#cas babygirl i love you but PLEASE explain your actions to dean he does not have alot to work with here

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Goddd what Dean goes through with Cas in seasons 6-8 particularly makes me so insane

strained relationship. Defending Cas against Sam and Bobby despite his own suspicions because Dean has faith in him. Cas' betrayal. Cas becoming God. His subsequent death. Mourning him. Finding Cas alive, but with no memories. Seeing him get his memories back, but not getting a chance to talk about what happened because Cas takes on Sam's hallucinations. Going to purgatory. Getting abandoned immediately. Searching for Cas for a year. Finding Cas and immediately learning he stayed away on purpose. Thinking he failed to get Cas out of purgatory. Thinking he's hallucinating him. Cas comes back. He tells Dean that he chose to stay and Dean falsified memories to make it his own fault. Cas is back, but he's acting weird. Again. Dean knows and prays to him anyway. Cas almost kills him for the angel tablet. He then heals Dean and leaves without any explanation. Cas comes back. He attempts to repair their relationship, then immediately goes off with Metatron to deal with heaven. Cas tells Dean he's sealing up heaven forever with himself in it. He will probably be killed. Dean doesn't ask him to stay. Can't imagine why.

Sam is dying, and Dean prays to Cas. None of whats happened matters, none of what Cas has done matters. He just needs him there. Even now, he has faith in Cas.

Cas is human now. He can't hear him.

Sidenote: i am NOT saying that dean didnt do anything wrong in their relationship in these seasons, or that Cas didnt have real and even justified reasons for alot of his actions. This is j what im rotating in my brain rn, and i wanted to list it all out for maximum brain worms <333

#they never got to talk about fuckin anythingggg #cas babygirl i love you but PLEASE explain your actions to dean he does not have alot to work with here #they have the communication issues of all time #there are so many times where dean reaches out because he needs cas he wants him there we wants him to stay #and it never works #cas not hearing the prayer at the beginning of season 9 is lik sam never knowing the phone call at the end of season 4 was tampered with #to me #spn #supernatural #destiel #dean winchester #cat spirals tag