#and then i realized it was a metaphor for abortion

[dearinglovebot]

what’s your favorite jurassic community moment from 2023? mine is when a former viral marketing “canon consultant” said that no political ideology exists in jurassic movies and if it does then it’s actually pro-capitalism and anti-animal rights. and also fallen kingdom’s ending “could be read as a metaphor for maisie being pro-life”

#jurassic world #watching fallen kingdom and thinking “yeah capitalism was the good guy here“ #I love that tweet so much #because it implies claire is pregnant (the dinosaurs) and threatening to abort it (volcano) and owen is pressuring her to abort #which she chooses to once she realizes it would jeopardize the world #and maisie metaphorically flushes the pill so she can’t #it’s not only nonsense but completely mischaracterises everyone involved #if any woman in the series is getting an abortion it would be claire “fuck them kids” dearing

[catholic-character-tournament]

Round 1 - Side B

firestar art by @kudos-si-do

Propaganda below ⬇️

Kirei

He fucked up so many people's lives so badly in just one decade (not on purpose) that the universe put him in the summoning pool of all world influencing souls. He doesnt really have any special powers but he does serve as a vessel for rasputin at one point. He's the guy who says "people die when they are killed"

please please please there's literally a type moon character in the gif on the top of this form so it's typemoonphobic if none of them get in but it shouldn't be her it should be kirei bc he's 50x funnier & more iconic than jeanne. funny lil murder priest who's fucking THE gilgamesh (from the epic of) in the church basement and dies in a knife fight w a 17 year old whose dad he wanted to fuck back in '94 before realizing that he was actually kinda lame and he's been bitter abt it ever since. he has an orphan torture factory in his basement but he's also canonically good at being a priest. he's so funny you should def try his mapo tofu i swear it's totally safe for human consumption and not made with any california reapers. did i mention he's a deadbeat dad.

Priest claims to be Pro Life to make Sakura Matou the most miserable girl on the planet, but he dies anyway.

bro became a catholic because he loves suffering

He’s a priest. Kind of. Not a very good priest obviously. There is something seriously wrong and fucked up with that man. It’s so entertaining.

he's gotta be one of the most insane catholic men ever with a very in-depth and interesting relationship with his religion and his relationship with god also he's the sexiest man ever to be conceptualized in the known universe and all of time

Will never forget the 40+ minute monologue in heavens feel being a thinly veiled metaphor for abortion

he wants to torment churchgoers and make them face their failures and suffering but all he ends up doing is motivate them to improve themselves. cringefail moment for him

he's absolutely insane. the coldhearted mercenary that barely reacts to anything is terrified of kirei. he's super fucked up. his ult in stay night is literally him channeling divine power into something called kyrie eleison. he's the vessel of rasputin (on account of being a priest with a huge....no i shant say) the biblical beast in grand order among other things. he gets drunk with and tops gilgamesh from the epic of gilgamesh in the church basement after gilgamesh from the epic of gilgamesh bats his eyes a little too hard at kirei in some of the horniest shot scenes ive ever seen. he also used to be a heretical "fixer" for the church, cleaning up scenes that would expose shit to the public. uhh what else. he holds cool swords between his fingers like a kid pretending to be wolverine but in my favorite route he just squares the hell up with the protagonist and they fight to the death outside planned parenthood

Firestar

Kitty jesus, he believes in starclan which is the kitty version of heaven/god and yea. All the warrior cats characters except those outside the clans or those that are atheist believe in the kitty heaven and would irl be bri-ish and christian as hell so. The authors are all older british christian women and so the way starclan is written is like undoubtedly that.

The main religion in the series is extremely catholic coded. Most clan cats believe in Starclan and the Dark Forest(or heaven and hell). There is a set of rule they must uphold and follow, where following them leads to heaven and breaking them leads to hell. Their religious leaders are sworn to celibacy, and the punishments that "code breakers"(or cats who break the rules) face are extremely similar to situations people with religious trauma have gone through.

OP notes: apparently converted to avoid getting his balls cut?? Idk. The discord yet wild for firestar so I had to include him because it's hilarious hehehe

#kirei kotomine #fate series #firestar #warriors #warrior cats #cct polls #tumblr tournament #tumblr bracket #tumblr polls

[honeyfizzly]

I think my most meta milgram theory is that all the prisoners relate to social issues in Japan (this was brought up by my friend but they don't have tumblr so I'm gonna post it here)

Haruka- ableism, specifically against learning disabilities. Haruka's story is all about how he was born "wrong" and how his mother didn't want him

Yuno- the abortion debate

Fuuta- online harassment and cancel culture

Muu- bullying, and how in social structures someone always has to push someone else down to be on top (the whole hourglass metaphor)

Shidou- curroption in the organ donation system, and how brain death is viewed in Japan

Mahiru- societal expectations of women, and the pressure to marry

Kazui- okay so since his crime is vague rn, either A. Cheating or if gay kazui theory is correct B. Lgbtq issues, could also be japan and it's issues with intimacy and how his wife felt unloved but he didn't realize

Amane- Japan and its history with cults

Mikoto- ableism against the mentally ill, and the "just endure it" view of mental illness in Japan which makes alot of people reluctant to reach for mental health help. It's probably why Mikoto seems to not realize he had DID or OSDD

Kotoko- curroption in the legal system, and how crime against women and children are often ignored by the police

#milgram #milgram analysis #milgram theory #i think this is meta #yuno kashiki #shidou kirisaki #mahiru shiina #kotoko yuzuriha #haruka sakurai #kazui mukuhara #fuuta kajiyama #muu kusunoki #amane momose #mikoto kayano

[dewitty1]

Fic Recs Wrap Up - June 2023(ノﾟ∀ﾟ)ノ⌒･*:.｡. .｡.:*･゜ﾟ･*☆

A day in your life by shushu_yaoi_lj @orange-peony

Harry sees it straight away, the white trail of the comet so bright despite the lights of all the buildings surrounding him. He feels a lump in his throat as he stops and stares at the moonless sky. Is he supposed to make a wish or a prayer? He checks that no one is looking his way and then he takes his wand and points it at the bright comet in the sky. He wishes to feel whole again. To feel happy and not so bloody lonely all the time. He wishes for a new life. Rec Post

Then Comes a Mist and a Weeping Rain by Faith Wood (faithwood)

It always rains for Draco Malfoy. Metaphorically. And literally. Ever since he had accidentally Conjured a cloud. A cloud that’s ever so cross. Rec Post

Most Arrogant and Loving of Men by Lomonaaeren

Harry knows very well that he’s showing the mask of the Savior to everyone around him—his friends, his lovers, his enemies—but he doesn’t know how to stop. The part of him that wants things to be different is selfish and greedy. He doesn’t see any way to express it and not have his life explode…until Draco Malfoy, of all people, realizes it’s there. Rec Post

the complete idiot’s guide to losing your entire mind by oknowkiss @oknowkiss

A primer, by Harry James Potter, age 34. Qualifications: lived experience. OR: Draco Malfoy, Ministry of Magic Being Resources representative, accidentally invents No Nut November. Rec Post

Where I see things right by InnerLilith

When Harry finds himself unexpectedly pregnant after a one-off with Draco Malfoy, he knows he isn’t keeping it. But when actually getting the abortion turns out to be more complicated than Harry expected, he finds himself turning to Malfoy for help through the process. And that’s actually much less complicated than Harry expected. Rec Post

When Trust and Truth Collide by silvergalaxy

Harry meets Draco for the first time in the employee break room on a boring Wednesday morning and they immediately hit it off. Chance encounters turn into dates, and dates turn into feelings. Oh, yeah. Draco’s also Harry’s boss. Harry has no idea. Rec Post

Debts and Desire by Craftybadger1234

Harry thinks they are dating. Draco thinks he’s serving a life debt. Hilarity ensues. Rec Post

Sweet is the fortune you give me by toutcequonveut  @cequonveut

Draco has worked hard to overcome his post-war struggles and is now the successful and proud owner of his own chain of Potions shops. Who cares if he’s lonely? Certainly not him! Then one day he comes across Harry Potter, Saviour of the Wizarding World, do-gooder to outshine all gooders and hero of the people—on the street without a Knut to his name. What else can Draco do but take him in? Rec Post

Here are a few more fics I've read recently that y'all might like to check out as well! (ﾉ^ヮ^)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧

Fool Me Twice by iota @sorrybutblog

The case seemed simple: follow the corruption, bring down the source. Draco just didn’t anticipate Harry Potter crashing in, taking a break from red carpets and nudey-rudey photoshoots to make a giant mess.

Or: Draco is an Unspeakable. Potter is an (unfairly attractive) thorn in his side. Featuring: spies, action, disguises, forced proximity, pining and more!

Inertia by cavendishbutterfly @cavendishbutterfly

It’s three months after the war. Harry has already mucked up all his plans. Draco is no longer the prince of Slytherin house. And they sure as hell didn’t both mean to go back to Hogwarts at the same time. Cue snarking, long conversations…and unexpected snogging.

This is the story of how Harry and Draco put their past aside. And then it's the story of how they finally learn to listen to it.

Eager for the Sky by oknowkiss @oknowkiss

It was announced, just as the Triwizard Tournament had been, at the start of term feast.

A year-long, international Quidditch varsity match — the inaugural Wizarding Academy Cup.

In which Harry is Hogwarts' star Seeker, Draco is on the bench, and they both have a thing or two to learn about playing for the same team.

Once Upon a (Wet) Dream by InnerLilith

Once a year, Harry has a very strange dream. Meanwhile, in real life, he’s falling for Draco Malfoy.

The Faeries, the Prince, and the Cupboard by makeitp1nk @makeitp1nk

In 1967, Roy Disney made a deal with a rare species of fae to build his brother Walt’s dream on their land. Forty-seven years later, that deal will change the lives of two wizarding families forever.

A story about stories, family, dreams, and love.

The Wonder of You by Ladderofyears @ladderofyears

A Family Man AU. In the year 2000, Harry left Draco behind in London, intent on America and Quidditch fame and never looked back. Thirteen years later, Harry gets the opportunity to see what his life could have been like, had his life unravelled in a different way. Nothing in Harry’s world is the same, but Harry soon comes to realise that fatherhood, marriage and the biggest, laziest Crup in Hogsmeade add to up a life he enjoys more than he could ever have imagined.

( •ॢ◡-ॢ)-♡ I hope you enjoy these fics as much as I have! Happy reading, y’all! xoxo Carey  (◍•ᴗ•◍)♡ ✧*💜💙💚💛❤💗💕💖

#Fic recs Wrap Up June 2023 #Fic Recs Wrap Up #Drarry Fic Recs #drarry #harry potter #draco malfoy #drarry fic recs #Fic Recs #Harry Potter fic recs #hp Fic Recs #Drarry fanfiction #drarry fic #hp fanfiction #hp fic #drarry fanart #smut #hp smut #hp fanart #hp #drarry squad #hd erised 2022 #Carey's bookmark fic Recs #Carey's Personal Bookmarks #My favorite Draco line from the movie - and it's and ad-lib! #Hermione gif #Snape gif

[dharmafox]

Thinking about how one of the running themes in Mononoke is the sacrifice of the young to the past.

In "Zashiki Warashi," Hisayo's victims are forced to abort their children because they are made to feel that it's their responsibility to work to pay off others' debts. They aren't allowed their own lives and the futures they choose with their children because they are burdened by past obligations. When Shino and her child appear, Hisayo also turns her violence on them.

In "Umi Bozu," Genkei sacrifices his own youth and future as well as his sister's by getting lost in his past regrets. He spends decades trying to resolve his guilt, and in the process he becomes an old man. When he resolves his entrapment in the past, his youth returns to him.

Ochou is made to feel responsible for regaining for her mother what she lost when her husband died. Ochou's childhood and future are sacrificed in an attempt to resolve the needs of the previous generation, and she ends up stuck in her own past while trying to resolve her mother's.

All of these stories are in some way about youth being lost in an attempt to redeem the past. They're about the present and future being sacrificed to a sense of obligation to redeem what is already gone.

These stories can be taken as metaphors for the consequences of guilt and regret. I've talked before about Mononoke as a representation of a mind, arguably the Medicine Seller's mind, wherein people are manifestations of the mind's feelings and ideas. Hisayo, Genkei, and Ochou's mother are aspects of the mind that cling to the past, unable to let it go and always struggling to redeem it. In so doing, they kill off, leave behind, and sacrifice those aspects that are newly emergent and have the potential to create a new future.

It's the Medicine Seller's appearance and influence as well as the actions of the humans around him that change this cycle. Shino protects her child and embraces the zashiki warashi; Genkei seeks out his sister; Ochou realizes the truth and leaves her past behind. The stories become about these identities escaping the grip of the past.

More simply, I think Mononoke is about the importance of living in the present. It's about accepting and nurturing what is instead of throwing it away for the sake of what was. On some level, I think the "mind" of Mononoke's world was trapped in the past, but always struggling to escape it, and Mononoke is the story of its escape.

#kusuriuri #medicine seller #mononoke 2007 #mononoke theory #oops that got long

[twothpaste]

Giegue/giygas for the ask game, maybe?

First impression: I learned about Giygas through internet osmosis long before I even thought to play EarthBound. All the usual "ooooh this game is secretly sooo dark" and "he's ack-chewally an aborted fetus, see, oooo" kinda shit. I remember it giving me the impression Mother was way scarier and edgier than it turned out to be. (I played games like OFF and Yume Nikki first though. So by the time I got around to Mother, it was very refreshing to play somethin bright & uplifting at its core, lmao.) (In retrospect, I kinda wish Giygas wasn't among the first things every prospective player is told about the EarthBound. Going into the Giygas battle blind seems like it would've rearranged my brain molecules, and I wish I'd gotten to experience it like that.) I forget when exactly I learned about Giegue (I didn't get to play M1 blind either), but I'm pretty sure my first impression was honestly pretty neutral? The imposing presence of a huge alien spaceship, 8-bit sci-fi machinery, and a barely legible creature in a capsule was pretty wicked to see for myself the first time though!

Impression now: Giygas is a big triple decker chocolate layer cake worth of metaphor & symbolism. The existential horror of growing up, the fear of losing who you fundamentally are in the process, the horrific inhumanity adults are capable of, the hopelessness of coming to terms with the world as it is, and so on. Not really a character per se, but the quintessential globular slurry of adolescent angst Ness & pals've gotta contend with. Giegue is a bittersweet little story about a broken family. An internal conflict between vengeance, familial love, and maybe where one's obligations lie? Cool antagonist for sure. I wanna like him more than I do (M1's cryptic hands-off approach to storytelling is hard for me to sink my teeth into 😔). I've speculatively written (and drawn a comic for the upcoming zine 😉) about how Giegue became Giygas, and read some good fics on the topic. In the canon we're given, though? There's really so little binding them together narratively or thematically… I have a difficult time reconciling the two, in the context of the games themselves. Mother 2 in general feels more like a reboot than a sequel - and there's hardly if any "lore" weaving Giegue & Giygas together - so Itoi's choice to declare they're one and the same just seems kinda odd to me. C'est la vie. Fan creators make do.

Favorite moment: The Giygas battle, but like, before he goes sicko mode. When he's bound to a chamber of wires and innards, reflecting Ness' face back at him, and it turns out our fervently raving buddy Porky is actually the one in "control". The atmosphere is so intense and unnerving, such a bizarre yet captivating way to ramp things up. There's like, this sense of stomach-churning dread, as you begin - if only scarcely - to realize the alien overlord you were expecting is an entity far more powerful and personal and helpless and incomprehensible than you ever could've imagined. I mean. You know, because the internet spoiled you when you were 11. But in the bigness of the moment it still makes my mitochondria itch on a primal and cellular level. /pos. Love it.

Idea for a story: My favorite Giegue thing is the vague implication (??) of whatever the hell George did to to him. Y'know, whatever made him hate humanity so much. Whenever I see fan content speculating on how George might've experimented on him or mistreated him I do in fact Feel Somethin' There. (I have been a sucker for angsty-creature-in-a-lab stories from the time I saw Mewtwo Strikes Back in kindergarten all the way to Guardians of the Galaxy Volume 3 a couple months ago, and I don't suppose I'll ever be sick of 'em.) The conflict it introduces between George and Maria is intriguing too. Like, her husband's treating her dearly beloved child like a science project? Trying to extract the secrets of PSI from his oversized alien brain?? You know if this kinda shit went down, those two were on a caliber of divorce drama the world has rarely seen.

Unpopular opinion: I really like Giegue design interpretations that're freaky and grotesque and biologically unfamiliar. When the beast isn't just mammalian in nature. Truly out of this world.

Favorite relationship: A mean-spirited but otherwise ordinary 13-year-old willingly aligned himself with the alien emodiment of all things evil. And the alien embodiment of all things evil willingly let the kid be his right-hand man. And I'm normal about it. EarthBound tells us basically nothing about how Porky n' Giygas' partnership in crime came to be, but speculating about it sends me into a shark frenzy. Porky seeking power over the world that wronged him, at literally any cost. Giygas weaponizing a child's worst, most vengeful impulses. Porky ultimately usurping Giygas, at least in terms of agency. Witnessing the absolute horror his "master" becomes, and simply sidestepping out of the universe itself to dodge the mess he brought about. I like to imagine there was a period where Giygas was still cognizant enough to maintain a rapport with Porky - and that the two of them fucking hated each other. Both of 'em using the other as a means to an end, assured in the conviction they're the one with the upper hand. And they're kind of both wrong. Bloaw up da worl.

Favorite headcanon: Giegue/Giygas speaks (telepathically?) with a rural midwestern accent. Courtesy of the fine folks who raised him. Other aliens probably think it's weird and mondo cringe, but are too intimidated to say so.

#aw jeez i had more to say than i thought i would #thank you!! #ask tag #2thtalks

[pfaerie]

I mean i agree with you, but i been wondering since i SEE that everyone out of the lawrusso ship sime to love this season, are we the problem or is really that bad the thing with baby?

No, the redemption baby is a lazy and fully ass-backwards way to show Johnny's growth. Full stop.

Loved the season, hate the idea that Johnny Lawrence is having an accident redemption baby at 50 years old with a woman who is clearly just settling for him.

Like, the thing about Carmen is she exists SOLELY to be Johnny's moral Geiger counter and every time she does challenge Johnny, she's in the wrong. She doesn't want her well-adjusted, dorky kid to learn karate? Well, Carmen doesn't realize violent kids are bullying her son! She'll never understand the problems boys face! Carmen wants to start dating? Well, she's got bad taste in men and she'd be hurt if Johnny wasn't her stumbling white knight fixing her problems in the background. Carmen wants a certified physical therapist to help her son walk again after a traumatic accident? Well, little did you know, Carmen, insane people with cinder blocks and skin mags are actually the remedy for that.

And then the salt in the wound is the formulaic near-end-of-season forgiveness speech from Carmen to assure Johnny he was right all along or he gave it his best go (that is, assuming, the writers remember to give her any fucking lines).

I think the reason ppl who ship lawrusso hate the accident redemption baby so much is because it's yet another thing Happening to Johnny and it's not a conscious effort. The kick to the face HAPPENED to Johnny and he didn't get over it. Kreese strangling him in a parking lot HAPPENED to Johnny and he's traumatized. Mr. Miyagi saving his life because Johnny couldn't (wouldn't?) break free HAPPENED to him.

The things I LOVE about Johnny in CK are the things he does on purpose (and half the time it's to spite Daniel). Daniel LaRusso lightly ribbed me when I needed help then proceeded to fix my car for free? Well, I'm going to open this dojo that's going to put me into so much debt, that'll show him. Daniel LaRusso is lobbying against my dojo joining the All Valley because I'm violent? Well, I'm going to make the effort to show I've changed even if it's just for 15 seconds because my kids mean more to me than punching him in his stupid face. Daniel LaRusso gifted me a car? On purpose, I am going to give it the stupidest paint job known to man and pfaerie specifically is going to think it's the ugliest thing on the planet bc matte paint on cars is UGLY but will still respect the choice because it was on purpose.

Like, the thing is Johnny Lawrence doesn't need to have another kid on accident to show growth. I hate this fucking metaphor that babies will help you settle down and plant roots. Lawrusso fans are actually so smart for believing Johnny Lawrence can and should find comfort and surprise in the familiarity of Daniel LaRusso.

Also it just would have been based as hell of Carmen to want an abortion after the whole Roe v. Wade fiasco in real life and I think the writers are cowards for it bc you know that Carmen won't be able to do her x-ray tech job while pregnant so guess who's entire personality is going to go from Mom-With-A-Demanding-Job to just Mom. :)

In conclusion:

[stealthnoodle]

Friends in Low Places: Let's Play Tears of the Kingdom

No plot, only hole.

I have finally sucked all the marrow from the bones of Hateno Village's quest scene, so I guess I'll move on, reluctantly but very fashionably.

Not to the main quest, though. I found a funky little cave nearby that led me to the beach and some handy boats parts, so it's a pirate's life for me now.

I hope at least one NPC just watched Link smack his motor to a halt in the middle of the sea and throw himself into the water grab handfuls of colorful fish, then barely make it back to his vessel before drowning. The Hero of Hyrule, everyone

My strategy for clearing the monster strongholds on PIRATE ISLAND involves a lot of hiding and hurling bombs and confusion flowers, like the noble swordsman I am.

I can clear out a pirate cove but clearing the pirates out of the nearby fishing village keeps resulting in their using my ass to swab their metaphorical deck, so I'll wander elsewhere for a bit.

This thing will kick my ass, right? Just absolutely demolish me without breaking a sweat? Let's find out:

Called it!

Gonna throw myself into Charybdis over here instead of at Scylla again, on the grounds it can't possibly go worse for me.

…Huh, finally a stupid thing I've done is both survivable AND in fact a thing I was intended to do:

Speaking of stupid things, here I am solving a "we took all your equipment, good luck" combat challenge:

Anyway I just remembered I paid ten Poes for directions to an underground Poe-buying statue, so down I go!

This thing will not be my friend even if I ask it very nicely. See, I am capable of learning!

However, I remain incapable of learning that when I talk to random researchers in the chasms, they will turn into assassins and come after me. Every time I come up like, hello new friend! Lovely day here in the depths, isn't it? I say, what a remarkably swift change of clothes! Are you asking me to admire your sharp knives? I'd be more than happy to, but it's difficult for me to see them clearly when they're moving so quickly at my vital organs, my good chum!

OH my GOD I can magically autobuild from blueprints??? I am WEEPING with joy. Best power. BEST POWER.

AUTOBUILD MY BELOVED

Why, how lovely to make your acquaintance in this dark corner of the chasm, my good fellow! Please do regale me with tales of your research! Researching the sharpness of swords, are you? Splendid! I don't mind telling you that the one you're swinging about now is exceedingly sharp!

MISSION ABORT:

Hail and well met, my studious fellow! Why yes, I would be most eager to hear about your dissertation! On the topic of stabbing, is it? Of course I'd be delighted to participate in your research!

Call me Spider-Man's ill-fated Broadway debut because I sure am turning off the dark:

Okay let's remember the world above for a bit. I'm too beautiful to hide myself away forever:

I enjoyed getting the musicians across a river because they complain a lot about being jostled but I still got to swing them dangerously around quite a bit before they put their fancy feet down. Idk why I'm bothering with Great Fairies, though, because they never want to let me enhance the only clothing I care about.

Another thing I enjoy: abruptly realizing I have been misinterpreting the eye parts of the steward constructs. Pretty sure the game wants me to see the image on the left, rather what I've been seeing on the right:

#stealthnoodle plays loz: tears of the kingdom #tears of the kingdom #totk spoilers #i dyed my puffy snowpants pink and now they're perfect #i still can't see the stewards correctly #big ol' bulbous eyes are simply too ingrained at this point #i also need to remember that my tablet selfies disappear if i die before saving #before i waste several minutes getting the perfect shot on top of a giant skull #only to lose it forever #rip

[rarepair-haven]

(I'm not the biggest fan of Lust Papyrus. He reads as VERY manipulative to me and I write him accordingly) so they end up to each other like magnets (metaphorically) once they realize just how much they have in common. (They later meet NEO from a canonverse aborted Genocide run and make a polycule of it but I'm mostly into them as a duo) I'm pretty sure it's literally just me and a few mutuals I've infected with it that ship it, I'm dying Squirtle. I'd love to join the server if you're interest

(Part two)

Mettatons in mettalove I’m obsessed with them op. Also you’ve opened my eyes to the idea of underlust papyrus being highkey not the greatest I never thought of it before but you’re so right

#mod classic #ask #mettacest

[idiopathicsmile]

Summary:

Yes, Hecate somehow communicates. Blackbeard’s heart is with the one called the Gentleman Pirate. Return Blackbeard his heart, and presently, and the man will be made whole once more. First of all, nobody calls that ponce the Gentleman Pirate but himself, Izzy starts. Then he pauses, takes in the rest of Hecate’s words. Interesting. You’re saying all I have to do is cut out Stede’s heart from his body and give it to— No! Hecate shakes her large, rough gray head. No, oh my god, no. Have you heard of metaphor? Are you familiar with fucking—flights of fancy, figures of speech? The surest way to make Blackbeard okay again is to reunite him with Stede Bonnet, is that clear enough, you complete and utter maniac?

[Prompt from NyquilPlot: essentially, Izzy realizes the error of his ways and decides the only way to fix it is to work with Lucius and Jim to trick Ed and Stede into reuniting. Featuring a bonus Frenchie, several dubious schemes, and a brush with what is definitely either a primordial goddess of the deep, or a hallucination of a seacow. Happy birthday to Tweedle Dipshit from NyquilPlot, hope you enjoy it!

Link here.

Note: I am still taking fic prompts in exchange for donations to abortion rights groups; more info here!]

#ofmd fic #ofmd fanfic #our flag means death fic #alcohol mention

[kennieswrld]

I Always Want To Die (Sometimes)

TW! Talks of suicidal ideations, graphic details of abortion and an overarching reference to the 1975.

Three days ago I planned to end my life. I was going to take all of my sleeping pills at once as well as my mood stabilizers. Life felt (and still kinda does) worthless and undeserving of my time or energy. I just wanted to end the numb and dull void that had began growing in my chest since my breasts began to develop.

Most will say that being "emo" is "just a phase" and that "most people grow out of it". I never realized until today that I am not one of those "most people". At first it was a fun and world bending way for me to express myself and take in- (never finished this sentence and I have no idea what I was going to say nor how I was going to finish this paragraph. Maybe it's my love for loving the unknown but I wanted to keep this thought here for a sentiment to the emotions I was going through while writing this at the time. Like where was this going? What was I even trying to say?)

Waking up everyday in absolute depression because you didn't choke on your own spit in your sleep? Yeah buddy, that's not normal. Isolating yourself from the world and pretending that the people on TV understand you better than yourself? That isn't normal. Planning your own death and writing out your own will and eulogy? Not. Normal.

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That introduction was an attempted post I began writing around 3 months ago from when I'm writing this now. Boy oh boy do I feel like hiding behind my shadow to see my raw emotions in writing. It's weird how in the 3 months since things and feelings have changed drastically. Yet that small voice in the back of my thoughts can still be heard some days.

It's kinda funny revisiting this draft of a post every now and then because I know what prompted me to start writing it in the first place. I was stood up on a date. As humiliatingly dramatic this reaction is to read now, it opened a lot of doors for me.

I still want to disappear sometimes. It comes and goes, it's a packaged deal with living with bipolar. But staying alive 3 months longer is insanely insane (double insane because wow is it a whirlwind of emotions). Over the past few months I've lived my life in a way I have never lived before. I overcame my fear of being happy.

I put myself out of my comfort of my room with my cat. I actually tried continuously communicating with people I enjoyed spending time with instead of listening to my inner selves doubts and anxieties. I let myself become vulnerable to another person who wasn't my closest friend for the first time in ages. And I had an abortion.

It's funny to think that most of my life ending thoughts and intense emotional ranges weren't from my bipolar, but rather my body preparing herself to create a tinier body within itself. It's a comedic blessing in disguise that he stood me up that day. Who knows if I would've even found out about my condition as fast as I did if I were more focused on another person than my own self? I think of that often.

Would I have not payed more mind to the uncomfortable abdominal cramps I was having? Would I have become someone's mother? Would I have become someone's reason for creation that they would've never had the chance to meet in person? Would I have gone through with the loud sobs going through my mind every day during those tumultuous 3 weeks?

I guess it's better to not know. Well, obviously it is since I don't have to live in any of those realities that I often catch myself thinking of. But, the idea of ending my life feels so beyond me now that I've made a life decision to keep my life the way it is rather than inviting a new one in (Totally not saying that the bloody golf ball that fell out of me was a 'life', it's more of a metaphor. For me at least. Please for the love of God support people's choices on what they want to do with their lives and not your opinion on what they should do). I find myself about it a few times every other week if I wallow in myself long enough, but not nearly as much as I did then.

Living with my bipolar and discerning how intertwined it is with who I am has been a rollercoaster to say the least. I have my up's and I definitely have my down's, but since the day I went to the doctor to receive that life altering pill I've felt different. I'm not guilty nor am I depressed over the decision I made that day, but I feel like it was the loudest alarm I've ever woken up to. I needed to climb out of the casket I was allowing it to bury me in.

I overcame my fear of never fitting in and became close friends with people I never thought I would've met during that time in my life. I met a girl who unknowingly to her aided me in visualizing how far deep in my head I was renting for the price of my mental health. For the first time in the 20 years I've been alive, I felt normal and as if I belonged somewhere. I still don't know what I'm doing with my life or where my future will take me, but it's less of a dead end feeling as it used to be. It is what it is. I can't worry about things I have no control over. But, I can enjoy every second I have in this disgusting yet beautiful planet.

I let myself experience loving another person and allowing them to love me back in the most intense way possible. But unlike my past attempts with romantic relationships, I learned how to truly empathize and absorb the differences my partners come with and what it takes and means to love someone properly and honestly. Not for the sake of just doing it just to feel less lonely than when alone. They met me after the ceasing the growth of the could've been big eyed parasite that tried growing in me. As cheesy as it sounds, I felt like it was the end of my story but they helped me start a new chapter. They helped me stare my self-made misery in the eye, and punch it's ugly face in the nose. To trust someone else's words and apply them in my day to day has brightened my days for the better. I thank every deity that could exist for the time spent with that person. Without their presence in my life I don't know how I could have processed that experience alone.

It's funny that this has sounded as if I'm super optimistic everyday but I know if depression drives into my life again my tone will shift from how it sounds now. But maybe it's good that I'm vocalizing the stability and happiness I've curated for myself in the past three months, maybe it will give me hope to live to see the future. Hence the title of this post. I want to learn more on how to bolden the 'sometimes' and strike out the always.

I'm not writing this for your pity, I'm writing this to give myself hope. And maybe anyone who reads this...mostly for myself though because I know I need to see myself saying what I'm thankful to be alive for when my illness tries to stuff me back in that cold and dark casket. It feels isolating living with this illness most days, but I'm not the first nor am I the only person dealing with this. Fuck, even people without bipolar feel this way sometimes. It's nice to know that your sadness isn't permanent, you're just afraid of not being sad because it's all you know. I'm so glad I got that abortion, I'm even happier I didn't let that tiny voice win. I have a cat to feed, and he needs me more than any dark thought that voice tries to convince me with.

tldr: putting my hand on the burning stove really made me change.

#journal #living with bipolar #dear diary #just girly thoughts #bipolar #writing

[catholic-character-tournament]

Round 1 - Resurrect Bracket (Losers Bracket) Side B

ashes to ashes, dust to dust; in sure and certain hope of the Resurrection to [make it to the finals]

Propaganda below ⬇️

Kirei

He fucked up so many people's lives so badly in just one decade (not on purpose) that the universe put him in the summoning pool of all world influencing souls. He doesnt really have any special powers but he does serve as a vessel for rasputin at one point. He's the guy who says "people die when they are killed"

please please please there's literally a type moon character in the gif on the top of this form so it's typemoonphobic if none of them get in but it shouldn't be her it should be kirei bc he's 50x funnier & more iconic than jeanne. funny lil murder priest who's fucking THE gilgamesh (from the epic of) in the church basement and dies in a knife fight w a 17 year old whose dad he wanted to fuck back in '94 before realizing that he was actually kinda lame and he's been bitter abt it ever since. he has an orphan torture factory in his basement but he's also canonically good at being a priest. he's so funny you should def try his mapo tofu i swear it's totally safe for human consumption and not made with any california reapers. did i mention he's a deadbeat dad.

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Priest claims to be Pro Life to make Sakura Matou the most miserable girl on the planet, but he dies anyway.

bro became a catholic because he loves suffering

He’s a priest. Kind of. Not a very good priest obviously. There is something seriously wrong and fucked up with that man. It’s so entertaining.

he's gotta be one of the most insane catholic men ever with a very in-depth and interesting relationship with his religion and his relationship with god also he's the sexiest man ever to be conceptualized in the known universe and all of time

Will never forget the 40+ minute monologue in heavens feel being a thinly veiled metaphor for abortion

he wants to torment churchgoers and make them face their failures and suffering but all he ends up doing is motivate them to improve themselves. cringefail moment for him

he's absolutely insane. the coldhearted mercenary that barely reacts to anything is terrified of kirei. he's super fucked up. his ult in stay night is literally him channeling divine power into something called kyrie eleison. he's the vessel of rasputin (on account of being a priest with a huge....no i shant say) the biblical beast in grand order among other things. he gets drunk with and tops gilgamesh from the epic of gilgamesh in the church basement after gilgamesh from the epic of gilgamesh bats his eyes a little too hard at kirei in some of the horniest shot scenes ive ever seen. he also used to be a heretical "fixer" for the church, cleaning up scenes that would expose shit to the public. uhh what else. he holds cool swords between his fingers like a kid pretending to be wolverine but in my favorite route he just squares the hell up with the protagonist and they fight to the death outside planned parenthood

Soap

Religious trauma coded. Popular hc that his family is Catholic.

He's gay and has a funny hair cut. Is that not enough to be Catholic?

he was such a bad bitch they had to kill him off in the third game bc he would've mopped the floor with the main antagonist otherwise. rip soap keep thotting it up in heaven we miss u every day

`!!!6ths -- propaganda by my kitten

#kirei kotomine #fate series #cct polls #tumblr tournament #tumblr bracket #tumblr polls #fate zero #fate stay night #soap mactavish #john mactavish #cod #call of duty #polls #r1sb

[aulel-process]

I didn’t make emotionally valent art in the past so much of this is new to me... I’ve realized expressing any form of emotion can be read in numerous ways... when I contrasted Tyrelliot with Jibaro, Love Death + Robots, I think some read it as creating accurate representation for love for those with disabilities (noble, humanitarian, I love it)... I think Jibaro might be too stylized/allegorical (references to spanish inquisition and greed and ego based unhealthy love as stated by the creator) ( 1 )... I think others took it to mean the metaphorical sense of feeling “unheard”... that is interesting too... all valid readings... I meant more so to convey that both relationships are characterized by wanting the seemingly impossible... that the less attainable something seems, the more appealing it becomes... which... I don’t understand people well enough to know... why we are the way we are...

I’ve realized it’s very complicated sharing any art with any emotional valence as it can be read in so many numerous ways (which is lovely but also complicated)... I feel like I need to state that the views of other artists are not my views and that how a person reads or interprets a work of art is also their interpretation and not my view... the numerous perspectives that can be layered onto any work of art can make it hard to be understood... I worry that any fragment of anything I share can be taken to be my perspective (i.e. a music video that shows women protesting for the right to abortion, means it’s my view... I’ve also shared Blonde, which has a strong anti-abortion stance... I’ve shared music that has Christian themes and people reach out wanting to connect over a shared devotion to Jesus (I am not Christian))... I am not disowning any perspectives, only saying that numerous readings are possible and that not every reading is my view...

I think the thing I miss about making art without emotion (architecture) is the emotional neutrality of the audience/creator relationship... but maybe that’s also the beauty of emotional art... I think... I can feel everything... I can feel a perspective though I may not agree with it (I can feel Marilyn Monroe’s lifelong distress over aborting a child and also someone who would fight for the right to have an abortion)... 

I also don’t want my art to be about constructing an identity... ideally, everyone can relate to every character, especially, hopefully one that is seemingly different than oneself (I’m actually terrible at real life empathy, I seem only capable of it with fictional characters)... Rami Malek is as much frontman of Queen, Freddie Mercury, as he is super introverted hacker Elliot Alderson.. I can see myself in Elliot, Tyrell, Bakugou, Deku, Marilyn Monroe, Achilles, Patroclus, Agamemnon, Sangwoo, Gihun... the list goes on and on... the creator of Squid Game said Sangwoo and Gihun are both sides of himself... 

I don’t enjoy shouldering differing emotions/perspectives/opinions... it causes me more distress than I would like when I feel like I need to frequently clarify I do or don’t feel a particular way about any particular topic... but I suppose that’s life... and there are... emotional questions that need resolution... 

[watching-pictures-move]

Movie Review | Shut In (Caruso, 2022)

The most notable thing about this movie and the reason I sought it out was the involvement of Vincent Gallo, who came out of retirement for almost a decade to appear in this movie. His participation can likely be explained by the fact that Gallo is an outspoken conservative and that this movie was produced by the Daily Wire, a conservative media company owned by a deeply unpleasant man who shall not be named and who is something of an intellectual hero to the right on the basis of many arguments where he DESTROYS the dumbest people on the left by talking too fast for them to keep up. Who could this person be? We will never know. But Gallo's involvement gets a lot harder to explain when you realize he has like ten, maybe fifteen minutes of screentime, or at least scenes where he's given some dialogue. Maybe he didn't read the script beforehand, but what I can say in favour of the movie is that his presence hangs over the rest of the movie. His portrayal of a pedophilic meth addict is so sleazy and so forcefully performed that he makes the movie around him feel a touch extra noxious. To the extent that Shut In works as a thriller, a good amount of credit goes to him.

Now, I have not seen the Daily Wire's other productions (I'm not particularly keen to support their work directly, and that school shooting movie sounds a little too vile even for me), but I understand that as far as explicitly conservative movies go, they're supposed to be closer to real movies than all those movies where Kevin Sorbo rails against atheists, abortions, antifa and probably Anthony Fauci. (I haven't actually seen those movies, I'm going by secondhand reports.) Given Dallas Sonnier's involvement as a producer, I can make a comparison to two Cinestate productions, Dragged Across Concrete and The Standoff at Sparrow Creek. Both of those are similarly grimy thrillers and can be read as right wing (although I think there's some ambiguity with the latter), but despite their politics, I think those movies know how to work as examples in their genre and are willing to muddy the moral waters of their protagonists. The heroine here is defined as a recovered drug addict who loves Jesus, and the movie has no idea how to make this dramatically compelling. We get long scenes of her looking longingly at the cross nailed on her wall, and one very long scene of her reading the bible. In the middle of a home invasion. Exciting stuff.

And her recovery from addiction is nominal, because the movie never depicts her as being even remotely tempted by drugs during the runtime. Some of this is the movie's gross views on addiction at play, as the drug addicts in the movie are almost comically evil and crippled by their addictions, and the movie makes the not terribly subtle metaphor of throwing out bad apples or cutting out the rotten bits (and does so repeatedly, meaning we get lots and lots of shots of apples). The movie posits that drugs are something only bad people and good people can never succumb to them because they're good people. Which, despite never having been near hard drugs in my life, reads as entirely dishonest to me. I recently watched The Boost, (starring James Woods, who shockingly enough hasn't shown up in one of these movies despite the views he's voiced through his deranged Twitter account), and 8 Million Ways to Die, and what those movies get (despite the former plunging into a worst case scenario style depiction), is the idea of constant temptation and threat of relapse. This one features the heroine being handed some supposedly high grade meth and batting nary an eyelash, instead scheming how she can use it against her assailants.

Aside from that, much of the movie has the heroine locked repeatedly in a pantry while her dumbass kid proves useless in helping her get out. Which means that it's pretty low wattage as far as home invasion thrillers go, although D.J. Caruso does provide some sturdy visual direction. That being said, the fact that the heroine's comically run down house looks like something out of a Conjuring sequel and is shot in fecal tones to boot means that it never registers as a real, lived-in space, which greatly undermines the immediacy of the premise. So no, I do not recommend seeing this movie, although Gallo's performance is pretty engaging and the few minutes of conscious screentime he has could be edited into a pretty tense short film.

#film #movie review #shut in #d.j. caruso

[strixcattus]

Conlang Year Day 62

A smidgen later than I usually post these, but I've finished all the spacial/temporal relation terms (that I could think of for now).

Joining poi, kosi, and siluda are the temporal terms paijo (simultaneously in a different timeline) and su (perceived at the same time, but not necessarily happening at the same objective time). I've also grammaticalized words for spacial relations: kazu (in front), zuila (behind), and nei (between).

If you're attentive, you might notice that a couple particularly common words haven't shown up—"above" and "below." That's because I didn't grammaticalize words for these terms. I just couldn't come up with anything I was happy with.

So I used the words for "head" and "foot," completely unchanged—lena and mato.

Constructions like "above the dog" can be distinguished from "the head of the dog" by the use of definiteness markers. Definiteness markers are mandatory for all non-general nouns, but left off of position phrases, like so:

Ki matoto: Feet Ki matoto ko la miena: A dog's* feet Mato ko la miena: Below a dog* Kazu ko la mijei: In front of a house Zuila ko la mijei: Behind a house Nei ko jia mijei: Between the houses

*The original word just means "pet" etc. I keep saying I'll stop adding footnotes.

Lena and mato can also be used in a metaphorical sense—kind of like how, in English, we can say things like "foot of the mountain" to mean "base of the mountain." In Conlang, that's the default way to form such constructions, like so:

Lena ko ja kama: Above the mountain Ja lena ko ja kama: The top of the mountain/the peak Mato ko ja mona: Under the sea Ja mato ko ja mona: The bottom of the sea/the seafloor (seafoot?)

All relative (and temporal, just to get this out of the way) positions use the locative particle. Metaphorical constructions like the ones above can make use of any local particle, like so:

Nai tio ja koju dio lena ko ja dizou. The heart is above the liver. Nai tio ja dizou dio mato ko jia zesese. The liver is below the lungs. Nai tio ki kili ki ja zujina. Nerves run through the spine.* Lio tio ja siza da ja mato ko ja kama. The person walks away from the base of the mountain. Pasi tio jia denegege se ja lena ko ja jumini. The birds sit near the top of the tree.

*This sentence doesn't use any of the new relative positions—just taking a second to point out two things. First, case particles kui, se, and in some uses ki are also used for some relative positionings—"in," "near," and "through." Second, I'm only now remembering that I realized the perlative particle ki is identical to the indefinite plural marker ki, decided it didn't matter (this was back when I thought I might stick the definiteness markers onto the case particles—did I mention I was planning to do that for a few days? There were a few days when I was planning to do that; the tables got too complicated and I aborted mission.), forgot about it, and then realized it again down the line. I briefly considered changing the indefinite plural marker to distinguish them, but decided it ultimately wasn't too big a deal—homonyms happen and these two shouldn't be too easy to mix up, since noun phrase structure is rigid—if you see two words preceding a noun, the former is the case particle and the latter is an article, and if you only see one, it must be the case.

#conlang #time travel conlang #conlang year

[chiefmuffinmuncher]

either way, just. I really don't want to share without vibe checking you through an actual conversation because rn you're not passing the vibe check and I'd be directly handing you a roadmap for how to fuck a person's hormones dangerously, and I'm not that stupid. you can do your own research on DIY MtF hrt and have your selection of shit you can pair while "playing" with someone who trusts you (and no, I'm not giving you a roadmap to how to use BDSM to get away with medical abuse, either).

if you want to see a lot of people who are into exactly this, either only in fantasy or only consensually, or who might be coping with similar experiences by fetishizing it, as well as some who probably are just the same as that one but keeping it off their TERF blogs, just search "detrans kink" and such. while theirs seems to be very about social transitioning, I didn't know that this person was a TERF (TERF, not just transphobe) until I took off a [physical, not a metaphor - fuck life literaturing me] blindfold myself. it sucks to be fucked out of your mind, have someone doing great aftercare, only to realize what's actually happening and hear them admit it and try to "peak" you into a TERF then and there.

rape is how they force us to detransition, "for the baby" and "it's illegal to abort the baby" when dick is involved. rape is how they convince us to kill ourselves, when it is and when it isn't.

I said I was going to ignore you until you came off anon, but you piqued my interest with the detransition thing before you came off anon.

I'm t4t with no interest in detransition kink myself(in fact it kind of squicks me). I'm entirely uninterested in detransitioning anyone against their will.

Let's address the point about roe vs Wade. 52% of the population is female. Trans people are 2% at max. Stating that roe v. Wade getting over turned with the intention of affecting 2% of the population and that the 52% is just collateral to fuck over trans people is fully divorced from reality.

It sucks that someone tried to detransition you against your will through kink, they are an asshole and an abuser. I never argued that terfs don't hate trans men or target them. I argued that the way terfs target, speak about, and regard trans women is more hateful.