#and im so fuckin excited to go to more

[night-dragon937]

gods listening to music of artists that i've gone and seen in concert/at raves and just like. reliving the euphoria of the moment when i was there at the live performance like. obviously sitting at my desk with my headphones is not the same as being at a rave or concert but i can kind of capture some of the memory and those good feels are just smth else

#blog post #tw ahead im gonna go on about some dark shit #kind of? idk #like so when i was younger and struggling #by which i mean when i was suicidal from ages 9-18 #one thing i tried when i was 15-18 was making a bucket list and essentially it was stuff i wanted to do before i died because saying #'im at least gonna live to do these things' was SO much easier than saying 'im gonna live the rest of my life' back then #and on that list was going to several concerts (all of which i've done now!!) and like tbh i had my doubts like is a concert good enough #to keep living for (yes) and like what happens after i see these bands in concert (i wait for them to tour again and see them again duh) #(and also see other bands) #and i wish i could go back in time to past us and be like. u were so right. seeing these groups/artists in concert (and the ones i like now #and hadn't heard of back then) is SOO worth it #im so glad i have been alive to go to all the concerts and the rave that i went to in the past year and a half it was so so good #and im so fuckin excited to go to more #there's at least two concerts im planning on going to this spring plus a rave im considering going to (its a three hour drive one way so #idk yet) plus our top favorite band for years is hinting at releasing new music which means a tour!! #im just gettin the feels because im remembering good memories and so fuckin excited to make more good memories #im so glad im alive and honestly that brings tears to my eyes that i can say that totally honestly now #like. i have a cat! i am reconnecting with family i didnt use to be close with! im working on cutting off toxic family! im working on #health issues which is very good. im out as queer and im so happy and proud of that. i have several hyperfixations i love consuming and #cosplaying. cosplaying!! i have so much fun making tiktoks and going to cons and putting everything together its so great!! im starting to #work on my big huge writing project with my coauthors for the first time in years and im soooo excited to revive that old hyperfixation and #share it!! i have an awesome partner who i care very much about and while i recently cut off some toxic friends i have plenty actual #friends that im so glad to have!! #im currently at a job that pays well and that i enjoy which is a win for me and i might possibly be in a position to go back to college #soon which means going into my preferred field which im SO stoked for!! and im actually really excited to go back to college. when we were #in person i had such a great experience and i cant wait to go back #ough

[luck-of-the-drawings]

OOH YEAH BABY! PARTY TIME BABY! MUSIC! DRINKS! SOCIAL PRESSURE & A PSYCHEDELIC BREAK DOWN! WELCOME TO VAMPIRE SOCIETY MOTHERFUCKER! ARE YOU SCARED? DO YOU UNDERSTAND YET? ITS OKAY IF NOT. FIRE DISSOLVED IT! ITS ALL GONE NOW. HAVE FUN!

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #RRAAHH IM IN LOVE WITH THIS SHOW SOOO GOODDAMN MUCH!! each o these characters has STOLEN my HEART!!! #LIKE EMIZEEELLL i love emizel so much.. runnin around announcing that HE isa PRINCE while shiloh FINALLY quietly clicks the pieces together #nathan hanover you MADMAN!!! that slow dramatic guitar riff as emizel makes that announcement was so fuckin COOL UGHHHH #MR HANOVER DOES IT AGAIN just creating tracks that absoultely WORM into my MIND and HHEAARRT UUGHHGHH #emizel is so cool and so funny and so adorable UUGHH ill gush abt him more when i finally post my emizel n soda doodle page #ARTHUR FUCKING BENNET. i totally get why grizz has a hard time playing him. hes cool and stoic n its not easy to play a man o little words #BUT BBOOOY DOES HE DO IT WELL!! arthur DOES come off as so stoic n cool & it just makes his lil misfortunes all the more charming #like falling into the red fear or confrontin edward twilight or accidentally doing lsd. I LOVE THATS HES THE BAD LUCK GUY. #okay uhhu uhh i have limited room here what else should i say uhh. THE NPCS. MY GOD THE NPCS. CHARLIE U WONDERFUL MADMAN #edward twilight is SUCH a funny fucking antagonist. and supposedly his magic stuff is super scary?? SO EXCITED TO SEE MORE OF THAT #ill ramble abt mr deacon keller later eheh i have a. uh. a doodle page in the works. so in the meantime DAYBRINGER SOLOMON!! #“HERE COMES THE SUN MOTHERFUCKER!” “ILL SEE YOU IN HELL. NOT. IM GOING TO HEAVEN. BITCH.” like come on now. oh my god. i need him #BIG POWERFUL BEAST AND EVERY WORD HE SAYS HAS ME CRACKING UP. THE MUFFLED VOICE IN THE DARK BROKEN BY “LIGHT!” #TRULY HILARIOUS AND YET TRULY HORRIFYING. I FUCKIN LOVE CHARLIE NPCS SO MUCH. I HOPE WE SEE HIM AGAIN OHH MY GOOOODDD #OKAYokay. im normal now. ill talk abt the piece. if u read my tags this far then u get special secret knowledge abt the artistic process #IM VERY HAPPY WITH MY COLORS! i know they were hallucinating on drugs so i just recalled the times i did drugs & used that as my influence #REMEMBER KIDS! acid is totally fine if ur safe and responsible about it. do acid and then stare at my art for a bit trrruuust me. IT MOVES! #anyway i think thats all my thoughts here. thank you for looking at my art n thanku if ur one o the ppl that says nice things in the tags #U are LITERLY my life blood i pick up each of u n kiss u so sweetly on the head. remember to try acid!!!!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

yknow something i really love about WH so far is that i really, truly, have no idea what the fuck is going on. like i can theorize and speculate on the Scrumptious little crumbs we have so far, but looking at it as a whole and the info/hints sprinkled everywhere. man i cannot guess where this is going to go lmao

#im so so so so excited #i have a feeling its all eventually gonna slot together like a tasty little trauma puzzle #but for now. wow. no clue! #every time i think i have a vague thought i remember a tidbit that blasts it into oblivion #which makes absolute sense since its barely started #but still it amuses me. trying to cobble together a coherent idea is like trying to think during a migraine aura #but fun and nonpainful! #it makes even me more interested in wh honestly #like a carrot dangled in front of a horse #is that the saying??? fuck if i know! #welcome home #also the fact that a big content warning for future wh stuff is gore... #the part of me that just wants the puppets to be safe and happy is terrified #the part of me that fuckin LOVES gore and traumatizing characters is going buck wild

[chernozemic]

boo. jumpscare.

#anyway i've decided on what im gonna do with mayuri and i'll be slowly working on that on the next few days #im gonna be revamping a few of my blogs so it'll definitely be super slow going BUUUT... but! i hope it'll be worth it :] #but im gonna try and “rework” mayuri and make him a bit more flexible #for sake of crossovers and generalized interaction #keep the bleach lore and apply it appropriately #but also apply my own lore and work off of that as well #if that makes sense? idk if it does #teehee. #anyway <3 hope u all been well! i am excited to try this clown once again....... and hopefully this time i'll fuckin commit #𝟎𝟏𝟐 · OUT OF CHARACTER #tbd /

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

sea creatures :]

#im home im in my element my wife is delivering me the greatest of gifts #*becoming eden voice* the ocean loves me #<< tumblr user madnessmadness i need u 2 know how much i have thought about the 'the sun loves me' line today. #was SO excited 2 see the rays. i have not seen one of those in the wild in sooooo long #all animals pictured were promptly returned to the ocean after these pics were taken i promise <3 #i spent so long in the waves today that i am now sitting on the floor and i can still feel the rocking. #its ingrained into me permanently now #one of these days i am going 2 walk into the ocean and none of u will ever hear from me again im so srs #if i just disappear one day. assume i am in the sea #oaaughghhj im in love im in love im in love my mental illnesses are cured i am home i love the ocean the ocean loves me #<< the ocean is indifferent to my presence and is much more powerful than anything else on the planet and yet . i still love her #my inaturalist page has been popping off. btw. <3 #i need 2 be diagnosed with female hysteria and sent to live by the sea permanently tbh. i belong here. aauagahagahaghahh #i need 2 write or read fuckin. bullshit ass purple prose poetry rn #blahblahblah

[quirkle2]

this post will be completely pointless but guys i fucki gng . i fuckin loveart ok

#qktalks #I LOVE IT!!!! #it'sso fun and it's so therapeutic to have a creative release #i fuckin adore Making Things #i love doin lineart sm #i love coloring and picking out which colors go well together (i used to hate that!!!! i love it now!!!!!!!) #i love mappin out poses in my silly little brain #i LOVE makin new designs of pretty much anything . character outfits or creature designs i adore it all #this is literally just me wiggling like an excited dog about a mundane thing i've been doing for nearly 20 years GVAIYGEV #feel free to ignore imjust unstable #i just !!!!!!im very giddy over this all of a sudden #before i got into lu i had taken a break from art for like a year #bc i had kinda just given up ? nothing i made was ever ''good'' and it was upsetting and demoralizing . so i stopped #but then i started drawin again an entire year later and fuckin !!! look where i am now!!!! #people look at my art!!!!!! im proud of a lot of stuff i create!!!!! #granted im still hard on myself and i often end up hating older art but !!!!im so much better about it nowadays #and i just Enjoy the Process a lot more. maybe it's because i've simply gotten better at drawing but #i think it's so fun . this post is a wreck im so sorry GVIUYEAGIUV #okay bye imgonna go play more nfs heat . ty for watching me make a fool of myself

[everymeloneveryday]

I fucked up and let q run out ill refill it soon I prommy

#literally only happened bc i forgot + got distracted #did you know ff14 is fun? dont play it tho its so fuckin racist it makes my skin crawl sometimes #it takes WAY too long to get to shb which is like genuinely fun AND doesnt make me feel like im being called slurs #and i actually liked arr except for the bits where theyre furry racist for possibly the worst reasons ever #like if youre going to have a self perpetuating cycle at least acknowledge it more than one or two times #hums. anyway #its my birthday on the 4th. thats exciting #melon speaks

[fceriestcrdst]

my autistic ass avoided watching the x-files because i knew it would consume me....

& now here i am fully consumed even though I've only watched the first few handful of episodes of s1 (i'm regaining spoons needed for media consumption), but let me tell you w h a t!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was so excited i started crying because it combines unbridled pining, a skeptic & her believer husband partner, true crime, weird mythology, aliens (which i already knew abt obvi), unlikely besties who are prepared to square up at all times (re; scully being cold towards the agents mocking mulder & mulder being ready to fight g o d whenever anything happens to scully).

i just love the show a lot & i expected this but goddamn!!!!!! it's wormed into my spin category & now my alien spin is returning along with my 'unexplained happenings spin!!!!! i'm being consumed i tell you!!!!

#i'm excited to watch the movies as well!!! #i'm a little nervous for s10 & s11 due to the time jump etc etc #so i may not watch those--but i intend on watching 1-9 & the films #tho i'll probably watch s1 - 5 & the watch the first movie. watch s6-9 & watch the last movie #i knew i would be consumed by the autistic coded FBI agents & their ufo sightings but DAMN YALL-----i started going bonkers #on dya fuckin' one & now they're all i can think about #maybe this is to fix the void i have due to w*tcher being a mess (I'm season 3 is good--i ma just petrified dfghkjldfh) #if this end sup in tags no it doesn't <3 but also if it does---don't follow me due to this post #i post a mishmash of stuff! #kylo rambles #kylo's audhd/disability posting #<- putting this there bc it just feels right to do so <3 #the reminders im getting of like--the fucked up alien shit i know & ALSO 2 OF MY FAVORITE ALIEN CENTRIC MOVIES- #(those being close encounters of the third kind & starman) #i've gotta rewatch those now & c r y because those movies remind me of watching them in my grandmother's livingroom while my mom played- #-games on her pc. they also remind me of the summer nights i'd watch them back to back for days on end #god--for a 25 year old i talk like someone who gre wup in the 80s when i--alas did not---i grew up in the 200s but my parents #showed me a lot of 80s & 90s media so i feel more at home with those films & early 2000s films then i do most things from the 2010s #i'm talking a lot in tags--if you read all this--i'm so sorry. i don't know the art of shutting the fuck up #anyways; once again--if i end up in tags no i don't & don't follow me solely due to this post because i post a lot of stuff that's unrelate #to this (also please be above 18 if you're gonna follow me <3)

[todayisafridaynight]

LIKEWISE I hope you enjoy the upcoming releases too and that the price tag on Gaiden's worth it! I know personally I'll enjoy them regardless lol, the worldwide releases have been Particularly Rough on localization but these have still been some of my favorite games. Sorry in advance for I will be the one saying unnecessary things (as I often am) though </3

Speaking of, I'm glad you're enjoying Kyouen!! Once Again I wish I didn't have Goldfish Memory so I could actually discuss but :) always look forward to your reviews :)

i wouldnt ever say anythin you say is unnecessary when you always have a lot of insight and purpose to what you say ♪(´▽｀)

AND YAYA im really enjoyin kyouen ! you were absolutely right in everyone being petty as hell LMAO im living for it tho (￣y▽￣)

#snap chats #speaking of reviews tho.... i almost forgot bout my small additional notes on super salaryman vjaLKVJAEL #i already said most of what i wanted to say durin the stream but i forgot the major thing that made me upset OOPS #it was so sad that haneko for like. A Second seemed to be the nicest to saenai #like OBVI she was still mean to him too but 1.) she seemed the /least/ mean and was nice to him about the dinner during the bomb ep #2.) she actually stepped in to /try/ to defend him for the whole game fiasco like. :(((((( #i really wish there was A Turning Point for the family and saenai or that theyd start to appreciate him more #like there were SO many small moments where it seemed like Oh Theyre Going To Start Appreciating Him Right and then just. 🧍‍♂️ #ITS A COMEDY SHOW IK I SHOULD TAKE THIS LIGHTLY but i really cant... we know how i get about family dynamics.... #like haneko wasnt perfect that idol ep was WILD but still.... i really like her for those moments ngl LMAO #she was still bratty but hey. ty for the like Three Times you were nice to your dad i really appreciate it #BIG RIP THAT MY LAST NOTE ON THE SHOW WAS LIKE. BITCHING FORGIVE ME #i bitch because i love it. well not THAT but i loved the show i wanted better for my guy.. #esp when that seemed to be The Thesis right with the whole 'you cant even help your family' and whatnot in the first ep #the LOUDEST sigh of my life But I Still Loved The Show Otherwise #the office scenes were so goofy i love section 3's dynamic..... gotta keep em together amrite <- no one is ever getting promoted #my big phat salaryman review......... BUT YEAH im excited to continue kyouen !!!! if i. ever finish this fuckin coMIC #ITS A ME PROBLEMMMMM but i just have to line now. i think. im lying no i wanted to fix a panel.... #im horrible ☠️☠️ OK BYE BYE FOR NOW #or..... as ozono said in her breakup interview... goodbye means we'll meet again.. somethin like that /she was quoting sailor suit right/ #/thats why they called the tape Sailor Suit And Machine Gun/ girl im off topic Point Is I'll Be Back. Bye.

[why-the-heck-not]

12-year-old me                   22-year-old me

                              🤝

                        harry styles

#the only constant lmao #realized today that Dont Worry Darling is on hbo max and I've been meaning to go see it for forever now #and im so fuckin excited to watch it bc harry (like been looking forward to it like over a year) #(also bc florence and also Imy fave genre is psychological thriller) #so hence this post/realization (also side note: how has it been so long?? 10 years????im old) #(actually more than 10 years bc 1d started in 2010 aka me being 10 but 12-year-old sounded better than 10 lol) #and also today my gym played one direction (well one song but that's a raririty these days) so it's been a great day for the #past 12 year old me and now current 22 year old me with 1d & harry styles ''obsession'' #november 2022 #2022

[arcadeghozt]

trying soo hard to shut up abt the way barry’s character was handled in the post-coma seasons but the more i think abt it the more pissed off i get what in gods name were they thinkingggg

#i wanna move on bc i know im getting annoying but :/ this sucks so bad. they massacred my boy LITERALLY </3 #👻.evp #like its not even just the lack of him getting anything in s13 #but also them never further exploring his redemption arc in any actual depth #or taking time to explore his new dynamics w the team or even just any of the wider implications this character shift of his brings #hell even his friendship w archer is ridiculously underdeveloped for how much history they have. wheres the nuance. wheres the flavor. #itz soo frustrating this is such an interesting new direction to take him so why dont they do ANYTHTJNG WITH HIM #AND 12x8 DONT GET ME STARTED. barry’s repressed resentment towards archer was finally given some more focus #yet it wasnt rly. touched on. in any depth or detail. #like they just parroted the same shit we’ve known for years #instead of actually delving into what this means for them now that they’ve grown as friends #there were instances here and there where it felt like they were going to get into it but they never committed #i keep saying it but my god he was sooooo lazily integrated into this episode it drives me crazy. what was the point. #like it genuinely feels like they only included him here to heighten the stakes rather than out of an actual desire to continue his arc #which like. ok fine if that was the initial plan but also u can do both its not that hard i prommy #makes me so mad i was SOO EXCITED for this episode when it was set to air #and it ended up being one of the biggest disappointments in this shows run to me. mission: difficult my detested i HATE UUUUUUUUU 👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹 #like if thats truly the last we’ll ever see or hear from him again thats rly fuckin disappointing :[ what a lame way to send him off #on top of that there’s zero followup to any of this shit in s13 #like i dont expect him to be a primary character or whatever but like. why didnt they even attempt to provide any closure #let the man haunt the narrative a lil or SOMETHING #archer watched him die in his arms and now he has to work under the man who’s indirectly responsible for it #and u have NOTHING to say on that??? HUH???? #like. aauuuuuuugh idk man this shows so annoyinggggg #there was sooo much potential here but the execution of it all was just so boringgg IT COULDA BEEN GOOD IF THEY CARED MORE THAN NOT AT ALL #whatever i guess who fucking cares. anyway cookie batter

[sc3n3kitt3h]

looking thru my blog is WEIRD gamers. cuz like!! i used 2 post art like literally every day!!!!! and now i can only get something digital out once every couple of months, which is weird 2 think about cuz i HAVE been drawing almost every day still!! its just on paper :P i only ever rlly have the motivation 2 do physical art just cuz i do it at school and i don't have any energy 2 do artsy shit after school. I think i've been improving a lot lately which is super fun though!!!!!! I forgot where i was going with this lol. but stay tuned gamers!!!!!!!!! big doodle dump coming 2 a blog near u very soon!!!! and also more digital stuff as soon as i figure out how to draw non-anthropomorphic animals (just u WAIT once i figure this shit out im gonna draw sooooo many sparkledogs. i have sooooooooooooooo many ideas i just gotta figure out how dogs work)

#stretch speakz #in other news: recently ive been getting SOOOOOO antsy waiting 4 a p-2 release date. im gonna go fuckin insane!!!!!!! #in getting diagnosed and being able to interact with lots and lots of other autistics #i can safely say that special interests are NOT this intense for other people!!!!!!!!!! which is weird just cuz it makes so much sense 4 me #so i figured that was liek... THE main factor of having one!!! but no!!!! #other people can think about shit other than their special interests for more than 30 minutes!!!!!!! what!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #this isnt a bad thing of course!!! maybe im making it sound bad #i like it though :]!!!!!!! i like being my specific flavor of autistic i like getting so so so so so excited about the things i like!!!!! #speaking of getting so so so so so excited. EMPATHY #im a very emotional person as u all know probably!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #but when it comes to bad things that happen. 2 me or 2 other people #2 me it isnt hard 2 talk about bad or traumatic things!!!!! its just me stating a fact #so i dont feel sadness very deeply when bad things happen #especially 2 other people #but i get SO excited and happy when good things happen!!!!! #which isnt good or bad!! its just a thing #but i still like it!!!!! in sorta the same way i like being trans #im rambling lolz. sorry X] im not reading any of this over so if it doesnt make sense. oops!!!! i guess!!!!!!!!!!!!

[afishcalledwanda1988]

as i chug along in the pre-top-surgery bureaucratic process i am allowing myself to start actually really considering that its gonna happen. like holy shit.

#im so excited to not have to wear an extra layer in the summer !!!!!! #like i havent been flat chested enough to go braless since i was like 14 not even for dysphoria just fuckin. physical comfort #and im SO EXCITED to just wear a tshirt in the summer and no other top layers !!!!!!! #i can be ! shirtless !! #i can finally get some chest tats bc i wont have to worry abt them getting distorted by the surgery .... #im gonna have cool ass scars ........... #layering will be so much easier in the winter .......... #sometimes ​im more excited about Not Having To Wear A Bra/Binder than just being flat #like the extra layer can be so much. on account of the tusm #?.txt

[ragingtwilight]

guysguysguys we went shopping today and picked up some cat stuff for the girls and for when Scooter arrives 👁👁

im so excited so i wanted to share arkarkark

we got such a pretty collar and nametag for him and a new feather toy, we also picked up a tunnel and Kitty has claimed it as her new nap spot LMAO

Maggie's favourite toys are the ones that are like sticks w a string and objects attached (i just call em feather toys) and we didnt realize until they both put their noses right into the toy and went crazy that it was a catnip one ahdgdjjdbd

We also nabbed a lil beetle plush toy a while back that ive been keeping for Scooter until he gets here! I don't want the other cats scent on it so he can have a toy of his own to start with :>

He's supposed to get here on the 14th at the earliest!!! I seriously cant wait, i just want to hibernate until he gets here aysgdjdjhd

heres the collar eeee!!!

#my cats #longish post #man. im like going crazy waiting for the 14th to get here #hes so handsome!!! im gonna post so many pics when we get him omfg #whole bedroom is gonna be his little zone until the other two get more used to him #i got a very affectionate breed so im really really hoping he'll want to snuggle lots #i feel like a dog whining to the cats for cuddles all the time LMAO #they unfortunately do not like cuddling often 😭 #hes a little ragdoll/himalayan glame point!!! hes gonna keep his blue eyes and those teo breeds are supposed to be super affectionate #as well as male cats! i was strategic hehe #i reeeeally want a cuddler man #fr i got so insanely luvky seeing him go up #im so fuckin excited its killing me #every day feels 5x longer than the last ausghrjdgdjd #really hoping we dont have to wait longer than the 14th omfg #🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

[comfytaire]

sent my friend a pic of the guy i'm crushing on and she thought it was hozier for a good 2 minutes just so u guys know the kind of ridiculously pretty man i'm dealing with here

#i've a feeling this date won't end up manifesting purely bc of not finding the time and then just fizzling out #i rly hope that doesn't happen #im aware i haven't shut up about him but this is all very new to me i haven't liked anyone new for 4 years #so i just don't know how to deal with it normally #and its freaking me out how much i like him already and how disappointed i will be if we don't end up going on this date #like he says he will still defo want to go out by the time we're both free in a few weeks #but what if between now and then he changes his mind or just doesn't feel like it #and then im just left feeling like an idiot for getting so excited about it #im not used to this !!!!! #and he's so FIT he's SO fit i fancy him so much #i want to touch his stupid beautiful hair and make him laugh and find out more about him #and see how he reacts to things he finds out about me #im too impatient and nervous to wait 3 weeks without freaking out that that's too long for him to still wanna hang out #im spiralling over nothing and i know this but. im just. not used to liking someone that isn't my established partner #fuckin elllllll #anyway #fancy man

[anxiously-awaiting]

i still need to color her and make this just. look better but riot ppl will see one (1) cute girl in one small section of a story and immediately get emotionally attached

#my ocs #cel #aaart #i already know im not going to be able to her nose right again but its cute and im gonna fuckin try fjsldfkljd #specifically in the like lord of distant isles retelling #shes the one that assisted lance during his fight at dolarous guard and brought him his shields from the Lady #and when he finds out it's her hes like SO excited and hugs her and its very sweet #its free childhood buddy :> #unpictured but also there's a line in that book thats like 'a woman [lance] would have recognized if her face had not been heavily veiled' #so shes got!! a veil and i have lore in my brain about the other 'servants' of the lady #in that they all have some sort of veil/hood/face covering to protect their identity #and theres some sort of enchantment on them so that they can't be followed back to the lake without their knowladge if that makes sense #i say servants in quotes bc they're like #moreso her equivalent of knights jklfdsl #shes got messengers and healers and ones who keep track of surface conflicts so she can keep tabs on it #ALSO #I KNOW CHATELAINES ARE FROM THE VICTORIAN ERA #I DONT CARE I THINK SHE CAN HAVE ONE AS A TREAT #im trying to lean more into the 'fantasy' part of 'vague middle fantasy arthu(riana)'