#came out of nowhere yesterday

[usodeshou]

Guess who's sick! 😬

#it is I 🤒 #came out of nowhere yesterday #was a bit tired throughout the day but not more than normal #and then in the evening I could suddenly feel myself getting worse by the minute #throat hurts which makes swallowing and yawning super fun 😣 #skin randomly gets super sensitive bordering on painful #thought I might get a good amount of sleep last night but instead lay away until somewhere past 7 am #had four blankets but was still cold af #body temperature rose to a light fever of over 38°C somewhere in the middle of the night #everything hurt #the neck was the worst but also had an awful headache (might be at least partially connected to the neck pain though) #had to pee what felt like every 30 minutes but was probably 'only' every hour or so #which did not help with the not being able to fall asleep situation #felt like I'd been hit by a bus #finally fell asleep somewhere between 7 and 7:30 am and slept for 4 hours #felt a little bit better but still exhausted and my throat still hurt like a bitch #it's evening again and I'm tired but head's also a mess and I'm scared of having another night like the last one... #finished loading my dishwasher about half an hour ago so I could run it because I'd run out of clean pretty much everything #0/10 do not recommend #feel like I ran a marathon with zero preparation #almost toppled over from the exertion #glad the thing's running now so I won't have to do that again for a bit #just wanna sleep #neck's starting to hurt again #might have to take another ibuprofen #helped a little this morning #hungry but feeling a little sick at the thought of eating #tea's getting cold again #gotta refill my hot water bottle cause it's effing freezing in here; maybe get another blanket too #nothing's comfortable my pillow feels like concrete to my head and I'm annoyingly restless while exhausted to my core

[mitchmarner]

love to see the phf build something incredible from the ground up, work their asses off to improve player conditions and salaries and expand, all just for them to be fucked over by a league that has constantly disrespected and belittled them — and is acting the same way in the absolutely despicable nature of this buyout. pwhpa players getting priority contracts, phf players finding out at the same time as the public, and there being less teams than the phf so there is inevitably job loss for players and staff alike … just fucking shitty. a united league is fine, but so far, this does not seem like unity. this seems like a coup.

#i’m not pleased lmfao #i got the email about six season tickets YESTERDAY. like this came out of NOWHERE. #phf #i want this post to sound stupid with more information! i want to be wrong! #but i am not hopeful! #update: with more information i am just also pissed at the phf board

[fakeoutbf]

five stages of grief but it’s five stages of social anxiety

#walk with me #this morning i got a bouquet delivered to me at work randomly out of nowhere #the note basically said that i could count of the person even if for just some words of advice or a gesture that could make me laugh or mad #count on the person** #i immediately knew it’s from one of my coworkers and ngl i have a very charged?? relationship with them #in the sense that it’s very intense and we can be laughing joking and teasing or we can be really angry and pissed with each other #it can have very extreme emotions even if we just chill most of the time #idk why i think this whole year i’ve been leaning on them more?? and we started texting more often too #so we’ve been more properly friends lately #and for one i was SO EMBARRASSED for getting flowers bc my coworkers tease the shit out of everyone myself included and i’m not used to #gestures like that so obviously they were on my ass all day about it #and everyone asked about them and it’s EMBARRASSING to get that much attention #(me: i wanna be a singer / also me: can’t stand to be the center of attention) #anyway the person that sent them avoided me yesterday out of nowhere??? idk if they thought i was mad bc i didn’t reply to their texts all #weekend but i literally never reply to anyone and pms was a bitch and i just wanted to be alone #so they didn’t talk to me on monday i was mostly just working listening to music bc i was still emotional whatever #and today i did talk to my other coworkers bc it’s the day when my favorite coworker comes in and i talk to them a lot so i engaged more #and they were still ignoring me and then the flowers came in and we didn’t say a single word to each other today we just texted #they told me they sent them and that ‘they forgot’ what they sent and that it was just meant to be a nice gesture #and that bc they wanted to ‘surprise’ me and make me feel better bc i said i was sad at one point?? idek #i literally just want to tell them I HAD PMS ITS FINE I FEEL SUICIDAL ALL THE TIME and move on #bc now i’m second guessing everything they’re saying bc i thought we were friends and there’s no reason why friends can’t send each other #flowers or whatever but they’ve been avoiding me and then they keep answering my texts really weirdly and i always misinterpret flirting bc #i’m never outright romantic with anyone?? plus we’re FRIENDS i should have no reason to think that’s changed #but they’re being so weird and why get me FLOWERS??? idk get me a chocolate or a coffee i don’t NEED flowers #and then i said it was random to give me flowers out of nowhere and they’re like no it’s serious bro what’s serious?????? #your feelings towards me?? or just your will to cheer me up??? #if they don’t reply straight up in their next texts i’m gonna flat out say but it was a platonic gesture right??? #so yeah i’m overthink getting flowers bc what’s the social code for that and what is one supposed to do when they get flowers from a friend #delivered to their joint workplace where everyone can see them and think they’re from a partner or something

[kibasniper]

guess who hit the big 3-0? it's me!!

#i forgot tumblr has titles on posts #anyway i turn thirty today!! #hoping this decade is kinder to me tbh #a woman came up to me out of nowhere yesterday and said Jesus loves you and idk it felt symbolic #genuinely a nice gesture! #this is a queued post btw I don’t know how much work I have to do on my birthday

[guinevereslancelot]

most fucked up thing at my new job is there's only zero calorie sweeteners at the coffee station in the break room. three different kinds of zero calorie sweetener but no regular sugar because the assumption is that literally everyone is on a diet?

#is this because its a job dominated by women in particular??? idk #that's so weird #like sorry i can taste the difference and i prefer naturally occurring sugar from nature how is that not even an option #drinking nasty bitter af coffee bc i am So Sleepy but i refuse to use artificial sweeteners #they Do taste different and they're not even good for you im not doing that lol #also they got mad at me for telling one of the parents that we took one of the kids temperature and it was 99 and he threw up a little #when his dad came to get him yesterday and all of the other teachers were nowhere to be found #they were like tou shouldnhave had colleen do that #ma'am colleen went home before that and so did you #i should have left already too but waited bc the ratio on the playground was bad #anyway i did NOT say he had a fever i said it was 99 and to talk to the teacher inside #but the dad didnt yalk to her clearly then went home and scared the mom that he had a fever and threw up so she texted my boss freaking out #i literally just said he threw up a little and we took his temperature and it was 99 and to talk to the other teacher #which was all true and there was no one else there to tell him #anyway #apparently the person who had my job before me was a wacko who scared the parents with fake medical information or something #but that is not my fault and nobody told me that or not to tell the parents anything medical until this morning #ugh #also my supervisor is kind of a weirdo #she wanted to show everyone ~cute~ pictures of animals she has killed while hunting??? #and i said i didnt want to see #and she was like ~oh it's not dead yet in the picture~ #like okay but its dead now??? #she traps them first so its a cute little fox in a trap about to be killed 😭 #like wtfff #i know trappong predators is a reality but why take pictures like ohhh so cute then kill it #THEN show everyone the cute pictures like yeah isnt he adorable i killed him btw <3 #huh?????? #she has a bobcat tail on her keychain too she was giving it to the teachers and kids to pet like ohhh its so soft <3

[pekodayz]

who even started this matsu fertility and infertility thing

#where did this spawn. it came out of nowhere yesterday night

[piplupod]

re: prev post, just an anecdote of my family's bs

i remember when i was trying to have a conversation w my family, esp my brother, a while back (last year) about the prev post's topic, and ohhh my fucking god. it was one of the worst convos I've ever had with them. my brother was whining about how difficult it was to not be racist and to know what qualifies as racist and what's "okay to say" etc (along with ableism, but racism was the main point of that convo at that point), so I said he just needed to go searching out some musicians and podcasters and streamers of colour and you'd pretty quickly diversify your media intake and pick up good habits and good viewpoints just through that one simple action. it's like,,, really not that hard to find POC to subscribe to/follow if you do a simple look-around in your usual spaces u spend time in on the internet.

and he said, and I quote, "i'm going to be honest, i just don't care enough to do that" and yet he had just been whining about how hard it is to not be racist and how he was stressed because people kept telling him he was being racist,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, head in my hands !!!!!! he went on to explain just how little he actually cared and how it seemed like too much work to him even though he'd literally just been complaining to me for like 20 full minutes about how he was so stressed and didn't like people telling him he was racist.

like i know what he wanted to hear was "its okay if ur racist, im sure ur just doing ur best :)" but i'm not going to fucking say that to him. even if it would make me safer in this hell house, i am not going to fucking affirm anyone's comfort in being racist.

#this family drives me nuts. i lost all respect for my brother that day ngl #and he has gone on to be continually racist and brush off anything i've brought up in family conversations about racism #like that one youtuber that he and another brother love so much that is white and bastardizing an indigenous spirit for profit #he got so fucking mad when i said the words ''white saviourism'' fdsjjkl i saw smth in him just snap when i said that about the youtuber #and then he uses ''tribal savages'' in his DnD campaigns and i'm just....... so tired. having to listen to him excitedly explain his- #-new campaign that he came up with and he's yet again using the tribal savage horrific stereotypes #and if i say shit about that then i get yelled at by the rest of the family and made to feel like im oversensitive and crazy #anyways. wah wah poor me etc. im sure this is somewhat normal and nowhere near the difficulties other ppl face #i just rly hate trying to slooowly teach them and suggest the tiniest steps towards being less racist and they get so fucking angry at me #im still smarting over yesterday bc i had to hold my tongue through a lot of shit and i feel awful about it #i want to teach them so they aren't going thru the world hurting ppl but i have to weigh my safety against it #and tbh they are not receptive anyways so i'd just be throwing away my safety for no real progress w them #but i feel like i have to try idk !!!! if i don't try then nobody in this family has any real hope of improving !!! #god knows theyre not going to take the initiative themselves. thats been proven repeatedly over my goddamn lifetime #sigh. head in my hands. tearing my hair out. etc etc etc #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[jacuzziwaters]

IT'S SNOWING. I WAS WEARING SHORTS 3 DAYS AGO.

#im not mad about it #it was just really sudden and it came out of nowhere #im at a lost for words #it's crazy #its was in the 50s just yesterday #and raining #why #jay's attempts at communicating #midwest shenanigans

[ashtonisvibing]

got my lights and flag back up after having to take them down

gay little lights gay little flag gay little guy

#ashton is talking #god my thumbs hurt from putting up all the thumb tacks #had to take down the flags and lights cuz people came in yesterday to check for lead in the wall paint #so i took down everything on my walls that i could #was too tired after having to be out of the apartment for 6hrs with nowhere to go #so today me had to deal with it #still gotta put my pictures back up but that's for tomorrow me

[mod2amaryllis]

my albino kribensis died tonight :( I'm still looking into it, I'll put like test details and stuff in the tags, I'm so at a loss....i found him probably minutes within death because i check on them so often. was going around saying goodnight to tanks before lights out and found him. super super bummed. it was barely more than a week but i really liked him...

#yeah I'm extremely sad #i think i have an ok understanding of pet death cuz of my job. like I'm able to focus at least and not get discouraged like- #-ok I'm extremely sad but let's get out the test kit and remember these things just happen #but this particular fish was so cool :( he was already personable #always came out to see me #that's how i knew something was wrong. he didn't come out so i looked behind stuff and found him covered in snails #i found him so quickly the snails hadn't even made a dent he's PERFECTLY intact. like weirdly intact. looked all over- #-and not a scratch. #the female seems freaked out too #analytical time: i tested and there was an ammonia spike. there's no way it would've spiked that fast from his dead body #could've been leftover food but i did a regular 25% water change yesterday and the food hasn't been in there long #it's out of nowhere i really don't know what happened or if i did something wrong #not trying to beat myself up at all just if i DID do something wrong i want to know so i don't do it again #animal death #m2a #uggghhhhh...... #just sad #Jose said something nice. i was saying how it's such a bummer that i only had him a week yet fell so in love during that short time #and he said well there you go he gave you a very happy week #lol it's exactly something i would say to a client..... like thanks honey

[artemisiatridentata]

guys omg i posted my first ever fic on ao3 yesterday and people are being so nice!!! I've already got three sweet and thoughtful comments, almost 100 kudos and nearly 500 hits!! i'm pleasantly surprised :']

#it's a lokius fic #did not expect That to take over my brain but after watching loki w/ my brother last week... well #i've been setting aside at least 1 day/wk entirely for creative stuff #and yesterday i intended to draw or paint but instead i wrote a 3k lokius fic! lmao #unexpected but hey i'm actually pretty proud of it and it made me feel good to write and im glad other ppl are enjoying it :] also side not #i love this :] smiley face it's so cute #personal #my art #(kinda. writing is art!!!) #it literally came out of nowhere tho like I’ve hated marvel since high school lol #and when my brother said I should watch Loki I was soooo skeptical but I did it bc I love my brother #and. well. I will not under any circumstances hand it to marvel but they kinda went off with the lokius subtext

[zukkaoru]

whenever i say "i want to write more lighthearted fics" that is apparently actually a warning that i'm about to take a character and squeeze them in my fist until they break

#i said that to corey in february and then immediately wrote (i am) the whisper of a memory #then again yesterday i was talking to corey abt how i wanted to write a silly fun times fic and #well i can assure this fic i started is not silly or fun. i don't even know where it came from #i really thought i was going to write ~200 words. hate it. and give up #but. that did not happen. #really solidifying the fact that i am best at writing angst though #been fic hopping and struggling to write anything i like these past several days bc none of my current wips are particularly angsty #and then this fic comes out of nowhere and suddenly i've remembered how to write :o #anyway. so sorry d.azai youre really going through it here but i promise this is not as bad as (ia)twoam so. at least there's that #hello grace here

[satturn]

no 1 for the fourth week in a row let's gooo

#that aart guy came out of nowhere yesterday trying to take my spot #i did so many lessons today #i care about this too much i don't have a lot going on in my life right now

[queenerdloser]

hahahaha after like five days of being totally normal, my cat has now decided that he is sick again and threw up like six times in two hours, spiking my anxiety back into astronomical levels

#liveblogging life #NO idea why bc yesterday he was completely fine & normal #i've been doing his antibiotics twice a day as instructed he's been eating his wet food and peeing like he's supposed to #and then BOOM today he threw up in the afternoon and then in the past like 2.5hrs he's thrown up multiple times #getting flashbacks to LAST monday when this whole thing started and im like ??? do you just hate mondays????? #as i was typing this he threw up AGAIN so i just texted my boss to ask if i can work from home tomorrow #and i'll call my vet office first thing tomorrow morning to see if they can get me in last minute #otherwise it'll probably have to be emergency services bc he's 100 percent dehydrated right now #i just wish i knew why he was sliding back bc it feels like this came out of nowhere after several days of recovering #sleep might not be possible right now tbh i'm super fucking anxious

[cryptidcave-dweller]

It's hard being a cowboy when your player makes you stay idle instead of pausing

#rdr2 #I'm having a blast playing this game #It came out of nowhere but to be fair I was not paying attention #This all spanned in like a minute of me signing in yesterday

[oh-gh0st]

these wasps are Very persistent

#ghosts rambles #context there is a hole in the front of our gutter and last friday wasps were trying to build a nest there #but my dad got it down #yesterday i saw a few wasps peeking out from the hole when we came back from shopping. never been more mad in my life #me and my sibling are nowhere Near confident enough to get it down #we have to wait until my dad comes home on monday to deal w it #ougghh i hope that i dont see more when we leave for today. god #i just hope that they wont build INSIDE the gutter. then that will be bad