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rawliverandcigarettes · 3 years

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If you're still willing to do the character meme, I won't ask about Aria since you already discussed her at length not that long ago, but /is/ there a character you would like to talk about but which is, shall we say, less obvious than Mordin ? Basically, [Insert Character Here] for the meme. No pressure though.

Hey, thank you for the freedom (and so very sorry about how late I am ;_;)! I pondered a lot about who I wanted to ramble around, and I think I've been in a big Miranda mood lately so I'm going to talk about Miss Lawson!

favorite thing about them: her relationship with expectations and accomplishment/self-definition. The more I replay the game, the more that specific aspect of her deeply touches me, to the point where I discover myself relating to her more than with any other character in the games. She’s at once trying to follow an impossible blueprint, being expected to behave perfectly because she was “made that way” (whatever perfect means, in this instance the weirdly fetishist definition of a weird rich white guy), but at the same time if she expresses these controlling behaviors towards herself or others, she’s bossy and unlikeable. It’s almost like she’s been made to play a game she cannot win! (not to excuse the shitty controlling things she does to Shepard’s body and the fact she’s literally in a pro-human terrorist ring, but this mess does make a lot of sense with who she is, her envy, how she was shaped) Her relationship to Oriana is also very sweet (I almost always shed a tear at the end of her loyalty mission, I don’t know why this gets me when it’s so hard to get to my tearducts in videogames!!!), because in a way it’s also about Miranda showing herself compassion, and revealing her yearning at a second chance she’ll never have but can only offer to someone else.

least favorite thing about them: unoriginal, but the fixation on the butt? It’s a fanbase thing pushed by the game and its weird fixation on it, but... yeah, while I don’t mind that she uses her sexuality as a form of powermove (people are going to be gross about her anyway, may as well own it and make it do work for her, I get that), I think the fixation on the butt iiis weird and quite deshumanizing and it completely glosses over her great boobs COME ON PEOPLE

favorite line: I don’t remember the specifics, but the entire dialogue where she talks about the complex relationship she has with envy. Envy of Shepard, envy of Mordin, envy of everyone who was allowed and encouraged to express their full potential without feeling like they own all their accomplishments to the person who made them, and all their failures to themselves. She was designed to shine, and then made to step in the shadow of, mostly, “greater men” (her father, TIM, even MShep in the “default” way ME2 was marketed). This sucks!!!! I feel that so bad!!!!

brOTP: I mentioned her and Mordin in Mordin’s ask, and I still enjoy that quite a lot! I also saw several mentions of Miranda and Grunt bonding over being “made”, and I am won over. This is very cute. But to be honest she strikes me as severely lonely because she’s crippled with her inner battle against herself and can be cold and offputting as a mean to assess control, so I think it takes her a long time to open up to anyone in the Normandy crew --especially since nobody likes her really. Perhaps she could have courteous exchanges with people like Samara or Thane, but I don’t see her baring her soul to any of them before perhaps late in ME3 (Citadel DLC and such). I like the potential of what her relationship to Oriana could end up looking like too, obviously!

OTP: honestly I really like a well-made Miranda/Jack. It can absolutely have this catty/porny “hot girls fighting” vibe which is not mine personally, but I think having Miranda reconciling with her own story of objectification/grooming at the hands of Cerberus alongside Jack is interesting, as well as allowing herself some leeway and tap into more spontaneity would really help. Jack, on the other hand, might need someone stabler to allow for her growth, and someone she can also somewhat hold accountable. I feel like that’s a delicate thread and I’m not even sure this would be the kind of relationship that *should* last given how intricately linked Jack’s history of trauma is to Miranda, but I enjoy the idea of a post-war relationship that takes slow steps and allow both of them to calm down, reconsider and heal. I saw mentions of Miranda and Kaidan, and I don’t hate it either! I think he would pair with her quite well, be a good support and they could have a nice equal relationship. Miranda and Jacob could be a thing? But I don’t entirely understand what their dynamic would have been like so I’m left grabbing at straws here (and she seems to be quite formal towards Jacob all things considered so I’m wondering what that even looked like).

nOTP: I don’t really have one. Even the really bad ones (like Illusive ManXMiranda) could be interesting if written well, even if they are repulsive in other aspects. I guess her relationship with MShep can irk me if “poorly written”, as it can absolutely make her that femme fatale prize of MShep that deny her that equal recognition I understand her to crave.

random headcanon: I HC that, despite being quite dominant in the ME2 love scene, her romantic behavior would be a little more muted once she trusts her partner (I believe she did that whole show to impress Shepard and try to control/maintain a sense of superiority because she’s afraid to be crushed by a stronger force than her, as mentioned above). I think she needs to be vulnerable in private and strong in public to be at her more confident/healthiest mentally, but I’m not even sure she’s ready to express that desire to herself yet (or maybe by mid ME3).

unpopular opinion: I’m not sold on Miranda wanting a “normal life” necessarily as presented in the Citadel DLC? I think she does need to relax and stop putting so much pressure on herself for sure, but I still believe she also wants to become her own beacon, the hero of her own causes, defined by herself. I wish we could have seen her become a little more of that before the end of the game (like the organizer of a movement aiming at taking down Cerberus from the inside-out, something like that, unrelated to her father/her genetics). I don’t know how I feel about us telling her (especially in the romance) to “just chill out and have a normal life”, while in ME2 she had trouble with finding her own success and didn’t ask to be made lesser. She didn’t want to be normal for its own sake, she wanted to be normal so she could exist without the shadow of everyone that defined her getting in the way (I also believe that’s why Cerberus’ views spoke to her, as warped and messed up as they are --their goal is very much about self-definition, at any cost). But it’s possible I’m projecting, I wouldn’t put it past me. :) :) :)

(From: https://rawliverandcigarettes.tumblr.com/post/659045472796803072/mushroom-cookie-bears-send-me-a-character-and)

#miranda lawson #ask #Mass Effect #oriana lawson #grunt #tim #jack #mshepard

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nakunakunomi · 4 years

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Matchup for @doctorgerth

Here’s my info for ya, Hazel! - 23 - Heterosexual, into men! - INFJ - Cancer - Shoulder length light brown hair, dark green eyes, 5’9”, on the thick/curvy side - I’m assuming this is clothing? I’m usually a comfy cute/casual kinda style! Like shorts and a T-shirt or skinny jeans and a cute top! I wear baseball caps a lot when I’m too lazy to do anything with my hair lol - hobbies include writing (obviously lol), playing with my kitties, traveling, and watching cooking shows! interests include traveling (I just love going places), nature, animals, children, and eating! 😂 - uhhhh I have two cats lol and I can play clarinet - favorite food is pasta for sure, more specifically an Alfredo. my favorite color is light blue/pastel colors. my favorite animals include cats, foxes, and whale sharks! - I’m terribly afraid of heights and spiders. Also I’m a big people pleaser so I’m scared of letting people down. Though I’m going to be a teacher, I’m actually quite scared of speaking to large crowds lol little kids don’t bother me, but talking to a large crowd of people my age or older, yeah I don’t like that. I’ll do it if I have to of course, but not without internally panicking lol - My dream is actually in the works as I am becoming a teacher!! Other than this, I want to travel as much as possible while I can. If I can’t go out of the country, my dream is to visit all states in the continental US!! After getting everything I want to do done, I want to settle down somewhere, continue to teach, and have a family. ❤️ - As for extra stuff...as you can probably tell, I can be a bit overly emotional and sensitive, but that makes me very empathetic and loving! Introverted where I do like alone time but not to the point where I always want to be home by myself. I also love adventures like kayaking, or going to museums/zoos/aquariums, theme parks, or just traveling and experiencing new places! Very into stargazing and astronomy. I also love being on or near the water! I’m not the best at making friends just because I'm a lil awkward and anxious around new people. I prefer my small clique over having lots of friends, but I’m always friendly to strangers/others as long as they are friendly to me! I am definitely the mom of my friends, making sure they’re always safe, sound, and happy. People tend to compliment me on the fact that I’m easy to talk to. I may not ever have the best advice, but I am always willing to listen to someone vent, rant, or just talk about their feelings! I live for small get togethers with friends rather than large parties. I’m pretty low-maintenance, so I never expect fancy dates or expensive gifts! I’m always down for staying at home with movies and home-made dinners! Total cat mom, I love my and all fur babies. I’m also studying to be an elementary teacher so I love little kids! Big big heart for animals and children! All in all, I’m a really laid back person who loves deep, personal connections with people, and also my alone time every now and then! I tend to fall in love pretty easily and thus get my feelings hurt just as easy lol but when I fall in love I always fall head first, full force to make sure my s/o is happy! I definitely put my all when it comes to love in relationships. My love language is physical touch so my man (and friends to an extent) should expect lots of physical affection from me!! Kisses, hugs, cuddles, all of it! SOOOO excited for get a matchup from you, my darling!! Thank you for the opportunity! 💖

aaaa Coop! I am super hyped for this, I hope you like your match, I always love the wonderful ones you do 🐵! Although I will always ship Cooler, for a more realistic relationship I match you with...

OTP: Marco The Phoenix

Marco, as a pirate, is super adventurous, ready to take you on all sorts of adventures. But after all is seen and most adventures lived, he’s just as much ready to just settle down, start a family, whether it be furbabies, adopted kids or of your own. He takes after his pops, kids are definitely on the list!

You take care of him whenever he works too long and forgets to eat or sleep, he takes care of you whenever you feel like you need to unwind. Since you’re both easy to talk to and share the same kind of energy, you can just unwind by talking with each other, cuddling on the couch or in bed while you just relay your days onto each other, neither of you feeling like you’re unloading.

You surprise each other with small tokens of appreciation, such as homemade lunches with sweet notes, surprise visits whenever you thought the other one was working. You never go sleep without saying goodnight, and never leave without saying good morning, even if its just a kiss on the forehead of whoever is sleeping.

There are barely any fights or arguments. You both have certain maturity and know how to communicate with people. Whenever something does go wrong, you can settle for a mature discussion and even agree to disagree whenever it’s not a deal breaker. Willing to make compromises and working towards personal growth makes this relationship stable and healthy, even after the honeymoon phase is over, you still stay deeply in love, just because you connect so well.

Since you’re both busy working, you respect each other’s alone time and privacy, but at the same time plan in moments that are meant for just the two of you. Whether it’s actual dates (hiking trip, visiting a cool island nearby, walks on the beach, visiting your favorite restaurant or bar) or just spending a quiet evening at home where you both temporarily forget about work and enjoy each other’s presence and company. It’s the best way to keep your stress level down, and establishes healthy communication and best of all, makes sure that you’re never too long without stolen kisses, nice cuddles and all other physical touches you need to feel completely relaxed and happy!

Runner up: X Drake

There are quite the few places where X Drake checks off all the marks you need: adventurous, love for animals, stargazing while being able to tell you all the names of the stars and constellations that you can see that day, a certain maturity... You could make quite the good couple!

With Drake, most of your time would be spent outside, he doesn’t like being holed up too much. Hiking, being at sea, nightly walks under the night sky, walks around town, discovering new islands and doing some exploring... those will be your most frequent dates.

Drake is honest and straightforward, no beating around the bush. He respects you, your needs and your personal space and will do everything in his power to make sure you are happy and comfortable even in the most difficult times. Those are bound to happen because of his lifestyle, but he will do his best to make sure you won’t suffer under it.

why he is not your number one: Drake is.... not used to physical affection, to give a bit of an understatement. He gets flustered too easily and will tend to push you away, especially in public, but even in private he can get overwhelmed. Unfortunately, it may take a little too much time to get him used to your love language, you need someway to let out all that love!

BrOTP: Bepo

A little bit of an unusual friendship match, but Bepo and you have just the right amount of vibes in common to work out as great buddies! Both a little on the sensitive and softer side, you both are 100% there for each other when the other feels a little down or self-conscious. Comfort bear hugs? Incoming!

Bepo and you can spend hours doing whatever activity you feel like doing, mostly something semi-active to keep both your minds and bodies occupied, while you each talk about your friends, your families and crews. You help him feel a little more confident in his abilities, and both of you are amazing in helping each other out when someone has come to you for advice but you need an outsider’s perspective.

Even though you cannot spend an insane amount of time together generally because Bepo will 100% follow Law and wherever he goes, the moments you are able to meet up and catch up are worth it so much. It’s like your social batteries get reset, and you’re ready to take on everything in your life that was bothering you once again!

#naku no matchup #one piece #one piece matchup #matchup #Doctorgerth #500 followers event

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turbobyakuren · 4 years

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Character: Mamizou!

A ship I have with said character:

MG3UEREHB???..... .AM AM EGRVUFWN....GNNNNNJNJFUOPIUL...... MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

MamiNue. It’s a good ship. I will not elaborate on why. You have my words on it: it’s a good ship... It’s good for the soul

A BROTP I have with said character:

MMMMMMMMMMMMMH................. I can’t think of any aside from MamiByak, MamiKourin, MamiMurasa, and legendary MamiReimu (which is more of a “OTPester”, where the goal is that Mami pesters reimu every time)

A NOTP I have with said character:

Aside from obviously MamiSuzu, i’d say MamiRan is up there. It’s a good crackship with nice aesthetics but im kinda upset it gets more traction than MamiNue somehow because Tanuki/Kitsune is easier i guess (which doesn’t make sense to me bc 1. Mamzo hates kitsune 2. Ran is barely a kitsune at this point). I don’t mind a few art here and there but as i say since MamiNue is the best otp for me it’s kinda upsetting me in a personal way but i have no offense at all lol

A random headcanon:

Since she is a tanookey, Mamizou has no restrictions on what kind of clothing she can wear. So she get very stylish! She bears a huge amount of attention to style and fashion, esp since it’s been a long way and the way humans dressed in the 1800s is completely different than the way they dress nowadays. She really thinks modern fashion is better but absolutely likes older styles too.

She holds a shop in some shady street corner of a city like Kyoto. All the products are renowned Grand Couturier Brands clothes but actually they’re just a bunch of counterfeits. They’re very well made though and not even an expert could make the difference. She sells them at a friendly yet kind of stingy price, and if you’re kind of rude to her she just makes sure to send one of her Dudes to turn the clothes back into leaves one week later.

Very elaborate headcanon for something i just made on the spot.

General Opinion over said character:

i’m too tired and dumb to say anything coherent, Mamizou is the first new extra boss i ever got to SEE in my life!!! The night before TD’s full release I literally predicted that there would be a tanuki among the newer characters and when i woke up a friend told me PLEASE GO CHECK OUT WHO THE EXTRA BOSS IS and i COULDNT FUCKING BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!!!

Mamizou’s growing role in the grand scheme of gensokyos is truly a sight to behold. Seeing her having such a major presence in Forbidden Scrollery was THE BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO MY TOUHOU FAN LIFE. i LOVE HER I love how she has ties to the human world, to folklore, to people of gensokyo and outside, i love how she has a very slick design with a lot of outfits, i love all the fan content made around her, i love reading the cute doujins where she hangs around the outside world with sumireko, i love that one cosplayer on twitter who is basically Mamizou IRL i love mamizou i love her i love tanuki id gladly gift her a cheese pizza and pay 500000 dollars for her

#smithalspersonal

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xoruffitup · 5 years

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Burn This First Preview: 3/15 Show Report

OKAY it’s 3 AM and I’m writing this on my phone so the format might be weird, but I have SO MANY thoughts and feels from tonight I’ve got to let the tidal wave out!!

First off - Yes, he looked gorgeous at stage door and he was so kind trying to sign for everyone he could! (The line was longggg.) I GOT HIS AUTOGRAPH AND THANKED HIM FOR SUCH A MOVING PERFORMANCE AND HE SAID “OH THANK YOU VERY MUCH” AND LOOKED UP AT ME WITH HIS GORGEOUS EYES AND GORGEOUS FACE AND THERE IS A PIC OF THIS MOMENT THAT WILL FOREVER LIVE IN MY HEART:

This is my new OTP, folks: Adam/The back of my head!

I attempted to ask for a pic but was hesitant and security had already half pulled him away so he was like “I don’t know if I’ll have time” sounding so nervous about getting to the whole line. BABY <333

Aksjsknsm I can’t believe I was this close to him - It hasn’t fully set in and omg I better just keep writing before it does set in and I lose my shit completely!

Play Highlights! (This list is Plot-Spoiler free.)

Alas, sadly there is not that much nakedness. He takes his pants off in Act 1 but has underwear and a long shirt on. The BEST is when he comes on wearing one of Keri/Anna’s kimono-style purple silk robes in Act 2 - I nearly DIED and cannot believe I saw that with my own eyes!! When he first steps onstage the robe’s open and he’s only wearing underwear so you get a nice chest glimpse, but then he sadly ties it. (Then proceeds to hilariously struggle with getting one of his arms through the complicated sleeves.) Oh, and did I mention the robe was paired with knee-high socks?

Adam is HYSTERICAL. He doesn’t come on stage for about the first twenty minutes, but when he did, it took all of 5 minutes for the audience to be in the palm of his hand, laughing at every other word he said. His delivery of all of Pale’s curse-laden, barely-logical rants and complaints is just masterful in comedic timing and effect. He’s a literal hurricane when he enters the show, flooding the stage with this frenetic, chaotic energy so intense he’s practically vibrating. He keeps everything at break neck pace, through 0-100 highs and lows where he’s bitching about parking one second, then animal-wail crying the next.

His character’s not likeable. Really, this is a testament and praise to Adam’s acting. After his first couple minutes on stage, there were stretches when I literally forgot it was him. When I was so taken in and then repulsed by this character in turns, his acting prowess overcame even my instinct to love him and everything he does on sight. I’m about to get deeper into the weeds on his character in the next section, but suffice it to say Adam’s performance is stellar and completely, convincingly transformative.

How heated does it get? The only intimate scene that happens in front of the audience includes some slow kissing, a bit down Keri/Anna’s neck, and wandering hands. The rest is implied off stage.

The play is set in the 80s, so while Keri looks KILLER in every single outfit, Adam’s suits are all big and baggy as was the style then and they’re not exactly flattering. His costume look is just a bit weird, not nearly as smolderingly hot as how they styled him in the promo pics. But even with that said.... The scene where they’re both close on the couch, talking softly before kissing happens? I would have still gone for him too. ;_;

The rest of this report is going to dive into and attempt to untangle some of the deeper elements and themes of the play. Stop reading here if you’re avoiding spoilers!

To my perspective, this wasn’t really a play about a smoldering, ill-advised love affair. Yes, that’s the main event, but this play is about so much more.

Anna and Pale are star-crossed lovers. No, not in the Disney or destined interpretation - I mean the proper, tragic meaning. Whatever is between them should not exist. Whatever is between them threatens and harms them both. Whatever is between them is not long for this world, and doesn’t belong in it.

But why doesn’t it belong? Sure, there are the technical, superficial reasons: Anna has a boyfriend; Pale is married with kids (though technically separated); They are polar opposite people - Sharing no visible common interests and with temperaments that couldn’t be more opposite.

What is the one thing stronger than all of that, which first brings them together? Their grief; Their shared (yet deeply personal and divergently different) senses of grief; The solace and understanding they can only find for that grief with each other. The loss they’ve both experienced is life-changing, and has no place to fit into or even exist at all in their normal lives.

And so, they hurtle into an affair that also has no place existing in their normal lives. By the end of the play, they both assert “I don’t want this.” To a certain degree, it’s the truth. It’s unlikely either of them would have willfully chosen to pursue the other, had they met under different circumstances. They would likely never have opened or even tapped at the floodgates of their attraction, unless they had both gravitated towards this dark, abnormal part of life outside the realm of everyday lives, jobs, rational behavior, and decisions.

To me, this play was really about confronting that abnormal, primal, and sometimes unfathomable level of being that exists below the everyday. Pale has a memorable remark about all the little lies people live with and show to the world each day. Sometimes - when it is cut open and its value or sense thrown into question by some great tragedy such as a loss like this - you lose touch with that everyday life and the person you think you are within that everyday world. It becomes painfully juxtaposed and shrunk tiny, in the face of something all-encompassing and all-powerful, like grief. It becomes exposed as paper thin; Everything within it questionable and perhaps useless.

There is something of the profound in an emotion like grief. When it’s shared with someone, it’s no wonder that that also unlocks some profound connection. Anna and Pale don’t like each other as people, and they certainly take no enjoyment in the grief that brought them together. Yet, the relationship that blooms from it contains a compulsion and truth neither of them can deny. Even though they “don’t want this” (the rational, everyday side of their minds talking), they both admit they’ve never felt anything like it before, and they keep finding themselves drawn together. They don’t want to want each other - It’s painful and frightening for both of them, and yet their attraction wraps them both just as completely as their grief.

Anna’s boyfriend Burton is the epitome of the everyday. He earns a lot of money, he’s a well-dressed gentleman. He’s a writer, and fancies he can capture and portray the entire spectrum of human emotion. Even “great love,” as he fumblingly attempts to describe towards the play’s beginning. Yet all his talk is vapid and empty; As is his relationship with Anna. Theirs is one of the everyday, rational variety. It belongs with the small lies we live with and put on and speak and perform each day - To keep our lives square and tidy and comprehensible.

Then - There’s the chaotic, unpredictable, bordering violent being of Pale. He is every sincere, larger-than-life emotion and base instinct most people tamp down and deny voice to. He represents the terrible, uncontrollable, threatening Truth of everyday masks, dark desires, and empty identities of performativity.

Their attraction is not something Anna can bear to look in the face. She throws Pale out and ends the relationship because that deeper truth of true emotion unlocked by her grief cannot coexist with her reality. Her ability to continue dancing, to continue the everyday life she’s trying so hard to believe in and trust the purpose of - It cannot contain Pale. He represents and unlocks profound, unknown feeling that casts the waking world as a shadow.

And yet for all that discomfort, she has an artistic breakthrough after the affair with Pale. She is inspired to finally choreograph Robbie’s final send-off piece. And with Anna, Pale unlocked a part of himself that was calm, gentle, and soothed - A version of himself totally incongruous with his own reality and the identity he wears. Both of them are changed through their journey together through the Profound. It is a deeply uncomfortable, destabilizing place that neither of them wish to remain in. And yet its power is undeniable; Its impact unforgettable. The very experience of it is something they seek comfort for and can only find from each other.

Is it better to tell little lies each day so the world will make sense? So you can understand exactly who’s looking back at you in the mirror, and the quotidian will shade your perception of the invisible and unfathomable depths of human experience? So everything will remain neat and in control?

Or - Does it give meaning to abandon control? To surrender to grief and undesired passion, for the sake of a reality that is uncompromisingly, viscerally, heartbreakingly genuine? The harsh, infinite light all the rest of life seems to be constructed to blot from our eyes?

I really hope that as more people see the play, people will start posting their interpretations as well! I would love some good analysis dialogues! In the meantime, I will now slide right back into flaily, trash fangirl mode.... Thank you for reading all this, if you got this far! Go see this marvelous, haunting play if you’re able!!

All the love to my fangirl besties!!! @reylonly Thanks for making it an amazing night! :’)))

#Adam Driver #Burn This #Broadway #Keri Russell #driverdaily

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yoinenchuugumi · 5 years

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Proof - A YouAoi Fic

This is the first fic I’ve written in literal years and it’s YouAoi. I’ve betrayed my own OTP.

You has been in a relationship with Aoi for a month now. Yet he can’t stop thinking that he may not be the only one who is on Aoi’s mind.

I remember that day as if it were yesterday.

All my life, I thought I was only into girls. Sure, I could appreciate a good-looking man, but I thought it was all about the large breasts and the voluptuous curves that only a woman possessed. But he, no, he was different, and bisexuality is most certainly a thing.

His sparkling blue eyes lit up whatever room he was in. His sweet smile, a smile so innocent and filled with pure joy, chased away the darkness of whoever looked at him. He was always at the top of the popularity polls for a reason, he was our sunshine, our heart, and our beloved prince.

He was my beloved Aoi-chan.

I remember the first time I met Aoi-chan. He was introduced as a Gravi member, shyly standing behind Arata, who looked like he couldn’t care less. “I’m You,” I said, outstretching a welcoming hand to Aoi-chan. A sweet smile. “I’m Aoi Satsuki. It’s nice to meet you, Haduki-san.”

Haduki-san, eh? Kind and well-mannered, that I could tell from a mile away. Man, TsukiPro really found the most quintessential blond, blue eyed prince character, didn’t they?

“Nice to meet you, Aoi-chan.”

Yoru, my best childhood friend was standing next to me, and in my peripheral vision I could see his eyes grow wider than Kuroda’s after he was caught stealing food. “You~~,” he snapped. “Manners!”

But Aoi only laughed, a melodic sound that filled my body with jubilant tingles, and smiled at me. “Aoi-chan is fine.”

I didn’t know it at that time, but I had already fallen for him.

“Mmm.” A soft voice next to me.

I beamed, running my fingers through his soft, fluffy blond hair, gently massaging his scalp. In my musings, I hadn’t realized it was morning and past both of our times to wake up. We had been dating for a month already and really weren’t supposed to show any romantic displays of affection. Hajime, Shun, and probably the rest of the guys knew about our relationship (how could they not, I could barely look at Aoi without blushing) but we were strictly forbidden from acting like a couple in public. So I was forced to rely on these fleeting moments, waking up in a bed that was slightly too small for two people, next to the person I loved so.

“You?”

I frowned. I knew him well enough to know that his voice was hoarse. Sick? Sick again? He had just gotten over a nasty bout of the flu about a week ago. Was this a continuation of the flu? Another illness? I positioned my hand to lay gently on his head, and I glowered again. Yep. He definitely had a fever.

“You’re sick again.”

“Mmm? Am I?” Aoi asked as if he somehow didn’t know, adorably attempting to rub the sleep out of his eyes.

“You have a fever,” I said firmly yet gently at the same time, kissing his bare shoulder, exposed by my old oversized tee that he slept in. Aoi gave me a cheeky grin, one he flashed whenever he was feeling slightly mischievous.

“You’re right, it is hot in here, but I don’t think a fever is the source of the heat,” he whispered, his voice tingling my every senses, nuzzling against me. I could only chuckle at his terrible corny line which was definitely part of his many charms.

“Oi,” I said, resisting every urge I had to just give myself to him then and there. “You’re sick. You should rest today.”

“Don’t wanna,” He pouted childishly, biting gently at my neck, his surefire sign that he was in the mood and more than ready. I hesitated for a brief second, not wanting to take advantage of my feverish and slightly delirious partner, but caved into my instinct and pulled the already too large shirt down a touch further…

“Get a room, will ya?”

See, this is the reason why the other group members should not have access to master keys.

I scowled, the mood immediately ruined, and turned to face the invader. Arata.

“This is my room,” I grumbled, knowing full well Arata would ignore me.

“Arata!” Aoi perked up, as he always did when Arata, his childhood best friend was around. He straightened immediately, breathing a touch heavier from his fever, his soft breath warm against my cheek.

Try as I might, I couldn’t stop the irritated green-eyed-monster that dwelled deep within my subconscious. Arata had already given me his “permission” to date Aoi—not like I needed it, mind you!—and Aoi had already assured me time and time again that his feelings for Arata were platonic in nature, but…but…

I instinctively pulled Aoi even closer to me, kissing him on the cheek. Much to my dismay, Aoi gently pulled away, fumbling with the covers and stumbling out of bed to greet his childhood friend, looking absolutely adorable in nothing but my oversized t-shirt.

“What’s up?” Aoi coughed almost immediately after his question. I reached out to comfort him, to rub his back, but Arata beat me to it, patting Aoi on the shoulder and flicking him on his forehead.

“Sick people should stay in bed,” he said soothingly.

My brow furrowed in displeasure. Platonic feelings or not, there was no doubt that Arata was a different, kinder person when he was around Aoi.

I hated it.

It was awfully selfish of me to hate it, but I hated it nonetheless. Aoi looked at Arata differently than he looked at me, differently than he looked at anybody, really. He never showed that level of comfort around me. Yoru tried to tell me it was because our relationship was still relatively new while he and Arata had been friends since the beginning, but that advice did far more harm than good.

Will I ever be more important than him?

I was so caught up in my internal rant that I hadn’t noticed Aoi place a gentle hand on my left shoulder, as if he was fully aware of my insecurities and trying to subtly reassure me that he was still mine.

“You’re right,” Aoi said, “I really am not feeling well. I’ll go to back to bed.”

Oh, so you’ll listen to him, but not me. I see how it is.

“Cool. I just came in to grab something, so I’ll see you later, then.” Arata held something up, what exactly he had stolen from my room, I hadn’t noticed. I was far more concerned with the dignity Arata had robbed from me. A soft click indicated that Arata had left the room.

Aoi coughed again and side, leaning next to me as he sat back down on the bed.

“You.”

I didn’t answer, lost in a maze of my own thoughts.

“You.” A sweet kiss on my lips. He may have kissed me, but was his heart truly with me, or were his thoughts following Arata out the door?

I didn’t hear the pained sniffle, nor did I feel the tremor from his shaking fingers.

“You!” Aoi rubbed his cheek against mine to get my attention, and while I felt the unnatural warmth from his fever, I also felt an unsettling damp sensation.

Damp? Was he sweating from the fever? Wait…

With all my willpower, I forced myself to swim out of my sea of insecurities back to reality, greeted by a crying Aoi.

Aoi was crying.

I cursed, furious at myself for ever hurting him so much that he cried, and pulled him into a deep embrace, resting my head on his and rubbing circles on his heaving back. Aoi gasped for air as he cried, his already weakened lungs struggling to breathe. I fought back my own tears that threatened to fall.

Why did this always happen when Arata was involved?

Why do I do this!?

“I’m sorry,” Aoi choked out between a mixture of sniffles, coughs, and sobs. “I’m so sorry.”

Why are you apologizing? I’m the one that’s selfish.

I kissed the top of his head, desperately trying to find something to tell him to calm him, to tell him it was my fault, that I was the jealous boyfriend that couldn’t stand it when his partner merely exchanged two words with another man…

I opened my mouth to speak, but Aoi beat me to it.

“Arata is and always will be important to me,” he choked. “But…but…if it makes you upset, I can tell him not to—”

My eyes widened. No way in hell I was letting him finish that statement.

“Aoi-chan,” I said firmly, pulling him back slightly so I could force him to stare at him. The sight of my beloved, flushed from a fever, tears streaming down his face, a runny nose, and disheveled hair was enough for tears to fall down my own face. I hated myself sometimes. Aoi must have sensed my jealousy and insecurities and immediately blamed himself for causing my internal conflict. He really was too kind for his own good.

It was one of the many things I loved so.

“You said it yourself,” I said, my own voice hitching from my terrible attempt to hold back my own tears, “Arata is important to you. What kind of partner would I be if I didn’t treasure that relationship as much as you did?”

“But…I see how it makes you feel, that pained look in your eyes, that self-deprecating look that you always torture yourself with…” he broke off into a fit of coughing and I pulled him close to me again, caressing his forehead tenderly. “I don’t know how I can prove to you that you’re the one I’m in love with.”

What kind of proof did I want?

I glanced down at him, relishing in our tender embrace. I chuckled, brushing away that nagging gremlin in the back of my head away, even if it was for a brief moment.

Just having Aoi here in my arms was all the proof I could ever need.

Okay, jealous You is adorable.

Well, that was supposed to go one way and then it went another way. Then I didn’t want it to drag so I ended it. I meant it when I said this was the first fic I’d written in oh, about 5 years now, so please bear with me. I’ll be getting an AoOO account, I wanted to post this and it hadn’t been created yet. Let me know if you’d be interested in reading some more of my writing, I’m open to requests, but of course I know the Nenchuu-gumi the best. Might be nice to have some prompts to get back into writing, I used to be quite the little fanfic author, maybe I’ll share some old links if I ever get bold enough. ^^

AraAoi is still life, btw.

#tsukiuta #haduki you #satsuki aoi #my fic

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sieben9 · 6 years

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Hello friends, acquaintances, friendly strangers, and people who accidentally stumbled on this post and have no idea what I'm on about: Everything Is Terrible!

No, I stand by that.

My favourite character?

Terrible.

My OTP?

Terrible.

My other favourite relationship on the show?

Also terrible.

And the worst thing is: this is such a good episode. I loved every second of it, even as it ripped my still-beating heart out of my chest and used it as some kind of stress-relief ball.

Read on under the cut, but I'm afraid it doesn't get much more coherent than this.

So, when I pinpointed the themes for the season, I did not expect them to come back this spectacularly.

It's nice to be surprised, sometimes. Other times it's heartbreaking. Still nice, though, so there's that. (And I was plain wrong when I thought Emma's "I can't be a mother" thing was resolved by setting out into Neverland. Good job, show. I fell for that one)

I'll admit, I barely remember the first half of the episode. There was a wand, I think? Pan definitely used poor Felix's heart to cast the curse. Rest in peace, Long Boy, you were a complete ass, but you still deserved better.

What I remember most is the Blue Fairy rising from the dead like the monster from some horror movie.

She definitely has the smile for it.

Also, if you think that this post will be 90% pictures... you may well be right. I don't know. I'm still writing it. Anyway. Wand. Black fairy. Swap Henry back into his own body. That happens at roughly the halfway point, which is when everything starts going to hell, of course. Please bear with me if I mix up the order of these.

First, the anti-magic cuff Rumple had put on Pan's body fails. And not only that, Pan gets it on Rumple, too.

I will say that I am very glad nobody lost any limbs, though. Guess he could have just reattached it Whale-style afterwards, but still. Happy. ::shudder:: The whole confrontation between Rumple and Pan (both in the shop and in the street) was a thing of beauty. Pan throwing all of Rumple's worst inner demons at him, and Rumple... well, he didn't really rise above it, did he? He just went "I may be going down but so help me, I am taking you along for the ride!"

I guess I should be grateful. Someone did stab the bastard, after all.

::distant sobbing::

I feel like Rumple took the "villains don't get happy endings" sentence, and used it as a weapon. Because he may be a villain, but so is Pan. Neither of them gets to live happily ever after. The difference between them is: Rumple has people he cares for more than he cares for his own life, now. He can die happy knowing that his death will give Belle and Neal a chance. He's made his peace with Neal. He's fulfilled the purpose that drove him for the last couple of centuries. And now he's ready to die to give his loved once a chance at that "Happy End" he can never have. Nobody touch me, please.

And his goodbye to Neal and Belle... guh. "You made me stronger", indeed. (Though did you think for even a second what the poor woman is supposed to do without you, now? No, you didn't, because you picked now of all times to be a goddamn hero, you wonderful idiot!) And the way he kissed Malcolm... god, he is so messed up. We know for a fact now that his father never loved him, but that doesn’t mean Rumple never loved his father. I don’t think he regrets what he did by killing them both, but I do think he regrets all the “might have been” between them. And in a strange way, I think that kiss was him forgiving Malcolm. (I find it telling, too, that Pan turned back into Malcolm for that bit; not sure what it’s telling me, but I did notice)

In related news: someone needs to smack the director of this episode with a rolled-up newspaper, because what the hell was this?

What the hell is wrong with you people?

I mean, yes, I know Belle isn't friends with most of them, but still -- nobody felt the need to comfort the woman brokenly sobbing on the ground? Noone? Not even Neal? Not even Granny? Hell, even the camera keeps going back to her like "uh, guys? guys? anyone? she's still going to pieces, how about you... no? nobody?" I mean... wow, that's cold.

And then, as I was already on the ground, broken and dying, the rest of the episode happened. Because killing me once wasn't enough, apparently.

Look, it's more of the goddamn themes coming back to laugh at me for being right!

So. We just saw Rumple break a lifelong habit of self-preservation, we now get to see Regina give up the one thing she wanted to hold on to more than anything: Henry. After everything that happened this season. After going to Neverland, after moving heaven and earth to keep him safe, after raising him for his entire life, she gives him up to the woman she once wanted to keep away from him so badly, because as long as he's with Emma, he won't be alone. This isn't jus ther putting Henry first. She could have let everybody die and left with him. He never would have remembered and they could have been happy. But that's not the person she wants to be. To me, this is very much in the vein of "let me die as Regina" of last season, and I think giving up her life was still easier for her than giving up her son.

This was also a wonderful "full circle" moment in the story of Emma and Regina. From "stay away from my son or I will destroy you" to "my gift to you is good memories", these two have certainly bonded, and it was 100% over this boy that brought love and direction into both their lives.

...yes, I absolutely am emotional, why do you ask?

So. Now Emma and Henry remember a life where she never gave him up, and they've always been together. Damn, Regina. Just... damn. (And I feel vindicated, because I said so! I said that if Emma had looked at her child, she would have loved him and she would never have been able to let him go. I was right, and that almost makes it worth the burrowing pain in my chest.)

And finally, the other statement of theme in episode 1. I thought it was the same as “villains don’t get a happy ending,” but you know, I think I was wrong. Specifically, I’m talking about Snow’s "The minute I stop believing that things can turn out alright is the minute I know they never will." This is basically the piece of driftwood the episode handed me to cling to. The flashback to Henry getting the book from Mary Margaret, as well as that scene in the Charming’s castle where David has to comfort his wife. That wasn’t a variant, that was a promise in itself. “As long as you believe things may get better, they still can.” Which is something I needed to hear in this episode, I think.

In related news, there was the epilogue. Really, even if I was on board with the whole Captain Swan thing (which, not so much, sorry, fans), I am going to bloody tattoo it on everyone's forehead that True Love's Kiss doesn't work if the other persone doesn't remember you! We've had this conversation at least three times, by now. Why does nobody get that?

Anyway. I'm looking forward to the next episode. Wednesday, though. I need time to recover from this... this.

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spring-emerald · 6 years

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"Can you pretend like you lived one life for my love?"

Hello anon! Thanks for sending one in. I hope youdon’t mind me writing it for KuroDai, since you weren’t able to include a ship.I hope that’s alright.

And wow, I must have a penchant for landing onangsty songs for this writing meme, smh.

Anyway, since I can’t escape the angst any longer, then angst I shall deliver. I apologize if this short though. I can’t bear to hurt my OTP any longer.

Also, this is kind of rated M, so... just to be on the safe side.

…uhm, enjoy?

Daichi tastes thebittersweet alcohol on Kuroo’s tongue, mixing in with the saltiness of histears. They’re as close as lovers can be, slick skin sliding against eachother, engaged in a sweaty but pleasurable entanglement. At least pleasurablefor Kuroo, he hopes.

This is nothing but painful for him.

It’s one that has overpowered the physical one he feltonly moments ago, when Kuroo entered him. This one? It’s the one that continues to breakhim apart.

With every thrust,Kuroo reaches the deepest parts of him. Daichi feels it keenly, even on hisheart. It reaches up all the way there, because with every thrust, his heartbreaks.

With every kiss,Kuroo marks him. But it’s mocking, because he knows it’s not meant for him. Withevery touch, there are flames licking the part where large, rough handstraversed, clutched, gripped. It sends pinpricks of pleasure, but its impact ispain. He wonders if he is Kuroo is really feeling, and not an illusion of theperson who he really wants to be.

Daichi’s laid bareunderneath Kuroo but instead of feeling vulnerable in the most passionate ofways, he just feels stripped off his dignity.

This is not the wayhe wants everything to go. This is not the way he imagined to be joined with Kuroo.He feels the little ounce of self-respect he has left, fray at the edges of hisbeing.

But he lets himself pretend. Pretend that he’s happy he’s getting this.

Pretend that it doesn’t hurt.

Pretend that it’s him Kuroo is thinking about at this moment.

If there is no otherway for Kuroo to embrace him, to make him feel like he loves him… If the onlyway, is for Kuroo to drunkenly thrust and kiss and mark him, all the whileimagining someone else, someone better, someone he truly loves, then, asdesperate as that is, Daichi will take it, with bleeding and broken heart.

An unbidden sobescapes his lips, and Kuroo stops his movement and looks at him. His messy hair isfalling over his face, his cheeks flushed from exertion, his muscle tensed. It’s unfair that he looks beautiful, even when he’s causing Daichi so much pain.

He wipes the sweatgathering on Daichi’s forehead.

“Am I hurting you?”He asks, his eyes clearer than it should be.

Daichi wants tolaugh. A bitter one at that. But he doesn’t. Instead he shakes his head, andwraps his arms around Kuroo’s neck, and pulls him down.

“No,” he whispersbrokenly.

Kuroo is not hurtinghim.

He is killing him.

#haikyuu!!#kurodai #hq fanfic #kuroo tetsurou #sawamura daichi

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kaaras-adaar-a · 7 years

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// I was going to leave this for next Monday when it’s the official date, but chances are I’ll be working or away and I’m not certain yet, and with so many other people posting theirs, I figured I’d jump on the bandwagon!

I can’t believe I’ve had this blog for two years already on the 20th of February. Kaaras’ blog started off as a place for me to keep everything Dragon Age related (and Kaaras related) as an archive of sorts. Where I could share his game play with a friend of mine, and where I could store my art of him and screencaps.

It wasn’t too soon after when people approached me if I RP’d at all or asked IC questions, etc. After some pretty bad experiences in my previous fandom, I was a little nervous to start Rping on tumblr again. I’ve been SO overwhelmed with the positive response that Kaaras has been given. Honestly, I have met so many amazing people in this community.

Dragon Age and Kaaras helped me a lot through some darker stages in my life, through some pretty severe depressive states and mental struggles. He’s been a huge support beam for me, and honestly he’s made so so happy over these last couple of years. Kaaras very much became a person to me, and he’s now so much more than I ever could have imagined, no thanks to all of you and your support and interactions over the years. <3

So first of all, thank you to EVERYONE who has ever interacted with Kaaras, whether you’ve stayed or left, you’ve still interacted and shaped Kaaras in one way or another. Thank you for approaching us, wanting to RP with Kaaras, sticking through all of the ooc posts, his (and my) moods and dark days, and just loving him as much as I love and care for him. <3 Thank you anyone who has sent us memes, anons, follows, art, ANYTHING. Thank you for merely interacting with us as a whole.

Of course, what would a milestone be without some shout outs. So in, no particular order, here goes:

The Inner Circle:

For the people I have long term Rped with and have made spectacular friends with. <3 These are people who have either put up with so much of my shit that they belong here because they deserve to or because they’ve simply made RPing here such a joy and left a huge impact on myself and Kaaras. Let’s be honest, we also talk nearly every day XD

@elfroot-and-lightning - Honestly, where would Kaaras be without Ezra? Where would I be without you as my special friend and who I absolutely adore and love. <3 You are one of the very first people I got to RP with here on this blog, and I remember when Ezra was on your main blog, and I was so excited to RP with another qunari. Ezra was one of the very first muses to get so close to Kaaras to open up and talk about things that he’d never spoken about with anyone else. Ezra was a calm to him that he needed, and to be honest, because of them, we became so much closer to one another. Where we were too shy to talk to one another, our muses were able to fill in the gaps, and I can never regret that. You managed to settle yourself deep within my heart and when I say that I love you, I absolutely mean that. As whatever you will have me as *snug* You’re a kind, loving and gentle person, and talking to you always makes my day just that little bit brighter. Tbh, I still feel a little giddy when I think about my feelings for you XD

Kaazra is life has become an official tag, and to this day, Kaazra is still my OTP for these two in an RP setting. I will never not love these special two. You’re a fantastic writer, and even though you don’t RP as much as you used to, you’re still one of my favourite Rpers here and forever will be. *smooch*

@sahlintalas - I don’t think you understand (yes you do who am I kidding) how much I love that someone can GET me in a cultural perspective and thus in a very personal and lifestyle perspective as well. Honestly, it’s SO refreshing getting to talk to someone who understand my lingo, the fact that dunking your biscuits in tea is a highly important role in society and all of our other ridiculously non American traits. XD

I’m still slightly creeped out, even if amused that we have so much in common and that we are literally clones. That we look alike, that we share the same names and everything else. It’s amazing and yet so fucking weird that I love it to pieces.

You have become one of my closest friends here in the DARP community and out of that as well. It’s not just the RP that I love with you, it’s getting to talk to you almost every day as well that it’s become quite a norm for me and that I miss it when we don’t talk. Sahlin has become such a significant part of Kaaras, and honestly as someone who understand how real a muse can be, I definitely need that in my life.

You just GET me. And that’s so damn important. Even when we don’t agree, you still say that it’s nothing wrong with me, and even that the world needs people like me, who give so many chances, etc. And that’s important to me, to know that just because we don’t deal with things the same, that I still have your respect as a friend and as a person.

For one, I love ALL of your muses, yes, even Martine although Kaaras still is iffy as fuck on her and they haven’t even interacted XD. Your muses are so unique to themselves, and not a single one of them is the same, they are very much their own persons.

With Herah and Sahlin, I’ve actually learned a lot about Kaaras (especially his more dominant side with Sahlin). Seriously, I always thought that Kaaras was a major subby until he and Sahlin got together, and I realised just how wrong I was. XD

Our muses have grown with each other, and that’s something I love to see. Thank you for putting up with Kaaras’ moods and my bad days as well. You’ve been a great friend to me over the year that we’ve known each other. <3

@aylenlavellan - Although we’ve been friends, or at least known each other, for quite a few years, this fandom absolutely brought us closer than we’ve ever been. I was always a distant admirer of your art over on deviantART and then following you over on tumblr we talked a little more. I am SO happy that you made Aylen’s blog official, and I am so thankful that you gave into my pining for you to make her blog xDD (sorry I am the worst lol), but I have no regrets!

You’re a sweet, kind, gentle soul and one of the nicest people I’ve ever met. I ADORE Kaylen to pieces and they are honestly one of the fluffiest and happiest ships I have going on here. We don’t love you just for the ships, though, we love you and your muse because you’re wonderful people, and you’re a fantastic writer and artist. Whenever I see that you’ve replied to a thread of mine, I always get a little bit giddy.

Also, never forget rubba dub dub in the tub--I had to mention that :D Because it’s fucking legit and it’s still the best thread title TO THIS DAY!

Seriously, though, you’re a major sweetheart, and I don’t think you realise how important Aylen is to Kaaras’ happiness. His childhood was taken away from him when he was just 12, and with Aylen, he feels like he gets to relive something he never got to have as a growing man. A childhood and youthfulness is important to remember, and Aylen gives that to him, with the balance of a sturdy and professional adult life as well. They’re perfect together, and even in their tough times, there is still something so HAPPY about this ship. In turn, their happiness is absolutely infectious and I find myself happy for them. I love them, they’re adorable!

@tal-fucking-vashoth - Omg, you haven’t even had this blog for two months and I ADORE you to pieces. When I first approached you, I was very shy and nervous and I thought you’d absolutely hate Kaaras (yes I’m just as anxious as everyone else is on tumblr apparently XD). But we hit it off really quickly, and even though it’s been so little time, I already know that you’ve got my back in tough times, and that’s important for someone who’s barely known each other for a few months. XDDD

You’re fun, you’re chill, and I do feel like you’re a very understanding person. And then there is your Bull. WOW, as if your follower count can’t prove it to you already, but you write an amazing, deep Bull who is full of confusion and struggles and LOVE. He’s a giant teddy bear, and tbh, let me tell you as someone who’s spent 2 years in the DARP community and pining for some Bull action, yours is absolutely one of my favourite takes--and yes, even with the absolutely terribull puns. XD

I really do look forward to getting to plot with you and becoming your friend. <3 We met on a very... awkward basis considering everything that happened with me and my dash all of a sudden becoming such a negative space, but your Bull definitely was a light in the darkness there, and thank you for putting up with my rot. You’re amazing already!

@tavis-of-bannorn - I feel like our muses really struggled at the start, and now look at them. They are being really fluffy and adorable, and honestly, the time that it took for them to open up was definitely one of the longest for Kaaras, but it was well worth the wait, and it absolutely makes these two realistic.

Tavis is an amazing, in depth character with a heart of poetry and symbolism. What I love most about Tavis is that there is no muse like Tavis, Tavis is so unique in his own way, even his own aesthetics, that he really stands out from the crowd. I know I’ve told you a million times that I think he’s the hottest elf in Thedas, but we don’t RP with Tavis because of what he looks like.

We RP with Tavis because of his depth of character, because of how well he’s been thought out and how much of a person he is, and an individual to himself. We Rp because Rping with Tavis is honestly something that I can’t even predict with him, and it’s sort of like a lucky dip every time Kaaras is with him, he’s left wanting that little bit more, and I’m left wanting to know what will HAPPEN, because Tavis is the kind of character you WANT to ask questions about. He draws you in in such a way where he’s never boring, and he’s always got something to say.

You’ve been such a delight to talk to and befriend along the way, you’re so chill and understanding, and I love that, and you’ve been there for me when Kaaras was struggling and going through some serious shit. Also, your taste in music is fucking awesome, because let’s face it, it’s the same as mine P:

@thosewhospeak - Omg, can I just say how much I LOVE KAARAS AND TAMA!!!? I mean, for one, Kaaras has NEVER had a rival before that’s actually been enjoyable for the mod to RP. And that’s how it SHOULD be. No guilt tripping, no manipulation for them to like one another, just pure letting our muses be themselves and enjoying their shitfest on the sidelines. XD

I absolutely love their dynamic and the internal struggles that the both of them have because of one another. This is what a rival SHOULD be, and you play Tama so strictly and in line that it’s amazing to watch her be so blind and stubborn and yet also struggle a little within herself.

Rping with you in general is such a delight and so enjoyable, and it’s so fun getting to explore this side of Kaaras. Thank you SO much for making Tama and having her simply be herself. I know some people may have caved under the pressure and feared people might not like their muse because of what she is and her beliefs, but you’ve done a fantastic job with keeping her in character and true to herself, and that includes making her grow and learn as well.

Seriously, I adore her, she’s got to be my favourite Qunari (Qun) character out there. I fucking love her to pieces. <3 You’ve also always been there to ask if I was okay when I was having a bad moment, and I want to thank you for that. Chatting with you is always enjoyable, and I love bouncing ideas off one another with our terrible muses. XDDD

Inquisition:

I want to throw some special shout outs to the following people. We either admire you from afar or RP with you and are just getting to know both you and your muse enough that they’ve left a special little mark in mine and Kaaras’ heart, and we hope to continue Rping with you and want to say a special thank you for Rping with us! <3 And hopefully more in the future!

Some of you are long term RP partners and friends of mine, and I want you to know that you are special and that we adore you to absolute pieces! <3 I honestly want to write little notes about ALL of you, but this is already getting so damn long that I’m afraid I’ll be a broken record >.< Just know that if your name is below, that you’re awesome, and if you’re not following any of these guys, then GO AND DO IT! :D

Support:

To EVERYONE! To anyone who has followed Kaaras, interacted with him, IMed me, asked him anons, sent us memes, liked our video posts, my art, ANYTHING. I want to say a HUGE thank you to every single one of you amazing souls out there!

We wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for all of you. Even the shy people who watch from afar and are too scared to approach. We still love you! Also don’t be shy, we’re dorks :D I promise.

Seriously, though, this blog helped me through some seriously bad times, and the community as a whole has been overwhelmingly amazing! Thank you anyone and everyone who has interacted with Kaaras over the last two years, even if you didn’t stay around--thank you either way!

Each and every one of you had left a mark in our hearts. Thank you for being so supportive of us, and I hope for many more years and getting to know a lot more of you and RP with you guys!

Thank you so much for everything. <3 The Inquisition would be nothing without it’s people. :)

#ooc #off the ram #2 years #appreciation post #2 year anniversary #(( I'm panicking a little because I feel like I'm forgetting people??? DX sorry if I have ))

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