#but i feel like its already too long

[narcissa-black-supermacy]

I wanna know your thoughts on why reg joined the death eaters and the relationship he had with them

hayati did i tell you already that i love you <3 anyway you've broken a dam so here is the official dissertation. TLDR first to lure you in and then more details under the cut.

Main narrative points in this essay:

The older gen of Blacks who went to school with Riddle were not supportive of the Death Eaters;

Regulus took the Mark out of his own volition;

The Death Eaters do not operate as a systematic regime like the Nazis (contrary to popular misconception), but rather as a typical religious terror organisation

When Regulus took the Mark, he was operating under several factors of pressure that pushed him to it:

him being a gullible impressionable 16yo like all boys are at this age;

a natural desire for power;

the DEs tactics of fear and intimidation;

all the important people in his life (who did not leave) joining them (Bella, his school friends, Lucius > so essentially Narcissa); And most importantly:

Sirius' disinheritance leaving him in a position of the main and only male heir of the house aka the man who is supposed to protect the family, which, with the combination of factors at hand (the DEs terror tactics and the Blacks' status in Wizarding society that essentially determined their side in the war for them), could only be done by joining the Death Eaters

The older gen of Blacks who went to school with Riddle were not supportive of the Death Eaters: This is something Sirius himself mentions repeatedly. While he has no motive or desire to defend his parents, he states that they were not Death Eaters. Walburga and Co. all went to school with Riddle, they knew him as a half-blood orphan and an arrogant wanna-be dark wizard who they probably looked down on for his status. They were never part of the original DE gang (the Knights of Walpurgis). They could not afford to vocally oppose Voldemort due to their status as part of the Sacred 28 (re: social pressure), but I really, really doubt any of the older Blacks supported Bella and Reg joining the DEs.

Hence, the conclusion is that Regulus took the Mark out of his own volition, not out of pressure from his parents. (i recently talked about it here, here and here)

The Death Eaters do not operate as a systematic regime like the Nazis, but rather as a typical religious terror organisation: (talked about this in detail here) the DEs' pattern which we keep seeing all throughout the books and especially HBP + DH is by-the-book typical terror organisation behavior.

The main different is that a systematic regime (like the Nazis) acts by spreading propaganda first, bringing up an idea, brainwashing the population, then using said people to fight their war. It's an ideological war, the Nazis genuinely believed that the Jews are an inferior race.

Voldemort is not a parallel to Hitler, saying that is just misunderstanding how bad the Nazi regime really was. He does not believe that. He's a half-blood himself, he has no issue with people like Snape, he could NOT care less about the cause. He uses it in order to promote his own personal agenda, which in this case is immortality as a parallel to wealth. He is the CEO of Taliban.

The DEs, as a terror organisation, latch onto an existing bigotry in the Wizarding World, then abuse it and use it in order to establish themselves within pure-blooded circles and lure people in said community to join them using tactics of intimidation and terror (see: the Malfoys in HBP and DH. He forces himself onto them, their house, their son - it is very clear that they are not doing it out of free will, rather than fear of what might happen to them if they don't cooperate).

Okay, Dani, what does any of this have to do with Regulus taking the Mark?

Regulus is sixteen. Unlike his brother, he is shoved into a House which is essentially an echo-chamber of the same ideology he grew up with. All his friends are other members of the S28, none of whom challenge any of his views. He is young and impressionable like all boys his age, and he has a natural desire for power and control, especially coming from a house with parents like Walburga and Orion, that leave very little freedom and control to their children.

Sirius and Andromeda leave. Bellatrix joins the DEs and Narcissa marries Malfoy, who later joins them as well (altho they do it for different reasons - Bella is seeking power and control, while Malfoy seeks protection for his family. For Regulus, it's a combination of both), so in his 16 yo brain, what registers is: okay, these are my two options. I have to either be a traitor (and lose any money and respect I had), or join a terror cult (gaining power and protection). The choice is pretty simple in his head.

Now, these are my speculations at this point, but judging by the way Voldemort treats the Malfoys in HBP+DH, it is easy to assume that upon recruitment, any pure-blooded family that refused to provide support would suffer some sort of consequences.

On top of all that, Sirius leaves +/- 1 year before Regulus canonically takes the Mark. This comes as a surprise and leaves Regulus with a lot of responsibility and baggage that he was never prepared for.

He is now the only remaining male heir of the House - it means not only that he is now single-handedly responsible for the lineage's survival, he is also the "provider" and the "protector" of the family - his wrong choices will bear consequences and punishment not only for him, but for his parents and cousins. He can not allow himself to fuck up.

#i know i only answered half of your question... #but i feel like its already too long #and the topic of his relationships within the DEs is a very complicated one on its own #shoot me another ask if you want me to keep rambling #asks #house of black #regulus black #death eaters #dani talks #marauders meta #hp meta

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

#good omens #´hello friends!! how are you!! #I hope you're doing well! ( ´ ▽ ` ) #I have a big cough but otherwise I am good! It's nothign bad I am just very slimey #usually I am not a cough person I am not sure where this is coming from #most of the time I just get a stuffy nose #has my nose gotten stronger #but there are good news too I have already found a VERY good chestnut to put into my pocket this autumn!! its very small! (❁´▽`❁) #it's been a very warm autumn in Germany so far so it has not really felt like fall yet #but yesterday it was all rainy and stormy and I had two new books and it was the best day possible to have a slimey cough (: #and now I feel SO much autumn I am close to buying a set of window colors #I do not know what I would to with the window colors I just have this strong urge in me to buy a window color set #the last time I did a window color was at the birtday of a class mate I think she turned 9 and I made a deer #but for some reason we did this craft 5 minutes before we all had to leave so we had to carry our window color deer home wet #unfortunatly for the deer and me I fell down the stairs of her house and smeared the deer all over me and i screamed the entire drive home #which wasn't very long but it probably felt very long for the mother who had a screaming child covered in window color deer inside her car

[toxiccaves]

I think what a lot of tumblr-only people are missing about twitter failing, is that it was always a better website when it came to small businesses, instant world event news, fact checking, having users from all over the world, being a source for disaster relief information or warnings, and anything else to keep people up to date with going ons.

Sure, tumblr has many users from all over, but the website is still largely english biased and not nearly as widespread as twitter. I know a lot of news and knowledge comes in on here too. I've learned a lot and see a lot of donation posts in regards to world events, but its nothing like twitter unless you know who to follow. Not to mention, half the news I got here, was days later and from twitter to begin with.

Seeing that being taken away in favor of hate speech and enabling abusers (with the recent potential of getting rid of the block feature over there) and pushing blue user comments to the top (aka elon's weird fans), drowning out anyone else on popular posts, sucks! It sucks for the world and small businesses. because there's really no alternative to it right now.

The site's running rampant with spam and scammers and its becoming more and more unusable by the day. And some people think it's silly to be upset over it or "you shouldn't have all your eggs in one basket" well there only is one basket! This is literally people's livelihoods people seem to be making fun of anytime a change happens that breaks the site and people post all their socials.

And everyone from every country is talking about different websites they're considering, and its splitting up our connection to the world. And surely he knew who this was hurting with every decision.

#idk i see some people being weird about EW TWITTER PEOPLE like well for one they were surely already here too #but you need to understand how small of a community is over here vs twitter essentially being like. world internet hub #people are constantly reminding u of their other socials over there because where are we gonna make our money when its done #starting from scratch sucks. tumblr has been helpful but nothing gets much traction anymore #idk sorry for long post rant but it feels kinda crummy when ppl are downplaying it like this isnt disconnecting friends or communities #or ppls best sources of income

[newgroundstier]

fashionably late 2 pride month

#br'aad vengolor #gillion tidestrider #jrwi #liveclock and pretzel are there also #i should just give all the little beasts their own tags i feel like im always typing that lmao #i havent drawn br'aad in 4ever i abandoned my boy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #gillions sword + sheathe take up like 1% of the space in these pics. but i feel like it took more time 2 draw than everything else combined #and its way too low bc i just had a vague idea of the pose i wanted 2 draw and id already drawn most of gils arm #b4 i realized th positioning was off. .................. #tryna make it work anyways was part of why it took so long 2 draw lol #um anyways happy birthday to all my fellow gay people !!!!!

[synthshenanigans]

What do you mean its been a month since the last power hour???

Time shouldnt work that way????

#how has it already been a month #i feel like chonnys inferno came out like last week?????? #its been like 2-3 months since TMPH & Fine I'm Fine too #wth man #chonny jash #moss post #this isn't me saying cjs taking too long or anything. im just shocked time exists again

[puppyeared]

Pajamas

#still trying to get the hang of drawing tummies #I always forget theres like. stuff between the collarbone and the hips. sometimes I forget hips exist 🗿 #my brains so used to it now that drawing like. riblines and stomachs feels like the body is ‘””’too long’ #I pose in the mirror a lot for reference and she ends up being my guinea pig 🧍 #I cant do complex stuff comfortably though. I have a hard time wrapping my head around foreshortening #walking around in a crop top and underwear is funnn. maybe they were right about those #swimsuit outfits. I want to draw more like these #no not swimsuit I was thinking of the fucking. the big jakt or big pant post. you already know which one I fall under #my art #myart #doodles #my oc #oc #Augusta #partial nudity #OH THAT WAS THE WORD I WAS TRYING TO THINK OF #I posted this in another server but I felt the need to spoiler it and I couldn’t remember the word #like its not suggestive and there are no genitals. but shes technically in her underwear and showing a lot of skin #cw partial nudity

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

it turns out that, in moving, i have traded out having to deal with many small spiders for having to deal with the occasional fuckoff huge one

#what the FUCK was that thing #ive never had such an instant-panic killing out of desperation moment #it was giant. i could see Everything and it was horrible #im still breathing a little too fast that was just. get me out of here #it was Fast and Big and Spindly #i havent seen many spiders here but every single one ive seen has been bigger than im comfy with #if only there was a magic spider-repelling spell i could cast around myself an a ten foot bubble... #unfortunately no such thing exists! #absolutely unprompted #im gonna be so much more paranoid than i already am #if THAT can get into this house. jesus fuck #id love to look up what it was but that would mean looking at high resolution spider pics and i dont think i can do that #currently looking up spiders #i love torturing myself #its like 'normal picture normal picture normal picture WOLF SPIDER FACE CLOSEUP normal picture-' #thank you webbed site for that jumpscare i feel unwell and not in a good way #YEP OKAY THAT WAS FAR TOO MANY SPIDER PICS AND I STILL DONT KNOW WHAT IT WAS #it was huge and light brown with long legs and it was fucking Fast

[xiphoid-processing]

The Sacking of Sirion -- The Third Kinslaying

I didn't really know what else to do with this so im posting it lmao, also you might wanna turn un brightness a bit

#i feel like its extremely obvious i dont know how to draw young children lmao #also it took me like 30 minutes to figure out how to get the fucking oath text on the back #if i wasnt already technically unsavvy lmao #also changed maglors design a bit once more #also my like 2nd time drawing a post-thangorodrim maedhros #i stared at the water for far too long before deciding fuck it and calling it done #anyways tags #tolkien #the silmarillion #silmarillion #silmart #maedhros #maglor #elwing #elrond #elros #elrond peredhel #elros tar minyatur #xiphoids art #do i count ulmo bc the hands are his??? #nah

[brown-little-robin]

How self-insert-y do I want to get with this new oc 🤔

#okay SO she's a former priestess (read: beaurocrat) in training #but then she gets irreversibly possessed by a mild-mannered raccoon monster and they have to coexist while their #shared body is breaking down under the strain of trying to keep up with its two inhabitants (human and monster) #the question is: what do they latch onto as a diversion #a way to expend the new excessive energy that is literally slow-cooking them alive (they get fevers & they have insomnia) #(and the only way for them to survive long-term is to find SOMETHING TO DO that will burn that energy) #my original idea was to have them get into a board game and I had a whole plan for that. but it didn't feel quite right #and now I'm eyeing the idea that they might..... do pottery #would that be self-indulgent?? probably?? but also it's so cool and it would be perfect for themmmm #what plot would work with that though?? HMMMM #PONDERING #MUSING #ET CETERA #Robin speaks #new oc is already so much like me. do I Really want to make her a potter too

[heart-of-ep]

So deep in my Elvis feels right now. Literally sobbed my eyes out and now it's 3am and idk what to do with myself. 😭

#the searcher documentary was SO good #i just watched it for the first time and wow #i haven't cried this hard since seeing the elvis movie back in july #i wasn't even feeling particularly emotional today and yet here we are :) #it was so amazing tho #highly HIGHLY recommend #i didnt think it was still possible to cry this hard over elvis but here we are #its funny too cause i didn't learn anything that i didnt know already #and yet I'm crying like its brand new info #ugh this man brings me pain #joy #but pain #elvis #elvis presley #elvis aaron presley #also that was a lot oops #long tags

[shadyhouse]

i keep getting rejected from job applications and i have no idea what im doing wrong. i wish they would just tell you WHY you're getting rejected and ways to improve. its a guessing game that ends up making me feel even more worthless than i felt before

#like i have been nonstop applying for jobs for the past YEAR and ive gotten TWO INTERVIEWS #one of them i got kicked out of near immediately bc you werent allowed to be late to the job and i mentioned i take the bus (mistake i know) #and the other one i had to turn down bc they wanted to pay me $11/hr despite me already having the experience they needed #and i just reapplied to an old job i had a couple years ago that pays well but i got an instant rejection #not to mention all the other jobs ive been applying to that dont even TRY to contact me before rejecting me #and then my current job where ive been pretty much explicitly told i'm never ever going to get promoted and i keep getting my hours cut #for reasons beyond my comprehension like i dont know what im even doing wrong bc no one will TELL ME #JUST TELL ME WHAT IM DOING WRONG #WHY AM I BEING BAD AT LIFE. CAN YOU THROW ME A BONE PLEASE. #IM TIRED OF SURVIVING I WANT TO THRIVE #IVE BEEN SURVIVING MY WHOLE LIFE IM JUST EXHAUSTED I WANT TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT SOMETHING I DID FOR ONCE PLEASE #Sorry for venting im trying to hold back a breakdown and i have to leave for work in an hour and i just need to shout into the void about it #even applying for like medical based jobs hasnt worked out. you wont even let me be a RECEPTIONIST? #i feel trapped at my current job. even my coworkers have been telling me that ive had my position for wayyyy too long and im gonna be stuck #like tell me something i dont know!!!!!!!!!! tell me how to get a better job!!!!!!!!!!!!! bc im struggling in every aspect of my life!!!!!! #whoever cursed me its working i hope youre happy. the haters love to see it

[xannerz]

its always surreal to me to see people praise s2 of centaurworld. s2 was so spectacularly bombastic and aimless and it ended in this awkward forgettable fizzle.

i feel like a dick saying it b/c i really do love the show lmao. or, at least half of it lmao (/stares at tnwk). gf and i've been thinking about rewatching it just to write out our thoughts on why s2 was such a poor follow-up to s1 - from the tone to the setup to all the worldbuilding the narrative had to offer in between the (far more) memorable songs of s1. idk. it's sad because cw really had the bones of a cult classic, but idek if you can call it that.

ive seen a few posts commenting on its lack of popularity, and i feel like it certainly deserves more, b/c i do feel like it's a novel idea made w/ love, but the shift btwn s1 and s2 wasnt just in the plot. there was a full-on *fracture* in the quality and direction and i'm still scratching my head over it. more than i should be, probably. but, it's just a bummer.

#centaurworld #centaurworld critical #<- a tag i never thought i'd use lol #ok EDIT: fuck it im tagging this maybe there are others who'll also see their own viewing experiences in this post too #dont mind me rambling #but i got an ask on my thoughts abt cw a long time ago (hi!! i still have it 😭) and ive been wanting to write a detailed response since. #debating tagging this since the fandom's already p small and i dont wanna bump the tag with negativity #even if it is (what i feel is) p fair criticism. but idk people are sensitive and conflate it w hate idk idk #ive seen thinly-veiled hate posts in the t*ngled the series tags and it's always bothered me. #bc you can tell op just like hates xyz character or the show entirely and its like can you just come out and say it LMFAOO #but i genuinely like cw. i so so very much do. so i get bummed out! gf and some other friends and i were so excited for s2 and #when it rolled out ep by ep we were like 'it'll get better right? right?' #also tempted to just draw more cw fanart in general bc the t t s fandom is slow and if half the people dont have each other blocked #theres simply 0 overlap in fave chars or interpretations so lmao #im going back to work i just feel sour LMAO #also adding that i think a lot of people conflate a story eliciting an emotional reaction from you = its good #but ill revisit that and all these thoughts again eventually in another post. we'll see. #and i STILL want a nwk tattoo lmao. or at least an elkie. gf and i love elk bc of this guy! the impact that he has! #xangoeswah

[suckishima]

Chapter 158 vs. Chapter 298

“I am under no illusions that I could ever beat you on my own.”

(don’t mind me going insane under the cut)

ugh there’s two big things that make me crazy about this and 

1 is the surface level of just how yamaguchi’s individual growth keeps going even after the seijoh 2 match—when he gets those run of points and it becomes clear to us that his hard work has paid off—but it doesn’t just stop there! the first panels here are from the shiratorizawa match, the next match after seijoh 2, and i love this bc it’s another example of haikyuu saying “hey so that thing you wanted, you worked hard, you earned it, celebrate!” but then going on to ask “okay so what do we work for next?” and for yamaguchi he’s gone from ‘i just want to be on the court with them’ (deciding to learn jump floats) to ‘i wish i could get my body to listen to me the way theirs seem to’ (failing in siejoh 1 and doubling down during tokyo training camp) to the first panels here ‘i want to contribute/add value to the team’ to then finally the panels from the nekoma match where he can do more than just help, now it’s ‘i want all those things and more. i’m going to get these points with the team and for the team, all with my serve.’ and he DOES! like the GROWTH in his confidence!! aahh

and 2!! this is where i start to really lose it lmao, is his inspiration for all of that! why does yamaguchi play volleyball? because he thinks volleyball is cool. why is it cool? bc tsukki plays and tsukki is cool, and akiteru played and akiteru is cool, right? but is that enough?? by the time high school comes maybe it isn’t, bc of everything that’s happened and he’s a little disenchanted, but then he hears hinata and kageyama’s “as long as i’m here you’re invincible” and he thinks oh sHIT that’s cool! but he doesn’t have that kind of confidence, and he isn’t a setter or really a hitter, he’s barely even a server at this point—the only position on the court where you could gain points entirely alone—but THEN he also sees and understands the significance of a perfectly executed serve and block and he thinks not only is that ALSO super cool, but he realizes if he can get better he can do that super cool thing not just for himself, but for the team and more specifically, for tsukki. 

yamaguchi sees hinata and kageyamas totally insane, reciprocal declaration of making the other better and he starts to get mad at tsukki for not trying. because volleyball is cool, making each other stronger is cool, and tsukki is supposed to be cool too!! and instead of giving up, yamaguchi puts tsukki in his place and then yamaguchi just keeps trying even harder!! and his hard work and dedication is perplexing to tsukki. it’s frustrating bc he can’t understand it yet but he also can’t deny the fact that it certainly isn’t lame. yamaguchi’s passion has never been lame, and then tsukki starts to get inspired too. slowly it begins to cycle, and spiral upwards. yamaguchi took the first initiative to seek out shimada, tsukki joins his brothers practices and agrees to train with the gym 3 boys, yamaguchi has his ‘moment’ when he gets all those points in seijoh 2, tsukki has his when he stuffs ushijima (and neither of them is surprised by either of those moments!! of course they work they’ve been watching has paid off), and then by the time the nekoma match comes up yamaguchi’s confidence has grown tremendously, he gets an ace immediately after those panels and thennn he and tsukki execute their first successful serve and block. the volleyball equivalent of a perfect play. 

we never see yamaguchi and tsukki practice together, and yet separately they’ve been working toward this, silently inspiring each other over and over. individual work but not only individual growth. tsukki tells kuroo he never ever thought he could beat any of them on his own. in his own way, yamaguchi’s actions have made tsukki invincible too. and  kuroo and tsukki also both acknowledge that yamaguchi is already a step ahead once again, planning how he can do even more, starting the cycle another time. they keep passing the inspiration back and forth, connecting one volleyball moment to the next to drive the other to keep working, keep trying for even more!!!!! aaaaaahh

#hq!! #hq!! manga spoilers #tsukki #yamaguchi #hq #hq manga spoilers #one step ahead #oh look im crying over chapter 298 again lmaooo #actual tears in my eyes why am i like this #i was like 'oh i'm feeling good i'll just start up my long abandoned hq reread again' and two chapters in #im already finding growth moments i had forgotten about and i promptly lose my mind #its just *clenches fist* the way furudate does this connect thing about making characters integral to each others growth #solely through their own actions where one characters growth cant happen without the others #and its so perfectly intwined with the concepts of the literal rules of volleyball and aaaAAAAHHH #ive talked about it a lot with kageyama and hinata but tsukki and yamaguchi have aspects of it too okay!! it just works differently #and they both make me unstableee #2021 reread #x #connect #hq meta #tsukkiyama #what more do you need

[mellotronmkll]

cannot put into words how much finding out that women with autism being misdiagnosed with bpd is like a super common thing shook my entire understanding of everything I had experienced my whole life that was the real final nail in the coffin but it's crazy I somehow didn't know that until recently

#And like It Just So Happens #Anyway at this point...and now that my mother has started literally just sending me lists of all the traits that are obvious in hindsight a #things she missed and now is kicking herself I'm just like...well it's just like I'm documenting things and I really think once I just #have insurance you know . I've just been like What if I'm wrong for like a year now but to be honest #I think at this point after all the research I've done and discussions I've had it's like. There's no way bro #Like you have a multi page google doc of evidence #And like it's funny cos my mom will be sending me random texts out of the blue too like did I mention already the fact that you would #sit and study maps for hours as a kid and if anyone interrupted you you had a meltdown and I'm like well #But its like these texts constantly all day #And im like tbh you're going through the same realization process I went through but now you're also telling me things I forgot or didn't #even know that are just blasting any. Doubt of the water #But I think she feels guilty also that she never noticed and im just like shrug I don't know like #there's just many many many such cases so like #But its very helpful I was so scared to tell her about it for so long but apparently she'd been already wondering for ages too so like #And now she's also just like This makes so much sense it just makes everything make sense and I'm like see. That's what I'm thinking too

[puppyeared]

adhd comix

#man i dont even have the energy to be mad. im just tired #like. dont u love it when your parents exhibit symptoms of ADHD and your sibling is diagnosed with a learning disability #and instead of thinking oh shit what if the other one has smth too. they subject you to The Horrors #i cant bring myself to hate my parents. but im tired of feeling obligated to defend them when the thing they think is working #isnt actually working and ive just found other ways to cope to avoid any sort of conflict. like lying and stealing. lol #if someone took me aside and said 'hey so your brain doesnt make as much dopamine as usual and its not a bad thing it just means you #need external stimulation and reward system to function and youre not actually secretly fucked up or lazy' as a kid #im pretty sure i wouldnt be here rn with half the problems i already have. unfortunately getting diagnosed late means u dont have a teacher #to back you up at a parent teacher conference that forces your parents to take this shit seriously instead of ignoring it hoping itll #go away on its own. but hey what do i know i have squirrel ipad baby disease. what do i know about my own symptoms #AND. AND i think im allowd to be mad bc ive been doing my own research on this for years before and after diagnosis #theyve been putting me thru the WORST parenting techniques on earth. which they could have corrected at anytime but they were #comfortable thinking they were doing it right and didnt bother to check if they were or werent fucking up their kid in the long run #and refusing to acknowledge it. i just!! they just decided one day hey lets make babies!! and just looked at books on how to make #a human being survive as long as possible!!! what the fuck!!!! #im sorry for putting this on ppls dashes but i am. so tired. of bottling this up. and im not looking for sympathy or anything i just need #to scream and clench my fists to SOMEONE about it because theyre not gonna take this well up the ass. sigh #yapping #vent

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I've always wondered if you happened to have a discord? If not have you ever considered making one?

i do have one! however i use it very sparingly because 1) new people (especially groups) scare me & 2) brain's been fucking weird for a hot minute and i barely talk to people i'm already friends with let alone strangers

#so i say this So Neutrally and Impersonally #please don't ask me to join your group chat lmao #i promise you i will appear Once and then ill never open it again bc ill get nervous and awkward and guilty #its too much stress! #Also dont ask to chat there same rules apply Sorry Sorry #like... the Only exception is if we've already been chatting but that very rarely happens bc #again! my brain's fucked and i have the mental constitution of a wet cat! #rambles from the bog #i havent opened discord in. a while #when life gets stressful enough i just Shut Down and huddle into a proverbial corner with a blanket over my head #there are like. two people on discord i have / want to actively talk to #and one of em is an irl friend ahaha #so if you were thinking of sending me an invite or something: Thank You For Thinking Of Me! Please Don't. #i think... i think this generally extends to dms too #abrupt dms frighten me. so do random @s. apologies im a Very nervous person <3 #and then even when i Do chat over dms or somethin with someone i can see myself befriending #i often forget to reply for a while and then it gets to the point where its been so long and i feel so guilty #that i Cant Bring Myself To #sigh. anyway. long story short Yes i have a discord