#and you are allowed to just……. default……..

[basketonthedoorstepofthefbi]

“patience” - hotch x fem!reader

aaron visits you after a long case and wants you badly

cw: MDNI! implied smut? smut adjacent? Pre established relationship. I dunno I just wanted making out with hotch

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Why does he look hungry for you? Why does he look like he wants to eat you, literally eat you, like a cannibal? You stand in the doorway of your apartment, staring at him across the threshold. “Hi,” you say after the silence has become unbearable.

“Hi. Sorry,” Aaron snaps out of it, and you watch his tongue jut out to moisten his lips. “Can I come in? I wanted to see you,” he admits.

“Yeah, of course,” you step aside and allow him in, and lock the door behind him. “You know it’s like, super-late, right?” You ask, running your hand over your face. You’re in a matching pajama set that has colorful ice cream cones printed on it and you have your hair wrapped up in one of those heatless curling rods, making the lustful look on Aaron’s face all the more confusing.

“I know, honey, I’m sorry,” he sighs, stepping towards you and pulling you by the wrist. You let him wrap you in his arms. He smells of airplane and that Irish spring-scented soap. “I should have called first. I have a one-track mind when I’m this tired.”

“Where’s Jack?” You ask. You always want to make sure Aaron’s putting his little boy first, and he always does by default. But you never want Aaron to think you want to be prioritized over his son.

“At his aunt’s. I didn’t want to wake him up this late - he’s got a big test tomorrow,” Aaron mumbles as you wrap your arms around his torso and run your nails lightly over his back. Through his suit jacket, he feels thick like an encyclopedia.

“But it was okay to wake me up?” You tease, pulling back to smirk up at him.

“You don’t have a big test tomorrow, do you?” Aaron asks all-knowingly. You shake your head - no, you don’t. Just the same menial job you’ve been at for nearly a year. Aaron kisses your forehead. “That’s what I thought.” He places one hand over your shoulder, and his thumb brushes over your hair. He chuckles softly as the heatless curl rod in your hair, his thumb pressing into it curiously. “And what is this contraption for?” He asks.

“To curl my hair,” you say indignantly. “Beauty doesn’t come easily, you know.”

“Sure it does,” Aaron muses in that far-off voice, and you wonder for a second if your All-American Straight Shooter Poster Boy for Sobriety was high. “You make it look like a cakewalk,” he adds, and you shake your head. Not high, then. Just tired.

“Long case?” You ask, stifling a chuckle as Aaron backs up towards the sofa, tugging you gently with him. He sits down and you follow suit, tucking your feet under your rear and turning to face him.

“Very long,” Aaron grimaces. You run your fingers through his hair - it’s so soft. How is it so soft? He was just in South Dakota for five days straight. When does he find the time for hair care? “I missed you. Can I… can I just touch you, Y/N?” He asks. “Please?”

The fact that you are braless, in a matching pajama set, and have the hair of a carnival performer is not lost on you. He really must have missed you, to want to come over here as soon as the plane lands, to want to see you so badly. How could you possibly say no to such a request?

You nod your head, reaching forward to help him out of his suit jacket. He folds it neatly over the side of the couch, taking his time to purposefully drive you crazy.

Aaron’s smirking subtly as he reaches for your wrists. His index and middle fingers glide up your arm, following your veins torturously, and you move to straddle him against the couch. His hands are on your hips in an instant as your knees press into the couch cushions.

He’s rubbing your lower back as you lean down to kiss him. It’s slow and gentle, as if to ease him back into it after his week out of state. You coax this desperate, thickly-lined sigh out of him, and when you pull back with an arched brow, he’s smiling at you sheepishly. “It was a really, very long case?” He proffers as explanation, and you exhale amusedly through your nose.

“You can just say you missed me,” you suggest.

“I did already.”

“You can just say it again,” you counter, reaching up to cup his face with your hands. He leans into your touch. He blinks those big dark eyes at you a couple times and smiles slowly as you continue speaking. “You can say it until my ego is so inflated that I have to move into a bigger apartment.”

“An ego that big would be a fire hazard,” Aaron jokes. You swipe your thumb across the apple of his cheeks. He leans his head forward and his lips are pressed against your ear. He complies in a low voice that pours out as smooth, expensive whiskey. “I missed you.” He kisses the space just below your earlobe. “I missed you.” He kisses the side of your jaw. “I missed you.”

Your knees wobble as your hips roll forward. Your body is entirely liquid as Aaron pulls his head back and gauges your expression. “Aw, honey,” he teases, squeezing your hips tightly. “You’re blushing.”

You kiss him instead of trying to come up with a quippy response. Any wittiness has oozed out of your brain at this point as your tongue goes rogue, juts out to part Aaron’s lips. He allows you passage and you’re gliding your tongue along his teeth and dancing around his. A needy mewl escapes you and Aaron’s lap goes firm and hard beneath you.

You pull back and see how red his cheeks are. “Who’s blushing now?” You tease, feeling powerful and victorious. Aaron lifts one hand to cradle your face, thumb on your cheekbone. The rest of his fingers are splayed behind your ear and you feel every single one of his nerve endings against yours.

You can’t help yourself.

You’re the cannibal now, as you lean forward and kiss his neck - god, his neck. Your lips are hungry as they trail along his throat, kissing briefly and nipping here and there, and your hands are desperate as they comb through his hair.

He’s sighing, deep and coarse and throaty, and you keep kissing him, wanting to coax out as many of those noises as possible. His hands are everywhere as both your gears kick into overdrive. You’re mapping out his neck and his jaw with your mouth and Aaron’s ginormous hands are sliding freely under the ice cream pajama top. The pads of his fingers make your stomach flutter, and he’s sliding his hands up, up, up to your breasts.

You feel like a teenager going to second base in the back of a car. “Take my shirt off, Aaron,” you whisper, and he gives a low chuckle.

“Yes, ma’am,” his voice is hoarse and amused as his hands slide out from under your shirt to undo the cheap plastic buttons. “I like it when you’re assertive, you know,” he says, and you watch his fingers deftly slide the buttons through the holes.

Your shirt is off and your nipples are instantly reminded that you do not have a bra on. The cold air of the living room hits them and they perk up. Aaron’s staring directly at them like he’s about to interrogate them.

“Hey,” you snap your finger, and his eyes click up to yours. “Eyes up here, buddy.”

“You’re ridiculous,” Aaron laughs tenderly. “You just asked me to take your shirt off. How am I supposed to just not look at them?”

You shrug your shoulders. “I dunno,” you concede. And when Aaron’s hands are sliding up your torso again - so warm and calloused, his hands - you inhale sharply. Anticipation was never something you were good at. His fingers spread away from his thumbs and he’s cupping your breasts. You watch him. He’s like a little kid at an aquarium, awe-struck and sensitized, as he kneads your breasts.

Thumbs swipe over your nipples and your breath catches in your throat. You whimper, and Aaron presses his head forward.

His forehead is flush against your sternum and your arms instinctively loop around his neck as he buries his head into you. You stifle a girlish giggle when his lips kiss your breasts - left, then right - and then he’s sucking on the skin and pulling it between his teeth. You could die right now, you realize, and you’d be blissfully happy.

Your hips roll forward again, on instinct, and your center is so hot and desperate for friction that you reach down for it. Aaron catches your hand before you can even pull at your waistband.

He kisses the inside of your wrist and looks up at you. “I’ll get there,” he promises. Aaron’s dark eyes are lustful and you can tell just by looking at him that this was his plan all along. You don’t mind at all being a source of comfort for him.

“I want you so bad,” you exhale breathily.

“It’s going to be a long night, honey,” he vows. “But you’ll get what you want eventually.”

#basketonthedoorstepofthefbi #criminal minds fic #criminal minds #aaron hotchner x you #aaron hotchner x reader #hotchner x reader #hotch x reader #aaron hotchner imagine #hotch fic #aaron hotchner fic #criminal minds aaron hotchner #Hotchner x you #aaron hotchner fanfic

[paintbrushnebula]

Just now realized that we're gonna get to see what Gwen intentionally *trying* to flirt looks like

bc like the few times when she said really sentimental things to Miles in ATSV weren't her intending to be romantic. Like the part where she said "What I always think: You're Amazing" was the most affectionate thing she's said to Miles so far, but that was her being unusually candid out of the heavy emotion she was feeling at that moment, not genuine flirting (at least not to her).

But if she's gonna be trying to make up with Miles and maybe doing some mmhmmhmm rizzing...

And I just think that will be Very Funny to watch.

Because you see the thing with Gwen is that she's not used to being open and vulnerable, so she isn't used to just saying how she feels about someone. I think that's why her love language is physical touch.

This is probably totally me projecting, but I always interpreted that physical touch is Gwen's default way of showing affection because expressing affection with words is much more difficult for her to do. It's like her way of expressing love where words fail her. It's kinda all she thinks she's capable of giving.

(Anyone who knows me knows I'm rather touchy too. With my siblings, parents, family, etc. It's always kisses, hugs, gentle arm squeezes, all that. So I relate to this aspect of Gwen's character a lot)

But obviously, physical affection isn't enough anymore. It's cute and highly appreciated, but it won't reveal everything that lies in the heart, or explain what she believes. It's pretty clear by the end of atsv that Miles will need some words from her. Some good words.

Now what's funny to me about Gwen's rizzing potential is that we've seen what it looks like when Gwen is trying to impress someone without knowing how good her chances are. She tried to make a good impression with Miles' parents, but got really awkward and cringed at herself after every attempt at banter or friendly conversation. This was different from how she interacts with the people at the Spider Society because superheroing is her element. It's something she knows she's good at, so there's no self doubt. But Gwen's a fish out of water in domestic situations. I mean, think about the scene where Gwen invites Miles for a swing around New York. The scene that follows very clearly resembles a date, despite the fact that it's not what Gwen meant when she called him out of his window. I think that Gwen had thought about how this could've looked like she was asking him out, then proceeding to shut down any thoughts like that, denying herself that they were on a date, despite that that might've been where her mind had been. Sidebar, I headcanon that during that scene, Miles did allow himself to pretend they were on a date. But anyway, this moment still has Gwen in her element because she's calling him out to swing around the city as spider-woman. It's certainly not the same as asking to casually hang out in civilian clothes to grab a bite or whatever, which would've been much more domestic, which would've been much more difficult for Gwen to attempt at. Gwen knows what the odds are when she's Spider-Woman, but she doesn't know the odds when she's Gwen Stacy.

Gwen not knowing the odds of something working out is what actively keeps her down throughout ATSV before she returns home. She acted with pessimism, and if the chances weren't high, she didnt want to commit herself to trying something that might not work out in the end--a similar outlook I had and still kinda do have, albeit toward my creative endeavors, not romantic relationships (I don't really have experience in that arena tbh)

But now after ATSV she's throwing caution to the wind with Miles, she's gonna face the music and use words this time. And some of those words, might be romantic! Gwen is gonna have a lot to say to Miles, there's so much she'll want to express to him--has been wanting to express to him for 2 years now! A lot of gushy mushy sweet stuff perhaps! Perhaps some rizzy words, yknow? And knowing Gwen, they're probably gonna have a hard time coming out the way she'd like! And it'll probably be very funny!

for us anyway

Ahh, the mythic struggle beauty of being an introvert.

#Nebs Has a Voice and He'll Use it #made new tag for my 'sharing my thoughts' posts. hope you like it ^^ #atsv #spiderverse #across the spiderverse #miles morales #spider man: across the spider verse #gwen stacy #spider gwen #ghostflower #gwiles #gwen x miles #miles x gwen #ghost spider #atsv miles #atsv gwen #beyond the spiderverse

[vro0m]

Some spontaneous thoughts on the Chain Bear tweets.

While I fully agree on the mythification of Senna and the role of the context of his death in that, and how he's being worshipped practically by default generally without nuance and without question nowadays

The whole part about drivers looking up to him even though they hadn't been born when he was alive is a bit weird imo? I get that Chain Bear's point was that they love his legend rather than the actual Senna which : yes, absolutely correct.

But 1) plenty of us are fans of artists, for example, who've been dead for ages. Setting Senna's character and the question of whether he should be an idol or not in the first place aside for a second, I love Kurt Cobain. He died 3 months before I was born. Does that mean I'm not allowed to be a fan of his? The young drivers aren't less justified in liking Senna than the older ones. In some way the opposite could be argued. The young ones have been fed the legendary version of him while the oldest ones had the opportunity to see him for who he was before his deification.

And in a wider sense 2) isn't that generally what happens when you don't know someone for real anyway? Like aren't we all in a sense fans of personas or legends rather than real people? Both older and younger drivers are just fans like all of us in a way. Senna's their blorbo and they're irrational about him like we are about them + in a wider sense it's expected of them to worship him in the F1 world. Not saying it makes it okay-er but I think it should be pointed out as context.

Death is a hell of a pass for all sorts of things because "don't speak ill of the dead" and I definitely believe we should revisit Senna's legacy with a nuanced era-relevant critical mind (and of course everyone has an individual responsibility in this including everyone in the paddock) + rethink the whole glorifying death thing F1 has got going.

However I think when they were born, which I see a lot of people focus on, shouldn't be the point. Senna's character + his driving + the silencing of the bad parts + F1's relationship to danger and death that leads us to these weird celebrations of someone's death 30 years later should be the point.

#untagged

[gxthicupid]

𝙃𝙄𝙎 𝙎𝙒𝙀𝙀𝙏𝙃𝙀𝘼𝙍𝙏

💭 @multifandom-hcs Hello!! I hope you are having an excellent day / night! May I request some dating Macaque hcs?? Please and thank you! ^^

💬: Thank you so much for the request. I'm sorry I have taken so long to finish. I hope you enjoy : )

➨ Let's be real here. Macaque has never been in a relationship before. Probably a fling or two with someone in the past, but didn't have enough experience to understand deep connection romantically.

➨ So he's just as new and awkward as you are. But he doesn't want you to know that. He'd hide his awkwardness and nervousness behind his charismatic charm in the beginning of your relationship.

➨ I feel like Macaque would most likely have tons of boundaries for you to respect until he allows it to be surpassed. Since you know, his previous strongest relationship ended so badly, he doesn't want to talk about how bad it affected him.

➨ So go soft on him. He's trying his best to be there for you, but he does want to be respected for his privacy. Wait until he's ready.

➨ But I think, if you manage to break down those walls he’s build up, he eventually become more open and try to is willing to be a lot more genuine with his affection towards you, as being a tease and flirtatious were the most romantic he could ever be before trusting you with listening to his problems.

➨ Also I'd think he wouldn't show that kind of vulnerability in front of anyone else except you. He is NOT going to put up with Wukong and his nonsense.

➨ I headcanon that Macaque is more touch starved than Wukong. Don't get me wrong, Wukong is touch starved for sure, but I believe he's been surrounded by adoring fans as they see him as the ‘hero’, and no one really pays attention to Macaque.

➨ Macaque is definitely an introvert, but does consider taking you out for dates somewhere in Megapolis or somewhere isolated for the both of you to not get interrupted. I think he preferably wants to either cuddle or Netflix and chill at his dojo or your place.

➨ I'd assume as you and Macaque got to hang out with each other and understand your likes and dislikes, he would be able to do things to make you blush, smile or laugh; whether it's a little joke or a thoughtful gift.

➨ Macaque loves being intimate with you. Like, once he gets comfortable being physical, he'd start cuddling or pulling you close by the waist as he gently holds you.

➨ He won't say it out loud, but he will let you know that he adores you when you give him the same kind of treatment he does for you. Like if you were to seek the security of his arms as you casually on the couch, cuddling. Just you know that he internally cherishes that moment forever. Or if you shower him with kisses, Macaque will absolutely melt from the affection.

➨ I wouldn't say that he is extremely possessive over you (as much as most people seem to headcanon) I'd believe he entrusts you with defending yourself, but whenever things get too serious, then he steps in and protects you.

➨ When it comes to nicknames for each other, if you were to create nicknames that refer to his shadow abilities or moody demeanour, Macaque would eye roll, but deep down, feels flattered.

➨ However, the nicknames that he'd give to you would be like babe, sweetheart, darling and lovely. These were the default pet names in the beginning before he got creative, like referring to you as cutie, babycakes, sugar, doll, and his personal favourite: ✨ ️ sugarplum ✨ (I'm bad with coming up with nicknames)

➨ Judging from his liking to shadow plays and performing in general, I'd headcanon that he observes the romantic aspects to the play, and tries testing them on you to see which one you would like or not.

➨ While observing these plays, he developed his romantic language as he learned new compliments and picked up lines to use on you. But don't test him. If you try to be snarky about your flirting skills, he will immediately turn the tables and it will end up you losing and as red as a tomato.

➨ On the topic of Macaque being a theatre fanatic, BIG fan of music, especially musicals and classical music. He'd show his interest with you by letting you listen, and if you like his genre of music, both of you would end up talking about your favourite musicals or opera or whatever it is you like, and probably rant about the remakes that aren't as good as the original.

#lego monkie kid #lmk #lmk headcanon #macaque #lmk macaque #lego monkie kid Macaque #Six-Eared Macaque #lmk x reader #x reader #macaque x reader #six eared macaque x reader

[fortune-maiden]

Maybe it’s the high of finishing a fic for an exchange with a whole week left to edit

but I kind of want to join another exchange ;w;

#don't mind me having a moment #i mean I am already in another exchange and don’t have any concrete ideas yet #so that is a thing I need to do something about #I’m planning to throw some things at a wall and see what sticks this weekend #the tag set for the other exchange just looks very nice #and then there’s bulletproof which just looks wild but in a fun way #and you are allowed to just……. default……..

[dreemurr-skelememer]

im trans btw 👍 trans non-binary, if you didn't know

and it took me years of coping and a lot of self-evaluation to consider myself as such, so if it wasn't obvious, i'd like everybody to know

this identification is important to me and i just. wanted everybody to be sure that it matters to me and i am with everybody who chooses to identify with the word 'trans' in every way shape and form.

it is a part of me, a part of my whole being, and i don't want it to simply be treated as a label rather than my identity

#ive been so tired. this year has been tiring. #make of this post what you will but just know that i am trans #and by default transphobia is not allowed #have a good night. #kia talks shit

[anxiously-sidequesting]

Sometimes I have actually insightful and interesting things to say about w101 and other times I say useless things like I want to carry around Wizard101 NPCS under my arms like exhausted and surrendered cats while I swing them around and slap their backs and shoulders like I'm proudly showing them off to strangers

#brought to you by the persistent mental image of me carrying ceren around under my arm like a non-fragile package #also brought to you by the “well i can hold him like this” (shows a guy holding a kitten in a funky matter) tumblr post #i also like to do this with anyone's ocs. i like to grab them like they're tiny and pick them up by the waist like they're clueless kittens #me humming as i pick up malorn duncan nolan off the floor. they're strewn about with arms and legs spread wide because they're tired #wizard101 #w101 #wiz101 #text posts #im allowed to post something useless every now and then #i dont think of smart things all the time this is actually the default state. smart posts come like butterflies. not all the time #who do y'all imagine picking up like this and slinging ober your shoulder like a sack. ceren really is That Guy for me #i cradle malorn like he's fragile but i will just sling ceren and nolan over my back like bags of rice #i need to get some adequate sleep USKSJAOABSU

[astrangerlately]

#i know it's over #the smiths lyrics #pink #the smiths #glitch #this is literally just a default adobe stock text effect lmaooo but wever im allowed to post low effort stuff sometimes #lyrics #if you're so funny then why are you on your own tonight? #2 #lonely #min #eyestrain

[queensparklekitten]

time princess players how do y'all picture the MCs of every story

like since every set and piece of official art has a different hair colour, length, and style with every picture of them, and sometimes there's descriptions that don't match the images, which one do you go with

and do you make half of them look like your avatar or have your own designs

#dutp #time princess #when playing/viewing it through the ''story traveler'' lens #i often justify the hair colour changes in-universe by headcanoning that it's story kingdom magic that allows you to change your hair colou #by default i make half the mcs look like (taller versions of) me/my avatar (who's designed after me but with purple eyes) to some extent #but there are exceptions #like if the mc isn't white i'm obviously not gonna base her design off myself #except Maybe giving her my/my avatar's hair length #and if a spinoff shows the mc i'll often use that design #i always pictured zoya blonde until the salvia spinoff story came out and showed her with the light brown hair from that one set #it also described zoya as having black eyes which i went with #i didn't have a locked in eye colour headcanon for her before but i didn't really picture her with eyes that dark #probably because none of the album art gave her black eyes #though eye colours tend to be inconsistent in this game #nastia's described with gray eyes but that one album art gives her blue eyes #and on the flipside charlotte's described with blue eyes in one side story but her model doesn't have blue eyes #nor does at least one album art of her #i give virtually every mc long hair just because most of the hairstyles in those sets require it #i always picture cordelia with dark hair and ocean green-blue eyes #like a vivid teal colour. just fits someone whose name means ''daughter of the sea'' #and sometimes i have her stop shaving her legs when she becomes a pirate because a) she lives on a boat #and b) representation of her leaving behind that gilded-cage life of fancy etiquette and ''you must become a perfect wife and mother'' #in which she did everything society demanded of her at the expense of her own happiness #like yeah after escaping that i Will make cordelia stop shaving her legs. for the symbolism. and the fact that she lives on a pirate boat. #i always give aurora that pastel-almost-white shiny gradient dyed hair #because a) it's in half the sets b) it looks so so so cool c) it looks great next to the companions i ship her with #matches with novi and gives her a light-dark duality with selene's dark purple hair #idk her natural hair colour but i also give her the creepily pale eyes from Silent Night Rebirth #to match the pastel clothes she's so often in. this is not her natural eye colour either. hey that's p clearly a common thing in this city #i strongly doubt that selene's eyes are naturally that bright blueish purple

[lesbianralzarek]

#its fine if you stick with just 1 set of my pronouns for clarity. but like? its annoying when EVERYONE she/hers me exclusively #i get it. im a cis woman. but its obvious that everyone sees me as having a 'default' relationship with womanhood #as though its impossible for cis lesbians to feel alienated from other women and womanhood in general #whatever #currently overmedicated and doing gender-related introspection again #you know that bit in st//ar wars where theyre like 'you are on the council but we do not grant you #the rank of master'? thats me #'you are in this bathroom but we do not grant you the rank of woman' #like that ter//f talking point of defining woman as 'adu//lt human fem//ale' but if i met those criteria #and yet im still somehow not a woman #using those //'s so that i dont show up in those tags btw #absolute novel in the tags #but its my post and im allowed to do what i want #and that includes writing a goddamn novel in the tags

[mokeonn]

After doing a little bit of research (comparing the two different dvd boxes and playing with settings), it seems like the reason the better (extended) version of Muppet Christmas Carol isn't widely available compared to the lesser (theatrical cut) version is because it seems that the song cut is only available in full screen. There doesn't seem to be a wide-screen version of the extended cut available. So that's likely why the easiest to watch version is the theatrical cut, because Wide screen has become the default format.

And that's also likely why I didn't know there WAS a theatrical cut until after we lost and replaced the disk. The DVD we had was so old it only had full screen as an option, and the full screen version is the extended version of the movie.

Anyways, this is all just an educated guess. I didn't google the actual reason I just presume this based on what the boxes say, personal experience, and the fact that on the DVD that allows you to choose, full screen is the extended cut and wide screen is the theatrical cut.

#simon says #yeah so on my old ass dvd case it says that the runtime is 89 minutes and it is only a full screen movie #but on my parent's recent blu-ray it is a 86 minute movie and only available in widescreen #and the replacement disk we got after we mysteriously lost the old ass dvd allows you to choose #so wide screen is theatrical and full screen is extended #and most releases of it are the theatrical version because wide-screen is the default now #and I haven't seen a full screen version of the cut scene #so it's very likely that full screen releases got the song and they marketed it as a special treat #and once everything became wide screen they just stopped doing that #once again I did not fact check this I just looked at 3 dvds and used my personal knowledge of this movie #also I still dont know how we lost our first dvd #that was probably the first and only time we ever lost a disk and we tore up the house looking for it #couldn't find it so we just got a replacement and put it in the old case because we like the old case more #i remember being SO upset because that had never happened before and the one time it did was with fucking MUPPET CHRISTMAS CAROL?? #it wasn't like. Bolt or some other movie we don't care much about it was fucking Muppet Christmas Carol #that dvd was probably almost as old as I was #that dvd was probably the first dvd release of the muppet christmas carol #at least we still have the case and the little paper slide in with the scene selection #I wish movies still did those #i miss the little papers with the scene selection or special little art or information about bonus features #like they still have the spot where you would put one but they dont make them anymore :(

[wipples]

What is it like to lack a sense of agency?

What is it like to have it?

#oc #it's her full outfit no flippin way #sometimes her name is miranda #sometimes her name is Bunny #depends on the fandom LMAO #her bit is always the same though: kinda stupid college student with a knack for urban exploring and nature stuff #she's stupid in the way that junji ito protagonists are: just kinda lets shit happen and doesn't stop it #lets herself fall into the abyss basically because depression is a bitch and she's a little obsessed with escapism #she also hates cops and is a big ol druggie but thats not important for the majority of situations i stick her in #her brain is also weird but thats just bc shes basically me but worse and also better #worse and better how? idk you tell me #she's also nb and goes by any pronouns but defaults to she/her #she's still a boy tho lol #she'd allow you to call her a girl but she mostly likes being called a guy #this bitch wears binders unless going out urban exploring or hiking etc because shit gets sweaty and you should never exercise with them #shes also vaguely southern because im from the south yehaw #mmm grits and pimento cheese yummery #I'LL MAKE A REAL CHARACTER INFO THING ONE DAY maybe

[arielluva]

actually so funny (it isn't) that everytime i struggle to do something and i tell my parents about it they just respond with "you just have to do it." like. guys. if i could "just do it" i would NOT be complaining about not being able to do it!!

#this has happened so many times. why is that their default response #during online school 'i have 87 missing assignments and i cant concentrate on them. help.' 'just do them?' 'wow why didnt i think of that.. #or my dad trying to imply that i had that many missing assignments on purpose??? buddy i am the same kid that would've rather died than- #-miss school. do you seriously think i would be behind on that shit on purpose??? in what world #every single time i struggle to do something and want advice they just tell me to do it. as if i couldn't have thought of that #especially when i realized part of why online school didnt work for me is because school and home were no longer separate #whenever i was at school (or just a general separate place where im Supposed to work on stuff) i could do it just fine #outside of school i would procrastinate so bad and have no motivation or concentration for anything #i told my mom i needed a separate place to work that wasnt my room and my personal computer. she told me to 'just do it' #and suddenly when i have a separate room and computer to work on (especially in a room i already had to work in before that) #suddenly i was able to concentrate! and get shit done! #and yet this same situation will probably happen again lol. bc my parents dont like listening and taking my mental problems seriously #but like. getting my own space allowed me to finish like 5 tarot cards in quick succession. in the previous MONTHS i only finished 3. #'hm i wonder why i could finish so many cards within a week. surely its not because of what my child said would help.' #like it mustve just been that i locked in somehow. not that i got accommodations. #anyway holy fucking essay i just typed out. i need to shower rn anyways. enough rambling from me for now

[rebelpuff]

link, sender links arms with receiver while walking. - bubbles!!! / @clickedbait

it's   so   easy   to   know   when   one   of   her   sisters   is   touching   her    —    they're   the   only   ones   who   can   get   her   to   stop  moving.   buttercup   sighs  ,   looking   toward   bubbles   and   whatever   caught   her   eye. 

(   swear   to   GOD   if   it's   another   puppy   —  ) 

#[you needed no encouragement whatsoever and i love that for us] #[her sisters are among the very few just allowed to touch her] #[so common she doesn't even react i love them your honor] #👊 ;; ᵠᵘᵉˢᵗᶤᵒᶰ ᵃᶰᵈ ᵃᶰˢʷᵉʳ ( ask ) #👊 ;; ᶜʰᵉᵐᶤᶜᵃˡ ˣ ( universe default ) #👊 ;; ᵇᵘᵇᵇˡᵉˢ ( clickedbait ) #clickedbait

[m1d-45]

i’m having shining nikki sagau thoughts everybody beware. so first of all like i remembered that elves canonically exist in miraland (idk if we ever mentioned this before) and there’s elves or at least elf-like creatures in teyvat…… i’m connecting the dots (<- they’re not connecting shit)

second of all. the new skins. “sailwind shadow” and “blossoming starlight” are SUCH designer’s reflection names like if i opened up shining nikki and saw those there they wouldn’t even be out of place. idk about everyone else but i think it would be cute if sailwind shadow was bandit. i have more to say but i need time to put my thoughts in Order - teddy anon

shining nikki!!

honestly despite red being in my head on and off, i didn’t even CONSIDER sailwind shadow and that is a tragedy. i have his skin but didn’t do the quest relating to it yet (it’s a costume he wears for a play right?) but the entire thing with this event. god he’s so perfect.

blossoming starlight is probably just klee but higher energy and less fear, and while i don’t doubt the power of klee dps i do doubt your conscience allowing you to bring a child into battle, double so after red split. she’s just. a little girl. so we move on.

sailwind shadow. i’ll choose to interpret him as a mix of the dagger bandit and kaeya himself, which makes for a fun little guy in my opinion. always trying to sneak you off to somewhere “more interesting than sitting around all day, no?” and thinks that the others are being far too uptight. does he understand the gravity of the hunt? absolutely. but whereas red (and the two archons) want to keep you safe in the cave you’ve made home, he’d much rather whisk you away down a path in the forest.

less for combat, i’d imagine, leaving that to nikki and the others. has quite a few stories to tell, most made up but some gathered from his weak memory. dislikes kaeya, but less so than red, surprisingly. he seems to view him as having no other choice, that he’s “already conflicted enough without that fake touting him about as their sword.” he views kaeya with more pity than anything else.

he and red have a.. strange relationship. at their cores, they are diluc and kaeya, but that affection is hidden beneath the several layers of trauma painted over. they both worry for the other in their own ways—he checks red for injuries from afar when you all regroup after a fight, and red makes sure to make chicken mushroom skewers when he’s having a bad day—but it’s still a tough trial. it’ll probably go quicker than diluc and kaeya, but you’ll have to wait a while before they connect properly.

in his early stages, he’s not all that dissimilar from red. clingy and always hesitant to leave, but does do more to try and keep your attention on him. he’s kaeya at his core and the costume is from a play, so he’s got quite a few tricks up his sleeve to prolong his stay.

(these tricks commonly include starting to tell you a story only to reveal that the ‘ancient artifact’ is one of fischl’s arrows, or red’s rings. your laughter is enough to keep him stealing them back—anything to be the source of that shine in your eyes.)

less prone to violence than red, and definitely safer to take out in public after everything’s over. at worst, he’ll make a passing comment, but is too worried about his image. what if you see him sneer, or if the other person sees and tells you? no no no, it’s far safer to just pull you away again, even if he has to lie as to why. you’ll understand if the crowds are getting to him, or if he feels trapped indoors, right? you were meant to be amongst nature anyway, so if anything he’s just doing you a favor, surely.

(he doesn’t often leave your side as you sleep, but he did see red in the middle of.. taking care of some things once. while he prefers to keep his hands clean—it’s awfully hard to lie to you, and he doesn’t think he could stay quiet if you asked—he doesn’t look down on red’s choice of problem solving. he recognizes the person beneath his boot anyway, hands slightly twitching at the memory from earlier today. when the two of them return to camp by morning, he lets red do most of the talking, only adding in the small half truth of “just having some fun” when prompted. he did his best to wipe his sword clean of any unsavory stains, but does keep it safely in it’s sheath whenever you’re around.)

however, just because he’s less violent than red doesn’t mean the source of said violence went away. he still gets jealous, and if he finds his theatrics don’t make you laugh as much as they used to, he‘ll begin to panic. are you growing bored with him? are his stories getting predictable? do you look down on him for running away with hunters with you instead of staying like the others do? he promises he’s not just dead weight! please, what does he have to do? do you want him to be more like barbatos? he can’t quite help you fly like he can, but he can try to pick up a bow! do you like red more? he’d really rather not get blood on his outfit, but anything for you. anything, anything at all… just keep your attention on him for a little longer. please?

#m1d : [chats] #teddy anon #and teddy!!!!!! #the shining nikki saga #kaeya is so whimsical we love men haunted by the horrors of their past #sailwind shadow… literally What Is His Name #i keep defaulting to ‘shade’ but idk if that only sounds good cause i chose it- #he’d literally lose his shit if you wanted to give him a name by the way. red would rationalize it as for convenience and not think of it— #cause he’d hate to be a problem and changing it once he could speak would just be more problems—but shade? loses his mind #reads into it 10 times over #still replays that memory sometimes as he watches you sleep #he doesn’t sleep btw. always watching you; either to make sure you rest easy or for his own enjoyment… unclear. the others are too afraid to #ask at this point tbh. he probably needs to but the occasional nap when one of the others takes you out is enough for him #he’d normally hate to see you walk away from him but you’d worry if you saw him looking sleepy so for these select times he allows it #worse attachment issues than red. red would be fine if you disliked him for his violent acts and would be content knowing you’re safe #but shade? not a chance in hell. if you show the slightest signs of thinking anything less than highly of him it’s like his whole world #falls to pieces. his first days—when he was conscious but couldn’t let you know—were literal hell. #being dismissed? you might as well have ripped out his nails; it would have hurt less. #once he managed to convey to you that he was also splitting it was a lot easier. he couldn’t talk yet but you were holding conversation with #him anyway (nikki had told you this made the splitting process easier and you were inclined to believe her). #he is. so pathetic i love him. god he’d probably cry if you even suggested he was doing something wrong. #sailwind shadow #he gets his tag :)

[madamtrashbat]

Person who was raised to be self-sufficient and treated like a capable human being who has learned to do things on their own and can look things up if they're unsure or don't know how to do something and therefore does not fear a problem because they've spent most of their adult life single not relying on anyone except for guidance, and has a tenacity to get things done without any issues or help because they know they have the capability of doing things

Versus

Person who was infantilized all their life to the point that they had to not tell anyone they were moving out because their parents would have convinced them they were too stupid to do anything, and has internalized that lesson so severely that any and all opposition to a smooth plan or being confronted with an unknown is met immediately with panic, confusion, and paralysis, with no thoughts on how to overcome an issue or look up how to fix something and instead of forming a plan, just shuts down

FIGHT

#this is about me and Sawyer #added on top of the way our autism clashes about how we approach things it's just a mess #if I don't know how to do something I will exhaust every single option until I go 'okay how do I do this' #google is my best friend #I can find so many things on google and I research like a motherfucker #sawyer though #love them dearly but like... jesus christ #they'll ask for help and then not understand why I'm frustrated #and then it's like 'am I not allowed to ask for help?' and I'm just sitting there like #'you ARE allowed to ask for help but you are not going to just default to me before you've even attempted anything' #'I need help getting my health insurance' have you even tried getting it yet or are you just assuming the role of Idiot in this play #are you asking for my help or are you asking for me to start the process for you #I get so fucking frustrated sometimes with it because it's like please just try before you ask me