#and she can’t and won’t share it

[novelconcepts]

hi novel! do you have any meta / thoughts on taissa’s relationships with simone and sammy? I really want them to go into that more, similar to the shauna-jeff-callie storyline in s2

Simone and Sammy are what should have been. The life Taissa would have led if they’d never crashed. Even if it wasn’t Simone, even if it was Van, the idea of the perfect happy family is what matters. I think it matters that she’s the only one we see have a warm moment with her parents before the crash; that would shape her whole outlook. Grow up, go to good schools, get a great job, marry a beautiful woman, build a life that makes sense. And we know from Tai telling Shauna about her dream life: this is exactly the path she takes. Shauna’s dreams change utterly as soon as they crash; Tai, the bastion of repression, doesn’t change hers at all. She comes home, and she’s different, she’s traumatized, she has lost and hurt and has all these horrible dark secrets—but she believes if she just works hard enough, she can overwrite the shadows with the light of a life she’s wanted all along.

The problem with this as it applies to Simone and Sammy is they’re not plans, they’re not dreams, they’re people—and to have the meaningful, wonderful relationships that make that Perfect Life, she needs to be able to communicate with them as such. And she doesn’t. She doesn’t let herself. She won’t explain anything of what she went through to her wife; even when push comes to panicked shove, she just demands Simone leave her alone. She doesn’t even feel that “it” factor when it comes to Simone, because she can’t let herself. She’s forever tied intensity of feeling to a loss of control, a loss of who she was “meant to be” before the accident.

Her family, her job, all of it is emblematic of Before Tai. The Tai who didn’t have a sleepwalking problem, who never watched her girlfriend get nearly mauled to death, who never ate her friends to stay alive, who never gave into the hunt. It can’t ever be healthy, for her or for Simone and Sammy, until she accepts that Before Tai is gone. She’s been stitched together with the Taissa who survived the wilderness. And accepting that runs contrary to the perfect life she’s tried so hard to create. She can fall back into old habits with her old friends and old love, but the new version of her? That Taissa isn’t allowed those behavior patterns.

It’s really interesting looking at her family vs Shauna’s, because 1) they’re the only two of the core six to build a traditional family post-rescue, and 2) Shauna tries to play the same game—except the “dream life” she’s living isn’t Shauna’s at all. It’s Jackie’s. Or what she feels she stole from Jackie. And because of that, because Jeff and Callie were never Shauna’s dream, I think it makes it a little easier to let them into the darkness. Tai won’t let herself do that, because it’d be admitting a kind of defeat, and that really isn’t Tai’s style.

#ask #yellowjacket spoilers #yj meta #taissa turner #I very much look at Simone and Sammy and want better for them #not because Tai isn’t great; she’s easily my second fave in the whole show #but because from the very inception of that family she’d already decided to shut them out #she cares for them and she cares for what they represent #but she’s boxed up so much of herself before even meeting her wife that like. how could that ever be a fulfilling relationship? #it’s such a degree of trauma that her id feels the need to take control #and she can’t and won’t share it #it bugged me so much on first watch that Simone’s reaction was to just leave with Sammy #instead of fighting to communicate and get Tai help #but then I realized: she’s probably been trying for years to no avail #so when it comes down to seeing the shrine she just gives up what little hope she has and pivots to taking care of her child #and that makes absolute sense but it’s also so sad. that inherent lack of trust because the woman she married has never let her in

[xxxcertifiednerdxxx]

my tinder date wants to know why you’re banned from tinder

Ask and ye shall receive!

Gather round, folks, and lend an ear as I tell you about Arnold.

No, he’s not a first date gone wrong, nor is he a scorned ex-lover who came up as a potential match. He isn’t a rival to whom I am bitterly attracted, and he isn’t an unrequited crush.

Arnold is my son.

He is also a rubber chicken.

[image description: a white hand holds a blue rubber chicken against a white wall. The rubber chicken has a red beak, comb, wattles, and feet, as well as a gold collar that’s says “SQUEEZE ME!”]

Let me set the scene.

A couple years ago, on a cold night in late autumn, I went to a grocery store with some friends. We all separated to get what we needed.

I don’t remember if I actually got anything for myself in that trip, but I do remember wandering around, only to come across a giant bin of rubber chickens.

Immediately thinking of the vine where that person presses a bunch of rubber chickens (geese? some sort of fowl) to make a loud noise, I did the same thing, probably to the chagrin of fellow shoppers.

Some of my friends joined me in my shenanigans, and we left the store in a jolly mood.

Days later, one of my roommates, who was one of the friends from the first grocery trip, came back from another grocery trip with a gift for me.

It was a blue and red rubber chicken.

I looked on my new child with complete adoration and named him Arnold. I thanked my roommate with all my heart and left to plan the many hijinks I would get up to with Arnold. (He has admittedly been through a lot, but the wear and tear mostly comes from love.)

One day, i had the bright idea to make Arnold a Tinder account.

I did not give myself much time to consider the idea before diving in. Arnold had a photo shoot, and I uploaded as many photos as Tinder would allow for his profile. I believe I put his age somewhere in the 20s. I picked the option for any gender to match so as many people as possible would see him. According to what I put in his bio, he got the Covid vaccine, has a natural talent for singing, lives with his mom, and likes Kpop.

Then I published his account.

While matching with people amused me at first, keeping Arnold’s Tinder account active eventually became a chore. Every so often, Tinder would email me and say my his account would be hidden if I didn’t open the app and use it.

I swiped through people, and whenever i matched with people, i would just shoot them a simple “yo.” I tried not to carry on any conversations, though, because I myself was not interested in going on any dates. This was just to entertain me and maybe some other people who came across Arnold.

One day, I got an email saying Arnold’s account was reported and I was no longer welcome on Tinder. I assume someone reported Arnold bc he isn’t an actual person, so I was technically breaking the laws of Tinder or whatever. It was honestly a relief; no more swiping through profiles just to keep the account alive.

I still have Arnold, and I still love him. But you will never see him, or me, on a dating app again.

TL/DR: I made a Tinder Account for Arnold, my rubber chicken. It took over half a year, but Arnold’s account was eventually reported for not being a real person, and I was banned from Tinder.

#sorry for such a long answer but I can’t really help being a storyteller #Arnold does have a social media account #I don’t do much with it but it’s there #it’s tied to my personal life tho so I won’t be sharing it here #fun story one time I thought I lost Arnold in my big apartment complex so I ran around the whole place trying to find him #But one of my friends had just hidden him in my mini fridge #another time my room roommate was asleep and I was going to bed #but it was dark and I forgot Arnold was on my bed #So I accidentally laid down on him #she did not wake up thank goodness #In the morning I apologized and she said she didn’t even hear him #arnold the rubber chicken #nerd out #nerd-out #the great tinder tumblr crossover of 2023 #tinder #ask for moi #lengthy article

[lesbianfakir]

Sorry for being so rambly today (and last night) I have thoughts so onto the blog they go

I feel like part of the joy of art is in community, like you create something and you get to talk about it and share it with the world. This year I lost touch with the friends who I would always talk about art with and I think that loss is heavily impacting my ability to create (and the enjoyment I get from it.) I miss having a new idea and getting to ramble about it excitedly. I miss texting people the sketches and the mock ups and the color palettes.

I got into art for me. I wouldn’t show anything I made to anyone for years. So I’m no stranger for creating for the target audience of myself. Still, I miss that sense of community. I love this blog and I absolutely adore the lovely comments you all leave on my art but sometimes it feels so one-sided on here. I post a piece, I receive a lovely tag back and that’s it. End of story. I spend hours and hours working on something and it kind of disappears into the void in a day or so.

Trying to put it into words, but I think I wish I could create art that starts a conversation. That inspires people to create their own things in response, or even just talk with me about process. I think the perfectionism has gotten out of hand lately because I feel like I’m missing something—which I attribute to the quality of the piece—but really what I’m missing is buddies to chat about art with. There is no level of being “good enough” that will serve as a substitute for a real community.

#ahaha if you can’t tell I am a very introspective person #and a lonely one the transition to college has been rough and all my friends are back home #anyways I was thinking about drawing more stuff for my ocs today #and then I remembered the friend I loved to talk about them with hasn’t replied to me in a month #which is understandable. she’s busy. she made new friends. she’s not struggling like I am so it makes sense that she’s just kind of moved on #but I miss her #I had no chance of making it to her in group because all her friends she met through dance and I can’t dance for shit #I don’t even think she meant to ghost me but who knows #it sucks that I won’t get a real goodbye #anyways all of that to say I was going to draw my ocs and then I got so sad because who would I even share them with #there are a few art groups on campus but I have anxiety and mild agoraphobia and when I try to go I just feel awkward and shy #anyways if anyone ever wants to chat about art #it’s only one of my fav things in the whole world #lea talks #WHY CANT I BE A PROPER TORTURED ARTIST #WHY CANT I TURN MY ISOLATION INTO SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL #WHY DO I NEED SOMEONE ELSE TO BE PRESENT IN THE PROCRESS #is it not enough to descend into a quiet madness on my own and create from that??

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

i’m really not trying to be such a huge bitch about the girl in my group for my production class but like what do you mean you think we need to meet tomorrow to work on our production notebook. we haven’t casted anyone. the production notebook and all the planning stuff literally cannot happen in any way that matters until we have the bare minimum casting and location stuff figured out. which we don’t. what would we even be doing if we met tomorrow. talking about the concept of what we might want a shot to look like. featuring an actor we don’t have in a location we haven’t secured. can we be so for real right now. why is she so hellbent on ruining every monday morning i have. girl i don’t have much more patience to spend on you you’re killing me

#i appreciate that she wants to be thorough and all but she’s being ridiculous #there’s essentially nothing we can do right now until we get casting figured out #also she’s acting like we need to do every piece of the creative process together and it’s like. #ok girl i’m the director why don’t you let me storyboard the story i wrote huh. i’ll handle it come on #another reason i am simply not equipped to be in charge. i do not like to share credit #the other day we were talking to our professor about the script ‘we’ wrote and ‘we’ revised. #and the new title ‘we’ came up with that ‘we’ like better #that shut was literally all me tho is the thing. you two did not do any of that what do you mean WE????? #but i can’t say that. #anyway. time to text her back and say fuck no #well. obviously i won’t say that either. i’ll say some shit like yeah i just don’t think we need to meet because there’s not much we can do #etc etc maybe i’ll throw in an lol or something #fuckin hate this

[theamazingannie]

Kinda crazy how people will call out celebrities for not speaking up on political issues and then a celebrity WILL speak up on that political issue but doesn’t do it in exactly the way these people want so they’ll call THEM out too and it’s like why tf would anyone want to do anything these days if every action they take gets them called out???

#specifically referencing Annie Lennox this time but I’ve seen it so many times just on this issue alone #she called for a ceasefire at the fucking Grammys and all pro Palestine people praised her #and then she made a non aggressive post about it on Twitter that still called for ceasefire but didn’t praise hamas #and people are shaming her and calling her a coward #another time I read someone say Bella Ramsay signed the hostage release letter right after Oct 7 #but has since been outspoken about pro Palestine #but that that’s not enough and they’re still bad for doing that first thing #when they’re an actor not an activist and nobody really understood what was going on back then #like this is exactly why I won’t be one of the people calling on celebrities to be posting on every issue #cuz even people more well informed are called out for being wrong about stuff #I’ve been following this issue since 2019 and I still don’t feel fully comfortable doing more than sharing stuff from better informed people #cand calling out hypocracies and bad arguements (something I studied in college) #I can’t expect someone who didn’t know anything before four months ago and doesn’t actively follow it now #to feel comfortable taking a strong side on an issue where no matter what you do you’re gonna get death threats from SOMEONE #pro Israel pro Palestine neural stance silence #every single choice makes people mad at you so it’s really safer to go with the last #this isn’t ‘register to vote’ or ‘this issue directly affects me and I’m therefore better informed so I’ll talk about it’ #this is an extremely hot button sensitive issue #and I’m tired of people acting like social media activism is where we should start and end #call our your politicians not your actors and singers for gods sake

[e-m-p-error]

MULTIMUSE QUESTIONAIRE

Tagging: @infernalight, @infernal-feminae, @heartsofhell, @questionablemuses, @because-i-simp, @frostworkxfiction, @deepspacevivarium, @hotelbitches, @voxiiferous

RULES: Answer the questions with the Muses that would best fit the answers. Bonus if you give details why. If tagged, copy and paste into a new post – DO NOT REBLOG!

1) Rank your softest Muse and your toughest Muse. (Personality-wise)

My softest muse is definitely Vick. He's a 0 on the toughness scale, he's a big teddy bear and he will choose kindness over anything else at any point.

My toughest muse is probably Barbie. Girl is tough as nails and will not be stopped if she puts her mind to something. She doesn't take pain as a reason to stop and will go harder when it hurts.

2) Which Muse would blow through $1000 quickly?

Valentino, hands down. He spends $1,000 every day easily on things he doesn't even need. He loves to buy expensive things and will do so at all hours. He especially loves spending Vox's money. $1,000 is a drop in the bucket for him and he doesn't even notice spending it.

3) Do any of them have nicknames? Is there a meaning behind them?

Quite a few of them do!

Valentino answers to Bunny from his lovers, it's a subspace trigger word for him. I assigned him Bunny because he's Cute And Horny, aka a rabbit, and a bunny sub is fairly common.

4) Are any of them up-to-speed on the latest trends? Anyone more old school?

Velvette, Vox, and Valentino are obsessed with always being on top of the next new thing.

Alastor hates new things and will fight them as much as he can.

5) Who has the best relationship with their siblings?

Valentino had a fairly good relationship with his siblings when he was alive. He had seven of them, plus three live-in cousins that were like his siblings.

6) Karaoke night! Who is likely to grab the mic first and bust out a tune?

Beelzebub, Ozzie, Valentino, and Ostello! They all love to sing and party, and they're all pretty good at it. Ostello was a pop-jazz singer when he was alive and before he died in Hell, too!

7) Who is least likely to enter a beauty pageant/model?

Gretchen. She doesn't think that she's very pretty, and would just feel embarrassed even going to watch.

Travis. He is constantly told he's very ugly, and he doesn't have a very high opinion of his looks.

8) If your Muses visited a haunted house where actors scare you, who would panic and who would be unfazed? 

Chazz, Gretchen, Charlie, Anya, Magpie, Summer, Travis, and Vick would be the easiest to scare!

Valore, Dimas, Cash, Glitz, Stu, Paimon, Alastor, Darío, Niffty, and Vox would be the hardest to phase.

9) Are any of your Muses particular about taking certain modes of transportation?

Vox prefers to be driven around and doesn't like driving himself.

Valentino only likes to drive occasionally and prefers pretty sports cars when he does.

Anya and Darío are motorcycle people.

Emily enjoys bicycles!

10) Share a little-known fact about any Muse.

Adam is actually a very good father and he loves kids and babies. He is very tender with children even if he can be harder on them once they have grown into adults.

#HEADCANONS ➽➽➽ #Reciting Violence Like Poetry (α∂αм) #I’ve Found A Rainbow A Rainbow Baby Trust Me I Know Life Is Scary (ємιℓу) #I’m Standing In The Face Of All That My Story Holds In Its Wake (ναℓσяє) #What We Loved Today We’ll Lose Tomorrow But I Won’t Need To Wait For My Share Of Sorrow Because I Always Kill The Things I Love (∂ιмαѕ) #Who Needs Pepsi Juice Or Sprite? If You Do You’re Weak That’s Right (вαявιє) #I’m Gonna Take Their Hearts For Ransom ‘Cause Everybody’s Always Askin’ When You Gonna Show Us Magnum? (¢нαzz) #Money Can’t Buy Happiness But It Can Rent You Paradise (gℓιтz) #We Put Her Down In A Shallow Grave She Wears A Dress Like A Body Bag Everyday (gяєт¢нєи) #Everyone’s A Winner We’re Makin’ Our Fame Bona Fide Hustler Making My Name (ѕтυ) #Try Not To Move So Fast You Know Dessert Comes Last! (вєєℓzєвυв) #You Can Fool Yourself I Promise It Will Help Every Single Day I Just Wanna Hear You Say I’m So Lucky Lucky I’m So Lovely Lovely (¢нαяℓιє) #Define Your Meaning Of War To Me It’s What We Do When We’re Bored (ραιмσи) #If You End Up On My Table Then It Serves You Right (αℓαѕтσя) #Know I’m All Bite No Bark Like To Catch You Way Off Guard (αиуα) #Take Just One Last Dare Pretend That You Don’t Care (ℓєgισи∂αяισ) #Your Magic White Rabbit Your White Room Straight Jacket (мαgριє) #He Ran Into My Knife He Ran Into My Knife Ten Times (иιfту) #I Love You Oh So Madly But I Don’t Stand A Ghost Of A Chance With You (σѕтєℓℓσ) #Come Come Kitty Kitty You’re So Silly Silly Don’t Go Kitty Kitty Play With Me (ѕυммєя) #Don’t Be Goofy Bring Some Passion To The Table (тяανιѕ) #And If You Get In My Face Then You’ll Get A Taste Even God Would Run Son (ναℓєитιиσ) #Hollywood Made A Killing Machine She’s Like A Teenage Slaughter Movie Scene A Serial Killer Celebrity (νєℓνєттє) #Red Eyes In The Digital Paradise (νι¢к) #Let’s Stop Saying “Don’t Quote Me” Because If No One Quotes You You Probably Haven’t Said A Thing Worth Saying (νσχ)

[teaandduckss]

Have the little shit version while I decide what direction I wanna go in for this au :D

#please note I probably won’t write anything more then basic concepts cus im very much not a writer #I will however probably draw certain scenes I imagine or if I have the energy make small comics #I’ll keep doing this au tho for as long as I have the brainrot :D #matchablossom #matchablossom fanart #kaoru sakurayashiki #sk8 kaoru #cherry blossom sk8 #sk8 cherry #sk8 carla #also fun fact! #kaoru is able to talk in this one because Carla hasn’t taken over full control #they are besties and able to share… Carla just wants to embarrass him by sharing his secrets to #in the other version of this au Carla gets to be evil as a treat and has taken over him fully so he can’t talk unless she lets him

[existentialcrisis-24-7]

I’m going to fucking strangle whoever at Netflix decided that it was a good idea to implement the new password sharing rules. They deserved to be stoned. Or left in the ocean to drown or die of hypothermia. I am violent right now.

#my nearly 90 year old granny can’t watch any of her shows #the only thing she has on her tv is Netflix and now that’s gone #and now my tv isn’t fucking working #and I guarantee you it won’t be anywhere else in this house #we have an account for my sister (who made it and has it registered) #2 for my house #(adults/children) #and 1 for my granny #we should well be able to designate accounts to houses so that we can watch our damn shit #it’s not password sharing we’re fucking paying for the accounts #netflix #password sharing #I am going to brutally murder someone

[boltgunkiller-archive]

my glee powers are too great, why’s my sister starting to get obsessed with it too

#miracle i haven’t made her rewatch sexy more than the one time she’s seen it #i seriously do not mess around about that episode #i’m nothing without analyzing santana’s behavior throughout it #the eye contact thing. her refusal to make eye contact during the sacred sexy sharing circle #and then her trying to keep eye contact with brittany throughout landslide to convey her true feelings for brittany #and prove that she’s being serious and genuine and that she’s full of love and wants to tell brittany her feelings #and even have a relationship. “it’s better with feelings” remember? #and then during the confession she’s still anxiously checking her surroundings #but she tries her best to look at britt #but then she gets rejected. and it hurts. and she closes up again and doesn’t even let britt touch her #she immediately turns away. no more looking #and then in 2x16 during the dirt locker scene she won’t look at brittany for a while either #she keeps looking at her locker (“i miss being your friend…” + santana replying with “still waiting for the question.” #like she literally keeps looking at her locker bc she got rejected and she’s reserved again because her expressing herself only resulted in #her getting hurt again… 😞) #and the “stop looking at me. i can’t remember my locker combo.” #yes it’s a funny line but also #distressing. when you examine her relationship with eye contact. naya’s acting is insanely good #Anyway idgaf about sexy guys. #this was meant to be about my sister my bad. #gleeposting

[quietwingsinthesky]

distressing moment for marie that would not worry literally anyone else is when she realizes she does not have a sweet tooth like jack. or more accurately, that they both did, until at some point that neither of them are aware of, because of the constant little changes they make to their vessels, both out of conscious curiosity or unconscious lack of control over their powers, marie’s sense of taste is just slightly different from jack’s. and she can’t figure out how to change it back.

#this is different than much larger changes because most (if not all) of those were decided in tandem. #usually as an actual thing they discussed such as trying to fit into the Winchesters by taking on familiar features from Sam or Mary. #sometimes unconsciously. like the ways they will mimic Lucifer. #this is something Marie did not realize had happened until she and Jack are sharing food and she Doesn’t Want His. and that’s! #that’s a scary situation! for an entity who’s identity is largely based on them being Basically The Same Person In Different Bodies #it’s a reality that was never going to be able to hold steady because bodies do change. people change. experiences influence future tastes. #but this is a very jarring reminder of that. and she nibbles on the candy jack handed her even though she doesn’t like it much because if #she ignores it maybe it will go back to normal maybe they will have the same feelings again. #but it won’t. and it can’t. and they hate it. #she’ll be okay when she discovers that dark chocolate exists dont worry. #marieposting

[pinnedbishop]

i love sitting on my balcony. my first apartment didn’t have one but when i got this one i was delighted

#florence was the one who convinced me to move to a better one. we shared it. now it’s just me. #she was all like ‘freddie you can’t climb 10 sets of stairs every day. if he won’t put in an elevator you shouldn’t stay here freddie’. #so i listened and we moved in together. and stayed together. seven years….

[im-still-watching-anime]

all i do is hold this cat i s2g

#she’s got a routine at this point #you can try to say no to holding her but she won’t let you #she tries to sit up on me and then gets so tired she just face plants smh #she’s like a baby #needs SO much coddling #smh #just wanted to share because she is trapping me AGAIN #can’t even get up to turn the lights off #life junk #not anime

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

Ok life update. I’m fully in college again! I like some of my classes (all stem classes) I kinda hate some other classes (theatre classes ironically). I am so deeply not moved in at all. Unpacking who? Could not be me. I do not have enough storage. I like my third roommate a lot and living with my ex is not as scary as I thought it would be. I finally get an adhd and depression test in two weeks and i start therapy in a week.

#me? going to therapy bc my last relationship hurt me that badly? it’s more likely than you think! #it wasn’t just that. but that in conjunction with my depression did not do good things #went from clingy to very anxious attachment style #also. i keep saying I’m completely over her. I’m not. I’m just hoping if I say it enough it’ll be true #so it just really really hurts that she’s so over me and already talking to people and looking for dates #and I’m over here like. please can it all just stop hurting for 5 seconds🫠🫠🫠🫠 #i really do not know what to do. hoping therapy fixes my very much still broken heart #i can’t even tell her like hey dude this is killing me bc then she’d think I’m trying to make it her problem #when in reality I just don’t want her to talk about the girls she’s talking to as much #also I’m pretty sure she’d end up being like fine I just won’t talk to you anymore. which completely missed the point as well #so. that’s cool #gaming club is starting to meet up again which is nice. unfortunately it’s on a day I have color guard every week #i think antidepressants would be very good for me bc I am struggling to find a single positive point in my life rn #the waitlist for therapy is miles long and u gotta submit why you want it. they called me in within a week. it’s not looking hot for me lol #I’d like to start streaming now that I’m single again. and by that I mean I have more free time #but my ex and I share a wall and she hates when she can hear me talking thru the wall. we have really really thin walls #y’all I am not winning. at all #idea: we’re doing a poll on things that should improve my life and y’all can decide #soup talks

[marinecorvid]

Sometimes living with my mother is tolerable and sometimes she says shit that makes me want to bash my head against the wall

#bitch???? the fuck do you mean you’d rather me eat nothing that ‘unhealthy’ food #are you trying to help w my speed run in developing an eating disorder?? #I got too close back in college n I’m trying to ward off those kind of eating habits again. and you’d rather me not eat snacks when I can’t #bring myself to eat an actual meal. okay #context: when I’m stressed I don’t eat and back in college I was super fucking overwhelmed and ate barely enough to function #to the point where a few people picked up on how little I was eating in the cafe/how skinny I was getting #maybe the term ‘eating disorder’ is a little. harsh? feels too big for what I’m describing but it’s def bad coping mechanisms that I’m tryin #trying to work thru #also she doesn’t know how diabetes works (standard ‘you’ll get it by eating lots of sugar!’ kinda shit) and won’t fucking acknowledge that m #a good part of it has to do w genetics #I should not have shared by churro with you. #*my

[dark-magical-ships]

Y’know. As much as I love sharing f/os (like I genuinely love sharing, it is absolutely the best if jealously/anxiety of that type is not an issue for you), and as much as I enjoy writing…. You would think I would write x Reader fics for Seto, huh

#or really any of the other f/os but Seto primarily #I’ve never really tried? I didn’t even know they were a thing until I found the selfship community not even a whole year ago #imagine self shipping for 10 years and never knowing x Readers exist. I was DEPRIVED #anyway. might try that sometime idk. maybe if I can ever figure out a story I want to tell for a more generalized Reader #the closest thing I’ve ever done is 4th Wall which is in first person but the protagonist definitely has a name and her name is my name #as such it has s lot of details from my life. Amy is curvy like I was in high school right now…. #but as time passes and certain medical stuff happens she’ll gain weight in college. idk how much of that will get into her diary… #since I just genuinely have never cared about my weight. but the more I see shippers talk about themselves… #the more I think I really ought yo emphasize this a bit. #since she’s me she’s also technically a masc-aligned trans person who eventually ought to be using he/she pronouns #for the sake of narrative simplicity I probably won’t be depicting this directly… #but if I think of a really cool way to sneak it in I will :P #but 4th Wall isn’t really the point here. the POINT is that I really like to share f/os but Kenna’s off the Kaiba train #and I miss the headcanon exchange :’) #anyway you’d really think I’d try writing some Y/N fic huh. maybe I’ll try it sometime… idk #I’d want it to be gender-neutral but also race-neutral and work for any body type. short ficlets are one thing but a long story #that can’t make the MC's attributes too detailed would be a challenge for sure #hmm. thoughts #🐉💙 cocoashipping 💙🐉 #kinda but not exactly lol

[freakylilnutjob]

I hope there will be a day when someone says something nice to/about me and I can actually fully believe them.

If y’all decide to have kids, please don’t emotionally neglect and abuse them.

#literally can’t take compliments #my best friend just said the sweetest thing I’ve ever read and I don’t know what to do with it #I cried over it cause I love her and what she said but I legit have no clue what to say #and I know she 1000000% means it but I can’t truly believe and accept that #like my brains like ‘awe it’s nice to think of someone like that’ but can’t accept that I am that someone #like even those asks that people just copy and paste to like ‘ten favorite followers’ or ‘someone you think is lovely’ #those make me so emotional cause it’s like… me???? #but my brain just won’t put it together that yes it is me and yes they’re genuine with what they’re saying #fuck emotionally neglectful and abusive parents #like how am I supposed to believe anything nice someone says to me #when I can remember clear as day the moment my father told me he wouldn’t care if I died #that was over ten years ago and it still fucks me up to this day #I shouldn’t have to be dealing with this rn #okay I shared too much on the internet!! #gonna go play animal crossing and try to forget about this!! #tw abuse #abuse tw #trigger warning #tw #sav speaks