#and i hope my message gets through??

[xo8ball]

actually many mental disorders and illness have been converted into digestible. palatable. easy to consume. easy for neurotypicals to understand and relate because they wont pay attention until its slightly about them. and easy for capitalism to seem as functional or non functional instead of diverse humans with diverse conditions with determinated needs that deserve respect and wellbeing EQUALLY. what and why.

#im kind of distressed because its all pink and silly memes #like yeah some memes are funny and relatable. but where is the truth. where are the voices of the disabled. #the voices of people who struggle badly and have higher needs and can't communicate the same way. #i think english is failing me right now (its not even my second language. i just know how to speak. i cant do too much when stressed) #and i hope my message gets through?? #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #like dude its so fucking ableist because they see humans as Workers only. and those incapable of doing said work are left behind. #WHAT THE FUCK. where is the fucking humanity. #messy it's so messy this

[unexpectedbrickattack]

babpy.

#pizza tower #peppino #arts #mine #happy pride; heres a little otter for u #hes like very early 20s here #happy and unbothered before the Horrors happened #it is NOT his 30s bc he needs to exude raw dilf energy by that point #but for now he is anxious and sweet and awkward #not that i dont draw him like that already but its like 10x here #its PALPABLE #okay mwah i will hopefully come back w more than just sketches that mean nothing skjfsdjkfdhfhsk #i have LITERALLY been on this commission for WEEKS i need someone to take me out back and put me out of my misery i swear #im going to finish the lines TODAY like i cant be this person i cant keep coming back to this fucking comm w no progress ill simply Die #its like singlehandedly preventing me from doing anything else; its making a mental block waaaaaaaau #but i feel like i am breaking through it today. at least i HOPE i am sdkjfsdjkfjsdkf #um if u are still here ilu. send me some anons; i want to be chatty but the messages i have feel like i need to respond w essays #and i literally. cannot. #at least until i get my head screwed on properly again

[inusmasha]

It's miko Kagome's first day of training ➳

💌Email [email protected] for art commission info

#inuyasha #kagome #miko kagome #mountain miko au #thank you for the kind messages everyone #im feeling better now #i hope you like this piece #it really helped me get through this week #im opening up commissions for October but I probably can only do 3 a month #my art

[kinokoshoujoart]

oops all rock (springtime edition)

i’ll be able to draw digitally again soon! ;w; in the meantime i’ve been scribbling a lot on paper…

could not wait for Soon, so i resorted to coloring it using the markup tool in default iphone photos app (don’t do that ever again)

#my art #sos awl #debating whether to just dump my sketches from my soujourn to hell or save them to be transferred and finished as digital stuff #or like both idk. i don’t know how ppl feel about WIPs #i’m happy to post art again ;w; thank you everyone who welcomed me back i’m slowly getting through everything i missed while i was y’know #and thank you for the sweet messages while i was gone i am bbghkjh i need to calm myself and respond !!!! love #rock tumbling (sos) #story of seasons a wonderful life #bokumono #story of seasons #harvest moon #hm awl #harvest moon a wonderful life #bunny sighting 😳 i still have THOSE wips too #there’s certain things i wanna prioritize once i can use my tablet again and those are one of them #but i will also probably post new stuff alongside finishing old unfinished stuff….. i hope that is OK…… #idk i’ll have to talk more later! right now i am nervous!!! i love you all!!!! #fanart #awl rock #bokujou monogatari #hm anwl #unfortunately this scum neet still has my entire heart so. most of the notebook is just him pulling goofy faces… sorry…….. #also a lot of lumina and nami…. and molly…. they r really cool… #ceci is also cool and i’ve drawn a collage of her that i just. never posted #mostly drawing HMDS related stuff about the descendant characters #OK I’LL STOP TAGBLOGGING #i am once again back in DS for girl hell. i want to make a series of posts about differences in the English vs the Japanese version #and also fun secret things related to DS #this is all in the future i gotta finish all my unfinished stuff…. uuuu…. #i love you all mmmmmwah (i cast sleepy time blanket and sleep forever)

[riwooga]

Scarred inmate… wanna smooch…

#dol #degrees of lewdity #dol fanart #scarred inmate dol #riwoogaart #I wanna run my hands through his hair… #hope we get more prison content soon #I wanna know more about him and the others #what’s he called in y’all’s save?? he’s Mark in mine 🤧 #anyway thank you to everyone who helped with votes and the few who even messaged me ideas 🥹

[girlgerard]

mommm white people on tumblr are misconstruing my posts again despite the post being entirely about how important wording is + how i don’t feel comfortable posting large statements when i haven’t fully processed them yet.

#if you want to put me on a blocklist for loving netanyahu you can! i don’t! and no matter how many times i get told i do #i still don’t! #i literally said i hope his balls get cut off IN THAT POST #i don’t know how that read as unclear. #perhaps there are no hidden genocidal messages behind the wording of my tumblr posts - who knows! #when i said i cared about every single civilian living in that land i meant it. if you decide that i actually don’t that’s not my problem #if you somehow took my words and decided that what i really meant is that i’m a government bootlicker who loves murder #you can do that all you want. it won’t make it true and it won’t help save any lives #i was in ramallah and jerusalem six months ago. have you gone? #if the answer is no maybe think about that for a second #moreover if you’re viewing this from a purely racial or religious framework you have no idea how to navigate this subject #i don’t view israel and palestine through which government i want to back. why the fuck would i do that #palestinians and jews and everyone else in that land is who i care about. i care about gazans #if that’s not enough of ‘a side’ for you i don’t really think there’s much of a conversation to be had. #do you think i wake up every day NOT thinking about gaza? do you think i wouldn’t feel nauseous every second of every day because of gaza? #do you think that within everything i’m saying that the most logical conclusion would be to post all of my thoughts on tumblr? #because if you think any of that we’re not going to have a productive conversation. i don’t take kindly to being told my own emotions

[mainapnifavouritehoon]

hi guys i-

#Hey so i wanted to talk about this really bad this has been bothering me for quite some time #i have been busy a lot these days and i dont get time at all to do anything but i can see myself wasting my time just scrolling #I have school and then coaching and then ofc i have to study on my own for which i barely take out time as im highly careless #My last 2 exams went absolute shit and that fucking scares me because i'll be having my JEE soon #Mummy has been telling me to stay away from my phone and ik she trusts me but she but she deserves a daughter that studies ig? #And now i kind of consider that as an option because this phone is very very distracting #I have been thinking about deactivating but i realized it would mean i would lose all my precious posts and interactions #So i wont be deleting this blog as i am too attached (i will be coming back istg) #I will be taking a break and ig thats what yall call a hiatus #I will be giving away my phone to my parents (trust me i have to) #Ik this will be hard for me to just leave all of a sudden so i'll slowly start vanishing if that makes sense? #This message also doesnt mean that i will be shutting down my phone rn at this moment and that this is goodbye #This is just to prepare the people that i love and who love me that i will be highly inactive and not come online for maybe months #This is not an impulsive decisions i have really thought through this #Also just to tell you again MAIN ABHI GAYAB NAHI HONE WAALI BUT THODE TIME MEIN I WILL GO ON A BREAK THIS IS JUST A PRE HIATUS MESSAGE #Also i hope you guys will still love me and remember me once i come back #Because coming months are going to be hard for me #I hope you understand and ily guys okay? #(Oh god why am i so dramatic about everything) xoxo

[heybaetae]

hi

#hi #i am just popping on here for a second bc i’m not in the mood to be back yet but my queue is getting quite full #so i think i might have to unpause it soon #maybe tomorrow idk yet #just a heads up in case i seem active again i’m not really i just had a lot of stuff piling up 😭 #it will be a Huge shuffled mess so patience is appreciated!! #i apologize if you’re waiting on me but thank you for waiting regardless #please keep using my tracked tag for your creations #i will be back for real eventually #my mental health is quite terrible lately i still need time #it’s about to be a year since the last time i saw my sister before she passed so like. my grief is going through a crazy stage #i’m still not getting a ton of sleep #my brain is just Bad things all day #it’s all just really sucky but i’m trying to do my best 🙃 #i hope you are all well i miss you #i will respond to messages at some point too #there are very few which..well it puts things into perspective and validates certain feelings ig lol #it’s all good that’s something i’m working on internally #hopefully i get there #bye again for now 💕

[coldercreation]

PSA: 

If you have related to how I have described Nathan’s struggles with his mental health and some experiences with life; emotional, physical and social etc (ignore the story/his fam background for this; I mean if you have been able to relate to his feelings/anxiety/negative physical sensations etc.)

Might be worth it to get your blood checked. 

Especially B12, Vitamin D, Iron levels and Ferritin (ferritin should be 100+).

Building on top of the character, character background, and my research into trauma / mental health etc, I have always used a lot of my personal experience when describing emotions, feelings, and how mental health issues can feel like or present. It’s my attempt to make the writing feel realistic, had I experienced the things in the story or not. Aka even if the story was high fantasy and thus not realistic, I’d source my own feelings to make it ‘real’.

So. Regardless of what's causing it in the story: If you have ever related to how Nathan FEELS or describes his experience with the world and his brain… (Anxiety, depression, chronic fatigue, feeling like an outsider/in a fishbowl, easily overwhelmed or over tired; social withdrawal, social anxiety, heart palpitations, chest pains, breathlessness, dissociation, irritability, issues with cognitive function; memory, overthinking, insomnia, brain fog, panic attacks, slow recovery from physical activity, etc etc et fucking c) 

Turns out bish has been chronically deficient of many things for a very long time due to stomach issues that stopped nutrients from absorbing. Antidepressants have never successfully worked for me, and it’s now looking like that’s because my mental health stuff could've largely been a physical symptom, instead of just purely mental health?? 

I have been on a pile of supplements for a bit now and uhh… It’s like night and day? Even with the other health stuff I've been getting treated for, it's been... So much better?? Like. Life changing amount of difference?? And I’m only just starting out fixing these deficiencies, which could take a long time. But...

Holy shit, “Better” might actually be a real thing after all?? There was a reason I've been so "stuck"???

Kind of mad… And sad. Because if this is true and I keep feeling like I have been recently, it means I’ve lost a lot of time to this. I try to focus on how good I’ve been feeling though, and stay curious for this journey of what literally feels like a second chance at life.

Just… Wanted to post this in case it could help someone else. This is a highly personal experience, mental health issues absolutely exist on their own too and there's possibly often overlap as well. But stuff like this can make existing mental health conditions worse too, so either way it’s worth checking. 

Yeah. So.

Happy new year?

From someone who might be pulling a whole Phoenix moment???? xx

#Apologies for the silence here #Been going through a lot if you can imagine lol #I have a bunch of asks and messages to catch up to #I'm so sorry for taking forever #It might take me a bit longer still but I promise I'll get back on here at some point hopefully soon #Your messages mean so much to me<3 #Take care everyone <3 #Also #the description of Nathan's experience could and would still be rather accurate #even if you don't have these physical health issues!! #Depression and anxiety etc from a deficiency is still depression and anxiety #+ when I write Nathan I have a set of mental health “maps” or “guides” for his character (like C-PTSD and CEN and OCD) #Yes I use my own feelings and experiences to describe his anxiety etc #But his character is built around specific mental health markers / trauma research / symptoms etc (like C-PTSD and CEN and OCD) #So I'm pretty sure Nathan's POV would still look very similar based on just that research and ignoring the stuff in this post #Hope this all makes sense :'o

[seedlessmuffins]

vini deserves so much better. nobody deserves racial abuse at all, and it is disappointing to continually see this same story playing out across club football time and time again. it is so disappointing that not only was he the recipient of racist words but he was carded and felt the need to apologize on social media. the fact that he got consequences for enduring abuse is such a joke.

additionally important, though, is every single black man in laliga (including vini) who have, will have, or are going through the same or similar racist violence from fans, players, staff, and referees. the entire league needs to do better at protecting players from this abuse, because nobody deserves this.

my heart goes out to vini, truly, i hope he is doing ok. he deserves so so much better. they all do.

#vinicius jr #vini jr #this is honestly so infuriating that this still happens #the supportive messages on social media honestly make me so uncomfortable when they didnt help him on the pitch #i hope vini gets the kindness and love he deserves i truly do with all my heart #he has been through so much unnecessary hate #the league needs to protect black players. period. #and not just performative armbands or slogans too #real changes to protect these players #k.txt

[goldkirk]

When did the latest 1,000 of you follow me??? good lord hi and welcome, I should maybe pay attention to my notifications and activity page more 😭

#I’m not sure if you showed up about fanfiction or from one of my brief hyperfixations or from the cult post or from Star Trek or batfam #but hi welcome hello! #it’s just this! it’s just this. all the time. I bounce interests and recycle old ones #and share way too much personal life on this blog #especially in post tags #and i really love talking with people but most of the time my brain treats messages and asks and emails and texts #as if they are a deadly danger #so I WILL take up to 7 years to respond #but please know it haunts me every day #and I will get to it eventually #even if it’s long after you unfollowed me potentially #anyway. in this house we stan fairness and authenticity and compassion towards both others and self #and we are a pro skepticism and pro sourced-information and pro scientific research around here #AND obsessed with experiencing existence through the realm of story #I hope you enjoy your time here! you can always stick around and I’m happy to see you #but absolutely unfollow me at any time! curate your online experience! it should be good for you #when I or my blog no longer spark joy #please unfollow. I literally do not care. your experience is supposed to be nice for you #take what serves you and leave the rest. #this is just tumblr. you have a whole life #I’ll never be mad #👍 #2024 #this is a lot of followers. like not five digits a lot but INCOMPREHENSIBLE numbers to ME regardless lol #thanks for following whatever your reason was

[seariii]

I know it has a lot to do with me finally starting to get out of that long episode but...

The milgram fandom has given me something that I had lost a while ago, which is socializing with people that share an interest.

I'm small in the fandom, and there is no way I could socialize like I see others do, but the small things, the couple people that do interact with me... No one knows just how happy and soft that makes me...

And it's funny, sometimes I see someone posting something about how they are doing, and I want to reach out, but I'm too scared to do it... Yet, I've started to occasionally be able to do it... Sometimes tho, the thing that I wish to say is too personal to say it on the notes and so the best choice would be dms, but that makes me panic hahahaha what if I'm annoying? ... But I also think it could show them that there are people out there who care...

Anyways. Today I felt really happy, I felt like I did a lot of interactions. I had my socializing high which comes once every blood moon hahaha but... I'm just happy

Thank you milgram fandom, and thank you to those specific people, who they know who they are, that by little actions really do make my day light up a bit more

#friendship is still a strong word... but i hope i manage to push through and make a couple actual friends #my dms are always open btw. i might take a while to answer and might be really awkward. but yep #... maybe... maybe ill try to push myself forward and message people... #in any case im sleepy and i hope my insomnia doesnt act up when i actually get to my bed lmao #fuck it ill main tag it #because this is a thank you to the fandom in general #milgram

[anto-pops]

Did you see “the list” that’s been going around on TT about hogwarts legacy creators and smut pretty much? were you on it at all or are you safe to write another day lol

I saw it, I wasn’t on it, but even if I had been I don’t care what some random on tiktok thinks about me.

I got a few asks about the whole situation and I’m not trying to burst my little bubble of peace here but I will say this: it is your own responsibility to cultivate an online experience for yourself that you’re comfortable with, no one else’s. If that means blacklisting tags, unfollowing/blocking people, or better yet getting off the computer and taking a break, then so be it.

The only thing us content creators can do is tag our stuff to the best of our abilities and put warnings on the things we post, which most of us here already do. Instigating hatred and animosity towards people who literally haven’t done anything to you personally is never okay, and I’m so so sorry to the ones who are receiving any unwarranted cruelty from randoms. Keep your heads up and remember that this too shall pass 💕🫶🏻

#asks #I’m convinced a lot of these people starting discourse have never been in a fandom space before #these opinions have always existed and will always exist and I am selfishly choosing to stay out of it for my own wellbeing #I already lived through the hellscape that came with writing ereri for AoT years ago #fortunately I haven’t had any mean messages but the day I start getting them is the day I turn off anons and keep on keeping on #I hope everyone is doing well despite the drama I love you all and wish you guys the best <3 #also this is the only thing I’ll say about it I don’t wanna clog my blog up with extra drama/hatred/whatever else

[truethes]

does anyone else find that when they can't write is the moments they gain the most muse?

#❛ ♡ › jupiter : 𝐨𝐨𝐜. #tbd. #GOOD EVENING sorry for dissapearing! i spent this entire weekend with my best friend and it has been. so much fun! #i came home about an hour ago and even then ... i just wanna be back u know 🥹 #we spent the majority of our time gaming together and it was beautiful💕 #however coming back has made me realise how much muse ive had building up ... im probably not going to turn the laptop back on rn #( my cat is on my lap and its close to bedtime ) #but this week i hope i can chanmep enough to get things all finished. #thinking abt devved dynamics so probably going to go through messages. #but either way we will see!! #did u guys miss me because i missed u 🥹

[andr0nap]

(good taste anon) Oh I'm just a silly furry with thoughts I cannot form into proper ideas/questions about centaur Triguns now! Anything you have to say on it sustains me lol. (And knowing whether or not you like receiving fanfic inspired by your stuff would be nice to know, should thoughts take a more solid form.)

im 100% okay with people taking inspo from my aus to write fanfics!! thank you for asking :3

#ask #as long as theres credit somewhere i dont mind ppl remixing my ideas #its always fun to see what others can come up with #and since im not a storyteller its cool to see people putting our faves in more specific situations within the au #i just make characters exist in a world and tell you about it #show you how the world functions and their place in it #any character-centric stuff i do is very simple and slice of life-ish #i lack the vocabulary to describe how i feel about a lot of things #so i prefer showing them through illustrating daily stuff #and hope i get the message across #... at least when i do actually draw it with that intention jhdfvhvsgdf

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Im not diagnosed with anything, but I don't need any doctor to tell me I KNOW I have executive dysfunction. I have trouble contacting friends, my community, even my partner. But I find it much easier to talk with my sister. It's like that wall and forgetfulness and unwillingness is all gone. I hope you have some one like that, too. The guilt may be hard, but you got through today, we can do tomorrow. You're not alone. I know there's nothing realistically I can do to help, but I send you well wishes and I'll pray for you. (Sorry if that seems weird, i dont mean to seem rude, I am religious, and many days, it feels like its the only thing i can do.) But I wish you peace of mind. Keep your strength.

it doesn't seem weird! i may not be religious in the least but i Understand the Meaning/Intent, so thank you! means a lot! i wish you luck as well, ik it must suck More being undiagnosed but knowing there's something up

#but yeah! i do have someone actually #for me its My Dear Bestie (if you're reading this my darling homie: hi!!!! lemme know if we're on for pink ladies tonight <3) #(if not im gonna break into your house and drink all of your bellini. the good one <3) #but yeah i appreciate the nice message and your well wishes!! #i hope you figure out whats up #it sure sounds like executive function to me but hey! im no professional in any sense! #have a good week my guy. and month. and year! #may things get easier for the both of us. and everyone reading this who's Going Through It as well #rambles from the bog