#but damn she's always so funny

[pseudosaprophyte]

why am i borderline kinning kristen applebees after this episode. like yeah. you are talented and intelligent and really good at your chosen field. but the institution you are a part of is set up in a way that does not recognize that. so you’re seen as a screw up even by your closest friends. and you’re failing all your classes. but when you get down to brass tacks. you ARE good at what you do and the people who love you CAN see that. ugh. ogh. ouch even.

#i love kristen so much this season #i always liked her and found her funny but was never able to relate to the religion and crisis of faith stuff #but damn is she relatable as hell now #dimension 20 #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #kristen applebees

[yencirilla]

i think it's so interesting how people have just decided fearne has serious feelings for certain characters just because They ship it when i have yet to see fearne give any sort of hint to that in the game?? NOW if we're talking about people fearne treats differently/cares for differently, i think we should have a discussion on how gentle fearne is with imogen temult i think we should talk about fearne screaming imogen's name, fearne tying her and laudna's ribbons around imogen's wrist, fearne being so opposed to imogen giving in to the storm because she doesn't want to lose her. I think we should Discuss That.

#it's always bothered me how people just assume fearne has romantic feelings for someone purely from headcannons? #like how you interpret a scene does not mean that is what is happening #and it's always with a specific ship #idk sorry #imogen and fearne truther i think fearne has the biggest crush #but doesn't say anything because she's scared of ruining what laudna and imogen have #fearne talks to imogen so differently from anyone else #she is so GENTLE with her #also just funny how no one is even thinking it may be about chetney #i don't think it is but damn he really just is not a thought in some people's minds #not me tho #that's all thank you for coming to my ted talk #fearne calloway #imogen temult #critical role

[ganondoodle]

as i was awake in the middle of the night for like 2 hours bc i felt sick i had more somewhat random totk thoughts

one being that i really hate how raurus response to concerned zelda is, after sonia died in that almost funny how little impactful it was way, "im sure you are here for a reason" (actually, i hate how often this sentence is used in general to .. idk i guess its supposed to be inspiritational???)

bc what does that mean actually? him saying that to someone who got there absolutely by accident really just sounds like "i dont care go figure it out yourself bc i dont want to think about anything concerning you or your troubles lol" i guess its meant to sound like OOOOH fate has BROUGHT you here bc you have to furfill a role you dont know yet (spoiler its being a sacrifice girl with no personality) and besides me hating the 'inescapable fate' trope in general (at least the way its usually done in these games, which is not to struggle against it but willingly accept whatever you are told and pretend thats good) its really jsut goddamn boring and is really only an excuse to well .. ignore her and her trouble; shouldnt you, if you were actually such a cool guy like the game wants me to believe so bad, do everything in your power to get zelda back to her own world before shes pulled even further into the war you caused now that her only ""mentor"" that could help her get more use of her pretty much useless sudden powers is gone too?? i know shes basically dead wife sonia replacement (can of worms ugh) but it still grinds my gears whenever i think of that cutscene, bc i cant help but hear it as the lamest excuse in existence to not care about her and just kinda .. see what happens which in this case means leave zelda completely on her her own since both rauru and mineru die as well (honestly shouldnt rauru have thought about like .. any plan to defeat gan besides dying himself, given hes the oh so cool and goodest guy king whos only mistake was not stabbing gan the second he stepped into their kathedral castle thing, like even if you had a plan it can still fail but it seemed like he just kinda went in with a handful of people that didnt seem to know each other at all, never got names or faces -or unique voices for that matter- to fight gan face to face inlcuding the girl that came from a different time and had nothing to do with any of this conflict and couldnt even really control her sudden new powers just seems pretty stupid)

thought 2

how totk really feels like botw but for the people who didnt like shiekah tech, its not a sequel, its botw again, but version of only sonau, its like a pokemon game that had two versions but one has weirdly incoherent story and acts like the other never existed jsut as a whole its like retreading the same points but worse, all shiekah tech that was so integral to the world and had such a long history just vanishing and no one caring about any of it like it never happened, HELL the titans were called divine beasts in english but i guess they werent divine or important enough to keep around LOL champions WHO and isntead a never before seen or even heard of race for that matter showing up and planting their ass in every place the shiekah were before, dare i say it feels weirdly manipulative, like either them or some outside force erasing every fact about the ancient shiekah and replace them with sonau stuff bc they are the hot new shit now

this is a point that just doesnt stop bothering me, how the shiekah tech seemed so carefully designed and integrated into botws world and story, its a difficult to keep balance after all, integrating high tech stuff into a medieval setting, but they made it work! and then totk comes around and throws a bunch modern day tech into it puts some vague greenish stone filter on its exterior and call that even better more ancient tech; why did they even bother to make pottery inspired laser shooting spider legged robots so well integrated when they throw a car and rockets into the next game without a thought and call it a day, what was the fucking point

it feels like someone was dead set on having a set of legos thrown into the game it had no place in, if you want players to build whatever they want make a building game instead!! especially if you are just gonna throw it in with seemingly no consideration how out of place it feels togehter with the fACT THAT YOU ALREADY HAD AND ANCIENT HIGH TECH CIVILIZATION WITH A VERY DISTINCT AESTHETIC THAT WAS ALREADY WELL INTEGRATED INTO THE WORLD YOU ARE PLANNING TO REUSE WITH ALOT OF MYSTERY AND UNKOWN STUFF ABOUT THEM TO EXPLORE FURTHER YOU COULD HAVE USED!! but i guess they just "didnt want to play with you anymore" and that so much so that they went out of their way to erase every trace of it, i dont think the words shiekah tech are ever used in the game, and the purah pad and her towers just drive me more isnane bc they are the same shit but called different and also much worse, liek the purah pad isnt some more developed shiekah stone, no its a glorified camera with a teleport function and thats it

(i know i said this before but i really cant stand how obsessed every single NPC is with sonau shit, you get told to your face every second line of dialog that they are so cool and are so mysterious that it just makes me annoyed of them even more, the game is obsessed with shoving them everywhere and telling you over and over you too should obsess over them, they werent weird like that about the shiekah stuff in botw?? the biggesst talking point in botw was calamity ganon ..... which makes sense and in totk its like ... gan is mentioned what, in a newspaper article??? once???and then not even by name i think???)

aside from that big point which will never let me go, its also just .. its not moving forward anything, it actively walks BACK the progress that was made in botw, call me dumb but i dont really count moving one step up in the social roles of each race as a character development (for the side characters like the champions desc- ahem SAGES) but mainly zelda ... god how dirty she was done, totk pretty explicitely makes her regress any development she made in botw aside from she likes link uwu and some people like her too, but also not enough to notice that that weird zelda being all evil and weird isnt her (INLCUDING THE CHAMP- SAGES WHO YOU ARE SUPPOSEDLY FRIENDS WITH??? you dont have to be a genius to pick up on that my god, were you all given the mc dumbo potion or what)

she gets put back to square one, back into the little itty bitty princessy maiden role forced upon her by her royal parentage, this time rauru edition, back into a white little dress, back into the scared puppy eyed teenager, back into a situation she cant handle, back into losing everyone around her (tho honestly botw made me care more about rhoam than totk did about rauru), back into being forced to do a big sacrifice- but worse actually

in botw she went to FIGHT AND HOLD GANON IN THE CASTLE SO LINK HAD TIME TO RECOVER AND IT WOULDNT DESTROY THE LAND!! and you are telling me in totk rauru takes up her botw role and she bascially killed herself to ... restore the mastersword.

......... she ... she did that only to be a glorified version of the stone pedestal in the forest. and then she gets returned to normal itty bitty girly no problem via magic sparkle beam at the end and

DOESNT

EVEN

REMEMBER.

it really is just botw but worse, you even get yet another ghost king of hyrule to guide you around (rhoam did it better fight me ... we dont talk about the questionable choice to make himself darker skinned when posing as just some guy)

i honestly dont think i was ever truly taken aback by anythign that happened in botw, while in totk, the further i played, the more i had to fight with myself to keep the feeling of unease, disappointment and betrayal down

its such a god damn shame, totk should have stayed a DLC, i will forever mournfully dream of a game that explores more of the ancient shiekah, doesnt erase integral parts of the world, developes characters more instead of making them regress back and make them end up even less developed than at the start of the game, dives into buried secrets and mistakes of dark pages of history without giving into a weirldy nationalist(imperalisitc?) narrative and lets characters have some agency for once

if it werent for the yiga i might have actually considered refunding the game, just to be at peace with myself

anyway, aboslutely incoherent word vomit.

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #totk #ganondoodles rants #old man yells at cloud #i know im repeating myself in alot of points #but some things just wont stop rotating in my head #ngl i felt like nintendy was trying to gaslight me in totk #what noooo the shrine of life was ALWAYS just a barren cave with a puddle of water in it #noooo dumsda (hundson) NEVER had a funny quirk of how he talks #nooooo purah NEVER cared about shiekah tech or that stone she used to have in her lab in hateno #noooooo robelo NEVER cared about the shiekah oven he named cherry #nooooo yuno was never not dumb like a rock and ridiculed by the narrative worse than koga #noooo yuno never had inheretited an ability unique to daruk #nooooooo zelda never had any character besides like white dress waifu #nooooooo the dekutree never actually played a central role #nooooo there never was any shikeah tech #noooooo there never were any champions we were actualyl friends with #why is this series so damn allergic to moving the world or characters forward #you literalyl showed us that zelda companion is doable #you made 5 fram rate killing ghosts that are more useless than useful in any fight but noooo cant do zelda #she gotta be the little maiden uwu #you could have shown us the past without sendign zelda back #you could have revealed the sonau without erasing the shiekah #you had such a good setup from botw #and isntead chose to focus 3 years on being able to glue a stick to a stick in a game that isnt about glue or building

[myork]

seokjinies cooking vlog🧑‍🍳 | 11/50 days of ksj ☽

#ive forgotten how to make pretty gifs okay 🫣 #bts #btsgif #usersky #userkelli #usersan #tusercelia #dailybts #usermaggie #annietrack #shirleytothesea #trackofthesoul #50ksj #shes a little late but she’s here <3 #what did u think i wouldn’t gif an entire vlog of only him 🤨 #anyways posting today instead of yesterday because i have internet today 🙋‍♀️ #hes so funny n entertaining i could watch him all the damn time n he always looks so good too 🫶🫶😳 that one clip of him chopping while being #all serious 🫣😳 n sipping wine 😳n breathing 😳

[totheidiot]

i hate that the solar eclipse just now serves as a reminder that nobody loves me.

#🍂 arian's shit #IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL AND NOTHING HAPPENED. but yeah #i will always think of the solar eclipse i witnessed and think about that #two people one of them my friend the other i thought i could consider my friend but HE PROBABLY DOESN'T GIVE A SHIT. #they both talked and did their things and laughed and they are so damn close to each other it almost made me cry and reminded me that #it was such a profound moment too when i realized what was going on #they were in another world that didn't have me and i get that. i do. they have known each other for a year and i abruptly showed up #two months ago and one of them we are getting close she likes me around #at least i think #the other one he is nice he is supposed to be like this he is nice to everyone that is who he is #so what is happening: he is completely indifferent to me. most he did was remember my name and face. but he is nice. #i like them both so so much it almosg does hurt when i stood there awkwardly almost like i was intruding #and i realized that i have never not been close to anyone #no acquaintances all the friendships i have had they sre the reason why i live and i know that they live for me too #we have known each other since kindergarten. they held my face and cried and told me that i was love when i was leaving for the last time #they love me. i am sure of it. #but now i don't have anyone near whom i do love. people don't love me. i used to be love. #it also hurts that i am Average Person In The World #i am not funny. i do not have unique quirks. i do not have a single talent. #all i am good for is saying the wrong things all time. #even in my old life i was someone. someone who isn't the same as the person who saw the solar eclipse today and felt all this #i was the idiot. I WAS THE IDIOT. i was the writer person. #i don't feel like any of these things now. they had a thing in common: their capacity to love and be loved. #i love very easily but i am not an easy person to love. #vent post #god this is such a small little thing i am the most pathetic thing in the world #feel free to scroll away don't even read this shit #arian contemplates his universe

[dhmis-autism]

when it’s not a leap year, do you celebrate your bday on the 28th, or the 1st of march?

when it is not a leap year my family feels bad for me for not having a bday so they treat me like the Most Specialist Princess In Tha World on BOTH days !! :]

but that's just my family. admittedly, I've never met someone with my same birthday, so i have no idea if it's common or not!

#my postings #my familys so nice theyre like damn. ur bday dont exist today.... its ok u get two cakes and im always like HOLY SHIT TWO CAKES #i USED to do this fun thing where on my leap year bday we would have a bday party at chuck e cheese #and when we reserved it we would tell them my leap year bday #and it used to be really funny. like when we brought in a full 4 year old and was like SHES ONLY 1!!! #or an 8 year old and were like SHES ONLY 2 YEARS OLD!! LOL :] #but past when i was 16 it stopped being so funny and the chuck e cheese ppl were like hey. pls stop. lying to us

[bisaster-energy]

im not even done my current kuwameshi fic and im already getting ideas about new ones...

#kuwameshi #give me a sec i'll reblog later with the actual idea but like #WHAT IF UM KUWAMESHI BUT UM. PRINCESS BRIDE AU... #i also have another song fic idea but it's way sillier than the one i have on ao3 #based off you me and steve by garfunkel and oates #i got the idea cos i just remembered when yusuke got back from training with genkai the 1st time and instead of a 1 on 1 date with keiko #kuwabara is also? there? and it's just so funny to me like what. and then they're supposed to all 3 go to the movies together? #AND WHEN THEY GET THERE THE 2 BOYS DITCH KEIKO?? for a mission yeah but she doesn't know that!! #and then yusuke and keiko actually go on a date alone and it gets interrupted cos of younger toguro #and shortly after kuwabara shows up so it looks like he was bound to come across them?? #as far as a i remember the next time yu and keiko get together alone is the day he tells her to just wait and she's like im literally #not gonna wait for you <3 and it was so funny she just walked off lmaoo #anyway im trying to say i wanna make a silly little fic addressing the fact that keiko is like. pursuing her crush on yusuke #but kuwabara is kinda just. always there and it's fun she does like him but it's just awkward #planning on having her ask kuwa to maybe give her and yusuke some time alone like maybe just avoid their next outing #and kuwa is like oh damn :( ok good luck and yusuke shows up to the date and he's like woah wait. where tf is kuwabara? #keiko is like bruh. and she makes up some shit about him mentioning that he felt sick or wtv and yusuke is like ''then y are we here? #i should check on him. i dont think that guy has even been put outta commission by anything but my fist!'' and keiko just follows him #cos what else can she do. and kuwa is fine ofc and yusuke is like bro what gives i thought you were sick and kuwa is dense sometimes but he #catches on from keiko's desperate look and he's like well i got better *flexes his arm* and yu is like i knew you were too dumb to catch #a cold. and he's stupid happy that kuwa is fine and can come with them after all ''hey he's fine ya hear that keiko'' #and then keiko is watching this whole exchange eyes blown wide open and she's like actually i just remembered i have plans #you two should totally go without me tho and yu agrees so easily that it just solidifies that she made the right call #kuwa is looking back at her all confused and she gives HIM the good luck thumbs up. he gets as red as his hair and #yusuke is worried he really is coming down with something

[moe-broey]

SORRY this tag completely undid me LMFAOOOOOOOO

He needs to buy some fucking shirts........

Sketch vers under the cut bc I was originally just gonna leave it at that but. I was possessed I think.

#fire emblem #feh #secret deeplore i gave alfonse a flip phone bc i misremembered the og vid (was convinced they had flip phones) #but i just. kept it. idk it's just such a funny accidental characterization like it just fits. to me. #also baby vero bc. i haven't finished book 6. love her new design but she's still baby to me. #+ i have a better feel for her baby characterization vs her renewed self. bc. i haven't finished book 6. #book 6 bruno death isn't real it can't hurt you. #ANYWAYS I. HAD SO MUCH FUN W THIS LMFAO???? #i love inventing new and creative ways to avoid digital art LMFAOOO #not even cause digital is hard actually like. it's not. that is the medium i taught myself in for 'finished' works. #but like idk what prompted it but i was just fuckinh sick of it. this shit sucks actually!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #it took a bit but i really love working traditional now! it's engaging and rewarding! #always some damn learning curve too LMFAO but that's actually fun too! when. it isn't devastating #high risk high reward i guess. #but genuinely i am SO happy w how this came out it's SO fun to me #fe alfonse #fe bruno #sharena #fe veronica #my art

[ssreeder]

bro i swear ara might be one of my Favorite characters she makes me so sad but i also like girly get a grip 😭 i love the way u write everbody especially sokka because hes so different but still has his yk quirks and tbh when ppl write him romantically they kinda leave it out

heres ara cuz i am this 🤏🏻 Close to just giving her a playlist since shes so ..woman. yk what i mean??

anyway i kinda Imagine her cut to be simliar to zuko and very uneven cuz bro Zhao will not acutally give a fuck to at least make it nice

this is just a fall from grace even tho its Basically the best thing right now since shes away from all that crazy shit

OMG ITS THE GIRL! The one & only Ara!!! I love how you did a before and after, girl thought she had her shit handled! Only to have her shit handed to her. She has serious sad girl energy but you’re so right she needs to handle it haha.

Thank you so much for this I am squealing with joy you’re amazing!!!

#omg if you make ara a playlist PLEASE share with me #I have some Ara songs too that every time I hear them I’m just like damn it girl get it together #ara made a mess and then made a bigger mess by trying to cover it up #she’s actually a deeply self centered person who has been conditioned from a young age to use and abuse #she doesn’t realize how much damage she is doing by pretty much stalking sokka haha #it’s easy for me to be like come on ara get up and get it together because I’m not experiencing what she’s dealing with because I think #at this point in the story she is seriously at the lowest #girls got NOTHING #I mean some ‘friends’ who she refuses to be friendly with & occasionally sokka yells at her #it’s funny you mention her hair looking like zuko because in all fairness she does look a lot like zuko haha #probably while zhao picked her out ha #let’s not dig too deeply into that lol #tis a whole can of worms #but seriously my jet loving mutual this is amazing #your style is so cool I love it #thanks for taking the time to draw our sad girl #we gotta dilf chapter next chapter then we’ll check back in with the girls. #aka azula & squad #suki & Katara (it’s about time out fire bender got a check up to see if he’s cleared for training) #gosh I love putting Katara and zuko in a room because it always leads to shouting #anywayyy you’re amazing thank you #jet-apologistmybadhomies #liab #ITF #fanfic art

[majoringinsarcasm]

People hating on a literal child because she doesn’t physically look like a character in a book who we only ever saw in concept art and fanart vs me who was kinda sad when I realized book Percy wasn’t black because the description of a young boy living in New York who’s close with his single mother parent who is constantly seen as stupid troublemaker by both peers and teachers and his moms awful boyfriend and who’s only friend is the only other Outcast (non white) classmate who’s only ally is the literature teacher who then he finds also has doubts about him felt very if not fully black then at least mixed coded.

But then I moved on and enjoyed the story for what it gave me, can some of these people say the same 🤔

#I have not yet watched the show I’ll probably wait for more episodes bc I canceled D+ like two months ago #but idk many of yall are not 12 anymore and saying Leah won’t do a good job or it won’t be as good #we only saw any of these characters in our minds eye #or concept art #im not saying you can’t be disappointed when things aren’t 100% a match bc you want to see a good adaptation of the Book #and I need to do a reread but I would think Annabeth’s whole other shit aka running away cross country at 7 always being nosy and wanting #a quest being ready for battle but learning to have fun too #is more integral to her character ESPECIALLY IN MARK OF ATHENA #the blond hair in the books is a trait from Athena so it’s not a unique hurdle other girls in the cabin wouldn’t also face #it mattered bc she was a main character #But taking the core struggle of not being taken seriously works pretty damn well for any girl but especially black girls AT ALL TIMES #and not to be funny but saying the other characters are already diverse feels like a side step #like look Hazel in her eyes and say not being taken seriously BECAUSE of your HAIR COLOR is on the same level #as not being taken seriously because you’re a black girl #and if this breaches containment #yes the show would have been fine even if a picture perfect accurate cast had been hired #but if we want to move past people being cast bc of how they look vs how they act #you can’t hold the gospel of a book series against literal children who are probably having the time of their life #or would be if grown ass adults were attacking them bc SOMEONE ELSE HITED THEM #if the show is bad it’s not bc Annabeth is black or Percy is blonde #hell in good omens both leads are older in the book they’re described as looking 25 and 30 #can you imagine good omens as it is now with book accurate casting bc I can’t

[adelle-ein]

every year spotify wrapped just confuses the hell out of me. what is "pov: indie" (why not just indie????) what is "alt z." what the fuck is "hopebeat," is it like "indie poptimism." and where is provo

#i'm always surprised by tswift's ability to worm her way up there esp since i find midnights soooo blah #but she does have a lot of music and i've listened to a lot of it over the years so i guess it adds up in my liked playlist #also surprised by goose house bc like. they broke up like five fucking years ago lmao. how #johnny still uses the label but he's not putting anything new on spotify under the label... #i loved tessa violet's new album and played the shit out of it so her making it up there is not a shock #and revo and maisie peters remain unstoppable every year #top 1% maisie peters fan lol. what does that say about me (i like catchy breakup bops and she sings in my key?) #also griff clawing vertigo up there despite it only releasing in last couple months damn #i did love vertigo though. i did. and i always love fast car #plus i get national parks and jukebox the ghost mixed up allll the time so them being grouped together is funny #anyway yeah i don't know anything about artists genuinely #i just listen to what i like and do whatever #my extended relative has a family spotify plan they put me on as a present since they had a free slot... so it's free for me haha #txt

[running-in-the-dark]

my mother just told me that she used to take small scales into restaurants to weigh all the food she ate :)

#oh I wonder why I've always had disordered eating habits. couldn't possibly be her views on this stuff #she's convinced she eats normally now. (she eats the same amounts as a small child 🙃) #it'd be funny that she's caused all her children and grandchildren to have issues with this stuff if it wasn't so damn sad #tw disordered eating

[bothzangetsus]

.

#seeing 'karakura gang' posts is always so damn funny #to me #because bleach is just not... a friendship group manga #it is not a Powa Of Fwiendship manga #hell every time its protagonist genuinely places his trust upon his ~comrades~ or whatever the narrative condemns him for it #it never turns out well! #so it always just feels so forcedfdsjdfsj #especially when there's barely anything reciprocated within the people involved #uryuu gets the 'rain as a metaphor symbolising ichigo's despair' thing #& is obviously important to ichigo #but HE cares most for orihime #and orihime obviously (says she) cares most for ichigo #(but interestingly was quite eager to see shinigami come for him in fullbring while she never lost her faith in uryuu in tybw...) #and chad is just chad i don't think he gaf about either uryuu or orihime on a deep level lol #(as in caring and nurturing their emotional needs level - he obviously would protect them) #orihime gets kidnapped and SHE never gets the despair thing #like this is not a group this is a bunch of one-sided relationships thrown together #17 #18 #19 #20 #ok should be safe now #bleach #to find my own thoughts later #dare i even tag this as #bleach meta

[batgeance]

god bruce fucking hates talking to wayne execs and financial advisors

#i cannot stress enough that he is a terrible businessman right now #he wants nothing to do with wayne co he wants nothing to do with anyone who 'works for him' #he wants the batman. he wants gotham. he wants 'justice' which he THINKS he can get simply by being the batman #i always think about his conversation with selina #where she literally clocks his privilege and calls him on it #because he turns his scope too wide thinking he's got the details in frame #when in fact he's got no idea #his relationship with his brother is beginning to help but only barely right now #had they the chance i think selina COULD have influence on him but that ain't happening LMAO #so right now as i have said too many times before. he's got bat glasses on #bruce needs to be on that one show #where the rich boss works as the part time employee for a week or whatever #it's always so funny to me how he claims gotham as his #and how well he knows the city (because he does know the city) #and yet he doesn't know SHIT. not REALLY. #like pack it up white savior complex get a real job DAMN #one day......one day he will become Bruce Wayne. #but right now he's just bruce. and he's barely that. he's barely the batman!!!! it'll be his four year anniversary coming up actually #of being the bat :o) #how cute........pathetic little guy

[01tsubomi]

sometimes your favorite song is by the idol group you see every time you go to tokyo but they haven't released it to streaming and they're quite obscure (not to mention taping performances is extremely NG in jpop idol culture) so the only time you have a chance of hearing it is when you go watch them perform and it's like not even guaranteed that it'll be on the setlist every time and then you find out it's actually by a disbanded sister group of theirs and they also didn't release it to streaming but they did put it on youtube in a 20 minute long video that features their entire first mini-album except for some reason it's the absolute worst quality vocals you've ever heard on a professional recording as in not the mic quality but the actual singing quality as in it sounds like a group of friends doing karaoke not even professional singers just some friends with no retakes no autotune touchups not even re-recording the lines that are off rhythm but it still means you kinda get to hear the song in your apartment. but is it even really the same song as the one you hear when your favorite member gets the solo in the chorus and walks from the back of the stage out towards the audience between the rest of the members as if parting the sea. is it

#really unrelatable content i'm posting tonight #it's not like actually my favorite song but i'm always like swept off my feet when they perform it #god damn am i homosexual #i have got to get to tokyo. i did say i would be back within september . aaaaaaaa #it was like. march or april? that they just randomly started performing it a lot #and it's funny remembering that my oshi is like. actually a very talented idol and not just someone i stan as a joke #sometimes i go in like aaa haha i uh i'm back! me the foreigner! i guess i'm participating in idol culture #bc i do always do the fanmeet part at the end too where i get to talk to her for like. probably 90 seconds? idk i lose track #and even though i'm a random white girl we've been at this long enough that she talks to me exactly like any other idol fan #and does all the 'you were't looking at any of the other girls were you?' and the 'i'm happy you're back i wish you'd come every day!! :)' #very interesting thing to experience firsthand #but also makes me forget that the main reason i stan so hard is because. she's just a really good idol #like sometimes i get to the venue kinda nervous to be there and then as the live goes on i'm like. ah. of course. i'm here not bc of the #idol-fan relationship validation but because i get to watch this lady perform again and she's so so good #especially that song. i really wish they'd release their own version #i really do love her voice #personal

[widevibratobitch]

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#havent really been active on tumblr the last few days but now i came back to post another vent and fuck off again lol hiiiiii #i havent cried in way too long. ngl sobbing hysterically in your bed does hit different lol #anyway. what a great time to remind myself of every single bad thing anyone has ever said about my body and my face <3 #anyway i finished the sobbing till i cant breathe session and now my one eye hurts like there's sth stuck in it but there's nothing #but while i was digging in it trying to find sth under my eyelid that could explain the pain i really really looked at it #my friend once said my eyes are the colour of a swamp and by god she was right. #and like damn. i was never insecure about my eyes but maybe i should add that to the list. #but like whatever. like obv im not gonna start being actually insecure about mu stupid eyes but it did hit me that there is really #not a single thing about my body that i can with all confidence say is nice/pretty/whatever. not a single thing that i genuinely like. #like at best case it's 'not as bad as it could be'. like i have nothing lol. cant even honestly say something as silly as 'i like my eyes' #cause no. they look like a swamp. #idk im just so tired of trying my best all the time and still looking like a rotting leaking bag of garbage. #i try to remind myself that i dress funny and do fun make up and that is what people will notice about me but the truth is #everyone will still always see that under all that bs im just plain ugly and just generally unattractive #and ill never be able to distract anyone from that not really #like ik people who like me dont care about that but thats the thing. #im just tired of being one of the people that will always be liked/loved/whatever 'despite' sth. #like there is nothing of value in me that is NATURAL. its all fucking fake. #anyway. wish i were dead same old same old.