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It's normally 25 minutes to the venue from my place, but there's multiple wrecks so it's over an hour now 🙃🙃🙃🫠🫠🫠
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galaxygirl8880 · 2 years
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Cale, but he ice skates.
I'm going to go in a ramble rn because this idea has been simmering in my brain for a while so-
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Like two days after Cale wakes up and realizes he's in a different world he's like, "I'm rich now, I can do whatever tf I want" and decides to teach himself how to figure skate because why not.
First, he has to figure out what to do about the actual ice skates- after a bit of research (and confirming that they don't have skating in this world) he's like- "I'll just commission two blades to a blacksmith"
Then he has to figure out how tf he'll get that on a shoe- using Victorian ice skates for reference, he makes a set of ridiculously detailed blueprints and pays someone to make them- (insert him flopping down on his bed contemplating if this was really worth it [not to mention he's still getting the shield ancient power])
Now he FINALLY has his skates, Yay :D
It's the middle of spring and there is no ice around, fuck :(
Because of plot convenience, there's a potion that kind of costs a lot that can freeze large bodies of water
"Why would anyone ever need this- oh well, works for me"
Then he pays a Mage enough to feed their family for the next two years and is now making frequent visits to a random lake that he found practicing skating around and stuff.
Over time, Cale ends up finding it quite therapeutic and enjoys doing simple tricks.
(After Raon officially joins his party and finds out about his lake visits he's upset Cale hired a mage bc "I'm a great and mighty dragon! You don't need that weak mage! I wouldn't even need to move a finger to take you there- " so Cale has to console an upset toddler and god-damnit I didn't think he'd be so upset-)
Anyways Cale does a pretty good job hiding it from everyone and only when he cuts his hand doing a Biellmann spin (I think that's it's name) and Ron smells the faint blood smell in his room while cleaning does he get caught.
Cale *entering his room with raon*: Ron? What are you..
Ron *holding the skate with the dried blood*: Young master, what is this?
Raon *who forgot that Cale cut his hand because he was distracted*: Ah! Human cut himself while doing his ice-dancing!
Cale *who has to explain what he's been doing*: sigh
Okay anyways Ron asks to see his 'ice dancing' so Cale shows him the move he accidentally cut his hand on (he gets banned from doing this specific move after he cut his hand again) and now Ron is going along with them on their trips to the lake.
As soon as eruhaben finds out about the ice skating the next morning there's a giant frozen lake near the villa but it's summer so how the fu-
A scenario that's also been in my head-
Cale's first time landing a triple axel has him freaking out internally and Raon is also excited so everyone in the Super Rock Villa notices how much happier Cale is the next day and in turn their moods are also lifted.
Another thing you could add is Cale mentioning that he wishes he could do some moves that involve two people then suddenly he has a lot of people asking him to teach them to skate-
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I might decide to add to this later so-
(if you see this, pls tell me what you think- comments make me happy (◕ᴗ◕✿)
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the-type-a · 1 year
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would you happen to have any hcs with duncan and courtney being college dorm neighbors??
i can just imagine the classic “my next door neighbor is playing music obnoxiously loud while i’m trying to study, now i need to go yell at him” that leads to a beautiful enemies to lovers storyline.
I can come up with some!
Now, I went a private college so the dorms were completely separated and I’m not too sure if a regular college/uni does the same. So I’ll just make it like they’re college neighbors in some apartment building 💀
The semester is about to start so everyone’s moving in. More importantly, one specific building is a major hotspot for students since it’s off campus yet close enough to walk over.
The applications for this building are insane, you basically have to send yours in before you even graduate high school to even be considered.
Courtney, who plans ahead knows this already. She’s made sure to send her application, along with reasons why she’s a great tenant, the second she send her college app.
Duncan on the other hand does not. He could care less and probably hasn’t even filled out any type of dorm application. BUT since his parents are respectable people in the community, he gets a free pass and into the apartment building.
Courtney wants to be a good, nice, neighbor so she decides to introduce herself to everyone on her side of the floor. She meets Bridgette, just to the left of her. DJ, who’s just across the hallway. Geoff, who’s to the left of DJ. There’s only one more door, to the right of her (Duncan). The rest of the floor is unimportant tbh
When she knocks on the door she can’t help but get pissed when she hears a voice from behind the door asking her to go away.
She says she’s just wanting to introduce herself to her closest neighbors and is staying until she meets who’s there.
Duncan opens the door, not giving one fuck that he’s only dressed from the waist down.
This is where is all begins. 💀
Courtney’s just appalled by Duncan. His lack of concern for his surroundings, his attitude, and quite frankly his appearance all together.
Duncan truly does not care and just wants to get back to whatever he was doing, probably smoking from the terrace or getting ready to give himself a new tattoo/piercing.
Right off gate they don’t get along, obvi.
Courtney’s alarm goes off before 6am and since her bedroom aligns with Duncan’s, he bangs his fist against the wall. If it’s the middle of the night she’ll hear his tv blaring off until she’s banging her fist on the wall.
Duncan has a habit of listening to his rock/punk music in the shower, and honestly, just about all the time. And it’s super freaking loud. So loud that Courtney can feel the vibrations and is pissed.
Courtney’s constantly knocking on his door until she figures out how to kick him off the Bluetooth. Then Duncan’s the one at her door flipping shit. Courtney’s just like, “I have no idea what you’re talking about.”
Duncan is always asking if Courtney has extra toilet paper, milk, sugar, etc. and since Courtney wants to be a good neighbor she lends him some, but now it’s just getting annoying.
Duncan hates when Courtney cooks her dinners but won’t offer to share. He can smell it and he’s starving most of the time because he literally eats like a 5 years old.
There’s a issue with the plumbing at one point, so the floor has to be extra careful when it comes to hot water. Duncan, not caring, takes a 2 hour steaming hot shower, which leaves Courtney with ice cold water.
When she flips tf out at him in her bathrobe he just opens the door and offers for her to join him instead. She punches him.
One time Courtney locks herself out. She didn’t even notice she didn’t have her key because she was with her study group late. The only person up is Duncan, she can hear his tv, so she knocks on his door asking him to help her.
You know Duncan, can’t just do it out of the kindness of his heart, always has to add his two lines in there for dramatic effect.
He picks her lock and now she’s paranoid he’ll do that at random just to freak her out. Duncan swears he would never do that, but was thinking about it regardless.
Sometimes they get each others mail and it’s very awkward when they have to exchange it.
Duncan teases Courtney on what she wears and is completely dumbfounded when she steps out in some hot af outfit when she goes out with Bridgette.
Courtney purposely picked that outfit to shut him up, but thinks he’s gross for eyeing her so openly like that (but let’s face it she also likes it).
The tense elevator rides when they have class around the time?? Insane.
Don’t even get me started on the Duncan randomly checking his peephole for Courtney. He did it once when she went out late and wanted to make sure she made it back alive, and ever since then it’s a habit. He catches himself a lot but can’t stop.
Whenever Courtney doesn’t hear Duncan’s tv at night she wonders if he’s at some random girls dorm. She hates herself for even being mad about it.
Holy shit. If the fire alarm goes off and Duncan doesn’t see Courtney immediately leave her apartment he’s picking the lock… just to find out she wasn’t even there in the first place 💀
That’s all I can come up with rn lmao
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tastyykpop · 3 years
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nct dating headcannons!
I only did 127 because there's so many but ill do the others if anyone requests it :)
ɴᴄᴛ ʙғ ʜᴇᴀᴅᴄᴀɴᴏɴ
Taeil
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Mr. Moon Taeil is the definition of a cuddly boyfriend
Hes always holding your hand or kissing your cheek
Definitely gets shy when the members are around but in public youre all his
Hes super sincere about anything too but also knows how to joke around
I mean have you seen him with nct
Hes funny❗❗
Like he's gonna make you laugh no matter what
And those deep convos yall would have at night while cuddling>>>
"What if we were put on earth by aliens as an experiment to see if we would live and everytime we see ufos its just our cousins checking up on us"
Eyes wide open, "bro"
Taeils either the big or small spoon too
There's no in between
Also the biggest baby when yall are chilling
"I call small spoon!"
"But you were the small spoon last night"
"K and what about it"
10/10 would complain if you didn't want to sit with him and watch a movie or show
Would probably guilt trip you by saying you never watch something with him
Hes a sweet manipulator...
But he could easily replace you with one of the members
Like sicheng
Taeil will always ask if you've eaten
If you haven't eaten he gets big sad
Don't make him sad
Plus hes always checking on your health
And he'll know if your lying if you say you're doing fine when you're not
Also don't lie in general cuz he doesn't like that
That would make him trust you a bit less and he definitely wants trust in the relationship
Trust is a huge key or hes out
Johnny
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This man 🥲
Boyfriend Material™
So gentle and loving
Loves making you feel special and will hype the shit out of you when you don't feel confident doing something
Will always make sure you're doing okay
Johnny puts in so much effort to make this relationship work and expects you to put the same amount of effort into it too
Like taeil, hes really big on trust
Add honesty to that list
Plus he expects you to be mature when needed
If you're the type of person who depends on someone else for everything and I'm mean everything he will actually leave
Hes not your babysitter❤
But he will take care of you to some extent
Like basic things for instance
He'll make you food if you're sick, get you water if your dehydrated, will get your feminine products when you need it
Very sweet😌
Okay and he spoils you but wbk
"Why are you getting me so much things?"
"Because I love you."
"But why did you get me a kitten costume???"
He has some kinks to work out 😐
Johnny will go to shop after shop even if you say you don't want something (you do but you just don't want him to pay) he'll get it without batting an eye
"Youve been staring at these shoes for 5 minutes imma buy them for you"
"Huh? No! I-"
"Too late"
will take you out to dinner all the time just to be romantic
Hes actually really good at romantic stuff
I say Johnny you say whipped
Johnny👀
Whipped😫
His free time is always you time
So don't bother saying your busy cuz now hes busy with you
"Johnny i got a test coming up can you come later? I need to study
"Thats cute im coming over to help"
Taeyong
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Judging taeyong on his looks, some say he would be cold to his girlfriend
Like a tsundere
But the man is quite the opposite
Though he can be stern if need be
He has 22 children what do you expect
Will literally treat you like his members and always taking care of you
But there will be times when you have to take care of him because hes so tired from work
He turns into a baby when he's tired or lazy too
So wrap him in a burrito blanket and hes all set for the day
Makes weird noises but thats normal
You're just watching tv and hes just making some old video game sounds with his mouth
No one questions it
If he didnt make sounds you'd probably question it
Talks in pout if he doesn't get his way with you
"Why don't you wanna play games with me~"
"Bruh I'm tired"
Or just gives you those big puppy eyes without even trying
Complete other person when you're not listening
He just kinda stares at you all intimidating like until you listen
Taeyong won't do anything too bad if you kept ignoring him, but you don't know that
Omg bro he'd literally bring you on vlive with him to chat
Even if the company is like '???Shes not an idol???'
But its taeyong so SM doesn't care🧍‍♂️
"We have special guest again! Its y/n-ah!!"
You'd be just chilling on his bed giving him a wtf look until you realize there's a camera and smile
"Shes cute. Isn't she cute guys?"
Don't try to escape the vlive, he'll just get up and sit you on his lap
Makes everyone watching jelly🥲
Bro he would make fun of you the same way he makes fun of doyoung
you'd be sitting with doyoung or sumn and taeyong just comes up to the both of you and decides
'Its time to end these two'
You and doyoung are just like 'tf did we do'
Somehow some other members are making fun of yall
Of course they aren't mean
Its all fun and games and gives you a good laugh after
Doyoung
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Hes literally a mom
But its ok
You love it
Sometimes
He also nags a lot
And if you don't listen he gets mad
You wouldn't tell him this but you find it funny
And cute🤐
"Youre almost as bad as dream" 
"what are u talking about im an angel"
"Kay then put the knife down we kinda need haechan to live"
Hes beaten you with a pillow once
In front of taeyong
Taeyong was watching like 👁👄👁
I dont think he cares much for pda tbh
But he doesn't hate it
He'll hug you a lot
And doyoung will probably kiss you here and there
But thats depending on his mood
If he's tired he'd probably just hold you in his arms
Either way he still makes you smile even with the smallest of touches
When you guys go out in public doyoung always holds your hand
I mean always
Remember when I said he doesn't seem like the type to be into pda
I lied
Doyoung wants everyone to know youre his
He won't kiss you but he will pull you into random hugs and hold your hand like he's gonna lose you any second
Doyoung also can't go anywhere without dressing his best
Like even if he's just practicing he's gotta look cute
And he always does because he's fucking kim doyoung
Doyoung also has a habit to make up names for you
Like one day he'll call you babe/baby
The next day could be angel or princess
Then there's you who just calls him bunny because he hates (loves) it
Expect some random gifts from him
Cuz like Johnny, he likes to spoil you
he just loves the smile thats plastered on your face
Pinches your cheeks evey time you smile too
When you guys are just chilling in the dorms you are always doing something to make doyoung get "angry"
"Angry" doyoung is a fun doyoung
Says you and taeyong 🤭
Literally will chase you around the dorm until he gets you and "scolds you"
Hell also scold taeyong
Sometimes you prank him with the other members
*cough*haechan*cough*
But doyoung knows youre just being playful
So he kinda laughs at you
Yuta
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Hes a devil
Wbk
He can go from calling you the cutest lil thang to saying the most inappropriate stuff
"U have such a pretty mouth" 
"no stop" 
"how about u use it on my-"
"OUT DEMON"
Besides that he's actually very nice
Although he doesn't really show his affection like how most couples would
At first hes kinda like a "cold boyfriend" but not?
Gives off a tsundere kinda vibe
He lives for pda
Especially if you initiate it
His favorite is kissing your neck
Not in a sexual way or trying to give you hickeys tho
He just comes over and kisses it
Probably has a neck kink 😳
Same 😌
When you guys are out in public his arm is always around your waist or shoulders
He gets easily jealous when you give anyone any attention
Especially if you have a pet
He will be pouty for God knows how long until you notice
"I'll make it up to you"
"ok then prove it *pats his lap*"
"...I can and will replace you with this animal"
Will not let a dude flirt with you
If he sees a dude flirt with you he just gives them ㄒ卄乇 ㄥㄖㄖҜ
Lowkey hot
But sometimes gives you that look if u aren't listening to him
Its an advantage
Freaks you out tho
When your sitting on the couch minding your own damn business yuta always pulls you onto his lap or sits you between his legs
He really likes to be close to you
So when you guys are sitting he keeps his head on your shoulder and his arms wrapped around you gently rocking you both
Omg im making myself feel single
If you are sad yuta will always be the first person you lean on
Even if its not serious
"Who do I need to fuck up?"
"Im literally just on my period..."
The members sometimes tease him because they'd never seen him so in love
He looks at you like ur his everything
Because you are
He'll tell you that too
If you say something bad about urself he gives you a whole ass lecture about how u should love yourself the way he loves you
He'd be talking for 25 minutes but you stopped listening 30 minutes ago
Literally scolds you for not listening
Loves how well you get along with the members
But also hates how well you get along with specific members because of how similar you are with them
What I'm trying to say is that you are a bit too similar to mark🚶‍♂️
Jaehyun
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Frat boy boyfriend
Lowkey wants to fuck everyday
Idk he gives off that vibe
But jaehyuns just chill half the time
Hes like an American boyfriend like bitch you're Korean 👁👄👁
Hes super cuddly and warm
Thats weird wait
Like when you're cold just snuggle into him because body heat <3
Always loosely has his arms around your waist when just laying down
Whole different story if you're sitting on his lap and just standing around
Back hugs😫😫
Dead ass the first thing he does if he sees you is give you a back hug
It works for a lot of things
Surprise? Back hug
You're cooking? Back hug
Horny? Back hug
Solves his life problems basically
Hes a freak omg
Very flirtatious too
Hes just that bitch
Either he makes you blush or roll your eyes
"Y/n you're ass is fat"
Def an ass guy😑
Hes the type of guy to put his hands in your jeans back pocket
Wait no im feeling jaehyun too much rn
BUT MY POINT STILL STANDS
Or when yall hug his hand doesn't rest on your back but your ass
If you're wearing some shorts or something that makes your but pop
Hes gonna smack it and pretend like nothing happened
Yo someone pls save me im in my jae feels
Nah I've been talking about his ass kink for too long
Ummmm
Okay for real though jaes actually really nice and kind of careless when it comes to you
Fuck everyone else, if you've fallen and scraped your knee hes gonna be that soccer mom and rip a band aid out of nowhere
But if one of his members scraped their knee he'd just look the other way and smile like nothing happened
Earlier I said he was chill but hes also loud too
You walk into the dorms and the first thing you hear is "Y/N!!" Wyd?
You swear he doesn't realize how loud he is half the time because of that deep voice
This bitch always makes sure youre healthy and tries to take you to the gym with him
It dont work cuz this bitch just stares at your ass
Nah I need to do the next member
Jungwoo
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hes literally the cutest especially around you
When he greets you its basically a whole ass bear hug
Whole lots a kissing
Literally doesn't care where you guys are
He will kiss you anywhere
Loves to kiss your forehead because he doesn't have to bend down as much🤭
doesnt care if the members are there
Nobody ever questions it either
"youre my baby right?"
"jungwoo-"
"riGhT?"
"Yes...."
He does aegyo if he doesn't get his way
It works every time don't lie
Will probably sit on your lap for some reason
Hes not light
But if you can do it so can he
you guys never get into fights
Even if you do its never anything serious
"you fucking pushed me so u could win"
"false I accidentally bumped my arm into urs"
"whats accidental is the murder im going to commit"
"what?"
"What?"
Smh young love
Going shopping with jungwoo is like shopping with a kid
Will beg for any food he lays his eyes on
"Omg can we get cookies?🥺"
"only if your paying"
“*gently places cookie dough back* lmao cookies? Never heard of her"
No matter how tired the boy is he will always find time for you
Hell take you too your favorite restaurants and even if you insist on paying he wont let you
If you don't marry him I will
When you guys are walking in public he will always be holding your hand
Says its because he doesn't want you to get lost
But you know damn well its actually him who doesn't want to get lost😳
Jk you just know he wants to be close to you
If you make any suggestive joke he always knows how to counterpart it
Leaving you speechless like the members
When you guys are going to bed he has his arms wrapped around your waist
first thing jungwoo does before sleeping is giving you a kiss
Doesn't care if your asleep or awake
Then a quiet 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢
Mark
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i dont even know how to explain this relationship bruh
like its mark lee its gonna be a weird time
ok so marks actually hella nice
kinda bro or dude zones you but you do it back
theres a bunch of yo’s too
as someone who says yo a lot im happy i can relate to him
“yo youre doing that wrong though”
“dude im literally reading the directions, it said 3 cups of water”
“bro it says 3/4 oh my god”
yall cant cook 
taeyong wont even allow even you to help him cook
anyway marks special
but seriously marks actually a very gentle person with you
like legit is super nice to you even if you sometimes piss him off
marks probablys only been mad at you once then was like ‘its okay’
go to his practices cuz he loves that shit
he really likes when you are social with the members too
cuz then you guys are all friends and he can just bring you to places with them :D
this kid will literally not to pda in front of any member so you have to basically force him to just hug you
johnnys always making fun of you two and mark panics everytime while youre just like ‘yeah what about it’
compliment mark and hes blushing and squealing like an anime girl
inch resting concept 
“mark you look cute today”
“o-oh um..yeah thanks”
and this man can take compliments but with you its a whole new story
aight lemme get serious
marks mad sensitive 
so dont actually purposely make him mad, jealous, or upset
it would crush him
and he doesnt want someone like that in a relationship
cuz if he doesnt purposely do it to you, dont do it to him
take notes 
Haechan
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hes a brat bye
would actually fight you just to get his way
makes fun of you on a regular
thinks hes cute 
hes not wrong
but actually he knows how to act mature when he needs to
like if youre genuinly getting upset with him, he will straighten up and quicky apologize, even give you a phat kiss and hug
might take you to get ice cream after if he really upset you
he can be nice
nah jk hes very nice and is a really energetic boyfriend
haechan always wants to do something with you liek go to the amusement park, go out to eat, or go shopping
sometimes makes everything seem like a hassle to leave and go somewhere with you cuz hes either lazy or playing video games
“cant you just go by yourself?”
“but what if i get lost”
“the ice cream place is literally five miles away”
“actually its seven so im gonna get lost”
hed groan the whole time just to be annoying but you dont care cuz you got your ice cream
if you go to any concert or practice, haechan always has to make things more sexy than they should be
like ‘fool’ became hella sexual and for what
its probably one of his favorites to make you blush
he loves your reactions
keeps him alive
hyucks always got something to say even at the most awful times
youre literally choking on water and he goes “ill give you something to choke on later”
and you have to cancel your dying session to smack his head
my guy has no filter
and he wont even hide that around the members
theres always that smirk on his cute ass face if he succeeds too
i have the sudden urge to fight him
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witchesbe-like · 3 years
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What TF is a spirit attachment
As I understand it, a spirit attachment is a collective of negative energy, or a form of an entity that has attached itself to you for various reasons, usually not good ones. Sometimes (most of the time really) the attachment is from you. You have harbored some negativity in your life that has now manifested into its own energy-form and is currently hanging out dragging you down. Things that can cause this? Maybe a bad break-up, a rough patch at work, or anything that seems to cause extended periods of mental distress. (Think trauma. Also this isn’t your fault sometimes it just happens because life.) Constant self-doubt, anguish, or negativity forms these things into bad energy fields that just hang around our aura making us feel like absolute shit for no reason. They can also cause us to get stuck in loops, attracting into our lives the types of people, things and situations that we have not processed out or healed from yet. 
The second kind, and far rarer are you have a nasty spirit entity clawing around you, and you need to get rid of it ASAP. Where can they come from? Could be somewhere you went that wasn’t really a spiritual ‘safe space’ but could be as simple as an old house or just a random place that had a nasty thing inhabiting it. 
Another more likely cause is that you attracted it to you with your bad vibes. (Sorry!) Sometimes these entities are pretty much just loitering around looking for someone to grab onto. They thrive off of our negativity. That’s why it’s so important to keep your space high-vibing, so you don’t attract any lower entity beings. 
How can you tell
There’s not really a ‘way’ to 100% clearly tell, sometimes you just feel off. Maybe you’ve had a stream of bad luck, sleepless nights of insomnia, nightmares or just generally feeling like shit for no reason. Of course these aren’t always the signs, so before you think you have a spirit attachment make sure to get your physical and mental health checked out first. 
You honestly probably don’t have one...even if you think you do
If you’re freaking out because you feel like you might have a spirit attachment, you probably don’t have one. I’ve only ever come in contact with one or two really HORRIBLE ones and one of those I created myself. More than likely if you are feeling off you just need to do a basic cleanse to get rid of any projecting energy BEFORE it starts manifesting into something larger. 
But in case you do here’s a cleanse 
Cleanses are always a good thing to do regularly no matter what. Especially for any magical practitioner because usually we are more sensitive to picking up energy and things, so it’s not a bad idea to start the habit of performing a monthly cleanse if you don’t already do so.
My FAVORITE way to do a cleanse is in a ritual bath. I realize not everyone takes a bath, so you can definitely do this in the shower or just stick your feet in water if you are pressed for time, space or privacy. 
What you need
One chunk of clear quartz
Incense (any kind)
White candles (My favorite inexpensive way to do this is to line the tub with white tealights)
What to do
Open the window. Even if it’s freezing, crack it open. Otherwise, your bad energy will just be circling the room with you. 
Light the candles. 
Light the incense. 
Lay out your quartz. Add more crystals if you feel it’s necessary. Sometimes I pop in a rose quartz for self-love because you can never have too much of that. 
You can also add herbs in at this point. My favorites are lavender or rose petals, but I HATE picking all that shit out of the tub, so I’ve gotten to the point where I’ll either put the herbs in a cloth bag beforehand or just skip it because it's too much trouble. 
Fill the tub and get in. 
Visualize a white light protecting you and your space and ask to connect to your highest self. 
Next, meditate until your mind is clear. Then visualize a bright white light coming from the center of your chest radiating out to your fingers and toes, removing any blocks, attachments or bad feelings. Imagine anything you don’t want in your energy space leaving out the window alongside the incense smoke. Stay as long as you need to in this space. 
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dia-is-dia-ing · 3 years
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Having a really fucking shit day:
*just a rant for me to wind down
Went on a last minute trip this morning with my family to the beachfront downtown and both of them were like 'make sure you dress warm and bring a jacket! It's gonna be so cold in the morning, especially near the water!'
Idk why the fuck I listened to them beacuse they always do this. It's literally summer in Toronto- it's hot all the time. So anyway, I put on long jeans, a hoodie and a jacket that tied in the front. Keep in mind, I would never wear that hoodie alone because it's oversized (but not in a good way) and I think it makes me look frumpy. So the jacket was kinda like my safety item cuz it actually gave me some sort of shape when I tied it tight around my waist. And then I realized my hair was getting oily so I had to tie my hair up and put on a hat so that wasn't great either.
And then we get there and of course it's fucking hot and EVERYONE IS WEARING SHORT, EXERCISE CLOTHES. It wasn't the beachfront it was a fucking park. So now, not only did I have to go walk for like an hour out in my hoodie that makes me look huge, I looked like a freak cuz I was dressed like it was freezing.
And it gets worse :) cuz we actually went to the beachfront after! And that was when it was hottest too in the middle of the day. So I started sweating. Everyone is wearing shorts and sandals and swimsuits and our family is dressed like it's November. It was fucking embarrassing. And of course there were so many skinny, gorgeous people around :) and I probably looked so fucking fat and awkward. I literally had to pinch myself to keep from crying in public.
I've never purged before or even had the urge to but today it was really bad. I just had a coffee w/ milk (20 cal) and less than half a rice cake (<30 cal) too but I just wanted to be empty and break down and cry. I just wanna be home, on my bed, crying into my pillow.
Plus I just got my period today too, so it just really adds to the overall amazing experience :)
Anyway, writing this out was kinda therapeutic I guess. Still pissed tf off though.
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