Can he come over too? Please!”

Aiden laughed. “That’s a good idea, princess. We'll ask him... Hey Tal, why don’t you come over instead and watch a movie with me and Celene?”

“We’re watching Wall-E,” Celene shouted excitedly.

“Yeah we’ll watch Wall-E.” Talon on the other side chuckled. “I don’t know-”

“Come on love,” Aiden interrupted him. “We’re even making dinosaur nuggets.” It was quiet for a while as the other considered the offer.

“Okay,” Talon then answered. “I'll be over in fifteen minutes.”

Aiden smiled triumphantly. “Alright, see you in fifteen minutes then.”

“Aiden, don’t tell me you lost my daughter.”

“I did not lose her, Henry, she’s hiding.”

“But you don’t know where?”

“No, that’s kind of the point of hiding.”

“And the point of babysitting is to have an eye on the baby, you know that right?”

“Of courses I know. But in my defense, she’s very good at hide and seek.”

“...”

“So back to my question, where in your house would you hide if you were a tiny three year old?”

(Bonus bonus: idk if you read it yet but here’s the link to a modern au snippet of Talon and Aiden babysitting Celene and baby Tamlen)

Thank you for sharing more about your characters with me, it’s an honor! ^^

#Ákos might as well be a Callan and Henry love child haha #I’m kidding I’m kidding but they have similarities #anyways I adore him!#writer speaks #writeblr

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chiyoso · 9 months

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Hiiiiiii

I just wanted to warn you about the incoming spam tomorrow. I just finished Luofu trailblazer quests and now I am all ready to binge on your HSR works 👻

I finally finished it.

I am yet to play the character story quests and world quests.

But hear me out. Is it just me or did the Luofu quests feel really really rushed? Like I felt it got the Inazuma treatment. Like before one storyline could establish itself and sink in, we were already involved in a bunch of other things and other plots. Like I felt that they had a lot of ideas but had to string it together to form a singular plot.

Idk, I feel like I liked Jarillo story better as it felt well paced but I didn’t connect with any Jarillo characters. But with Luofu, I didn’t like the story but I liked the characters (cough cough Jing Yuan and Luocha (yeah I know he’s evil)). Man I went into Luofu quest thinking I’ll be a blade simp but ended up being a Jing Yuan simp instead. I am yet to play Blade’s quest (Kafka called me to help them but it’s literally 4am rn and I am like, Blade you will have to wait)

But long story short. I am going to be binging on your fics tomorrow and I am sooooo excited 🥰🥰🥰

RAHHHH NAT AM BLUSHING SO HARD GRRR i just woke up nngh good morning

also! for your question

you're kind of right? about the luofu arc, but honestly, it became less confusing BECAUSE of the detectives, the people who theorize and the overall fanarts/theories of the fandom who made the plot make more sense

if you're confused on some parts, i would love to indulge you in what i have information gathered (e.g. main points, species, jing yuan/blade/dan heng/jingliu relationship and things about the xianzhou luofu)

but! since im also done with the inazuma storyline, i can honestly say that i get what you mean? that the hyv didn't point out and explain too much about you know... stuff (like why blade is so damn obsessed with dan heng, more shit about the stellaron hunters n etc, aeons even!) but thats why fandoms exist! i dont even research much because i dont have time, but once i stumble upon a lore/fanart/or even drabble about something related to hsr, i just piece things myself, that and im a sucker for lore so i try to really understand things!

and the kafka companion quest

i found it funny and so- idk it makes you go blush BECAUSE of kafka, i dont wanna spoil but i hope you enjoy that specific quest! because it tells details about kafka's powers + we get a proper interaction with her finally (so i got to assess her whole personality n such for headcannons, example, in my herrscher of death!reader x hsr fic!)

oh and

i imagine you are swamped with irl things, juggling/grinding hsr and genshin, so starting honkai impact 3rd... it'll be so overwhelming for you (since i am, still trying to finish events) but if YOU decide to join in the honkai impact 3rd train as well, i will gladly, GLADLY help you and guide you with whatever you need!

hi3 is like, more combative, heavy HEAVY lore and we have characters over 50,000+ years old lmao, and actually, if you're familiar with the whole imaginary tree concept in hsr, you will eventually understand why ive decided to plan a honkai impact + hsr crossover series (because hyv makes it makes sense)

and with that

CANT WAIT TO HELP YOU IN ANY WAY YOU CAN ABOUT HSR!!!

and thank you hehe, i'm still revamping the nanook fanfic + creating multiple banners for our hsr men (but look at me create banners lovingly for scaramouche lmao)

OH AND since you're a jing yuan admirer, i assume you'll love my jing yuan works; "imperfections you loathe" and "a fourth wall break from the general" which! are in my hsr menu in my pinned 😌 i'm so excited that you caught up in hsr hehe

#💌 mailed to hiraeth #💌|·❍✧⃝·° H's recipient: teapartyspilled #🌹|·❍✧⃝·° H. — My Bouquets

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whentherewerebicycles · 11 months

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oh my god i have worked from 6:30am-4:30pm today and i spent six uninterrupted hours of that time either leading faculty meetings or directly training my new program manager. so far she seems VERY capable and i think will be a huge asset to the program. god there is.... so much... on my plate right now... but i think that is going to end up being a good thing! if there was less to do i might have a harder time handing projects off to the new person, but as things stand i am so swamped i just view her presence with total uncomplicated relief. like oh thank GOD there's another capable adult here who can handle some of this shit. plus it's early days but i think we are going to complement each other well in terms of strengths/weaknesses... like god i hate thinking about social media/website/communications stuff and i also can't stand tabling at events to promote opportunities but she seems to genuinely enjoy and have a lot of experience with both so i'm hoping i can just be part of the brainstorming/planning process and then hand the implementation off to her. idk we will see i am sure like all working relationships it will reveal its complications in time but so far so good.

okay okay. i'm at that point in the workday where i'm so fried i can't even make the small decisions that will allow me to finish the day and go home. let me think through them aloud.

today generated the following new tasks:

follow up with KL (done)

block time to follow up with WK (this will be a task for friday afternoon i think)

block future time for steering committee charge letter

block future time to plan course (i need a full day and a clear head for this so i will probably want to find a friday or a weekend day where i can really dig in)

review CET presentation (oh my god i do NOT have the bandwidth for this nor do i think my input is necessary but i will try to carve out 10-15 min to do this tomorrow sometime)

tomorrow i am once again in nonstop meeting mode good fuckin lord and then i have a social event for work followed immediately by seeing oppenheimer again with M&A. i cannot forget that i am dropping the dogs off at my brother's place early in the morning!! because i will be gone from 9am-9:30pm melting face emoji melting face emoji ok jes the good news is you've packed the week so full it should fly by........ aaaaaaaaaaa. too tired to get up and leave but MUST get up and leave! my sweet little puppy dogs await!!!

#daily processing #will start using that tag again for braindump schedule stuff lol

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pbandjesse · 1 year

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We are on the train!! We are getting to Minnesota soon and I'm in a great moon. I'm a little sleepy but mostly I'm just having a blast. Today was so fun. It's been such a grand adventure.

Sleep last night came pretty easy. Which was nice. We all finished watching the weird anime and while it was beautiful it was a very hard story to follow and was a bit confusing. We were all yelling at the TV trying to figure it out.

But then it was sleep time. And it was good sleep. I did wake up an hour early because my body wasn't used to the time shift. So I was able to get back in bed for a bit. James had gotten up at 6 because that's just how their body is.

I was happy to see them in the morning. I would go and get dressed and felt really cute. This is a great outfit. I'm going to repeating pieces a lot but it's all good. I felt super cute today.

Very soon after I was dressed Jonathan and Ellen got up too. They would get dressed while I packed up the bags. They got a little mixed up but we still had everything pretty well sorted. I'm very pleased that our bags still fit our jackets if we expand them a bit. I prefer to not hold anything so I am glad this worked so well.

Ellen and Jonathan talked to James about where to go for brunch, which was apparently invented in Chicago. And they landed on a place called Honeybear Cafe and it was very cute. They gave us little cheesecake pieces to start which were excellent. Apparently Chicago style cheesecake is a thing. Me and Ellen bonded over getting upset bellies because of anxiety. And I was able to eat most of my breakfast but mostly I just enjoyed the company. We talked about lots of weird stuff. My weird internet interests, like 9/11 forums and getting groomed online as a teen. And we talked about visiting again soon. I'm glad they are our friends. Also I'm excited for them to get married!! Ellen showed me the collages she made with our stuff from our wedding which was so sweet.

And then it was time to go to our next thing. We dropped Ellen off at home, hugs all around. Her friend, Elyse, who we met when they were in Baltimore for our wedding, came out to say goodbye too. Hugs there as well!! And then Jonathan drove us back to Lake Michigan.

He dropped us off at the feild museum. And after even more hugs we were on our own again.

We fixed up our bags outside and then we headed in. We checked our bags for $3 a piece. I felt a lot better without our stuff. I could focus.

And the museum was awesome. It's entirely to big. But we knew we wanted to see the dinosaurs, taxidermy, and Native American stuff. I set an alarm for 130 so we would know when we had to get out of there. And thankfully my anxiety around the transitions to the next place would stay away for a while. And I could just really enjoy the exhibits and taking pictures with James. We got to see some really cool stuff!! We got to see Sue, another non-binary icon, who is the most complete trex skeleton. I really liked the prehistoric swamp exhibit. I also really liked the Polynesian exhibit we happened upon. The taxidermy was fun but by the time we got there I was a little anxious. So once we got to the Native American stuff I couldn't really read anything. So I took pictures and will look later.

I did have a blast though and I really just felt super connected to James. We were learning together! We were telling each other about things we know and care about. We got to see three mold-a-ramas! Which I love and thought were so cool. I also got a few more squished pennies. And an older gentleman who worked there approached us after and offered me 4 more and it just made me feel so good inside. What a nice man.

We finished up in the gift shop. Which was very large. We didn't get anything but I was very tempted by a bunny plush. Which ended up being $55 so I did not get it but man was it cute.

We got our bags next. I was texting with Jess about my stress. That we would be late to the train. That it didn't exist or was canceled. Just completely being a big baby about it. I knew I wasn't being rational but I was upset and worried.

James would call a Lyft and she was a lovely lady. I enjoyed our conversations with her. She also worked on museums and had so many things to share with us and was very kind. And got us safely to the station.

I almost crossed the street unnecessarily, but James stopped me and we went inside. James checked the map and figured out where we needed to be and lead the way.

I wanted Starbucks but we wanted to make sure we knew where to go first. And that ended up working super well. They told us to go to the lounge! I've never been in an Amtrak lounge before. James would leave me there with our bags and went to find us drinks and me a little sandwich.

Something nice about the lounge is free soda and snacks. So I loaded us up and waited patiently. And James would soon be there. I got a fun pineapple drink and a sandwich. James got a coffee and would have some pretzels. And we waited.

At 240 they called us to go line up for our train. All of us first class passengers (isn't that crazy??) walked in a line to the gate, which I thought was very cute. And then we waited for a bit before they figured out who was going to which car and then we were able to get loaded on.

We are the you gest first class passengers by 3 decades. And everyone has been so lovely. The people who checked us in, our attendant in the car, just everyone. There are a lot of Mennonite! Babies too! And in the sleeping car with us there are a lot of English people visiting from overseas. Our direct neighbors are English and are a lovely couple. They were pretty stressed at first because their luggage went to the wrong car and then the husband went to try to find it and we thought he may have gotten off the train but thankfully everything would come back up and worked out just fine.

And I am having the best time. We got on the train and out room is right at the top of the stairs. It's small, no doubt about it. But it's cozy. And once I figured out where to put thing it felt great. I wish it was just a little wider, but they have a luggage storage area downstairs so it's all good. It worked just fine for us.

We stayed in our car until dinner. Just enjoying the scenery. Chatting. I downloaded all my prints to work on and it took a little bit to get comfortable with the movement of the train but over the next few hours I got 4 illustrations finished! I'm very pleased with that. And honestly it's just been super fun to have a project. I am not tempted to scroll on my phone because I'm occupied. I have my husband, and so much beautiful land to watch.

We had the first slot of dinner and James rushed us out to go andy phone was still plugged in so I got pulled back and our neighbors laughed and I laughed and it was so silly because I was getting thrown around by the movements of the car but it was just so fun.

And we got to eat dinner with a lovely older gay couple from the UK. A former teacher and a former manager of retail stores. They were fun to talk to. The food was pretty good overall! The first course was a caprese salad skewer. The tomatoes weren't great but that was fine. I liked chatting and watching the farm lands.

James got a steak for dinner and I got vegetarian chili in a baked potato. These were excellent. And I enjoyed them a lot. And then for desert James got a lemon cake and so got a blueberry cheese cake. It was excellent. Our attendant said we're going to get fat on this trip because all the food is so good. She's probably right.

After dinner me and James went to explore the observation car. It has windows that wrap around the roof. Not a total glass roof like I was picturing but still really neat and I'm sure when we go by big beautiful native it'll be great. But we stayed there for a half hour. Just giggling over overheard conversations. And then we went back to our cabin.

We would play games. And I drew. We saw good water and a beautiful sunset. We seem to have the good side of the train. And it was quiet. We have been doing nothing and it's just felt good.

After the sun went down we started thinking about getting ready for bed. But first a fresh air break!

The train stopped in Winona Minnesota and we got to stand outside for a little. Me and James stretched. And then back inside to wash up and put on jammies.

Our attendant, Jackie, would come by and make the bed for us. We have two small bunk beds. Me and James are sitting on the bottom one together. James thinks they'll sleep on the top bunk but it's shorter and I think they will be more comfy down here. So we'll have to fight over that. But I just feel so happy right now.

Tomorrow we are on the train all day. In about two hours we'll go through Minneapolis. I hope I can show it to James some day. But it's really nice to be out here. I miss the Midwest a lot. But I wouldn't have found James if I didn't leave it. And James is worth that.

Now I am winding down for sleep. I am a little warm but that's alright. Tomorrow I hope we have fun being together. Let's hope we stay on time. I have been told sometimes this train can be 12 hours late which would not be ideal. But we are prepared either way.

Sleep well everyone. And if our train passes you wave towards Amtrak.

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