#Never saw his face before

[augustdementhe]

#This is the Crime Pays Botany Doesn't guy #Never saw his face before #Being Texan I'm legally required to be fascinated by his accent #And then you add expertise to that and FFFFFFFF this is great #SAY 'SPECIFICITY' AGAIN #Youtube

[oatbugs]

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it #it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper #provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the #interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after #50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked #his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it #he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from #when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has #his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever #but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how #we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe #cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna #back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed #practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence #we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one #who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted #to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say #goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art. #you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea? #if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa #the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding #his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.

[dazais-guardian-angel]

Dazai truly has become Oda in every way imaginable now. :’ ) the final words he gives to Sigma are the exact same words Oda gives to Dazai in the original scene Asagiri wrote for the end of the Dark Era stage play, 後は頼んだよ, “I will leave the rest to you.”

And I really love the progression of the way his eyes look in this chapter, and how Sigma is allowed to have this moment of questioning and rebelling against all the faith Dazai had naturally been leading him to place in him up to this point, which is what I hoped would happen. He’s been confused ever since Dazai first chose him, and everything he’s ever known about how everyone sees/treats him turned upside down by Dazai’s words and actions, and just when he’s finally started to feel like he’s found some hope and lowered his guard, Dazai pulls him back underwater, instantly reinforcing all of Sigma’s trust issues and reinforcing that he should never believe in anyone, because (he thinks) everyone lives to manipulate other people. Dazai’s dark eyes here reinforce that, too, and the other panels around this point where they look white and hollow and demonic, all like Fyodor’s. He appears like an evil, looming force pulling him back under, trying to kill him, when Sigma is so close to the freedom of the air he desperately wants (aka free from pain, which is what he’s been seeking his whole life).

But then Dazai makes this face, and the first one I posted above, and Sigma understands, even without words, that Dazai doesn’t have evil intent: on the contrary, he actually is bound and determined to save his life -- and the light in his eyes comes out through this determination and kindness, arguably the most light we’ve ever seen his eyes have in the entire manga (in the “I leave the rest to you” panel too). The “No” could be Dazai wordlessly telling him to not leave the water, but my first assumption was that it was Sigma telling himself no, stopping his own train of thought about Dazai being the same as Fyodor and someone he shouldn’t have trusted -- he soon realizes why Dazai stopped him, and that he’s still going to try to save him, that he wasn’t wrong about him, and it’s all because Dazai’s earnest expressions get through to him.

And it’s just so heartwarming to see how far Dazai has come. :’ ) He tried so hard to save Sigma (doing the most physical action we’ve ever seen him do, really), did his best to be reassuring and comforting to him afterwards, and then reaffirmed his promise to ensure he escaped Meursault alive, his final words to Sigma echoing Oda’s and his last action being to save an orphan, just like Oda did in his last moments. Obviously Dazai isn’t actually going to die, he’ll be saved somehow, but I do think as of right now he really does think this is the end for him, and that he didn’t foresee the elevator dropping -- he was examining the wires a few chapters ago because he thought he might need to know how to open the doors in case Fyodor pulled an uno reverse, hence why he looks more annoyed than shocked when the water starts, but here, when the drop collision sequence is initiated, he looks genuinely shook in comparison. There’d be no reason for him to give the thumbs up if he knew more danger was on the way, either; that’d just be cruel. No, I don’t think he saw this coming, and it’s important that that turns out to be the case: it’s important that he spent what he believes to have been his last moments saving someone like Oda wanted for him, and doing what Oda would have done in the same situation. That doesn’t mean that it’s okay that Dazai throws his life away so easily, and cares so little for his own safety; he still has a long way to go in that regard. But it’s still so beautiful to see how much he’s changed, and how much he’s truly begun to embody Oda and his legacy; the fact that he messed up and miscalculated, because Dazai isn’t infallible, but in turn didn’t hesitate to use his last moments to save Sigma. Oda would be so proud for everything he did here. :’ ) 💖

There are a lot of options for how Dazai will be saved, and by who, but personally I hope (and I kind of expect) that Sigma chooses to not give up on him and ultimately plays a role in saving his life, to return the favor and repay him for his kindness. Not only would it be a beautiful way to initiate Sigma’s ADA entrance exam as people have said, but it would bring the Dazai > Atsushi > Sigma chain full circle: Dazai saved Atsushi at the start of the series, allowing him to (spiritually) save Sigma at sky casino thanks to the growth fostered in him by Dazai, and now finally, Sigma could potentially save Dazai thanks to Atsushi kickstarting his own growth (and Dazai continuing it). Fyodor is overly cocky right now and so tunnel-visioned on killing Dazai, it’s possible that he has no idea that Sigma managed to escape the elevator and is now a wild card; even if Sigma doesn’t go as far as killing Fyodor himself (which I don’t want, tbh; that’s endgame stuff arcs down the line and imo Nikolai and Dazai should be the ones involved with that), he could throw a wrench in the jailbreak duel, and help Dazai and Chuuya get out alive. It would be poetic, and only fitting, for Fyodor to underestimate and be outdone by the kind of person Dazai told him is the strongest in chapter 77 -- a self-proclaimed “ordinary man” -- who could only have the strength to take such action thanks to the chain of kindness that Oda originally started. 💖

#bungou stray dogs #bsd 106.5 #meta #this chapter was literally everything i could have wanted i am SO EMOTIONAL #I WILL NEVER BE OVER IT #ASAGIRI GIVING ME LITERALLY EVERYTHING I EVER COULD HAVE WANTED #DAZAI HAS GROWN SOOOO MUCH HE'S BECOME SO MUCH LIKE ODA I COULDN'T BE MORE PROUD 😭😭😭💖💖💖 #as soon as i saw that big panel of his face i was like........ he looks like oda......... ASAGIRI I SEE YOUUUUUU #AND THE FINAL WORDS #I SEE YOUUUUUUUUUU #ISTG IF DAZAI THINKS ABOUT ODA WHEN HE THINKS HE'S GONNA DIE BEFORE HE GETS SAVED I WILL SPONTANEOUSLY COMBUST #ASAGIRI PLEASE THIS IS THE PERFECT OPPORTUNITY I WILL CRYYYYYYY 😭🥺🥹💖 #Dazai was so much like Oda here and Sigma looked just like Atsushi in that one panel DONT TOUCH MEEEE #THIS WHOLE CHAPTER WAS SO PERFECT #I NEED SIGMA TO SAVE HIM NOW #the longest chapter we've gotten in AGES and it was a banger god bless #tbh i really needed this after season 4 lmao i needed a reminder of why i love this series so much :''''') something to soothe my rage #asagiri saw my bitterness at anime sigma and was like 'here u go babe i got your sigma and dazai and oda feast' #probably means next month will be short again and a pov change lmao 🥲💔 #gonna enjoy this while it lasts #anyway i was really happy to see that moment of Sigma getting mad even if it didn't last long (and for a beautiful reason) #because he Deserved that #(because that's what i wrote in my fic and i feel vindicated now even if that wasn't the main focus of this chapter looool oops-)

[astro-b-o-y-d]

How pissed do you think Shermie was when he found out about what really happened with Stan and Ford???

#Hayley Speaks #It might not hit as hard if you headcanon him as the baby in the flashback #But if you don't and you headcanon him as older than them it's like #Okay so he comes home to find out one of his younger brothers got kicked out #And the other moved all the way to the other side of the country #And then the news about Stan being dead comes up #So I fully imagine that while Stan never outright told him about what happened; he knows damn well that he's not Ford #Even after all the time they spent apart; that is so CLEARLY Stanley Pines who is suddenly going by Stanford #Maybe Stan hides his hands around Shermie to continue the con but Shermie knows #Which means something probably happened to Ford and Stan doesn't want anyone to know #So he keeps the secret and doesn't let on that he knows #He could always confront Stan about it but also like #The last time he really saw Stan was long before he got kicked out of the house #He does NOT want to scare off what is potentially the only brother he has left #He's always felt like the third wheel when it came to them; both because of the twin thing and the 'being the oldest' thing #Combined with the whole 'Pines men don't talk about their feelings' thing; he thinks it's best to just let Stan keep pretending to be Ford #And silently mourn the loss of the brother that the rest of the family doesn't realize is even gone #But THEN the grandkids are like 'Yeah Grunkle Stan's twin brother is back now!' and he's PISSED OFF #He kept Stan's secret for THIRTY YEARS and the bastard didn't even have the gall to let him know that Ford was back face to face #Neither of the bastards had the gall to do it?! #They just took off on a fishing boat together in search of adventure?? #He's so mad at them but also...that is so painfully in character for them. At least from the memories he has of them as young kids. #But also.......he's their brother #They couldn't have told him ANYTHING???

[blackmagictrait]

this isn't gonna win me any friends but I won't pay a dime to see movies made by/starring people who signed the petition to free convicted child rapist roman polanski, and that includes guillermo del toro and wes anderson. you can love their movies all you want but paying to see them puts money in the pocket of people who publicly support rapists going free. 🤷🏾‍♀️

#idk it's cut and dry to me #and if you're PUBLIC in supporting rapists then like....what kinda shit you doing in private? 🤔 #most of the arguments i see are ppl going “but it was so LONG ago he's done his time” no he literally hasn't #that's uh the problem #he was convicted n then FLED the country to avoid prison #mf literally never did his time. he never faced justice. #“hasn't he suffered enough” literally no he hasn't #that man drugged and raped a child and plead GUILTY to it and then never saw a day of prison #he should be dead but go off #and before you come at me with “yknow x and y actor signed it too what about them?” bitch what about em? none of them getting my money! #not a goddamn one! #natalie portman was one of the only ones to sign and then admit she fucked up and take her name off #if she can do it then so can anyone else. they just actively choose not to. #“they were probably misled” ok well its 2023 the knowledge is public and google is free #maybe its time to walk that support back huh

[what-is-it-to-be-pk-esque]

screaming crying I just tried out breaking up with Astarion (spawn, post caz) after taking the astral tadpole for the first time and he is so!!! 🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭😭

He's so sweet and supportive about your fear of becoming a monster and basically confirms once again he loves you for who you are and not just your looks??? "I'm not going anywhere"???

oh my godddddddd im gonna throw up this is so ajsgdkfjalhshf

#Astarion #baldur's gate 3 spoilers #bg3 #bg3 spoilers #baldur's gate 3 #gonna throw myself off a bridge that was everything my heart needed tbh #love that his way of being supportive is also kind of involving a joke about people not caring about your new face cause hes so pretty lmao #shut up you (affectionate) #i know people talk about this but i never saw it before & my heart can't take it it's so sweet #and also a little sad #gonna go try it with his doppelganger i doubt it'll feel as lovely as that did #what if he held your hand or hugged you here if you attempt this breakup that'd be extra cute 😭 #i know he basically does this with durge too so that'll be fun to see #his voice is so emotional here too holy shit he's like on the brink of tears #ok so its not even an option to say you're turning into an ilithid if you try this with AA

[carcarrot]

i wish i could articulate the experience of seeing a band you're into live like actually seeing them in person because its so strange yet fascinating

#every time i hear take me for a ride by sparks it makes me think of the nyc show - the first show of theirs i saw #bc that was their walk on music. and i was front row for that show #and like. it was so surreal. so strange. obviously in a good way but its just something id never experienced before #and i noticed this especially with russell in that i had a weird thought that went 'oh wow thats him. he realls looks like himself' #and like of course he looks like himself but what i meant by that was he looks like that guy who ive seen 5 billion images of. hes that guy #like not only does he look like the him in more recent pictures but seeing him in person like 10 feet away #its like i could recognize every era of him. i could see like 70s russell in his face. bc of course thats his face! but still #is this making any sense. #like i feel like if you met 70s russell once and never saw him again until now youd immediately recognize him #and sure thats because of two other things - one that he has distinct facial features kinda and also that hes aged so well #but it was again so surreal to be like. in the same space. right in front of. fairly close to. that guy whos been in my phone. you know? #this was true for ron and the other guys in the band too of course its that feeling of wow its them! those people ive only seen pictures of! #and again being front row for that was bonkers insane. its like what do you mean these people are real #but the thing w russell i just especially noticed almost immediately when they came out onstage like hes that guy. for real #is this making any sense . anyway i just had to finally get this one out #the only downside of this experience was that yes these people are real and yes they can see me. a little anxiety inducing #its like nooooo dont look at meeeee im such a weirdo i bought a ticket to see you like everyone else here #anyway. concert thoughts

[opalescent-potato]

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#tagblogging #potatoblog #less than 72 hours till he gets here #I have lost most of my higher brain functions #no thoughts head empty #only AAAAAAAA #what a time to be alive #really fucking wild to fall in love with someone before you've even met them in person for the first time #hell #lbr I fell in love before I saw his face #but months of daily video chats really haven't hurt #I can't believe I get to actually hold him soon #how am I allowed to be this happy #I've never looked forward to anything as much as this #it's so wild

[ace-and-ranty]

The funniest thing is that I decided to watch Mad Men way back after watching a series of short character essays on YT that made it seems like... y'know... the characters had arcs.

And I'm being snarky now. Some characters do get arcs. But Don doesn't.

Don is in a carousel. He keeps doing the same things every season, jumping from temporary coping mechanism to temporary coping mechanism, chasing an outside change that will fix his internal problems, and it keeps working; for a while; until it doesn't.

I was expecting he would catch up at some point. When are we gonna see Don actually address his shit? And I thought, via the YT essays, that was gonna happen eventually, but it doesn't. He keeps running from his demons, and the series finale doesn't at all feels like a series finale. It's just the end of another circle. He's found yet another outside solution to bandaid the issue for a while.

And I think this was meant to be left vague? But it was too loaded one way. There is absolutely nothing to suggest it could be different this time. There is nothing to suggest this could be enduring change. We're left like, 90% sure he's gonna be back in his bullshit; what is compelling about that? It feels like the show got canceled.

And the really funny thing is that a show that absolutely, 100%, really well, did exactly what I thought Mad Men was gonna do?

Bojack Horsemen.

#it works in Bojack and it doesn't work in Mad Man is my final hot take #Bojack's final season leaves just enough doubt. #you can absolutely see Bojack relapsing and getting back in his bullshit #but you can ALSO absolutely see him finally breaking the cycle #because Bojack ends with him having faced all his lies. #it all got busted. it's all out there in the open. it all already fell apart. #so now he can actually get to building something new #so I think. if Mad Men really wanted to imply Don could turn things around this time. #the final season his identity should have been outed. #that man is never gonna get anywhere until he stops running from the ghost of Dick Withman. #we saw that before! he was so close! #and then he took the easy way out and married Megan #a really meaningful final season should have addressed this. #as it is the final season is just more of the same.

[dilfsuzanneyk]

every weird al song is based on his real life experience btw. i know because he told me

#yeah al actually crashed into a truck and then saw the face of his hibachi dealer who then took off his prosthetic lips and told him #everything he knew was wrong. he also met a girl named zelda and went to a masochistic dentist and fell in love with a girl named melanie #and airline amy and well i could go on you get it #it's all true i would never lie to you not me no #also everything in WEIRD: the al yankovic story is true. he's dead and back as a zombie #it's only a matter of time before he brings his zombie apocalypse upon us all #weird al yankovic #vex rambles

[trashbaget]

tell me your failed/embarrassing flirting stories to make me feel better, i’ll go first: today i said “get out of my way” forgot to say “i’m kidding” then immediately said “bye”

#it is awful having feelings for someone you know and have an established friendship with #but crushing on someone i barely know is knew to me and i legit feel like an idiot every time i do something stupid like this #i can’t just. talk to the guy #if i say hey and he says sup i say ‘sup indeed’ like what the fuck is that #i can barely even say hello to him #don’t get me wrong i’ve DONE it but most days i’m like #ah fuck there he is #okay you can do it just say hi #just say what’s up #and then he’s already gone #also. like. the setting we’re in is soooo not good for talking or flirting realt because um. it’s work he’s my coworker.. so um. do i fuckin #ask him for his number?? or to hang out??? but like. he’s kind of a stranger to me what do i want to hang out for 🧍 #but like. ​i dont want to do that until i have at least one successful interaction #or like. an actual conversation. #which is gonna be really hard to manage because he doesn’t talk much at all to anyone and i really only talk if someone talks to me first or #i’ll say something absolutely idiotic and ridiculous (and honestly i do that no matter what) #anyway so um. i guess i’m just gonna keep making a fool of myself until i get it right and hopefully i don’t screw it up 🥴 #i lost all my confidence in the last year and i cant do anything chill or smooth anymore (i was never that good in the first place but at #least i could PRETEND i knew what i was doing. like i could sell it. the whole weird and lost bit.) #anyway. i felt better for like 5 minutes when some guy at the gas station flirt failed with me on the way home. but that’s partly my fault #too oops. in his defense he probably could not see that i had headphones on bc upon mirror inspection they were well blended with my hair #but i was waiting to cross the street and this guy tried to like nod and smile and i did not know it was to me until i got to the other side #where the gas station was and and like. tried again and i awkward half smiled and saw his face get all mushy and confused like mine FELT 20 #mins before when i’d flopped so hard trying to flirt and by the time i’d processed WAIT i think he was FLIRTING WITH ME i was already gone 🤡 #but at least it ended better than the poor 14yo who very confidently asked for my number #who. i shit you not. SCREECHED for a solid 44.5 seconds and bolted the other direction when i said sorry im 21 #his friends were standing there like wtf too and one was like i am so sorry about him 🤦 #cheers to being fools universe

[calumsash]

In my life, I love you more

#yes. yes. yes this is part of the muke au. i can't stop making these #this one is from their college days!!!!!!! when they first got together!!!! #luke made michael a mix tape with all the songs that reminded of him <3 and guess what was the last song? #a song luke wrote <3 for him #a luke hemmings original that never saw the light of day cause it was for michael only #michael always walked around with his camera. at least half of his film rolls were luke in some way #if it was his sleepy face before morning classes. if it was luke's tummy being just the tiny bit exposed from the stretch he was doing. #i think they took the train together a lot #whenever they needed to get away take a break from school they just hopped on a train. doesn't really matter where to #they just wanted to be with each other #ok this au is spiraling why am i making so many mbs #muke #5sos moodboard #aesthetic moodboard #f/nf*au

[potatoesandsunshine]

episode nineteen........ i need a minute

#the apothecary diaries #AND WHEN I SAY THE ANIMATION IS INCREDIBLE! AND WHEN I SAY I CRIED! WHAT THEN! WHAT THEN!!!!! #WHAT DID I SAY ABOUT MAOMAO AS THE FIERCE DESIRE TO LIVE AND TO SAVE LIVES!!! SHE'S EVERYTHING!!!! #soooooooooooo good that she didn't know who she was saving! she doesn't need to know! that's not why she does it! #jinshi carrying her... i'm insane actually. they made me insane about this. #an expression we've never before seen on his face... right after HE saw a look he'd never seen on HER face #and like. ok what is the motivation of this plot! is it to get him specifically? was it just to get SOMEONE? hello!! hello!!!! #and yeah i still am a lakan hater but him saying 'you hurt her' was kinda cool. he can have one kinda cool moment ever. #maomao will have a full concussion and still throw herself at a collapsing pillar to save someone from being crushed beneath it #idk what to tell you. she's a fucking doctor

[tariah23]

Still crying over my friend telling me that they’ve never heard of Chief Keef-

#put me on my ass like heavyweight #rambling #he’s a legend if you never minded drill music and even if you hated it he still kind of became the face of the entire sub genre at such a #young age and he had white kids and nbs in the suburbs and other countries wanting to be a black kid from the hood like he had grown men #growing out their locs 😭… #everyone wanted to be chief keef lmfao #insane #he hasn’t been back to Chicago ever since he left all of those years ago but it’s Better if he never came back anyway for his own safety #tbh #I’m glad he’s still alive lol #lil Reese went to our hs and was in my sisters class and was one of the bad ass kids #one of CK’s friends and stuff #i probably saw him myself before since one of his friends or himself was passing out mixtapes and i remember taking it since it was free #and I didn’t want to be rude #i remember being on my way home back from school I was probably a sophomore in hs or so and it was raining #I felt so bad for throwing it away since I didn’t like drill at the time but after giving his music a chance I was like NOOOOOO #I felt like that person who bought that nge character book and scrubbed off Anno’s signature because they thought it was scrabble bro

[dutybcrne]

Need smth to heal the soul

Now imagining Adelinde still squooshing Diluc’s face in her hands, bc no matter how old and rough’s tough that man may get, he is still her baby. Her dearest son boy. Her sweet little angel (forget that he has Murdered)

#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Can you imagine that first time seeing each other in 4yrs? #//Her near frozen in shock as he steps to her; eyes downcast in shame and awkwardness #//Trying to find the words to say; things he practiced in his way there; all gone Poof the instant he heard her gasp & saw her face #//Still as he senses her suddenly approach; then just MELTS the instant her hands cup his face; the FIRST gentle touch he’s felt in YEARS #//prolly tears up and starts sobbing before she does; practically collapsing into her arms and holding her so tightly #//So tight; as if he’s scared if he lets her go; she’ll disappear #//Her holding him just as tightly; thanking him for coming home; thanking the Archons for bringing him home safely #//Abt how much she missed him; how HAPPY she is to see him; making him silently swear to NEVER break her heart like that again #//Idk little thinkings as I try to scoop up the putty my brain turned into & attempt to cobble together replies #//bfbfbbd #//That is her SON #//I sometimes forget I have Addie as a muse Jdbfbf #//I should prolly put her in the list; actually-

[itsza]

thinking bout how gaon always cooks before he leaves.

#this is his way of comforting them #his parting gift #he is the son of a couple who ran a restaurant till they couldn't #he came into the kang household and saw yohan eating alone and saw elijah eating instant food for breakfast #he has cooked for them before! #he has seen their faces light up and the way they scarf it down #so when it's time to leave #inspite of knowing that he has wronged them and will never be who they need him to be #he cooks #because no matter what happens #you eat #the devil judge #don't mind me i just watched the finale again