#and listening to her beg me to stop !!

[bugggiebee]

tying her to my bedframe while there's a vibrator in her pussy then watching her whine and shake >>>>>

#and listening to her beg me to stop !! #nblw nsft #lesbian #nb nsft #sapphic nsft #cnc k!nk #overstim kink #bd/sm kink #ropeplay

[jackshiccup]

#can't stop associating hijack to every love song i listen to it's becoming a serious problem #somebody get these gay ppl out of my head im begging #anyways every1 give it up for GLUE SONG #i've never known someone like u !!!!! tangled in love stuck by u from the glue !!!!!! #(love song of the century btw) #if u know it im sending u cookies #pls don't look too hard i just rly needed to get them out of my system asdaksashjd #*blows kisses to the sky* for hannah and her brushes #hijack #frostcup #jack frost #hiccup #rotg #httyd #my art #jackshiccup art #art #OH AND merry christmas to those who celebrate :) #hijack gift from me to u <3

[rooolt]

I really love dungeon court because it really appeals to my two favorite activities which are 1) infodumping abt dnd rules and 2) getting involved in other people’s business

#In ify’s words “I love mess” #I still think about “my dm told me he was in love with my gf and is flirting w/ her in game” that was NUTS #And “my girlfriend won’t stop begging to be my grandpa” #Everyone listen to dungeon court it’s great you don’t even really need to listen to naddpod #Naddpod #not another dnd podcast #dungeon court

[surrealsunset]

the sun always shines on TV

#hello charlotte #vent art #charlotte wiltshire #q84 #charlotte q84 #basically. this song is like. a microcosm of. what hello charlotte is to me #the music video especially gets the point across really well #it’s like i just don’t fucking know what’s real or not #i love so blindly with no direction but i do love and that’s what confuses and scares me #i have these…. masks. that’s all this is is masks. masking. performance #it is real. but it is also fake. and it’s so hard. it’s so fucking hard wearing a mask all the time #because i can’t take it off. i can’t. that’s why i love q84 so profoundly #the mask took over her fucking life. she has no idea who she is anymore #she was never someone who hurt people and now she is and she is FUUUCKED UP about it #but she’s too isolated and alone and unwilling to listen and proud to stop the hurt or the doomspiral or any of it #i feel like that. this gets at a profound generational scream of agony i feel from everyone around me #we’re just scared. we’re all scared. we are all mourning the loss of our sanity and begging for answers and nothing is working #something. idk #i’ve been thinking about this a lot clearly gkshf #it’s just… i just. i want a hug. i just want to hug a lot. that’s all. i think all we fucking want is a fucking hug. for god’s sKe

[dylanconrique]

guys i had the craziest chenford dream last night, i'm gonna turn it into a wip.

#*and this is icarly! #okay so the dream was lucy going uc with noah #but seeing how he was in the beginning of 5x16 when she came to back him up #he seems like the kind of guy to me to let a case completely consume him #like he forgets that he is putting himself and sometimes others in extremely dangerous situations #all because HE wants to catch the bad guy... like he has a hero complex that just takes over him #so in the dream they were uc and at some point ended up in a high speed chase in pursuit of a suspect #but the situation becomes too dangerous and starts getting out of hand #to the point where lucy knows better and knows that they need to get out of there and come up with a new plan #but noah doesn't listen and continues to pursue the suspect anyway cause HE wants the arrest #driving like he's in fast and the furious and causes them to crash #i started to wake up a little bit but there was also this scene in my head of tim berating noah in the hospital #like 'she begged and pleaded for you to stop! and now she has [x/y/z injuries] because of you!' #he even whips out the recordings of lucy begging for him to stop... shows pictures of her bloodied and bruised in the very same hospital #idk this played out so cool in my dreams last night would anybody wanna read it?????? #the rookie #tim bradford #lucy chen #noah foster #chenford #otp: you know me so well #there was even a part in my dream where tim speeds up next to their car #and lucy looks over at him absolutely terrified #idk idk let me know if i should write this #does it sound dumb? would you read it??

[lady-joker]

thinking abt the imagery in so long london and the rest of the album makes me want to throw up. "my spine split from carrying us up the hill" - referring to atlas carrying the world, her relationship was her world and it became such a heavy burden??? the duality of the words so long london, where she says goodbye while simultaneously reminiscing abt the time she spent loving, living and breathing it??? two graves one gun obviously represents the death of the relationship but suggesting that the graves are side bye side so despite being one gun, the death hurt both of them deeply??? i can't do it. truly one of her best track 5s. like wdym she references all her saddest songs in one (tolerate it, the great war, peace, you're losing me etc.) this is just ONE song. i could talk for hours abt the Greek mythology and literary references in the rest of the album. taylor u have outdone yourself with this album and im glad you're in a better place now :)

#ttpd #ts ttpd #ttpd era #taylorswift #taylornation #i have been listening to this album on repeat since it came out #one of my favourites is the prophecy #i hate how much i relate to it and it makes me so sad but it's such a banger #like wdym #WDYM it's called the prophecy because it's fated and so predetermined that she cant have someone who wants her company #WDYM she's in her knees begging for someone to change the prophecy #wdym 😭😭 #it's such a good song #the imagery is so beautiful #she really has the enviable ability of packaging every emotion I've ever had and packaging it into a neat little song #stop i CANT do this 😭 #thank u so much taylor for feeding my delusions and my breakdown music for the next year

[unrealfigmentofyourimagination]

My grandmother is mad at me because she caught me listening to Christian songs

The song in question is 'take me to church'

#my sister like only the chorus because of some reel #I've been begging her to listen to it since I was in 9th grade and she is in 9th grade now..... #but no...one reel with it and she'll listen to it non-stop #and the reason I know this is because she recommended the song to me like 'hey listen to this cool song I found' #as if I haven't been nagging her to listen to it for six years #I'm so mad rn #but not really we have the same tastes in music #but why does it have to be because of some thirst edit of shawn Mendes

[cvctuslesbian]

my mom tried to call me an idiot today because i said that i think the united states being built on the blood and subjugation of other people is bad

#🫠 like #why would i have pride in this country? why would i celebrate the slaughtering of millions of innocent people? #all for my comfort? my ease of life should not be at the expense of millions of other peoples lives and that’s not insane to say actually #but she’s the empath or whatever 🫡 #she tells me she doesn’t listen to even shit like cnn because it makes her feel bad but when i talk to her about she acts like i don’t know #what i’m talking about! bitch!!!! #as if i don’t spend hours every day reading about the new ways israelis have decided to butcher palestinians! what the fuck! #‘i don’t think the history is important we should focus on the right now’ #well even if that were true (and it sure as fuck isn’t) is the violence happening not horrifying? does it not make you sick to see millions #of children begging for westerners (specifically americans!!) to see them as human beings worthy of life? #why is your comfort more important than their lives? #but either way it isn’t even true bc the events going on in palestine today are nothing new #they all have roots in history dating back to the start of the british empire! even before then! #colonialism isn’t an ancient thing! #we can’t talk about telling the iof to stop bombing people without knowing that it’s in their best interest to keep bombing people! #but of course of course i forgot about the american liberals deepest desire: comfort against all odds

[rainknow]

work hasn't been that stressful in awhile

#the card reader at the drive thru stopped working #so i had to take orders and write everything down #and check people out from the dining room register one by one #so orders were taking a long time and people were leaving #i told my manager i couldnt do it for much longer #and she finally listened to me #but i literally had to beg #she was on her phone too literally all day while mine gets put in a fucking box before we even open #she drives me crazy #rant

[silentgrim]

i hope the trend of grey interiors/exteriors ends bcs holy fuck how bleak

#why did we stop using colors?????? #literally every modern building or interior design is fucking grey #my mom is into grey rn and it’s so ugly 😭 #all the walls are different shades of grey #i tried so hard to convince her to decorate with color and she’s finally listening to me #like i literally begged her for colorful couch pillows bcs HOLY SHIT i’m in a fucking mortuary… #pls #send help #end this nasty trend #ok bye! 🏊‍♀️ #chatter

[sar3nka]

Also crazy woman made me act unwise again I talked to her for like 2 hours. It was a weirdass situation. There was karaoke and I sang mr brightside for her 💀 put my entire heart into it too damn she clapped and we talked and laughed a lot

#but the whole situation was awkward cause like no one fucking likes her its not my fault #and i walked a decent distance to pick her up cause she got lost on the way there. and when i was going my girlies were begging me to stop #the somewhat misandrist one actually took the side of my pet male and they vibed a lot together. everyone loves him tbh. #some of my friends are kinda close to being radfems and even they take his side everytime like pls let larper go pls let her kill herself #and i dont listen to voice of reason again i might throw a smaller party for my birthday and she says shell be there... awh #im stupid im a fool #she wears the patches i made for her on her jacket its cute im sorry its the cutest when she took it off and i saw her arms #i just wanted to eat her alive sorry sorry #either way... pet male was babysitting us while we were sitting next to a fountain. at least he accepts my clownery 🤡

[nobody-expects-the-inquisitorius]

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#just found out that mums arranged for me to play at my great uncles memorial without asking me #actually without telling me either I only know bc she was showing me sth on her phone and I saw the message notif #and I just #Id be furious enough if she’d arranged for me to play at a party or sth bc she doesnt understand that I’m a hobbyist not Mozart #Performances take time and energy and anxiety and I don’t have much of that rn especially when ppl don’t give me a choice #but this is something else #She knows how damaging funerals are to me too she knows that even going there will mess me up and she still did this #When were you planning to tell me #And im begging her to say no because i cant do it I physically can’t sit there and play like that it’ll break me #But no I’m just saying that out of shyness or selfishness bc it’s not like you should know and listen to your own child haha #I’m just appalled honestly #I want to stop existing for a few days and just not feel anything

[no-mercy-bby]

Is anyone else's mom so frustrating in general?😐

#she busted into my room at 8:30 telling me to get up (i was already awake btw) #we go prom dress shopping and when I'm trying on dresses she opens the curtain and she just talks and talks while watching me #like lady can i please have some privacy #i literally had to beg her to step away and close the curtain to the dressing room #she keeps talking #we get lunch she keeps talking #we go to my grandparents and she keeps talking #we go to the storage place she keeps talking #and at that point it was 4 pm. which means i had listened to this lady talk for nearly 8 hours straight #ALL about stuff she's either said before or stuff that doesn't matter!! #and just now when she came home she fucking shoved at my bed (which my bed is not super stable but its fine yk) #and when she shoves at my bed it literally rocks me like a boat (i literally Hate being on boats btw) #i say hey! stop that #SHE KEEPS TALKING AND SHOVES MY BED #then i said im starving (i havent eaten in 8 hours) and she goes on a rant about how we have here and #"You're eighteen you can find something to eat'' #so i go oh? so I'm 18 now but not in everything else (ie LITERALLY IN FUCKING EVERYTHING THAT GOES ON IN MY LIFE. LIKE I CAN'T DO ANYTHING) #she goes uhm you're not making me feel guilty about not bringing you food #BITCH WHEN DID I SAY THAT?? AHHHH #also when she shoved at my bed she also asked if i was sick and im still confused about it #cause wtf i can't lay on my own bed #AND my dad came up here and asked if i was sick too #how fucking ugly do i look that just laying on my bed makes me look sick #anyways im pissed off any crying rn #cause i drained my social battery YESTERDAY and my mom decides to be a social butterfly today?? #im also probably sleep deprived and overstimulated #but my prom dress is really pretty guys #(im a way it just kinda feels like my mom is trying to replace my sister with me and i fucking hate it) #(not to be different or anything im just not super girly and feminine. that's my sister.) #(the way my mom was acting when we were dress shopping lowkey felt like she was propping me up in my sister's place.)

[usodeshou]

My dog is having the worst night of her life (or at least the worst since last year's New Year's Eve)

#still 3.5 hours to go until midnight #and it's already been almost 2 hours since people started randomly setting off fireworks outside #the entirety of her small frame is trembling and she's looking at me like she's begging me to make it stop #and I have to stay chill as best as possible although it doesn't really make much of a difference now #managed to take her outside to pee at least #but it's literally impossible to get even a few minutes without any loud bangs ripping through the quiet #she's in a loop of 'I need to go outside!' and 'no let's go back inside!!! 😨' #not expecting to be able to take her on any walks until 2-3 am 😮‍💨 #unless she needs to poop so urgently that it overrides her fear just long enough to get the deed done #I always forget exactly how stressful it is #for both of us #but at least I understand what's going on 😅 #doesn't help that my home town's situated in a valley so shit really echoes even from relatively far away #and I really hate firecrackers with a goddamn passion #somebody could shoot a gun into the sky on the street outside and it would be just as unpleasant a noise #my kitchen hood's been running for hours to drown out the noise from outside as much as possible and it did buy me some time early on #and makes it so that she doesn't hear every single piece of firework that goes off #been listening to music through my earphones to drown out the noise of the kitchen hood so I don't go crazy myself #3 more hours to go now #hoping that maybe there'll a bit of a break soon as the kids that got it out of their system before going to bed go to sleep #everyone else maybe deciding to wait until midnight to use up the rest #I just need 5 minutes #maybe even 10 #to let her outside #please #I am not relaxed at all and she surely notices that too and it's not helping #god what I would give for a soundproof room right about now #excuse me while I start ineffectually digging a bunker in the garden #🙈 #meanwhile my mom's cat is completely unfazed xD

[lunarianbeams]

the next person to remind me and thank me bc i spent my grandmas last day with her and had to watch her die will have to endure the breakdown of screaming that is constantly present internally in real time!

#jess speaks #death tw #i want people to stop thanking me and telling me they know it was hard! #i can’t get the sounds of her or the people begging her to stay out of my head! #and i can’t listen to songs without sobbing or forgive myself for not being good enough! #not in the sense i couldn’t save her but in the sense that i couldn’t take care of her without compromising my own well being #and having to carry that shame and somewhat secret everyday of my life! #and that her screams will haunt me awake and in the depths of my dreams #anyway! glad she’s at peace and not in pain and i miss her everyday of my life