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[camathefurubafan]

Fantastic I might lose my job that I just got

It's next to impossible for me to work without having an anxiety attack. Apparently from what I can tell I have panic disorder because I'm terrified of having an attack around others or at work (because it has happened before and one time I got FIRED for it). So now I call in when I have them and I'm going to get fired for that now. Maybe, it's not for certain yet. But it's a "we need to talk" situation with my manager.

I haven't been very active here but I need to vent and it makes it worse because now I'm frustrated as hell with myself. So it makes me feel worse because obviously this is going to end poorly.

I think I might have to actually get on disability, since I can't work on a schedule. It's not what I wanted with my life but with my past traumas I guess it makes sense.

I'll live through this it's just aggravating and depressing.

In other news I reached 500 watchers so I want to do a Fruits Basket piece with my new art supply I have, which I have gotten positive reactions to. Yay!

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