#It's only alluded to but it's there

[anarchy-and-piglins]

It takes a while before Phil even convinces them to tell him where Techno’s room is.

There’s red tape he has to get through first, causing frustrations that only his job experience can waylay. Hospitals are stricter about these types of things than a lot of other places and no matter how Phil spins the situation, Technoblade and him are not related. Not in a way that matters to these people. It’s been ages since Phil had to pull out his credentials as Techno’s case worker, he isn’t a minor anymore so technically the title bears no weight. But it makes one pale-faced nurse purse her lips and send him on his way with some hesitation. Phil finally ends his call with Ranboo, who is still in a panic.

Not that Phil can blame the kid. From what he hears, the situation Ranboo found Techno in did not paint a pretty picture.

Phil knows stress has been wearing down on Techno’s shoulders. The flower shop doing poorly, his biological parents suddenly being back in the picture, his magic becoming more unpredictable by the day. Things haven’t been easy.

but he never thought Techno would do something so drastic.

He opens the door without knocking, knowing Techno wouldn’t mind. But the man standing next to the bed draws up to his full height, a crease in his brow at being intruded upon. When his eyes glide off Technoblade, Phil swears he notices his friend’s shoulders sag notably in relief.

“Oh,” the man before him says. “It’s you.”

Phil takes a step closer, braving the storm, only focusing on Techno for the moment. He doesn’t let the cold, red eyes burning into him deter him. “Technoblade, are you okay? What happened? You gave me the fucking fright of a lifetime, mate, I’ll tell you that much.”

Techno opens his mouth as if he’s going to respond, fingers fidgeting with the IV stuck into his hand. Before he can, his father cuts in.

“He’s fine.”

“Ranboo told me what happened.” Phil cuts straight to the chase. He’s too tired to play games. “Why did you-“

And once again it’s that horrible man known as the blood god among his peers who responds. “I don’t know what you heard, but it was a simple accident.” He steps closer to Technoblade, hand reaching out for his shoulder. Techno flinches, but doesn’t stop him. When his father’s touch brushes his skin, Techno whines. The bracelet glows a faint purple. Phil watches a flower burst from Techno’s palm unbidden, wilting into rot immediately.

“Tell him,” Techno’s father commands simply.

“It was an accident.” Techno says, voice tiny. He hasn’t looked at Phil once since he came in. “I just… I just stupidly forgot I’d already taken my sleeping meds. Typical, huh?” Techno laughs, sounding like it physically hurts. His pink hair falls over his face, his cheek. It doesn’t completely hide the bruise there.

“That’s not-“ Another step closer, desperation clawing at Phil’s throat. “You know you can tell me anything, Techno. I can get you help.”

“Phil.” That deep voice calls out to him once more. But this time, Phil sinks into it. It rushes over him like a wave. he gets lost in it.

When Technoblade’s father smiles, there is no joy to it except that of a predator with its prey at its mercy.

“It was an accident.” The words are spoken so simply, so straightforward. "So you can leave now."

Phil suddenly can’t remember why he’d ever doubt them in the first place.

“An accident,” he answers faintly. Blinking takes too much effort. He rubs a hand down his face. “Yeah, of course. I uh- I need to call back Ranboo. You can get in touch if you need anything.”

Technoblade nods, still not looking at him. Phil leaves the room without another question.

#technoblade #philza #thoughts #Shara writes #No context for you #I don't know if the people I originally wrote this for even give a shit but tada #suicide attempt tw #It's only alluded to but it's there

[shigayokagayama]

happy one year anniversary to the most insane week in internet history

#mp100 #mob psycho 100 #reigen arataka #vid #EDITORS NOTE: sexymanotd deleted their twitter account which made finding stuff for this. very difficult. #i was unfortunately unable to include the BLOODSHED in the replies of the ingo poll and could only allude to it #i will never forget standing outside my calc class listening to people talk about how sad it was the queen died #while scrolling past WALLS of sans and reigen getting to third base on her grave

[mumblesplash]

part 2!!!! [read part one here]

transcript below the cut arranged into stanzas to help show where the rhymes are:

“that’s why they brought gem in? as a failsafe?” as a pawn. we were told to point her at whoever we need gone

“gem won’t hurt her allies. …yet.” the curse she carries will it’s had its eye on her since she lost the other eye she was specially selected for her hunting skill it’s quite the high honor. “wow. how generous.” we try

think about it: why does almost no one fight the curse? “given how fast scott killed skizz last season, i can guess.” [“any pain you spare your friends, you’ll have to suffer worse”?] it’s designed to shut down higher reasoning with stress

#if you still can't see the rhyme scheme try reading it out loud #if that doesn't work uh. idk. can't help you #my art #grian #geminitay #smajor1995 #bdoubleo100 #inthelittlewood #secret life #grian and his terrible horrible no good very bad eldritch coworkers: the sequel #cant wait to post the next part so i can be like 'my three secret life comics. and yes they all rhyme' #this one narratively doesn't work nearly as well as a standalone compared to part 1 #however i accidentally went way too hard and could probably upload the middle page + second to last panel as their own separate art pieces #tbh i'm considering putting an explanation of everything below the readmore buuut i don't feel like it atm. :3 later maybe #me and my 20+ life series headcanons i only allude to without explicitly stating don't need to explain ourselves #still experimenting with this webtoon-esque vertical comic style #still not sure i like it #it gets long too quickly #among other things #but it's very easy to read on a phone so

[omaano]

It's his day to join the Hades AU! Happy Cody Day!!

""This weapon is your life" is what my general often said to lecture his old padawan during the war, and yet he constantly lost his. The lightsaber and his cloak... The things might be cursed. Not as much as yours, though." "Please keep that thing far away from my kid."

Rex from down the hall: "Stop trolling the shiny as a way to cope, Cody!"

Cody: "I have nothing to cope with, this is just for fun. The Darksaber is definitely cursed and you know it."

Rex: "Oh yeah, it definitely is. Sorry kid."

Din is still trying to figure out how he counts as a "shiny" here

Backgrounds, as per usual, are screenshots from my latest attempts at a run in the Hades game. All I can do is add more pocket characters, I'm not gonna redraw the whole set TT^TT (but look, Din is holding a handful of green and brown pixels now!)

#please insert the appropriate “that is the GAR's ass” joke here for me #tumblr where are my reds again??? #commander cody #cody day #coday #cody day 2224 #cc 2224 #hades au #star wars fanart #tcw fanart #my art #the clone wars #you're not following me for my ability to write good dialogue #so just appreciate what a fine figure cody cuts from this angle alright? #dunk that man in some soapy water his armor needs a good scrub #he has no murder on his conscience whatever might rex be alluding to? what does he know :P #when they don't have din to pick on cody is trying to coax rex into calling boba an “anklebiter” to his face #it's only a matter of days before he wears rex down #(rex is already game he just wants cody to bet something very good for it)

[imaybe5tupid]

Touden observations

(I hc them as fantasy Norwegian)

#laios touden #falin touden #toshiro nakamoto #shuro dungeon meshi #edited slightly I think its funnier and cuter and more fitting if theyre not speaking the common tongue #its probably nice for the siblings to be together again they probably had no one else to talk to in their own language for years #and still only have each other #i strongly rebuke the idea that their native language is the common tongue #they are norwegians bro #shuro is just hearing intense hinga dinga durgen ing here #I talk so much about the Toudens being Norwegian comparatively since I rarely give much context on my posts #but always clarify that whenever their culture is mentioned or alluded to I wonder if people think I’m Norwegian lmfao #im asian im just an Ibsen fan 😂 #Also they’re explicitly from the mountains #And I like to imagine that laios has psychological issues about not being agile enough to do hallingkast with all the other village boys #also the way their village is described reminds me of the village in Peer Gynt #My comics

[saionjeans]

yet another moment where saionji says something incredibly trenchant and insightful only to be completely dismissed due to the ridiculous framing and the general cringiness that pervades everything he says and does (eg, pointing out that the castle is a trick of the light, announcing that they must shed the coffins end of the world has prepared for them, etc etc). obviously in this instance, he is both saying something that is proven correct throughout the show via a myriad of dynamics, but is also shown to be a precept that is teleologically challenged and rejected by anthy’s final choice.

upon a first viewing, one might assume saionji himself is talking about anthy here, whether by presumptuously assuming that she loves him despite his abuse, or claiming that her rejection of him does not lessen his love for her. either way, he seems totally delusional and moronic. i can only assume that utena, who has even less information than we do regarding saionji’s true feelings, assumes that he is talking about anthy, and thus dismisses him out of hand for being a violent idiot. and rightfully so. but also, he’s clearly not talking about anthy, even if he may think he is (or at least would claim that he was if questioned). and this statement is truly definitional to his relationship to touga, whom he resents, envies, and maybe even loathes, but whom he cannot seem to ever actually abandon.

even when he’s given the chance to start fresh, he returns to ohtori (and in this case you can say that it’s because he has nowhere to go, no family, the outside world is scary, ohtori is all he knows, he felt he had no other choice… but this was also true of anthy, and she eventually found the courage to leave! it’s very very hard, but it’s not impossible, which is the point). even as he vocally condemns akio’s system, he nonetheless participates in it, albeit reluctantly, for touga. he is freer, healthier, and kinder in wakaba’s dorm, but he is also deeply unhappy. which isn’t to say that he ever seems happy (at least, not after losing the rose bride), but his unhappiness in “wakaba flourishing” is that of depression, whereas his unhappiness around touga is that of resentment. he’s rightfully angry over constantly being mistreated, but at least he’s not lost. he has a purpose. even if it’s just the purpose of receiving abuse and putting up a futile fight, it’s a role he can play with the only person who has ever truly mattered to him. it’s all he knows; it’s the closest thing he has to real love. and so he stays.

nanami is in a very similar situation as saionji is. they both idealize a version of touga who never really existed, and cling to him despite his blatant mistreatment of them because he is the only person who has ever shown them true affection in their entire lives. he manipulates them, makes a laughingstock of them, facilitates and participates in sexually abusing them, but also makes sure that they are too dependent on him to leave them. nanami is even more blatant in illustrating this idea than saionji is, as for most of the show, she does not even resist against touga like saionji does, rather she purely venerates and worships him, to the point of parody. he is a terrible brother to her, but in such a way that makes it seem like he’s actually a good brother to an obnoxious, ridiculous sister. he is actively grooming her, and she has nowhere to run, because he has fashioned himself her entire world. she cannot fathom a world beyond his limits, her very own personal end of the world.

it’s somewhat unclear whether touga thinks that controlling saionji and nanami is necessary to keeping them around, or whether he only wants them around because he enjoys assuming control over others. it’s probably a mix of both. he probably does hold some affection for them, but cannot conceive of a way to keep them as close to him as he would like without exploiting them, because he believes that true friendship is for fools and true love is impossible. to touga, if every relationship must be imbalanced in some way, then he at least wants to be the one with the power in his deepest relationships, unaware (or at least, willfully ignorant) of the fact that by corrupting and perverting their dynamics, he is slowly tainting their naive childhood love and affection that drew them to him in the first place. so in touga’s case, he inverts saionji’s logic to refigure it as “love can only be facilitated through abuse, no one will truly show you love unless they have to (through exploitation).” it’s the logic of someone who sees the world through an almost 2D framework of abuse, exploitation, transaction, and control. it’s the logic of someone desperately sad and desperately cynical. nanami is very wise (and brave) to ultimately reject him/it, even though it, too, is all she knows.

tsuwabuki complicates the nanami/touga dynamic by aspiring to inhabit both their roles simultaneously, and so he allows himself to be subjected to nanami’s exploitation while simultaneously subjecting her to violence. he is happy to be abused by nanami not because he loves her per se, but because their abuse is mutual. shiori and juri have a similar dynamic, wherein they are both at fault in different ways, both attempt to avoid the other (physically and psychologically) and yet constantly collide like magnets. however, the i would argue that the abuse they face is largely systemic, and their behaviors are primarily a symptom of their internalized homophobia rather than overt malice (even though shiori may pretend otherwise). miki and kozue’s tension is also mutual. they both harm the other despite loving them deeply. because love is not a bandaid that revolves all pain, misunderstanding, and miscommunication. see: the utena and anthy ledge scene.

finally, i think this quote is actually most powerful when figuring it through the lens of utena, anthy, and akio. of course, akio has fostered a dependency in anthy much like touga has with nanami, and so she does not know how to leave him despite being in incredible pain at his hand. but she is not “happy,” as saionji puts it. she is the most miserable girl in the world. she doesn’t love akio as much as she loves the memory of him, the idea of dios (which is of course also true for nanami and saionji re: touga, arguably also true for juri re: shiori, miki re: kozue, etc etc) — but anthy needs akio. or at least, akio has convinced her that she does. he is end of the world, she cannot envision a life beyond his imposed limits.

but i actually find it more interesting with regards to utena and akio. i don’t think at any point in the show, utena ever actually has real, romantic feelings for akio. i think that she is terrified of him, and in her desperate feelings of trapped helplessness as he ensnares her, she convinces herself that those heart palpitations, startled movements, shocks and thrills she feels in her presence is the emotional response not of fear, but of affection. but we know that in anthy’s presence, she doesn’t feel afraid, she feels calm, relaxed, happy. being with anthy isn’t wildly exciting, constantly requiring rationalizations to explain away the dread and internal rejection she feels towards akio’s advances. being with anthy feels like coming home. and it’s why she is initially so happy to be accepted into anthy’s family, to have a big brother like akio, to live under their roof. in utena’s naive, hopeful mind, she is joining anthy’s family in the most innocent possible sense. and she endures it, the grooming, the abuse, the rape, the end of the world; she fights til her very last breath, because she is in love. no matter how [utena] may be abused (by akio), she’s always happy to be near the one she loves (anthy).

#remind me to write an analysis on the moniker ‘end of the world’ next #bc i only rly allude to that here #id in alt text #u #analysis #manalysis #saionji #utena #touga #anthy #akio #nanami #miki #kozue #juri #shiori #tsuwabuki #dios #utenanthy

[wi1dshxpe]

gortash sets up a lending library at his estate after seeing durge’s in the bhaal temple. they both know they’re the only people who use them so it turns into a sort of game. durge loves music, so after enver’s last visit a book about viola has appeared in the temple library. enver fancy’s himself a jeweler so it’s only natural a scroll about gem welding would end up in his library. books relating to their schemes, hobbies, pasts, futures, inside jokes and aspirations get passed back in forth. the only extended pause is when a novel about star crossed lovers gets dropped in the bhaal library. it’s weeks before the favor is returned and enver receives a scroll about bhaalist marriage ceremonies. he doesn’t know whether to take it as an advance or a threat, so he accepts it as both.

#dark urge #durgetash #enver gortash #durge #i ​love enver’s boldness to hear durge say ‘nobody whose been in a relationship with me has left alive’ and respond ‘yeah but i’m different’ #he is but not enough to change his fate #they would also be like varying levels of straight forward- at times they’re coming up with entirely new cipher systems for simple messages #100% being way more open they would be normal. gortash would almost never be open about about his time with raphael but he will leave a book #alluding to his treatment when he was at the house of hope #my durge was a cleric of ilmater in their youth and is incredibly ashamed of it by the time they meet gortash. but they do leave him a book #of his teachings with a chapter about meditations they still use to quell their urge #and obviously bhaal hates everything about this. not only is durge besties w his enemy and doing stupid stuff that has nothing to do with #murder they’re being unashamed of things he very much wants them to be ashamed of

[teamsasukes]

the chunin exams arc was so interesting for how it portrayed sakura's potential and how people in her life influenced it. kakashi lying about the team-based enrollment criteria because he thinks sakura would be likely to sign up only to appease sasuke, and being genuinely surprised when she shows up anyway. naruto being completely oblivious when sakura was upset preceding the exams and also after she cut her hair in the forest of death. naruto literally dreaming about saving sakura from enemies, being the hero to her damsel-in-distress. sakura moulding herself into a perfectly feminine lady because that's what society demanded and what she thought sasuke would want. versus sasuke calling her out for focusing too much on romance instead of her skills like she should be doing. sasuke picking up that she was upset because she felt inadequate and reminding her of what she was best at -- maybe even better than him -- and never begrudging her for it. ino hacking into her mind because she was sure, not a single doubt in her mind, that sakura would know the answers to the impossible questions on the written exam. ino and sasuke both stepping in to save her during her fight with the sound nin, but only after being spurred on by the brutal beating she took. ino and sasuke getting frustrated with naruto when he commented on how her haircut looked because it made sakura trivialize her experience and offer a fake explanation about women being fickle. the flashbacks revealing to us that ino affirmed that she would one day bloom into a beautiful flower. ino and sasuke serving as a catalyst for sakura to get stronger before pt 1 and pt 2 respectively. idk do you see what i'm seeing

#haruno sakura #inosaku #sasusaku #idk considering sakura's main goal as a character.... #it's just so touching they're the only ones we see who ever seemed to expect something of her. believe in her even... #and tsunade eventually ofc. really really wish we had more of that dynamic #and i dont wanna discredit naruto he did cheer her on during her fight w ino #i just think this theme of knowing and encouraging sakura's potential is not really. true of ns as it is for is and ss #which is why whenever i see those 'naruto was the only one who saw sakura's REAL self' posts a part of me shrivels up and dies #the 'real self' in question = beating him up for little to no reason #and like sure it alludes to her real personality but it's not a healthy expression of it. that's why it occurs w far less frequency in pt 2 #anyway i'd need a whole other post to delve into that but let's just say it's really not an interpretation i enjoy #naruto meta

[reactionimagesdaily]

#'*contestant on Hell’s Kitchen​ voice* for my other two submissions i went for a raccoon reduction with only a hint of trashboy for flavour #raccoon esque. reminiscent. alluding to. in reference of' #reaction image #reaction meme #daily reaction images #image mood: raccoon double-week #submission #now with added caption

[tokyoteddywolf]

"Not my clowns, not my circus."

So.... that upsurge of Shadow Mewtwo art, huh lads?

Listen her job is to purify corrupted Gaia energy, aka the Shadow Stones, but they're not her problem if they're a different world than hers. Obsidian has enough on her plate XD

She's the equivalent of a very overworked secretary keeping everything running smoothly. The little old lady who has all the codes and passwords and if she's fired, the company goes down with her :) In this case, her entire planet.

So yeah, she's not touching that hot mess with a dimension long pole, lmao XD

#Obsidian is 100% done with other world shenanigans- her own world is a bitch and a half to manage already lol #pokemon #mew #shadow mewtwo #the obsidian mew au #well im tagging shadow mewtwos but theyre only alluded to in this XD #Sidia herself is TECHNICALLY a shadow mew??? just not corrupted or evil?? #thus the 'technically' part. she just has stained fur and a stone :p #but yeah she runs on caffiene and spite and her love for her kids but otherwise she is ready for a nap at all times

[daily-hanamura]

#persona 4 #p4 #persona 4 golden #p4g #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #souyo #kinda #i think its a bit telling that the way in which yosuke describes the best part of his youth pretty much alludes primarily to yu #those are all things that he thanks yu for - for being a friend that has seen the worst parts of him; someone he can be his true self with #yu is the first friend that yosuke makes a genuine connection to #beyond the superficial friends-by-necessity friendship with the people of his hometown who didnt bother keeping in contact with him #he talks about having someone that holds him accountable so that he can face himself #and of course we know that the only person (apart from teddie) who has seen yosuke's shadow is yu #i think its cute that he got flustered talking about it but i also think yu probably understood as he was listening to him #anyway im gushing again IM NOT SORRY THO #he's good with his queue

[utilitycaster]

I enjoy shipping, but I cannot see the appeal in watching shows only for the purpose of shipping; I think it closes you off to so much. I think coming into a work with the expectation that it will only succeed if a particular configuration of people end up happily in a relationship with each other when the curtain closes means you will reject so many unexpected choices altogether. It destroys your ability to appreciate the entire concept of tragedy. Just, imagine refusing to let yourself enjoy "I'm not a gardener" because you are too furious that a different kiss than the one you wanted happened to feel other emotions.

#does shipping above all make you less empathetic: I deadass think it does: an ongoing investigation by m utilitycaster #this alludes to candela bc i'm still thinking about how good that line is and how (thankfully only a couple) people ignored it #bc they were so mad that the horror show was a tragedy and that marion kissed jean instead #i suspect though that this is behind the viciousness of the c2 ships. people genuinely used the word betrayal for a thing never promised #and some of the extremely mean-spirited nature of some c3 shipping; even among ships where i see the appeal #like i am not against shipping. i like shipping. but if you define I Get My Ship as success you will be miserable and bitter so often #and i think this ALSO is why like. 19 year olds will act like they are a veteran of years of queerbaiting. #when in fact they're a veteran of watching shows bc they saw one (1) out of context gifset and thought that was a guarantee #anyway i've cracked it follow for more analysis of the nature of fandom and how it should probably be like car rentals #fandom old? no. fandom young. go get some life experience and perspective first. the trekkie housewives never missed.

[irrigos]

Now we have the wax, which is the streak beneath our skin, and the wick, which is the faith we have skeined, and the tinder, which is the harm we have done to those who loved us, and the flint, which is the Name, the treasure of music stilled. Now. it will hurt, we must render ourselves a little, there will be scars, but one more scar, what is that?

Here it is! Almost a year's worth of work spent studying calligraphy, illumination, painting, gilding, and a million other little skills I didn't have went into making this idea a reality. Time well spent, if you ask me!

Close ups of the actual piece under the cut:

Here's the digital draft

And a flat photo of the finished physical piece:

I might do another post with some process shots, if anyone is interested? This piece went through a LOT of versions while I figured out how to... uh... do it at all. We'll see!

#fallen london #seeking mr eaten's name #failbetter games #here it is... the art project i have been alluding to working on for ages....... #if you only count the time it took me to design draw and paint the finished version this probably took like 50 hours #if you count all the time spent learning the skills and experimenting with different possible designs #this took uh. more than that. #dont worry about it!

[aq2003]

(x)

#ncuti gatwa #doctor who #fifteenth doctor #15th doctor #dr who #this is !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #from what i have seen/heard so far of dw. the doctor's white privilege has either been #only slightly alluded to in terms of informing the themes. Or w at best good intent but handled extremely badly/clumsily (fly high ten.) #it seems like fifteen will be written/portrayed w their race actively in mind this time which makes me v excited for their run!! #hoping. hoping and praying and hoping to the stars that rtd got people of color (specifically BIPOC) in the writers room this time #15 era

[polutrope]

For the first sentence prompts:

It was adding the fourth that caused the trouble.

“No, I’m sorry, only one Ambassador per clan, those are my directives — but your husband is going, do you not trust his judgement on behalf of you and your people?”

“Of course not,” replied the silver-haired elf, a woman of slight build but mighty presence. Then she spun to face the sea of dark heads gathered around and cried, “Do you, O Tatyar, trust Finwë alone to make this choice for you?”

“Nay!” they cried. “Míriel must go too!”

“There, you see,” she said, thrusting her chin up defiantly.

Oromë sighed, recognising that this being’s spark of determination burned as hotly as Varda’s stars, and consented to bring Míriel to Aman, thus setting in motion a revolution with consequences far more sweeping and profound than any the Music had foresung.

[send me a sentence]

#miriel #orome #first sentence prompts #five sentences alluding to the enormous AU that will likely forever live in my head only

[courtney-deserved-better]

fuck it, i now headcanon sanders to be nonbinary because only going by your last name to the point where nobody knows your first name is such a nonbinary thing to do

#sanders and chef are the only characters to not have canon first names #but dramarama alludes to first names for chef (like norbert and cheffrey) #whereas sanders has absolutely nothing #td sanders