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eventually — lexi Howard x f! Reader

A/N: y’all remember when it was canon that lexi was a lesbian? Don’t come for me!!! ofc your identity can change as you evolve as person (don’t I know it) + I don’t mind fexi since they’re out here changing ages (although this should have been established way before it was put out but hey wtf do I know?) and what not lmao…yet this is for my gays 😘 happy?! Euphoria day? It was a tame impala kinda night when this was written hence the title! Let’s give it up for my girl LEXI ✨

WARNINGS: hurtful arguments, imagery of su*c*de + in no way trying to glorify the matter as many topics in this show are questioned as glamorization. I tried to come up with the idea of writing something for Lexi and her play but thought of who’s really there for her and their purpose in her life and this is the result. It’s also been discussed that euphoria is actually Lexi’s play and that would be interesting if it turns out that way. I can’t wait to actually see what Oklahoma! Is about though. I haven’t seen the Israeli version of this show—which takes on a different approach of it all. Anywho,,, it’s been renewed for season 3 and we’re already strapped in for the ride so who knows where we’ll end up!

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Eventually things get better, that’s what they always say right? Or maybe it’s just something to say to provide a ounce of comfort but even still that doesn’t fucking matter if you don’t believe that statement.

Lexi Howard was unsure if she wanted to include you in Oklahoma until you appeared right beside her one night, comfy in her bed, fuzzy socks brushing against the sides of her bare feet, and chin pressed into her shoulder as lexi’s nails clacked over the keyboard.

“I just don’t think it makes sense if I’m not included.” You spoke to the camera, tumbler filled with a iced matcha in your hand—since you didn’t fuck with plastic, “I can honestly say lexi and I have been tight since after her and rue became friends. I came into the picture last, around kindergarten? but I was always the one that remained consistent. So yeah I wouldn’t be upset if she did include me, is what I’m saying.”

You were the first to know all about Oklahoma! even when it started off as a mere thought and nothing more. Once the inspiration took off you were there every step of the way, pacing the room as lexi read out loud what she had and you nodding in approval or suggesting which lines to revise. The both of you had the creative trait, lexi loved writing and books and you loved embroidery and building miniature dollhouses. Both of these hobbies were lame to many kids growing up, which was hurtful to be teased about until you stood up for yourself and best friend.

If these hobbies bought happiness then it didn’t matter what anyone else had to say. It was also nice to know that the both of you encouraged each other to keep going and here at seventeen, that hasn’t changed.

“It’s done, y/n! The third act is completed and we’re having the first auditions on Monday. Do you think people will try out?” Lexi stared at you though her shared vanity’s mirror.

You stood beside her with a smile, “they’ll hear from me if they don’t, even if I have to drag them there myself.”

“Y/n! I can’t force people do anything. I just hope it doesn’t suck and blow up in my face.” Lexi nervously pinched at her bottom lip.

Locking your arms lightly around her neck you replied, “stop doubting yourself. Remember what I said? Negative thoughts put out into the world results in ugly energy returned. Look at yourself and repeat after me: I’m hardworking and did this shit all on my own. I will become a success and I will become a future screenwriter because I’m that bitch.”

Laughing, Lexi shook her head, putting it down shyly after that but you wiggled her shoulder with the open palm you had resting there, “come on say it until you believe it. Or I’ll hang onto you for the rest of the night like a sloth and you know I’ll do it too.”

“That I’m that bitch? You really want me to say all that?” Lexi asked, while you rapidly nodded your head.

Placing her hand on top of yours she gave a convincing smile after two deep breaths, “I’m Lexi Howard, I’m hardworking and did this all on my own.”

“That’s it.” You coached.

“I will become a success and I will become a future screenwriter because…I’m that bitch?”

Snapping your fingers you encouraged her to do it again and again and again until the point she was screaming at herself in the mirror.

Once Cassie walked into the room with her wide blue eyes she stared at her younger sister oddly, “What’re you screaming at yourself for? Weirdo.”

Lexi didn’t spare her sister a glance, a beaming smile was now on her lips as she kept her eyes solely on her reflection. When Cassie didn’t receive a response she just rolled her eyes and plopped on her bed stomach first.

“I don’t know what I would do without y/n’s help.” Lexi chatted to the camera, “I couldn’t ask for a better friend, a better partner, a better person to support my passions. I only hope I do the same in return. She’s actually what inspired the character ‘Evangelina’ which is biblical and ironic since I’m agnostic. Which leaves me to think everyone in your life has a purpose right?”

The first time lexi’s ever been mad at you was when she received a call that you were rushed to the hospital by your older brother due to your heart stopping. Lexi’s had her share of phone calls of her friends ending up in the hospital and it was always a draining experience. It become even more upsetting when it was revealed that you put yourself in the hospital willingly due to a stupid trend of drinking Benadryl as a hallucinogen.

“There’s gotta be more than this…i just wanted to see it.” You croaked as lexi was curled up beside you in your hospital bed.

Lexi wanted to pry on that but you still seemed so out of it. This wasn’t like you, taking risks just for the fun of it. You were normally so animated, full of life but something about that day never felt right to Lexi and she felt the pressure of wanting to do more for the person she loved.

Rue maybe the first person she’s ever kissed but you were the first person she was in love with. It took awhile to figure it out and with the success of the play kicking off, lexi turned into ‘lexi mode’ which unintentionally meant putting you on the back burner.

“Don’t get me wrong lex, I’m super proud of what you’re accomplishing here but that doesn’t mean you get to treat others around you like shit. That’s not you.” You witnessed it all, how lexi became “passionate” behind the scenes at rehearsals but at the same time she was blowing everything off for this play.

Lexi widened her eyes, “i don’t even know what you’re talking about? Its crunch time here, this is how it works. Everything ultimately falls on me and you don’t understand how much pressure that is to make everything perfect!”

“It doesn’t have to be perfect just be realistic here.” You followed her around backstage.

Lexi stopped in her tracks, “well here’s something realistic, stop bugging me and let me work okay?! I don’t need you breathing down my neck anymore, the writings done so i don’t need your input. And unless you’re going to reprise your role as Evangelina…then we don’t have anything else to talk about here.”

That felt like a slap in the face. For many reasons, lexi only tended to get amped up when she was stressed but she was never ever disrespectful. You already felt like you did enough behind the scenes post production for your best friend but the minute she tried to persuade you to play the role you inspired, it took some time since you weren’t sure how it would look on the outside. You read it on paper, fuck, you understood but you decided to step down last minute because your anxiety got the best of you.

Lexi was disappointed but she wouldn’t dare push you. Now it was opening night and she had no regard for your feelings and part of you knew she didn’t mean this, it was just the process of trying to reflect the life she lived to her audience. Lexi wanted so desperately for people to resonate with her work, however it felt like it was you against her in that moment.

And it should have never felt that way. That wasn’t what your relationship was about. It was never about trying to one up the other, no matter what differences you felt about any situation, you still respected each other. Tonight it felt like none of that mattered, like your friendship didn’t.

So you sighed, looking down at your feet briefly as you stepped towards lexi. Lexi felt her throat tightening with each step you made and nervously put her hands behind her back. Your eyes flicked up to meet her brown doe ones and carefully you reached up, resting one hand against the side of her warm neck, while the other curled a strand of hair behind her ear.

“I hope you get everything you finally want and more out of tonight, lex. I hope this play tells you exactly what you need to know about not only us…but yourself. It’s just a shame I won’t be here to see you realize it all.”

A frown immediately set in between lexi’s long brows, “…wha? What’re you saying? You’re not gonna stay? Don’t be like this, I’m not asking you to leave, y/n.”

“…it’s okay. This is your big moment so let them know who you are, lex. I’ll be around, somewhere.” You leaned forward with a smile, placing a kiss to her cheek.

Lexi felt her breathing hitch as you did so, her eyes searching yours before you turned to leave. She grabbed your hand, causing you to glance back at her.

“You’ll be here after the show right? I need you here with me, you know?”

“Oh, I know.” You tilted your head to the side before you lifted your chin, “looks they need you now.”

Lexi turned to Bobbi who stopped in her trail as Lexi turned to her, her high-pitched voice called out to the brunette, waving her over. Lexi nodded her head at the taller girl and faced you, to see that your hand already slipped out of hers and you were heading out the back door. Lexi wanted to call out to you but she wasn’t sure what else she could say.

This didn’t feel right but eventually it would?

Hopefully after the show.

The weight of tears in lexi’s eyes were so heavy that it stung. It hurt to blink, felt difficult to think, and her lungs felt like they weren’t giving her enough oxygen. Tonight was supposed to be her special night, she received quite the applause after the first night of Oklahoma despite the underlying negative reviews from Cassie at first…all Lexi wanted to do was see you as she clenched onto the bouquet of flowers.

“Have any of you seen, y/n?” Lexi found herself asking her group of friends and her mother.

Lexi observed the looks that washed over her friend’s faces.

“Um, Lexi…” Cassie started, shifting from one foot to the other, her eyes glancing from their mother’s to her little sister’s.

Her mother shushed the girl as she tossed a arm over lexi’s shoulder’s leading her away from the group. Lexi could hear the chatter from behind, something along the lines of:

“Did she just say y/n?” Kat asked.

“Fuck, that’s sad.” Maddy added.

“If anybody should say something it’s our mom.”

“I hope she’s aight. That kinda memory is tough.” Fez commented.

“Shit happens, life is rough.”

“Damn rue, really?” Jules hissed.

Once outside Lexi glanced around the dark parking lot, still hopeful as her mother stood before her, rubbing her shoulders gently.

“You did fantastic tonight honey, who knew I had such a talented kid!” Suze grinned.

Lexi put on a faux smile, ‘you’d know that if you paid equal attention to your other child and not down a bottle every other hour mom. I love you but shit, That’s literally what I conveyed in the play.’

Instead she said, “thanks mom.”

Suze fanned her hands as she blew noise out of her lips, “of course. I’m always proud of you, Alexa. You’ve always had your head on straight, just watching everything until you let your mind do what you felt is right. Ever sense you came into this world, your eyes were wide open looking at anything and everything.”

Lexi’s heard this story before but she found herself listening yet again. She was appreciative when her mother took the time to share how she felt about Lexi since everything was always about her big sister, Cassie. Lexi always came second in the Howard household, so tonight felt so special. Yet there was a ache still forming in the pit of her belly. Like her organs were beginning to betray her just like before when the curtains closed.

“You okay, honey?” Suze asked concerned, watching as Lexi unintentionally gripped her stomach.

“I don’t know…I just suddenly feel bad?”

“Ah, it’s the rest of the jitters probably wearing off. You just gotta shit it out or let some gas out and you’ll be fine.” Suze waved her hand around making Lexi scrunch up her nose in disgust, “I know that feeling all too well with IBS.”

“That’s gross, mom! Not every stomach problem has to do with your IBS.” Lexi scoffed.

Suze laughed a little, “sure, sure.”

“…where is y/n? you didn’t save a seat for her? I kept checking to see if she was near you or cass?” Lexi shifted the bouquet to her other arm, who knew: roses, baby breaths, and Solidago’s could be oh so heavy.

Suze let out a low breath looking away from her youngest daughter. There was a shift in the air as the woman got quiet and Suze was hardly ever quiet…unless she was taking one of her many naps.

“Mom, what? Don’t tell me she’s still annoyed with that I said back stage? I can’t believe she would miss opening night!” Lexi huffed, “at least when we’re annoyed with each other we still show up and talk about it later.”

Suze gently said, “Alexa,” and she never called Lexi by her official government so Lexi knew this was suddenly serious, “y/n’s not here.”

“Well obviously…so where is she?”

“Honey…she died remember? On New Year’s Eve at the party you all went to. You were the one who found her out front.” Suze slowly informed.

Lexi immediately stepped back with a shake of her head, “no. No, mom. She was right here helping me write! If you’re trying to play some shitty prank on me right now, it’s not funny. I’m not laughing!”

Suze deeply inhaled, “I know I can be a lot sometimes as your mother but I would never lie to you about something like that. Not about y/n. Not with the love you shared for each other.”

“M-mom. How? How did I let this happen?” Lexi sobbed.

Suze gripped her daughter to her chest, “there was nothing you could have done, she was hurting and she saw no other way out. Don’t blame yourself, she loved you so much.”

Lexi couldn’t believe what was happening right now. How could she have forgotten something so traumatic? She’s faced a lot in her life when it came to never feeling seen, to having a best friend with a addiction, to her dad leaving them behind and choosing thieving and gambling over them all which led to her mom’s drinking problem, and she once had a best friend who made going through life somewhat less harder. And to hear that she was no longer here? What kind of fucked up tale was this?

This wasn’t the way the story was supposed to go!

“…I think we’ll get you back into that doctor soon.” Lexi heard after the buzzing in her ear seemed to block out what her mother was saying.

Lexi wanted to run but all she felt was the buzzing in ear taking over again, she felt herself pulling back from her mother and Suze caressed her face but once Lexi’s vision began to falter out along with her balance, she collapsed against her mother’s arms with her eyes still wide open, horrifying the woman who brought her into this world.

When Lexi gained her vision back along with her senses, she felt the plush of her bed and the lukewarm temperature of a wet rag resting against her forehead.

“Hey, you’re okay.” Cassie carefully sat Lexi’s feet.

Lexi was unsure how long her sister was there but she wasn’t overly thrilled to have her in her face right now.

“What happened?”

“Your vertigo took over, scaring mom half to—it’s scary when that happens, you know.” Cassie caught herself on her choice of her words, which made Lexi feel a smidge thankful. She didn’t want anything else triggering her.

Lexi remained slouched against her swirl pillowcase, “sorry I guess. I was not aware I suffered from that too. There’s apparently so much I’m not aware of these days…which isn’t like me.”

“Right,” Cassie rested a hand against Lexi’s covered knee, “We’re all still trying to figure everything out lex…including what’s going on with you.”

“Really…?” Lexi questioned but wasn’t overly convinced.

Cassie nodded, “well yeah, Oklahoma! told us what we needed to know. Hallie was definitely about me right?”

Lexi couldn’t help but to roll her eyes, “what gave that away? The blonde hair and d-cup boobs?”

“Fuck you.” Cassie laughed, “but seriously, lexi. I never knew you felt that way about our sisterhood…and Evangelina…well y/n.”

Lexi was too tired to dive into that part of Cassie’s sentence since she knew it would turn into an argument. Cassie tended to wear her heart on her sleeve but the minute someone had an opinion that didn’t match her own, she was on the defense, especially if it came from Lexi herself.

“What about y/n?” Lexi swallowed.

A soft smile appeared on Cassie’s lips, “well…you wrote her as grace’s archangel. I also love that you had the actor dressed in white without the cliche wings and ring above their head. Yeah, I picked up on that. That’s just what I gained from the play on that part, she always had this message for grace when issues would occur.”

“Wow,” lexi breathed suddenly plucking the rag from her skin, “I didn’t realize…I can’t believe it didn’t register…” she stumbled over her words.

Cassie kept a smile on her face, “I also thought it was wonderful to have Evangelina and grace share intimate moments without actually kissing. Although it seems like Evangelina wanted you—or grace to be with the other guy, the guy that’s rough around the edges…It’s cool to see the way you view intimacy.

“I don’t think the principal would have allowed any sex scenes. It’s probably not appropriate. and I’m not comfortable showcasing that shit to a bunch of immature horn dogs who don’t value love. There’s much more to sex than fucking to me.” Lexi rambled.

Cassie nodded, “right. Yeah no the intimate moments between each character was just enough and that’s okay. You’re not ready. You write what you know.”

“It’s not like I’m not capable of writing that…I just wanted the focus of Oklahoma! to be about the other factors of life. Something more.” Lexi explained.

“This play was about your healing process. I get that now. At first I was unsure and pissed at some scenes that felt too familiar since you tried to tweaked them but felt like you were trying to out me to Maddy.” Cassie told Lexi who frowned.

“I wasn’t trying to out anybody.” Lexi huffed, “it’s like you’re saying you get it but at the same time you don’t? I was writing about life, Cassie. young life and how it feels at times that you’ll forever be stuck in that moment. How situations feel permanent rather then temporary and clearly in some points, they truly are permanent.”

“And you just so happened to have hallie come clean to grace about her big secret?”

“It’s not much of a secret if you’re being sneaky and acting weird. From barely sleeping, to changing your looks, throwing yourself at a shitty guy to crying and puking on your best friend’s birthday. I just wish you could talk to me like Hallie did with grace, that’s all! But I’m glad you picked that up since everything is always about you!”

“I just said I liked the relationship between grace and Evangelina! And that I understood the play while also relating it to reality. God, if you’re only gonna sit around writing about other people’s shit, you should remember that your best friend or girlfriend or whatever the hell you guys were, died to probably get away from your delusions!” Cassie screamed, now standing at the foot of Lexi’s bed.

“Cassandra!” Suze screamed standing at the door with a bottle of ginger ale and saltine crackers.

Cassie’s eyes widened as she realized what she said and looked back at Lexi who was glaring at her with sea waves in her brown eyes, “oh gosh, Lexi! I’m sorry, I didn’t mean that I just—

“How about you shut up for once, Cassie! Just leave me the fuck alone, you’re good at doing that right?”

“Girls. Everyone just needs to take a break and chill out.”

Cassie said nothing, deciding to step out of the room as Suze shook her head at her eldest before coming over to Lexi’s side. She placed everything on her night stand and caressed her face as Lexi turned to put her back to her mother.

“Oh honey.” Suze cooed as she climbed onto the bed beside her child, holding her as Lexi’s body shook with cries, “it’ll all be okay.”

“How?! I couldn’t even remember that one of my best friend’s is actually dead while the other just keeps playing with death!” Lexi sniffed, struggling to stop the cries that escaped her lips.

Suze pushed Lexi’s hair back as she breathed, “…read the note she left you, I think it’s time.”

Lexi lifted her head at that, “y/n left me something?”

“She wouldn’t leave without saying her final goodbye to her best girl…that wasn’t the way she rolled. You know that.” Suze told her daughter who didn’t bother to comment on her mothers terrible attempt at using lingo.

“…where is it?”

Suze dipped her head, pointing at the miniature dollhouse that rested in the windowsill. Lexi felt her body instantly relax at the house you made for her for her birthday last year. Out of the many years Lexi’s seen you work, she never asked for you to make her one or any of the crafts you did. The both of you always came up with something else to surprise the other with but the last birthday felt different. Like the universe knew something that the both of you didn’t.

Up Lexi went on her feet, slowly moving—almost tip toeing to the cottage home. A smile appeared on Lexi’s face as she always told you that she wanted to live in a cottage surrounded by a meadow somewhere, maybe Greenland. You always listened to her wants and needs even if you tended to over talk people when you got excited about something.

Her fingertips gently went passed the front open white doors. They felt around for what felt like a piece of paper and she pulled it out revealing tangerine paper, your favorite color. It smelled like you even with Lexi only holding it up to her eyes.

“Do you want me to stay?” Suze asked.

Lexi turned her head to the side, hearing her mother and shook her head gently.

“I’ll be downstairs if you need me.”

Once the door closed, Lexi climbed back into her bed covering herself with her sheets as she rested on her back. With one hand she held the paper up in the dim of her room while the other ran over her matted sweaty hair.

“Go on, open it.” Y/n encouraged, sitting beside Lexi, perched up on her elbow.

The air felt cold on her end but the comfort of her voice was just enough to keep Lexi going.

Slowly she unfolded the paper but stopped, “if I read this, does that mean I won’t see you anymore?”

“Hey, I don’t know how this thing works. But there’s still pieces of me here with you…that’s gotta mean something right?” You replied.

Lexi scoffed, “so the afterlife doesn’t make sense just like regular life? Got it.”

Your laugh sounded much more melodic now.

Exhaling, Lexi unfolded the paper which read:

Dec. 27th, 2019(?)

Hey Lex,

We both know I’m not the writer out of the two of us but here’s my attempt at it anyways. I’m not sure what possessed me to write for you but my gut told me to and what do I always say about the gut? To always learn from it. It’s not a great feeling to ignore anything the body or universe is trying to tell you. So here goes nothing!

We’re getting to the end of the year and life is always moving so fast that we don’t even see it. We just live. As your best friend, I always loved the feeling of being beside you even with rue entering and disappearing on us like she does! You know that feeling of being the third friend that always has to walk on the side of the street of the sidewalk or right behind two friends? I never felt that with you, you are always patient and aware.

I LOVE that about you.

I see you for what you are and can’t wait for you to see yourself for what you are. That moment will be epic and something will get you there. Maybe your writing? I can see it. We never know what the future holds but maybe everything that’s handed to us currently, will eventually lead us to finally understand that it was all worth it. I hope wherever we are five-ten years from now we’ll be thriving, HAPPIER whether together or apart.

Eventually, eventually, eventually, eventually. I’m always rooting for you and we’ll get there if it’s the last thing we ever do. I love you lex! Here’s to eventually finding out what life is all about.

—Y/N ㋡

The letter was smashed to Lexi’s chest as her brows furrowed at your words. There were so many questions and so many things unanswered.

So she asked.

“What happened from the time you wrote this letter to New Year’s Eve?”

A cold touch ran over her skin, it was your touch and it should be warm but the reality was that it no longer was.

“You know where I come from: a philosopher for a father, a archeologist for a mother—who I lost too soon, and a hippie for a brother. I was designated to look at life differently. I was fine when I wrote that. Excited for you to read it whenever you would find it. But sometimes the a shitty feeling wins and it’s not something anyone could have—I don’t feel like this is the right term…but fix? I don’t want you to be mad at me lex…we’re all on borrowed time…mine just came early because of a bad feeling.”

“But I know I could have done something more! We were improving at communicating, we understood each other better than anyone—at least I thought…but I didn’t see this coming. I didn’t expect to find you laying there on top of that car…”

You nodded. “I know. Don’t think about my ending, there’s no use in that. Sometimes there just isn’t anything more, I found. All that matters is what you have now and what you choose to do with it.”

“So…I’m just supposed to accept that you didn’t see more for yourself? More for us? That it all had to end right there entering the new year?” Lexi was beginning to get frustrated with you or rather the ghost of you?

“Lex, I cannot tell you more than life is forever changing. We knew that the moment we both had growing pains at the same time or when we both got our periods for the first time on the same day—you during the day and myself as soon as the sun went down. We’re forever intertwined, just not physically anymore. You know this based on what your play showed, just open your eyes a little wider when it comes to us.”

Lexi inhaled, tightening her hold on the paper against her chest, “you were there…”

“Every step of the way.”

“I’m gonna miss you, you asshole.”

“I’m clearly not going anywhere just yet. Are we not cuddling in this very moment, Lexi love?”

Lexi sighed, “the only difference is you’re much colder now and my arm might just go right through you. Plus mom and Cassie are gonna think I’m a nut job whenever you decide to pop in for a chat.”

“I’m not fucking Casper! And trust the process.”

Lexi snorted as she repeated, “Eventually, huh?”

“Yeah, now you got it.” You winked, leaning your head against Lexi’s shoulder who felt the weight of you followed by the coldness. Lexi felt herself slightly shiver, until it subsided.

She knew that was your way of providing comfort without even saying.

“…did you enjoy the play? Would you compare it in anyway to the afterlife?” Lexi suddenly asked.

You breathed out a laugh not fully answering the question, probably within good reason, “did I!? I told you grace would be my favorite.”

“Yeah?” Lexi felt heat swirling to the apple’s of her cheeks, “I enjoyed writing Evangelina and seeing her come to life.”

“Really? Hm. I thought you would have picked the character that was inspired by fez.”

“Oh please,” Lexi rolled her eyes at your teasing, “I saw something in Evangelina that immediately made me a fan. I try time and time again to pick her brain while writing her and sure she’ll let you in a little…but angels always seem to talk in code with whatever message they’re trying to leave you with.”

You hummed once more.

“Maybe my death was the message.”

“I don’t know if I want to know what that message is. I don’t know if you sense this but this still fucking sucks.” Lexi was doubtful, as usual. The images of finding you flashed through her mind rapidly like a flash of a camera, the image of you felt all too much like Evelyn McHale.

Lexi squeezed her eyes shut trying to get rid of the memory like she’s unconsciously learned to do.

“I loved you. I’m so sure of it. I just wish we had more time.” Lexi found herself whispering and tears burning her vision again.

“In another lifetime we do.” You smiled.

Lexi sat up, “what? What do you mean?”

“Just look at Oklahoma! You’re not too far off…” you trailed off glancing upwards, “oh, apparently I can’t say anything else.”

“Wait you have to answer to…a higher power?” Lexi frowned.

“Yes. It’s not too controlling though,” You sat up too, gripping Lexi’s neck, “I know you loved me as much as I loved you. It was a pleasure being one of your best friends. To be loved by Lexi Howard, what an honor.”

Lexi shyly dropped her head down, biting down on her bottom lip. She wished she would have said it more to you when you were around, but with the domestic care you shared towards each other it felt like enough then. However lexi found words of affirmation was probably high on her list of how to be loved…and she realized she probably didn’t love you in the way you wanted to be loved. What was your language? Lexi had no issue leaving you little notes or sending loving texts before you saw each other for the day, she had a way with words when she wasn’t being awkward about it.

It should have been evident that the two of you were in love. Maybe everyone around already knew and if they didn’t, the play set the tone of your relationship…if you looked deep enough.

“Ah, There it is.” You smiled at Lexi who finally saw you in color instead of a grainy black and white negative, your form slowly blossomed into a soft peachy hue and Lexi felt like she could finally breathe (normally) in your presence.

Lexi exhaled, “what was that?”

Smirking you leaned towards Lexi, eyes flicking to her lips then back to her cautious brown doe eyes.

“I don’t know, something corny like happiness? You tell me Miss. Writer.” You placed your forehead against her’s, taking in a whiff of her warm vanilla, strawberries, and peonies scent before you laughed into her face once more, then a breeze washed over her frame, signaling your departure.

Lexi threw her hands up at the ceiling despite a smile breaking over her lips, “see this is exactly what I mean about talking in code!”

Shaking her head she threw herself back against her bed, eyes searching for the tangerine note, in which she placed a kiss upon before curling up onto her side and clinging it to her chest once more.

Closing her eyes, Lexi let herself drift off to sleep with the thought that eventually she’ll get it but somehow she was sure that it would all come together. Maybe when she awakes you’ll be right beside her again as she writes about it, pondering over the thought of the love she could give back to you.

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BEST FRIENDS

summary: maddy’s your best friend, you spend days consoling her after she finds out about nate and cassie when she admits something to you.

fandom: euphoria

parings: maddy x f reader

warnings: swearing, smut, fingering

You met Maddy two years ago when you moved to East Highland. You shared an English class together on your first day and after that you just instantly clicked. You had been best friends ever since, your bond only growing stronger over the years.

You had been there for her every time Nate Jacobs broke her heart. And when you found out that he was the one who choked her, well, you could of just killed him, but for Maddy’s sake you didn’t.

You hated Nate and he knew this. You made it abundantly clear that you weren’t afraid of him and you knew exactly what he had done to Maddy, no false police report would convince you otherwise. So in return he hated you and tried to get Maddy to stop being friends with you multiple times.

He could convince her to do anything if he tried hard enough, but breaking up the friendship that Maddy had with you was something he wouldn’t be able to accomplish, ever. It was a strong bond.

You were hanging out with Maddy, Cassie, Lexi and Kat at the Howard’s house one night when Rue came knocking on the door. Next thing you knew Rue was on the stairs, sweaty as hell and her mom was trying to get her and convince her to go to rehab.

“You don’t have too. Just take it one day at a time,” Cassie said, smiling at Rue. Everyone nodded at Cassie’s words.

“Hey Cass, can I ask you a question?” Rue replied. Cassie nodded. “How long have you been fucking Nate Jacobs?”

Everything fell apart. The truth came out. Everyone was in shock, especially Maddy. She was heartbroken that one of her best friends would do that to her. You and Kat had to stop her from beating Cassie’s ass then and there and you took her home, comforting her all night.

It was a few days later, you and Maddy were watching a movie on her bed, tissues littered the floor. She was going through double the heartbreak, a double breakup, double the betrayal.

“I’m fucking done with both of them,” Maddy said. “This time I mean it. Nate has lost me forever.”

“They’re both fucking idiots Maddy. You deserve so much better,” you said as she laid in your lap, you played with her raven hair. “Fuck Nate, fuck Cassie. They deserve each other.”

“Fuck Nate, fuck Cassie,” Maddy nodded, smiling up at you. You both burst into laughs, the first time Maddy had laughed since finding out the truth.

“You’re gunna get revenge right?” You asked as she sat up, crossing her legs in front of you.

“I have a few ideas,” Maddy shrugged. “I just want to say thanks.”

“For what?”

“Being here for me whenever I need you. Dropping everything to comfort me. You’re a true friend Y/N. My best friend,” Maddy said, pushing a few strands of your hair behind your ears.

You smiled at her, “I love you, Maddy. Forever.”

Maddy stared at you, a sudden change in the air. Her eyes flickered down to your lips. “I love you too,” she said before pressing a small peck against your lips.

It took you by surprise. You had never thought of Maddy in any way other than platonic, but new feelings were erupting inside of you. Curious for more you lent forwards kissing her again. A quick peck before pulling away.

The both of you stared at each other for a few seconds before Maddy connected your lips once again, this time kissing for much longer. You were making out, her tongue slipping into your mouth as she climbed onto your lap, arms wrapping around your neck.

You pulled away briefly, letting your lips attack her neck, leaving bruises against her soft skin. Maddy let out a moan and you felt yourself getting more and more aroused.

“Do you wanna do this?” Maddy whispered.

You looked up at her. “If you do,” you replied. Maddy nodded, pulling her top over her head, revealing her chest. You did the same and Maddy’s hands immediately flew to your boobs, massaging your nipples, you copied her actions, playing with her nipples.

“You don’t understand, Y/N. I’ve been imagining doing this with you for months,” Maddy said and you moaned at her words. “Wanna fuck you so bad.”

“Fuck me then,” you said, kissing her. Maddy got off of your lap, pulling her pants and underwear down.

“Can I?” She asked, grabbing the waist band of your sweats. You nodded, watching her as she undressed you, throwing your clothes on top of hers. Maddy climbed back onto the bed, reaching for you and gently placing her cold fingers on your pussy. “Fuck, you’re so wet.” Your hips jolted and she chuckled, rubbing circles into your clit.

“If you keep doing that you’re gunna make me cum,” you said. Maddy smiled, moving her fingers down to your entrance and pushing two fingers inside of you. You moaned loudly, gripping her bedsheets. Maddy pumped her slender fingers in and out of you. “Fuck,” you moaned.

You couldn’t believe that you were doing this with Maddy, your best friend, but the fact that it was Maddy turned you on even more.

“I wanna touch you,” You said, feeling a knot in your stomach as Maddy pushed a third finger into you.

“Soon,” Maddy said, pumping faster, she watched as your eyes rolled into the back of your head. “I want you to cum on my fingers.”

Her words were enough to bring you undone and you came hard, your pussy leaking with warm fluids all over her tanned fingers. Maddy opened her mouth, pulling her fingers out of you and sucking all of your juices off. “You taste so good,” Maddy said. You moaned up at her, pulling her on top of you and kissing her hard.

You reached in between your bodies, rubbing Maddy’s clit with your fingers. “Fuck, Y/N,” Maddy moaned, sitting up and spreading her legs for you. You sat up also. “Y/N, I really wanna scissor with you,” Maddy said. You nodded profusely and the both of you moved, one leg over each other, aligning yourselves up. Maddy moved her body closer to yours, her pussy touching yours, juices mixing.

The feeling was different to anything else you had felt during sex, it was new and exciting. You moved your hips in time with Maddy’s, throwing your head back as pornographic moans fell from both yours and Maddy’s lips.

Soon enough you came for a second time and Maddy followed shortly after you, you both rode out the high and pulled away.

“Fuck Y/N, we should of done that sooner,” Maddy chuckled, you laughed along with her, cleaning yourself up and cuddling in her bed and kissing for the rest of the night. Safe to say Nate and Cassie were at the back of Maddy’s mind now.

#maddy perez #euphoria #alexa demie #maddy x you #maddy x reader #maddy x y/n #maddy perez x you #maddy perez smut #euphoria smut #euphoria imagine #hbo euphoria #cassie howard #rue bennett #lexi howard #kat hernandez

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Small Worlds | Cassie Howard

pairing: cassie howard x f!reader

summary: cassie is messy and tries to find a way to cope with her problems by not confronting the issue, so she runs in the arms of someone just as messy as her.

content/warnings: homophobia, fwb, unhealthy relationships, slut-shaming, bitch!reader, mentions of sex, weed/cigarette usage, objectification, daddy issues, mentions of a fight, unrequited love(?), homophobic slur (d-word), cheating, toxic!reader

Cassie wasn’t too bright in her decision making. She was always caught up in her own problems to properly process how her decisions could affect her later on.

Cassie didn’t think through it properly when she decided to associate herself with you. It was supposed to be a strictly beneficial thing, at least the both of you agreed. Of course, Cassie was ignoring how a relationship like this could affect her later on.

She didn’t think too much of it, there was no way you two would build any other sort of chemistry aside from sexual. There would be no way Cassie could date someone that reminded her of her friend Maddie. You were outspoken and confident in your own sexuality, although you were very much different.

For one, you were only attracted to girls. There were always those guys that would come up to you, not-so-subtly asking for a chance. You would always reject them in a semi-nice way at first but depending on how they took their rejection, you didn’t mind knocking them - literally - down.

Cassie did remember in one of your many encounters you had mentioned you used to be in boxing. Or still were, she didn’t know, you never went further in a conversation of your own life. You’d usually put your clothes back on and leave or start up another sexual activity.

Maybe that's why Cassie found it so easy to keep you around. You didn't really offer much information about your life and you kept things simple. Cassie would still be able to swoon over guys who easily got her hopes up with meaningless words and she'd have your sexual relationship to fall back onto in case things didn't go her way.

Which was surprisingly a lot of times. You'd always have to begrudgingly listen to Cassie's sad stories about her life revolving around men. Even though it irked you to the core seeing how comfortable this girl had got around you, you felt forced to be there for her and lend a helping hand.

After that, Cassie had an affinity towards you. She no longer thought about your encounters as casual like you still did. It was hard to ignore the tender looks Cassie would give you in bed. How she would get shy talking to you in the hallways and sometimes ditch class to visit you during lunch.

"Cassie, what the fuck do you want?" You took a long drag from your blunt before exhaling it.

"I just... wanted to visit you," Cassie gave you a shy smile.

You gave Cassie a dirty look, wondering why she was acting so weird all of the sudden. She was hot, no doubt about that, but you wanted to tell her to fuck off. You had no desire to start a friendship with her much less a relationship. It was the perfect time to tell her your relationship was strictly about fucking.

Although you didn't say any of that to Cassie. You don't know why, maybe it was because you semi-related to her family situation. Cassie had an absent father, and while yours was still around he wasn't much accepting on the way you express yourself. Or maybe you just like to think it was good ass blunt that had you acting differently than usual.

"Goddamit..." You sighed. You held out your blunt to Cassie. "You wanna smoke with me then?"

You knew you had to tell her the truth. Cassie was laying right next to you, breathing heavily and staring at you with half-lidded eyes. You weren't ready for her affections, you weren't ready for anybody's affections. You had two options right now, break Cassie's spirit and not get her hopes up or indulge her in her fantasies for a while.

"[Name]..." Cassie gasped, seeing as you were leaning towards her face.

"Shut up, Cassie..." You dived in for a kiss.

You decided to indulge her for a moment.

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You knew Cassie would open her big mouth and out the both of you. Not that you minded, it didn’t come to a shocker you were having a promiscuous relationship with somebody but more with who that somebody was. Cassie Howard.

The boys at school saw her as easy game, all it took for Cassie to be swooned for somebody was a few soft words here and there. Although now that everybody knew about the both of you guys, you were sure the boys would be all up on her ass.

And you were right, the whole week leading up to the party, everyone tried to swoon Cassie. Even the dickhead of the football team, Nate Jacobs was on her ass again. You already knew of him, and you had no ounce of respect for him at all. Although both of you always managed to stay at arms length to not get in a fight.

Nate had a different story with Cassie. During one of your many nights together, Cassia had a breakdown, all of the guilt building up inside her. She had told you she cheated on her ex and had a fling with Nate. Her guilt was drowning her, Cassie regretted the whole night but she never build up the courage to tell her best friend of her mistake.

That night you provided comfort for Cassie. Instead of doing your normal routine, you held her on the couch while watching movies and caressing her hair. Cassie felt safe with you but you felt the opposite.

While you admit you grew some sort of affection for her, the situation Cassie was in had dawned on you hard. You weren't hopeful for a perfect romantic relationship, but you knew that if you found the right one, you wouldn’t be dealing with this shit.

There were times throughout the day you thought about how it would feel like to be with Cassie and do normal couple things. She was pretty, and you didn’t mind her presence that much anymore. You did acknowledge you had potential to feel something more for her but with the bizarre spur of words that came out of Cassie’s mouth that day changed it.

You always knew Cassie wasn’t emotionally strong. While she had promised to be a better version of herself, she constantly kept on relying on boys to make her feel validated.

You were no idiot. You just chose to ignore shit that was happening around you constantly that didn’t concern you. Yet, recently you found yourself noticing little things Cassie did. You probably always noticed but you would refuse to acknowledge that.

It’s probably why you also refuse to acknowledge why Cassie keeps talking about Nate or staring at him in class. That may be why Nate has been keeping his eyes on you.

There had been a couple of incidents where Nate had called you a dyke. You had to be restrained by your friends to not beat his ass in the halls. While he would always leave with a shit eating grin on his face, you weren’t going to let him get away off the hook just because you couldn’t put your hands on him in school.

While you knew of Nate’s increased disdain on you had something to do with Cassie, you didn’t want to think of the bigger implications of their relationship.

You didn’t know if you had reached a breaking point after Cassie confessed to you her guilt. All you know is that your relationship with her was now changed. In a way where Cassie didn’t know, at least not yet.

One day, Maddie had approached you after school, finding you in the same spot Cassie would always find you. You cursed under your breath seeing her walk towards you, already annoyed at Maddie. You didn’t like her at all and the feeling was mutual. You two only behaved in front of Cassie but you were sure if she weren’t there, you and Maddie would’ve settled your issues in a fight.

“I need to talk to you,” said Maddie, crossing her arms as she stood in front of you.

You took a hit of your cigarette. “Well, you’re here,” You responded, blowing all of the smoke out in Maddie’s face.

Maddie’s face contorted in disgust, letting out an “ew”.

“This is serious, so listen, bitch!” exclaimed Maddie, concern written on her face. “I have a feeling Cassie is fucking Nate.”

She is.

“What the fuck does that have to do with me,” You said, facing away from Maddie.

“Cassie’s is my best friend and your girlfri-“

You glared at Maddie. “She isn’t my fucking girlfriend,” You hissed, putting your cigarette off on the walls of the school building.

“Okay, whatever, bitch!” yelled Maddie. “Fucking listen to me and listen to me good. If I find out Cassie fucked him, I won’t hesitate to hurt her!”

You shrugged. You were sure if Maddie had told you this before Cassie admitted to hooking up with Nate, you wouldn’t hesitate to put her ass to the ground. Now, the situation was different, you had let that comment slide maybe, just maybe, because you were feeling bitter Cassie was still searching for Nate.

You didn’t know when or how it happened but you clearly had stopped caring. Just like Cassie you had started being with someone else on the side. Worst off, with her best friend.

You and Maddie were both high. She somehow found you after a big fight with Nate and all it took was a smoking session before things went down hill. Before you knew it, Maddie was on top and making out with you.

You knew you could’ve stopped it, knowing that Cassie wouldn’t take it in well if she found out you and Maddie had sex. Although, you knew Maddie didn’t care in the moment. Which gave you more of a reason to just continue it.

‘Fuck it, she’ll thank me later,’ you thought. You hid behind the excuse that Cassie fucked Nate first, so it was entirely okay that Maddie was treating her friend the same way even if she didn’t know.

There was no need to act this irrationally and you knew these bad decisions would all lead to drama but it didn’t have to involve you. You were perfectly fine before meeting Cassie. All of her problems were her own, not yours.

You wanted to curse her, be angry at her and while you did unleash your anger at her in ways she would find out later, you couldn’t blame her.

Maybe your loneliness had caught up to you, you had mistaken those loving and tender looks Cassie would give you in bed as part of your imagination. All of those times she wanted to skip class or get to know you was probably her offering you a piece of her friendship, not love.

In reality, Cassie did want to pursue something further with you. She wanted so badly to stop the soft words Nate would give her to persuade her to continue being with him.

Maybe you’d still give her a chance, Cassie promised herself she would leave what she had with Nate to be with you, hopefully you’d still be waiting for her by that time.

Although for you, you had closed of the possibility of ever wanting to be with her.

#reader insert #euphoria #nate jacobs #cassie howard #euphoria imagine #rue bennett #jules vaughn #maddie perez #cassie howard imagine #kat hernandez #euphoria season 2 #euphoria series #fezco #Cassie x reader #cassie howard x reader

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jenniferswhor3 · 2 years

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the party - cassie howard

cassie howard x f!reader

summary; the first time you and cassie show up to a party together

warnings; alcohol mentions, drug mentions, swearing, injury/blood mentions

authors note; i’m in love with cassie and sydney sweeney 😩 also sorry for not posting in so long i’ve had a busy winter break and first couple weeks back to school

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being new in town isn’t always easy. being new in town before a new school year going to school where you don’t know anybody isn’t any easier.

but, having your girlfriend by your side made it slightly easier.

you met cassie while at a convenience store you had biked to at 2 am. it was only your third day in town and you saw this store on the drive in. after grabbing a spongebob popsicle from the freezer inside, you sat down on the curb outside of the gas station.

you were in your last few licks when a blonde girl in a lavender dress stumbled her way up to the gas station door. you didn’t pay too much kind to her as you finished your popsicle. upon finishing, you stood up to throw away your popsicle stick and it’s wrapper inside. your eyes were too trained on carefully wrapping the wrapper around the sticky part of the popsicle stick to notice that the blonde from earlier was headed out of the door herself. apparently she hadn’t noticed either, too busy on opening one of the beer bottles she had just bought, and opened the door which had hit you right in the face, knocking you right over.

“shit. shit, oh my god. i am so sorry.” cassie frantically apologized as she set her beer bottles aside and knelt down to you. cassie was already having a pretty shitty night and this just added salt to the wound. knocking over a pretty girl she didn’t even know made her feel ever more shitty.

the door had gotten you pretty good. there was a gnarly cut above your eyebrow that was bleeding down to your cheek bones. you scrunched your face, wincing when you put your hand near the wound. “no. no, it’s okay. i wasn’t looking.”

“neither was i. i’m so sorry.” you could hear a faint sniffle at the end of her apology. finally looking up at the blonde you got a good look at her. she has to small pigtail at the top of her head while the rest was down and slightly smeared eyeliner while her mascara was running down her face. it looked as if she had been crying.

“oh my god,” you said assuming that her hitting you and making you bleed was the result of her runny mascara. “don’t cry. honestly, it’s okay! i’m fine. it’s only a little blood.” little is a false statement. there were two wide streams of blood that had reached your jawline by now.

cassie wasn’t truly crying over the fact she had knocked you over, but her emotions were running wild and anything could’ve set her off again. this just happened to be accidentally hitting you while she wasn’t looking. “no, it’s not that.” the blonde started, fully sitting down on the pavement, “i had a big fight with my boyfriend, or ex-boyfriend i should say,” she wiped a tear that escaped from her eye.

she continued to explain how her boyfriend, mckay as you learned was his name, started the arguement by saying how her outfits are always slutty. this prompted her to argue back saying she can never wear what she wants and it wouldn’t matter if a guy would hit on her because she was his. one thing lead to another and they broke up. “i’m so sorry. he’s such a douche for saying that. i mean you look hot as shit— i’m sorry that was weird to say. i don’t even know your name.” cassie was blushing before she realized she actually hadn’t told her name.

“oh my god, i’m so sorry. i didn’t even think to give you my name. i just spilled to you—”

“hey, it’s okay. you’ve had a rough night it’s okay.”

she smiled at your sincerity. “i’m cassie.” she held her hand out for you to shake.

“y/n.” you copied her smile as you shook her hand. the both of you feeling a slight shock between you two but not saying anything.

after that she took you inside and grabbed a pack of bandaids and some hydrogen peroxide to clean up your wound. you two sat and talked until 4 am, talking about the most random things making each other laugh till your stomachs hurt.

you two sat in a comfortable silence for a bit, leaning against each other against the ice machine outside of the convenience store. you two felt unbelievably close, like you had known each other all your life.

“well, i should get going.” you didn’t want to. you wanted to stay with cassie, all night. the both of you stood up to head your separate ways.

she didn’t want to let you go either. “wait, let me get your number before you go.” you handed her your phone with a big smile seeping through. she handed it back and you saw she put her name as “cassie <3” which made you smile even more.

you both said your goodbyes with a longing hug, which you both needed, and you hopped on your bike and headed off. cassie stood there with a goofy grin spread across her face as she watched you bike away.

she hadn’t realized how long she had been standing there until she heard her friends car screech into a parking spot. “cassie, what the fuck.” maddy perez shouted out the window. “we’ve been calling you all night. where the hell were you.”

“sorry!” she sheepishly said. “my phone died.” she hoped in her friends car and made her way back to maddy’s house.

ever since that night you two had been unstoppable. any time cassie wasn’t with maddy, she was with you.

you two were unbelievably close too. her and maddy her close, but you two seemed closer. you two would cuddle like you were a couple every night you were together. you two had practically seen each other naked. shared everything from clothes, food and straws to underwear.

sure, her and maddy did similar things but with you it felt different for cassie.

over time, you started to develop a crush on her. it was hard; you always saw her getting her heartbroken by boys and you just wished you had a chance to show her how it really feels to be loved.

you hadn’t told anyone you were gay. no one in your household, no aunts or uncles, grandma’s or grandpa’s.

you had been planning on telling cassie because you didn’t want to keep secrets from her but you just didn’t know how.

you and cassie were currently laying on her bed in the dark on your backs. both of you knew you weren’t asleep, just staring into the void. the only that was heard was the occasional rustling of her bed sheets when either of you moved and the slight creeping noise and wind blowing from her ceiling fan.

neither of you expected what you were gonna say that night. neither of you were upset about it either. you just weren’t expecting to say it that night.

with a big sigh, you just blurt it out. “cassie,”

“yeah?”

“i’m gay.”

she didn’t say much other than, “thank you for trusting me.” she curled up into your side as you said that. you’re eyes started watering a bit and the smile on your face grew wide. “thank you, cass.” you whispered loud enough for her to hear. you two cuddled for the whole night that night.

it wasn’t until about 2 weeks after when cassie started to question her feelings. feelings for you, to be exact. she didn’t know how it happened. she suddenly started seeing you in this whole new light.

her heart started beating faster and her face grew redder at even the slightest thought of you. she often wondered what it’d be like to kiss your beautiful lips.

it was one night when you were watching a movie on your bedroom floor together when she popped her curious question. “hey— uh, y/n.”

turning you head from the tv, you look at her with curious eyes, “yeah?”

“how did you know?” you knew exactly what she was referring to by her tone when she said ‘know’.

“well, i guess i kind of always just knew. i mainly realized when i looked back at all my childhood crushes and they were girls i knew something was different. i mean my first childhood crush was lizzie mcguire.” you chucked at the thought of your younger self.

she chuckled in pursuit. “well, i was just curious.” she shrugs and lays her head on your shoulder.

and that was that, and for the next couple days the subject was never brought up again.

cassie was just floating around in her thoughts. day after night just wrapped around what she could only confirm was that she did like girls.

often times when she would hang out with maddy or lexi, she would be looking off into space with only thoughts of you. “cassie. cassie, what the fuck. this is like the 5th time you haven’t paid attention to why i was saying.” maddy said hitting her shoulder.

“i’m sorry. just thinking, that’s all.”

she wanted to make her move. cassie was scared, though. scared of how you’d react. would you push her away? or would you accept her and be with her? these have been cassie thoughts since that night.

it was a late july night when cassie called you, asking if you could come over. of course you said yes, why wouldn’t you? you hopped your bike and pedaled you way to cassie house.

when cassie answered the door you could immediately tell she had something on her mind that was making her nervous.

when you made it up to her room, cassie just went for it. “i don’t really know how to say this, so just bare with me.”

“alright.” you said hesitantly, somewhat ready for what cassie has to say.

she debated on whether or not to actually say what she has to say or just kiss you.

she went for the latter. hesitant, though, she quickly dived it for your lips.

you were shocked, to say the least. you wanted to kiss back, truly, but you weren’t sure if this is what cassie really wanted.

you pushed away slightly, “are you sure?”

“more than ever.” she had a small smile spread across her face. you copied her smile and kissed her back. the rest is history. cassie was the best girlfriend you could ask for.

you had expressed to cassie how nervous you were to go to a new school. she told you that you were going to be fine because everyone will love you. part of you believed so, because cassie always kept her word, but there was still always going to be a part of you that was nervous.

to help you nerves, cassie suggested a party that one of her friends was throwing. that way, you could meet everyone before going back to school.

so the two of you got all dolled up for the party, doing each other’s make up and hair. you had been dressed in a skin tight baby pink dress while cassie had a similar one in baby blue.

you were flattening your dress in the stand up mirror nervous for how others will like it, “are you sure this is okay?”

“babe, you look so beautiful right now. it’s fine, i promise.” you smiled at her words and gave her a kiss.

“thanks, cass. you always know how to make me feel better.

when you two approached the house with loud music and people outside, your nerves grew. cassie could tell and linked her hand with yours to help with your nerves.

weaving your way through the crowd, you hear cassie squeal and speed up her walking, assuming she saw her friends. the girl had a small squealing party while hugging.

after releasing from the hug, she introduced you. “y/n, this kat, maddy, and jules.” she said pointing at each girl. “guys, this is y/n. my girlfriend.” her voice was confident. confident that her friends would love and accept you.

the was a brief pause before one of the girls, maddy, spoke up. “girl, you are hot as shit. how did cassie even manage to get you.” she laughed before linking her arm with yours. everyone laughed as the group of you made your way into the dancing crowd.

and just like that, your nerves faded away as the five of you danced to a hip hop beat playing through the house. you turned to look at cassie who was right behind you, dancing with you, you gave her a quick kiss and a small smile. cassie could see the sparkle in your eyes, thus made her smile even bigger.

cassie’s arms made their way around your neck as you two danced the night away. you were glad you had your girlfriend by your side.

#cassie howard #cassie howard x reader #euphoria #euphoria x reader #euphoria imagine #euphoria imagines #sydney sweeney #sydney sweeney imagine #sydney sweeney x reader

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infernalodie · 2 years

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𝐆𝐚𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐥 || 𝐋𝐞𝐱𝐢 𝐇𝐨𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐝

“𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵, 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘮𝘦 𝘉𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘚𝘵𝘢𝘺, 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 𝘖𝘳 𝘐'𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘥”

Inspo: Keshi - Gabriel

Pairing: Lexi Howard x Chinese!male!reader

Summary: You knew you couldn’t ever call a place your home for too long. You just never thought someone could be what you considered your home.

(gif used is not mine)

Warnings: just pure fucking angst and it hurt to write this so I am sorry

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“Do you ever think about leaving this place?”

You had been thinking about that question for the past few weeks. It constantly ringing in the corner of your minds during class. Feeling the warm touch belonging to Lexi. God, you had never given her the answer to such a simple question.

Some part of yourself wished that your heart belonged to Highland. But you knew it would only feel such a way because your heart was in soft confinements of the sweet girl you had met the first day of moving to Highland. Her soft and welcoming smile bewitching you.

“You’re new, right?” You lifted your head, looking up at the girl stood on the other side of your desk.

“Uh, yeah,” you swallowed. “Moved here last week.”

The girl nodded, smiling as she slid into the desk in front of yours. Everyone else going about their own business. From what you could gather quickly from the short time of moving to Highland was the fact that everyone had a lot on their plates. More bad than good.

“Sorry, I’m Lexi Howard,” she introduced, extending a hand with a smile. “It’s good to see someone new around here.”

Taking her hand, you let a smile press against your lips softly. Nothing about it had been forced, it felt far more genuine than you may have intended. But something about Lexi gave you enough comfort to let it appear.

“Y/L/N Y/F/N,” you introduced, letting go of her hand.

From there, the instant chemistry just clicked. It came easier and easier for you to talk to Lexi and tell her more about your background. Telling her about the fact that your family moves around all the time. Starting when you were seven and moved away from Beijing and bounced around America.

She often asked if your family had been planning on moving after a year in Highland. You never could give her a concrete answer as the longer you spent with her, the harder the idea of leaving grew.

But you were able to see that Highland may not be the best place for anyone to live. The outrageous incidents that happened around from Maddy Perez getting assaulted to Cassie Howard fucking Maddy’s ex-boyfriend, Nate Jacobs.

The town was the epitome and down right embodiment of drama and it was hard to keep up with it all. But the only thing made worth it had been Lexi.

“So, your sister fucked Nate?” You asked, trying to process all the information.

Music from the jukebox played mutely in the background of the conversation occupying one of the dinner booths. Seat occupied from two betrothed teenagers. Lost in what the other had to say or what they did. Waitresses moving past to serve other customers, who enjoyed their meals.

Lexi nodded profusely. “You should’ve been there,” she chuckled. “I’ve never seen Maddy so pissed off.”

You let out a hum, stuffing a fry into your mouth. Lexi glanced up at you, smiling at your soft features that were complimented by the soft and neon lighting running through the dinner.

Taking in the long strands of your hair that had slipped out from the half ponytail you had made. Eyes flickering down to the traditional lion tattoo taking over the entirety of your right hand.

Daringly, she reached up and tucked a loose strand of your hair behind your ear. You looked up at her, ears burning up as you cleared your throat. Before her hand could stray too far from you, taking it within your hold, you kissed each of her knuckles.

That made Lexi blush, unsure how to handle or deal with the affection. With the blush and the bashful look she gave you, there was nothing that could compete it. In the few months of knowing Lexi, this was the first time you realized the love you had for her. The special part your heart had reserved for just her.

After your food was done, the both of you walked towards your car. The car ride silent with Lexi taking a step further and taking your hand in hers. The touch was warm compared to the usual cold chill that was given to anyone who came to Highland.

Pulling out front her house, the car fell into a silence. The engine and A/C creating a steady hum masked as white noise.

When you went to speak, you squeaked when Lexi had pressed her lips to yours. But the surprise was only momentary because you soaked into the kiss, reaching a hand up to cup her cheek.

Heads tilting in hopes of deepening it. Tongues clashing against one another. A moan slipping out of Lexi that you swallowed.

Finally pulling away, Lexi tried to hide the bashful smile on her lips. “We should go on a date tomorrow night?”

“Yeah.”

“Maybe, like, rollerskating.”

“Yeah.”

“Okay,” she nodded with a tiny giggle, loving the complete shock and admiration written out on your face. “Good night.”

“Good night.”

You watched her get out of the car and walk to her front door. Entering to only peak back at you, giving a tiny wave. You waved back before she disappeared with the door shutting behind her. You were wrapped around her finger and you loved it.

“Y/n, hurry up!” Your mother called out. “We have to leave soon!”

No response was given as you sat on you bare bed. Licking your lips, tasting the salty tears on your tongue. Staring intently at the polo roof picture you had taken of Lexi during a stargazing date.

She laid on her back, eyes focused on you with that gorgeous smile stretched out across her face. It made you smile sadly. Swallowing the sob that attempted to pry itself from the back of your throat, you rubbed your eyes.

“Y/n!” Lexi whined, trying to steal the Polaroid camera from your hand. Pouting when you recoiled, pulling the camera far from your reach.

“What?” You asked innocently. “You look beautiful. I want to hang it up on my wall.”

Lexi had never expected someone so soft spoken, so calm, be so loving. But she didn’t take you for granted because she truthfully wasn’t sure where she would be if it wasn’t for you.

“If you’re going to take a picture with me then you have to be in it.” She watched you wave the picture with a soft raise of your brow, a teasing smile forming on your lips.

“Is this you telling me I’m pretty?”

“Yes.”

“Well, I like the directness, Lex,” you laughed. “And I love you, sweetheart.”

You pressed your lips to her, pulling away to hover over her. Eyes flickering across her face as she smiled ear to ear. “And I love you too, Y/n.”

There was only the faint sound of cars flying past on the nearest road that filled the night air. Soft breaths slipping past Lexi as she laid her head on your chest. Arms wrapped around you as she snuggled further into you.

“Y/n?” She murmured.

“Yeah?”

“Do you ever think about leaving this place?”

Grabbing a box from your little brother, you lifted it into the back of the U-Haul. Having already helped your father lift the furniture into the truck. Leaving only small belongings that your mother could never let go of.

You sat on the curb, phone in hand with your thumb cramping from the constant scrolling. Something was missing.

“Y/n!” Your head lifted from your phone, finding Lexi running towards you.

From the distance, the sparkling tears were noticeable. Bloodshot eyes focused on nothing but the boy of her dreams.

The space between you two had closed with Lexi throwing her arms around your neck. You pulled her tight against your chest, closing your eyes.

“Please, don’t go.” The plea left your heart aching. Tears brimming in your eyes as you held her tighter. “I don’t want you to go.”

When you two pulled away, Lexi was a whimpering and sobbing mess. Hands tight on your forearms, afraid to let you go. She didn’t want you to leave her. Not after so much had been built up around you two.

“Lexi, look at me, sweetheart.” You cupped her face, forcing her to look up at you. “I love you so much. I don’t want to go, but it’s not like I have a choice. We knew this would inevitably happen.”

That had been a harsh truth Lexi had forced herself to forget. Not ever having found herself able to comprehend the idea of going another day without your morning texts. Or the weekly date nights when you took her to the local dinner. All she wanted was you.

“Hold me,” she whimpered. “Hold me before you go.”

You didn’t even have to be asked because your arms immediately wrapped around her. Holding her tightly and taking in every key detail about her. Her scent, her warmth, the shapes she traced onto your back. You savoured it all.

It felt short, but had been a total of ten minutes before your dad sadly called for you to get in your car. You glanced back at the man before looking back at Lexi.

She ran her hands down her shorts, sniffling and wiping her nose. “Go,” she said, forcing a life. “Go on, drifter.”

You shook your head for a moment before grabbing her hips and pressing your lips together. Lexi whimpered, kissing you just as hard, just as passionately. Both of you pouring every unsaid, unannounced feeling into one and powerful kiss.

Pulling away, you pressed your forehead against her. Lips parting to speak, but she cut you off. “Don’t say goodbyes,” she whispered. “I hate goodbye’s.”

A soft chuckle slipped past your lips. Pressing a kiss to her cheek as you said, “Then, I love you, Lexi.”

“I love you, Y/n.” She smiled wrote you pulled away. Hands still connected as you stepped further and further away. Until the tips of your fingers slipped apart and you walked towards your car.

Lexi watched you get inside and slowly pull out of the driveway. Giving her one last glance before driving away, following in tow of the U-Haul.

And she continued to watch the figure of the car grow smaller and smaller until you were gone. Only one little whisper leaving Lexi’s bruised lips that were wet with tears.

“Wait on me, baby.”

#euphoria #euphoria imagine #euphoria hbo #lexi howard #lexi howard euphoria #lexi howard x male!reader #lexi howard x reader #lexi howard x y/n #maude apatow #poc reader #x chinese!male!reader #lexi howard angst

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mediocre-writerr · 3 years

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you belong with me [cassie howard]

cassie howard x fem reader

requested: Hey! Can I request a f! reader x Cassie Howard fic where the reader is in love with Cassie, but it's like a slow burn happy holidays! xx

key: italics stand for rue’s voiceover! enjoy

*not my gif*

Y/N Y/L/N and Cassie Howard have been best friends since they were little. Y/N was always there for Cassie during her whole childhood. Watching her from the sidelines as her figure skating became more and more incredible.

“Y/N! When are you gonna get off your lazy bum and join us?” Cassie’s dad asks during one of their many ice skating practice sessions.

You were taken back by surprise and you looked towards Cassie who was giving you her best pouty lips and eyes, “Oh okay.”

You strapped on the ice skates that the Howard family bought you for your 10th birthday. A gift you rarely used. But was still grateful for nevertheless.

Back before your Cassie started getting into ice skating your family was big about hockey. So you knew the in’s and out’s of ice skating, but you weren’t good at doing cool tricks.

“Y/N, you’re a natural!” Cassie says as you start skating towards her.

And it’s like she jinxed you or something because you started slipping. Flailing your hands up in the air. But she caught you and the two of you just stared at each other smiling coyly.

Her lips were inches away from yours. But her dad cleared her throat, looking at the two of you with a small smirk on his face.

Y/N and Cassie were inseparable, nothing seemed to ever get in between them. Lexi always gave Y/N looks and have conversations where she tried to make her think that it was something more than just a friendship, but she was easy to laugh off or ignore.

Lexi thought of Y/N as a second sister growing up together and having Y/N be over all the time. So when she saw the way Y/N looked at her older sister she couldn’t help but want to protect her.

She didn’t want you to get hurt, but how could Cassie ever hurt Y/N?

Y/N loved Cassie more than a friend. There was never a specific moment when Y/N found out she liked Cassie. It was everything about her, all of the moments leading up to since they were young kids.

Much to her disappoint, Cassie’s underlying daddy issues made her attached to boys in more ways than anyone could ever possibly. She fell in love too fast and dare I say it, was too naive.

Cassie wanted to be loved and never wanted to be alone. She wanted all the boys no matter how stupid, sweet, or mean they were. And that led to many nights of crying in Y/N’s arms about some boy who leaked her nudes or made a sex tape or broke her heart.

“Y/N?” she whispers over the phone, her voice already cracking.

You shot up from laying down on your bed and instantly woke up at the sound of your first love crying, “Hey is everything okay?”

“No. I can’t. Someone made a sex tape of me and leaked it and I just really need you.” she whispers, trying to get all of the words out.

“I’ll be there in five.”

Luckily for the two of you, you didn't live far. And before you knew it you were climbing in her bedroom window.

She instantly pulled you into a hug and you wrapped your arms around her waist. Placing a hand on the back of her head to pull her close. You started rubbing the back of her head, threading your fingers through her hair.

“It’s gonna be okay.” I whisper, “I’m here now. You’re gonna be okay.”

Y/N always protected Cassie. Ever since the first pictures of her nudes were leaked she was there to let her cry. Her first sex tape was leaked, Y/N was there. A boy broke her heart, Y/N was there to pick up the pieces to put her back together.

Y/N hoped that one day she wouldn’t feel this way anymore. Or one day Cassie would realize that she was there all along. But it never happened. And it seemed like it would never happen when Cassie started dating McKay.

Y/N insisted she wasn’t jealous, but she also insisted she wasn’t jealous about all of Cassie’s suitors.

“McKay is a good guy Y/N!” Cassie yells.

The two of you were having yet another argument. And you weren’t angry at her or at McKay, you were just tired. So fucking tired.

“What’s wrong, Y/N?” Cassie asked, “This is your third snide comment this week about McKay this week and it’s only 10 am on a Monday!”

“I’m sorry for being bitter. I’m just tired.” you whisper.

Lexi gave you a sympathetic smile and look. And you just smiled back softly.

See you weren’t jealous. That would involve anger and you weren’t angry. You didn’t hate McKay.

Sure, there were thing that he did that was questionable at best, but he was wasn’t the worst out of all of Cassie’s boyfriends.

Even though your happiness was slowly dwindling away each time you saw them at a party. Or each time she canceled plans to go hang out with him instead of you. Or each time you saw them kiss.

Even though all of it was fading away in you. She didn’t deserve to lose anything when she was so happy. So you tried to stay the same for her and not act any differently.

Lexi had been a good friend to Y/N and did her best to try and pull her out of it. The annual carnival was coming up and it used to be a tradition for the three girls to go together, but Cassie was busy with McKay...again.

The two of you ran into McKay on the way to the Ferris Wheel. Much to both of your surprise you didn’t find Cassie next to him, “Where’s Cassie?” Lexi asked.

“Oh I don’t know we called it a night a couple hours ago.” he said with a shrug before going back to Nate and Mr. Jacobs.

Both of you looked at each other and immediately knew something was up. Agreeing to split up both of you searched the carnival in chance to find her.

That’s when you saw her going around the carrousel with Daniel. She was grinding against the pole of the horse. And Daniel looked like he was getting turned on by it.

But there was something about her that was off. She looked high. You were gonna leave, but you decided to wait for the ride to stop. Before ultimately taking her home, you didn’t want some asshole like Daniel to take advantage of her in the state she was in.

As soon as the ride stopped you hopped the fence that separated the line to get to her. Despite all the yelling from the person who controls the ride you made your way to Cassie.

“Hey Cassie. How about we get you out of here, okay?” you ask.

“Y/N! I didn’t know you were here.” she slurs and you nod smiling.

“I’m right here.” you whisper to her, unbuckling her seatbelt and lifting her off.

Daniel scoffed, “What the fuck Y/L/N?! We were in the middle of something!” he yelled annoyed.

“Not anymore.” you reply.

You guided her towards the exit, but saw that she was stumbling and it was hard for her to walk. So you did what you thought was best and picked her up bridal style.

Cassie wrapped her arms around your neck and nestled into your chest, “Can you believe McKay said to people we weren’t dating? We were just chilling. He literally told me that he loved me yesterday.” she says angrily.

“I’m sorry love. You don’t deserve that.” you whisper back as you saw Lexi, Jules, and Rue running towards the two of you.

Lexi looked at her sister frantically, “Is she okay? Do you need help? I can get her for you.

“Lex take a breath,” you whisper and she nods taking a deep breath, “She’s okay, she just looks a little high off of something. But I got her.”

Lexi nods and we all get into Cassie’s car. Jules and Rue decided to stay at the carnival a little longer, but we thought it was best if we got her home.

Cassie passed out across your lap as you just ran your fingers through her hair. Staring at the beautiful girl in front of you.

“I wish she could see that you were always there for her. She needs someone like you in her life.” Lex whispers looking at you through the rearview mirror.

But the thing is Cassie never noticed. As much as she would hate to agree with me, she took Y/N for granted most of the time. She just assumed that her best friend since basically birth would always be there for her.

She learned that the hard way.

You were more tired than usual as you sat on the couch of McKay’s house. You were at one of his infamous parties seated next to Lexi, Rue, and Jules.

Lexi and Rue begged you to come and you agreed without hesitation. But then you realized that you would have to see them dancing close to one another, kissing, and just being with each other.

The other three girls proceeded in conversation, but you were too tired to contribute. So despite all of the loud music and drunk people, you laid your head on Lexi’s shoulder trying your hardest to just shut everything out for a few minutes.

And you were about to shut everything out when you heard your name being slurred, “Y/N, what’s wrong?”

You opened your eyes a little, not wanting to leave the comfortable spot you found on Lexi’s shoulder.

“It’s nothing, Cassie, really. I just have a headache.” you whisper, trying your best to smile at her.

“Why are you lying to me?” she asks, crossing her arms over her chest.

Of course she knew when you were lying,

“Just let it go, please.” you pleaded with her.

You didn’t want all of this to come out now. Not when she was tipsy. Not when all of your friends and a bunch of random strangers were around to hear.

“No Y/N! I can’t! It’s like you’ve been falling into this pit of sadness for I don’t even know how many months now! I just want to know what happened. You’re supposed to trust me. I trust you. So why can’t you trust me?” she whispered sadly.

“3 months.” I whisper simply.

“What?” she asks.

And it was all coming out right now. Despite all your wishes and prayers to not to.

“I’ve been falling into a pit of sadness for three months. Ever since you started falling for McKay.” you whisper and it looks like the wheels are turning in her head, “I can’t trust you because I’m in love with you!”

You finally yell out, letting all the feelings that you’ve had pent up to finally come out. Lexi squeezed your hand lightly to let you know that she’ll be right here.

“What?” Cassie asks, her mouth open agape as she just stared.

“I always have been! And now it’s too late. I’m not angry with you and I don’t hate McKay. I’m just tired. I’m tired of feeling like I’m just there now when everything goes wrong in your life. When you and McKay fight or when you need someone to pick you up when you’re drunk. I’ve always been there for you and I’m tired of it not being enough.” and with that you got up and you left.

She didn’t try chasing after you. No one did. They all knew you needed your time and your space to regroup.

And just like that the non-related conjoined twins were separated. Neither of them talked or hung out. The only time they would see each other is passing in the hallway exchanging small smiles.

It was weird for the both of them. No small study sessions or move nights. Just them alone.

Cassie didn’t like not having Y/N there, but every time Y/N tried talking to her she would just avoid her.

During the time Y/N was gone she realized that Y/N was right. Lexi gave her a stern talking to. Lexi’s talk was basically her singing that one Taylor Swift song.

You know the one that goes like...

Dreaming about the day where you wake up and find that what you’re looking for has been here the whole time. Then something about short skirts and t-shirts, I don’t fucking know.

And that’s when Cassie knew. Cassie Howard was in love with Y/N Y/L/N.

Then the infamous night happened, where everything came pouring out...literally. It was raining outside.

Your phone buzzed with a text and your heart stopped at the name that popped up onto your phone.

With a text that read meet me outside. You looked outside your window and saw the raindrops that stained your window pane. And made out the small figure that is the blonde girl.

You grabbed a hoodie from your closet before running downstairs and to the middle of the street.

“Cassie! What are you doing? It is pouring!” you yell the hood covering your head.

You stepped closer to her throwing the hoodie you grabbed from your closet over her head. She was standing there wearing nothing, but a long sleeve shirt and jeans.

“You still care about me?” she asks barely above a whisper voice.

You let out a sigh, “Just because we stopped talking doesn’t mean I stopped caring.”

Out of nowhere Cassie pulled you closer to her by the waist placing her lips on yours. You didn’t kiss back at first, but it didn’t take you long to kiss her back. Your two lips moving in perfect motion, you only pulled away when you felt like you were gonna pass out.

“I love you. I always have and I’m sorry I took you for granted. And I’m sorry I didn’t see that you were right in front of me all along. I love you. I am so sorry-” she was about to go on, but you cut her off with a quicker kiss.

She smiles into the kiss before pulling away, “I love you so much, but this was very dramatic.” you whisper with a smile that matched Cassie’s.

She giggled lightly before pecking your nose.

#cassie howard #cassie howard imagine #cassie howard imagines #cassie howard x reader #cassie howard x fem reader

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honeybear-yammy · 2 years

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Party Girl

Warnings: cursing, smut, drinking, drug use, slight degrading kink, oral sex

Pairings: Cassie Howard x Female Reader

Summary: In which Y/N and Cassie go to a party together but, after partying for awhile, Cassie gets other ideas.

Character: Cassie Howard (played by Sydney Sweeney)

Show: Euphoria

You and Cassie walked into the party together hand in hand. There was loud music, alcohol, drugs, people loudly singing along to the song playing, and people drinking and or doing drugs. A lot of the people already seemed drunk, high or both.

You and Cassie went out to the dance floor and started dancing together. You giggled and pressed your back against her as he wrapped her arms around your waist. The two of you were dancing very closely together.

The two of you were giggling and dancing together. Sometimes the two of you would also sing along to the song together. You and Cassie had been together for one year now. At first you both decided to just do hook ups but you realized that you couldn't only just hook up.

You had to be in each others lives, you both meant more to eachother than just a random hook up. You were in love with eachother and you wanted to be more than just fuck buddies. You wanted to be girlfriends.

The two of you were dancing around and having fun when Cassie randomly stopped you from dancing. You looked at her confused and tilted your head.

"What happened? Is something wrong?" You asked. Cassie just smirked a little.

"Come with me." She said. You didn't ask questions and followed her. She brought you to the girls washroom and took your inside. Once you were both inside, Cassie turned around and locked the door.

"I- what are you doing?" You asked.

"Well, the party out there was great and all but, I think we could have an even better party in here. What do you say party girl?" She asked with a smirk.

"What are you referring to?" You asked.

"Aw, Y/N, you're a smart girl. You should know what I am talking about." Cassie said with a smirk. You stood there with an innocent look on your face. She walked over and kissed you. You put your hands through her hair as you kissed her.

She backed you up while she kissed you until you gently backed into the sink. You knew what she wanted you to do so you hopped up on the sink. She smirked into the kissed and pulled back.

"Mm.. good girl." She said. You bit your lip and watched her. She spread your legs and pulled the skirt of your dressed up then smirked at the sight her eyes landed upon.

"No panties, huh?" She asked, her gaze coming back to your eyes. You just nodded and bit your lip more.

"Such a little whore." Cassie said with a smirk. She ran a finger through your folds making you gasp and jump a little. "And you're already so fucking wet for me." She smirked. She then started to rub your clit in tight circles.

You moaned out softly and closed your eyes. She slowly picked up the pace until she was rubbing your clit at a very fast pace. You could feel a knot building in your stomach but, before you could cum, she took her hand away making you whine loudly.

"Be patient pretty girl." She said as she got down on her knees. She then licked a long strip up your wet folds making you moan out. She smirked and then began to fuck you with her tongue. You moaned out louder and threw your head back as she did so.

You used one hand to tug on her hand and the other hand to hold onto the edge of the sink. Cassie always knew how to make you feel so fucking good, even just with her tongue. She then licked up your wet pussy until she reached your bud then began to suck on it.

You moaned out and tugged on her hair more. She groaned when you did so, the vibrations making you moan louder. Then with zero warning she thrusted two fingers into your tight hole. You gasped and almost screamed when she did so.

She then managed to slide a third finger into you. You felt so fucking full but, it felt so fucking good. You moaned out as she plowed her fingers into you and sucked on your sensitive bud. You threw your head back and your back arched.

You once again felt that familiar knot growing in your stomach and you clenched around her fingers. She let out a small giggle when you did so, the vibrations making you moan out more.

"Are you going to cum pretty girl?" She asked against your pussy.

"Fuck yes! I'm gonna cum!" You moaned out.

"Come on, cum for me you little slut." She said with a smirk. With that your legs began to tremble and you saw stars as you came hard on her fingers and tongue. Cassie took her hand away and stood up.

She licked her fingers clean of your juices. You hopped off the sink and she helped you fix your dress, hair, and makeup and then you helped her fix her hair and makeup. Then the two of you shared a passionate kiss before walking back out to the party like none of that happened.

Author's Note: tysm for reading!

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a-aexotic · 3 years

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do u write for euphoria? if u do, can i have some cassie howard headcannons? she/her.

yes i have watched euphoria!! i'm guessing it's for cassie x f!reader headcannons, so here you go!

warnings: angst? internalized homophobia, being the second choice, kissing

she probably has been your best friend since you were kids, and you've always admired her

cassie loved you, ever since you'd been kids

but not in the way you wanted her too

you knew you didn't like her the way she liked you when she went out with one of her guy friends

you were jealous

you envied him. he got to kiss her sweet lips, and touch her soft body and you couldn't

at least not in way you wanted too

her first heartbreak was in the seventh grade, and you were there to dry her tears and make her smile

you slept over that night, hummed her to sleep

when everything happened with her dad, you were there

and you didn't mind. i mean, that's what best friends are for!

you were jealous of all the guys who had a chance with her, and it hurt

you weren't supposed to feel this way; it was wrong

every time a guy would insult her, you'd always start a fight

cassie howard deserves better than him - to be honest, no one deserved her; she was too kind

you always told her she deserved better than the guys she dated. but she always thought you just said it because you were her best friend

that was anything but the truth

one night, one of the guys she was dating started a fight with her

you stood up to him, and started yelling at him

you had enough

it was angier than you'd ever been, no one had ever seen you that mad

maddy tried to calm you down, but you couldn't

eventually cassie held your hand, and it immediately calmed you down

she took you home, and you ranted about how she deserved better

cassie started tearing up, and eventually a tear fell

you swiped her tear away with your thumb, and one thing lead to another

you guys kissed passionately, and for once cassie could say she didn't regret anything that happened

you guys started dating and let's just say you guys were the IT couple <3 :,)

and cassie was HAPPY

you were her bodyguard <3

#cassie howard #euphoria #maddy perez #cassie howard x reader #cassie howard headcannons #euphoria headcannons #headcannons

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promenadewithme · 3 years

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First of all, I want to thank all of you so much for the follows, likes, comments, reblogs and support in general! I can't believe I hit 50 followers so soon! I know it’s not much, but I actually didn’t expect any at all so I’m so happy!! Thank you ❤️

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Paper Rings - Taylor Swift

London Boy - Taylor Swift

Love Story - Taylor Swift

Lover - Taylor Swift

King of My Heart - Taylor Swift

Willow - Taylor Swift

Crazier - Taylor Swift

New Year’s Day - Taylor Swift

Daylight - Taylor Swift

Jump Then Fall - Taylor Swift

How You Get The Girl - Taylor Swift

You Are In Love - Taylor Swift

It’s Nice To Have A Friend - Taylor Swift

Today Was A Fairytale - Taylor Swift

State Of Grace - Taylor Swift

Mine - Taylor Swift

Delicate - Taylor Swift

Say You Won't Let Go - James Arthur

Naked - James Arthur

Rewrite The Stars - James Arthur + Anne-Marie

I Won't Give Up - Jason Mraz

I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

Thinking Out Loud - Ed Sheeran

Tenerife Sea - Ed Sheeran

How Would You Feel (Paean) - Ed Sheeran

Kiss Me - Ed Sheeran

Afterglow - Ed Sheeran

Lego House - Ed Sheeran

Dive - Ed Sheeran

Galway Girl - Ed Sheeran

Everything Has Changed - Ed Sheeran + Taylor Swift

I Was Made For Loving You - Tori Kelly + Ed Sheeran

Make You Feel My Love -Adele

One Call Away - Charlie Puth

Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol

Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars

Count On Me - Bruno Mars

Little Things - One Direction

Night Changes - One Direction

Can't Help Falling In Love - Elvis Presley

Andante, Andante - ABBA

Waterloo - ABBA

All Of Me - John Legend

Ocean Eyes - Billie Eilish

Snowman - Sia

A Thousand Years - Christina Perri

Arms - Christina Perri

Teenage Dream - Katy Perry

Halo - Beyoncé

The Only Exception - Paramore

Dandelions - Ruth B

Someone To You - BANNERS

Would You Be So Kind - Dodie

Someone You Like - The Girl and The Dreamcatcher

If I Could Tell Her - Ben Platt

Absolutely Smitten - Dodie

How Long Will I Love - Ellie Goulding

Angst (Romantic)

Good 4 u - Olivia Rodrigo

Drivers License - Olivia Rodrigo

Deja Vu - Olivia Rodrigo

Brutal - Olivia Rodrigo

Traitor - Olivia Rodrigo

Enough For You - Olivia Rodrigo

1 step forward, 3 steps back - Olivia Rodrigo

Happier - Olivia Rodrigo

Jealousy, Jealousy- Olivia Rodrigo

Favourite Crime - Olivia Rodrigo

Hope Ur Ok - Olivia Rodrigo

Betty - Taylor Swift

Exile - Taylor Swift

Teardrops On My Guitar - Taylor Swift

Wildest Dreams - Taylor Swift

Tolerate It - Taylor Swift

You’re Not Sorry - Taylor Swift

Should’ve Said No - Taylor Swift

White Horse - Taylor Swift

You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift

My Tears Ricochet - Taylor Swift

Back to December - Taylor Swift

Breathe - Taylor Swift

The 1 - Taylor Swift

All Too Well - Taylor Swift

Invisible String - Taylor Swift

Evermore - Taylor Swift

Lose You To Love Me - Selena Gomez

The Heart Wants What It Wants - Selena Gomez

When I Was Your Man -Bruno Mars

Someone Like You - Adele

Hello - Adele

All I Ask - Adele

Let Her Go - Passenger

Say Something - A Great Big World

Stay With Me - Sam Smith

California King Bed - Rihanna

Take a Bow - Rihanna

Broken Hearted Girl - Beyoncé

Tonight I Wanna Cry - Keith Urban

The Winner Takes It All - ABBA

SOS - ABBA

One Of Us - ABBA

Half a Heart - One Direction

Yesterday - The Beatles

If The World Was Ending - Julia Michaels

Colors - Halsey

Happier - Ed Sheeran

One Last Time - Ariana Grande

Why’d You Only Call Me When You High - Artic Monkeys

Play Date - Melanie Martinez

Just a Friend to You - Meghan Trainor

All I Want - Kodaline

Love You From A Distance - Ashley Kutcher

Potential Breakup Song - Aly & AJ

I Don’t Wanna See You With Her - Maria Mena

Let Her Go - Passenger

All My Tears - Ane Brun

Always On My Mind - Elvis Presley

Someone to you - Lewis Capaldi

Before You Go - Lewis Capaldi

Others

Sit Still, Look Pretty - Daya

How To Be A Heartbreaker - MARINA

No Body, No Crime - Taylor Swift

Look What You Made Me Do - Taylor Swift

Blank Space - Taylor Swift

You Need To Calm Down - Taylor Swift

Getaway Car -Taylor Swift

Gorgeous - Taylor Swift

Bad Blood - Taylor Swift

The Man - Taylor Swift

22 - Taylor Swift

Dorothea - Taylor Swift

Marjorie - Taylor Swift

The Best Day - Taylor Swift

Mirrorball - Taylor Swift

I Forgot That You Existed - Taylor Swift

This Is Why We Can't Have Nice Things - Taylor Swift

The Lakes - Taylor Swift

The Last Great American Dynasty - Taylor Swift

Since U Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson

When I Kissed The Teacher - ABBA

I Have A Dream - ABBA

I've Been Waiting For You - ABBA

You'll Be In My Heart - Phil Collins

Titanium - David Guetta (feat. Sia)

F**ckin' Perfect - P!nk

New Rules - Dua Lipa

IDGAF - Dua Lipa

Bad Guy - Billie Eilish

You Should See Me in A Crown - Billie Eilish

COPYCAT - Billie Eilish

Count On Me - Bruno Mars

Stand By You - Rachel Platten

Firework - Katy Perry

Because You Loved Me - Céline Dion

See You Again - Wiz Khalifa + Charlie Puth

NO - Meghan Trainor

Skyfall - Adele

Gasoline - Halsey

Castle On The Hill - Ed Sheeran

Save Myself - Ed Sheeran

Supermarket Flowers - Ed Sheeran

Small Bump - Ed Sheeran

Growing Up - Macklemore, Ryan Lewis, Ed Sheeran

7 Rings - Ariana Grande

Bad Liar - Selena Gomez

Rare - Selena Gomez

Who Says - Selena Gomez

I Turn To You - Christina Aguilera

Till There Was You - The Beatles

Sweetest Devotion - Adele

ps: sorry, I'm a Swiftie and a Sheerio <3

Characters

Character x fem! or GN! reader (ROMANTIC)

ACOTAR: Rhysand, Cassian, Azriel, Lucien, Helion, Tarquin, kallias and Tamlin.

BRIDGERTON: Anthony Bridgerton, Benedict Bridgerton, Colin Bridgerton and Simon Basset.

GRISHAVERSE: Nikolai, Mal, The Darkling, Kaz, Matthias, Jesper, Wylan and David.

THRONE OF GLASS: Dorian Havilliard and Chaol Westfall.

HARRY POTTER: Harry, Ron, Neville, Draco, George, Fred, Oliver, Cedric, Young Sirius, Young James and Young Remus.

PRIDE AND PREJUDICE: Mr Darcy and Mr Bingley.

MARVEL: Steve, Bucky, Sam, Pietro, Loki, Thor, Peter Parker, Ned, Tony, Bruce, Vision, Clint, T'Challa, Scott Lang, James Rhodes, Peter Quill and Stephen Strange.

THE HUNGER GAMES: Peeta, Gale and Finnick.

GREY'S ANATOMY: Derek Shepherd, Andrew DeLuca, Alex Karev, Jackson Avery, Mark Sloan, George O'Malley, Link, Koracick and Ben Warren.

TEEN WOLF: Scott, Stiles, Derek, Isaac, Liam and Jackson.

THE VAMPIRE DIARIES: Damon, Stefan, Matt, Klaus, Elijah and Kai.

NARNIA: Peter, Edmund and Caspian.

STAR WARS: Anakin, Obi Wan, Kylo, Han, Luke, Poe, Finn and Din Djarin.

Character x platonic!/sis!/bro!/enemy!/daughter!/son!/mentor!/or anything else platonic Reader

ACOTAR: Rhysand, Cassian, Azriel, Feure, Nesta, Elain, Mor, Amren, Nyx, Lucien, Tarquin, Helion, Kallias, Tamlin, Ianthe, Suriel and Bone Carver.

GRISHAVERSE: Nikolai, Mal, Darkling, David, Alina, Bahgra, Zoya, Tamar, Tolya, Apparat, Kaz, Matthias, Jesper, Wylan, Nina, Inej, Tantee Heleen and Pekka Rollins.

THRONE OF GLASS: Dorian, Chaol and Aelin.

BRIDGERTON: Anthony, Benedict, Colin; Daphne, Eloise, Francesca, Gregory, Hyacinth, Lady Violet, Simon, Lady Danbury, Penelope, Lady Portia Featherington, Marina, Sienna, Genevieve, Cressida and Queen Charlotte.

HARRY POTTER: Harry, Ron, Hermione, Neville, Ginny, Luna, Draco, George, Fred, Oliver, Cedric, Cho, Seamus, Fleur, Pansy, Myrtle, Sirius (old or young), James (old or young), Remus (old or young), Lily (old or young), Molly, Arthur, Bill, Percy, Charlie, Xenophilus Lovegood, Snape, Dumbledore, McGonagall, Hagrid, Moody, Flitwick, Umbridge, Bellatrix, Voldemort, Lucius, Narcissa, Peter Pettigrew, Helga Hufflepuff, Salazar Slytherin, Godric Gryffindor, Rowena Ravenclaw, Dobby and Nearly Headless Nick.

PRIDE AND PREJUDICE: Mr Darcy, Georgiana Darcy, Mr Bingley, Caroline Bingley, Elizabeth Bennet, Jane Bennet, Mary Bennet, Lydia Bennet, Catherine Bennet, Charlotte Lucas, Wickam, Mr Collins, Mr Bennet, Mrs Bennet.

MARVEL: Steve, Peggy, Sharon, Natasha, Bucky, Sam, Carol, Monica Rambeau, Pietro, Wanda, Agatha Harkness, Loki, Frigga, Odin, Hela, Thor, Heimdall, Jane Foster, Darcy Lewis, Valkyrie, Peter Parker, Ned, MJ, Tony, Pepper, Morgan, Happy, Howard, Bruce, Vision, Clint, T'Challa, Shuri, Scott, Hope, Hank, Cassie, James Rhodes, Peter Quill, Gamora, Mantis, Nebula, Groot, Rocket, Drax, Stephen Strange, Wong, Nick Fury, Phil Coulson, Maria Hill, Thanos, Ancient One, Red Skull, Ultron, John Walker and Zemo.

THE HUNGER GAMES: Katniss, Peeta, Gale, Finnick, Haymitch, Rue, President Snow, Primrose, Effie, Cinna and Johanna.

GREY'S ANATOMY: Meredith, Derek, Andrew, Alex, Jackson, Mark, Lexie, Cristina, April, Izzie, George, Callie, Owen, Addison, Arizona, Miranda, Amelia, Link, Burke, Teddy, Maggie, Richard, Carina, Ben Warren, Megan Hunt, Ellis Grey, Catherine Avery and Tom Koracick.

TEEN WOLF: Scott, Stiles, Malia, Lydia, Allison, Derek, Isaac, Liam, Jackson, Peter Hale, Chris Argent, Sheriff Stilinski, Kira, Melissa McCall and Noshiko Yukimura.

THE VAMPIRE DIARIES: Damon, Elena, Katherine, Stefan, Caroline, Bonnie, Jenna, Klaus, Elijah, Rebeka, Sheriff Forbes, Kai and Lexi.

NARNIA: Peter, Susan, Edmund, Lucy, Caspian and Aslan.

STAR WARS: Anakin, Padme, Yoda, Jarjar, Obi Wan, Kylo, Rey, Han, Leia, Luke, Poe, Finn and Din Djarin and Grogu.

No pressure tags: @venuswritesfanfic @for-bebbanburg @maggiescarborough @multifandomfix @sweetnspicysimp @lazypeachsoul @magravenwrites

#Anastasia's 50 followers celebration #bridgerton x reader #my writing #greys anatomy x reader #marvel x reader #acotar x reader #throne of glass x reader #teen wolf x reader #tvd x reader #thg x reader #pride and prejudice x reader #hp fanfic #harry potter x reader #grishaverse x reader #six of crows x reader #shadow and bone x reader #star wars x reader #star wars x you

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luvfae · 2 years

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Years later, Cassie is a new woman and often looks back on her teen years with regret at how selfish she was, so she decides to go back to East Highland (that is the name of the town, right? Or is that just the school? lol) to make things right with the ones she hurt. Her heart breaking as she sees the two ppl she betrayed the most (Maddy and fem!ex!r), are together and happy.

Maybe Maddy is angered that Cassie thought it'll be an easy fix by just saying sorry and how happy she was that her and yn were together but because time had changed both women, she doesn't go off like she would've when she was younger??

REGRET

fandom: euphoria

parings: maddy x f reader, cassie x ex f reader

warnings: swearing, cheating, cassie and nate

You walked hand in hand with your fiancé, Maddy. Laughing alongside her and talking about nothing in particular when you saw a familiar face. Cassie Howard. You hadn’t seen the blonde girl since you graduated high school and she moved away for collage.

Things between you, Cassie and Maddy didn’t end well in high school and memories of Cassie’s betrayal began to flash before your eyes.

Flashback

You had been dating Cassie for six months now and your best friend Maddy had been on and off with Nate for over a year.

Every Friday night the four of you would go on double dates, until Cassie and Nate started canceling on both you and Maddy.

It was suspicious and when you started catching on, they stopped making excuses as to why they couldn’t go out, but in return, they would disappear for hours after dinner on Friday. No phone calls were returned, neither of them were active on social media. It was all a little too weird.

You couldn’t sleep at night, thinking of the worst possible scenario. Cassie and Nate were sleeping together behind yours and Maddy’s back.

You picked up the phone one Friday night a few hours after getting home from dinner and a few hours of calling Cassie and Nate’s phone only to be met with the voicemail, to call Maddy and tell her about your suspicions.

“I think Cassie and Nate are hooking up,” you said through the line. “Think about it, they both disappear every Friday night after dinner and before that they were both cancelling every Friday night.”

Maddy sat up in her bed, mouth wide open. “Bitch, I think you’re right!” She exclaimed.

And so the both of you came up with a plan to catch them in the act next Friday night and prove your suspicions once and for all.

Friday came around, dinner was finished and an hour later you met up with Maddy. The both of you driving to Cassie’s house, hearts racing fast as you knocked on her front door. Lexi greeted you at the door.

“Is Cassie here?” You asked.

“Or Nate,” Maddy replied, arms crossed over her chest.

“No…” Lexi furrowed her eyebrows. “Cassie told me she was staying the night with you.”

You and Maddy shared a glance, you thanked Lexi and hopped back into the car, driving over to Nate’s place. His truck was in the driveway.

Maddy grabbed the spare key from a plant pot by the front door and shoved it inside the lock, your eyes widened, grabbing her wrist.

“We can’t just break in,” you said.

Maddy rolled her eyes. “Please, his dad isn’t home and his mom is a drunk. They won’t even know,” Maddy said. “It’s either this or find a way to climb up to his bedroom window. Your choice.”

You looked around and nodded. Maddy smirked, twisting the key and opening the front door. The two of you walked inside, you grabbed Maddy’s hand, following her up the stairs and to Nate’s bedroom where muffled moans could be heard.

Maddy clicked her tongue, a wicked smile over coming her face. “Their fucking alright,” she said, grabbing the door handle and pushing the door open to reveal the sight.

Nate balls deep inside of Cassie, your eyes widened, a frown on your face.

“You dumb fucking bitch, I’m gunna fuck you up!” Maddy yelled, running into the room.

You spent the next half an hour holding Maddy back and calming her down before convincing her to leave. The both of you deserved better and you found better. It hurt the both of you like a bitch and you spent days crying with each other over the betrayal you had experienced, until eventually you both fell in love.

End flashback

“Is that Cassie Howard?” Maddy asked, squinting her eyes.

“Yep,” you sighed, watching the blonde girl as she smiled at the pair of you. Her eyes fell onto your intertwined hands, her smile faltered for a moment as she came to a halt in front of the pair of you.

“Maddy, Y/N,” Cassie smiled. “How are you?” She asked.

“Fine,” Maddy replied, eyeing her sheepishly. You stayed quiet, your grip on Maddy’s hand getting tighter.

“You two are together?” Cassie asked.

Maddy lifted her left hand, showing off the engagement ring you had bought her a few months back.

“Oh, wow. Congratulations,” Cassie said, clearing her throat, looking over at you. “Look, I just wanted to say sorry for everything that happened when we were teenagers,” Cassie sighed, looking down at her feet.

“Are you still with Nate?” You asked.

“No,” Cassie said, frowning at you.

Maddy snickered, Cassie’s eyes snapping over to her. “You ruined years of friendship for a guy who ditched you in the end,” Maddy smirked. You nudged her, silently telling her to stop.

“I’m sorry,” Cassie said. “Can’t we just put it in the past and be friends again?” She asked.

You stared at her dumbfounded, so did Maddy. “You fucking destroyed us, obviously it was for the better in the end,” Maddy began. “It baffles me that you think a simple i’m sorry will make up for everything that you put us through.”

“Sorry Cassie, but we’re not ready to forgive you yet,” you said. “See you around,” you smiled, pulling Maddy away from the blonde girl and continuing on your walk.

Maddy looked over at you. “I love you,” she said.

“I love you too,” you smiled, kissing her cheek.

Cassie watched the both of you as you walked off, hand in hand, longing looks full of love. She wished she had that with you. Cassie had ruined the best thing she ever had for a guy who didn’t care about her once high school finished. She was regretful and jealous.

#euphoria #euphoria imagine #hbo euphoria #euphoria smut #cassie x nate #maddy x nate #maddy perez #cassie howard #nate jacobs #cassie howard x you #cassie howard x reader #cassie howard x y/n #lexi howard #maddy perez x you #maddy perez x y/n #maddy perez x reader

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luvfae · 2 years

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WHY’D IT HAVE

TO BE JULES?

summary: you and elliot break up on your birthday after you catch him with jules.

fandom: euphoria

parings: elliot x f reader

warnings: swearing, cheating, heartbreak, jules lol, elliot being a fucking idiot

inspired by this song:

It was your birthday and you were so excited to spend the night with your friends and your boyfriend, Elliot. Maddy and Cassie had thrown a surprise party for you at the Howard’s house, but you were fucking miserable.

The night started off amazing, until after you cut your cake. You were dancing with Kat when you saw it. Jules, drunk as fuck in Elliot’s lap, her arms wrapped around his neck, his hands on her waist. You stopped dancing, staring at the pair of them.

“You okay Y/N?” Kat asked, following the direction your eyes were in. “Oh my God,” she said with wide eyes. “Don’t freak out, maybe it’s something innocent.”

“I don’t know Kat,” you replied, squinting your eyes at them. “I’ve had a bad feeling about Jules ever since I started dating Elliot.”

Elliot looked up, his eyes finding yours immediately and you watched as guilt washed over his features. Elliot gently pushed Jules off of his lap and he looked back over at you as if he had something to confess. Your suspicions were answered and you were the first person to leave your birthday party, heading straight to Elliot’s house to grab all of the clothes you had left there.

Elliot saw you leave and followed you back to his house. He found you in his room packing a bag.

“Y/N, what are you doing?” Elliot asked. You refused to make eye contact with him, remaining silent as you shoved more of your stuff into the bag. “Talk to me,” he said, grabbing your arm.

You snatched away from his grip. “You know what you did, Elliot,” you said. Elliot shook his head.

Elliot knew how you felt about Jules, how insecure you were when it came to the pair of them hanging out. You didn’t trust Jules and now you see why. She didn’t care that she was your friend, that she had a girlfriend, that Elliot had a girlfriend, that it was your birthday. She didn’t care about any of that.

“You’ve got it all wrong, Y/N,” Elliot said.

You scoffed, glaring over at him. “Please Elliot, I know you better than I know myself. I can tell when you’re lying,” you said.

“Y/N, won’t you just listen? Stop packing your stuff and hear me out,” Elliot said.

“Why? I don’t need to hear you confess to know what’s been going on behind my back. You’re both snakes and you deserve each other,” you spat.

“You’re going to throw away everything we have over an assumption you made yourself?” Elliot asked.

Pausing for a moment, you laughed at his words. “Don’t you get tired of always playing the victim and running your mouth?” You asked.

“We’re just friends,” Elliot said.

“Okay, then why is she sitting in your lap giving you the heart eyes on my fucking birthday?! And why are you allowing her to be all over you, on my fucking birthday?!” You yelled. “Stop with the lies, Elliot. Just tell me the fucking truth! It’s not the first time i’ve walked in on you two in a compromising position.”

Elliot sighed, he knew he had been caught out and there was nothing he could do to convince you otherwise. He had really fucked up this time. “I’m sorry, okay?” He began and you laughed. “We never fucked, but we have kissed a few times.”

“Does Rue know about this?”

“No.”

“I suggest one of you tell her before I fucking do,” you said. Elliot looked at you with guilty eyes. “I hope this was worth it, I hope she was worth it,” you said, picking up your bag of stuff.

“Please Y/N, give me another chance.”

“No. We’re over,” you said, glaring at him as you made your way over to his doorway. You stopped, tearing streaming down your cheeks. You couldn’t believe he had done this to you. You turned around to look at him, face red and blotchy.

“Why’d it have to be Jules?” You whispered.

Elliot pursed his lips, looking down at his feet and when he looked back up you were gone.

#Spotify #euphoria #euphoria imagine #hbo euphoria #dominic fike #elliot euphoria #elliot x reader #elliot x y/n #elliot x you #jules vaughn #elliot #elliot angst #euphoria angst #kat hernandez #cassie howard #maddy perez

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infernalodie · 2 years

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Can u write a fluff one for Cassie and f reader

Of course!

𝐓𝐨𝐮𝐜𝐡 || 𝐂𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐞 𝐇𝐨𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐝

“𝘎𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘵, 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘮 𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦, 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘶𝘯 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘚𝘢𝘪𝘥 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘢 𝘵𝘰𝘶𝘤𝘩, 𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘶𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶?“

Pairing: Cassie Howard x Fem!reader

Summary: You were the getaway she deserved. When everyone else seemed to leave her, you were there waiting to give her all your love and affection. You were everything she ever needed.

Warnings: fluff and a bit of angst at the end

Words 1232

Cassie was unsure how long ago she had woken up. What she did know is that she felt her attention shift to your naked body. Chest bare with your left arm under your head and your right curled around her. Fingers creating a blossoming heat to swarm her body like locus.

There wasn’t many chances where she got to stay in the morning with you. From how things had been going during the year, she always left you during the middle of the night after sex. Going to wherever Nate needed her before she would go quiet for a while. Not texting you or calling you.

Until she needed you.

It hurt her always coming to you for a body to take her from reality for a little while. It was wrong, using you for nothing more than sex. But you had stayed after her and Maddy’s friendship shattered and her relationship with Nate doing the same. So, with her now arriving at your house on a frequent basis, she got to see what she was missing.

That was your beautiful face relaxed. It was so heavenly. The window above your headboard let the sun in and the ray beams hit your skin perfectly. It made your skin glow and look so addicting. No matter how many times she got to kiss and bite your skin, it was a shot of adrenaline to the system.

There had always been something so interesting about you since she saw you. She couldn’t put her finger on it, but she knew that you grabbed everyone’s attention when you stepped into the room. Your beauty able to light up the room with barely any effort. That may have been it but your affectionate side always came out ever so often. Showing kindness to the ones who needed it and caring for the ones around you. You had showed exactly that the night of the play and have ever since she started coming over more frequently.

“Should I be concerned that there’s something on my face?” you muttered. “Or is there something you like?”

Cassie leaned down, peppering your face with delicate kisses that made you scrunch your face up cutely. She giggled with her head resting against your shoulder. Hand carefully lifting and beginning to brush against your skin like a feather. It sent shivers down your spine and in return, created goosebumps to invade your skin. But that didn’t bother Cassie as she traced imaginary shapes into your skin.

“We should go out to the shore later,” she whispered. “I haven’t been by the ocean in a while.”

You shifted in your position, eyes fixated on the beautiful blonde who traced out every edge and curve of your body. Her soft eyes only the more alluring with the light hitting them just right to brighten the blues. She was special, entirely someone you had unapologetically fallen in love with. There was no need to say it because your loving words and intimate touches were enough to get the word across.

“We’ll go wherever you want to,” you mused. “We have the whole summer in our hands.”

She smiled at that. Pressing her body into your side where you instinctively wrapped your arms around her. Her face nestling in the crook of your neck where her warm exhales could be felt.

These were the little moments that made up for the pain. When she had arrived on your front doorstep last night, you knew what to expect. Her break up with Nate had spread throughout school like a wildfire. You did hope this was the chance you had been waiting for. To discuss the feelings that you held towards her.

But then again, Cassie was the type of girl to fall for the people not good enough for her. Nate was one of those people and if he called for her, she would go crawling back to him without so much as a word. So, you would be savoring this moment for as long as you could. You would be savoring the kisses she gave you until she would leave your side and leave a warm spot on the side of your bed.

You couldn’t hold it against her though. She’d been through a lot recently and in her life. Yes, all of it had been her fault. Her backstabbing Maddy, her embarrassing herself at Lexi’s play. It had been her fault, but you knew Nate had claimed her. Manipulated her to the point that she could see who was on her side and who wasn’t. As well as manipulate her to the point that she doesn’t even know her self worth.

It hurt knowing that she was ready for him at every moment, but you had to deal with that fact. Until she was ready for something real and genuine, you would be grateful for the long nights you two spent together. Or the days you guys took a drive on the outskirts of Highland in your Impala. Driving around until the sound went down.

“You ever think about life beyond just this?” Cassie murmured.

She awaited a response patiently. “Are the edibles still hitting you?”

That had earned you a jab in the side as you laughed. Cassie sitting up on her elbow, facing you with a soft smile. “I’m serious.”

You inhaled deeply, and sighed. Resting on your back and propping your head under both your arms. Chewing on the inside of your cheek as you stared up at the ceiling.

Cassie waited patiently as you blew a raspberry. “I couldn’t say I have,” you admitted. “But I don’t believe in much of the afterlife. That’s why I try and do everything I can in the time I have now on this Earth.”

“You don’t think there’s heaven or hell?” Cassie asked with furrowed brows.

“No,” you replied. “What’s the point of making all these memories and meeting all these people if we just end up dying and going to either place where we have to praise a man and not get to fuck all the time? Or go to a guy who wants to torture us? Why not chose neither and live the life you deserve?”

She didn’t know how to respond, but hummed in response. Trying to soak in your words and fabricate a response worth replying to.

But it was stopped when her phone began to buzz. You sighed, allowing her to move away and grab it. Turning your head to watch her smile widely and start to get out of bed.

Unlike other times, you just stayed silent. Not humoring her with your questions and pleads for her to stay a little bit longer. You knew it was Nate and you hated that he had to continue to cling onto Cassie for dear life after they broke up. But these were the cards dealt and you had to accept that as she put her clothes on quickly and made her way out of your room.

You slipped a sports bra on and some of your Calvin Kline boxers and exited your room. Leaning against the railing and watching her slip her shoes on. She opened the front door, but stopped to glance up at you. You wore an unreadble expression, but offered her a sad smile.

A silent urge for her to go and, “Live the life she deserved.”

#euphoria #cassie howard #euphoria hbo #euphoria imagine #lexi howard #cassie howard x fem!reader #cassie howard x reader #sydney sweeney #cassie howard angst #cassie howard euphoria

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