#and i am embarrassed by a lot of it but also at least i have something that sort of a little bit flows

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for "using" a cucumber and putting it back in the fridge?

(🥒👌 to find later)

Please, I know it sounds nuts but hear me out. I feel awful and I need to know just how bad this is. Also, I intentionally left as much as possible vague as I am a minor and I do not want this to get removed for being too explicit. But the story will not make sense if I don't include certain things, please understand.

So I (16M) grew up in and currently still live in the bible belt, with extremely conservative evangelical parents. As a taste of what it's like, we have church 3 times a week, and church camp every summer. We are only allowed to access Netflix through a stupid content filter app and we can only use a restricted smart phone that is regularly checked at random by our parents. We get an hour and a half of computer usage every other day, and the internet on the computer is heavily filtered also. The only reason I have access to Tumblr and am able to post this now is because my best friend's older brother gave me his old android for my birthday a few years ago. His family is much more open minded, and I'm very close with them. I also think they have always felt a little bad for me with my family being the way they are.

I'm also gay. Obviously, my family does not know, and I intend to keep it that way. I won't go too deep into it, but it will suffice to say I struggled a lot when I was younger over this. The good thing is that in the last few years, I've been able to accept myself more and come to terms with what my own feelings about religion and faith really are. I came out to my best friend and his brother a little over a year ago, and they've been very supportive. I have yet to tell any of my other friends.

Recently, I've been trying out alcohol since my friends found a hookup. Something I have discovered is that I tend to get lewd feelings when I drink, which has nearly caused a few embarrassing moments around friends. Coincidentally, I have also been experimenting with... certain things. Being a minor, I obviously can't enter any of the adult stores around me, nor would I feel comfortable asking any of my friends to drive me there if I could. I also can't order anything online because my bank account is connected to my parents, and I don't have a shipping address I'm comfortable using for those items either. So instead, I use household objects that belong to me and can be sanitized easily. You might see where this is going.

Yesterday evening, I came home from best friend's house with a full bottle of wine in my backpack. We and a few other friends had already been sipping on a few beers that afternoon, and I still felt a little buzzed. After my family went to sleep, despite already having a little alcohol in my system, I proceeded to get wasted on this bottle of wine in my room. I don't have the clearest memory of all of this, but at some point, I got hungry and lewd-feeling. Went into the kitchen and, through some kind of thought process I can only imagine now, came back into my room with a cucumber. From the title of the post, you can hazard a guess as to what happened to this cucumber. Once I was done, I drukedly and quickly washed it in the bathroom sink and threw it back into the fridge. I went to sleep.

I started freaking out as soon as I woke up this morning. There were four cucumbers in the fridge, I was pretty positive at least two were going to be used for dinner tonight, and I had no idea which cucumber I did the deed with. To make matters worse, my mom was inviting the pastor of our church and his family over for dinner. I have practically no money currently, no license or vehicle, and no friends with vehicles free to pick up new cucumbers for me (and no reasonable explanation as to why I needed them to spot me for four cucumbers specifically). I also have no believable reason to give for why we shouldn't have cucumbers added in the salad mix. My mom knows I love them, and they haven't gone bad. Can't say I ate them because who the hell eats four raw cucumbers? And she'll interrogate both my brother and I until she gets a satisfying answer if I just throw them out. I didn't know what the hell to do about this and I was close to having a panic attack, so... I took a nap.

Evening came. Guests came over, dinner happened. We had porkchops with macaroni and side salads. Cucumbers were in the salad, and I along with pastor's family and my own, ate it like nothing was wrong. My parents, the pastor and his wife had an engaging conversation about politics, religion, and some mild church gossip after dinner. My little brother continued to read his book, and I had a very awkward and one-sided conversation about Young Sheldon with the pastor's daughter. Then they left. And I went to my room to mentally implode.

To say I'm horrified is a major understatement. I don't think anyone is going to get sick because I scrubbed all of the cucumbers with soap multiple times and cleaned the vegetable drawer with bleach when I woke up this morning. I guess I also don't know that the violated cucumber was one of the ones that was used for dinner tonight, but then it's only a matter of days until we have salad again, or if mom cuts one up for water. I've rattled my brain for any way I could get some new cucumbers without telling anyone the details of the event, but I have nothing. Don't even have the money, anyway. Gave up the last bit of cash I had for the damn wine yesterday, and I have $0.43 in total on my debit card.

Admittedly, there is a very small part of me that doesn't even really care if they have eaten or end up eating the damn thing. I can't stand my family. My parents are invasive, controlling and neurotic, and don't give a shit about how I'm doing in so far as it pertains to god and the church. I'm a little more sympathetic to my brother as he's been stuck in this hell with me, but at 13 he's already begun to regurgitate way more religious dogma than I ever did at his age. And I know for a fact that they would want nothing to do with me if they found out I was gay. They'd probably kick me out on the street and spit on me if I had to guess. But even still, this is only a small part of how I feel. What I did was still so gross, and no amount of animosity I have for them can change how mortifed I am. I do have at least a semblance of a conscience.

So...AITA for all of this? WIBTA if I did nothing about the other two cucumbers? Please help.

#aita #am i the asshole #unsanitary cw

[gemsofgreece]

Greek news of these days

European elections. I am so amused by the people we are sending to the European parliament. Regarding the general results of the European elections, I'd dare say we can observe some improvement compared to the horrors of recent years. Of course the results were still horrible but at least they weren't as horrible as they were previously or as horrible as they were in other European countries i.e France, Austria, Germany... But the people that were most voted lol I can't wait for us to lose the last drop of integrity we might have had in Europe. For context, amongst the elected MEPs are a) one of the two most hated, bootlicking journalists in the country, b) another journalist who started her career as edjy and denunciatory and now she's apparently the exact opposite, c) at least a couple relatives / descendants of well known politicians that have done nothing on their own, d) a gymnast and model who now claims he is against pre-marital sex but admits he is a sinner and continues sinning (lol) and now he says it still hasn't sunk in that he is an MEP, e) woman who has changed face due to 682746 plastic surgeries and her whole political rhetoric is turning against other women for not subscribing to traditional feminine roles, taking care of themselves, always shaving their body hair, being skinny etc f) a 76 year old shepherd and butcher???? that she joined the elections out of impulse and now she doesn't know how the hell she was elected?!?!?! Don't get me wrong, this woman might be decent but come on, let's be real, does she sound qualified for this position? And most of the others are like that because I heard almost everybody is ridiculous amongst the elected. But honestly well done guys, let's just go utterly destroy our already suffering image and whatever tiny political impact we might have had. I can't wait. Then again all of Europe elected pathetic MEPs this year. But I hope we can still shine as some of the most embarrassing!

Wind energy. If you follow this blog VERY closely, you might remember that the issue of the uncontrollable expansion of wind parks has been discussed before. The way wind parks are made in Greece is extremely problematic because Greece has too little - let's say - "expendable" space for the housing of the wind turbines, so the government which pushes for them for MANY reasons starts making them inside environmentally protected areas, Natura 2000 locations, big mountains and generally regions with a lot of wildlife and traditional culturally significant destinations of high aesthetic and intrinsic value. So, after planting like a gazillion of wind turbins, civilians were notified that the electricity bills are about to become more costly. The government's explanation for this literally was "well it wasn't as windy as we hoped :( so now we have to raise the electricity bills... sorry". For real. I can't wait for tourists to finally start blacklisting Greece due to extensive deterioration of the natural landscape due to the wind farms. Come on guys. (The only reason I want this is because they will never stop for the sake of the environment, the landscapes and the protesting civilians of this country. Only loss of immediate profit could ever make them reconsider.)

BBC doctor Michael Mosley's death and the disappearance of another Dutch tourist. I have said this before, I will say it again. A lot of people seem to underestimate the challenges of the Greek environment and landscape. Greece has indeed this thing of often looking sweetly unassuming to the inexperienced eye but make no mistake. Greece has a VERY treacherous landscape and terrain. Don't go into nature unprepared, without water, mobile phone, sun protection, proper attire and shoes. Don't take athletic initiatives on your own if you are on the older side, have health issues and also in general, especially if you are not familiar with such terrains as the Greek one. I see the news. 60-70 year old people from the UK and the Netherlands embarking on their own for hiking during Greek heatwave? Recipe for disaster. I mean, I almost died once and I was with a group, next to a city, 40 years younger than them, healthier I guess and it was February! Because some of you don't have the full picture; it's not just about the scorching sun. It's not just about the air temperature being in the 30-40+ degrees. Greece's terrain is extremely rugged, uneven, complex and rocky and it causes rockfalls all the freaking time. The southern terrain is often barren especially in the summer and the rocks and land can get temperatures in the 60-70 degrees. You can not even say "oh I am probably getting a heatstroke but there's no hope for me to find shade or find my way out of here so I will at least lie down until sunset or someone finds me". You cannot even lie down because the rocks are burning more than the sun! Furthermore, Greece has a truly, unbelievably blinding sunlight. The white and lightcoloured rocks and terrain reflect all this light back, which in such conditions can hinder totally your eyesight. Mosley had sunglasses, a hat and an umbrella but as you see even these weren't enough in an afternoon during a heatwave and far from the signaled path. I am sorry for him but what on earth was Mosley thinking??? As for why his body was not found earlier, we should never rule out incompetence, however in this case I believe he just fell among all those rocks and was sort of camouflaged let alone that nobody expected him to have managed to reach so close to safety and yet not make it. They apparently were checking mostly the more remote and dangerous areas, which is so ironic! RIP. I hope the Dutch tourist is found alive and well. Greece can be entirely safe but as long as you practice common sense, like in all places.

The ancient shrine discovered in Crete. I made a small post about it here already. Some newer estimations place the date of the monument a little later in time (3000 - 2000 BC) so somewhere between proto-Minoan and palaeo-Minoan eras. However, the shrine is unique in Greece. It is a structure of off-centre circles and originally it might have had a tower/ pyramid with a conic shape. Such monuments have so far only been found in the Near East, including a very ancient one dating back to 7000 BC. This is pure hypothesis but archaeologists examine whether the shrine is associated to a very early worship of Zeus or the worship of the early proto-Indoeuropean deity that eventually led to several equivalents, amongst them Zeus. Some others wondered whether this could be the shrine for the "omphálio pedíon", the location where Zeus' umbilical cord fell as he was carried by the Kouretes. Archaeologists and historians from around the world had been searching such a location in Crete for a long time. But of course, take this with a grain of salt. It's too early and so far archaeologists only make assumptions. What's certain is that there is not another such formation in Greece and it will eventually provide a lot of information regarding either very early Mycenaean Greeks or the Minoans or maybe even pre-Greek populations.

#greece #michael mosley #coals of greece #european elections #ancient greece #ancient monument #crete #greek facts #news #greek news

[tubbytarchia]

Missed drawing these two too

Bonuses

#rendoc #still thinking about them a lot #always #hermitshipping #sorry for the weird empty area in the first one. It was my attempt to make it take up less of people's timelines #this art is so embarrassing lol but man I like when Doc's drawn as a big goat man I have no defense I plead the fifth #or well at least it becomes embarrassing when its. shippy #whatever Tumblr people are usually cool so here goes!! #I am 99% a fluff and hurt/comfort person. Idc how frisky these guys get in fanon all I can ever think of is fluff sorry #Also contemplated implementing Doc's accent into the dialogue but I am forever paranoid of offending someone lol #idk how to write accents etc but you guys will make it sound fine in your heads I'm sure #hermitblr #tubby art

[starflungwaddledee]

been working on answering a prompt i received in an ask the other day, and so i'm back thinking about... the Thing... 💖🎀 and thought maybe prompt doodles might help me work through this a little?

so uhhh.... if by any wild chance anyone has any ship suggestions for starstruck...??? feel free to send them through!

#this is *only* for starstruck and is not general requests! i'm just trying to figure out how i feel about this 😳 #obviously no guarantees that i will be confident enough to draw any of these or that i'll enjoy them all but i just... am considering it? #idk idk idk is this stupid.... #hope i won't regret this or won't get genuinely weirdass things. #just to be transparent this is sfw exclusively tho implied flirting is a-okay. please don't be weird....? i'm trusting folks to be nice!! #i would also happily take little prompts if you have thoughts about how it would work or whichever! like if you're a character Understander #if you have an idea how it would Work or what it might Be Like that would also help me to get a concept on how i feel about it!! #also i would.. consider ocs (only from their creator) if you... wanna??? character+artist *must* be an adult. starstruck is in her early 30 #also with ocs preferably from folks who i've at least interacted with before and like.. not just bc u want art ;;; #like... do u geniunely think they could have a cute dynamic? i'm just wondering if she could be Cute w someone. AUUghhGHHHH #again no promises and also for now i need this all done on the assumption it's just for fun!! just funsies. i'm just... thinking i guess! #want to try and figure out what it might be like if she WAS involved in a little ship/romo space...? as a treat? auughghhggghGHGLLG #also fair warning i may just get super embarrassed/nervous about this all and delete!! but i'm.. yknow. trying! #also i figure you can kind of tell my faves and who i hardly know much about. might not have lots of feelings about most side chars! #delete later #probably #wheeeeeEEEEeeahahahah okay;;; just post it. just post it starflung. just do it. hit the button hit the button hit the b

[amoneki-ramblings]

Um. Uh. Hi, Amoneki blog, pinned post let's go (very important please read !!)

This is probably the most important thing by Far: I haven't actually finished the manga yet; I recently got a :re box set but I (at the time of writing this) only just got to :re volume 10 and I don't have a lot of time on my hands to read !! (I've already gotten spoiled a lot cough while trying to look for content cough cough but I'd still like to avoid as many (mostly for major plot points/character deaths especially) as I still can)

Having said that please try to respect that as much as you can !! It's already really tough avoiding spoilers for a series like this (which is why I'm laying pretty low with this fandom, but I'll try to get through the manga when I actually have time)

I'm gonna be honest anything amoneki is pretty much fair game though the tumblr tags have already told me. A lot This mostly applies to. Everything else in the series. If that makes sense? (I hope it does at least orz)

Asks and interaction are greatly appreciated !! (Just a warning that if I get started on these two I can hardly shut up) I love rambling about my silly guys (both individually and as a ship, these two drive me absolutely insane)

If you have headcanons or thoughts you want to discuss or share, please definitely absolutely share !! I want to hear them really really badly trust me !!!! Let's spiral into insanity together :))

Okay that's all I think

Tags for future organization: amoneki doodles/amoneki ramblings / amonhaise CCG AU

Also. 1.5K word amoneki ramble because honestly it sums up a lot of my thoughts about them if you're interested, here

#pinned intro #if i'm completely honest i'm a little intimidated by the fandom #mostly because it's been around for so long and it's small and the people here have likely been here for. a While #meanwhile i'm here standing with my silly guys like “hi” #i'm not even done reading the manga yet orz and a decent amount of the discussion i've seen is at parts i haven't gotten to yet #so. i'm not really sure how this is gonna go? #this is an amoneki blog so it's gonna be focused on that obviously but. y'know- #is it a poor idea to make a blog for a series you haven't finished yet? definitely #am i also too lost in obsession about these two to care? also definitely #praying this doesn't show up in the main tags i will be so embarrassed and die :pray: #there's a lot of amoneki content from like 2015 and beyond-ish so i may fill a queue with a lot of that #we'll see though #i'm really nervous but. i also need to gather the amoneki nation !! whoever is left in it at least :pray: #thank you to the people who encouraged me on one of my other blogs you were all so nice and it really motivated me :)))

[lunetual]

Of course, we have more goals. But I think this kind of life [that I’m living right now] is also a successful life.

#kihyun #yoo kihyun #monsta x #mx #mx7net #mine: gif #mx.meg #i am holding him so lovingly in my heart. do you understand. #in the least parasocial way possible he means really really a lot to me. #<- that was barely english. but u know what i'm saying #it's like. funny bc the running joke around him having expensive taste and his stocks and him being a young flexer. #but also on a serious note. the growing up you do and the ways you learn to redefine what success is. #the ways you learn to reorient yourself and feel good about what you've done. #to feel like your life is whole even if you still feel like you've got plenty left to do. #to be able to keep dreaming but to see clearly that what you've done is good and will remain good. #ugh feeling sentimental. embarrassing. i'm logging off for the day LKDSFJALS #usermowah #usergyukai #marieblr #wabisarah #marekwan #userkyutie #rosieblr #<- ROSIE CAN I TAG YOU IN KIHYUNTENT?

[incomingalbatross]

Love how it takes a season and a half to see Clyde at home and the second we do it's just: this is a boy who wants to be an artist. he cooks dinner regularly. he loves his mum so so much and will make sure she never doubts it.

BEAUTIFUL character choices

#his mum will willfully embarrass him in front of his bff (hm i wonder where he got his sense of humor) #and he will let her with only mild complaining! because loving his mother is more important than looking like a cool kid! #they very clearly have a close relationship that functions with a lot of mutual teasing (again can you see clyde coming from anything else? #but equally clearly he won't cross a line where it's NOT coming from a place of affection #...am i drawing this from very little data yes. is it possible he had his moody stages especially pre-canon? also yes #but somehow i still suspect that Never Hurt Mum has been a firmly ingrained personal rule at LEAST since his dad left them #very possibly before. he's not going to be RUDE to his MUM he's not a monster #okay EDIT: he says he blamed his mum for the split for some period. he's clearly still mad at himself for that. honey

[reflectionsofgalaxies]

having a normal one over here

#i think the meds overcorrected #i cannot sleep and i am bubbling with Emotions #can i tell what most of them are? No #but there’s a lot of them #and they’re not actually super shitty?? #they’d be nice if they could just dial it down a notch #also this isn’t vague posting to be clear i’m not having Emotions because anything happened #this is run-of-the-mill confusion posting #kinda nervous for the comedown after these like. several consecutive pretty great days in a row??? #other than the late night panic attacks i was giving myself by reading the news #my doctor literally made me go into my settings and turn off notifs for my news apps #while telling me ‘at least you’re self aware’ #(bc i knew it was the news fucking me up i just wasn’t Allowed to turn off notifs) #anyway i’ve gone on a tangent #tumblr is back to being my journal #which means i’m gonna get like. at least 3x more annoying with my posting. #anyway i’m also thinking about Women but like. what’s new right? #also it’s Pride Month if there was ever a time to be gay over women it is NOW #someone’s gonna have to talk me out of dating apps again soon #(i hate dating apps and i don’t even want to date) #(but like maybe there are other cool queer people who wanna have queer movie nights and be casually gay together) #(you never know unless you try!) #anyway i’m not gonna be embarrassed for those tags bc if you’ve read this far that’s on you #personal

[hungerpunch]

late to the dantteri crumbs that are scattered on the banquet table but iiiiii mannnn auuughhhdhdhhshshrrgggrhhhsjskalppabsb

#how did i miss theeeese bwuh #i know people like to masturbate a lot over their own psychoanalysis of how sincere or insincere daniel ricciardo may be #but tbh when it comes to valtteri specifically within the last... idk. 4? years???? #he has at least seemed. very earnest. #i wonder if his infamous bet against vb's seat was a little embarrassing. and humbling. #and also since then dan himself has taken quite a few humblings. which will inevitability grow you as a person. #i am thinking. i am thinking so much. #everything's clearer in your rearview mirror etc. etc. #dantteri #i will just say. vb doesn't follow him on ig (idt) but tiffany does and tiff likes most of his ig posts. #i have known nobler people to resort to creeping via their partner's phone while feigning disinterest im JSSSSS. #driveby post

[moe-broey]

Ohhhhhhh. Okay.

(thoughts/revelations about bride alt Sharena jumpscare)

#moe tag #moe lore #i'm like. doing some preemptive coping bc i am going to be stressed the fuck out over it all day if not LMFAOO #LIKE....... i know it's not that serious. but like. it almost kind of is. to me. #i just. i almost have like a trigger reaction to it. like the topic in general. it's crazy. #but also i think this captures something significant between moe/sharena and why peony is sharena's primary parallel #like when writing moe/its backstory it's interesting to try and find that line. where it is friends w her/they have a lot in common #but they are also undeniably fundamentally different. #to the point where like. in the past moe was just someone who was a friend but ultimately slipped through the cracks #they may have had even less in common as children. or what they had in common was superficial. #either way moe is fucked up beyond belief. and needs to be shaken by the shoulders sometimes. #no maintags bc. i do feel embarrassed getting SO worked up over this #but man. idk i just can't help it. but also. i gotta do something about it. at very least acknowledge like #this is making me feel a certain way and i have to figure out what to do w those feelings now. #take responsibility. ect ect.

[dredshirtroberts]

feeling a lot more stable about everything, i decided to forego keeping a bandaid on because my fucking skin cannot take the adhesives for that long omg itches so bad around them

I have a plan in place to replace the bandaids should i require not needing to see my elbow again about it, but i also wanted to see for myself how bad it was.

BOY HOWDY do I bruise purty. That shit is dark where it's not already going greenyellow. looks like I put a sharpie in a chokehold and barely managed to wrangle it into submission like damn.

#i am probably going to have us put on a replacement bandage over the bruising because it's honestly yeah a little distressing to see #but i no longer feel like it's going to explode open and spurt blood everywhere if i'm not careful and that's important #this would be easier if we were like one solid continuous consciousness but unfortunately we're not #and for anyone who wasn't there during the cause of the Visible Injury having a visible injury suddenly be a lot worse #than what you were anticipating based on what the last person who looked at it remembers (let alone was just expecting in general) #(because lets face it i've not bruised this badly after a poke before. i think the closest was the IV for sedation before i got my #wisdom teeth taken out) and if you're maybe significantly younger than most of the rest of the soup in the bowl at the time it can y'know #freak a guy out a little which is what happened yesterday/last night #i'm glad i'm not navigating this without the context of being several opossums in a trenchcoat because that would be i think even more #distressing than it already has been. it keeps embarrassment for uncharacteristic freakouts to a minimum at least #gonna try and let it breathe for a bit and just kind of chill out with the elbow exposed a little to hopefully help #both with like acclimation to the sight and also maybe the cool air will help it feel better. #but also like i just cannot do that much bandage adhesive on my skin for that long it is so itchy around where i was wearing them augh #doesn't help my upper arm where my vaccines went look like i got bit by the worlds largest skeeter like damn #miecz posting #garrett posting

[stinkrascal]

even though it was buried in the tags of my last text post, that text post was the first time ive ever admitted to any of my ocs having The Diagnosis which is also My Diagnosis which means ive just somewhat admitting to having The Diagnosis which is My Diagnosis and wow that was extremely nerve wracking but it also felt nice to get it out there. this is my coming out post i guess

#definitely gonna delete this later i just wanted to ramble for a minute #idk why but this specific diagnosis was the most difficult thing to come to terms with #being diagnosed with adhd and bpd that was nothing but THIS ONE? it ruined my life for at least a few months #which is so silly bc when other people have this diagnosis i think nothing of it #but when its Me it just brings out this horrible complex inside of my heart #so having an explanation for that kinda stung you know. but hey its there now #a lot of this journey has just been me trying 2 unlearn the harmful stereotypes abt myself as far as The Diagnosis is concerned #and learning to treat myself kindly in spite of my insecurities which at times feel like a direct byproduct of my diagnosis. its a lot #but yeah. Yeah. idek what im trying to say anymore #shoutout to my homies who felt like aliens their entire childhoods only to be diagnosed later in life we are so strong and whatever #kisses you on the forehead #also tbh it feels good to project it onto my ocs. it makes me feel better about myself #making brie autistic as shit makes me feel more normal because in my head im like well shes living her best life. why cant i #and all the straud kids too. theyre still living their best lives and theyre totally confident w themselves and they accept their diagnosis #and they accept its just a part of them you know!! nothing to be ashamed of. so why cant i #THIS IS SO LONG IM SORRY im very emotional right now. ik this is kinda weird but i really want to find the confidence #to talk about this without feeling embarrassed about myself. autism rocks ! #this is literally the autism website idk why im nervous right now you are all literally autistic why am i so nervous LOL

[bookshelf-in-progress]

Fun fact: The fairy tale flash fiction has now passed 4,000 words.

#i'm okay talking about it because i'm going to finish this thing if it kills me #it nearly has #you don't know how i've agonized over those opening scenes #writing and then rewriting and then cutting almost everything of it #i gave up months ago before finally getting inspiration or at least motivation to just push through #i've now reached roughly the halfway point #maybe 3/4 #and i am embarrassed by a lot of it but also at least i have something that sort of a little bit flows #i want to finish the ask game stories before starting on the four loves challenge #the trouble is that i love tattercoats as a story so much that i'm aiming for a more detailed retelling than i might otherwise #it's still bare bones because i'm a hack who can't write description #but it's going to sit in a weird middle ground of being too long to be satisfying short fiction and too short to count as a full retelling #i've got one speech that i love #a few images or moments that i'm okay with #and the rest is just scaffolding that hopefully keeps the story from collapsing even if it isn't pretty #all duct-taped together with sentiment #i had hoped to get a first draft done tonight but since that ain't happening there's no chance it's getting done this week #but at least i'm further in than i've ever been before #and making good use of scene breaks so this section feels more doable than it ever has #if i can just get them to the palace it'll be relatively smooth sailing #here's hoping i can keep from overagonizing and just get a draft down that i can edit later #it hasn't happened yet during this draft but one can hope #(which is rather a prominent theme in the story actually) #adventures in writing

[c6jpg]

you’ll rip my double hydro double geo abyss teams from my cold dead hands

#for those without senior discounts my first real abyss ''''''team'''''' was also double geo/hydro of xingqiu mona ningguang and zhongli #bc fuck elemental reactions am i right or am i right #genuinely though this might be my favorite team comp to play #esp bc rotations don't matter for shit here just whoever is off cooldown GO GO GOOOO #the only thing is albedo's flower is kinda hard to place bc it gets destroyed easily i fuck up a lot #at least his skill cooldown is like nonexistent #oh and also nobody on this team has good crit rate FADJKLJADSF #shout out zhongli's 28% crit rate for actually critting that last meteor bc that would have been so embarrassing otherwise #m:video #m:abyss

[supercantaloupe]

“but sasha you just spent like the past hour complaining about having to talk to other people in french why would you want to go back to europe” easy. i don’t speak german or italian or spanish. and the awkwardness of being an english speaker in austria or italy or wherever is far better than trying to speak subpar french to a french person

#sasha speaks #have you ever spoken to a french person. in french. it's one of the most intimidating experiences in the world. it's like bomb diffusal #joke. sort of. but it's really hard :( esp cause a lot of french people will just talk to YOU in english if your french is bad #once again i apologize deeply to maxime from cameroon for my horrible french today but he was very nice and patient about it #non-french francophones tend to be more patient and forgiving about the language and with learners in my experience... #although i know he was probably like. trained to talk to learners. and not just anybody would have that kind of helpful attitude #also i think west african french accents are easier to understand a lot of times than france french or quebecois accents SORRY #idk why but i do #also for the record when i travel somewhere even if i don't know the language i do TRY to learn at least a few common phrases and words #i do TRY to be polite and learn a bit. i don't want to be an ignorant self-centered american #(my gd i am embarrassed to be american when i travel) #and in most places people seem to be cool about that #i can actually get by a bit reading italian but spoken italian is pretty much useless to me #but german. sorry guys. hopeless

[always-a-slut-4-ghouls]

When you look slightly off putting and try very hard not to look like you are glaring at all grocery store staff with the face of an 18year old on a 27 year old woman, but the guy who bags groceries has recognized you for coming in every week to every other week and has apparently caught on that your face is just like that and you’re trying to look nice and it’s such a big relief

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#emma posts #I just had to get this out #i don’t have a punchline #but people say my face looks like 😑 #or sometimes 😳 or 👁️_👁️ #and my voice is often quiet #and I can’t make eye contact and I’m constantly trying to come off as not mean while looking like 😑 and not making eye contact #or saying a lot #bless Thursday afternoon shift grocery bag guy 🫡 #oh. I also dress casual goth most of the time which doesn’t help #usually I am told I look like two things. 😑 or 👁️_👁️ #tries not to look like 😑 but just ends up looking at you with my autistic eyes #and if I force myself to talk more I always end up blurting out some weird shit #I am so sorry to everyone except the Walmart cashier who is always definitely high and called me unemployed #I mean. I am. But did he really have to point at me during a conversation with my dad and brother and say ‘except her. she’s unemployed’ #dude had seen me exactly ONCE before that and I didn’t mention employment. at least I don’t think I did #it was incredibly embarrassing #even if I DID mention it and forgot. he didn’t have to just point it out like that #and he scanned stuff really slowly which I can normally just shrug off but oh my god it made that worse #I couldn’t look at anyone else in the store