Tumgik
#apostake
xmo-rmon · 2 months
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
“Inseminary”
or “Lockpick to the Priesthood” or “Come Unto Me” or “Pearl Necklace of Great Price” or “Faith is Like a Little Seed”
Authentic stolen holy text, Near Clear silicone, gold pigment.
I went to the mormon church’s website, looked up their views on homosexuality, noted the scriptures they referenced, ripped them by hand out of the bible and book of mormon I stole from their chapel, and then mixed them into a silicone dildo of my own design like confetti. A dildo which will of course be used for homosexual purposes (with non-lubricated condoms and water based lube, for safety).
I’ve wanted to try dildo making for literally over a decade. I don’t have any fancy equipment like a 3D printer or a vacuum chamber, I made the sculpt by hand, and I fucked up a lot along the way, but all that being said I’m proud of what I was able to accomplish and I learned a lot. I put in more gold than I meant to, but honestly, it was meant to represent scripture’s gilded edges, and as it turned out, it looks really beautiful or quite filthy depending on the lighting, which feels entirely appropriate for scripture.
It was hard to read all of those verses. But as I tore them up I bathed them in the intention to take words that were meant to inflict queer pain wherever they go, and say “Actually, I pull those words out when I want some queer pleasure.” Build joy where they want you to have it the least.
Read about/donate to the Timpanogos tribe, for whom brigham young sent out an “extermination order”
LandBack
5K notes · View notes
nobetafortomorrowedie · 2 months
Text
It really bothers me when people describe the way I grew up as "sheltered" when in reality I was not being sheltered or protected. I was intentionally confused. I was kept in the dark. My reality was being controlled.
324 notes · View notes
godsporncollection · 1 year
Text
Tumblr media
My boyfriend did a thing
2K notes · View notes
apostatement · 7 months
Text
Your body is not your enemy. It isn't a shell that you inhabit or an empty temple. Your mind is not a separate entity, your soul is not an inhabitant. Its desires and needs are not the devil trying to trick your soul. The 'natural man' is you. Your body is you. That's YOU.
It's okay to treat yourself with love and respect.
423 notes · View notes
chronicallyadhdexmo · 2 months
Text
this unlocked some memories omg
98 notes · View notes
growingupmormon · 11 months
Text
Reading M. Kelters essay in Knowing Why: adult diagnosed autistic people on life and autism 
There was a moment where I couldn’t help but feel so seen and this page was it
Tumblr media
I hid, but my favorite place wasn’t in the ceiling but in a tiny secret closet off of one of the classrooms on the second floor above the sacrament meeting. I could see the meeting from up there and would know when it would be over.
And yes I see the irony of literally hiding in a closet at church!
265 notes · View notes
exmo-memes · 6 months
Text
Even if I had definitive proof that the Mormon church was true, I still would not be Mormon. Mormon god is not a being who deserves worship and adoration. Honestly, Mormon god is a pretty shitty being, so why would I worship him? He’s the epitome of a toxic, bigoted parent, and I would want no part of that if I believed.
87 notes · View notes
vinnfeyntheinsane · 22 days
Text
Tumblr media
UMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM FAM WE GOT A PROBLEM
27 notes · View notes
xmo-rmon · 3 months
Text
Tumblr media
“The Devil’s Temperature”
Authentic pilfered holy text and two weeks’ worth of forbidden, “unwise” beverages.
Read about/donate to the Timpanogos tribe, for whom brigham young sent out an “extermination order”
LandBack
210 notes · View notes
Text
I don't know how to say this but there is something about being raised in the church and being taught to stand up for what you believe in but to always be humble so you never learn how to stand up for yourself or advocate for yourself but at the same time when your beliefs change you have to stand up for them and the morality you were raised on ultimately undermines the church's system because you know what agency is sacred and so is love and so is human life.
53 notes · View notes
godsporncollection · 7 months
Text
Hey, it's conference weekend, which means it's time for some reminders:
You are loved, just the way you are (I know it's been a while since I said it, but yes, I still love you).
The church is not true.
The Bible actually says some pretty specific things about man speaking for god.
You are not broken or lost.
You will get out.
I won't be watching because my husband works over the weekends and I don't want my toddler hearing this shit, but please don't hesitate to reach out if you need to vent or ask questions or even if you just want a distraction.
112 notes · View notes
apostatement · 1 year
Text
1K notes · View notes
chronicallyadhdexmo · 6 months
Text
m russell ballard is dead
179 notes · View notes
growingupmormon · 7 months
Text
I know I say it every year but the cadence of the speakers at Gen Conf makes me so uncomfortable and makes it hard to process the information or lack thereof
Tumblr media
73 notes · View notes
saintsandsuicide · 2 months
Text
MARCH FOR PALESTINE - 3/2 IN SALT LAKE CITY
sharing this here in hopes of reaching some of my utah-based followers. the Party for Socialism and Liberation (PSL) and Palestinian Solidarity Association of Utah are holding a rally and march for palestinian solidarity THIS SATURDAY (3/2) in SLC, 1 PM @ Sugarhouse Park. please help spread the word and attend if you can.
Tumblr media Tumblr media
(link)
24 notes · View notes