#depression does this to a bitch

[charlieworkz]

WIPs everywhere~~~~ I put those on my twitter, might as well put them here too I swear I will finish them one day, but this day hasn't come yet 🥲🥲

#kratos #mimir #atreus #god of war 2018 #god of war ragnarok #god of war #charlie works #depression does this to a bitch #but i will finish them #because i do like them #i like how they are turning and stuff #the only problems are my mind and my life playing tricks on me + lack of energy

[cute-brainz]

hello I'm back from the dark woods ,today I am just appreciating Tank and Sam !

#bitch. does anyone else go nonverbal when they're not on their meds? #tmi probably but seriously i feel like it's obvious when i am actually medicated vs not. i love being medicated BTW #update um i am coming out of a depressive episode so i might post WoW stuff. bc i dont have enough niche hyperfixations i guess #if ur reading this i love you so mucj i give you 100 kisses #repost #redacted audio #redacted asmr #brainz oc tag #redacted sam #redacted darlin #digital art #fanart #art #artists on tumblr #digital artist

[ralofofriverwoods]

Listen I just think it’s the peak of comedy when Miraak x Dragonborn friendships/romantic relationships are like this

Like that is the funniest shit ever to me. We love a bitch that does not care

#random #farlian does art #skyrim #sketch #featuring my lovely Dragonborn virthik #I think Miraak would really like his ‘idgaf’ demeanor #unfortunately this is due to the depression. and also aroaceness. so Miraak is still getting no bitches #miraak

[ihaveanaversiontodecisions]

emizel is teaching shilo how to cyber bully someone (starting with Edward twilight ofc), grefgor is looking for people to explode with his mind, and arthur is so done with modern supermarkets

I'm so sick and slightly delirious right now but my pintrest feed blessed me with this meme 20 minute ago and I knew i had to

og picture under cut!

#what even is this #im so sorry #this is what dleep deprivation sickness and a major depressive episode does to a bitch i guess #jwri the suckening #jrwi podcast #jrwi fan art #emizel tucker #shilo bathroy #jrwi arthur bennett #jrwi grefgor #the suckening

[werebutch]

So many times I’ve seen people on here be like wowww it’s so funny seeing ppl rage over vegans 😁!! ….. these people genuinely have no idea what they’re talking about. If you mention all their stuff being made of plastic they cover their ears and go lalala like they’re 5. I’m sorry but it DOES make me mad. I wish your passion for the environment could go somewhere actually useful and not to blissful ignorance and even environmental harm. -_-

#idgaf if you don’t eat meat. good for you… but if the reason you’re vegan is because of some sad baby cows and not the overall impact of #the fashion industry (etc) then you’re not seeing the big picture. and you’ll likely never WANT to see .. #different subject but I also think it’s worth noting the anthropomorphism of farm animals in advocacy for veganism. does that make sense #like the whole thing about like. imagine you’re born just to become meat and a jacket etc etc so sad so depressing. except.. animals have n #concept of that. they only know right now. they don’t think about stuff like that?…. #you can’t put yourself in their place because they genuinelh don’t have the capacity to understand it like we do. it’s annoying #obviously I want livestock to be treated well. it makes me sad that abuse is rampant in an industry like this. but if you want to really #help… buy your meat from someone you KNOW treats their animals well. ?does that make sense.. #this is not the garden of Eden bitch animals die. that’s not always a bad thing. hello can anyone hear me

[adharastarlight]

small question

when does it stop hurting

#does it ever stop hurting??? #like being alive #its a constant ache #constant struggle #does it get better? #and when #when does it end #because yk ive been told it does for the last six years #gotta say #its actually gotten worse #im tired #im so tired #depression is a bitch

[icedmetaltea]

#Yes I am projecting #Look mate being fat depressed and socially anxious w/ a resting bitch face growing up does that to ya #shitposting

[toytulini]

the challenge of i should commission art of my ocs. would love to commission like, siiyr or bokrae, maybe krachyn or jula. siiyr or bokrae would make the most sense, maybe krachyn. i think theyre the ones with the most detailed notes on their anatomy

but also

oh god i cannot subject another artist to the anatomical war crimes i committed in making these ocs

#toy txt post #ig id be best off commissioning someone w a lot experience w like. centaurs. let alone commisioning them actually doing anything #interesting. the good bad news is ai cant do it either. fucking i cant even do it. why did i make these bitches. i gave bokrae a gf #but shes not. she cant even. her lips dont really do a kiss shape shes all teeth #siiyr has too many fucking elbows and a weird skull situation #bokraes skull continues to break my brain. i think it does break physics in universe. birdie did weird shit w that eye #its constantly trying to explode #the art ideas i have for bokrae and siiyr have plagued me for years even now in my depression funk of no new ideas #i cant bring myself to subject other artists to them????? #i should specify Bokrae's teeth more tho probably. i used to jokingly explain it away as she has all the teeth/they change #and. they do. canonically birdie has to replace all of her bones over time especially her skull. but also #that was me being lazyyyyyyyyyyyy #idk i know you dont necessarily need like a super detailed ref sheet to commission things but like. if i was commissioning my own ocs id #want that probably? #maybe i will try to draw the girls today. probably not doing anything interesting #bc i have not drawn for One Billion Years and im out of practice with Normal Human Anatomy let alone #these fucking Monsters #also maybe one day ill figure out Jared #pigeon head on a deaths head moth body with gemstone eyes is something i can see in my head but when i try to draw it it doesnt look right #so. need to work on that? the main thing about jared is that he needs to Scuttle #and id like to incorporate a pigeon #hm #hmmmmmmm

[torchickentacos]

winter depression is here and I am ANNOYED about it

#not really a vent in tags. just bitching about it lmao #i am a creative extrovert who suddenly does not want to create or talk to people! #but i have been through this more than enough times to know that i need to start doing those things MORE #as to not get dragged into the depression spiral #and like for a lot of people it's just 'get outside more' #but my disabled ass isn't easily able to do that so it's just 'text more. discord more. draw more. read more. inside things more.' #which does work for me but is harder in some ways #i do not miss high school but at least it got me out of the house some #at least I do enjoy christmastime. i like the lights and the vibes and the winter flavors and scents of things #so i have that in the next few weeks to lean into #like idk. i know how to deal with this. i do it every year. it's more annoying than anything at this point #like. oh okay. life feels like a cloudy grey parking lot. again. it'll go away eventually. #and until then i just need to be a Normal Person About Everything if i feel like it or not #hate that feeling of going through the motions. everything is just emotional grey static

[sweetshire]

So, @silv-paru sent Sherlock Holmes for the character opinion bingo. thanks a bunch for this (and for your patience. my god, i’m answering this a week late. typical me behaviour). you’re a darling :D

Did you know, i used to tell these stories to my friends? they delighted in them AND i got a chance to sort of ramble on and on abt him and watson. it was a win-win, really. ah, those were the days! now i haven’t reblogged much of him this month at all. i miss him. I MISS HIM.

Onto the bingo: well. he’s The quintessence of gender™ to me. and i relate to him so so much. fav character of all time fr. i want to carry him in my pocket at all times & study him. like. do i want to BE him OR am i IN LOVE with him, ykwim? pssh who knows? certainly not me. uh-huh ‘a beast unleashed’ -does this refer to me or him? you choose. oh re: canon, i’m ignoring the part where holmes dies (or y’know, is dead for 3 years). that’s too angsty.

#sherlock holmes #my dearest blorbo #he’s my belovedest chewtoy basically #if i think abt how modern adaptations *looking at you bbc sherlock* have ruined his character i get so angry i have to take deep breaths #*mutters darkly* he is NOT an arrogant cold-hearted bitch like he’s portrayed; well he IS a bitch but not a cold-hearted one!! #see. the thing abt holmes is that he’s SUCH a sweet boy okay. and he’s compassionate #he cares sooo much. that’s the reason people come to him when they’re distressed. they trust him #he hates the police. he is a jester at heart. loves his watson #he’s here to help the truly desparate helpless people even if they have no money to pay him for the case. no questions asked. But- #he fucking despises obnoxious rich men. the first time he meets watson a total stranger he *very excitedly* tells him abt his experiment #it’s very adorable. he never stops trying to impress ever. infact blushes furiously when complimented by him #my guy has 0 knowledge of our solar system but he’s written several monographs abt different types of ASHES. go figure! #OH i almost forgot the most important fact he’s special to me bc holmes is an audhd gay disaster bastard. sometimes he’s even bisexual #but mostly he’s acespec and in a qpr w watson. he’s VERY adhd. behaves like an excited cat and oh so cute when he stims. everytime he does #i go SQUEEE. when he’s depressed it’s a goddamn hashtag big mood. as in many other ways he is me i am him #he’s PASSIONATE and KIND that’s all you need to know #acd stories are about just some guy who loves his job (which he invented himself btw after quitting college) that’s it #i am overcome with an almighty need to squeeze his cheeks #he’s everything to me <3 #alright if i don’t stop now i doubt i ever will LMAO bye #acd holmes #if u read till the end u get a cookie and a kiss on the nose i love u #silv tag 💞

[wren-kitchens]

im literally so glad depression did not take my sense of humour away because if it did I would literally just be angel from buffy and I cannot think of a fate worse than that

#i’m sorry I fucking hate him HES JUST SO BORING #ALL HE DOES IS BROOD #IT’S SO DULL #I couldn’t care less about who you ship buffy with but I could literally never get into her x angel because he’s just so DRY #LIKE YEAH WE GET IT YOU HAVE A SOUL AND YOU’RE SAD GET OVER YOURSELF #he literally. does not fucking stop being Sad all the time #it’s all he does #he’s only fun when he’s evil #and those like three episodes in the first season when he was mysterious in a fun way rather than the always fucking sad way #yeah he’s hot but that could not matter less HES SO BORING #spike is one of my favourite characters #better than angel by far because he’s ENTERTAINING #HE HAS LAYERS #he and joyce watching passions is the funniest shit idec #also that onion flower thing he kept talking about #there was never a dull moment with spike because he was FUNNY #‘out for a walk. bitch’ #buffy is the perfect example of someone who can brood and Not be boring about it because SHE HAS DEPTH #she’s funny AND SHE HAD TO CLAW HER WAY OUT OF HER COFFIN AFTWR SHE WAS DRAGGED OUT OF HEAVEN #SHE GETS TO BROOD #also FAITH oh my god I fucking love faith #s7 faith <33333 #y’know I take back what I said about not caring who you ship buffy with her and faith makes way more sense than her and spike or angel #this turned into a rant about btvs but idec #I was complaining about depression earlier and made this joke to myself and I thought it was hilarious #i’m saying it to my mum tomorrow anyway idc she’d love it #wren wrambles #q

[teasel-backatitagain]

Thinking about her (Karina Braun)

#I do not like her in the slightest #But also want to explore Reiners feelings toward her post rumbling #Her 'oh yes i only want my son' bullshit is not flying with me (nor is it flying with jean AHAHAHAH) #Karina used Reiner as a tool to further her own desires #Putting a clear expiration date on her only son as the ripe age of ten #She sees him coming back from his trip to hell depressed suicidal self harming and does not care lol #She also gladly pushes gabby toward the same fate (and we know how Reiner feels about Gabby) #So yes propaganda propaganda but goddamn the amount of damages she caused her only son (a literal CHILD) #Reiner is somewhat aware of all that but feels conflicted about it and might kind of push it away #Cause god he has already lost so much #She would have AT BEST troubles reckoning with the full extend of it and properly atone for it #And at worst be a nasty bitch about it and straight up refuse to admit anything but still insists on having a relationship with her son #Idk man wherever she ends up falling on that spectrum Reiner is in for a fun time #(cause i do think he'd want some sort of relationship with her) #(also i think she wouldn't be fully on board with her son kissing devil men (yes jean) on the mouth so that's a problem to add to the list) #Interested about how jean would fit in all of that cause of course he'd be there every step of the way #(they're in love your honor there is just a chance they don't know it yet) #Between his mom being so not karina #his foul mouth #big heart and burning desire to prevent reiner from being trampled yet again #That would make for some fun discussions #So much possibilities... the juices are jussing #do i have the braincells to discuss all this with the nuance it deserves at this ungodly hour? no #hopefully at some point i will #reinjean adjacent #rambling

[sapphire-weapon]

every time i scroll past pics or gifs of leon from death island, the first thought in my head is always

“wow he’s really lost weight”

and not in like a... “good for him”/”he looks good” kinda way

in a

“dude is he okay” kind of way

like especially this official render of him

he looks like shit. it’s not just his arms, either. his hips, thighs, and waistline all look really small (for him).

he’s supposed to be 37-38 in this movie. he looks like he’s in his late 40s/early 50s.

and then a little voice in the back of my head pipes up and is like

“he’s an ALCOHOLIC. at this point in his life, over half of his daily caloric intake comes from whiskey, you fuckin idiot”

and then i’m like “oh. oh yeah.”

and that’s probably why the layers and jackets almost never come off post-RE4 lmao RE6 is the most healthy he’s been in the years following RE4, because he actually had, like. a real friend in the months leading up to that game in adam benford. but then leon has to shoot him in the face and it’s back to the whiskey for him.

#resident evil #leon kennedy #i maintain my stance that leon is aging the worst out of all of the mainline RE cast #and chris used to be a fucking smoker canonically #maybe still smokes sometimes idk it's unclear #but leon is like #canonically and visually wasting the fuck away #and the only person who ever cares enough to say anything to him about it is chris #but chris is also an emotionally stunted gorilla #and so those conversations just turn into baby bitch fights #and leon's too much of a myopic drunk depressed sack of shit to realize that chris's little tantrums are actually his love language #but literally no one in his life cares more about him than chris redfield does #and leon's too stupid to fucking see it lmao

[coyoxxtl]

tumblr centrist liberals stop acting like voting is the most influential and important political activity you can participate in challenge

#me donating to mutual aid posts on tumblr and donating esims to people in gaza has done worlds more influence than any vote i ever did #people who risk their lives in protests do more than voting #i firmly believe that #this isnt a Voting is Pointless post this is Voting is the Barest Minimum #voting is easy. when there’s no outside barriers its so fucking easy. #you fill in a card and call it a day. its easy to feel like you made a difference when all you did is fill in some dots. #yall barely even follow up on who you vote for or even Care if the people you vote for fail you #its the perfect thing for weak liberals to attach to #treat it like the be all end all with activism and you have the easiest get out of real political action card #no need to get your hands dirty if you did all you needed to #as someone who DOES vote. voting is the easiest political thing i engage with. everything else is a risk. or at least a sacrifice. #voting is barely anything to me. i dont feel like i do Anything with it. but donating. making political art. THATS something. thats REAL. #i would go to big protests if i lived somewhere with them #like i understand. wanting voting to be enough. im a heavily depressed bitch who feels like they cant engage with anything big or important #i know tumblr is full of those types. yall dont want to do anything. yall dont want to be uncomfortable or upset or anything negative. #personal comfort above all else. thats what tumblr is. thats what centrist liberals are. there’s no real desire to break out- #of the comfort zone or status quo respectively. yall are scared to get Involved. and i am too. but with how current events are going… #i can see that i don’t want to be that anymore. i know i need to be more than that. its hard and risky but i Need to. #and so do yall. yall NEED to engage with activism outside of voting. or you’re doing nothing. #txt

[juneviews]

bruh the more time I spend in this fandom, the more I realize how much of a dinosaur I am lmao. I was recommended joong's tiktok of trying a filter called "thai babe" with a bunch of actors and. tell me why off wasn't there. gun wasn't there. tay-everyone's-favorite-fucking-tawan wasn't there. new wasn't there. singto. even fluke natouch. not even my baby gawin??? likeeeeeeee... not only was I upset bc I would've NEVER been happy with any of the results, but it made me feel SOOOOOO old like bruh, the kiddos & me truly stan different people 😂

#axelle rants #gmmtv #I'm a grandma but the worst thing is that I know people who've been in the thai bl fandom since its inception... what does that make them 😂 #I'm 24 years old babe I cannot ethically stan anyone who was born after 2000's. even 2000's is pushing it but. drake laedeke. #all the others that are below that I just look at them like an older sister fr #might be judgemental but I'll never understand grown ass bitches that lust unapologetically after 20 years old 😬 #(anyways I would like to take this moment as a reminder that when bitches on here were trying to get me cancelled a couple years back- #-they called me a p*do for lusting after drake & calling him daddy when he's one year younger than me & was 20 at the time 🙃) #(no I will never let y'all forget the bullying I went through on here at a time when I was going through depression & tumblr was quite- #- literally my fucking lifeline 🙃)

[toytulini]

wheres that post about how its hard to have like a fucking depression spiral or whatever while knitting bc lemme tell u im sitting here fighting back tears while actively crocheting and its not fucking working

#toy txt post #depression spiral self worth spiral the world sucks and everything is bad and stupid spiral #whatever you want to call it. im fucking miserable and my eyes keep watering and making it kinda hard to see the fucking stitches #guess thatd be less of an issue if i was doing a standard moss stitch instead if a modified variant w half doubles and working into the #stitch under the space instead of in the chain space which is a little more annoying and fiddly to find than the chain space #whatever. its all the same stupid fucking shit anyway. whatever whatever whatever whatever #nothing matters everything is stupid and sucks and whats the fucking point! god #and then dad will just get home and sternly scold me for not looking for a job anyway #as if i could currently fucking handle being asked what my fucking strengths are or whatever #and i bet fucking period is not fucking helping cos hormone fluctuations do weird shit to emotions i fucking guess. whatever #i feel like my head is going to explode #'just let yourself cry let it out!' no. its fucking inconvenient and doesnt even release all the stupid fucking feelings it just leaves me #exhausted and wasting a bunch of fucking tissues. whatever #im a stupid lazy bitch whatever and im Not. but i am #what does it matter #i cant even deal with the fucking ants in my bedroom im just hiding from them in my brothers empty room #i washed all my bedding but havent remade the bed bc im like oh i should wait for the ants to be gone #cant do anything. cant do fucking anything at all ever #i should get out of the house and touch grass and that would be good for me but like. where #i shouldnt even leave the house bc im not insured and what if i get into a car crash? i hate everything #negative #whining