#Isn't Better but y'know

[thebitchthatcleansarkham]

Hearing the way the Joker talks about Batman from his cell is fucking insane. You think they ever explored eachothers bodies ?

#rp blog #arkham asylum #only in gotham #Well if it's Not that I guess the Joker just Wants him Carnally I guess which #Isn't Better but y'know #Listen I'm really bored here ok

[uncanny-tranny]

I think it's only natural to feel anger when somebody isn't "taking your advice" or listening to you about their mental health or what will help them. People want to help people, and the anger comes when you are perceiving somebody as not being receptive but...

It can be a selfish impulse to say that your opinion about their illness is the only thing they need. It isn't about you, even though the advice you give is given by you.

Nobody deserves to suffer, this is true. But, also, nobody deserves to be forced to do things that either won't help or won't be genuine. If somebody isn't taking your advice, there's a reason for it (maybe it's not a good enough reason for you, but this isn't the point). It's okay to be disappointed or angry, but it's not going to help to lash out at them. That is only pouring water onto a grease fire.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #sometimes you DO need to freefall without a parachute. sometimes the 'just get better! ☺️' mindset that's given to us will slowly kill us #the whole 'if you take my advice you'll be free from your illness 😇' saviour complex is honestly something that would have killed me #because it wasn't coming from a place of genuinely helpfulness or what would work for *me*... #...those pieces of advice came from the mindset of how to make everybody else comfortable... #...because it minimized the fact that i was (am) fucking insane and unwell and ill and debilitated... #...the advice came across as sinister because it wasn't about me despite addressing my insanity. it was ABOUT everybody else #and i just got done watching a heartbreaking video about somebody else's decline and i don't want them to suffer... #...but i also don't want to be the cause OF their suffering. my advice for them would be unhelpful i think... #...so i am still heartbroken and sad and maybe angry but that... isn't their fault. they are SUFFERING and VISIBLY so... #...i want their suffering to end in any way that will actually help *them* and not my ego y'know...

[randomidiocyncrazies]

twitter takes on toshiro makes me cry... bro was subjected to microaggressions for 5 HOURS and raised in a high-context culture (where you Do Not say negative things outright), and ppl are still like "no he's just a bad person bc he's mean to my boy laios"

#dungeon meshi #nakamoto toshiro #like. he's not 100% in the right but he's also not 100% in the wrong! #sometimes people just have mismatched communication styles and it's unfair to pin all the blame on one side #(i guess part of why i'm so frustrated is because i'm asian and while i use an english name so that my name isn't butchered #some members of my family do have the experience of westerners getting their name wrong and refusing to try better #or like 'why don't you have an English name to make things easier' etc etc) #(to be fair i don't mind my English name and have used it my entire life/it's on my official docs since i was a baby. but also. #part of it *is* because it's just. more convenient to use an english name when they'll inevitably ask for one anyway y'know?)

[front-facing-pokemon]

#gothita #i definitely don't think the lips are Entirely necessary?? wish they didn't have to be like That at the very least #they take over the entire face‚ i feel like. this isn't goth #this is like. conventionally attractive rich lady with a purse lips #maybe i have no idea what goth is and the pokémon knows better than me. and the epitome of goth is red lipstick and a purple face #and done-up lashes with bright blue eyes. y'know

[infriga]

Some people have been saying that live action Sanji feels a little bit more soft and endearing than manga Sanji, but they can't pinpoint why because he does still feel like Sanji. Some people think it's just Taz's acting, and he does do a great job, but I don't think that's the main reason. Others think his flirting has been turned down a bit, but honestly it hasn't really? He still openly flirts with Nami when they first meet, and he still says things like "women are a mystery to be unraveled" and other goofy simp stuff. And his kindness like being willing to feed the hungry no matter what is obviously something that was always there (it's why Luffy chose him in the first place. Hell, in the manga he chooses Sanji as his cook before he ever actually tastes Sanji's cooking, simply because he sees Sanji feed Gin and realizes what kind of person Sanji is).

But there is a difference! And I've figured out what it is, because there IS one manga/anime Sanji trait that wasn't present in live action Sanji: his hatred of men.

Live action Sanji isn't a misandrist anymore 😳

#One piece #OPLA #OPLA spoilers #Obviously it was played for jokes he wasn't like actively cruel towards men and was kind to them too #Like feeding them if they were starving #And he obviously cared about his friends #He was misandrist is a silly cartoonish way #But it did highlight the way he treated women differently from men and made his flirting and simping come across as way more over the top #In comparison to how he behaved towards women #And I think it was a smart choice because English speaking audiences are especially sensitive to that sort of thing these days #I think the only other thing that gives him a slightly different vibe #is live action can't give him heart eyes or have him do the wiggling stuff lol #So his simping feels toned down even though technically he simps a similar amount as in canon #I do think it's funny how some fans like him better in live action because of this on tumblr dot com aka the OG man hating website #Like fans who are caught up understand WHY he's hostile towards men compared to women in canon (see: WCI) #but I don't mind them leaving it out in the live action #And it isn't like an integral key to who he is as a person/character #People who were already Sanji fans knew he was their problematic little meow meow #But it's nice that live action can showcase his kind and soft side a bit more #Like that stuff is already there in canon but he's a little more tsundere about it y'know? Lol

[just-a-little-unionoid]

You know I think we can resolve a lot of our problems and moral dilemma by asking ourselves "does this really matters that much?"

#this is mostly in relation to current moral panic specifically in france but i think it van apply to a variety of contexts #like idk if yall know but france hate muslim people (specifically women) so much and it's so absurd #like... so much debate over muslim girls in school specifically #'we can't let them wear hijabs cuz hijab is a symbol of oppression*' okay well does it really matters that much? #isn't it more important to let them go to fucking school in peace instead of forcing them to remove it #(*i know it's stupid but that's the mainstream view of the hijab in france) #'but we have to stay religiously neutral at school' why? i understand teachers being religiously neutral but students who care? #wouldn't it be better to let anyone exprime their identity instead of forcing a standard‚ so‚ y'know‚ people can learn about diversity? #'well sometimes they refuse to go to swimming lessons because they don't want to be half naked in front of boys/men' #yeah i can understand that somehow not sure it's specific to their religion tho maybe we shouldn't force kids to get half naked idk #maybe we could allow them to go to female only swimming lessons if they want to #'WHAT?! but that's separating bous from girls that's sexist and we won't surrender to that backwards vie-' does it really matters? #obviously i don't believe society should be segregated between men and women but here isn't it more important that those kids learn to swim? #(yeah i fucking hate this debate) #and that works for a lot of subjects #'but trans people-' that's 0.09% of people what the fuck are you talking about #'but if we let kids transition and they regret it' yeah what if? sometimes people do shit they regret (but let's look at the stats too) #if they have regrets we should support and help them and that's it #and like‚ sometimes the answer is 'yes' and if it is you have to keep fighting for your cause #but you have to choose your fights donlt waste energy again things that don't matter that much

[five-of-cr]

here's the thing about matthias: he isn't the honorable, reformed hero some of the fandom seems to see him as.

yes, he was raised by a tight-knit family of comrade soldiers and decides to betray them in the end. of course that took incredible strength. i don't deny that. but we also need to recognize that the drüskelle are not just some rogue cult. they are a core part of the fjerdan government, who is trying to wipe out the grisha because they are seen as dangerous. that's literally just genocide. however indoctrinated someone is, this is something that is evil from every angle, even if the character can't or won't see it.

and look, i love a good redemption arc, but matthias is such a passive actor in his. he falls in love with nina against his will. she changes his attitudes toward grisha because she's beautiful and kind so all grisha can't be bad, right? this a classic example of the trope of separating the "good ones" from the rest, where you cherry-pick specific individuals to point to as exceptions to a group's nature, which is still implied to be evil. you have to do a lot more than fall in love to truly unearth and address the roots of bigotry.

tbh, this is my biggest critique of the books as a whole. i loathe the "love conquers all" trope that pairs together a character from the oppressed group and one from the oppressors, letting the one show the other through the power of love that being bigoted is not nice. it puts all the responsibility on the former to prove their humanity, and gives all the credit to the latter's ability to be persuaded to recognize it. and then it inevitably leads to forgiveness, because the character has "earned" it by changing their views, once again making the victim seem like the villain if they don't absolve the oppressor of their past "mistakes". also, it's incredibly unrealistic for someone to fall in love with a person who actively hates them and considers them sub-human. in real life, people have to work on their bigotry before that happens, not use the relationship as a plot device for character development.

i think the idea of writing a character like matthias is neat. i think portraying someone's struggle to throw off the suffocating, hateful dogma they've been fed all their life is a story we need more of. i think personal growth of this variety should be celebrated, because otherwise people would never change. but i don't think the people, fictional or real, get to do this without facing profound consequences. it is not enough to feel sorry. it is not enough to apologize. it is definitely not enough to fall in love. and i think writing that lets people off the hook like this grossly oversimplifies power and oppression, and ends up being a feel-good way to romanticize people who cause a lot of harm.

a last note: my opinion is 100% influenced by my being bipoc. matthias is a classic aryan supremacist, even if being aryan isn't the thing he's being supremacist about. my gut reaction to that type of character is always going to be mistrust, both because people in real life have given me reason to be mistrustful and because characters like these are often written in a way that makes you sympathize with oppressors. i don't think matthias earns that trust, and i don't see why i owe him my affection as a reader.

#i know i'm usually a 'haha silly little textpost' blog (and don't get me wrong i still am) but this has been on my mind for a while #to be clear i don't think you have to hate him as a character to be a morally upstanding person #and there's nothing inherently wrong about relating to him either #but i do think we as a fandom (a very white one at that) need to acknowledge this #especially because it carries over beyond fiction #stories are powerful and the messages we take from them stick with us even after we close the book #plus even by the end he still is very bigoted #and i realize that he would have had more time to work on himself if he hadn't... y'know #but that's why i like fanon matthias a lot better #he's usually further along in his unlearning process or he actually has to experience that process in a realistically painful way #in fact i really *like* matthias fanon where he actually grapples with his hatred and comes out a better person for it when it's done well #i.e. when he isn't simply forgiven by everyone (especially nina) because he says sowwy #i am thankful to leigh bardugo for creating this universe AND i think she fumbled the matthias redemption arc #nuance!! it exists!!! #ok rant over #also absolutely NO calahan hate on this post #in this house we do not equate characters with their actors #soc #soc spinoff #matthias helvar #helnik #nina zenik #sab #six of crows #save six of crows #save shadow and bone #shadow and bone #crooked kingdom #grishaverse

[irregularbillcipher]

watched the musical demon show (don't wanna name it so this post isn't in the tags) at the behest of an IRL friend and i can already tell this is going to be a piece of media where i absolutely cannot stop thinking about it, not because i really love the show as-is, but because it has so many individual components i really like and find incredibly fun or compelling, and i'm so frustrated that it doesn't come together for me

i think the main thing i can say about it as a show, setting aside some of the insensitive choices that were made that i really don't feel qualified to tackle or talk about, is that the entire thing sort of gives off this vibe of someone really excited to show you every single oc they made in high school and college and i very genuinely mean that in both the best and worst ways possible

there are some good hooks for season two though so i will absolutely give them that

#the vibe is just like... they are just soooo excited to get all their ideas out that it becomes... messy and badly paced #like there are so many moments that are cool or fun or emotional in a vaccuum but they don't connect fully y'know #because this arc or character was JUST introduced so there isn't proper build up. everything moves too quick #and it's frustrating because you can TELL that the people making this show love their ideas and characters #and i more than get thta! i am also someone with a lotta ocs i love to blab about #but i think they have been working with them so long that they #a. assume we are already just as attached to them as they are without always doing that work #b. assume we've seen all the supplemental material which. i have not #and i don't think that a professional show is the type of thing where there should be a barrier of entry that involves like #podcasts and comics and twitter threads and IC instagram posts about characters to do that emotional/lore legwork y'know #i love lore and supplemental stuff obviously but this should still be like #a satisfying experience for me a person who saw the pilot however many years ago and then has not interacted with the show or fandom since #idk man stuff felt rushed and messy and i wish i liked it more #it needed more slow moments i think. the two scenes where the group all drinks together (minus one awful joke in the bar scene) are like #the best in the show to me becase i actually believe these guys are FRIENDS. i wanna see them hang out more! #i wanna see them actually really grow to like each other organically!!! i wanna see them build connections and grow better slowly!!! #songs absolutely slap though. soundtrack is probably gonna be in my spotify unwrapped 2024 #i love me a musical and that inspiration is on its sleeve which i love #also imo the humor isn't great usually. it's very juvenile imo and sometime that works but it often doesn't #(for me at least humor is obviously SUPER subjective) #also tonally they have this 'have your cake and eat it too' issue which bugs me. it's exemplified by the v's (one in particular) #actually i could go on a whole rant about the v's if anyone is interested because god i have some Thoughts #and i think my issues with the v's (namely one v) encapsulates many issues i have with the show #despite all this rambling i actually did enjoy a lot of my time with it. i just don't think it was well-written if that makes sense

[judicent]

Yeah, I did fill 4 sketchbooks in 4 months so far this year. Huh? Am I gonna post even an ounce of it? Well, you see, I am allergic to my phone, so you will have to come CATCH ME

#da #nooo but I am so saddd it's so much easier to show stuff off irl 😭 #if it could look even halfway decent I've considered doing flip throughs of sketchbooks on video #except I draw in pencil and cameras hate that and want me to explode #idk it is truly just better to somehow gain access to my terrible trove of sketchbooks #no but man that sounds like such an ideal hang out. get all my oc lore by sitting on my floor with me as we go through the archives #gosh I should count how many I've filled up at this point #I love that the number increases exponentially as the years go on #like I think 2018 began the precedent of 4 a year minimum which was kinda wild #another ridiculous difficult project I have given a lot of thought to: combing through every sketchbook and either redrawing #or printing off important story related bits and compiling them all into a convenient binder. maybe binding them into a book. #anyway it's pretty much all a drag no matter how you slice it #come to my HOUSE and look at my CREATURES #u don't know this bc I've learned to be silly sneaky but I have stayed up wayyyy too late AGAIN #but I've scheduled this to post at a normal time so you'll never know. unless you read the tags. but that's its own punishment isn't it #hey bonus enticement to look at my boo stuff that doesn't get on the blog. there's smut. and you KNOW I'm a coward who shan't ever post that #actually we'll be lucky if I'm not the same coward in real life too #it's only Dick and Vinny. they get rights. i don't care if anyone else has sex. I don't care if I have sex. #the one song I hope I don't have sex. I hope we both don't have sex. that's actually Vinny though. #I'm more sex favorable and sex positive than he could ever be #y'know this is a very 4am convo to have and actually how prepared am I for this to live in a pm afternoon time #welp. maybe I should stop being addicted to tags and letting loose all my secrets #I shan't grow I shan't do better and I shan't ever change. this is the da promise <3

[uncanny-tranny]

One tip I learned as a young kid that I use now for my IM injections is to relax the muscle I'm injecting into make it as painless as possible. The idea behind this is that when your muscles are less tense (i.e., when it is relaxed), the needle will have an easier time penetrating into it to administer medicine.

Here's how I, personally, relax my muscles for injection:

Put on music or a YouTube video that piques my interest

Make sure I am focused on exactly what I'm doing to ease my anxiety; basically, being intentional and mindful

Sit myself down since I inject into the thigh, then slightly position my foot further than I normally would when I sit

Jiggle my thigh a bit before prepping it with an alcohol wipe (I don't know why, but this helps me so much)

Take a deep breath before injection, making sure the injection needle is at a 90° angle

Look away! (helps because I have very shaky hands that get worse when I look at what Im doing. Do check on your progress as you push the plunger down, but I find I don't have to look to know now)

This will be different than if you do SQ injections, so this is geared toward folks who are doing IM. These tips are things I find, personally, to be helpful, and so I implore anybody reading to realistically explore if it would work for yourself.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #trans advice #intramuscular injections #needle tw #needle mention tw #injection tw #i know many people now are realizing that SQ injections are often superior and now people warn against IM but i like IM better personally #so this isn't a post about if IM is inferior or superior so please don't discourse about that on this post #let trans people do whatever method that they want to do - like i genuinely like doing IM injections and i don't want to defend that y'know #i just want to make this post so that others can think about how to make it easier for them #i remember reading this in a magazine for people getting flu shots and i never forgot it for some reason

[mizukagami-takamagahara]

The newest BlazBlue merch is luggage tags featuring the Central Fiction character select art. Available for preorder here, the website seems to list these as going for 50 USD per five tags? On SALE? 13 USD per single tag, also on sale.

I don't like being negative on this blog, or about things I'm just not the audience for in general... but I really wish ArcSys would stop reselling Central Fiction artwork to us in lazier and lazier sets. Please make something new. Old jpegs on a solid color background? I could print these for myself for basically nothing. I could make them in Powerpoint. Not even gonna add some glitter? Some fun patterns?

To be fair, Under Night In-Birth and Guilty Gear Strive are also getting the same kind of luggage tags, so this is just. Something they're deciding to sell right now I guess.

#blazblue #blazblue central fiction #I wonder what the laws are for using these images #they're probably protected under copyright law #but it would be fun to hop on etsy and sell better versions for cheaper y'know??? #in brighter news at least entropy effect finally has its own fucking promo art and isn't just reusing these sprites #ANYWAYS #bb merch #bb official #izayoi #bang shishigami #bullet #naoto kurogane #arakune #valkenhayn r hellsing #lambda 11 #tsubaki yayoi #amane nishiki #nu 13 #makoto nanaya #azrael #kokonoe mercury #es #rachel alucard #carl clover #noel vermillion #ragna the bloodedge #hazama #celica a mercury #jin kisaragi

[front-facing-pokemon]

#nuzleaf #i didn't really like nuzleaf before psmd. and i still don't really care for it as a pokémon‚ but i liked psmd too much to not feel Something #y'know‚ just by virtue of this pokémon being a major-ish character in my favorite game of all time‚ i kinda like it a Bit more now #although i still don't like it conceptually that much. the design isn't my favorite and it didn't do grass/dark very well #meowscarada for sure did that typing better #i actually just realized i had a notification that you could see in the corner of this image and i just had to go edit that out #this is the first time i've ever had to edit one of the images of the pokémon for this blog‚ fun fact #in case you're wondering. the notification was the reminder that i have set to queue pokémon up for the blog #every morning at 8 AM it tells me Update ffp and i don't do it until i wake up so the notification just kinda sits there until i do it #but the same thing happens with the take your meds notification‚ too #so. i'm kind of a bit of a fail and i can't survive without reminders. if i need to do something i have to ask my phone to remind me #or else i will not fucking do it. idk if any of y'all relate but i think i'll have to edit the notification out of the next one #as well. so. see you in shiftry

[angeltism]

"spar.kle is fictional who cares" I have seen people praising her for her racist anti-romani comments what the fuck kind of world do you live in

#➳ the fool speaks #fuuuck man i don't think fiction and reality will influence each other 1=1 but characters being weirdos or bigots and it not being #criticized for it makes those kinds of people who Very Much Already Exist IRL think they're in the fucking right. they aren't. #i don't think someone getting spar.kle in hsr is going to turn them into a fucking racist but her being Like That and looking cute #and being playable and not getting called the fuck out in game makes people who ARE racists have a cutesy girl to idolize and support and #use as a way to say shit without getting in trouble because ''ermmm I'm not the one who wrote her!! i just think she's really funny!! she's #not real anyways why are you mad!!'' #like my god shut UP #again like. pulling for her or thinking she's cute doesn't mean you want all roma dead. that. that isn't how that works #but if you think of hoyo's writing of her is good and funny and not problematic at all I'd LOVE to know what you think about #how real life roma r treated to this day. like genuinely let's have a little chat. I'm sure you have normal not-racist opinions #and do not use the g slur and do not defend it and tootally don't view roma just as all the bad stereotypes right !!!! #*ok actually pulling for her kinda. shows support to hoyo for whatever weird ass decision someone on their team made #to go ''ah yes let's add racism but make it a cute girl and make it 'funny' this'll get us so much money'' #and if you spent on her banner. look idk what to say. shame? yeah shame. hoyo in general is not a company that deserves your money there #are better things to spend your cash on. like literally look at how they treated sum.eru and they made the guy inspired by roma WHITE ??? #generally. not something I would advise spending on. but like ok especially on the racist character y'know #anyways.

[steakout-05]

very long post about how i as an Australian think the American date structure is silly and confusing under the cut

as an Australian i already think America is pretty funny, like the imperial system is both confusing and incredibly funny to me, but what i really don't get is the way dates are written in America

like.... for context, in Australia, we write days like day/month/year. and i like this because the most important information is the thing you read first. you want to know what day it is, you just look at the first two digits you see and you're done!! in some other counties like Japan and South Korea, they write it like year/month/day, which i also think is ok because it's still in a cohesive and easy to read order. you just go to the end of the date to see what day it is and it's simple!! it's all good! it's easy to read! this is nice!

but for some reason, the dates in America are written like month/day/year and i'm just..... i'm so confused!?!??!? why would you jump to the MIDDLE of the date to see what day it is???? it's so cluttered and jumpy and trying to read it in order is just... kinda irritating. the most important and immediately needed information is shifted to the middle of the date ans then you gotta go back and then jump forward again if you wanna read the whole thing and i'm just. actually bamboozled at that. who did that. who is responsible for that blunder at the workplace. i will find them and i will break their kneecaps and i-

ALSO you have no idea how many times this date format has absolutely screwed up schedules and post dates for me. imagine that there's like an online event or something coming up and they have a schedule for what day they're holding it, but it's just written like 05/03/2024. my Australian ass is going to read that as the 5th of March 2024, but someone in America is gonna read that is the 3rd of May 2024. do you see how confusing this can become. there is zero distinction between the two dates because they're written in the exact same way but have a different structure. this is fine for dates that go over the number 12 or are the same number, but it's still confusing and frustrating, especially when the website doesn't say what timezone setting you're on or won't let you change it (which some of them don't). it's quite a specific issue but it's still an issue and i hate it i don't like it i want it fixed please patch

maybe i just have a more logical way of thinking and i like having things be in order, but goddamn just write your dates properly i can't take it anymore /nsrs

#america is so silly sometimes #not that australia is any better lol but y'know #this post isn't really that serious i just find the month/day/year format to be weird #like why is it so jumpy???? america explain #i never saw how this is convenient or easy to read in any way it's structured so oddly and i just #it's a really america-specific way of writing dates and literally everyone else (except for a couple other countries) will be confused by i #america always has a really specific way of doing things.... #like the imperial system for example. i don't think there's many other countries that use that system and yet #like idk wtf a yard is!!! what is that!!!! what is a yard!!!! #one thing i don't get is miles. why is it a little more than a kilometre. why is it used as a synonym for kilometre. just use kilometre #i'm like that meme that goes ''WTF IS A KILOMETRE!!'' except i'm yelling ''WTF IS A MILE!!!'' in a thick aussie accent #miles are really kinda confusing though... why are you using a measurement that's a kilometre plus 600 metres? #why not just use kilometres? it's more structured and doesn't muddle everything up by adding an extra 600 metres- #-to every kilometre you travel #maybe i just don't understand math very well (which i don't) (to the point where i might actually have dyscalculia) #but i feel like using a measurement that just adds a decimal of like 600 metres gets really confusing to read and figure out #decimals are just confusing in general #they're like in-between numbers sometimes but also not?? i don't get em #speaking of decimals and dates again the pi day thing doesn't really work over here in australia #it would actually be 14/03/2024 here #lots of date jokes don't work here and i'm slightly angry at that #america is weird #america is silly

[teleomancer]

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#so it's Infect Your Friends And Loved Ones with the bit about 'everyone around here knows about you' #even if it's positive- the world pays so much more fucking attention to my life for being trans and it makes me.. shiver? #coffee clerk fumbled every facet of taking my order and the apology landed super duper sideways #'oh sorry! it's just that it's my first time helping *you* is all- just seen you around a lot before. you know.' yeah? know what exactly? #how's that supposed to make me feel? every month they hire someone new and we get to do the same tiring song and dance #another young-20s clerk that will not stop trying to make small talk w/me beats ones that only glare yeah- this isn't pain just frustration #and like YES it's better than the cashier that beats the shit out of my beers on purpose or crumples receipts to hand them to me #or the audible 'see- told you he's a man' commentary when he can see stubble behind a mask on days that can't bother me to shave #like the pharmacists at this supermarket make me well aware that nobody else gets their E here. the store knows the local tranny. great. #genpop cannot reliably be fucking Normal Abt Transfems to the point that it makes me wanna thank the rare coworker that just like. #doesn't treat me like anyone different or special or a threat or a curiosity or an object or a shot to gain social capital for being nice? #getting told by young-20s cis girls that calling me dude didn't mean anything b/c they're 'y'know! *also* [limp wrist mime] *girlypop!*' #hits closer to home than getting called a slur to my face because the latter asshole doesn't pretend to be my friend and just. #skips straight to making me a paper doll in their head of what it means to be me and shaped like me and dressed like me and it's.. slimy. #'everyone around here knows about you.'

[tolbachik]

sorry for being so angry tonight. a better world is possible, we have the engineers, the knowledge, and the power to do it. but our world is driven by a greed and hatred unlike any other, one that sucks the soul out of us all.

we can live lives filled with peace, love, and relative comfort but it's been decided for us that we can't. we can uncover the secrets of our world and universe, but we only chose to do so when it's profitable.

there are so many amazing, wonderful, beautiful people on this world. so many vibrant cultures, so much love, so many hopes and dreams. but the west takes it all. capitalism takes more than the world can provide, pushes people into poverty and slavery, all so only a few can play with us all as mere toys and have dick waving competitions.

we're turned against each other, we're told others are savage and inhuman, that they're just a number, just a percentage point. they play god, and as one that is filled with nothing but vengeance and rage. one that only seeks to punish and hoard all that there is, until there isn't anything else anymore. we could've made such a beautiful world for ourselves by this point if a few key things had gone through, but greed and hatred was won time and time again.

my only hope is that we can finally start to push this horrid system into the fire, and we can truly start to set things right. for all its failings, i think the internet has really started to bring us together. i just want people to live and be happy. i want everyone to be able to follow their dreams and feel love. i really hope we can reach that point someday.

#sorry. again. #had one of those “oh yeah i'm alive” moments when i was writing that francis bebey thing #and it just kinda snowballed from there y'know #knowing history and how long certain concepts have been around is just so infuriating #we really could've been in such a good state by now #space based solar power beaming down nearly limitless energy by the 80s #floating sea platforms providing fresh seafood and electricity to equatorial nations #nearly carbon neutral electrical grid by this time if reagan hadn't been president #liquid salt reactors to help transition us from fossil fuels to clean energy #so many things have been possible and are currently possible to make life so much better for everyone #but instead we waste it on dozens of useless wifi satellites that'll trap us on our planet #nuclear fearmongering preventing us from weaning off of fossil fuels easily #every day i wake up hoping this chain of bad decisions and terror has been a dream #but it isn't #we have to make do with what we have and strive for a better world #we'll get there someday #my posts