#crying because gender what

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

[yeyayeya]

Will forever be mad that MXTX dropped the fact that Hua Cheng had a female form and refused to elaborate

#yeyarants #tgcf #tian guan ci fu #heaven official's blessing #hua cheng #mxtx tgcf #mxtx #mo xiang tong xiu #like hello?? #why would you drop that and not elaborate?? #mxtx my girl #why??? #I knew he had something going on with gender I just knew it #not in a bad way tho #I will always think about this #I’m not sure if hua cheng’s introduction got changed in the revised version #in the very beginning where the other gods are talking about the myths of hua cheng #and what his true form actually is #like why would you not elaborate on that #if it got deleted I’m going to be mad #I will forever think about Hua Cheng’s female form #I WANT TO KNOW THE BACKSTORY OF IT #is it because he missed his mother #if so I’m gonna cry #he is a shapeshifter #ok but imagine the shenanigans of it #I can easily imagine Hua Cheng dragging HX to transform so they could fool and trick people #I WANT TO KNOW MORE UGH #tgcf hua cheng #hua cheng’s female form is my Roman Empire

[averlym]

some very very quick costume shorthands!

#&juliet #had the absolute luck of watching this live the other night and it was. truly amazing!!! aaah #rough character designs for the younger leads (excluding like the Grown adult duos..) because?? idk #this is how it always starts. once the character designs start getting simplified like this that's when it all begins #which is hmmm timing but i really can't shut up about this musical it was so so fun. absolute vibes and energy #made me laugh and cry and was such an Experience. i adore them all but may specifically made me sob at some parts dfjkldfh #lots of thoughts! but one of the favs is how they wrote it so the existing songs and actions fit so well. #like in a rhyming bit they had frankie accept a drink and then the song was like ''drink in hand'' and i was all !!!!!! #also maybe it's local censorship? but there wasn't the kisses.. they replaced it w kissing hands and then holding hands #which is like a cute nod to the ''hand to hand holy palmers kiss' or smth but also maybe two guys doing that would not have made it past :/ #oh my god i. the way rnj parallels the shakespeare duo... whdskjfhgh. may + not being a Girl kdjhgf. frankie and may. aaagh. #angelique being so so badass. i . the speech about Gender by anne and the Proposal by angelique both made the whole theatre cheer love that #also rotating stage lives in my mind rent free i ADORE the set holy moly.. also also the actors were so good. also the Projections. #also the music and costumes and special effects and aerial moments. and the ensemble. and the choreo #also the cast is so talented. and pretty. and the whole confidence part vs the vulnerability of some bits... whshjfgjkl. hhh #im just listing stuff now but it was so vibes. what an experience ever. it's also shot me directly into 14-years-old again so #spent the morning alone vibing to the soundtrack intensely... i just... sometimes things hold special places in your heart idk!!! #i don't know what to do with these designs though... like the show is such a lovely Spectacle but also idk where to branch out by myself no #there's so much to Absorb again and again. i get the feeling any true work from this i would do in a form of an animatic though.. oops #tldr? 1. &juliet very good just as itself 2. we have History 3. i got to see it live which always propels me into bonkers over musicals! #so so rough but i needed to get smth out and . whatever. an art blog is an art blog. back to hiatus now i think #<reminder to myself: this is essentially an artchive.. there's no quality control if you don't want it! have fun!! ily>

[pothospant]

his default recall is so cool..........

#not me arts tag #ive never used his default skin so i didnt even know what it looked like until now....ough #i wish u could mix and match sounds or recalls with skins................ #i honestly forget half the time hes supposed to be like. Cool and Suave and a Competent Badass #because my brain is always like. god hes so small and floppy and will die if you breathe on him wrong #also hes always crying and breathing heavily in my ear so im just like. poor guy #he should be at the bed taking a nap not fighting....... who made him fight.... stop that he doesnt belong on the battle field #he might be a badass hitman or smth but my brain is like #this is just a sad theatre kid who took gymnastics #''aphelios how is your assassin training going'' aphelios who has only been reading the acrobatics textbook: my what #is there anyone still reading these tags. hi there #i have a lot of thoughts on him. im very obsessed with his animations #like he has a laugh animation for every weapon....... #all the various weapon animations... #maybe the real reason we wont have a legendary for 10 more years is all the animating they have to do #i mean his base animations are so good id honest be like OK if they reused them #cant rly do much better than already Top Tier animations #unless we get an alune legendary..... #hope alune is super awesome and badass and all the aphelios voicelines are a really shy awkward guy or smth #like you look so cool and awesome fighting and the whole world doesnt know ur listening to a lil guy in your brain the whole game #the contrast would be very funny methinks #if anyones still reading this. yes i know riot made up some reason about budget or whatever for voices #but i choose to believe aphelios is head empty no thoughts and thats why he doesnt talk to alune #(STILL GOOFY OF A REASON... lots of VAs can do both genders of voices.... like. what about kindred and kayn....) #then again wouldnt be surprised if they were overbudget on the animations but still smh my head into oblivion #can relate to a guy who simply doesnt wanna talk #(said after 10000 tags of talking to myself) #i should really put my thoughts onto a separate post or blog or something #anyways have i mentioned i think hes really cute

[whentherewerebicycles]

i have a very stupid problem that is causing me a very stupid amount of distress. my aunts are planning my baby shower which will be in my home city (a place where none of my friends live). we are inviting a bunch of family and tbh it's solely so i can get stuff from my registry. i feel okay about that part because i've bought gifts for all the extended family baby showers and weddings over the years and it seems fine to be like 'ok now it's my turn i really need the help.' the part that is making me feel weird is that my aunts feel strongly that i should ALSO send invites to all of my out of town friends, including college and grad school friends, because those people might send me gifts too. i think that a lot of my friends WILL end up buying something from my registry or sending something (a lot of them have asked already!) and that's very nice of them!!! and i do think i might want to send a birth announcement or something later just as a "hey! a big thing happened in my life!" kinda thing. but i feel super uncomfortable sending out invites to an event i know they can't attend (and would never expect them to fly to a random city for!!) because then it just feels obvious that i'm asking for a gift instead, and that makes me feel bad!!! but also idk my brother and SIL just had a MASSIVE shower where like 50+ of their friends came (because they went to college in our hometown and all their friends still live there) and my cousin just had a big shower too (she lives and works in our hometown) so i also just feel dumb for like. having a very small kinda lame shower where my extended family is gonna be like oh... does she not have any friends?

#why am i on the verge of TEARS about this #it's so dumb #yet another one of these weird intensely gendered rites of passage or whatever #but also it's bringing up all these weird feelings around single parenting for whatever reason #like i feel like my extended family is going to be politely tiptoeing around the fact that i'm not partnered #and then i think i just feel insecure because part of me wants to be like but LOOK i have all these friends who i love and who love me #so i'm not like UNLOVABLE #but that is dumb why do i even care what they think #or what i am imagining they think #well maybe this is the topic to tackle in therapy el oh el #i just had a furious crying jag about it #i think i'm just going to tell them like #this will be a family only shower #and i'll send a birth announcement to my friends later

[sea-critter]

trying to hold it together but… just read about Nex Benedict (may their memory be a blessing) who was a Native non-binary teen murdered in their high school bathroom in Oklahoma.

thinking of Akira Ross, a Black queer woman murdered in Texas, less than an hour from me.

thinking of all the queer & trans young people in the south who die at the hands of bigots.

just feeling really fucking sad and sick to my stomach.

#i just #a child murdered by other children #because of the hateful ideology being spread rampant #because of the system of colonialism + capitalism that necessitates gender heirarchies to continue its function #because of white supremacy #i’m just crying because like what the fuck else can i do #i will burn insence and candles #i will say a prayer #and i will ask to be given the opportunity to prevent the loss of another precious queer life #i’m just fucking #so overwhelmed with grief #tw murder #tw transphobia #tw homophobia #cw death #nex benedict #akira ross #southern queer

[blueberryblogger]

just thinking about the fact that a fully grown trans woman was removed from the platform for no reason (bad, obviously) & now all i see are transfem positivity & support posts in response (good, obviously)

meanwhile a nonbinary transmasc teenager was beaten to death at school, the school refused to call an ambulance and instead suspended them (again this is bad, obviously) & all i see in response is posts debating whether or not its possible for this to have been a suicide & the same singular post about their death that i have to go searching for because none of my mutuals will reblog anything about transmasc people.

like. am i actually crazy for seeing a problem with that? am i crazy for wanting to see posts condeming anti trans violence against ALL trans people? or wanting to see posts saying that transmascs deserve to be protected against this kind of violence?

am i really a big evil piece of shit for thinking that transmasculine people deserve to be recognized & protected when something fucked up and unfair happens to us?

#like #im going to have to unfollow so many of my mutuals if this keeps up #because its just so frustrating to be grieving with my brothers & siblings and then get a fuxking #and then get 'but trans women have it WORSE' #as if its a fucking competition. #like its a game to win #like if you have more opression points eventually you'll stop being opressed #but it doesnt matter #im just a stupid transmasc what do i know about feminism right #because when i 'decided' to transition i lost any and all rights to have any kind of issues or problems #that are specifically influenced by what gender i am. #im just a stupid transmasc #and nobody is going to care when its finally my turn to get beat to death in a public restroom #and nobody is going to make transmasc positivity posts to honor me or fight for me #nobody is going to cry injustice at my death either #because Nex Benedict was a child. a nonbinary transmasc child. #and they got their head pounded into the fucking ground and they died #and none of the 'trans allies' around me give a fuck #becauze a trans woman was unjustly booted from this platform #and the issues of trans women are always more important #and people like me. people like Nex Benedict. #well. we're just the fucking collateral damage aren't we? #tw vent #cw vent #vent post #vent #personal vent #transmasc issues

[aroacedavestrider]

anyway i was gonna make a big long post about this but its 1:30am and im tired lmao. so has anyone noticed the insane similarities between all this anti-transmasc stuff and the entire aspec exclusionist movement or is that just me on my aroace trans dude shit

like. i dunno. the misconstruing of the concepts of transandromisia and aphobia in general being made out to “oppress other identities”, or just the downplaying / dismissal of our group-specific issues altogether, or insisting that these specific issues are just the results of some broader, equally shitty concept, or saying that we have “privilege” comparable to majority groups (cis men, straight people) despite being excluded / ridiculed / persecuted by those same groups, or the fact that when we talk about these issues were reduced to like “whiny little white teenage uwu tumblr blogger” instead of taken seriously, or that while real people in our communities are getting hurt or killed people are focusing on whether the terms we use are #unproblematic enough instead

idk is that just me? am i hallucinating or am i experiencing the 2018 exclusionist movement all over again except make it #trans

#transgender #trans #ftm #transmasculine #transmasc #lgbt #lgbtq #lgbt+ #transphobia #transandrophobia #are you people fucking hearing yourselves #people who call us ‘transandrophobia truthers’ are the same people who say `its just transphobia` #ok so instead of addressing the transphobia youre making fun of us for saying its a specialized form of transphobia #newsflash fuckheads ‘transmisandry’ or ‘transandrophobia’ or ‘anti-transmasculinity’ or whatever the fuck #can peacefully coexist with the concept of transmisogyny!!! #because they are not nor ever were exact mirrors of each other!!! #sure ok there is no systematic androphobia so you cry out ‘theres no intersection!!11!!!1!11!!’ #but let me ask you why THATS what matters to you rather than. like. real peoples safety lmao? #trans men and cis men are the same gender but that does NOT mean we exist in the same all-male vacuum #my experiences will NEVER be those of a cis mans #society does NOT cater to me NOR does it cater to any other trans people #and if you have to insist its cause of cis passing privilege then shut up and listen to yourself #cis passing privilege? you mean if i tell anyone im trans its immediately gonna go the fuck away? #you mean i only get that privilege while im in the closet? you mean i have to hide an aspect of myself to be treated the same as a cis man? #and do NOT construe that shit with me saying trans women have male privilege #i am fully fucking aware that trans women dont have male privilege im fully aware of how often trans women are attacked #but these two things are NOT mutually exclusive and im so fucking tired of people acting like it IS #you people have actually fucking managed to find a woke version of transphobia im absolutely astonished. appalling. horrible job #my post #dave speaks

[ciderjacks]

Hey FYI killing or assaulting or raping a woman due to misogyny is a hate crime. It is as much of a hate crime as killing or assaulting or raping any other marginalized group due to bigotry and I’d appreciate if we stopped downplaying misogyny and misogynistic violence when literally every single woman I have met has at some point been a victim of misogynistic hate crime. No, men are not “also oppressed by the patriarchy”, if I see one more person make that claim I’m going to kill them. What the hell do you guys even think the patriarchy is. like. Ok. The patriarchy isn’t a gender norm system, that’s it’s own issue that tends to form under the patriarchy. The patriarchy is a system designed to serve men and oppress women, it’s designed so that men are able to obtain power but women aren’t. That’s literally all it is.

#misogyny #hate crime mention #rape mention #murder mention #Like do you seriously think men being told not to cry is equivalent to misogyny #Men being allowed to be more gnc and cry and such Would Not combat the patriarchy it would combat gender norms #Trans acceptance doesn’t combat the patriarchy because trans women are still getting DISPROPORTIONATELY MURDERED #And trans men are finding that after transition they’re gaining privilege and access to things they never thought they could have #Including basic human respect and safety #Meanwhile trans women are losing these things. Losing opportunities privilege safety respect. #THAT IS THE PATRIARCHY. MEN DO NOT SUFFER UNDER IT. #The further away a man is from being a man the less privilege he gets #thats where homophobia comes from #And currently gender norms dictate that an effeminate man or a gay man is less of a man which makes him worthy of discrimination and hate #That’s what people mean when they say “men are oppressed under the patriarchy” but the thing is if gender norms changed and #Gay men became “part of the norm” the patriarchy wouldn’t be any less of an issue #It wouldn’t even shake it. #If transphobia stopped being an issue and trans people became “part of the norm” trans women would still suffer #And due to the systemic sexism that comes with the patriarchy so would trans men #Patriarchy #im so tired of people using that as a buzzword

[apoptoses]

it's day three of anne's eunuch book making me absolutely feral 🥺

#i can't stop wondering about if people had reacted better to the castrati smut #what kind of action we might have gotten in the VC books #because she wrote this before TVL #and you can see her laying the groundwork for concepts that would later be used in the VC #but the public absolutely could not handle the contents of this book and it kills me #it's such an incredible exploration of what it means to exist in a body that transcends sex and gender #and what intimacy is like for them #and idk idk just crying in the club over much more anne could have explored in the VC #had only publishers and the public in the 80s accepted her more graphic works 🥺 #anyways if you need me i'll be thinking about armand and daniel #in relation to tonio's experience with the cardinal #and tonio absolutely losing his mind over experiencing a man's body #and thinking about if armand lost his over touching up daniel in the same way

[rebellum]

"We should respect trans mascs and butches because they protect us at pride"

So I get what you're doing with trying to argue against the anti-masculinity crowd and trying to say that trans mascs and butches are an important part of pride as a way to emphasize our place in the community

But...

Why us?

Why are we disposable? Why are we not worthy of protection?

When are you going to protect us, too?

#'mascs do the protecting but i prommie its because im woke and not bc i love to reinforce gender norms that posit men as the protectors of #femininity'. #also i wanna say something similar about how ppl sometimes treat trans poc like this #like we are valuable not as people but as battering rams as bodies for white protection #but my thoughts are too messy rn to form the post well #goddd and how ppl treat butches is so fucked up. #i understand that butch lesbians roles are traditionally understood as being protectors but like #when are you going to protect butches? when are you going to get in someones face to protect them? how do you think disabled butches feel? #just... i feel like. ppl forget that feminity can also be weaponised in a good way #(not that you HAVE to weaponise femin. in order to protect mascs for any reason) #but like. im a 5'3 small femme. i very easily pass as an upper middle class woman. #i may be black/mixed but i have a mediumish skin tone and i live in canada #i absolutely have the power to step in front of someone and raise my voice in feminine indignation #what are you gonna do? hit me? youre gonna hit a tiny 5'3 'woman' in a skirt that has kitties on it? #the idea of feminine people as weak can cone in handy! because esp large men know they WILL face social consequences for hurting ppl #like me. #especially if i start crying. #itd be more effective if a white person did it but i have that power too

[mainfaggot]

sometimes u have to go sit on the swing at ur neighborhood playground and experience revelations while trying not to sob

#this is funny because I've been so emotionally scattered for the past three days that i cant even cry like it sounds like a #weird scream instead of a sob and no tears come out. i think i broke my tear ducts LOL #it's kind of like in the movies. me and my swing ... it's not that romantic honestly i just feel afraid of people observing me #through their windows #bc the playground is right in the middle of the neighborhood like there are houses all around it #what if ppl are talking mad shit about the 5'5 unspecified gender/age individual who was aggressively swinging in -10°C weather #idgaf anyway. i did some thinking and i feel insane and tired but i think i know where to start sorting myself out at least #so much work to be alive holy shit #z.post

[lesbocrocker]

we have to write about how ‘women are better then men’ in english oh my god

#🧶 #so great being trans and having to write about gender essentialism ❤️ #anyway just confirms my English teacher is either a liberal or a radfem #leaning towards liberal because she said ‘girl power’ #wow i love having the millennia long oppression of women being turned into a quirky debate about who’s better!!! #taylor swift was even brought up. the most white feminist to ever white feminist #she even fucking said ‘the sisterhood’. WHAT SISTERHOOD??? #so happy for all the cis girls in my class having their barbie moment. really happy #i mention trans people to my English teacher and she falls to the ground and starts crying #anyway don’t take any of this too seriously it just kind of upset me

[phantastragoria]

do you have a favourite portrayal of a character in the gotg game!! who is it and why <3

Oh I think they're all great honestly!!! Part of why I love the game so much is that genuinely, the whole team + supporting characters are written with such obvious love of the source material and equal attention between them all. When I see comments of people saying who their favorite character was from the game and the answer always being different from each person I'm like!! That's how it SHOULD be!!! They're the Guardians of the Galaxy (plural) the focus shouldn't all fall on a singular character like most other GotG media usually ends up as 😭

The two (sorry I can't pick just one) whom I think benefit the most from the game though are Drax and Gamora because they're almost always sidelined both in-and-out of universe by most of the various writers (especially as of late) and in turn the viewers/readers. I've been told plenty of times that they're the most boring members of the "main" team, BUT IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE THAT WAY! The amount of love the game versions get (by the few who've played it at least) proves that 🥺

I've never really liked 616 Drax shifting to being a complete clown during the 90s and such (and even less so when the MCU followed along 💀) So I appreciate the game taking a bit of his seriousness from the DnA run and just making him struggle with nuance and context clues in a less exaggerated way (autistic Drax I still believe in u) and I feel the focus put on him and how losing his original family + the aftermath deeply affected him hits pretty hard here because it's treated very seriously and shown in depth, especially with how his family (wife) gets actual focus. I cannot tell you anything about Yvette in comparison to Hovat, who actually seemed to have had a personality lol (AND she was on their village's council like omg imagine having more to you than just being The Housewife) Though I will say I flip and flop on my thoughts about Heather being disconnected from Drax's life in this universe... The TLDR is that I think his arc here specifically works stronger when he has to come to terms with losing his entire family and accepting the life he currently has with the Guardians. BUT!!! I very much appreciate that Heather is still confirmed to exist within this universe, even if that means her dad issues would have to be dealt with in a different context if we ever get to see her.

Also? Shoutout to the writers actually bringing up the intense paranoia that always kneecapped 616 Drax but having that be a turning point in his backstory here, with that conversation he has with Peter where he talks about how he was becoming so paranoid of everyone being a chitauri/Thanos conspirator to the point of literally turning into an obsessed maniac like Thanos, and realizing that he desperately needed to turn his life around, it's so ough.

Out of the already many great conversations throughout the game, I think the ones with him are the most poignant. My favorite scene in the whole game is Drax and Pete's little moment on Knowhere... makes me go wahhh

(l also love that out of everyone on the team, it's his headspace that we quite literally get to go into. You KNOW that if this was any other media it'd be going into Rocket or Groot's head and likely treated as a joke.)

And oh my god, Gamora...

I find it so extremely refreshing that her role in the plot doesn't revolve purely around the men in her life, and instead, it's nearly exclusively her connection with other women. Or in the most direct obstacle she has to deal with, being how she starts projecting to the millionth degree on Nikki's situation for reminding her of what happened to her and Nebula. I find that infinitely more fascinating as a reading of her character rather than just dating drama or her arc getting completely overtaken by a man's instead.

And especially in her friendship with Mantis, who, despite having all these futures she's constantly seeing and having to navigate, still makes time to do her best to help her 🥺 From saving her life and being the one who put her on the path to healing on Lamentis, to getting her to join the Guardians and still checking in on her when she's able 😭 Friendship between women can be so powerful... u love to see it (🏳️‍🌈)

I also find it nice that there's this emphasis on her recovering mentally, and the comparison between Thanos essentially teaching her to just Deal with the shit in her life through very simplistic meditation versus the priests of Pama actually teaching her something to help soothe the mind :^( and that she still has moments of relapsing essentially. I find that to be a realistic take on recovery because that's just part of the journey since healing is not linear... and I think it's very sweet that she finds comfort in collecting something ---girly--- like dolls. Love to see a person reclaim a part of their childhood that they weren't allowed to experience. And how she's allowed to make BAD JOKES?? Imagine a woman being written to have multiple dimensions, crazy and absolutely unthinkable, I know.

There's this extremely specific theme in relation to Gamora across media that's been rattling around in my brain since first playing the game. When near the end during the revisit to Knowhere, she's about to completely lose it when Peter tries talking -for- her on what she's so upset about before immediately shooting him down, and she explains what happened between her and Nebula and she starts crying. It really struck me right then that she's never given a moment to cry elsewhere (or in the 616's case, the quite literal inability to.) aside from her shedding a Single Manly Tear (Original Sin) or a single moment out of legit fear (MCU 💀) because she's a hashtag Strong Independant Woman who can't be vulnerable etc etc. But for her to cry in front of the people she's come to care about, It gives her a moment of true vulnerability that I don't think she's allowed ever in most other media.

That and all of the above hits hard and is what makes me genuinely believe that the writers cared about her in the narrative and tried to do right by her when every other bit of media really hasn't nor cared to the majority of the time since the 90s :'^/ Brings a tear to my eye that she's allowed to just... exist in the narrative on her own merits and not on what she can provide to someone else's story.

#lex thoughts #gotg thoughts #universe: eidos game #gotg2008 #sorry for asking for a question then immediately disappearing for a month 💔 I'm on the most stressful roadtrip ever #i 🫶 you for asking about them though the Eidos gotg are my everything and i won't shut up about them if given the chance #very funny to me that all these important moments happen on Knowhere. Strange things can happen at the end of the universe. #The end page of W&tIW 09 is the only other Gamora moment of vulnerability across media that i can specifically pinpoint #But it's more self reflection in a way of a heavily traumatic experience that I don't feel ever truly got resolved within the 616 IMO #And I find it a specific point to be made when Gamora is/isn't allowed to feel or literally denied things that are stereotypically- #-categorized as -feminine- (which is dumb to assign gender roles to a simple human emotion such as CRYING.- #-But you get what I mean I hope) We play fast and loose with gender around here pardner I think all of the gotg should cry more #but in Gamora's case specifically it Hits Different knowing her past and treatment throughout media #i could also heavily go into the way the game adapts Peter's character in relation to his element guns but that's an essay for another time #just because -i- find that extremely fascinating doesn't mean i think he should particularly be the main focus (and he isnt) #bc pete rocket and groot are the ones that already get all the attention (even if i dont agree with how they're written elsewhere) #i just find it more engaging for the other two main characters of the team that always get sidelined by the writers actually being put in- #-the spotlight with equal attention given to them for once to be sooo -shakes fist #sorry for the intense word salad i hope i make sense lol ESSAY/RANT OVER .🤐

[nyupuun]

I love the Yugioh Card Game and I think there's something so special about it and I also love being super into the anime. Like. I!!!! can be Jack Atlas!!!!!! I can summon a billion big dragons out and pummel my opponent into the ground. ME!!!!!

#theres something so special about playing anime decks i think #i love playing decks from characters i like #maybe its cause i saw them use it and go 'wow this is awesome!!' and then do it myself #and like!!! its still awesome!!!!! #and i get so happy when they get support and i know some ppl dont like it but #i cant bring myself to hate on any card ever im so! *big autism eyes* yippie! #when a deck looks interesting in the anime i always pick it up no matter how awful that may go #(looking at cubics and malefics and meklords) #okay sorry once again overcome with 5am yugioh euphoria #yugioh #random ramble #also i used jack as an example cause i think red supernova dragon is like the coolest card ever i look at her and start crying shes so!!!!! #update to the tag because of the comment but yes. this is what gender envy means

[bloodiedbeloveds]

no but actually we are so serious about bigender aggressively outdoorsy very southern john. someone else write this so we don’t have to

#he crossdresses his first time because he’s home for summer break and has told his family about his boyfriend #and patsy goes “if you’re gay now can i paint your nails” and he goes uh. about that. i’m kind of. well. #she puts him in a skirt & she sees herself in a mirror and starts crying #and patsy’s like oh fuck this was not the plan i do not know how to comfort my older brother (sister??) what is going on #john eventually collects herself and apologizes for getting emotional and she says. very awkwardly #”it’s fine i didn’t put eyeliner on you yet so it doesn’t matter” #john’s gonna be fine. he has a moment about it for a while but he grows into it during the rest of the summer #he neglects to tell alex about the gender stuff so there’s a while where he’s more open with his family than with his boyfriend #which feels like a bizarre joke. what world is he living in where his dad lets him wear a dress to dinner #but it’s nice! she’s doing okay #patsy will not let him borrow her clothes after the first time she gets potting soil on something. she gets very huffy and goes #“DAD we’re going to the MALL so my STUPID SISTER can’t RUIN MY THINGS ANYMORE” #and henry #with no idea how to break up Girl Fights #says “…be back for dinner” #(she forgives john like half an hour into buying him a new wardrobe)