#fuck you james corden you know what you did

[vitamin-zeeth]

About to go watch the npmd watch party but before I do

GOD it must be so hard for her being this right just all the fucking time jesus christ

#i love into the woods so much amd this has always been my take #no more is such and incredible song i could talk about it for HOURS jesus it just does something to me #not just this one tho the others they cut as well like why did they cut all the best ones and only keep the Absolutely Plot Necessary ones #maybe im biased cause it was my 4th top song on spotify this year but Maybe They're Magic is fucking incredible it should have been kept #Ever After????? the best act one end in anything ever????? the end bit with the round?????? perfection #Agony reprise???? the STUNNING harmonies??????? the character and story implications of the princes miving on so readily???? #the first second and third midnights???? the genius vocal layering????? the visible and comparable character growth over the three????? #we were robbed by the movie. ROBBED. #fuck you james corden you know what you did #into the woods #mariah rose faith #wet floor sign #starkid

[justmeinatree]

01 - Astoria : Ripplin On By

Summary : you find yourself trapped on a pirate ship, desperate to be saved. or is the pirate that needs saving …

feels far from home close to the veil, goodbye mother’s fairytale

TW : murder, talks of sexual assault

Word Count : 5k

A/N : we can all thank @niallthebadboi for reminding me of the niall/james corden halloween music video 🤐

“oi, mate. mate, come here,” he whispers, his index finger in a come hither motion.

niall’s ears perk up, the quietness of the lower deck echoing even the faintest of sounds. he looks behind him, spotting one of the crew members, furrowing his eyebrows, “what is it ? m’a little busy.”

with his boots sludging through the thick waters on the bottom deck of the boat, the smell of the salt water mixed in with mould due to the slowly rotting wood, niall was filtering through boxes upon boxes. he knows he can find what he’s looking for, if he’s just given enough uninterrupted time. christ, there’s a lot of shit down here.

“did you hear ? there’s supposedly a lass on board.”

and well that, makes niall laugh, shaking his head, “don’t tell me you’ve fallen for that rumour. no way there’s a lady on this ship. not a single lass, in her right mind, would board onto a boat with a bunch of pirates. bloody death wish if she does,” he adds, muttering to himself.

“nah, s’not a rumour lad. can’t you feel it ?” he hums, smirking, dirty brown teeth poking through his chapped lips. “we can all tell. the energy’s different. oh what i would do to get my hands on a sweet young lady.”

“bloody disgusting you,” niall laughs, shaking his head. although he can’t help but fantasize about a woman from time to time. spending the majority of his adult life on a ship full of men, and maybe, just maybe, he can feel some sort of shift in the air. but that could simply be all the idiots up on deck getting themselves worked up for nothing. it’s not like it’s the first time niall hears about rumours like this one.

“can’t tell if i’d rather have a little taste, or pray for her wellbeing when she’s found,” he hums, shaking the thoughts out of his head, making his way back up, calling down to niall, “whoever finds her first gets first dibs.”

niall huffs, turning around and getting back to his task at hand. there was obviously nothing to get worked up about. because there was obviously no girl on the ship. they haven’t ported in almost a week now, no way a lady would have made it this long. pirate ships aren’t exactly anything close to nice accommodations.

but for now, he searches through crate upon crate, why they had so much crap stuffed away down here, he’ll never know. no one ever comes down here anyway, it’s too sludgy and too rotten. it’s not until he rounds a corner that he hears the small squeak. he’s no stranger to rats and mice, but this, well this wasn’t quite it.

peering over, he spots someone. 

you were terrified. fear stricken over your features, back pressed against a wall ? some boxes ? you weren’t sure. it felt like your breath had caught into your throat, fingertips going slightly numb, unable to move an inch, as you stare back at him, panic settling into every bone in your body.

“hey,” niall hums, confusion etched on his face, because fuck, there really was a girl on this ship. 

you coward back at the sound of his voice, small whimper leaving your chest, barely heard over the creaking of the old wood. your eyes squeezed shut, ready for the worst. it was hard to see his face, only small cracks of daylight filtering through the old wood to illuminate the dampened space. and with his hat perched upon his head, the specks of clarity weren’t quite reaching his face.

“no, no, s’alright,” niall murmurs, hand darting out for you, quickly retreating it when he notices you flinch away.

“please dont hurt me,” you hiccup, tears filling your eyes.

“m’not gonna hurt you, it’s okay,” he coos, trying to muster up as much calm as he can. although he can’t say he’s felt much of anything remotely close to calm since joining this crew.

“no,” you hiccup again, bottom lip starting to tremble, pressing yourself impossibly further back. “i- i heard yo-you talking,” you stutter. “i know you’re gonna-a hurt me.”

“no, no,” niall coos, shaking his head. “that’s not-. you heard the othe-.” he sighs, biting his lip and starting over. “m’niall, what’s your name, love ?”

“dont call me that,” you huff, the tiniest bit of bite to your voice.

that pulls a smile from niall, a slight breathy chuckle, “alright, m’sorry. how about you tell me your name so i know what to call you.”

“y/n,” you murmur around a few deep breaths, trying to regulate your heart as your brain determines if there’s any imminent threat or not.

“y/n,” he hums, tasting it out on his tongue. “what are you doing on this ship ? s’not safe for you.”

“i messed up,” you peep quietly, fresh tears gathering in your eyes. “everyone was gone, and i just picked a boat. didn’t think there were pirates ported at the docks.”

niall bites back a laugh, not wanting to upset you, but still, what were the odds really. he doesn’t think he’s ever met someone with such bad luck. “we have to eat too,” he chuckles, “gotta reach port sometimes. have ya seriously been here all week ?”

you nod softly, sighing, “when they started coming back onto the ship, i ran down. just kept running. v’been hiding out here. you’re the first one to come down this far below deck.”

“you’ve been down here all week ?” he asks, shocked, eyes grown wide. “fuck, you can’t stay down here that long, you’ll get sick. there’s too much mould for you to breathe in.”

“i’ll take my chances,” you murmur, biting your lip, looking up at him with desperation, “s’better than going up there with the crew.”

and well, niall cannot disagree there. thinks he’d rather live down here with the rot and the sludge if the alternative was to head up to the crew and have every shred of his being ripped apart. so he nods, looking sadly at you, because you’re right, there’s no denying it. “must be hungry then. how about i get you some food ? try to track down some fresh water,” he suggests. 

at that, you perk up, eyes shining with some level of hope for the first time, in a week, apparently. you nod, looking hopeful at niall, asking curiously, “when’s the next time we dock ?”

“not for at least another week, m’afraid,” he sighs, adding a bit more enthusiastically, “don’t think about that right now, just sit tight, i’ll be right back.”

and with that niall was off, bounding up the steps, loud wooden creaks echoing under each of his boots. he makes a bit of small talk with a few other crew mates as he passes them, fishing through crates and flour sacks full of beans, biscuits, and salted dried meats, grabbing a good handful of each, tucking them into his satchel. 

unfortunately, he doesn’t remember a single day as a pirate where he’s actually had access to water. it’s always been beers and ales and rums. at least that’s what’s made readily available. 

if he was going to find water, he’s going to have to sneak around, and sneaking around takes time. time he doesn’t think he has. for some reason, he fears for your safety. you were so innocent, so fragile, so full of fear when he found you gazing back at him. he can’t even begin to imagine what the others would do if they found you. doesn’t think he’ll be able to live with himself if he has to watch that innocence get wiped off your pretty porcelain face. he may be a pirate, but his mam raised a good man.

and although the crew typically never hits the lowest deck, one of them is bound to discover you. especially with the flying rumour of a young lass on board.

so he decides, for now, that some ale is the best he can do in terms of beverage, figuring he’ll have more time to sneak around once all the lads are passed out drunk for the night.

when he returns to the lowest deck, he finds you sitting on one of the large crates, feet tucked up to give your poor skin a break from the constant saturation. he feels his heart grow heavy. a now foreign feeling to him, as he’s learned to grow a thick callous around his emotions. if he spends too much time contemplating his life decisions over the last decade, he’ll throw himself overboard. there are countless moments for which he’s significantly less than proud of. murder being a number of them. he’s just had to do what he’s had to do.

but with you, being dealt a really bad hand, stuck on a pirate ship, condemned to a level that the pirates themselves don’t really come to, he feels real sadness, and real fear, and real protectiveness. he wants to help you. he’s not sure why, he’s never felt the need to help anyone. but seeing that desperation in your eyes, and the sheer willpower you’ve held onto for this long, he empathizes with you in ways he’s not even sure he fully understands.

niall trudges over to you, placing his satchel down on the crate next to you, opening it up to show you its contents. “sorry it’s nothing better. s’really all that survives the long trips.”

“don’t worry about it, please. it’s food,” you smile, reaching in and taking a handful of beans. 

“i couldn’t find any water,” he sighs, “that one’s going to be a bit harder to come by. i’ll go lurking later tonight, when they’re all passed out,” he nods towards the upper deck, where the crew are currently working. “for now though, i hope ale’s okay ? at least it’ll fix the thirst for a bit, yeah ?” he hums hopefully.

your smile only grows wider, swallowing down a bite of the biscuit you had reached for, “niall, don’t make a fuss,” you murmur softly. “you’ve gotten me a meal, and you’ve been nothing but kind to me. i really appreciate all of it,” you hum, taking a sip and another bite, finding yourself hungrier than you thought. the slowly waning adrenaline causing your body to need a  refuel.

“it’s no problem,” niall smiles, “really. just want you to stay safe, and to make it off this ship unharmed.”

you feel heat rise to your cheeks, your eyes trained down on the food he’s provided. you could not have a crush on a pirate. you. could. not. you had to get off this ship and never, ever, look back. fuck.

you take a deep breath, looking over at him, “you seem too nice to be a pirate.”

niall’s mouth quirks up in a smirky smile, breathy chuckle rumbling from his chest, he shakes his head, “there’s a lot of nice lads here. but pirate mentality tends to take over and the next thing you know, you’re doing something you’d never ever thought of doing.”

your eyes lock with his, reading him for a moment, a silent moment, as you both exchange a sad, knowing gaze, “would it have been different if you weren’t alone when you found me ?”

at that, niall sighs, shoulders deflating. he reaches up on his head, gripping his hat and taking it off, resting it on the crate, behind you. it’s the first time you see him without it, expecting to finally get a glace at his hair, you’re only slightly disappointed to see a tattered, muted green bandana wrapped around his head. although you do note peaks of brown tousles poking through behind his ears and by his neck. small hoops pierced through his lobes.

without his hat, more light hits his eyes, which you note are a deep blue. his skin was tanned, darkened from long days in the blistering sun. he’s gorgeous. you cannot. cannot. have a crush on a pirate.

“i’d like to believe that i would have stood up for you,” niall murmurs. “like to believe that when i saw that look in your eyes, i’d be getting them away from you. can’t even begin to imagine the alternative, to be honest, darling.”

you let the pet name slide, too caught up with the fact that he keeps saying he’d like to believe. it’s not quite as reassuring as you’d hoped. you aren’t completely sure how much you can trust him yet. after all, a bit of food is a nice peace offering, but he hasn’t proven himself just yet.

it’s a few hours after that, before you see niall again. he does need to spend some time, enough time, with the crew, working. he can’t let anyone notice that he’s gone too long. or at least, where he’s going. if any of the lads find out that he’s spending time down there, they’ll suspect something. he needs to do this very delicately. needs to be smart about this. 

as he returns, he smiles wide at you, waving a pair of boots around. “smallest ones i could find, keep your feet dry.”

your eyebrows furrow squinting your eyes, the darkness of early evening settling, less and less daylight filtering through the small cracks in the wood.

“s’hard to see innit ?” niall hums, patting his pants, fingers finding some matches in one of the pockets, striking one against a crate to light it, the dim flame just enough to illuminate his face and the pair of boots he’s holding up.

“you got me some boots ?” you look up at him, a burst of warmth spreading through your chest, biting your lip softly as you reach for them, slipping them on. “these are perfect,” you hum, clicking your feet together.

niall searches the walls and ceiling, finding a small gas lamp, unhooking it from its perch, and lighting it. a small corner of space sees proper lighting for the first time in a long time. taking a look around, he thinks he prefers it when it’s dark.

but upon looking over at your feet, he sees you were exaggerating quite a bit. the boots were far from perfect, much too big on you. “you seem to be handling all of this really well for someone as prim and proper as you are.”

you laugh, a true laugh, your first one in god knows how long, shaking your head. “didn’t grow up like this,” you explain, hands waving up and down to display your expensive dress. “one of the richest men in town, for some reason, had his sights set on me.”

“make that sound like a bad thing,” niall hums, hoisting himself up on the crate across from you, setting his hat down again.

“i hate him,” you murmur vehemently. and again, you both lock eyes in a silent moment, the flame flickering a dim glow over both of your features, intensifying the connection. 

niall snaps out of it first, “wanted to bring you the boots, and check in on ya. it’s gotten pretty dark out, the crew’ll be out cold in a bit. i’ll try to find you some water. i’ll be back. keep that light, makes it a little less glum.”

and again, he’s off, just as quickly as he came. you were forever grateful for the bits of company. and the little things he’d bring you every time he dropped on by. in the meantime though, you were lonely. tucked away in the depths of despair, longing and awaiting for your gorgeous pirate’s return.

christ, stop. you did not have a crush. you did not. however, you could admit to yourself that having a place of escape, in your mind that is, helped pass the time a little bit. a place where you and niall were on a grand adventure at sea, wind billowing in your hair, fresh salty air, nothing but beautiful sunsets on the horizon.

how you longed for a breath of fresh air. to feel the wind on your skin. it was getting increasingly hard to be held up like you were. you had no idea that rot and severe lack of sunlight could affect someone so quickly.

you were growing increasingly desperate. and thinking back, niall had mentioned countless times that the crew pass out cold at night. maybe you could sneak around too ? just enough to make it a bit higher up. 

this was foolish, you kept telling yourself as you take slow steps towards the stairs, and yet, you couldn’t stop yourself. it’s like if your body could feel its impending death if it stayed put. your sheer will to have some clean air seemingly taking over the fear for a split moment. 

you were two floors up before you started noticing signs of life. sticking to the empty staircase, peering over quietly to notice breathing lumps of men, tucked into hammocks slung around randomly. 

continuing on your way, you stop a few steps from the very top, sitting on it, not risking being seen on the wide open deck. you breathe in deeply, crisp nighttime air filling your lungs. tilting your head back, eyes blinking up, you notice the vast array of stars. smiling to yourself, you enjoy a moment of calm. 

that is, until you hear some sounds from below you. what seems to be a conversation. and by the rumbling, tumbling steps, and the slurring, cackling voices, you’d best believe they were drunk. with the sounds getting louder, they were heading up to the top deck.

panic rising in your chest, your eyes dart from side to side, figuring there was nowhere to go but up. you climb the rest of the stairs, finding the large expanse of the ship to be empty. rushing, you look around to find a hiding spot, just about to take your first step towards a barrel, when a bone chilling sentence hits your brain. 

“well, well, well. look at what we have here.”

“hmm, pretty young lady. looks like we get to have some fun tonight.”

you whimper, frozen in fear, hearing the loud chuckle from behind you, “i get her first !” one of them shouts, surging forward and gripping your shoulder. he walks you forward towards the very barrel you were planning to dash for, just moments ago, pressing on your upper back, between your shoulder blades, bending you over.

you can feel him lean over you, pressed up against you, murmuring against your ear, “such a little treat aren’t you ?”

“what the-“ you hear from further behind you, the man no longer pressed against you, as he looks behind himself. 

“fuck- what are you-“ just as you look behind yourself, curiously panicked, worried that you may have an even worse imminent future ahead. 

instead you’re met with the sight of your attacker, pulled back into niall’s chest, held down by his mouth to muffle any sounds, watching niall glide a blade through your attacker’s throat. 

you feel as if your heart was about to beat out of your throat, eyes bulging wide, trying to take in the scene in front of you. two men, in a heap on the floor, throats gushing blood. you were gasping for breath, slowly backing away, until your back hit the barrel.

“what in god’s name are you doing ?” niall snaps, looking around to make sure no one’s seen anything. “why would you do something so fucking stupid ?”

he was furious. and you could tell. instantly regretting your decision to try and reach some upper floors. “i-“ you sigh, looking down, unable to look him in the eye. you felt like a small child, being scolded. and truthfully, you deserved it. what you did was stupid. and if niall hadn’t found you right then and there, you’re not sure what would be happening right now. 

your gaze tentatively flicks up towards his, shame plastered on your features, as you do something you never imagined doing. you lunge forward, wrapping your arms around niall, the force of it all making him take a few steps back.

he was shocked. he hadn’t been privy to a hug in over a decade. his eyes blink rapidly a few times, before slowly wrapping his arms around your waist, holding you to him, hearing a faint, “thank you for saving me,” puff out from your lips, warm breath hitting his neck. 

niall’s eyes flutter closed, his head resting against yours, taking in a breath. the fresh cleanliness of the soap you used in your hair was still clinging on, under the scent of the sea, a welcomed change his nostrils revelled in. 

he found himself relaxing into your arms, the protective anger he was feeling over you fading, murmuring, “please tell me what the fuck you were doing.”

you slowly pull away from the hug, sighing, “i was desperate for some fresh air. you kept talking about the crew passing out at night, figured it’d be my best shot,” you shrug.

“christ, darling, let me in on your plans next time yeah ? let me keep you safe. d’ya have any idea how bad that could have been if i wasn’t here ?” he shakes his head. “fuck, lets not think about that. need to take care of my mess. then m’gonna find you a change of clothes. can’t have ya sneaking around in that dress. s’too obvious.” 

he turns around, hoisting the bodies one at a time, rolling them over the edge of the ship, to crash into the frigid waters below.

“niall, you-“ you take a deep breath, your shoulders slugging, “you killed two people. for me. i- fuck, i can’t believe i-“

“shh,” he hums, shaking his head, pressing his index finger against your lips when he notices you about to speak again. “don’t have ta say it. m’honestly so fucking glad i was here.”

your breath catches as his finger makes contact with your mouth, a tingle of warmth spreading through your entire body, leaving your fingers and toes slightly numb. for a moment you find yourself wanting nothing more than to kiss him. with the sweat on his brow and the dirt on his skin, and fuck even the blood on his hands, you were so attracted to him. you cannot have a crush on a bloody pirate.

he slowly pulls his finger away, eyes locked on yours, feeling the erratic beating in his chest, because my god, he’s never felt such soft lips. doesn’t remember wanting to kiss anyone so bad in so long. not that there’s been even remotely close to a kissing prospect. “c’mon, that’s gotta be enough fresh air for today. can’t risk it any longer. lets get you back down there, darling. i’ll go sleuthing for some clothes.”

“niall,” you rush out, gripping into his arm just as he was trying to walk away, “thank you. for everything.”

a small smile tugs at his lips, blush rising to his cheeks, turning away again and setting off with you, making sure the coast is clear every step of the way, until you’re back to the safety of the bottom deck.

it had been days since your little adventure to the outside. and as much as you were craving a trip back up, you were slightly petrified. 

niall had brought you some clothes, and even though you could fairly blend in with the crew, you weren’t quite ready to test it for real. 

in the meantime, niall’s been your source of friendship, coming to check on you regularly, whenever he could sneak away, bringing you food and drinks. he even tracked down some water for you a couple of times. 

tonight, however, you couldn’t hold out anymore. so when niall comes by for his late evening visit, you hop down from the crate you’d made yourself comfortable on, bounding over to him, “can we go up tonight ?”

he looks over you, eyes wide, “you really want to try that again ?” he asks quietly, out of fear for you. fear of what could happen to you, to him for hiding you. 

but with the large puppy eyes you were feeding him and the severe level of empathy he has for you, he ends up giving in pretty quickly, nodding his approval, “yeah, alright. suppose it’s something you need. please stay close. and do whatever i say.”

“yes sir,” you smirk, saluting him. as soon as your hand left your forehead, you felt like a complete fool. embarrassing yourself in front of the man whom you’ve grown more and more affection towards.

he giggles though, a real giggle, shaking his head at you, “m’a pirate, not in the fuckin navy, darling.”

you laugh along with him, ever grateful for him. you’re unsure of how you’ll ever be able to thank him for all that he’s done for you. including murder for fuck sake. you have to come up with something before leaving the ship.

you stay quiet, following him up the stairs, niall checking each floor as he goes, confirming that everyone is rightfully asleep. once he makes it to the top deck, he takes one look around, finding the entirety of the space, completely abandoned. niall’s hand reaches out for yours, helping you up the last few steps.

taking a deep breath, your eyes close momentarily, enjoying the feeling of whipping wind against your skin, tiny droplets of sea water spraying you from time to time. it was so refreshing, so incredibly needed after the time down below.

walking over to the edge, hands gripped into the side of the ship, looking at the vast expanse of pure, pitch, darkness. there was nothing but stars as far as the eye could see. 

niall coming over to stand next to you, he hums softly, “what’s got you so focused ? s’nothing but black out there.”

“kinda nice innit ?” you ask quietly, “the stars, the open sea, how tiny we really are in the grand scheme of things.”

“you think that’s nice ?” he asks, slightly confused. “isn’t that a bit scary ? what’s the point of it all ? we wont really make a difference anyway.”

at that, you hum, your head resting against niall’s shoulder, his arm instinctively wrapping itself around your shoulders. you never thought you’d be over the moon to be cuddled up with a pirate, but he actually made you feel comfortable, safe, a feeling that was fairly foreign for you at this point. and you were revelling in it.

“you think you won’t make a difference ?” you ask softly, turning yourself a bit more into him, “you’ve already made a huge one,” you explain. “you’ve saved me. saved my life.”

“but-“ niall furrows his eyebrows, “that’s just how my mam raised me. to be kind. s’not really making a difference in the world.”

you shake your head, humming a protest, “one person can’t change the entire world, that would be a bit of a pompous thought,” you chuckle, adding quietly, “but you’ve made a difference in my world.”

niall feels his heart burst, prickling heat shooting from his chest throughout his entire body. he buries his face in your hair, pulling you closer to him, “think you’ve made an even bigger difference in mine.”

moments before he was about to turn your face towards his, he hears it, a deep chuckle coming from behind, “looks like nialler found a treasure. gonna share with your brothers ?”

he feels you go stiff as a board next to him, feels the moment the air leaves your body, feels the panic encompassing every fibre of your being. he looks down at you, trying to convey any form of safety in his gaze, mouthing to you, “run,” before pushing you off towards the stairs. 

instantly, the other man is taking off after you, bounding down the stairs two at a time, niall quickly in toe. 

you just make it back to your dark and dingy secluded hideout, when a large, rough hand presses you into one of the crates in front of you, making your forehead smack down hard on the wood. 

you whimper, the man’s hands closing on your hips, squeezing roughly, painfully. and just like the last time, a moment later, he’s lifted off of you, niall’s blade slicing through his neck.

niall’s catching his breath, trying to calm his nerves, as he looks down at the scene, taking the moment in for the first time, because fuck, this is not good.

he looks up at you, noting the gash on your forehead, “christ, darling, you alright ?” he asks, fingertip darting out to gently touch the wound.

you flinch back, bottom lip trembling, as you feel yourself giving out, niall quick to catch you before you fall into the sludge water, leaning heavily on him, face tucked into his neck, “i can’t do this anymore,” you cry softly. “i can’t, i can’t. i need air, i need sun, fuck,” you tremble. “m’always so scared. i just can’t anymore niall.”

he holds you tightly, heart shattering for you. you hadn’t asked for this. you were a good person. you didn’t deserve any of this. mind reeling after the events of just moments ago, niall comes up with a plan, “we’re getting off this ship.”

“what ?” you ask exhaustedly, peering up at him, every ounce of your being, drained.

“you can’t stay here anymore. s’too dangerous. and you need air. we’ll take one of the lifeboats,” he explains, before nodding towards the body, “s’the first mate. someone’s going to notice he’s missing. and m’not about to lug him all the way up to throw him overboard, someone’ll see.”

“niall, i can’t make you do that,” you sigh. “can’t make you leave the safety of the ship for me.”

he cups your neck in his large hand, his thumb stroking your jaw, eyes peering into your own, conviction in his tone, “can’t go alone, darling. i told you i’d keep you safe. couldn’t live with myself if you were out there all alone. we’re leaving. tonight.”

Part 2

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[mrs-johansson]

Strangers in the night - Scarlett Johansson x Fem!Reader

Part 20:

“Today we are joined by an amazing actress, director, and screenwriter. You’ve seen her in films like Red Sparrow, Lady Bird, and the Divergent trilogy. Please welcome, Y/n Cole,” called out James Corden and I walked out from the back.

I sat on the sofa and before we started he introduced the other guest. Ellen fucking Pompeo. “Oh my god hi,” I stood up and Ellen spread her arms with a wide smile. “Hi!” She said and we hugged. “I am fangirling, so sorry,” we all sat down. “I’m guessing you’re a Grey’s Anatomy fan, Y/n,” started James. “Are you kidding? I live and breathe by Grey’s Anatomy,” I said and the crowd laughed along with Ellen. “It’s season 15 now, who is your favorite character at the moment?” “Ugh… I looove Meredith,” I glanced at Ellen and she smiled. “I truly think since Derek died, she’s a better character in general. I love Jo, oh Amelia, she’s the best. Alex is one of my favorites too, along with Bailey. I can’t choose!” I sighed and shook my head. “Do you watch the show often?” Asked James. “Oh yeah. Very often. Actually, I made my girlfriend watch it with me, so we started at the beginning,” I said, already nervous about what was coming now that I mentioned Scarlett. James saw the opportunity and with a smile, he started talking. “Now that you’ve mentioned, you just went public with your girlfriend who’s none other than Scarlett Johansson,” he said and the crowd erupted in cheers and I just shyly smiled. “I was genuinely surprised when I saw your post. I haven’t heard any rumors or that kind of talk around the two of you,” he said. “That was a struggle, believe me,” I chuckled, and then so did the crowd. “We did our very best to lay low at all times. And we just shot Jojo Rabbit so it was very important for us not to look like we’re just trying to promote the movie, so we just laid low for a while now.” “But you’re happy?” Asked James and I smiled very widely just knowing how happy I actually am. “I can’t even describe how happy I am. It just feels… right,” I explained even though I could barely put my feelings into words.

***

“Please water them Scar, they're gonna die if you don’t,” I basically whined as she helped me move my suitcases into the car outside. “I will water your plants every day,” she let the suitcase over to my driver who put it in the truck. “Thank you,” I said and he sat behind the wheel. “Have fun and text me when you can. I’ll bring Rose when I can,” Scarlett took my hands. Smiling cutely. “I will. I’ll miss you but it’s gonna be fun when I come home,” I smiled and she nodded. “It sure will.” “Okay, I need to leave. I love you,” I gave her a long kiss before pulling her in a hug. “I love you too.”

I got into the car and we made our way to the airport where I got on the plane and took off to Massachusetts.

On the plane I’ve read the script multiple times, memorizing my bigger parts.

When I touched down I checked into the hotel and because we have a tight schedule, the table read was just 2 hours after my landing.

Getting all my essentials for the rest of the day and I was at the office in no time.

I don’t think I’ve ever been so comfortable going into a new project. I’ve worked with the director before, I’ll have Flo there and Timmy, and the only thing I was nervous about is Meryl Streep. I don’t think I need to explain that.

I walked into the room and I spotted Florence right away, who was speaking to Emma Watson and Eliza Scanlen. There was Greta Gerwig at the front table talking with probably the producers. I didn’t see Timothée anywhere so I quickly texted him but then I felt a gentle hand on my shoulder. I turned around and I was faced with the icon herself, Meryl Streep. “I didn’t mean to scare you, sorry. I just wanted to say hi, before we start,” she said and I was just standing there, my mouth dry. The next thing I know something just hit me in the back. Like a crumpled piece of paper. Quickly cleaned my throat and answered. “Sorry,” I chuckled. “It’s so nice to meet you. I’m such a big fan of yours, but I’m sure you get this from everyone,” I mumbled, trying to not faint. “Oh well, it’s not the same from everyone, so thank you. But, I must say I’m also a fan of your work. Red Sparrow was amazing,” said MERYL STREEP. I can’t wait to tell my dad about this. “Wow, uhm… thank you so much. It means a lot,” I smiled and with a hand on my shoulder once again she stepped away and went over to Greta. Timmy literally jumped to my side and I’m sure he heard everything because he had a big smile on his face, his eyebrows almost meeting with his hairline from the excitement. “That was siiick,” he whisper-yelled and shook me by the shoulders. “I just can’t believe that happened,” I said. I spoke with everyone a little, and I was really excited about this movie.

After we all got our seats, Greta spoke a few words and we started.

We had such a great time. Everyone was laughing and when something emotional happened we all paid attention to those who were in the scene.

Around 8 pm we finished and it was amazing. We all had great chemistry with each other so I think this is gonna work out really well.

“Do you guys want to go have dinner? I know a great place,” I suggested and most of them accepted the invite.

Timothée, Florence and I got into one car and Emma, Eliza, James and Laura into the other one. Laura needed a little convincing to tag along because she said “I’m too old to go with all of you”, but she’s way too cool not to come with us.

We all fell into conversation pretty quickly as we got to the restaurant. Everyone was talking to someone and I think everyone felt comfortable with one another. “So you get to experience both Noah and Greta’s directing methods, that must be interesting,” I said to Laura who was sitting next to me. “Yeah, it’s so fun. Both of them are so different but I’m sure they’ll have some similarities.” “You guys shot the whole of Marriage Story on film, right?” “Yes, but I’m sure Scarlett told you all about it,” she smiled cheekily. I smiled shyly and nodded. “She did, yeah. I love the story so much, it’s just so full of love and your character just seems so fun and cool,” I said. “It is an amazing story. Noah did such a great job with the script. But let’s not talk about work in off time too, I could barely get Scarlett away from her phone while working,” she bumped her shoulder to mine and I just smiled. “I uhm… we talked a lot that time yeah,” I said and Laura smiled knowingly. “Ah well her smile was different. She was happy and glowing. I think you surprised everyone, but I could tell it’s genuine. I’m glad you have each other.”

***

“Hello?” Heard the voice over the phone. “Scarlett? Baby, hi,” I mumbled as I saw her beautiful face on the screen. “Okay, you’re drunk. First day went well then,” she chuckled adorably. “It was so fun! Oh my God, Meryl Streep is amazing. She said Red Sparrow was amazing. Funny because I’m naked in that one,” I said while taking my dress off, but I accidentally stumbled onto the couch. “Careful there.” “I’m fine,” I threw the dress on the floor and made my way to the bed. “Take off your makeup before you go to bed, baby,” said Scarlett over the phone. “I don’t want to though,” I whined as I sat on the fluffy bed. “You’ll thank me tomorrow.” “Fine,” I sighed and moved to the bathroom. “How was your day?” I mumbled as I fidgeted with my skincare bag. “It was good. We had some reshoots for Endgame so it was fun,” she said. “Oh don’t tell me any spoilers or I’m gonna cry,” I started to take my makeup off. “I won’t, I won’t. I think you’re gonna like it though.” “Yeah? I’m sure you’ll look hot in it so I’m not worried,” I smirked at the screen and she just laughed. “I’ve never seen you this drunk before, how much did you have?” “Just a couple glasses to be honest,” I shrugged. “Aha, I’m not so sure about that.” “I’m telling you, it wasn’t a lot.” “If I text Laura, are you sure she’s gonna say the same thing?” I glanced down at the phone and a smile pulled on my lips. “No.” “Yeah, that’s what I thought, but I’m glad you’re already having fun. I’m sure it’s gonna be a great shoot.” “Oh my god, yeeees. I love everyone so much,” I threw the makeup wipes in the trash and rinsed my face with cold water before going back to the bedroom. “Take a painkiller in case this all goes to hell. And drink a lot of water.” “I’ve been drunk before, I know how this works Mom,” I chuckled. “I just want to make sure you’re okay, baby.” “I know, I know. Thank you for that,” I blew a kiss towards the screen. “Always. What’s the plan tomorrow?” She asked. As I could see, she was just lying in bed with glasses and a big sweatshirt on. The TV reflected from her glasses making it a bit difficult to see her eyes. “Rehearsals for the next week and just after that we start shooting. But I can’t waaaait, I’m so excited for this one. I just know that it’s gonna be so so good and fun,” I laid down in bed and pulled the covers up to my chin. “I’m excited for you and to see it. Have you done a period movie yet, I don’t think so, right?” “Not this old, no. The latest was the Gatsby I think,” I yawned while trying hard to focus on the conversation. “You should go to bed, Y/n,” Scarlett said as she got up from her bed. “I really should but I love talking to my girlfriend, she’s kinda fun you know,” I rolled over to my stomach, trying to get comfortable. “Yeah? Well, your girlfriend is not going anywhere so you can speak to her whenever you’re free.” “I know,” I said slowly, just looking at the screen and admiring how amazing she was. “I love you,” I said, still feeling the booze. “I love you too, you drunk. Go to bed, honey. Text me when you wake up, okay?” She said softly with the cutest smile on her face. “I will. I love you.” “I love you too, sleep well.” “You too.”

***

All the cast members filled up the room as we were waiting for Greta. Florence on my right side and Timothée on the left. Sunglasses on both of their faces, sliding off their chairs, heads tilted back. “How are you not dead?” Murmured Timmy as he pulled the hood of his sweater over his head. “I have an amazing girlfriend who takes care of me. And you crazy people just downed every glass you found on the table,” I gave him a bottle of water. “Thanks.”

“Alright everybody, I hope you had a good night's sleep. Today is like to go through some of the bigger monologues so we can work on those if it’s necessary,” Greta explained and as I looked at my friends, I quietly chuckled. “Today’s gonna be fun.”

#gxg #scarlett johansson x you #scarlett johansson x female reader #scarlett johansson x reader #scarlett johansson imagines #scarlett johansson #timothee chamalet #florence pugh

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So I may or may not be currently hyperfixating on Cats after finally seeing it live (fantastic production btw the 2022-23 cast is so good) and looking back on the Boschian nightmare that is the 2019 film, you know what the worst thing they did was? And I mean the WORST thing. It wasn’t turning sweet & matronly Jennyanydots into Rebel Wilson scissoring the camera. It wasn’t shoving poor Victoria into the role of protagonist in a musical that’s designed not to have a protagonist. It wasn’t the horrific MoCap suits (but I do still feel so bad for the VFX team that got thrown under the bus). It wasn’t even James Corden existing. I will go to my grave insisting that the movie’s greatest sin was, in fact, the straightwashing. Tom Hooper took my beautiful boys-

And hit them with the hetero ray. How fucking dare he. The movie’s understanding of Tugger is so goddamn surface level it makes my head spin. Their version of him is a flirt and nothing else, and that isn’t actually the case in the musical. Like, for all his strutting and, ahem, gyrating, that Rum Tum Tugger isn’t actually all that interested in the girl cats who fawn over him is made pretty clear in his big number. But who DOES he show an interest in, in just about every version of the stage show?

The movie adds insult to injury by still giving the “Rum Tum Tugger is a terrible bore” line to Mistoffelees, but then changing the context to make it no homo. Rather than Misto playfully teasing Tugger, he’s now acting jealous & trying to dissuade Victoria from taking an interest in Tugger. Because the film is so committed to convincing us that this guy is straight-

that they wrote up a romantic arc for him out of whole cloth WITH HIS SISTER GUYS THEY WERE SO AFRAID OF GAY CATS THEY PAIRED HIM OFF WITH HIS SISTER. I know the film versions of their characters aren’t related (probably because Hooper & co didn’t know they were canonically siblings because they didn’t do their homework because they didn’t care they just wanted that awards bait)- but still what the actual fuck? No gays allowed but you can kiss your sibling. Truly a movie for Alabamans.

#fan post #fan rant #cats the musical #cats 1998 #cats 2019 #cats 2022 #rum tum tugger #mister mistoffelees #mr. mistoffelees #tuggoffelees #straight washing cw #lgbtqia

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alone time

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— Hiii!!! One-Shot Request: Harry and Y/N want a night to themselves if you know what I mean and they send mateo to spend the night with anne or gemma maybe and mateo gets upset and can’t fall asleep from the separation anxiety of being away from his parents and suddenly really misses them and wants to go home *poor baby🥺🥺* and even though they may be slightly annoyed their sexy-time got cut short they would do anything for mateo and they go pick him up and comfort the poor upset baby.

summary: a three year old mateo spends the night at anne’s house so harry and y/n can have a date night for themselves 

word count: 11.2k+

warnings: language, fluff, angst, unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it, folks) , mentions of smut

note: i changed things up a bit if that's okay 😀. also this is my first time writing smut so i have no clue if it’s going to be great or not, hopefully when i write more of it the better it'll be. and sorry that it's too long and took too long to come out! i didn’t intend for it to be this fucking long but i’ve rewritten this several fucking times and this one seemed to stick. sorry if it sucks or seems rushed in some places. 

Feedback and reblogs are appreciated!

Enjoy!

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Having a three year old instead of a two year old was great for many things. They’re talking to you and copying what you or others do, and get excited when around kids. They can walk and run around by themselves without their parents' help. There’s a lot of pros that come with a three year old and also a lot of cons.

But there was one thing that wasn’t really a con, but a thing that broke Y/N and Harry’s hearts every time.

Separation anxiety.

Harry and Y/N couldn't go anywhere without having a wailing Mateo toddling after them. Tearing running down his chubby cheeks, his face red and green eyes glazed over in tears.

The separation anxiety didn’t go away, even on the road during tour it didn’t go away and Harry and Y/N didn’t have time for themselves. And when they did and had someone watch their son, they had to come back because no one could calm Mateo down.

And him having his temper tantrums gone was a good thing because putting him in timeout was a big break to their hearts. Hearing his crying and sniffling echoing throughout the room where they were sitting and where he was until his time was up. Having horrible headaches that are so horrible from the screaming, stomping, and crying that comes from little Mateo’s lungs.

With those separation anxiety it was really hard to have some alone time together. Their sex lives were suffering because of their son, as much as they love him, they just need some time to themselves.

They're lucky enough to have a quickie in the laundry room, car, bedroom in the early morning or when Mateo is down for a nap or at night when he's asleep. But most of the time it's interrupted by their son.

Thankfully for them it seems that Anne has read their minds when they're over for dinner or lunch. One night before they were getting ready to go to bed, Anne called her son to let them know that if they needed someone to watch Mateo so they could go on a date she could.

And she just wanted to see her grandson. Along with giving Y/N and Harry some time to themselves after Harry ended his first world tour in July. Not to say they didn’t have anyone to watch Mateo to have a date night, but not enough time to be alone when there's a three year old on the road who won't leave his parents' side and would scream when they're not around him. Especially when they went to Cabo for James Corden’s birthday, it wasn't a fun time for them getting things ready when they had a screaming two year old running after them to be attracted to one of their hips.

And just to say, Harry and Y/N didn't miss the chance to have a night to themselves when it came to them.

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Y/N sighed as she placed the second silver diamond earring in her ear as she stood in their ensuite bathroom that connected to their bedroom. Feeling the slightest pinch when she placed the earrings through the small hole in the lobe of her ear and then placed the back to hold the earring up. She felt jittery and excited to have a date night with Harry, it felt like forever when they had one because of Mateo. Yeah, they could’ve when he was one last year, but they didn’t want to leave him out of their sight.

And because every time they weren’t around the one year old at the time last year he would start screaming and crying for his mummy or daddy, especially when Harry had to go to rehearsals for the beginning part of his tour. Always attached to Harry’s hip with the little sound proof headphones on his curls he got from Harry as Harry rehearsed beforehand. Falling asleep on his daddy’s shoulder halfway through the rehearsal.

So, when Anne volunteered to watch Mateo for them to go out, it was like heaven knocking on the door and offering to get some weight off their shoulders. And while they did love their son, they just really needed time to be with each other.

Y/N was wearing this cute above knee sheer black dress with bell sleeves that were sheer as well. Pairing it black heels and a silver diamond necklace and matching earrings. Her hair was simple with her hair in a braid crown. Underneath she was wearing a black lace lingerie set , who knows what will happen when they get back from her favorite Italian restaurant. Maybe they’ll have sex, maybe they won’t.

The possibilities are endless. And she hopes they’ll be able to have an uninterrupted night alone together intimately.

Y/N lowered her hand down onto the marble bathroom counter next to her other hand, her nails painted black as she stared at herself in the mirror. The lights showing off her beauty. She didn’t wear that much makeup: she just simply wore red lipstick along with a smokey eye, winged black eyeliner, and mascara. No foundation or finishing powder caking her face. She took in deep breaths in and out as she felt her heart racing at the nervous, exciting feeling she had going on.

The familiar burning feeling in her lower belly as she thought of being alone with Harry after dinner. The two of them blindly wandering around their house as they kiss desperately and hold onto each other, Y/N tearing off Harry’s suit jacket before reaching for him desperately while he’s working on getting her dress off. Her imagination gets more and more desperate and arouses her more and more as well the further her mind takes her.

Feeling Harry’s mouth on her clit and her closing her eyes in pleasure as she tilted her head up and moaned in pleasure and thrusted her hips up to get closer to his mouth and tugged his curls to let him know that he’s doing an amazing job. Feeling the vibrations of his moans and groans against her folds and his tongue licking at her wetness. Shaking his head side to side to get further in her.

Y/N was clutching the marble counter tightly, so hard that she was sure that the marble would crack because of how hard she was clutching it. She was also biting her lip hard to hold in the moans that were threatening to come out and clutching her legs tightly to fight the throbbing feeling between her legs and the wetness that was already pooling on her panties.

“Fuck,” She whispered under her breath and looked down at the floor and breathed to calm herself down. “Goddammit.” She continued, closing her eyes and continued to try to calm herself down. She broke away from her routine of trying to calm herself down when she heard the familiar babbling and deep accented voice coming closer to the bedroom from the open bathroom door.

“You wanna see how beautiful mummy is, well she’s always beautiful. Mummy’s always beautiful isn’t she?” Harry asked Mateo, who was on his hip. Harry was wearing a black suit with a pink dress shirt underneath with a few buttons undone, showing off the wings of his swallow tattoos that were on his chest finishing the outfit with black dress shoes. Y/N showed the likeness of the pink dress shirt when she saw him wearing it the first time from the Victoria’s Secret Fashion show last year.

In her words the first time she saw him in that suit with that light pink dress shirt was. “Holy shit, you look so fucking hot in pink.”

The words made him blush as well as turn him on from the compliment.

“Mummy, mummy, mummy, mummy.” Mateo babbled excitedly, kicking his little shoe covered feet excitedly to see his mummy. Mateo was wearing a comic pajama set. One of his shoe clad feet kept kicking Harry’s hipbone, but not too hard just lightly. Harry’s footsteps muffled against the carpet as they got closer to the open bedroom door, the light streaming through the gap and reflecting on the wall.

“I know, bub. We’re going to see her.” Harry chuckled, hiking the three year old further up his hip since he was falling from the kicking he was doing and gripping onto his leg so he wouldn't fall. What could be heard was stuff cluttering around and mumbling, meaning that Y/N was just getting done getting ready and was cleaning up. But he didn’t want to barge in if she wasn’t.

Once he and Mateo were at the door, Harry used the one arm that wasn’t holding onto the excited, babbling three year old that was in his other arm. He bent his index finger and knocked on the hardwood door, loud enough so Y/N could hear the knock through the clattering and moving around that was going on.

“Love, can we come in?” He asked, turning his head to the side so he could hear his long time girlfriend's response to his question. There was a little bit more clattering around and some cursing before the sound of heels clicking against the tiled bathroom floor and then muffled because of the carpeted floor of the bedroom.

“Yeah, come in.” Y/N answered. Harry pushed the door open with his index finger that was still pressed against the door. The light from the bedroom got brighter when he opened the door. Once the door was opened fully, Harry felt his heart flutter and butterflies exploded through his stomach once he caught the sight of his girlfriend and the mother of his son.

The love of his life, the woman he wanted to marry and continue the rest of his life with. Her attitude and personality was the first thing he fell in love with as well as her beauty. Y/N the same for him. He felt like himself and the happiest around her and their son, along with their family and friends. His little family made him happy and loved being around them in their home. Their space of love and a home that was once two hearts are now three because of Mateo.

Harry’s mouth fell open once he saw Y/N standing a few feet away from their bed with her hands clasped together in front of her as she waited for her boyfriend and son to appear from the other side of the door. Her heart beating at the sight of Harry wearing the black suit with the light pink dress shirt she loves on him. His now short hair is styled the way he usually does by himself and not a stylist when he's on tour.

His stare made her cheeks heat up red and caused her hands to tighten together. As well as a bashful smile to stretch across her red painted lips. He looked good as well, and her staring at him made a red tint on his cheeks appear with the same reaction she has right now.

And then there’s Mateo, staring at her on his daddy’s hip. He copied Harry’s open mouth and widened his green eyes as he looked at his mummy all dressed up pretty. His chocolate curls freshly washed from the bath he was given earlier, all fluffy and curly. Even his hair was curly brushed, like his father’s.

Then again, he is Harry’s twin.

Mateo began clapping his little hands together and his mouth turning into an opening mouth smile, his white teeth showing, with dimples poking out on each end of his lips. Giggles leaving his mouth while he stared at Y/N. “Mummy, mummy, mummy,” He chanted with his giggles before turning his attention to Harry, who was still looking at Y/N starstruck until Mateo lightly tapped on Harry’s shaven face after he stopped clapping when he realized that his daddy wasn’t looking at him.

Always wanting attention when he wanted it from one of his parents.

“Daddy,” Mateo said, tapping Harry’s cheek lightly again. Snapping Harry out of his love filled gaze that was fixated on his girlfriend and looked over to his mini me, who was looking at him with a determined look in his green eyes. His hand was still on Harry’s cheek and he and Harry looked at each other. The sight making Y/N’s heartbeat happily against her chest at seeing the cute sight of her boyfriend and their three year old on his hip.

Mateo then moved his hand off Harry’s cheek and pointed his finger at Y/N, still looking at Harry. “Look at how pwetty mummy is.” He demanded with a lisp, making Y/N let out a light giggle at the three year old’s demanding his father to look at her when Harry already was. And the look on Harry's face after the demand was made by Mateo. His green eyes widened after the words that left his son’s mouth and his mouth dropped a little from shock.

It was funny to Y/N because she wasn’t on the receiving end of that demand.

“I was bud, I was looking at mummy,” Harry told the three year old, bouncing Mateo lightly on his hip to make him giggle. Which does work, Mateo tossed his head back a little and closed his eyes as giggles escaped his mouth. Clapping his hands as he laughed, making Y/N and Harry laugh along with him and watching how adorable their son is when he’s not having the temper tantrums he had when he doesn’t get his way because of his ‘terrible twos’ and then he’s crying when neither of them are in the same room was him.

But he’s always adorable, just not when he’s being bad or upset. Because they don’t like being mad or feeling their hearts break seeing their little sunshine being the complete opposite of who he usually is.

After making Mateo giggle for a few more minutes, Harry stopped and hoisted the toddler on his hip and then looked at Y/N. All three of them took deep breaths to calm down from the adorable moment of their son laughing to get him out of his demanding demeanor.

"But mummy is beautiful, isn't she?" He whispered loudly to the toddler so that Y/N could hear him as well. A big smile stretched across his face and his green eyes going wide at the words before looking at Y/N. Her cheeks heated up from the compliment from Harry, feeling the butterflies fluttering through her belly and the familiar shivering going up her spine.

"Mummy is bewtiful." The three year old lisped, mispronouncing 'beautiful' as he looked at Y/N with the same smile on his face. Y/N blew kisses to her son as a thank, making the three year old smile even bigger if that's possible and turn to hide his face in his daddy's shoulder with small giggles leaving his mouth. Making Y/N and Harry awe at his reaction.

Harry bounced the now shy toddler on his hip, to get Mateo to get out of being shy. But Mateo buried his face further into Harry's suit jacket covered shoulder. Making Harry and Y/N laugh before turning their attention to each other.

Their eye contact makes their hearts flutter, the butterflies to soar, and a shiver to go up their spines. The familiar heat flooded their cheeks.

"You are really beautiful, love. Even without dressing up you're always beautiful." Harry complimented, rubbing Mateo's back to comfort him with his left hand that had his rings that he wears all the time. This caused more heat to flood Y/N's cheeks even more, if that's possible. Her heart to flutter even more because of the compliment and how domestic and handsome her boyfriend is.

Seeing him as a father is just something that makes her happy to see him being the parent he always wanted to be. Especially when he's the father of the three year old in his arms, their son Mateo.

Who just looks exactly like his father, like stated beforehand. Something they've been told a million times by: Anne, Gemma, the rest of Harry's family, Y/N's parents, her family, and their friends.

"You're beautiful too, babe." Y/N complimented, making Harry stop his actions all together and just stared at her like a deer in headlights and his cheeks turned a bright tint of pink from her compliment and his green eyes became watery.

"Aw, babe," Y/N cooed softly before making her way to the brunette. Her footsteps muffled against the carpet of their to get closer to Harry, their eyes still locked together as she got closer and closer to her tall boyfriend. Well, not as tall since she was wearing her heels that were on her feet.

Once she was in front of him, she reached up and placed her hands on either side of his face and caressed his cheekbones. She gave him a soft, welcoming smile. “You’re beautiful too, as well as handsome. You’re both.” She added, feeling the hot skin under her hands and thumbs from Harry blushing at her continued compliment.

“Stop,” He murmured to her, closing his eyes and leaned into her right hand that was on his cheek. Welcoming her touch and loving it, like he always does. Pressing a kiss to the palm of her hand, opening his eyes to look into her eyes. Sending chills down her spine and more butterflies to soar through her stomach and the burning feel in her lower stomach and caused her breathing to hitch.

God, the effect this man has on her. It’s so strong. He knows this effect as she knows the effect, she has on him; words were shared about this effect by drunken words a few years before Y/N became pregnant with Mateo.

They stared at each other for a few more seconds before a small, accented voice broke the silence between the two of them. “Mummy, mummy, mummy, mummy is bewtiful.” Making Y/N and Harry look over to where he was being held in Harry’s arm to see the three year old smiling up at her, his cheek pressing against Harry’s shoulder.

Y/N returned the smile and lowered her head down so she was a little bit closer, but not too close to his face. Just enough to see his face and he can see hers. Mateo’s cheeks were a little bit tinged with red from laughing and from Y/N blowing kisses at him.

“Thank you, bub. Mummy loves you.” Y/N told the three year old sweetly before leaning forward and pressed a couple of kisses on his temple, making the three year old giggle once more for the many times he’s had that night with his parents. Loving the attention he was getting from them.

He reached his free hand and pressed it on Y/N’s cheek when she leaned away from him with a smile on her face. Y/N then stole a look at her boyfriend who was admiring the sight before him and then looked back at their son with a smile on her face and asked him, whispering loudly like Harry did before and asked.

“Isn’t daddy beautiful, too?”

Mateo looked away from Y/N and to Harry, his smile getting wider as he looked at his daddy. His green eyes looked all over Harry’s face before nodding his head immediately and looking at Y/N. His green eyes full of excitement and happiness, he kicked his legs in excitement. Lightly kicking Harry’s hips with his shoe-covered feet, Harry not flinching from the contact since it wasn’t a hard kick from the three year old. When Mateo had his usual temper tantrums when he was in his terrible twos then that’s when he starts kicking and hitting and Y/N and Harry have to get firm on him and put him in time out.

Even though it hurts them, he has to learn that it’s not okay to hurt people when he doesn't get what he wants or his way.

“Yes, yes, yes! Daddy is bewtiful!” Mateo exclaimed, throwing his free arm up with carefree giggles leaving his mouth. Making his parents once again smile down at him at how adorable and cute he’s being. Harry's cheeks once again heated up once more from the compliment.

He's been told that he's beautiful by lots of people and had the same reaction he's having right now. However when it’s from Y/N, sometimes Mateo when Y/N tells him to do so during moments like this or other times to prove her point. And it was their special moment and their words make him happy, knowing that the two people he loves love him as much as he does. Even with a compliment that Y/N uses to make him blush.

“Thanks, bud.” Harry said, leaning down a bit and pressed a peck to the side of Mateo’s head. The three year old giggled at the compliment once again and looked at his parents once Harry pulled away from the side of Mateo’s head. His green eyes going back and forth between his mum and dad before leaning his head down on Harry’s shoulder. His eyelids closing halfway, his thumb trying to make its way into his mouth but he’s stopped by Harry pulling his arm away from his mouth.

Mateo, not throwing a fit from not being able to do what he wants, drops his arm and just closes his eyes with a sigh. He was getting tired and hopefully he’ll go to sleep during the car ride to Anne’s and stays asleep when they leave him there to go to dinner and Anne won’t have trouble with his separation anxiety throughout the entire night without them being there for him.

Mateo loves his nana so much, always wanting to go over when they have nothing to do or have something later on to do. So, he probably won’t have any problems at Anne’s house.

They stare at the toddler that was sleeping in his daddy’s arms before looking at each other, their heartbeats steadily beating quicker the longer they hold eye contact and small smiles growing on their lips. They just had so much love for each other, that the littlest amount of things that other did for the other, the littlest or biggest amounts of affection, or just this. Staring at each other with so much love and care.

Something the fans picked up on at Harry’s shows last year when he began his first tour in California. Noticing when he’d look where she was and have this shine in his green eyes when he looked at her and a smile stretching across his lips unconsciously and blew kisses to her by the end of the show. As well as Mateo, since he was with Y/N on her hip with the headphones on his head to protect his hearing from the loud instruments and Harry’s voice booming around the arena.

“So we start heading out before we’re late, like last time?” Y/N asking, joking around to the last time when they were late to a reservation at the same restaurant because Harry fell asleep in Mateo’s room in the rocking chair with a picture book on his chest and Mateo in one of his arms. Y/N knew that they weren’t going to make it that night after Mateo had a tummy ache and wouldn’t leave Harry’s side.

“Hey, leave the little man alone. His tummy was hurting. It’s not his fault, blaming his tummy.” Harry defended the sleeping toddler, making Y/N giggle softly at her boyfriends words and then awe softly when she saw him turn his head again and press a soft kiss on the side of Mateo’s head and lingered there for a second before turning his head back to give her his full attention.

“I’m sorry, bud.” Y/N cooed to the sleeping three year old, even though the three year old isn’t aware of what’s going on around him. She reached a hand out and combed her fingers through his curls, getting the knots out that formed there from getting his hair dried after getting a bath. He didn’t stir from the pull at the knots that were in his curls, like he didn’t feel it. Which he didn’t because they weren't badly knotted in his hair.

But they were hard to comb out with a comb after he woke up and they had to go somewhere in a few hours or had to catch a flight early when Y/N and Mateo would join Harry during tour since Y/N would help Sarah cooking for the band before the concert began, and Y/N didn't have to worry about who was taking care of her cafe as her best friend was in charge of making sure things were in order. She was kept updated through text and calls about how things were going at her cafe during her absence.

“Should we start going now since he’s asleep? It’s a lot easier to get him there when he’s asleep.” She asked Harry, looking away from the toddler and to her boyfriend to see what he thinks about the idea of leaving their home when their son is asleep. Harry looked down at the sleeping toddler and pressed another kiss, this time on the head of chocolate curls that sat on his head.

“Yeah, but we’ll see about him staying asleep once he sees my mum.” He answered, turning his head back to his girlfriend. Y/N nodded with a soft giggle and leaned forward and pressed a few pecks to Harry’s lips, getting a slight taste of mint gum that he was chewing earlier and vanilla chapstick he put on. And his vanilla and tobacco cologne hitting her hard now that she leaned closer to press a few pecks on his lips.

The pecks sent chills down their spines and fireworks exploding from the pecks she pressed against his lips. Even though it wasn’t a desperate hungry kiss that the two of them would usually share when the two of them are alone for when their son is down for a nap, watching the television downstairs, or just asleep. Trying to get each other out of their clothes in a rush to get intimate with each other once again.

But they were always interrupted.

Harry hummed against her lips, happy to feel her lips against his and used his free arm to wrap around her waist to pull her closer with a turn of his head and slotted her bottom lip between hers. A hum left his lips once again and then pulled away with a soft smack leaving their lips and pressed his temple against hers.

“We should stop, before we miss the reservation for another reason.” Y/N breathed out, nudging her nose against his. Wishing that they didn’t have anywhere to be, and their son was at Anne’s house so they could continue. Maybe, just maybe when they get back from dinner they could continue what they were trying to do.

Harry nodded his head with his eyes closed, taking deep breaths through his nose and mouth to calm himself down. She looked down to see a faint tint of red on his lips from her red lipstick, making her giggle. But it was cute to see him in lipstick, something that she usually does when he asks her to practice some of her makeup on him so she could see what it looks like before putting it on.

She reached up and swiped the pad of her thumb against his lips to get rid of the red pigment that was painting his lips, another giggle leaving her lips. Harry opened her eyes to see what she was doing, going crossed eyed to see what she was doing when he felt the pad of her thumb against his lips.

“You’ve got some of my lipstick on your lips.” She giggled as she continued. Harry just shrugged nonchalantly and just simply placed kisses on the pad of her thumb while maintaining eye contact with her. Making sparks shoot up through her entire body, even more and he removed the arm that was around her waist and wrapped his hand gently around her wrist as he continued to press kisses to the pad of her thumb.

God, he knows what he’s doing to her.

He then stopped and moved his head away from her thumb and stood to his full height and released her wrist. He then reached his hand up and swiped the red pigment off his lips with a teasing smirk on his face, making her look at him flabbergasted as the burn sensation returned to the lower part of her stomach.

He then lowered his hand from his lips and leaned forward once more and pressed a quick peck to her lips and stated where he was going. “I’m going to grab Mateo’s diaper bag while you gather yourself together, but don’t take too long. We don’t want to be late.”

He pressed another kiss to her lips before turning around, sending her a quick smirk before heading out their bedroom to go to Mateo’s to gather the toddler diaper bag. After he was out of sight, Y/N took deep breaths in and out to calm herself down and closed her eyes.

“Fucking tease. Fuck.” She cursed under her breath before going to gather her purse that carried a few things for herself just in case. Her thoughts went back to what just happened a few minutes ago, and every time she tried to get her mind to go to other things that moment kept popping up.

Telling her that it’s never going to go away.

The three of them head out of the door to head to Harry's car after Y/N meet Harry and a sleeping Mateo downstairs and told him that she is ready to go. Mateo lightly snored along the way to the car, a small amount of drool making its way onto the black fabric of Harry’s suit jacket. But not something to fuss about since it wasn’t a big deal, but some parents make it a big deal even though the kid can’t help it when they’re asleep.

Like how they can’t help it when they’re asleep. It’s an unconscious thing when you’re passed the fuck out. Which is why Harry just wiped the drool off with a tissue from the tissue box that was in the diaper bag that was in there just in case Mateo had a cold or had allergies and had a runny nose. And rushed inside to throw the dirty paper into the trash can before rushing out of their home and to the car to make their way to his mum’s house.

And hopefully. just hopefully. Mateo won't have a fit when they leave Anne's house to go to dinner.

Just to say; Mateo did stay asleep when they dropped him off at Anne’s house and didn’t budge an eye when he was moved onto the couch from Y/N’s arms. His favorite of paw patrol keeping him warm and his shoes off and by his diaper bag. His socks kept his little feet warm. Y/N and Harry talked to his mum for a little bit before they had to head out to their reservation.

Harry reassures Y/N, a thing he’s always had to do when they had someone watch their son for them for a few hours while they were on tour. That Mateo would be okay with his mum, that she raised him and Gemma and knows what to do. But she can’t stop worrying about their little one, it’s a motherly thing that will never go away.

Anne hugged the young woman with a kiss on the cheek for reassurance, something that Y/N appreciated from her boyfriend’s mum and her own boyfriend. It calmed her down from the reassurance she’s been given.

Overtime, it was time to leave to head to their reservation. They hugged Anne goodbye and kissed her on the cheek, to which the action was reciprocated (Harry getting more kisses on each cheek from his mother, making Y/N giggle as quietly as she could so she wouldn’t wake up the sleeping toddler on the couch they were behind).

They turned their attention to the sleeping toddler on the couch, pressing a butterfly kiss on his forehead goodbye and a soft ‘goodbye bud’. Harry let Y/N comb her fingers through Mateo’s curls for a few minutes before they headed out the door, letting Anne know the approximate time they’ll be around to pick him up tomorrow.

Wishing Anne and their son one more final goodbye before going outside the door to the restaurant.

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“Fuck it, we’re not going to make it home. I need you now.” Harry growled to Y/N, gripping her thigh tightly before pulling off the road that they always took to go home. The streetlights showed Harry tightening and untightening his jaw as he focused on the road, his other hand that was on the steering wheel tightening more and more.

His knuckles turning whiter and whiter, making Y/N surprised at how he hasn’t broken the steering wheel yet from how hard he was gripping the wheel. Yes, it is known that Harry is literally strong. Being able to lift five hundred pounds with just his upper body. And have you seen his biceps and how huge they are? They make her drool every time he’s wearing a short sleeved shirt or just shirtless after getting out of the shower, a towel loose on his hips, showing off his v-line and body that Y/N can call hers.

And don’t get her started on his hands and how veiny they get, and his rings. She might just faint from the thought alone.

This is the exact reason why they left dinner earlier than expected. All because Y/N let her desperate thoughts of her boyfriend out to him over a cup of red wine. The words that left her red painted lips made the brunette before her clutch his glass, the veins bulging out of his hands from how hard he was gripping the glass. His stare became intimidating as he continued to stare at her without saying anything.

The sight made her squeeze her legs tight to stop the throbbing from her core and the wetness to stop from seeping onto her panties. And to make it even more worse, she was Harry’s other hand falling from under the table and onto his lap. Making her think that he was going to remove the napkin that was on his lip and place it on the table so that they could leave.

But she was dead wrong when she heard him let out a relieved sigh and close his eyes and let out a quiet groan that only she and him could hear. Giving her the answer that went straight to her head.

He was palming himself through his dress pants.

He then shared his thoughts of her while doing so. How he wanted to have the sweet taste that was between her legs, how she’s probably dripping down there for him and that it’ll probably pool into his hand once he gets to have her, and how hard he is for her and that he had to take care of himself with the thoughts of her when he was out of the house.

The more and more that left his mouth made her squeeze her legs tighter and tighter to stop the wetness, but it wasn’t enough. She felt the first drop of wetness pool onto the fabric of her panties and the hazy feeling overcoming her along with the burning fire in the lower part of her belly.

And the final step of them leaving the restaurant was Harry leaning over the table to get closer to her with a lustful smirk and that familiar twinkle in his green eyes, that seemed more darker than they usually are. And he looked her up and down slowly, licking and biting his lips at certain parts of her body and then looked back into her eyes.

“You’re wet for me right now, aren’t you love. Thinking about me between your legs and giving it to you so fucking good that the only thing leaving your lips is my name. Those beautiful moans leaving your lips with either my head, fingers, or cock. I’m going to give it to you so good Y/N. So good that you won’t be able to walk the next few days.”

So, here they are. Harry pulls over to an empty parking lot of a shop that has closed down for bankruptcy and a few other reasons. Harry presses hard on the breaks, jolting the both of them from the car abruptly stopping. The tires screeched a little against the pavement. The only light being from the flickering street lights above them. The fluorescent lights flickering on and off periodically. Harry turned the car off and left the keys in the ignition, leaving them in silence except for the buzzing of the streetlights and their breathing. The two of them looked at each other, feeling the need for one another. Their bodies buzzing and the fire in their lower stomachs growing more and more.

The arousal grew more prevalent between each other's legs.

They needed each other now.

“I need you too, Harry.” Y/N breathed shakily, feeling her legs shaking from being nervous for this moment and excited. It’s been a while since they’ve been together like this intimately, besides the quickies that are short lived on tour by a phone call or a pounding on their hotel door by Mitch, Sarah, Adam, anyone that they were with because their son wanted them.

But now they’ve got the time alone together.

After those words left her mouth, it was a rush of the two of them unbuckling their seatbelts and leaned over the center console and pressed their lips together in a desperate, hungry, passionate kiss. Harry held her face in his hands while her hands held his wrist. The feel of the cold metal on her skin made her shiver at the contact, but it wasn’t her main concern right now. She felt Harry turn his head to the side to deepen the kiss and fit her bottom lip between his. She felt him open his mouth against hers and felt a lick at her bottom lip.

Y/N opened her mouth to give him entrance and she felt his tongue exploring her mouth, making her moan against his mouth and for Harry to sigh. “Fuck, come here.” He sighed against her mouth and moved his hands from her face and down to her love handles. Squeezing them, making her squeal at the action and Harry chuckle against her mouth.

“Shut up, you did that on purpose.” Y/N mumbled as she climbed over the center console with her boyfriend's help. The two of them pulled away from each other’s lips with a wet smack. With her now on his lap, Harry stared at her with an open mouth smile with flushed pink cheeks. The flushed pink traveled down his neck and down to his chest that Y/N was able to see thanks to the flickering streetlights.

“Your reaction when I do that is still funny, no matter how old it gets. And adorable.” Harry stated in a teasing tone. Making Y/N roll her eyes to get a reaction out of the man along with a heat on her cheeks from the compliment he threw in the end. God, the hold this man has on her is ungodly. But he’s so fucking beautiful and hot, at the same time of course. As well as being adorable and cute.

“Do that again and you won’t be getting it at all.” Y/N grumbled to him, situating herself on his lap. Feeling his hard cock underneath her core. Making her more desperate for him and her pussy throb with need and more of her wetness seep onto the fabric of her now ruined panties. The slight movement of her hips against his made Harry move his head back a little and his lower stomach muscles clenched a little along with his prick twitching in his boxers.

“Christ,” Harry groaned, closing his eyes briefly and squeezing her love handles once more. He peeked his eyes open, sending shivers down Y/N’s spine when she saw how darker they are from how they usually are. His chest heaving with need as well as his dick. “You’re a fucking teasing without even trying sometimes.” He groaned, sending another squeeze to her hips. He pressed his temple against hers, his heated breath seemed cold when it hit her heated cheeks.

Cooling her overheated skin down.

Y/N felt a smirk perk at the end of her lips as she nudged the end of her nose against his and closed her eyes and wandered her hands up to his hair. Running her fingers through his long curls that have grown over tour. It was hot that his hair had grown out and not as short as it was in the beginning of the tour. She enjoyed tugged on his hair when it was long when he was in One Direction, either it be when his head was in between her legs, making out, dry humping, or having sex.

Her fingers always found their way in his long chestnut curls. Tugging and tugging when Harry gave her the pleasure, she was desperate to feel. Especially when she was pregnant with Mateo in 2015 and she would travel with the band until she couldn’t anymore as she got closer to the end of her pregnancy. But during the time she was on the road, she couldn’t keep her hands off him.

Even when he was home, she couldn’t keep her hands off him. Her hormones were bouncing off the walls.

But Harry loved it and she loved it. He even wrote a few songs about her for his first solo album, of course those songs didn’t make it even though she begged him to. Several times. But he didn’t budge about putting those songs on the album. Insistent that he’s fine with the final songs that he decided to put on his first solo album.

“I know. And I love what teasing does to you. Makes you so fucking hard, Har. You touch yourself after I tease you and don’t give in to what you want do you? Especially before you had to go on stage that night in San Jose.” She asked him, moving her lips to his ear. Twirling one of her fingers around his chestnut curls. Harry shifted in his seat with a soft whine leaving his lips from her words and that exact memory she was talking about.

They were free from anything in his dressing room until it was time for him to get on stage. They were heavily making out on the couch, Y/N palming his hard length through the trousers he was wearing for the concert that night. His grown out curls were perfectly styled and he just looked so fucking hot.

As always.

And to make a long memory short, Y/N got up from the floor and sent him a teasing smile when there was a knock on the door and a voice telling Harry he's got less than five minutes to get on stage. Y/N blew him kisses and wiggled her fingers teasingly at him with the same teasing smile on her face before leaving Harry alone with his hard length in his hand to get off before he went on stage with a hard on.

“Fuck me,” Harry whimpered at the memory and felt his hard length twitch in his trousers at the memory. Fully knowing that the tip of is cock is leaking with need in his boxers and reached down and palmed himself through his trousers with his eyes closed and moaned at the touch of his hand through his trousers on his hard length. Anything to keep himself at bay, even though they can both sense that they’re both desperate for each other.

He peeked up at Y/N to see her looking at him with a desperate look, her mouth opened agape and her eyes only on his hand that was palming himself through his trousers. Her legs squeezing tightly together to stop the throbbing that was getting stronger and stronger. Thoughts of Harry between her legs, letting him taste her like that. Letting him have his favorite meal every time they were alone, or her sucking his length and getting to taste him. Either way the two of them benefit from the other’s moans and praise from the one receiving pleasure. The both of them moaning from the tug that the other gives him and the taste. Or when Harry is between her legs, his length reaching deeper in her than she’d ever imagined anyone being able to do. His fingers rubbing on her clit to get her to cum before him, telling her praises and other dirty talk to get her to finish. Promising her another baby and how he wants to see her full of his child.

Gets her to finish every time.

“God, I need you between my legs, Har. Give you the sweet taste that’s between my legs. Can feel it gathering in my panties, it keeps going and going. I’m so wet for you, H. I need you.” Y/N moaned, making the brunette moan always and palm himself rougher against his trousers.

“I wish I can taste you as well, Y/N. But when we get home, yeah? But for now, come here. Ride me, please. Need to feel you around me baby.” Harry breathed out, feeling more and more hazy with each palm.

And that’s all it takes for Y/N to crash her lips against his once more, surprising the both of them in their consciousness about how she hasn’t bruised their lips from how hard she crashed their lips together. But the two of them pushed that thought away as they continued to passionately kiss one of another, tongues exploring each other’s mouths while their hands frantically moved around the other’s body. Y/N rocking her hips against his, feeling his hard length under her hot dripping core. Harry bucking his hips up into hers to feel more of her through their clothing. The two of them moaning against each other’s mouths, Y/N’s a hundred percent sure that her wetness probably leaked through her panties and onto the black fabric on his trousers.

“Fuck, you’re gonna make me cum in these trousers before I have the chance to be inside of you.” Harry chuckled breathlessly against her lips. Y/N joined in on his laughter, her hands pressed against his tummy. Feeling his tummy moving along with his heavy breathing. His words made her core throb and clench around nothing, needing to feel his thick length inside of her and giving her the fill that she longed to fill inside of her.

“Need you feel you, Harry. Please.” Y/N pleaded to her boyfriend, to which Harry nodded. Not wanting to wait any longer, needing to feel her warm damp heat around him. Missing the feeling of her squeezing around him when they’re having sex and squeezing him afterwards. Milking him of his orgasm and pulling him closer to feel him close to her. He missed her tongue on his length when she’d be on her knees for him. Bobbing her head to pace that they’re both feeling that night.

The two of them continued kissing passionately, most quickly now, their hands resuming their hands around each other to get closer to each other. Y/N’s panties were pulled to the side and Harry’s trousers were pulled halfway down, along with his boxers. His hard length springing up and hitting his lower abdomen, twitching with need and from the cold hair. Precum leaking from the tip of his cock, prominent veins showing off just for her. The head red from the need of attention from one of them.

The sight making Y/N drool. The sight of his prick always made her drool and her juices spill more and more from her core. Y/N stared at his length in awe.

“You’re so pretty Harry and so big. Can just imagine you now stretching me out and feeling you in my tummy. Making me feel so good, being so deep inside of me.” Y/N told him breathlessly. This spurred Harry one and quickly placed his other hand behind Y/N’s head and pulled her into another desperate kiss and moved his hand between her legs. Lightly running the tips of his fingers along her wet folds and teasing them around her weeping hole.

“Fucking Christ. I was fucking right, you’re so fucking wet for me Y/N. Can’t wait to taste it when we get home. Can feel you leaking down my fingers.” Harry grunted, making the woman in his lap whimper at his words and grind her hips down to meet his fingers. To feel them inside of her.

And he did, fingering her slowly at first so she could get used to feeling his long fingers inside of her since it’s been awhile for her. Making her feel a slight pinch from the feeling and pressure of his fingers. But afterwards it felt pleasurable and amazing. Y/N was then riding Harry’s fingers while she held her fingers out for Harry to lick so she could pump his length to get him ready.

And Harry did so gladly, moaning around her fingers while she continued to moan and whimper at the feeling of his fingers reaching further inside of her than her own could ever when she’s alone. His fingers doing the ‘come hither’ motion to touch that spongy spot inside of her that he always manages to find and hit when they were together intimately. Making Y/N moan loudly when his fingers touched that spongy spot inside of her and the sight of Harry closing his eyes as he holds her wrist gently with his other hand gently. Lolling his tongue around her digits.

The sight and the feeling of his fingers made the fire in her belly grow more stronger. Harry pulled her fingers out of his mouth with a soft ‘pop’. Her digits glistened with his spit, just enough for his long hard length.

“Fuck, you’re making me so fucking wet, Har.” Y/N moaned, grinding quickly against his fingers as she lowered her hand down and grasped his hard length in her hand. Making the brunette moan and close his eyes in pleasure and lean his head back against the headrest. Pumping his fingers quickly, the two of them letting out pornographic moans and groans in the car from the pleasure that the both of them were feeling. Y/N hand pumping him quickly, pressing gently at the vein that he loved her to touch when she’s on her knees for him. And swiping the pad of her thumb against the slit of his head to collect the bead of precum that was gathering.

“I know, I can feel it, m’love. You’re so fucking wet for me, and so fucking tight clenching and sucking my fingers, for fucks sake. And your hand feels so good for me lovie. Taking care of me the way y’know I love. Gonna make me cum, gonna make me cum so fucking hard for you.” Harry whined, feeling the sweat beading along his skin and drenching his hair. Y/N as well, her makeup ruined from the sweat that was beading along her skin and hair.

The two of them became hotter and hotter from the activity that was taking place.

Y/N tried to quick the pumps of her hand against his length, feeling his length twitching in her hold and Harry’s breathing hitching and heaving quickly at the motion. Feeling his stomach muscles clench and the fire in his belly grow tighter and tighter, telling him that his orgasm was underway.

And he wasn’t ready for it. Making him reach towards her hand and grab it gently and pull it away from his throbbing length, making Y/N look at him. Her eyes frantic along with her chest heaving against the dress. Sweating dripping from the ends of her hair, which he’s sure there is sweat dripping at the end of his hair as well.

“Do-don’t want to cum just yet. Wan-wan-want to cum in you.” He panted, glancing down at her fingers coated with his spit and precum from stroking him. He pulled his fingers out from her core after feeling her walls clench around them. Coaxing them further into her as possible. This made her whine at the loss of his fingers and not being able to stroke his cock anymore.

“But I want to see you cum. Want to make you feel good, baby.” Y/N whined, fighting against Harry’s gentle hold. “Want to taste you.” Her words, for what feels like the millionth time, gave a boost to his ego and gave into the fire that was pooling into his lower stomach and made the muscles clench along with his cock twitch with need.

Harry groaned with need and looked at her with need and she returned the look. He released her wrist and reached up and cupped her cheek and caressed her cheekbone, giving her a gentle smile. Y/N leaned into his touch and blinked at him slowly, pressing a kiss to the palm of his hand.

“I know. I know, baby. And you’ll be able to when we get home, we have all the time tonight till tomorrow. You get to taste me and I get to taste you, but right now I need to be in you.” Harry heaved and leaned forward and pressed his lips against hers once again, and Y/N happily obliged.

They continued kissing, turning their heads to deepen the kiss. Y/N stood on her knees a little to lower herself onto his hard cock that Harry was holding to help guide into her. “Y’ready?” He asked against her lips. Y/N nodded with a small and quick ‘yes’ leaving her lips.

Y/N slowly lowered herself down, Harry helping guide himself into her entrance. Harry pulled away from the kiss and placed wet kisses down from her jaw to her neck, sucking along as he did so. Harry hissed against her neck as soon as he felt the tip of his cock pass the final resistance from her walls, feeling her warm wet walls squeezing his head and coaxing him in further. Making Harry groan desperately against her neck while Y/N let out a wet gasp at the feeling of his thick length stretching her walls out. Making her feel so fucking good. She reached up and carded her fingers through his sweaty curls and gripped his strands tightly. God, it feels so fucking good to have him inside her again. Once Y/N settled against Harry’s base, Harry’s hands now on her hips to help guide her against his length. Squeezing her love handles occasionally while she took her time to get used to his length since it's been awhile, they’ve had the time to take it slow.

Harry had his head pressed against her neck, still pressing wet kisses along her neck as leaving hickies behind as he moved his head.

“Y’alright? Need me to pull out? Because I can if you need me too.” He asked against her neck, tasting her salty skin as he did so. She nodded quickly with her eyes closed and squeezed against his length, loving the loud groans that left his mouth and vibrated against her neck. Letting her know that she’s making him feel good.

“I’m– I’m fine Harry, you’re just so fucking deep baby.Making me feel so fucking good already. Can feel you here.” She whined, reaching down blindly and felt around until she felt the skin of his arm and moved down til she felt his wrist. Making shivers go down Harry’s spine at the feeling of her butterfly touch of her fingertips. The words alone made the brunette groan, knowing that she felt good already but when he placed his hand where she felt him in her tummy made a louder moan, not groan, but a moan left his lips.

“Fuck me,” He moaned and pressed a sloppy kiss against the pulse of her neck. The reaction he got out of her was a light moan and a squeeze of her walls. “You’re so fucking tight around me, m’love. Fuck. Fucking squeezing me, making me feel so fucking good.” He moaned, causing her to clench around his length once again. Lowering his head so he could see him going in and out of her once she starts moving on his length.

“You’re so fucking big, baby.” She moaned before lifting herself up, taking in a shaky breath. When the tip of his cock was only inside of her, that’s when she lowered herself down. Harry’s eyes rolled in pleasure when he saw her wetness coating his length and his hard cock going inside of her. The two of them moaned in pleasure, Harry’s hand pressing against her stomach where she placed it before and then moved it to join the other on her hips to help guide her on his length. Harry thrusts up to meet her thrust.

The air between them kept getting hotter and hotter and the two of them getting more sweaty. Y/N had found the perfect pace to find the man below her, Harry guiding her. The wet sound of them meeting filled up the car as well as their moans, whines, dirty talking, wet smacks from kissing, and heavy breathing.

“Fuckin’ squeeze me again and I don’t think I’ll last. Gonna cum so hard for you.” Harry growled, pulling her into a desperate kiss once more. Y/N moaned against her lips and moved her hands from his shoulders to his jaw and cupped his face on either side of her bobbed on his lap. Feeling the coil in her belly grow closer and closer to snapping and for her to release all over his cock.

The thought made her moan louder, making Harry groan. “You sound so fucking sexy, m’love. Fuck me.”

“I am.” She responded cockily. This caused Harry to give a sharp thrust, making Y/N moan loudly against his lips and pull away to look at her boyfriend who had a cocky smile on his face. “I hate you sometimes.” She mumbled to him, making Harry laugh breathlessly at her words and pressed a kiss to her cheek.

“Well, you’re fucking me. So, I guess that you don’t hate me a lot.” He joked, moving his lips down her jaw and moving one of his hands from her hips to go between the two of them to help her get to the orgasm she needed as she continued bobbing on his length. And for him to join her afterwards. He always wanted her to cum before him. And he could tell by how she was constantly squeezing his length. And he was getting close as well by the way his stomach was tensing and his prick twitching inside of her.

Threatening to spill.

Y/N opened her mouth to let out a sarcastic laugh but instead what left her mouth was a loud moan once Harry’s thumb quickly rubbed circles at her clit. Her eyes closed tightly and buckled over in pleasure. Feeling the coil in her tummy getting close to snapping. Feeling the insane amounts of pleasure that is now coursing through her veins.

“Ha-Harry, fuck babe.” Y/N moaned, guiding his head away from her neck and to her lips to kiss him desperately as her bobs got sloppy. Squeezing his length as she did so, trying to get him close to his orgasm as well so that they could come together.

"Yeah, am I making you feel good? Are you close? Please cum for me m'love. Please, I need to feel it. Need to feel you cum around me. Feeling you squeezing around me, feeling so fucking good.” He asked, pleading towards the end and talking dirty to get her to cum. She nodded quickly to his words with a small whine and moved her head to his ear, leaving a wet kiss below his ear before whispering desperately in his ear while slowing her bobs. Squeezing his length desperately so he could cum with her. Harry closed his eyes at the feeling of the kiss that she left before pressing her lips against his ear to whisper.

“I want you to come with me, Harry. I’m so close, baby. Please come with me, I want to feel it all warm inside of me.”

This urged Harry on and sparked a fire in his lower stomach, making him hurry his thumb against her clit and quickened his thrust. Y/N wrapped her arms around his neck and let him take control. Allowing him to thrust into him so that the two of them could reach their end.

And it really only took a few more thrust and rubs on Y/N’s clit when she announced that she was going to cum and pulled him into a desperate kiss, for what feels like the millionth time that night. It took one more clench around Harry’s length and then the coil snapped and made her moan and throw her head back from her pleasure that was coursing through her veins. She released all over Harry’s cock and made her feel like she was floating from the ecstasy she felt. Her heart beating quickly against her chest as she reached her end.

She felt Harry give a few more sloppy thrust before he released into her with a loud groan and burrowed his head into her neck. Y/N moaned yet again as she felt a warmth fill her, making her smile at the familiar feeling that filled her. She moved her hands into his sweaty curls, moving them out of his face and combed her fingers through them. Pressing kisses along his temple. The two of them panting in the silence as they calmed down from their highs, Harry pressing lazily, kissing her neck along with his soft pants that cooled down her heated skin.

A few seconds later, Harry pulled away from her neck to look at her and smiled at her. His eyes now back to their natural olive green, his face sweaty as well as his sweaty dripping down the strands. Both of their chest were heaving from the activity but they were happy. Harry took in a deep breath to calm himself down as Y/N continued to comb her fingers through his hair and returned the smile.

“We need to do this again, really soon.” He breathed out, making Y/N shake her head with giggles leaving her lips. They’re definitely not doing this soon, likely will have car sex again. Just not in the front seat where there’s not much room to do what they’d like to do.

“Probably not in the front seat, not enough room. Plus I’m wearing something a little special under this dress that you’re yet to see.” She teased towards the end, seeing Harry’s eyes widened in surprise at her words and looked at her chest and down like he’s supposed to see it through her dress.

“Really? You wore something for me tonight?” He questioned, his eyes wide like a puppy. Y/N nodded her head with a giggle leaving her swollen lips and moved her hands away from his sweaty hair to his face and caressed his cheekbones, watching as Harry leaned into her touch.

“Yeah, I did. And I wanted to show you when we got home but you were in a hurry to get between me legs because you can’t keep it in your pants so I couldn’t really show you.” She joked through a breathless laugh. Making Harry whine at her words and bit at her palm lightly in retaliation.

“Well, we can still make it home for me to see it. Have all night to appreciate each other. And it’s not me who started it. It was you who did over dinner. So, yeah of course I’d want to be with you this way after you tell me your thoughts that you’ve had about.” He stated. Y/N pushed his shoulder playfully with one of her hands that she moved away from his face. Harry laughed along with her.

“Well, if you want to see it. You better let me get in my seat and get ourselves back together so we can get going.” Y/N stated, making Harry nod to her words and allowing her to get off his lap. The two of them whining at Harry’s length leaving her center, Y/N feeling empty and Harry missing her warmth and tightness. Afterwards Y/N and Harry got dressed once again (Y/N just moved her panties over her core while Harry pulled his trousers and boxers up, buckling his belt). After that Harry started the car and the two of them were on their way home.

And after they did get home, they did have multiple rounds of sex. In the living room, kitchen, their bedroom, and the bathroom when they were getting a shower for the night. Both of them getting to do what they wanted to do that they weren't able to do in the car. Both of them got to taste each other, take control. All those rounds having amazing aftercare and pillow talk afterwards.

And Harry did appreciate the lingerie piece Y/N had on for him. He really appreciated it. The proof being the stain on his boxers when he caught sight of it. And pictures on his phone that he took to have one the lonely night when she was able to be there with him.

They stayed up late talking till they both equally fell asleep. Harry spooning Y/N with his tattooed arm tightly under her bare breast, one hand on one of her breasts. One of Y/N's hands over his and the other under her pillow.

The two of them slept with smiles on their faces.

The excitement to see Mateo tomorrow and to hear his squeals to see his parents after being a night apart. Even though they appreciate the night they’ve been given with intimacy, when the high of that was over and they woke up the following morning. They missed their son and were ready to go pick him up so they could spend the day with him.

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#harry styles #harry x reader #harry styles x reader #harry styles x oc #harry styles x y/n #harry styles x you #harry styles reader insert #harry styles one shot #harry styles imagine #harry styles fanfiction #harry styles fanfic #harry styles fic #harry styles fluff #harry styles smut #harry styles writing #harry styles fic rec #harry styles fic recommendation #harry styles masterlist #harry styles love on tour #dadrry #dad!harry #boyfriendrry #boyfriend!harry

[godfrey-the-chaos-duck]

Alastor’s hair is like Dick van dyke’s accent for bert in Mary poppins. It’s objectively awful, but like memorably awful, to the point where it’s almost integral to his character where it’s hard to imagine him without it.

Like when they did the Mary poppins sequel sixty whatever years later and had Lin Manuel Miranda play Bert 2.0 they also had him do a shifty cockney accent that wasn’t actually shitty because they had to make it intentionally shitty because they need to live up to the original shitty accent.

like imagine if they did a Hazbin live action remake for some godforsaken reason and they have to make the wig (oh who am I kidding they’ll just CGI it in) shitty on purpose or else people will complain.

and because this is also the worst timeline, James Cordon is playing Alastor.

you know what fuck you (james cordens your alastor)

A Hazbin Live Action would be a TERRIBLE FUCKING IDEA for the following reasons

• The FuckAss Bob

• Husk would look like he just stepped off the set of Broadway's Cats - or worse, the film version

• Follow up: A lot of the show's charm comes from the out-there character design which just Would Not Work IRL. Like!! Sir Pentious with a CGI tail comped onto a human body? FUCK NOOOOOO

• Live action remakes (at least in my experience of them) have a DIRE track record for sucking the life and soul out of the source material

The only time I would accept it is if it was a series of vignette style mini episodes about the Sinner characters while they were alive (fuck, that would actually be so cool)

#the chaos duck has spoken #hazbin hotel #chaos duck answers

[eightdoctor]

please elaborate on the Paul films you think are good (I’m assuming Withnail is one of them lol)

hello thank you for the ask!! i always love getting them :3 but yeah upon looking at pauls filmography ive realized ive seen wayyy more of his tv stuff than his films (most of which are kinda just really bad but made good by the fact i get to look at him) and i think his tv stuff is usually way better than his movies so im just gonna go through all the movies ive seen. with him

i should note im literally mostly ranking these on how paul llooks in them. because i watched these during quarantine and its all a blur

withnail and i <- literally my favorite film of all time i can quote the whole thing. i watch it in my head when im bored. it changed me irrevocably. i love it and also paul is justsuch a wet sopping pathetic sexy beast in it

paper mask <- ok i did like this one. it's kind of insane and an entertaining watch and it's one of his movies that ive actually seen multiple times. paul plays the banjo and sings in it a bit and he's also really cute in his little outfits while committing medical malpractice and identity theft

the doctor who movie <- you already fucking know what i think of this one baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the biographer <- oohhhh he's wearing glasses...... and a cute sweater.........i found this one interesting enough. i think

hotel! <- blantant fucking airplane! ripoff but still kind of really funny in my opinion if you like that sort of humor. peter capaldi is also in here

the rainbow <- isn't good but you get to see his bare ass and watch him run naked in a field so that has to count for something i suppose. i also think it has his first ever sex scene in it so it's funny to watch

dealers: this one is about the stock market and i dont remember shit from it but i sure did watch it !!!!!!! but hes a little business boy in a little business suit and even wears a turtleneck

catherine the great: this one is only for the most skilled paul mcgann watchers as his brothers are in it and literally i can't tell them the fuck apart. and i dont remember anything in it except paul has a scar (hot)

lesbian vampire killers <- this fucking sucks. james corden is in it. it's supposed to be a comedy but none of it is funny except for the parts with paul :)

the monk: not good in the slightest but he has a tonsure which is hilarious. to me

downtime: it's fine i think. im putting it last because i cant even remember what he looked like in it

#IDK IF THIS IS WHAT YOU WANTED BUT #too bad ive already written it all out and im posting it #alexlifesonofficial #paul mcgann

[adultswim2021]

Xavier: Renegade Angel #19: “Damnesia You” | April 10, 2009 - 12:15AM | S02E09

This was just so great, man. I loved this so much. I don’t even want to review this all that much. Fuck it! I won’t! There have been a bunch of special episodes lately. The Racist one! The one-long-sketch one! This one! This one starts off like Damnesia Vu, with Xavier in the room with all them colored doors. He’s in some kind of mind-palace, if you’ll recall. In this one the doors lead to different viewer-submitted home-made versions of Xavier: Renegade Angel. Some of them are animated (both traditionally and not), and some of them are live-action, and some of them are a mix of both. 

A lot of the people and voices and styles seem vaguely familiar, at least to me. David Dineen-Porter is a guy I’ve seen perform comedy, and he is way brilliant. I read something on Reddit saying one of the guy’s is shmorky. I don’t actually know who shmorky is except for the fact that people say his name while grimacing and lowering their head in prayer. I googled it: it turns out he was involved in a “no bueno” situation. AHHH!!!

The episode takes the fan submissions and lets them play, sometimes. Sometimes the editors remix the entities a bit, which is nice of them.

Rather than talk about the content of the episode I am just gonna say this: I got high as fuck before watching it because it’s snowing outside, and that’s a good reason to use marijuana at 3PM. It probably helped me watch this three times, which I did. I watched it twice on the Adult Swim app, but the second time I pressed play was a mistake, and I just let it roll. “Roll that beautiful bean footage” I should have said.

The third time I watched it on DVD because I couldn’t identify the screengrab from shmorky’s cartoon, which I wanted to identify out of morbid curiosity, and the Adult Swim Roku app sucks for if you want to pause the episode. It sucks if you want to watch the last ten seconds of the episode without the screen dimming and being covered up by a big thumbnail of the next show in the autoplay, even if the credits are rolling over the final moments of the story. It fucking blows. 

I broke out the DVD just so I could pause it properly and read the names of the entries. I made a list of all of them here, because I don’t think there’s a list of them online anywhere, and that seems valuable, maybe.

The only other guy I actually remember here is David Dineen-Porter, who I’ve seen perform comedy and thought was brilliant. His IMDB shows that he wrote on the James Corden show. I hope he made an obscene amount of money and is currently buying lots of guns with it (I mean this nicely). 

Also, I found a link to every entry on it’s own. 

Grant “Manfred” Duffrin - Xavier Lends a Helping Hand Eric “Emotikkkon” Binmoeller - Meerkats David Dineen-[“] Porter: Self the Eye the Sees The Cream Within Shelby A. Hohl - As Above So Below Andrew De“hole”Young - Prism Jay Z. Yum David “He” Health - Gazzavier Renegade Angel Goes Up A Mountain Chiyoung “2:29” Lee DDS - Catch They Neighbor Robert “t S”mith - Omnippletence/The Phone Call Colyn “Bynumb” Emery - Art What Art Thou Dave “Da Grave Slave” Kelly - Xavier Looks Behind His Eye Amy “Peanut butter” Warner - Dog Eats Ketchup (couldn't find) John “Bobby ‘the ‘der’ Sanch’ Sanchez” Santos - Sueo Mojado Jason Dorris - Portly “n’ Jelly” Porthole Bo “Bikey” Thrice - Superhole Shuffle

Also: Those CLOSING CREDITS! A friend of mine told me to look out for them, and I said "okay".

MAIL BAG:

the cinco brothers are electric. they should bring them back and let them tell more stories about their lives.

The Sinko Brothers are in jail for nasty crimes and I hope they stay there. This thought is crude. Shame on you

#adultswim2021 #adult swim #xavier renegade angel

[glame]

summary : you and Jack broke up in end of 2021 and you isolated yourself from the America life. didnt walk for any brand or didnt appear on any campaign, advertisement. finally you got out of your shell and guest to the James Corden.

A/N : nothing much.

while Urban changing chanels to watching something interesting in the middle of midnight Jack called him from the kitchen and CBS is on on the TV. he didnt mind. he didnt even care what was on TV and went to the kitchen for Jack and some snacks of course. meanwhile the advertisements ended and James Corden showed up, opened the show and invited the worlds most paid model, you. that moment when your name told by him Jack heard him and your voice. Urban and him looked each other.

''is this a halusination or am i hearing Y/N?'' he asked his best friend.

Urban looked to the TV from the kitchen. ''dude she is on James Corden.''

''no way!'' he got out from kitchen and sat the couch in front of the TV.

''Jack just shut it down youre gonna text or call her again when it ends.'' Urban scoofed.

''no! she didnt even post anything anywhere and now shes on TV. again. i have to watch this.''

''Jack cmon! youre gonna go insane. just leave her and leave yourself. you said you hate her. its ridiciolous.'' Urban knows what is gonna happen, this episode is gonna drive him insane and hes gonna try to reach you and you two gonna fight… same old shit.

''why the fuck wouldnt i watch her? whole world would watch her but me. no. no way. i moved on. nothings gonna happen after this show. trust me Urb.''

''im not gonna save your ass from anyone. know it. do what you do.'' he sat on the couch.

as they were fighting you and James talked a little.

''we thought we lost you. like you bored all of the things and run away. dont blaming youre in this celebrity life since you were a baby.''

''yeah, 2022 wasnt the best year for me.'' you laughed. ''i had a lot.''

''yeah we missed you. your first appear since 2021's end, right?'' James asked.

''i choose you for this.'' you smiled.

''can you tell us, what did you do when you were away?'' of course he knows the reason.

''i was awful actually.'' you laughed again. ''everywhere felt im not for there. LA, NYC… i got houses in there but it didnt feel right. i went to Italy. my family. my dads have a farm in there… yeah, i can say farm. huge area. seaside. i had sea. literally. they supported me. we did farm thingz. horses, plants, flowers, veggies and fruits. swam. their friends, my friends. late night swims, crystals, games, fashion shows, i helped them for designing. it was such an isolation.'' you smiled. ''some friends came for concerts. you know Marco and Christian are the best dads you can ever have!'' you blowed kisses to the air. referrancing to your dads.

''but you turn into an alcoholic and a smoker.'' James laughed and screamed.

''no!-'' you were smirking suddenly missed these days.

''i heard you smoked ten joints in a day!'' he was surprised.

''over ten actually. but im doing better. two or maybe three is enough right now. and alcohol was like a water. specially if your best friend has a tequila brand!'' you screamed. ''yeah, but dont put yourselves on any more stress babies, not worth to your mental health.'' you took a sip of the coffe.

''where are you staying right now? youre not homeless, right?'' James laughed hard.

''thanks God, no. California. after farm life NYC is so hard. at least i have a pool and a big ass garden to throw parties.''

''yeah, your recent parties. we saw someone different than your usual friends. we know you have a bond with Hadids, Jenners, Kardashians, Biebers, other models and singers but Michael B Jordan. and you looked pretty close.'' you blushed. ''oh, i can see now. youre blushing!''

''i am not!'' you laughed.

''oh really?'' he laughed and yelled. ''we saw dances, photos, videos, sharing the drinks, feeding each other. what are you gonna say that?'' yeah, it made you blush again.

''i have new people around me and thats right but you cant catch me James Corden.'' you winked and James hardly laughed.

''in your dreams Y/N… in your dreams.''

''friend of a friend. the new people youll se around me are friend of a friend. so you can call them Y/N's new friends.''

''except Michael, include Michael?'' James asked.

''he is my biggest new friend. you know.''

''what the fuck Urb she is fucking actors now?'' hes breathing from his nose.

''it has been a year and a half Jack. of course she moved on like you.''

''yeah. i moved on.'' he mumbled. but he didnt move on. its a lie.

''then why you act like you dont want her to move on?'' it was obvious. Jack always make movements like he dont want you to move on. well, he doesnt want you to move on. he wants to be the one who move on.

''im not acting like that. fuck. i want her. i want her since we broke up.'' Jack ate a few grape. ''when she found someone?''

''when you were trying to proof the whole world that you moved on her. but probably she didnt even see them.''

#jack harlow x reader #jack harlow imagines #jack harlow #jackman thomas harlow #jack harlow fic

[twopoppies]

Kanye West is crazy and I usually don't pay no mind to his blabbering but what he said recently about every famous person having a zionist in their contract I believe 100 percent. I'm kinda mad at Harry for not speaking up on this. I know he rarelly does talk about any social issues and I never minded that and would defend him in front of holier-than-thou stan twitter that wants to cancel him for breathing every 5 days but this is like, the only situation where the only thing you can do is post and the palestinians are actively asking you to do it because they can't. He said once in an interview that he's waiting to find one thing that's gonna be his thing to be passionate about. Idk isn't an ongoing genocide a good reason to start... And I'm saying I'm really not looking at Harry Styles for moral guidance or expecting him to be super informed or an activist. But decades from now we're gonna look at this the way we look at the holocaust and wonder how did this happen. Does he really want to stay neutral on this... And he has a lot of friends who are zionists (Winston) or that signed that stupid petition in defense of Israel (Corden, Irving, Olivia)... History won't treat him well if he stays silent as one of the most influental people in the world right now. And the thing is I love him to death and I know he doesn't have a single evil bone in his body. But he is extremely privileged, uninformed, surounded by zionist friends, with whom he is, from what I've observed, very naive. But he won't be given much grace for his silence. At the end of the day it's everyone's own responsibility to educate themselves. He's a 30 year old man with internet access. Because I think what Kanye said is true I'm kinda giving him the benefit of the doubt. But I'm not sure that history will. Or that he deserves it.

Kanye isn’t only crazy, he’s insanely anti-Semitic. Basically he’s blathering on about the old nonsense about “the evil Jews” controlling Hollywood. So he can just fuck off.

I agree with you that Harry is privileged and likely very uninformed on political issues like this one and yes, he’s in a rather complicated spot because he’s very closely affiliated with Irving Azoff who is clearly supporting Israel. I don’t know if Irving/Ben/James are the only ones he’s getting information from, though. I hope not.

I know his fans want him to speak out, and I know that to us it seems like a no-brainer. But, I don’t know if he will make any clear kind of pro-Palestinian statement. I don’t think that means that he supports Israel, but what it ultimately does is make him look like he does and makes it look as though his business relationships are his priority.

At the same time, I really do understand that he may be feeling caught between a rock and a hard place and that keeping out of it is the best option (as most celebrities do in terms of politics). And I understand how complicated it can be as a “brand” to take a stance when your business partners are on the other side of an issue. He’s far from the only celebrity who hasn’t said anything. And I understand that not everyone thinks public displays of activism are as valid as boots on the grounds/money where you mouth is activism. But I can see what a difference people speaking up has made in helping the general public see how awful things are (which, hopefully means there will be political pressure to help the people of Palestine).

Personally, I don’t think history is going to focus on what Harry Styles did or didn’t say, and I don’t like the idea of leveraging threats to one’s legacy. But I do understand what you’re saying and that you’d like to know he’s done something positive in this situation. I truly don’t have an answer for you. I feel very overwhelmed by the whole thing.

More here

#Harry and politics

[misskathcake]

Should Bunny Keep Driving?

Author's note 💌

There's just no way that my creative juices would flow if it didn't contain my newest (and concerning) Formula 1 obsession. Since I'm not blessed with Harry Styles F1 content, I decided to bring F1 to my Harry Styles universe because I'm quite delusional like that 😂

This surely won't be the last F1 AU I'd be composing, so I kindly suggest you also avail my F1 fangirl starter pack if you want to fully join me in this wild ride: read the entire Dirty Air Series by Lauren Asher, and binge seasons 1-4 of Drive To Survive. But unlike me, please don't do all that in a single month 🙈

Anyway, enough rambling on my end. I hope you lovelies enjoy this one because it certainly did wonders to my mental well-being. It reminded me why writing is a passion I could always find solace in, no matter the rough and dull moments life inevitably brings my way. I could only hope this brings some brightness to someone out there, happy reading! 🥰🧡🏎️

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There’s a lot to be said about my profession as a Formula 1 driver. Many would say I’m living the bachelor dream: driving fast cars on most weekends of the year, with money and women free-flowing my way like every drop of champagne being popped on the podium. Some - like my sweet dear mother - would prefer to call me a ‘reckless adrenaline junkie’: being strapped on a death vehicle for a living is worth no benefit; surely an occupation only lunatics will take. All other versions of such claims I have heard, but one I haven’t is the assumption that Formula 1 drivers are inept in basic navigation.

Well thank fuck no tabloid or social media post has said anything about that, or there’s no denying I would be the laughing butt of the joke for the rest of this season. I could already picture it, in bold and underlined letters: ‘Harry Styles, McLaren F1 team’s Golden Boy is found lost in the streets of Italy. Can he make it back in time for the Imola Grand Prix?’

Well looking at the way the doors of my bright orange vehicle had remained stuck towards the roof, there’s no telling that I can actually make it to free practice tomorrow. All I had wanted was to have this day off from any racing obligation, to enjoy the brightness of Emilia Romania, Italy even for just this single day. 

What had I told my teammate Nick Grimshaw when I turned down his idea of golfing to make plans for my own today? Oh, that I ‘wanted to get lost in the beauty of an Italian summer.’ Now isn’t that bloody fucking ironic as I’m standing here under the heat of the blazing Italian summer sun, my too hightech for my own good sportscar failing me in God knows where, when all I wanted was to go to this specific beach where I can sit on the smooth sand and peacefully watch the sunset.

“So much for spending billions on car upgrades,” I walked my way back into the interior of the car, trying my best to figure out what was wrong with the technological system that had caused the engine to stop at the side of this random Italian street. 

I’m not one to feel regret on a daily basis, choosing to believe that everyone should be kinder to themselves, and that giving yourself a hard time for something that occurred in the past won’t help anything. Well in this scenario, I can’t help but feel even just a smidge of regret when James Corden, McLaren’s CEO, my friend and ultimately my boss, had first offered me to use a vintage McLaren on my solo Italian trip today. Knowing how much of a grandpa I can be with today’s rapid technological development, I feel like an absolute bloody idiot for not agreeing to that, and instead chose this green energy-powered vehicle that looks more like a worthless pile of steel and metal.

Realizing that my lack of knowledge with advanced cars had not been strengthened in the gap between this morning and right now, I sighed for the nth time this afternoon and stepped-out of the car once more. Standing at the side of the street, I tilted my head to look at the immaculate crimson and yellow Italian homes, noticing in dismay that it’s backdrop of the sun will start to set in about an hour from now.

With nothing left to do but actually call for help, I tried to reason with my stubborn and prideful self that calling for the towing company does not negatively affect my competency as a racing driver. Only that it does. I know deep inside that even just a tiny bit, it does say something about my lack of initiative in furthering my knowledge in my field. But I know that situation needs to be rectified after I get myself out of this current dilemma.

“Harry, you’re no good alone.” I found myself saying to no one in particular but myself, definitely learning a thing or two about accepting your own flaws as a good character development thanks to my older sister. Accompanied by those words of conviction physically ringing in my ears, I pulled out my phone, ready to make the dreaded call of defeat.

Except she arrived just in time to halt my actions.

She, being a blonde girl about my age, riding a bike while singing along to some pop song I heard my friend Niall singing in the shower, that particular time we flew over together for the Monaco Grand Prix. But it’s not that specific song that had ceased my movements. It’s her bright yellow bag slung to her shoulder, the color a perfect match to the colorful bikini top she was wearing under some denim dungarees. While being under the rays of the Italian sun, she just looked so golden.

I don’t know how long I had stood there like a fool just staring at her glowing presence, but I was brought back to my wits when the music stopped playing. In a blink, I noticed that the girl had halted her bike just in-front of my broken car, frowning in my direction.

“Hey, are you okay?” She called out, even her voice sounded so bright in my ears I’m starting to wonder if this woman is sunshine personified.

“I’m good.” was my reply like the aforementioned damn fool that I was that not only didn’t know how to operate the newest models of sports cars, but apparently, I also can’t find my words when talking to gorgeous and kind strangers.

She didn’t seem to believe my words, head tilted in curiosity. She side-stepped from the seat of her bike and walked to stand in front of me at the side of the street. With about two feet separating us, she placed both of her hands on her waist.

“I’m pretty sure we’re both British considering your accent,” she offered me a kind smile, “and back from where I’m from in England, people standing on the side of the barest of streets with an open car a few feet away from them, usually doesn’t mean the person is doing well. But that’s just me,” she shrugged, “I don’t know how things are from your part of England.”

Call me entitled or jaded, but it’s been a long time that someone aside from my close circle had been at ease or even just possessed the confidence to tease me. So long in fact that I let out a snort from her words, followed directly by a bubble of laughter that has got me bent in half, with my hands placed on my knees for support. All the while, this funny lady continued to stand just a few feet away from me like my absolute out-of-the-blue guffawing hadn’t alerted her that I was nuts.

“You’re definitely not okay then,” confirming my belief, she chuckled along in my sudden fit of insanity.

“I’m sorry, so sorry,” I straightened up, remembering my manners. “It’s just been a long time since I heard something that funny at my expense and said directly to my face. And, it’s just been a long day.” My eyes travel unwillingly to my hopeless vehicle, a sigh leaving my smiling lips upon remembering the task I was supposed to do.

I noticed her own eyes following the trail of my own, her whistle of appreciation to what she saw is not lost in my ears. “You’re definitely having a long day if you got this baby to cruise around Italy with.”

Sounds to me like she's a car enthusiast. And why that interests me, I don’t know. “Not long enough I believe, since the baby stopped here and barely even crawled.”

My humor somehow landed on her, the sides of her lips curving when she looked back at me. “You’re quite funny,” the sincerity in her tone made me return her smile. “And I’m not just saying that because you just laughed like you were losing it a few seconds back. But what I find way more hilarious is how a McLaren racing driver like yourself, gets stuck in the middle of nowhere-Imola like you don’t know how to operate the newest release of your company’s top of the line sportscar campaign.”

So, she knew who I was…of course she knew who I was if I decided to parade around Imola in the bright orange monstrosity of a car, while wearing my infamous bright colored outfits complete with glitter details of an embroidered strawberry on the breast of my Gucci tee. It’s not the first nor last time people recognized me randomly on international streets, but it surely is a novel occurrence for me to feel bashful under her knowing gaze.

I shrugged my shoulders, feeling my ears pinken at the realization she knew who I was under this current unfavorable circumstance. “I wish I could say my mechanical skills in fixing cars came as natural as my humor does. But I am afraid I’m just a useless F1 racer who only operates on adrenaline.”

The woman lifted a brow in amusement, “And you don’t have that right now because your car stopped working?”

“Exactly!” I pointed at her like I can’t believe she understood my words, “The car isn’t moving so I don’t have adrenaline to properly function like a human being. I’m basically a damsel in distress right now just waiting for my pit crew to come rescue me.”

And as if a shining personality isn’t enough to blind me, the girl surprises me when she suggests the unthinkable: “Then let’s fix it! What’s exactly broken so we know what to target?” Then she began to point-out different parts of the car that only true car enthusiasts take time to know about. I guess that answers my earlier question if she was into cars; but that doesn’t really help anything when she lost me at her first suggestion.

She probably noticed I remained standing there looking at her like she was speaking a different language, because she stopped in the middle of her sentence and gave me her own bashful look. “I’m sorry, I probably creeped you out just rambling like that without introducing myself. I’m Sophia, by the way.”

Mesmerized by her character, I met her outstretched palm and returned her fairly firm shake. “I’m Harry, nice to meet you, Sophia.” 

“You too,” she nodded, “it’s great to meet you too, I mean. I know we don’t really know each other, but I was serious about helping you fix your car.”

And I don’t know what it is in my gut that told me she really meant her word, but the women in my life had always told me to trust my intuition. And right now, my intuition is telling me to accept Sophia’s unbridled kindness. “And I was also being truthful that I don’t know my way around these high-tech cars unlike I do with vintage ones. So, I can’t really answer your list of questions earlier. But feel free to check the car out yourself.”

I watched as Sophia just stood there mimicking my static stance from earlier, my words seeming not to register in her mind like I thought it would. “Are you serious?” She asked, her blue orbs widening when I nodded my head with conviction.

“This baby is all yours.” I motioned with my hands for her to enter the car, my grin of fondness making its reappearance when Sophia let out a squeal of uncontained excitement as she entered the vehicle. I followed right after her when she called for my name. Based solely on my intuition and her earlier encyclopedia worthy car knowledge, I was fully content to give her full reins to analyze the problem. But when she turned to look at me from her position at the driver’s seat, still asking for my help, I nodded without a second thought.

In my defense, she said the word ‘please’, a pout I’ve come to alarmingly realize I couldn’t resist painted on her lips. Those two on Sophia are a lethal combo. I just knew straight ahead that if she used that more frequently around me, I was done for and she can basically get anything she wanted from me.

Though, something tells me Sophia isn’t that type of person to take advantage of others. Not in the way she patiently asked me questions about the car; questions that were genuinely similar to those my mechanics have asked me during race debriefs. And call me a narcissist all you want, but this occupation of mine with all its glitz and glamorous perks, also comes with undeniable faults that a regular person with a nine-to-five job won’t probably bear to understand.

Not once did Sophia deter our conversation with anything else than strictly being the possible ailments of my car. If it was anyone else in her position with less than good intentions that she clearly exhibits, I’d for sure be feeling extremely uncomfortable right now. It’s very rare for strangers to not have any ulterior motives when it comes to interacting with me, and my usually guarded heart feels a sense of relief that Sophia seems to be one of the very few that I can learn to trust. But hey, I am a Formula 1 driver who rides spaceship-like vehicles that operate on 300 kmph on the regular, who says I’m still right on the head with my perception of reality?

I’m learning to trust humanity more though. My mum and Gem had made it pretty clear that my happiness on the outside and guarded on the inside persona, will just make me lonely in the long-run. I needed a companion in life like the both of them had found in their partners. And to be honest, I’m done feeling like a lone wolf too, that’s why at the start of this year’s season I had made a personal vow to actually commit in allowing myself to trust the dark and bleak society I have come to be wary of. It would allow me to find the genuine ones no matter how miniscule they may come nowadays.

I’m officially calling this interaction with Sophia as me trying; trying to connect with new people while using a pair of fresh eyes that hold no judgment. There’s nothing wrong with befriending beautiful strangers in a random street somewhere in Imola; especially if they’re here acting as my knight in shining yellow handbag. 

“I suggest we don’t touch anything.” Sophia let out after her whole list-down of questions she asked me about the possible problems of my car.

“What?” I was stunned at her change of perspective, my brows furrowing in confusion. “What do you mean let’s not touch anything? It seems to me seconds ago that you know your way with cars much more than me, or any of the current drivers on the grid.”

My statement made her giggle, the crinkles of her eyes catching my gaze like the sound of her laugh isn’t adorable enough to attract all of my attention. “I’d take that as a compliment since you seem like an honest person. But regardless of how much of a car encyclopedia I am, that still doesn’t qualify me from actually breaking apart this bloody expensive car.”

“Then why’d you ask me all those things then?”

“Maybe because I wanted to see for myself if you’re really a racer who knows no shit about cars, or you were just waiting to impress me with all your overflowing knowledge about it like a stereotypical testosterone-ego filled motorsport driver.”

I snorted unattractively, enthralled by her honest words despite its teasing tone. “I hope I didn’t disappoint then, that I’m not your typical racing driver. That I’m really just a big fraud of my kind who’s basically a big disgrace in our industry since I know close to nothing about the thing that makes my job work in the first place.”

I don’t know what kind of reaction I was waiting for, but it certainly wasn’t her loud laughter echoing around the quiet Italian street, nor the way her hand had comfortably, almost mindlessly, pushed me lightly on my shoulders like it’s for her own good that I should stop making these jokes about myself. I liked it though, her reaction. Far too much.

“Well, I’m hoping this isn’t your attempt at running away from the Imola grand prix this weekend, considering I don’t think you’re that bad of a driver regardless if you don’t know how to properly fix one.” Sophia proceeded to give me a carefree smile, as if she hadn’t just complimented me for the first time.

And how I felt like preening at noting such a random thing, I have no idea. It seems to be the overall theme for my afternoon. “Sadly, no. My boss wouldn’t have lent me this car if he had heard any inklings that I was going rogue for an Italian holiday, no matter how lovely that sounds now.”

I saw the interest flash in her eyes after that, “So if you’re not on the run from your racing obligations, then what’s so pressing you had to drive a car you barely know anything about?”

I didn’t see any harm in sharing my plans, especially when my current situation makes it seem more like canceled plans now that I’ll only be able to accomplish the next time I visit Emilia Romania. I tried to keep my disappointment at the minimum when I told her.

“Nothing that special, actually. You see, today’s my only free day from any race or media stuff so I just wanted to head to this specific beach and watch the sunset. Just to have some time for me, to be one with the peace and quiet of the ocean.”

I am unsure what she sees in my expression after I had said that, but one look at Sophia made me believe I did a piss poor job at concealing displeasure. A frown is etched on her forehead, corners of her lips turned downwards, her eyes wide with sympathy dancing in her irises.

That look on her face stunned me on my seat once again. I decided that I wanted to remove that saddened look on her face, her face that should always be full of life and brightness like the sunshine that she is. But more importantly, what had gotten me dazed like an utter fool being hit unknowingly by cupid’s arrow, is this sudden realization that had completely turned my perspective of this entire situation in another fucking direction.

How do you tell I woman you met barely an hour ago, a woman as charming, kind, honest, and simply a compelling woman like Sophia, that I don’t give a single fuck about the sunset and the beach anymore when I’m content just staring at her pools of ocean blue? That her aura is enough and more to compete with a stunning Italian sunset?

But before I could even act more like a fool in front of her by trying to articulate those gobsmacking thoughts of pure sappiness and vulnerability all in one, Sophia beats me to it by asking me her own question.

“What’s your thoughts on just calling someone to fix your car? And while they’re doing that task, you and I head together to that beach you were keen to go to, watch the sunset, and even eat some gelato while doing all that. You game?”

🌻🌻🌻

What the actual bloody fuck was I doing?

Did I seriously just instruct a Formula 1 driver on what to do with his car while simultaneously making plans with him like we’re suddenly best friends who go on regular beach trips and watch sunsets together? More importantly, did I just unknowingly, idiotically, ask him to get some gelato with me? Because with my barely functioning social skills, that’s basically as tangible as a first date as I can get.

What the actual fuck. This is Harry Styles we’re talking about. Regardless if I’m a Red Bull girl at heart, this man I just talked my mouth off to is popularly called, McLaren's Golden Boy: the one who will win the historic team another Constructors Championship title and the World Driver’s Championship, after more than a decade of being stuck in the midfield. I appreciate talent when I see one, and Jesus did I ever see pure and raw talent in this man’s season last year. Seriously, if the new car regulations didn’t take place this year, I bet my entire handbag collection that he’ll already be competing for those titles alongside Red Bull and Ferrari like it’s as easy as breathing air.

Speaking of air, I think I just lost my own supply when my question was left unanswered, hanging in the air that I couldn’t seem to breathe, unwanted and so out of place. To top it all off, Harry graced me with his ‘thinking face’ that I’ve seen in various media, sporting a very appealing pout on his lips. Aside from my appreciation of racing abilities, I am also very grateful for the F1 driver’s physical assets. I have eyes, alright? There’s no denying that Harry’s curls, plump pink lips, doe-wide green orbs - and don’t even get me started on the dimples on his cheeks - more than just appeals to my ovaries.

In a nutshell: his fucking hot and adorable in one whole kind and crazy package.

But there’s no time to think of that. I shook my head mentally to get rid of those unhelpful thoughts and tried to find my words on how to salvage this situation and overall, my pride. I don’t want to be that pitiful girl who tells her nonna that time she was turned down by a famous racing driver because she accidentally made plans with him. She’s just not going to be that girl, and surprisingly, it seems like Harry also shares the same thoughts.

“If I agreed to this, would you allow me to choose your gelato flavor for you?” Harry’s reply was certainly not the kind of answer I thought I would receive. I was so intent that he would kindly reject me, that when his words were no way near that direction, I couldn’t contain the laughter of unadulterated glee and surprise to leave my lips.

“I’ve certainly never trusted anyone to choose my gelato flavor for me. But considering how you trusted me in fixing your car, I don’t see what’s wrong in reciprocating your confidence in my character.”

If I wasn’t already fazed by his presence alone, Harry continues to further astound me on my seat when the craters on his cheeks willingly presented themselves in my view. “Then let’s go get those gelatos!” he even clapped his hand like an excited, overgrown child. “Can you actually believe that I’ve been in Italy for more than 24 hours already and I still haven’t gotten a scoop of gelato?”

I gasped in faux bewilderment, “That is simply unfathomable, Harry! We should definitely take quick measures to fix that and put some gelato in you, like a proper Italian experience.”

And the next thing I knew we were both heading out of his car, walking side by side with my bike in our middle, heading to the gelato parlor I knew was somewhere near the beach he had planned to go to. Majority of the time we had walked, Harry was on the phone making a call to his team, following my request of allowing them to fix whatever the problem was instead of my inexperienced hands. By the time his call ended, we already reached our destination.

“After you.” The gentleman that Harry is notoriously known to be, had the door opened for me with his hand motioning that I enter first before him. I returned his dimpled smile while saying my thanks, allowing him to stand beside me afterwards as we viewed the different gelato flavors on the glass freezer in front of us.

I turned to him with an encouraging smile. “I think this is the time where you pick my ice cream flavor for me, which will once and for all tell me who you really are as a person.”

A glint of challenge began to flicker on his emerald gems. “Is that so? Are you suggesting that if I pick a certain flavor, it would dictate if you still want to be my friend or not?”

Harry’s question had almost gotten me to do a double-take, to ask him to repeat his words slower. Because surely, this charming, trusting and kind influential man didn’t just imply that he wanted to be my friend. But that lightness depicted on his grinning face didn’t scream deceit nor contained any ounce of joking. He looked sincere. I can go even farther and say there’s an air of hope laced underneath his infectious smile.

I found confidence in whatever it was I saw before me, so I returned his smile, allowing him to see that whatever gelato flavor he chose, I’d still want to see where this interaction goes. Because fuck what gelato flavor he choses when we all know I’d be more than pleased in just being in silence with this wonderfully odd man, than finding the time to fuss over what I’m eating. And that’s a first if you know anything about how I indulge with my food.

“As long as you don’t pick pistachio or any flavor with nuts in them, then we’re good. There’s no person who can be my friend if they let me eat nuts since I’m allergic to them.”

Something like wonder washed over his face, dimples disarming me completely out of the barely remaining remnants of my functioning bearings. “You’re in luck then. My older sister is also allergic to all kinds of nuts. That means you just befriended the best nut protector in all of Europe.”

Harry stood there inside the gelato shop with his hands on his hips, chin raised in full confidence like his words, all the while I just found him stinkin’ adorable at how he’s not afraid to be silly in front of me. Not most guys, especially racing drivers, would be confident in their own skin and personality like him.

If my awestruck smile can be any indication, I think I felt like the luckiest girl in the world for experiencing this Italian summer anomaly. And since he’s been nothing but honest and courteous around me, I decided to tell him just as much when we’ve got our gelato cones in our hands, walking quite quickly to catch the sunset at the beach.

The majority of our short walk consisted of Harry asking me why I was in Italy, considering we were both British sounding individuals in foreign soil. I told him I was currently in my summer break before entering my last year of university, that being half-Italian from my mum’s side I had always enjoyed staying in Imola every summer in my nonna’s residence. By the time we found the perfect spot at the beach where we have the best view in the house to see the sunset, Harry and I comfortably sat beside each other on the soft sand with our elbows nearly touching.

“Alright, I’m assuming it’s not an everyday occurrence for you to invite racers to have gelato and watch the sunset at the beach.” Harry’s pink tongue poked out to lick his gelato cone, eyes situated at my face while mine got stuck at his mouth, like it’s the first time I saw anyone eating gelato in Italy.

I snapped my gaze back to his awaiting ones, I shrugged my shoulders lightly. “It’s not really my thing to do every summer.” I confirmed, a mischievous smile formed right after. “Especially not towards McLaren drivers, by the way.”

My apparent dig at his racing team caused Harry to almost splutter-out on the sand the bite of gelato he was enjoying. His contagious laughter became the perfect background music to the orange hues of the setting sun.

“You’re not a McLaren fan, I got it. Message received well and bloody clear.” 

I returned to my own gelato cone, ate it away as I watched Harry tilt his head at me, a look of curiosity mirrored on his smiling face. “You’re a Tifosi then?” he asked, referring to what you call die-hard Italian Ferrari fans.

Now that was my turn to laugh, surprising the man beside me if his widened green eyes could be any indication. I shuddered at his words to display what it did to me. “God, if my family heard you say that, they’ll for sure have hurled you already at the ocean.”

I watched amusedly as Harry did a double-take at my response, he seemed to be growing intrigued at this specific topic. “You’re not a Tifosi fan, and your entire family isn’t. Please tell me how that is your answer when all of you have Italian blood.”

Harry has a very valid point considering how the entirety of Italy values and reverses their beloved Ferrari team. But I guess it’s not just our meeting that is an anomaly in Imola. “As much as I spent almost half my time every year here, on Italian soil, my entire family and I just never got the Ferrari appeal.”

“The color red not doing it for you?”

“More like their team orders and strategies.” I lifted my hand in peace for my next words, “I know you love Mitch with all your heart cause he was your first teammate ever in your rookie season and all that but, he’s bound to get all the bad luck any Ferrari driver gets once they’re signed to the historic team. He should go find a better team where he can really display his hard-earned skills and not get stuck in all their unhinged racing strategies.”

Judging Harry’s reaction, he was more charmed at my honest take then offended on the behalf of his best friend. “Your honesty amazes me, I like it very much.” If a blush coated my cheeks at his admission, then I hoped the orange rays of the sunset covered it even just a bit. He then nodded his head like he agreed with me. “And I also can’t say I don’t share a part, if not all, of your sentiments. I mean come on! They did steal Mitch away from me so Ferrari is definitely one of the last teams I’m taking offers with when my contract is up with McLaren.”

I giggled, dusting off my hands from the crumbs left by my now finished cone of gelato. I gave the ridiculous man beside me a look that silently asked if he was being serious. “Harry, I don’t know how to say this to you, that won’t come as a shock, but you’re McLaren’s Golden Boy. Meaning whether you win them a championship before or in 2025 when your contract ends, they’re not letting you go out of their sights. You’re this sport’s next generation of champions. And seeing that McLaren gave you a poor excuse for a car this year, they have to do better by you in the following years so you can actually showcase your natural flair for racing.”

I wasn’t prepared for the intense aura that Harry exuded towards me after my rant. I just complimented the man like any regular, sane human, and he gazed at me with his captivating green irises as if I was the golden girl of the historically successful, multi-billion, Formula 1 team. It’s unnerving yet empowering how much I realized my words affected him. Yet at the same time, how his silent reaction also affected mine.

Harry then smirked at me, arching a brow that spoke promises of chaos. “Careful. You keep painting me with bright words like that and I’d truly be convinced you’re a McLaren fan.”

A noise of disbelief emerged from me. Harry laughed at my scoffing reaction as I regaled him with my own version of a curved brow meant to threaten those who try to speak foully of me. “As if. I’d rather chug an entire barrel of Red Bull in a heartbeat than start wearing your team’s eye-burning orange outfits.”

If we were talking while standing up, I would bet all my university credentials that Harry would have stumbled on his feet and fell flat on the sand butt-first after he had heard my cleverly hidden admission. Kudos to him that we were comfortably sitting down when I broke to him the unfortunate news that I am in fact, a Red Bull fan as great as they may come.

With his jaw hanging open, Harry’s large open eyes almost look cartoonish at how they might pop-off his face from the clear shock he experienced. “You’re a Red Bull girl?! No fucking way!”

I don’t know if it’s because of the cheery and beaming colors of clothes that I wear, my Italian heritage, or the fact that I’m often described looking like that girl on the beach who always looks relaxed, calm, and positive. Because most people found it such a polarizing idea that I’m a Red Bull fan. It’s not the first time I had elicited a similar reaction like that of Harry’s, some have honestly even given me quite an interrogation as they tried to find out why someone like me, with this serene and smiling personality, would be so engrossed in a team where aggression, extreme competition, and favoring alarmingly dangerous tactics, are what they’re widely known for. They don’t understand why that became my jam.

I just beam at people brighter every time that happens, always believing that my opposite personality has nothing to do with what team I root for. I adore Formula 1 racing to begin with, for crying out loud! That doesn’t sound like a relax and chill support in any angle of that word you try to examine.

I offered the same carefree nonchalance towards my new friend, who would for sure understand more than a regular person what I mean, when he holds a big role in the sport as well. “Yes fucking way. I've been a Red Bull fan since the very beginning. For me, they’re the epitome of the high risk, high gain mentality that motorsport embodies. I even got my family to get on board with the same team, which is saying a lot since some of them are quite partial to your other good friend, Jeff, in Mercedes.”

Harry whistled, impressed at my apparent life goals that colored his tone. “You are talking about quite big matters, cause if you’re an F1 enthusiast, it’s either you love or hate Red Bull. I guess you just did the impossible by certifying your entire family for being gaga over the bull.”

His specific choice of words brought a laugh straight out of my lips. “I can’t really say we’re that crazy over F1 and Red Bull in general. But I guess we might have the tendency to act like absolute frantic fangirls whenever Niall gets on the podium which is pretty much every other weekend, considering Louis and him are killing it these past few seasons.”

If I thought Harry’s reaction couldn’t get any better, color me impressed myself when he abruptly turned to sit facing me, with his legs crossed touching the side of my foot. “This is turning to be a fucking crazy afternoon!” he placed a hand on his chest as if I had personally hurt him. “Not only did I learn that you betrayed our fellow English compatriots by declaring your allegiance to an Austrian team, but I also lost to a bloody Irish leprechaun? You wound me, Sunflower.”

I thought I just stopped breathing right after that single word left his now pouting lips. Sunflower. He called me by something that isn’t my name. He gave me an endearment. A very unique one that you just don’t call people you’ve met for only an hour. 

I didn’t know if he was conscious enough that he had called me such, but the way his faux pout transformed into a soft smile after witnessing the proper look of enchantment written all over my face, I would assume that he knew what he was doing.

Now that made me pout. “That’s unfair!” I whined like an embarrassed fool after her crush found out they had the hots for them since forever. Said crush only laughed at my misery, gentle hands reaching to remove my own palms that I have used to shield my face from his annoyingly charming mug. “You can’t say things like that and expect my ovaries would still be in-tact!”

Harry only howled louder at my dramatics, unfortunately remaining successful in unveiling my burning cheeks for all his glory to see. “I didn’t even say anything!” he countered, smiling so innocently that can probably fool anyone but me. “I just called you after a flower. I think that’s hardly enough evidence to hold me responsible for the apparent state of your ovaries…Sunflower.”

I simply just groaned at the absolute menace that he was, copying his seating position with our folded knees touching. Conceding to a meaningless battle that I knew I wouldn’t win with just a single glance at his impossibly precious grin. I allowed the pinkness of my face to shine on its own, feeding my curiosity like I had anything more to lose that can further embarrass me.

“Why Sunflower, then? If you’re trying to compare me with a flower, find something that resembles the color of my face because apparently, you of all people unleashed my hidden talent: blush as red as a tomato when near Harry Styles.”

“I’d still think you’d look stunning even as a tomato.” Like clockwork, my cheeks turned darker at his honesty laden words. “But I still prefer Sunflower because it’s got nothing to do with your looks. Spending time with you even for just a little while, I can’t deny that your aura reminded me of pure sunshine. You’re so bright in all regards of that word, and I don’t even think you know it yourself.”

Even if the tone of his voice is as light as the wind, I still felt the heavy weight of his contemplative stare, his expressive green irises mapped my face like he was simply confirming what he was describing. As if he was trying to make sure that all the words he used to describe me were able to exemplify how he really saw me, and I felt seen, in a good way.

“And I believe Sunflower fit you perfectly rather than simply calling you sunshine.” Harry reached over to curl a piece of stray blonde hair behind my ear. “If you’re called sunshine that means everyone gets to experience your brilliance. But if you’re Sunflower, only the few smart and lucky ones will be able to have you. And Sunflower, there’s no way in this world that I want to share this afternoon with you with anyone else. I get to keep it as mine, just our time together and no one else's.”

Was my heart even still in my body? Or did its rabid pumping propel it outside my chest and towards Harry’s calloused hands where they want to be right now?

“I think you just took my heart.” was my brilliant reply to all his mind-numbing words. Of course dummy old me would be stupefied when an F1 driver suddenly bares his deep thoughts about me to me when there’s already no denying I quite fancy the curly muppet. And I just confessed my thoughts in a complete 360 downturn from his own much creative one.

But because Harry Styles is apparently a rarity of his kind, he only laughed joyously at my appalling lackluster words. “I’d be happy to have that too, not just our time this afternoon, Sunflower. That is of course, if you still want to see little weird ‘ol me after today.”

Did he just ask me out? Like actually asked for my consent unlike how I dictated this afternoon for him earlier? I have to keep this man if he continues acting like that.

“Oh, fuck it.” I rolled my eyes for my own sake, my last words solidifying itself at the forefront of my mind. “I’ll just get it out of the way and say that of course, I’d still want to see your weird mug after this afternoon. There’s no bloody way your charming butt could get away that easily from me, considering it’s all your fault that you didn’t know how to fix your car and imprisoned my kind heart in your hands now.”

“Yeah, of course it’s all my fault.” Harry nodded with the widest smile I’ve ever seen on his face, nodding seriously at my accusations. “And I’d be willing to do anything for you just to make up for it.”

He shouldn’t be making promises he can’t keep is what I thought. But I’d keep that information with me when the time I need things to work in my favor comes. Just from this interaction alone, I can already tell this racer has got a thing for making me flush.

“Good thing you know all about your misdoings. But before you do whatever it is to make it up to me, can we just pretend I didn’t just say yes to you asking me out and let’s first have this very important conversation that my parents have always told me I should have with a boy that’s interested in me.”

Just mentioning my parents instantly caused a change in Harry’s demeanor. Smile gone, brows furrowed, lips pouting in concentration like I’ve noticed he loved to do. Harry looked like he wanted to take out some pen and paper to write down whatever it is my ‘parents’ had to say.

“Let’s have this conversation then.” He said with a tone of conviction, the slight tremble of warriness was something I detected with just his first word alone. “I’d rather not upset your family without even having the chance to taste your nonna’s cooking.”

“The good thing is it's not about being conceited then. Why would you think my nonna would invite you over to her place? Let alone cook for you? Just so you know, she doesn’t give a flying fuck about hot Formula 1 drivers like the entire female population.”

Harry smirked, probably because my cheeks turned as dark as the burning sunset in front of us after inadvertently calling him hot, with me being part of that demographic of females. “I don’t need to be successful, and as you said without my coercion, hot, racing driver to get your nonna to love me. I have dimples.”

He didn’t even have to explain the significance of that. This shithead literally knew what he was doing when he decided to just dimple at me to prove his point. My nonna might not be into watching Grand Prixs with me, but considering we share the same blood, chances are she’s also weak at the knees for charming boys that have dimples.

“Okay, I get it.” I huffed, failing to hide my flushed smile at Harry’s giggles. “Now stop distracting me with your magical dimples from the real agenda we have to have a serious conversation over.”

“Alright, I’ll keep my lady-magnet weapons back.” He fucking better or else I’ll not be able to be the only lady he attracts in this Italian beach, we can’t have that.

“Now prepare to listen because I won’t repeat this again: we better discuss, in full-length, your honest, non-scripted, thoughts on Formula 1 and its teams and drivers. I can’t be dating a McLaren driver who plans to convert me to their too bloody bright orange side. I’m a Red Bull girl whether I’m with McLaren’s Golden Boy or not.”

As I’ve come to expect, Harry just looked at me for a few moments like I’ve just grown two heads. But what makes him someone that might fit perfectly with my sometimes unhinged self, is that he bounces right back to banter with me;  like a perfect reflex to step on the pedal when all the lights are out at the beginning of every race.

His infectious smile graced my presence once more, Harry’s hands reaching for mine. I stared at the effortless way his large palms engulfed my much smaller ones, rough calloused hands finally meeting the delicate touch of my hands for the first time. With our hands locked together, Harry rested it comfortably on his lap, his eyes too captivating to veer my own stare from.

“I’ve got the whole afternoon and evening left to discuss this matter,” he told me, fingers squeezing my own. “And can I just say I really do appreciate your parents for instilling such appropriate measures to test possible suitors. God, imagine if you didn’t inform me about this and I would have already brainwashed you to join McLaren by gifting you that bloody, broken orange monstrosity of a car.”

I copied his faux horrified expression, “The horror of that thought.” We stared at each other, lips moving upwards at the same time, our shared laughter ringing the quiet of the beach. All the while the darkness of the fading sunset was not enough to conceal my view of Harry’s familiar bashful smile that he had given me at the gelato shop.

“I’m down for everything you’ve said, just not the last bit.” Slowly, I watched with bated breath as he lifted our interlocked hands near his lips. “It’s not a question of whether you are or aren’t, you’re going to be with the McLaren Golden Boy.” He kissed my knuckles so tenderly I almost thought I became part of some summer romance story.

I should have found that statement irritatingly conceited and a total red flag for egotistical jerks who would like to dictate who I am or not. But I didn’t. I found the statement irritatingly toe-tingling because I'd somehow lost the plot a long time ago when I first became immersed with the sport through finding the drivers on the grid to be smoking hot. Granted that I have reached greater lengths than that through finding absolute enjoyment in learning about everything concerning F1 that is deeper than the physicality of their drivers, there’s no fucking way the 12-year old in me isn’t living her dream of finding her own racing driver to call her own.

It’s not like the man who’s softly rubbing circles on the back of my hand is like mine mine, but he could be if his confident words and my dangerous attraction to attractive adrenaline junkies could perfectly meet in the middle. 

Afterall, we did have the remaining of the day to make that happen.

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I was sitting on the colorful couch located in my nonna’s living room. Her rarely used flat screen television displayed the start of free practice when my phone chimed with a new text. I reached for it from my lap, a smile already threatening to break my face once I saw who it was from.

From: STYLES, McLaren enemy 🧡

“Are you sure it’s totally okay for you to watch the free practice at your nonna’s? Don’t want the sweet poor thing to have sore eardrums from all the noises of the cars.”

To: STYLES, McLaren enemy 🧡

“I really appreciate your concern, but she’s currently in her afternoon nap as we speak and she’s a heavy sleeper so we’re all good. Now stop being a sweet little thing and get in your car! The race is about to start, stop being a muppet and focus!”

From: STYLES, McLaren enemy 🧡

“You’re one to talk! It’s kind of your fault that I’m still not yet in my car cause you’re not here with me in my garage where I want you to be. Now everyone should just settle for my MIA cause I’d fucking gladly just spend my entire day texting you.”

That should be concerning, no? Harry just basically admitted preferring to spend time with me than do what he does for a living that will earn him money so he can actually go live his life. But I guess what’s more worrying is that I actually didn’t give a damn either. 

I’m smiling here like a fool on this wide couch, phone in hand, body curled like a tight ball from the damn stampede of wild animals in my tummy because an F1 driver chose me over his beloved car. If that isn’t the making of a true love story, I don’t know what is.

To: STYLES, McLaren enemy 🧡

“Well aren’t you a poor Bunny, huh? But as much as I’d like to keep texting you (like, honestly what’s wrong with me?), I realllly don’t want you to stall the free practice I’m about to devour. Better get your bum-bum on that car! And btw, even if I was free today to go to the paddock, who said I’d be at your MCLAREN garage? Bunny, I think you’ve just forgotten the golden rule of ours.”

From: STYLES, McLaren enemy 🧡

“Not forgotten, Sunflower. No brainwashing of joining the orange side, as said perfectly by the best mama and papa Red Bull fans. And this time, I’d actually listen to you without complaints. My trainer’s looking at me like he’s planning to ban me from eating any more cheese this trip.”

To: STYLES, McLaren enemy 🧡

“Oh. no. We simply cannot have that happening!”

From: STYLES, McLaren enemy 🧡

“Sunflower, you really get me. I seriously can’t have that cause you know, I have to be polite and finish all the food Nonna Red Bull fan will give me. But, I’m off to the car now, happy? I better hear you calling me Bunny after this session! Byyyeee hugsss!”

I didn’t bother replying after that. I locked my phone and dropped it back on my lap as I watched the man I was just texting on the screen. The camera followed him skip and hop on the pitlane, heading to his garage like a real-life adorable bunny. I giggled silently, the exact same image is what actually gave me the idea to call him that in the first place.

Despite the sun completely setting already yesterday, Harry and I spent the entire afternoon and early evening talking to each other as the sky turned from orange to inky black with stars blanketing our view of the Italian beach. We conversed about everything and nothing all at once; from personal life and our families, to racing and things we like and don’t. Having a genuine conversation with just about a full hour of being with him, I felt like I’ve known him for years.

We were on the topic of our thoughts on this current F1 season when the bunny hopping was brought-up. I can’t exactly remember the details because I was so immersed feeling Harry’s warmth around me, having found ourselves in a very cozy position: his knees bent with legs wide open, myself slotted perfectly in the open space, my back against his firm chest, his strong arms wrapped around me so tenderly. How that happened, I also don’t know. 

But what I still can recall is how I felt his button nose begin to nuzzle the side of my neck during a comfortable lull in our conversation. And for some reason, with my eyes closed basking in his simple affection, I got the image of a cute bunny with tiny whiskers nosing my skin the same way. That mental image then led to me visualizing all the times I have seen Harry on the screen of my television during races, hopping and skipping like a bunny all around the pitlane and paddock every time he was headed somewhere - might it be the media pen or towards his fans to spend some time with them.

So, I laughed, disrupting the concentration of the man who was trying to scent me in some way. He looked at me with a cute frown, asking what had made me laugh, I gladly told him my thoughts with giggles barely being concealed.

Harry fruitlessly began to deny it which made me only giggle harder. “You’re such a bunny!” I tapped his scrunched-up nose because he looked so sweet and I just couldn’t not touch him. “You don’t even have to feel embarrassed because I like it, it’s adorable, Bunny.”

To be honest, I was just teasing him by calling him bunny. But then I saw and felt Harry Styles actually preen like a pleased feline after I said it. And let’s just say after that, his shameless affection seeking self - a very big side of him that I got to get acquainted to really good and really swiftly - had been directly asking me to call him Bunny every chance he got. Lucky him I was a self-proclaimed weak woman around his presence.

So much so that right now, as I watched the Imola Grand Prix’s free practice session begin, I just betrayed my Red Bull family by being more attentive and demanding of a certain orange car with the number four on it, to drift by my screen more frequently. I was at the edge of the couch every time his helmet camera was the one being displayed. My arms flying out in glee every time he managed to overtake another car in front of him - thank fuck it wasn’t a Red Bull car though or else I would have felt even more guiltier - and my arms would instantly fold across my chest with a sad pout present on my lips every time his shitty shoe box of a car just couldn’t keep up with the insanely fast pace of his competitors.

I knew I had it bad when both free practice sessions ended with Harry’s positions going from P10 to P15, which if it was race day itself, he would have barely made the scoreboard and the latter won’t even allow him any points. It was bad because I wasn’t the one who had a pretty shitty race and yet it’s the first time I’ve ever felt like I wanted to take that look of utter dismay off his face and just put it all on me instead. I didn’t even feel this this type of way when Niall Horan had to DNF during the Austrian Grand Prix, which also happened to be Red Bull’s home race. That wasn’t a fun time for fangirl me.  But this, this isn’t a happy time for my entire being.

Coming to terms that my last straw of self-preservation is not seeing Harry hop to the post-race interview like he would normally be doing now, I retrieved my phone and made a hasty, yet wholehearted decision.

To: STYLES, McLaren enemy 🧡

“I don’t know about you, but that session made me really hungry. What do you say about dinner at my nonna’s place? Promise she isn’t mad and actually didn’t wake-up the entire time you were making a raucous on her TV screen. Text me your thoughts when you're finished with whatever post-practice stuff you have to do, Bunny. Hugggss!”

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I thought my Italian luck had turned around for the better after I had met Sophia, like the damsel in distress I was when my McLaren broke down on some random road yesterday afternoon. I swear her presence alone in my mind was enough to put a spring to my steps that everyone in my garage has noticed after I arrived early in the paddock for our pre-practice meeting with all the race engineers.

Rob Sheffield, our Team Principal who basically runs the whole racing show in McLaren (don’t tell James I said that cause he thinks he’s still the main man behind everything), even had a go at my apparently ‘oddly more cheery attitude, that’s borderline disturbing’ when he announced at everyone present at our motorhome’s conference room about my downright embarrassing incident yesterday.

“Styles, if you just told me you couldn’t handle our newest release, I would have personally allowed you to bring your own pit crew around Italy if that meant I wouldn’t even have the chance of having a missing driver for this weekend.”

Everyone laughed at Rob’s clear teasing, myself included even if most of them probably thought I’d be more sheepish at my faults like every time I almost trip from plain air with how clumsy I am. But I wasn’t. I laughed along with my entire team while not saying anything, just like the moving image of Sophia branded on my mind where she cackled like no tomorrow around my arms at the beach. That was after I told her stories of the god-awful dancing-zumba-warm ups that occur inside the McLaren hospitality outside of the public’s view.

I may have laughed extra harder when Rob looked at my red cheeks from exerting too much pure joy with a weirded-out expression. All I could remember while looking at his face is when Sophia and I had proceeded to lose our breaths, hands grappling at each other on the sand to find support, when I shared to her the detail of Rob’s constipated looking face when one of our engineers tried teaching him how to twerk during the aforementioned dancing warm-ups. The man didn’t know any better of what he was eagerly subjecting himself into.

Though I wish I had the same bright disposition for the entirety of my work day. Too bad when you drive rockets for a living, everything is unpredictable. Speaking of, I can attest with statistical data from my team that this year’s MCL36 is a poorly executed car so at the start of my year and until today, I already expected to have a less than stellar few races unlike last year’s performance. 

But fucking come on! For the last race in Australia, the team really made enormous progress with Nick and I being in the top ten, scoring some much needed points. Without stroking my own ego too much, I was the best of the rest being the only car behind the top teams of Red Bull, Ferrari, and the similarly downright unfortunate team this year of Mercedes. 

And then I went to this practice session this morning with vivid happiness and determination beaming out of me, only to have DRS issues allowing everyone else to overtake me in the straights. Don’t even get me started on the random lock-ups my car went through in every chicane and hairpin I passed through. By the time I boxed after completing the session, all my optimism was lost and I was near to throwing a rage fit. Mind you, to my uncooperative orange monstrosity of a car and not my team, I’m not a massive prick, narcissistic racer or not.

I was about to do it, removing my helmet and balaclava ready to give a stern talking to my car, but I was intercepted by my trainer, Harry Lambert, smiling far too gaily for being around a seething F1 driver. Before I can snap at him like some daft asshole, Lambert swishes my phone from left to right in my line of vision.

“I know you always tell me to keep your phone for you every race session, so this isn’t a new thing in our routine.” He said, clearly stalling to whatever he really wanted to tell me. “But, I have noticed today that your screen-time conscious personality has been glued to your phone when you’re not doing anything. And I’m not here to reprimand you about it, the complete opposite actually.”

Lambert’s growing smirk made me speak-up in a dry tone. “I don’t really care if you snooped my phone, Lamby. No need for you to apologize.”

“I wasn’t going to, anyway.” He sassed at me, handing me both my water bottle and phone. “I think you’re the one who’s about to apologize to me after I tell you my amazing self, cleared all your scheduled meetings this afternoon after a little birdy left you a message.”

I’ve never opened my phone the same way I would press the throttle when the lights turn out every race weekend. I’ve also never replied with an affirmative ‘yes!’ to any text message before like I would exclaim every time my race engineer tells me on the comms after a smashing race that I’ve hit a podium win.

Too bad my Italian luck seemed to be growing until that point only. Now that I’m knocking on the sage green wooden door of Sophia’s nonna’s home, the door opens and I’m met with two beautiful women. One was smiling at me like I just bought her an entire gelato shop, while the other was scowling in my direction as if I'd devoured all the trays of her favorite gelato flavor. Looks like my luck wasn’t going up any higher than before.

“Bunny, you made it!” Sophia attached herself to my front like a magnet, arms curled around my neck as my own rested on her waist. I hugged her tight to me, her giggles ringing in my ear as her feet lifted just a few inches above the ground from how flushed her body is connected to mine.

“Does this mean you missed me, Sunflower?” I couldn't help but mutter in her ear, my own giggles escaped my lips when she shyly admitted to missing me with a simple nod as her nose found its way to gently nuzzle my earlobe.

And then we both hear a throat being cleared loudly, Sophia and I stiffening from our cuddle with eyes growing wide from the stern sound. She’s back on her feet in an instant, my body grew cold without her warm energy clinging to me as she returned beside her nonna, who, speaking of, apparently remained scowling at me. If it was even possible, I’m sure her face turned even sour after I hugged her granddaughter in front of her.

“Soph, bellissima,” Nonna Red Bull fan turned to her now blushing granddaughter, “I understand how affectionate you could be with people you trust, but per favore, introduce me to your friend first. I don’t just let strangers enter my home for dinner; let alone allow them to cuddle my granddaughter.”

“Nonna, fermati, por favore.” Sophia whined at her grandmother’s words to stop, eyes avoiding my amused irises that was quickly replaced by a tinge of fear when I instead caught that of her nonna’s threatening blue eyes.

Nonna Red Bull fan huffed, impatience wrapped around that simple noise. “If no one is going to speak, I’ll do it myself.” She extended her hand to me in greeting. “I’m Angie, welcome to my home here in Imola. And you are?”

I accepted her ringed hand, trying my best to ensure that my hand was not trembling. “I’m Harry Styles, nice to meet you, signorina Angie.” And because I was raised by my mother to greet everyone in full kindness and respect, my instinct was to place a kiss on the back of Angie’s hand like I would usually do when I meet my mate’s Italian nonnas.

I almost pulled back to apologize when I remembered her seconds-ago hostile aura aimed at me. But the fear in me from doing something I shouldn’t, quickly diffused when I heard the unmistakable breath hitching of both Angie and Sophia.

“Oh,” Angie slowly retrieved her hand back from my hold, the surprise in her eyes returning to hard edges like she couldn’t be fooled by any of my respectful actions. “Harry Styles. I’ve heard about you.”

I chuckled, right hand coming to scratch the back of my neck in a clear nervous tick. “Only good things, I hope.”

“Not really.” Was her quick and no-nonsense reply, features unimpressed at my surprised reaction.

“Nonna!” Sophia’s widened eyes looked at her grandmother like she was being impolite. “You can’t say that in front of our guest!”

Angie just huffed once more. “It’s partially your fault, mia bella, when all I know about your new friend is everything I see in social media. If you would have kept me in the light about all this, then maybe I’d have a different answer. Isn’t that right, Harry?”

I gulped, unsure of what to say without hurting the feelings of anyone. If I agreed to Angie, then Sophia would think I’m blaming her for not telling her nonna about me since our personal interaction yesterday. But if I side with Sophia, then there are high chances that Angie might put some food poisoning on my food later on if her ‘don’t mess with me, young man’ face she’s giving me right now could be any indication.

In the end, I settled for being truthful. “Honestly, I’m more impressed by your sincerity more than anything, Angie.” I couldn’t help but grin with the craters of my cheek denting. “I bet my own grandmother isn’t also impressed with how I come across in the media. But I can assure you that whatever it is you saw, it’s only half, if not a false, part of my entire story.”

I don’t know what it is with what I just said, but Angie had turned off her hostile energy like a snap of a finger. Nonna the Red Bull fan now looked at me like I just offered her to personally make another batch of her favorite gelato flavor after I had just devoured it earlier. Before my mind could refocus from this whiplash like reaction, Angie had an arm around my back as she ushered me to their outdoor balcony where my dinner was apparently waiting.

“I want to hear all about your entire story then, Harry.” Angie’s hand went up to tap my cheek in affection. “But I have to get all the food from the kitchen before you can have your dinner.”

“Oh, let me help you with th-”

"Nonsense, tu prezioso regazzo.” Angie shook her head adamantly. Did she just call me precious in Italian? “You are our guest and I don’t allow any of my guests to lift a single finger to help.” She then turned to Sophia, who I’ve realized remained very quiet this entire interaction. “But you, bellissima, are not a guest. I don’t trust you with my delicacies but I hope you can safely guide Harry to the dinner table outside without any mishaps. Now go ahead, bring him safely there.”

Just like with anyone who has the right mind in not wanting to face the lethal wrath of an Italian nonna, Sophia followed her grandmother’s request in a heartbeat. Curling her arm around my bicep, she slowly led my still-stunned body outside their patio doors and towards the immaculately early dinner set-up in the middle of Angie’s spacious back garden.

“Sunflower, I wasn’t imagining it, right?” I frowned as I pulled Sophia’s chair beside mine before I took my own seat. “One second your nonna wanted to give me bodily harm on her doorstep. Then the next, she tended to me like I was some prince of the entire F1 grid. Was I just imagining all that?”

I was quite sure I was turning crazy from all the ups and downs of my luck in this Imola race weekend. But I guess it wasn’t enough to compete with the absolute crazed way Sophia rolled her eyes when I looked at her from beside me.

“She’s crazy!” Sophia exclaimed with frenzied hand movements. “It’s all because of your damn dimples! Dio, lo sapevo! I already called it yesterday when we were talking, that my own nonna will be my competition once you showed her your secret weapons. Bunny, what have you done?”

If I thought I was already lost for words from Angie’s swift change of heart, I guess her little Italian descendant had her beat in that regard. I didn’t know which part of Sophia’s very informative statement I could tackle first, though one spoke directly to my narcissistic tendency, unfortunately for her.

I smirked at a clearly wired Sophia, “Did you just call my dimples my secret weapon?”

I saw the way Sophia stiffened slightly on her seat, as if getting caught, before she rolled her eyes in uncanny irritation. “Of course that’s what you would focus on, you egotistical racer.”

There was no real heat in her words. Both of us know each other pretty well at this point, that I’m mature and grounded enough to not be a stereotype, cocky, has-it-all driver. Besides, my cheeks were also dimpling from her joyous reactions yesterday when I told her stories of how my mum and Gemma kept me in-check. Let’s just say it involved a whole lot of toilet cleaning every time I was back home, and a lot less of cruising around the streets of England in my flashy, orange whip. If that doesn’t keep me humble and grounded, I don’t know what will.

Thus, despite her annoyed exterior, I’m still putting an extra effort in grinning at Sophia. “Jesus, if I knew all I had to do to get you to like me was to use my secret weapon - na-uh, don’t give me those eyes cause I’m just quoting you - then I would have just smiled at you the entire time without exerting any other effort.”

Sophia huffed when I made sure to prove my point by tilting my head to the side to give her the best seat in the house to view my dimples. “As if! That would have been absolutely creepy if all you did was smile at me yesterday. I wouldn’t have liked you very much if you did nothing but that.”

“Really? Are you sure about that, Sunflower?”

“Absolutely, you don’t have to ask twice. Any person with a right mind would have responded the same as me.”

I chuckled, inching my dimpled face towards her faux scowling one. “I don’t disagree about that. But you see, haven’t we established since yesterday that we’re kind of not like the normal people who have the right mind?” I wiggled my brows in suggestion, easily cataloging the radiant joy my silly face gave her beautiful one.

Sophia tilts her head to the side, the action being too adorable for my eyes than it should have been for such a simple gesture. “You do consent in getting yourself strapped-down to a death-vehicle most weekends for a living, and you don’t necessarily have adequate skills to fix cars even if your whole life mostly revolves around them.”

I adore the way her blue irises light up my green ones from just her words alone. “And it’s very unlikely for Italian women to stop by a random street and help useless, probably dubious, F1 drivers without asking or expecting anything in return.”

Our words lingered in the quiet of the warm afternoon, our smiles a mirror image, faces just about three inches apart. And then something clicked. Something akin to equal perception released in our energies.

“You’re right,” Sophia nodded, any sense of shyness stripping-off her entire being. “I would have still liked you just as much - if not more - if you just dimpled at me the entire day yesterday.” And then she shook her head, as if she couldn’t understand the gravity of her own admission, her crazed smile from earlier returning. “Oh my god, I’m crazy, aren’t I? Nobody should find the idea of your dimpling face, just that, unmoving, as something highly endearing and borderline heart-melting. What is wrong with me?”

I felt the deep chuckles vibrating from my chest before I felt Sophia’s equally robust giggles on my skin when I closed the gap between our faces. With my forehead touching hers, I diligently nosed down the bridge of her own, creating a path of unadulterated fondness for this glowing person in my orbit.

“It’s not just you, Sunflower.” I reminded her with full conviction, “We’re both not quite right in the head; we’re both kinda crazy, baby.”

“Well, I hope you two are not crazy enough to not appreciate the feast I’ve prepared.”

Unlike earlier, Angie’s presence wasn’t unwelcome and it didn’t make Sophia and I jump away from our close contact. Our eyes locked once more instead, elation pouring ten folds in just one look. We suddenly laughed because it felt like the only thing that made the most sense in all these rapidly growing emotions bubbling inside me. The same maddening sensations that’s also screaming at me in certainty that Sophia feels this sweet-havoc within her too.

Despite Angie’s urgent protests, I couldn’t stop myself from helping her with placing the deliciously smelling plates and bowls of food on the table. But best to my ardent efforts afterterwards, Angie had me sitting back on my seat as she began to pile food on my plate, her stern blue eyes now showing ‘even if I like you now, don’t mess with me, young man’ was enough to shut me up.

I didn’t complain though, especially when I watched in great amusement at how Sophia tried to intercept her nonna from serving me. I’m afraid to admit that her earlier remark of Angie being a competition to my heart, might be quite true to some extent. Sophia noticed just as much on my smirking face directed at her futile attempt to sprinkle some chili flakes on my fresh slice of pizza - right after Angie had just done it.

“La mia belleza,” Angie swatted Sophia’s hand holding the jar of chili flakes, “can you please sit back on your seat? And Harry doesn’t need any more of that, I already placed some on his food. You aren’t trying to burn the tongue of our guest, no?”

The laughter I tried my strongest to keep at bay almost spilled right out of me. I don’t know what it is, but watching a pissy Sophia, who followed her nonna’s orders like a child who was just scolded from stealing a treat in the cookie jar, did it for me.

It was the perfect moment to tease her. “Yeah, la mia belleza.” I looked at her narrowed gaze with a brow curved upward. “Angie has already got me covered, which by the way,” my focus shifted to her grandmother. “You picked the slice I wanted and gave me the perfect amount of chili flakes as well. I don’t know how you do it Angie. You seem to know me so well already.”

I made sure to wink at nonna Red Bull fan just like I would do every time the cameras zoom-in to my face before I close the visor of my helmet. The reaction is equally just the same, and I’m starting to truly believe that my dimples have something to do with the way her cheeks pinken. That shade of rose reminded me of the person sitting beside me. I returned my focus on Sophia who actually looked like I had betrayed her in some way.

I assured her smoothly with my next actions, instead of fruitless words she’ll just dispute. I stood up from my seat and reached for the tray of pizza and placed a slice on Sophia’s plate, before I proceeded to sprinkle a considerably more amount of chili flakes on her serving compared to mine with an added drizzle of hot sauce.

“There you go,” I finished by filling her glass with lemon juice. “Dinner just the way you like it, Sunflower.”

“You remembered,” Sophia’s whispered words of unmistakable awe made my eyes crinkle with a smile. “Bunny, you remembered.” she repeated with a tone of disbelief quoting her words.

“That you like really spicy food? I did.” I answered my own question when Sophia remained looking at me with a dumbfounded expression that I once again, found fucking adorable. “I remember every little thing you share with me, Sunflower. I don’t take your words for granted.” my hand gravitated to rest on the bare meat of her thigh giving it a gentle squeeze. “Now I don’t know if you forgot, but I remember telling you that if you’re not quick enough, I have no mercy in eating your food for you.”

That seemed to do the trick, Sophia sprang back to functionality with that bright grin stealing my wits away. “Not me, Bunny. You don’t wanna mess with me and my food.” She made a show of taking a big and messy bite from her pizza slice, my laughter shared with Angie as she shook her head amusedly at her crazy granddaughter.

Sophia’s fucking crazy all right, but she’s so bright like sunshine and so bloody unapologetic for who she is that it truly squeezes my soul that she doesn’t care how she looks in front of me unlike any other girls I come across. Sophia’s a rare one and my belief is only reinforced as the three of us conversed over an early dinner with Angie trading Sophia’s childhood stories for my own. 

The entire time of us chatting animatedly, Sophia’s hand somehow found its way to entwine with my own that’s resting securely on her thigh. She might be oblivious to it being in the middle of telling her nonna some tidbits of my life that I shared with her yesterday, but I certainly felt the heat of Angie’s knowing gaze that was directed at our determined singular hands feeding ourselves. I might have felt my cheeks burn just a bit, unsure if I was crossing some line while being in her home. But like earlier, Angie’s expressive eyes sent the message loud and clear to me. In her eyes I read, ‘keep holding my granddaughter’s hand, don’t mess with me, young man’ Like there’s anything else I’d gladly fucking do than just that.

So my hands were tightly confined in Sophia’s delicate hold when Angie brought-up the topic of my current race weekend in Imola. The conversation surfaced after I’ve cleared my name in her presence by sharing the simple realities of my life that the media doesn’t know about.

“I honestly was unsure on what to feel when mia bella here told me that we’re having a guest over this afternoon,” Angie admitted to me, frank as I’ve learned her to be. “It’s not even about that she’s basically inviting someone over to my home, because she knows that la mia casa è anche la sua casa. I was just worried because she said you were a Formula 1 driver, and I’m pretty sure, Harry, that you know how Soph gets with her racers.”

“My racers?!” Sophia gasped loudly, features appalled. “Nonna, I do not say that!”

Angie snorted before I could have the chance to do the same. “Oh, please! You know what I mean, tu pazza ragazza.” hearing Angie call her granddaughter crazy so plainly, is the undoing of my unattractive snort. I felt the hard squeeze on my hand, a clear warning separate from the daggers I feel being thrown on the side of my grinning face.

Angie noticed the exchange, amusement written all over her face. “Harry, don’t worry. Soph’s glares are the bare minimum of her crazy side; you’re safe right now.” I didn’t care that I full-on laughed after that poor attempt at reassurance, my hand separating from Sophia’s as I used it to cover my loud guffawing.

“Nonna, this isn’t funny!” Sophia whined at her cackling grandmother who ignored her to continue this topic with me.

“Harry, understand my concern here.” I nodded adamantly like I really was hell-bent in understanding her dilemma despite the giggles that continued to spew outwards from me. “Mia bella here is crazy about the sport itself; she knows her shit about cars to put it simply. That’s why I understand how passionate she gets whenever we have watch parties of the race weekend here, but Gesù Cristo onnipotente! When the drivers are the ones in question, my crazy girl is in a whole other dimension! Especially about this certain driver that I feared would be him that she was talking about that would come to dinner today.”

I already knew who Angie was referring to. One look at Sophia’s flushed cheeks told me that it’s not a surprise to anyone she’s close with, whether it's someone like Angie who doesn’t particularly enjoys watching Grand Prixs or those around her that do, they all know how much of a wild fangirl my Sunflower can get. Especially for a certain blonde-head that could be found in the Red Bull garage.

“What was his name again?” Angie asked me, faux confusion coating her features. “I can’t seem to remember it, Harry. Maybe you can help me here, darling.”

I sensed where this was heading, and I was all for it. I might be known to hop like a bunny around the paddock, but best believe I pull some of the best pranks in both the garages and pitlanes outside of the media’s eyes. Though I couldn’t say others shared that similar mischievous trait, especially for the lady beside me who let out a groan of dire agony. 

“It would be my pleasure, Angie. Does this man happen to have blonde hair that totally looks like he spends more than two hours getting it that way like a total vain lad?”

Angie clapped like I was on the right track, “Yes, I think that’s him! The one who’s also always laughing for no reason. I was honestly concerned why my Soph was laughing along with a crazy-looking man.”

“He’s not crazy, you two are the ones crazy!” Sophia’s indignant proclamation is carried away by the wind. Angie and I smiled deviously, still trying to act confused.

“I think we’re talking about the same person, Angie. Did his name start with the letter ‘N’, do you reckon?”

“Oh, yeah. Was it..Neil?” It was difficult to not blow our cover at this early in the game considering that I remembered Niall’s face every time someone misspells his name in a live broadcast. Sadly, it happens more often than not; it didn’t even spare his podium finishes.

“I don’t know anyone named Neil, though.” My thumb and index finger pinched my bottom lip in thought, like the immaculate actor I was born to be. “I do know someone that might be named Nail, though.”

It wasn’t lost on me that everyone dining on the table knew what I was referring to by saying that single word, not in the way we all shared vibrating laughter including the seething lady we were teasing to begin with. Everyone from their mother to their grandmothers remember the iconic moment: Niall Horan getting his maiden win in the historical track of Monaco, only to be called on the podium as ‘Nail Horan’ and the reckless little shit didn’t waste time popping the champagne directly on the announcer’s face and cursing him off like the person just killed his parents right in front of him. That was a fine moment immortalized forever in the internet, definitely causing my friend a hefty fine as well by the FIA stewards.

“Oh, that was brilliant, Harry!” Angie clapped. “That moment was a perfect depiction of how crazy Nail Horan is.”

“It’s Niall Horan, you freaking donuts!” 

We were quiet after Sophia’s outburst at the quiet of the Imola afternoon. All of us probably took a few seconds to register what she said, more specially, what she called Angie and I. When it clicked moments later, it was Angie’s wheezing laughter and Sophia’s burning face that accompanied the uncontrollable, gleeful shakes of my body. There was nothing in me to stop this alarming amount of fondness seeping into my bones that’s more thrilling than the adrenaline I feel every time I’m whisked away on the racetrack.

In their own unstoppable accord, my arms wrapped itself on Sophia’s hunched body, pulling her flush to my chest where she found the perfect hiding spot on the crook of my neck. “Of course you unleash your inner Gordon Ramsay at me the first time I insulted your Irish racer.” My lips succumbed to my indulgent thoughts as I pressed a kiss on her pink skin.

I feel her own warm lips on the skin of my neck, parting to reply without any sense of denial. “Be thankful I didn’t drop you any F-bombs like Chef Ramsay would have done if he was in my situation.”

I nodded my head vigorously, her hidden face not being able to see the smirk I gave a grinning Angie. “Oh, I’m so thankful, Sunflower. So much so that I’d gladly tell you about this totally inside scoop about Gordon Ramsay himself being a guest at the Red Bull garage in one of the races and he totally called your Irish racer a donut too after he crashed himself just exiting the pitlane. I guess we’re both donuts then.”

That little tidbit wasn’t as hilarious as Sophia huffing an extremely vexed, “Bunny!” her body disconnecting from mine as she shoved at my chest. I quickly reached for her palm again as I clasped it tightly in mine. “You’re talking rubbish just to spite me.”

I met her pierced gaze with my own fierce beam of utter thrill, “I guess we’ll never find out the truth then because you’re stuck with a McLaren, English racer who will be over for every Italian-nonna dinners from now on.” My shoulders shrug as if it didn’t take note of the absolute weight of my statement.

Because we’ve already established many times already that I’m a lunatic racer who faced no fear in the presence of high speed and high adrenaline, I met Sophia’s stunned eyes and parted berry lips of surprise headstrong. There was no questioning in her eyes who sought if I spoke of the truth, not when whatever worries may come to her, were swiftly hindered from growing when my thumb rubbed reassuring circles on the top of our entwined hands. That’s when I knew my Sunflower really did feel these electrifying feelings for me like I did her: when an effortless touch of my finger flooded her eyes with serene happiness at my bold stance.

“Well can I just say that I’m glad it’s you, Harry, who had dinner with us. It’s been such a lovely afternoon.” Both our attention returned at Angie’s words, her own smile brimming with elation at whatever she just witnessed between her granddaughter and I. 

It made me feel floored when her bright features alone spoke of the thundering truth: Angie, the nonna Red Bull fan, does not object that I spend many more dinners at her home. If she hadn’t spoken again, I genuinely think I would have shed a tear at feeling this elated. 

“If I would have just known that the racer with the kindest heart is the one that invited mia bella to the track, I would have personally dropped her off at the paddock and tell her that she’s going to have a much banging time being around you than fussing over her perfectly fine nonna.”

That’s true, I did invite Sophia to join me for the entire Imola race weekend. The scene went like this: the shining stars that blanketed the dark ocean sky were our only source of light, we stood on our feet, Sophia’s warm arms that were now clad by my jacket went around my shoulders, mine were secured across her lower back, eyes mapping each other’s faces like every contour of our skin must be examined in the radiant serenity of the Italian night breeze. It was the classic, ‘we’ve talked for hours and now the sun is down and we have to leave each other. But there’s this invisible string between us that’s pulling us closer together, making us want to stay for just a little bit longer. So, one of us better think on their fucking feet on what else we can talk about, instead of smiling like fools who just lost their minds believing they’ve found their soulmates who’s gloriously standing in front of them now.’

And I was the one who decided to be that person. But I guess grinning like a fool also led to me asking something quite foolish and frankly, highly egotistical for someone who’s already comfortable in my narcissistic skin. 

Where did I find the balls to ask the most rare sunshine of a person that I’ve barely known for 24 hours to join me on my Imola race weekend both in the paddock, pitlane, and in my garage? Who the fuck do I think I am? I swore I’ve never felt that nervous under her scrutinizing gaze after I’ve asked the question, not even when I was signing-away my life in James’ office when I reached an opening to the doors premiere league of motorsports.

“I’ll just tell myself I misheard you and you didn’t actually say the word ‘banging’,” Sophia shook her head, face twisted at her nonna’s previous words. “And nonna, we’ve gone through this already. It’s totally fine that I joined you today, Harry was absolutely sweet and understanding about it.”

How else was I supposed to react otherwise? Anyone who would decline a boy’s offer in favor of spending time and taking care of their grandmothers will always be on my book of people to trust and admire. I knew I liked her a lot more than little at that point; despite the saddened pout I gave her that was totally meant for her to embrace me tighter without asking for it and really having lost all my ego.

“Yeah,” I agreed in sincerity. “I would have totally felt gutted and absolutely guilty if I knew she ditched her nonna for a boring old racer like me.”

Sophia looked at Angie with a triumphant smile, like saying, ‘See? You have nothing to worry about.’ But Angie just shook her head at us in clear disagreement.

“I don’t understand you youngsters nowadays. Angie mused, “Back in my day, I’d ditched anyone and everyone just to spend time with my summer love.”

Her pure nonchalance had poor Sophia choking on the sip of her drink right beside me, my hand automatically coming around to soothe her. All the while, my face transformed into a smirk of interest at this new turn in our conversation.

“First you use the word ‘banging’ and now you want to talk about ‘summer love’? Nonna, I think you need more nap time.”

I chuckled at the dry look Angie directed to her granddaughter, “And I thought the young ones can’t get any more boring! Yet here you are, mia bella, concerned about my nap time. Haven’t you learnt enough from the countless times I’ve told you about mine and your nonno’s summer love?”

The way Sophia vehemently shook her head in dread at her nonna’s question got my interest piqued more than ever. Especially when she caught my gaze, her face filled with more horror when Angie called my name with apparent excitement underneath her tone.

“Why don’t I tell Harry about nonno and I’s story? Maybe he can actually learn something and be the one to teach every unromantic bone in your body.”

Sophia gasped, “Excuse me? I am a very romantic person! It’s not my fault your and nonno’s story have just lost the spark of love for me when I’ve heard from the ages of zero to today.”

My eyes sprang to the same sounding gasp coming from Angie this time. “Oh, stop with your foolish words, mia bella. It’s not doing any good for dear Harry here who’s absolutely at the edge of his seat waiting to hear my timeless love story.”

If the exchange wasn’t happening so quickly, I would probably have been concerned at Sophia who turned her neck towards me in record time, hands coming up to grip my bicep. “Harry, tell her no.” But then more words continued to flow.

“Earlier you wanted to burn his tongue with too many chili flakes, and now you want to put words in his mouth?”

“I did not do any of that! Nonna, this is you saying things like wanting to tell your love story because you just miss nonno; you’re projecting like a teenager missing her boyfriend.”

“I am not a silly teenager, too obsessed with her man! Besides, can you blame me if I was when all I’ve had for the past month is scheduled FaceTime calls with my husba-”

And then both heated Italian ladies stopped like they were just catapulted into the ocean, the mass of water silencing their frenzied words. Except I was left more confused on my seat when both ladies began to speak in rapid Italian that my rusty knowledge of the language did not allow me to understand a thing. What I did catch was their apologetic looks when they realized I was still at the dinner table.

“Gesù Cristo, how impolite of me.” Angie walked to the side of my seat, the feel of her gentle palm felt comfortable on my skin when she cupped my face to look at her. “Ragazzo prezioso, apologies for the way I disregarded you and that I have to cut this dinner short. You see, my aged brain has forgotten that my husband and I do have scheduled FaceTime calls every day at this time of the afternoon since he’s not here and is having a hiking trip with his mates all the way in Peru.”

I was sure my non-toxic masculinity heart actually melted in the pure saccharine that coated Angie’s admission, the hopeless romantic in me lighting up. “Now, don’t let me be a villain in your bewitching love story, Angie. That’s the last thing I would want to be as your guest.” Angie giggled, the youthful sound I knew only came from those who still feel like a teenager drunk in love.

“Besides, I think Sophia here wouldn’t mind that she be the one to tell me the beginning of your summer romance,” I chanced a glance at Sophia, amusement dancing in my eyes at the look of utter aversion my suggestion washed her in. I don’t let that deter me from smiling like an angel at her nonna. “Doesn't she look the most thrilled at having the honor to be your storyteller? Your real preziosa nipote.”

I expected the snort that Angie let out, one look at her precious granddaughter and you’d detect the sarcasm hidden in my flowery words. But whatever witty retort I thought Angie would mutter, I never thought for once that it would render me stupefied on my seat.

With another loving tap delivered on my cheek, Angie smiled at me with her soft eyes brimming with affirmation. “I’d rather spare mia bella with that hardship, I’m not that cruel. Anyway, you’d be here for all the other dinners I’d prepare next so I have plenty of time to teach you the ways of love, ragazzo prezioso. No need to hurry in that fast car of yours.” and then she winked at me, saying her last goodbyes for the day amidst my shell-shocked expression.

It was just about after Sophia’s return after following her nonna’s orders of fetching the freshly baked brownies in the kitchen that I had returned from my stupor, “Did your nonna just agreed for me to crash all her dinners without telling me directly that she did?”

At my clear astounded tone, I watched Sophia try to cover her laughter as she sat in front of me in Angie’s previous seat, delicately placing the tray of chocolate goodness between the two of us on the table. “Technically, she acknowledged your RSVP after you’ve somewhat invited yourself over in your earlier declaration.” I accepted the spoon Sophia handed me, my eyes not missing a beat at the undeniable flush that escaped her ‘traitorous cheeks’ as she liked to label them. I might actually say the same thing when my own cheeks dented in their own accord as I smiled at such a simple observation.

I couldn’t help it. I felt so light upon hearing that admission from Angie. “Your nonna likes me. Your nonna Red Bull fan actually fucking likes me.”

My dopey tone is what probably initiated the roll of eyes Sophia gave me, “She’s not the biggest F1 fan in general, so I can’t fault her for easily trusting the enemy in her home.” She shrugged like my triumphant energy was misplaced. “Besides, we’ve already established that you got her weak at the knees since you showed her your dimples at the entryway.”

That made me snort like a pig, her bitter tone only fueling my teasing antics. “She likes me more than my dimples. Sunflower, let’s not project your own flaws onto your lovely nonna. Not everyone would only like me just for my dashing dimples.”

Sophia’s jaw dropped, my taunt hitting right where I aimed it. “Did you honestly just imply that I only liked you for your looks?”

I shrugged, neither denying or confirming her question. “I mean, that’s all you’ve complimented about me tonight. how was I supposed to believe otherwise?”

“Please,” Sophia breathed out like her answer was rather obvious. “I’m not going to shower you with verbal compliments because I’m just not that type of girl, and come on! There’s no chance I’d help in further inflating a McLaren driver’s already narcissistic head.”

I whistled at her bold remark, eyes filled with mischief. “And that’s really not helping your case of only liking my physical attributes.”

I started this exchange knowing how it elicited a fire in Sophia’s demeanor; one that’s glimmering with fervor every time I bantered with her. But the other fact that I knew so wholeheartedly it still leaves me feeling speechless, is how one look from her soulful eyes alone, I knew my Sunflower appreciated me bounds away from what she can just see in my appearance, much more than just my alluring billionaire-bachelor-racer persona.

She’s a rare person who wouldn’t settle for that, wouldn’t settle to be known as something so minimum. I heard it in her next words. “I like you much more than just your physical and superficial attributes that I’d give you the revered position of being the first to have a slice of Angie’s scrumptious brownies.”

See? She’s a one-of-a kind human being who believes anything with chocolate holds a superior power that can answer anything. Unfortunately for me, I actually would think chocolate runs in my veins if I don’t just get regular health check-ups for my profession. ‘I love chocolate’ is a statement that cannot suffice to describe who I really am.

I lifted a brow of intrigue, “A revered position, huh? Sounds like something I’d be into.”

Sophia proceeded to nod her head, the single, confident action alone speaks volumes of the truth that she actually likes more parts of me because she knows me. “Yup. I can personally attest that this position I’m bestowing to you is much more coveted than a pole position in racing.”

“Oh really?” With my elbow resting on the table, I rested my cheek on my own palm as I watched Sophia begin to get some of the gooey brownie on her fork. “You’d know it’s much more coveted because you've experienced a pole position yourself? Bloody hell, Sunflower. Have you actually driven an F1 car before and chose not to tell me?”

A fork full of chocolate heaven made its way on my parted lips. Sophia feeding me herself is a brilliant surprise I truly did not expect, nor were her next words. “I haven’t had the chance to drive one, actually.” She then fed herself some brownies with the same fork, eyes locked on appraising ones. “But that might change if you let me drive yours tomorrow.”

The meaning of her statement came quick enough to be able to restrain me from actually ignoring her company in favor of having a single conversation with the pan of brownies staring at me. Because it was that fucking mouthwateringly good I was willing to ignore a glowing Sunflower. Hence, I was proud of myself for meeting Sophia’s nonchalant gaze while taking a decent forkful of our dessert.

In the most natural yet boldest move I’ve yet made to a girl I utterly fancy, I placed my free hand with my palm raised upwards on the table, a clear invitation for something. My grin is blinding when my Sunflower doesn’t even bat an eye and effortlessly enveloped her fingers with mine.

“So, you’re planning to join my crazy weekend after all?” Sophia shrugged a shoulder, pink lips closing on her fork to eat every crumb of her brownies. 

“You did hear how my nonna basically lectured me for being a boring lady,” She had a fond look in her eyes, as if she’s remembering her and Angie’s colorful exchange earlier when one would think she was truly annoyed about. “I kind of have to prove to her now that I have plenty of romantic bones inside me.”

“Personally, I don’t think you have to prove her, or anyone for that matter, anything.” I regarded her answer with a confident smile. “Remember, you did save me from my woes yesterday like my true, romantic, knight in shining bright handbag.”

Sophia’s giggles produced a sound that grips me just as much as her tangible hold on my hand. “That I did. But I never actually thought it was romantic, more like I tried to be the kind person who helps people in need.”

“Whatever way it was, it sounds romantic to me.” I scooped a forkful of chocolate goodness and fed an intrigued Sophia, probably surprised that I could talk to her and feed her simultaneously in such an easy fashion. “I don’t know about you, but I find kindness hot.”

There must be something in my statement that really got to Sophia, enough for her to smile with her pearly white smudged with chocolate all for my eyes to see. If her touch, smile, giggles, and blush had a grip on my heart, my Sunflower’s utter confidence about herself and lack of care for what she may look or seem in front of me because she’s simply living her truth - has a chokehold on my soul.

“In this way, are you saying the start of our summer romance already happened yesterday?”

I copied her pondering expression, as if we were discerning a very serious matter in our hands. “I think it was. I don’t think there’s any other way I’d be able to tell the truth of how I started to fall for you without mentioning my foolish moments from yesterday.”

I knew I said quite a hefty admission there, acknowledging the blush that crept Sophia’s cheek like clockwork. But I also knew she wouldn’t want to hear my admission any other way, that she’s also ready to acknowledge the depth of what we had found in each other. The way she squeezed our entwined hands to confirm my beliefs will be forever branded in my memory.

“I agree with you.” Sophia replied softly, her smile stretching her strawberry pink cheeks. “Falling for you wouldn’t make sense otherwise.”

A comfortable silence followed our simple yet heartfelt confessions. As someone who’s used to silence after all the fanfare of racing has concluded, I’m now able to fully comprehend that special kind of silence my mum has always urged me about. She told me that I should find the person who makes me feel alive in the loudest and especially the quietest moments of my life. I was doubting the existence of such a phenomena, not when my kind of silence always had loneliness creeping behind it.

But now I understand. Basking in the silence of Sophia’s bright-lit face with the orange and tangerine hues of the sunset behind her, I fully grasped it. I’ve experienced that special kind of silence, not just with any person, but with my Sunflower.

These sentiments are what braved me to speak my sappy mind, “Sunflower, you going to be my lucky charm this weekend?”

And because she’s the rarest person meant for me, she snorted like I was crazy. “Don’t be daft! I’m simply accompanying you to your race weekend because I have to see for myself if you really should keep driving, Bunny.”

“Heyyy!” that man-child whine I can’t seem to grow out of left my pouty lips, “I was just asking a question and you’re being all unreasonably mean to me.”

“Bunny,” Sophia gently pulled our clasped hands closer to her, her other hand leaving the fork she was using to also cover our laced palms. “You can’t blame me for wondering when the first time I saw you, your car was broken on the street. The next time I saw you on my television screen, you were locking up and spinning 180 degrees out of nowhere in every chicane and hairpin you passed.”

“I didn’t in Sector 1.”

My grumbled reply failed when she only laughed at my sour expression. “Well, I bloody hope you didn’t cause can you even call it premier league racing when you already mess up at the start of the race?  You see, not such stellar driving I’ve seen so far.”

My determined, curse-the-naysayer-cause-I’m-going-to-win racing persona stumbled into the surface. “I’ll be in the podium for tomorrow’s qualifying.” My brave promise is met with a mischievous smirk filled with bruning challenges.

“I have to see you in Q3 before I believe your words.”

Alright. Can this girl get any more perfect for me? A woman after my own heart: actions before words. But has anyone told her I heard what she meant loud and clear?

I bet no one did. That’s why I’d just show her instead.

🌻🌻🌻

“Do I have to also give you an orange leash so you don’t go running off to the Red Bull garage?”

“Funny.” If I didn’t find his humor attractive, I would have stopped placing the badges he gave me around my neck and flipped him off with both my hands. “I already have one orange lanyard, I think I’m all maxed out for that horrendous color.”

“Sassy. You think you’ll be able to keep those daggers for eyes much better if I just confiscate the McLaren hospitality badge from you and just leave you with the paddock badge and the one for pitlane?”

Harry’s tone was casual, both of us wearing a designer pair of shades that hides his mischievous gleaming eyes from my view. “As your guest, I’m seriously finding it appalling that you’d think of leaving me to fend for myself in this motorsport lion's den.”

The clear dramatics in my words earned me a blinding grin from Harry, the dents in his cheeks enough to trip me on my feet if we were walking. Thank fuck we weren’t. We were standing a few feet apart, freshly out from his McLaren vintage ride that I can confirm did not stop on any side street when he picked me up from my house this morning.

“Come here.”

Two simple words that only required two steps before I was right in front of him breaking any kind of personal space. This near to him, our height difference might be daunting for some, but not for me. Not in the way the gentle giant of a racer softly pulled my hands to his lips and left tender kisses on my knuckles.

“Hold my hand please.” He stated more than requested, “I don’t want my Sunflower, who belongs in a field of breathtaking flowers, to get lost in the barbarian streets of the paddock.”

His equally dramatic sentiments brought a content smile to my freshly-glossed lips. “If you must, my adorable yet lionhearted, Bunny.”

Whatever unspoken worries that surrounded Harry and I over our ride here, vanished with the fresh morning Italian wind right in that instant. How can I be worried about the countless whispers and flashes of cameras and phones as we walked inside the paddock, when Harry’s assured hold on my hand just made me shine like the sunshine he always tells me that I am?

Granted that I haven’t been in the paddock before and this close to the actual racing-media-drama action, I’ve been to a handful of Grand Prixs myself to see and observe from afar. I recognize how all this media frenzy is a vital part of Formula 1 to gain and give-back to all the supporters of this billion-dollar earning sport. I’ve watched all four seasons of Drive To Survive on Netflix, I’m not one to talk badly of something I’ve taken part in and enjoyed myself. But I also understand upon getting to know McLaren’s Golden Boy that most of the time, the media isn’t all rainbows and unicorn magic. Harry was very keen in informing me of what I was getting myself into being the first woman he’d ever brought with him on a race weekend.

Such knowledge would most probably render any person frightened with the repercussions, but for reasons unknown to me, I wasn’t. I gave him a bare minimum of a verbal reply and decided instead to show it in my actions that I was a brave Sunflower whether on the field or not. With our clasped hands comfortably swinging beside us, I paid no mind to the escalating amounts of cameras blocking our sides as we walked quietly to the McLaren hospitality, my frequent squeezes to his hand delivered the message that I was fine and dandy like the sunshine shining above our way.

“See? I’m still here in one piece.” I told Harry gleefully as he led me inside the dominantly orange motorhome. He stopped at the bottom of a staircase and pushed his sunglasses up on his adorably messy curls.

“My brave Sunflower,” He praised in a nod filled with approval, “You just survived the bare minimum of this race weekend chaos but I don’t think you need any warnings anymore as I lead you to the middle of the storm.”

His telling words left me confused more than anything he’s ever told me. Nonetheless I  trusted him blindly to drag me along with him up the stairs and straight to his driver’s room where I met the literal middle of the storm he was talking about.

“Harry Edward Styles, you fucking bitch, she’s gorgeous!”

I was thrusted in the expressive arms of Harry Lambert, his exuberant and utterly colorful trainer who upon being introduced, took it to be his responsibility to tour me around the motorhome and introduce me to Harry’s entire team. And despite Harry’s dejected pout for being ignored, I succumbed to Lambert’s plans with the biggest smile on my face and warmest hugs on my arms for every new face I met.

“You know, you’re the first girl he’d brought along with him aside from his sister and mum.” Lambert noted while we drank some orange juice on the upstairs eating lounge after we spent a lengthy time talking with a lot of McLaren employees that range from media, PR, strategists, data analysts, to wellness and medical staff.

“As I’ve been told.” My eyes wandered to the other end of the room where the man in question was filming a video for the McLaren Unboxed Imola episode for their YouTube channel. He must have felt my stare, he winked at me all exaggeratedly that made him look like a damn fool.

It made me giggle so he didn’t mind how he looked on camera and giggled along with me.

“And I think you’ll be the only one he’ll ever be bringing.”

My attention returned to Lambert. My brow curved at the gleam in his eyes as if he knew something vital that I have yet to realize. “What?” he laughed at my inquisitive expression. “I’m just speaking based on observations. I’ve never seen Styles this loco over a girl.”

“You haven’t even seen us interact together. I was with you this entire time.”

“Please!” Lambert dismissed my defense with a dramatic hand flip, “He doesn’t have to be physically near you for me to see he’s gaga over you. I can literally feel his eyes trained on you everywhere we go. Honestly, it’s nauseating.”

Before I can even dissect Lamber’s sentiments, I feel it too. Without looking at his direction, I feel the gaze of Harry’s green irises pointed in my direction, specifically, I know his presence is near mine without hearing any footsteps or a breath coming from him. This sudden strong awareness I have for his aura caused me to abruptly turn to face him, and saw that he wasn’t alone this time wearing their god awful black and orange team wear.

Beside Harry is his McLaren teammate, Nicholas Grimshaw, who looks very much the lively and mischievous individual that he is on most live streams of races I have watched. He doesn’t even mind that he’s blatantly smirking my way and Harry’s, like an obnoxious friend ready to unleash the teasing weapons.

Nick actually goes straight for the hit. “Alright, I’ve heard I have a new job today which is to prevent the lady of the McLaren’s Golden Boy from escaping to the Red Bull garage while said tosser is going to be stuck in a meeting.”

“Nick!” Harry looked at his friend with eyes about to fall off from his sockets, his tone of complete mortification enough to make me giggle behind my hand at this new dynamic I’m seeing in person.

“Harold, don’t get your knickers in a twist.” Nick placed a consoling arm around Harry’s shoulders. “I was just trying to test if you picked a good person, and considering that she just laughed at you, I’m confirming that you did. So good job, bud!”

I’ve never witnessed Harry roll his eyes in the same fervent passion that I do to him when he annoys me in our regular banyer, but right now I’ve got a front row seat for it. “Honestly, man. You haven’t even introduced yourself.” Harry sighed in exasperation at his friend who just winked at me. “You’re the only person I know who’s been around me this long and not even just a smidge of my politeness and good character has rubbed-off on you. God, I look like such an angel beside you.”

On cue, Nick and I burst-out in doubling-over laughter. Both Harrys gazed at us like we’ve lost the plot somehow.

“You narcissistic pig!” Nick exclaimed, giving a confused Harry a high-five. “I’m proud of you for not sugarcoating your true self in the dating scene.”

“And I’m proud that you have such a creative imagination for liking yourself to an angel. But Bunny, I’m sorry to say that your angelic curls don't translate for you to be some spiritual entity. Your ego is quite large to fit in your helmet let alone the gates of heaven.”

Rambunctious laughter erupted between the ¾ of us, and it’s to no one’s surprise that the only one left in our conversation is Harry, who was now pouting with his arms folded across his chest. “You guys are ganging-up on me, it’s not funny.”

“I like this one, I like her a lot.” Nick pointed at me with a splitting grin, arms opening wide that welcomed me in a hug. “Nick Grimshaw, it’s nice to meet you.” I offered him the same sentiments by introducing my name just as we released from our friendly embrace. Without missing a beat, somehow I traded places with Nick and was now pulled to the side of some other McLaren driver.

“Cheeky.” I pinched Harry’s hand that wrapped itself around my waist. But the man had the audacity to ignore my comment by pulling me closer to his side and placing butterfly kisses on my temple.

“Can’t help it, Sunflower. I missed you.” I’m pretty sure Harry’s whispered words were only audible to my now pinking ears, though whatever it is his friends are seeing is probably not doing much better either as Lambert made sure to mouth the words ‘nauseating’ loud enough for me to hear with just his faux disgusted face.

“I would really love to see more of this play out,” Nick’s smirking face motioned animatedly at whatever he was seeing between Harry and I. “like it’s so rare to see young Harold here finally growing-up and finding a lady. But I believe it’s time for someone to go, and it’s the hour for me to get some tea from the lady while I show her the garage. Which by the way,” Nick regarded me with a puzzled expression, “Sophia, are you sure you want to spend time in the garage? Won’t it just bore you?”

Harry snorted loudly before I could answer the question. “Oh, Grimmy!” he guffawed like Nick was being ridiculous. “I told you to look after her in the garage because I know she would probably do something to my car like the absolute genius that she is with them that would make it faster. And I don’t want to get disqualified for not following the FIA rules by tampering with a car, as much as I would love to feel like we were driving cars rather than carrots.”

I tilted my head to the side to catch Harry’s eyes, “Please. I’d never do that. Who do you think you are to get free improvement services from me? There’s no way I’d be touching a McLaren car before I do a Red Bull.”

I felt myself grinning at Lambert’s shocked gasp about my admission, Harry’s amused face not doing much for me than causing my cheeks to turn brighter for just a tad bit more, nothing too serious. It’s Nick’s slow clap with a smirk of pure mischief that has me smiling more than anything.

“Marvelous.” Nick regarded me with a new light of intrigue. “A car genius and a Red Bull woman all in one package. I think I’d personally talk to James to get you a permanent spot at the mechanics and car development committee just so I’ll have my right hand in squandering Harold.”

Harry’s resulting signature man-child whine of a ‘Heeeyyyy!’ is overshadowed by Nick and I’s harmonious and synchronized evil laugh. I think it’s best to say that Harry was pouting at me the entire time Lambert kept pushing him to his meeting while I happily clung my arm to the one Nick offered to me. But as much as a pull his saddened puppy eyes and adorable pouting lips had in me, it does not compare to the number it did to me when I finally reached his McLaren garage and was introduced to all the mechanics and engineers present. 

Since everything about automobiles and F1 is as easy as breathing to me, I naturally engaged and adapted better than well at the garage. The team’s looks of surprise at my apparent fountain of knowledge was an extra boost to me and their enthusiasm in showing me all the big and grand and bits and bobs about Harry’s orange vehicle, including how each of them perform their individual tasks.

I guess I truly lost my sense of time while I was having the time of my life in a McLaren garage, no less, that I didn’t even notice Harry’s meeting had finished and Nick had left to take his turn until I felt the former’s now familiar arms wrap around me in a back hug. He pulled me to his torso while his head race engineer was telling me about the different strategies that he and Harry had done in previous races, explaining to me which one he liked and didn’t.

“Will, you’re boring my guest out, mate.” Harry complained faux annoyed at his race engineer who just looked at us and chuckled. “Nobody wants to hear your boring strategies. Strategies that don't change the fact that it looks like I’m driving a tractor on the race track.”

“Hey,” I reached behind me to cup his jaw and squeezed his cheeks together. “Don’t be mean, Bunny.” he tried to speak in denial but it resulted in a grumble-mumble that made no sense than making him look like an idiot that got me and Will chuckling.

“You should listen to your girl, Harry. Don’t be mean.” Will offered me a fist bump which I accepted, a gasp of betrayal falling from Harry’s lips when I let his cheeks be.

“Why does everyone in my team seem to side with you now?” Harry maneuvered me around his arms so that we were now facing each other. “Don’t tell me you’re also done hexing my mechanics while I was gone?” 

I didn’t need to verbally reply because it seemed like all pairs of eyes and ears present in the garage were currently pinned our way in utmost interest. 

“Harry, we don’t need hexing from Sophia when clearly you’re the one who hexed her in joining your daft ass here.” one mechanic said, the majority of them nodded along in agreement.

“She’s a car genius, man.” Another noted, “I had to take a double-look if she was wearing our team gear cause I thought she was going to replace my job.” Now that got me laughing amongst the others.

“Me too!” another (or three?) mechanic shared. “I didn’t even know she’s your girl, Styles. Because I could have sworn you’re a bit of an idiot when it comes to cars so it really didn’t add up to me how’d you get the attention of someone amazing like her.”

“That’s your answer.” I turned to Harry with the brightest gleam in my eyes at all of his team’s - in my opinion - glowing remarks. “Who knew that McLaren's Golden Boy is a manipulator?” I raised a finger on his lips that I knew were about to combat my words. “First, he apparently fooled me to join his daft ass on this race weekend.” I pressed another finger on his lips to continue my point. “And second, he fooled his mechanics that he’s just a bit of an idiot when it comes to cars. The audacity.”

I don’t remember the exact moment I learned to look into his eyes and be able to tell what he’s about to do. That’s why I have no idea how I perfectly escaped his big paws holding my hips that were about to attack me with tickles. I was screaming in laughter as I ran out of the garage with Harry. The absolute idiot began to chase after me whilst all of the McLaren staff laughed and recorded the entire thing.

“I swear to God, Bunny!” I screeched at his running figure while I found a second of reprieve behind a stack of wheels. “If you come near me with your nasty paws, I will seriously cut them off your arms and you won’t get to operate another steering wheel in your life!”

His melodious laughter is not the reply I was looking for. “And what are you going to do with them? Feed them to literal red bulls?”

Now he’s just coming for my home team. I would have loved to continue this banter he loves to arise in me but the only thing I could do was to flip him the bird using both my hands like I’ve wanted to do earlier as he began to chase me around the pitlane again. I was honestly losing my breath and was about to concede defeat when the next second I looked back to see how far Harry was from reaching me, it was in perfect time to watch the most monumental scene unfold before me.

A running mad racer named Harry Styles, just successfully ran over my ultimate F1 idol who was on his way out of his own Red Bull garage. Niall Horan, with his pristinely coiffed blonde hair, didn’t even bat an eye when Harry pretty much tackled him on the ground in the hopes of stopping himself from actually running over and injuring his Irish friend.

It must be some normal occurrence in the pitlanes because no one even offered them a hand. And as I approached them, the two didn’t even mind hugging and scuffling each other on the dirty floors like that. I couldn’t help but giggle at their adorable flushed and laughing faces which shifted their attention towards my standing figure before them.

“Bunny, if I knew the real reason why you don’t want me to meet the only driver I’ve ever devoted my life supporting is because you’ve already called dibs on him, you could have just told me and I wouldn’t have taken offense.”

My joke must have caught them off-guard for a second. But Harry’s loud and pained groan that developed into uncontrollable laughter coupled with Niall’s hysterical cackles, made me preen like it was the greatest kind of compliment. As much as I’ve fully converted to a full Harry girly outside (and inside, but don’t tell the narcissistic twat) of racing, my Niall Horan girlie side will never be forgotten.

With laughter still vibrating from their fireproofs-clad chests, I watched in total high spirits as the two idiots helped each other from the floor. It took them a grand amount of five tries before their infectious laughter had stopped dragging them down the floor. My own giggles however, did not seem to want to be contained as I looked at Harry standing in front of me with Niall hiding behind his much taller frame, with the Irish’s arms wrapped around his middle. If they weren’t wearing their fireproofs with the arms of their race suits dangling by their legs, I would honestly coo at the classic prom-like pose they showed me.

“I knew it was about time someone would catch our relationship,” Niall told Harry but his mirthful gaze was trained at me. “I knew the love in our eyes was simply irresistible to miss, my English Tea.”

“Hush now, my Irish Beer.” I watched as Harry’s arms tightened around Niall’s hold on his middle, the two of them staring at my reaction. “I wouldn’t want Mitch to hear about our burning love for each other. You know how that Caffè Americano can be.”

“Don’t you worry about that Caffè Americano,” there was nothing soothing at Niall’s tone that was filled instead with playful deceit. “He won’t hear a single thing about our sizzling, passionate love affair.” The Irish took it up a notch and nuzzled Harry’s earlobe, the latter’s resulting adorable tickled giggles brought flashbacks of last night when I did the same at Harry’s small ears when we shared a tight embrace under the tangerine sunset of my nonna’s backyard.

But unlike me - who nuzzled Harry’s ear a couple more times just to hear his absolutely precious little happy noises like my true Bunny that he is - Niall didn’t see the same appeal. “I’ll get my Yorkshire Tea teammate to distract Caffè Americano so I’ll have you all to myself, my steaming cup of yummy goodness English Tea!”

If he was anyone other than Niall Horan, I would have been long gone in this apparent conversation exclusive only for rich dolts. Unfortunately, the blonde one had me hooked ever since I first saw him perform the Irish Jig on his maiden win in Monza.

“Should I be concerned that Formula 1 drivers apparently use beverages as endearments?” I leveled Niall’s curved brow of intrigue. “Though I do commend you for choosing English Tea for him. I do suppose it sounds ways lovelier than the measly ‘Bunny’ that I call him.”

It honestly surprised me when Niall’s jaw dropped in equal amounts of shock and began jumping up and down while shaking the hell out of a disturbed McLaren driver. “I knew it! I fucking knew it!” Niall screamed in delight. “I knew I wasn’t the only one who thought Styles is a bunny personified! Jesus fucking Christ, I’m not the insane one, you shitheads!”

And then Niall proceeds to counter his statements by insanely bunny hopping all exaggeratedly towards my direction. “I’m Niall Horan, by the way.” He introduced himself as if I didn’t have the best seat in the house watching Harry and him interact earlier with their stares situated at me the entire time. “I want to know the name of the magnificent woman who had proven to everyone here in the pitlane that I’m not some loco who thought my English Tea looked like a bunny.” And then he winked at me.

Niall Horan in all his Irish glory just winked at me…I think I short circuited cause the next second I regained consciousness, Harry joined the conversation. I’m not sure what I missed but Harry’s broody expression pointed at his friend and the way he made a show of curving his firm arm around my waist, must indicate something pretty unpleasant. His tone didn’t help either in dispelling my theory, “Her name is Sophia, and you’ve just used your one and only compliment penny for her.”

Despite being the one introduced, none of the two racers’ attention were directed at me. I’m literally in the middle of a stand-off that I don’t understand the beginnings of. Honestly, F1 drivers are bloody weird. One minute they were laughing together acting as lovers with me as the third wheel, and now I’m the spread to a testosterone filled sandwich.

“Who would have thought,” Niall displayed the mightiest smirk at Harry, “that the first and only time I see my young boy Styles find a person, she would be a Red Bull girl.”

Why wasn’t I surprised that the news about me being a Red Bull apologist had flown so quickly around the paddock? What’s more amusing is that the man curled beside me seemed to continue to act on my behalf as he genuinely looked shocked at Niall’s words. “How in the bloody world did you know about that? Who’s the traitor I have to give a very stern telling to?”

I couldn’t help but snort unattractively at Harry’s serious expression, especially when Niall only rolled his eyes at Harry’s obliviousness. “You really should learn to use the group chat, gramps.” If I failed to cover my mouth when another snort came out, only Harry’s narrowed eyes and Niall’s own snort would bear witness to it.

“It was Grimmy, wasn’t it?” I could even answer that question for Harry using bold and capital letters spelling Y-E-S. But before I could enlighten my confused Bunny, Niall’s loud tone made it absolutely impossible to utter anything before him.

“Styles, we have all the time in the world to talk about your teammate and the efficiency of all the old-man dance grooves you taught him, because clearly,” Niall whistled, blatantly checking me out in my white sundress, “your gramps pulling moves are fucking working well! Look at the beauty you’ve hooked.”

Niall’s kind smile towards me showcased that he was doing everything good naturedly and wasn’t being a nasty creep. But Harry, bless him, only tightened his hold around me like a protective alpha male. “Hey! Eyes on me, Horan.” He barked with no real bite because he’s a true bunny like Niall and I proved. “And I already told you, you’re out of compliment pennies for Soph.”

“How can I not compliment Sophia when you literally picked the best girl in all of Italy, and not just because of her looks,” His exaggerated wink towards my direction and Harry’s resulting groan made me giggle without abandon. “But also, and mainly fucking cause, you chose to date a Niall Horan girlie.” He smiles proudly at the two of us. “I don’t think anything tops that for me, mate. Fuck! It feels like I’ve won my iconic Monaco Grand Prix all over again!”

And because he’s apparently bursting at the seams, gleeful for Harry and I’s meeting, Niall wordlessly pulled all three of us in a hug while slobbering our cheeks with affectionate kisses. If I thought Niall Horan was chaotic on my television screen, then certainly nothing prepared me for the real deal in person. 

I didn’t even short circuit this time because I’ve officially confirmed that the man is too crazy for me, like we can’t work as lovers because there’s no way I can keep up with his lively energy. I’m sorry my teenage self, but it looks like we’re sticking to the dimpled, angel curls, adorable bunny hopping Golden Boy driver, and let’s just look past the eye-burning orange team gear.

“Okay, okay, Ni, stop!” I felt for Harry’s pleas that were drowned by all our laughter and Niall’s persistent golden retriever slobbers. “Stop putting your saliva on me and my girl, man. This isn’t cool for my image that I let you shower me with this much affection!”

Harry’s words lacked the threat he was trying to imply, but it somehow made Niall’s movements stop like the unpredictable man that he was. With one last deep kiss on our cheeks and a hearty squeeze of our shoulders, Niall finally left us to have some personal space to breathe in.

“He’s a needy one.” Niall cocked a brow at me in warning, “Don’t know if you’re ready to have a bunny running after you everywhere you go for 24/7, Soph.”

Since when did Niall Horan care for my well-being? And since when did I find myself having the natural ease to fuel his teasing towards Harry? What is my life?

“Thanks for the warning,” I nodded at Niall’s cheeky smile, looking all coy and nonchalant. “But I think I have a bigger problem than just a bunny following me around all day long. Did you know that your friend here is more like a wolf when needing attention? I swear his humongous size and meaty paws almost smothered me with too much affection when he hauled me for a cuddle. I thought he was beyond needy, to be honest with you.”

Right there in that moment, I could actually bet my entire yellow handbag collection that Harry Styles’ fellow driver friends absolutely adore to tease every little bit about him. When Niall all but catapulted his springy self towards my direction once more, pulling my arms to jump up and down with him like two teenage-girls squealing about their crushes, I completely become at peace in my new found reality that Niall Horan is meant to fill that best friend role in my life.

“Oh my god yes!” Niall punched the air as he finally put a halt to our jump, heavy arm sliding its way on my shoulders in a friendly embrace. “Grimmy wasn’t fucking around. You are the shit for our boy Styles here.” He was definitely complimenting me in some way, but I couldn’t exactly register anything too coherent when I’m trying to catch my breath from all that activity. Jesus, how could anyone keep up with this guy?

“I know she’s the shit for me,” That’s the only time my attention shifted back to Harry who I thought would be pouting at our antics. But instead, he was regarding Niall and I with a fond expression, like he was really fascinated with what he was seeing. Or maybe he was just able to read my eyes that I’ve officially crossed-off any chances of being Mrs. Horan and he’s just trying not to gloat at that new truth. I won’t put that theory past him, since the amount of times we’re able to understand each other with just one look is honestly getting a little concerning.

“Don’t ruin my parade, Styles.” Niall brushed-off, patting my shoulder. “Just be happy that I found a new friend and a new member to the grid’s Harry Styles Fan Club.”

“Naturally I’m very happy for you,” Harry’s tone was coated with thick sarcasm; it was impossible not to smile at it. “I wouldn’t dare doubt the evil things you and Nick are able to plot in that specific fan club, and I’m seriously going to be concerned for my remaining bits of dignity now that you have my Sunflower to join the mix. Now can you please return her to me?”

“Nope.” Niall shook his head casually, “She’s coming with me to the fan event. I like her far too much to let you monopolize all her time.”

“Of course you have to fucking like her too much!” Harry raised his hands in deafening exclamation, nothing in his tone nor beaming face displayed any ounce of exasperation as his words would suggest. He looks pretty damn happy to be honest, and I can’t help to start feeling the same when his green gems turned softer.

“Because of course the one and only time I find the person I was meant for, everyone steals her from me because they bloody like her too. It’s so easy.” He laughed like he couldn’t believe how lucky he is for having that. “Everything about this is so effortless because she’s really my person.”

I didn’t even care about anything after that. His admission made me outwardly swoon like an absolute lovestruck heroine in a heart-palpitating romance read. I’m pink like a fluff of cotton candy all over my white sundress. Though nothing beats the fair Irish beside me, whose hands are gripped on my arm for life support. Niall’s red as a tomato, moony eyes sparkled in mine in pure awe.

“I think my boy just got hit by an F1 car and all the g-forces propelled him to fall straight and hard for you.”

I don’t even have to verbally agree with Niall's perfect explanation. With eyes peering beneath my heavy lashes, my cobalt blue meets Golden Boy’s emerald gems. Just that one look, Harry knows. He can see it in my actions, gathered directly at the center of my irises.

I also got hit by an F1 car, all g-forces hurled me straight right to him pretty fucking hard. And you know what’s the best part of all this crashing tragedy? 

We both did it with open arms.

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In all honesty, I knew since the very start when I invited Sophia for the Imola race weekend that she wouldn’t abandon me regardless if she’s a Red Bull fan or that she can’t stand the color of my team. She’s just a truly kind and faithful sweet girl, all wrapped in a stunning little white sundress.

I also knew that every single one of my team and friends would absolutely adore her, especially when they got hit by the blaring fact that she doesn’t care about my career status and all the fame and here-say social etiquette that should follow that. Sophia acts around me without any pretenses or favoritism, just the way I’d accept it.

I guess the only thing I didn’t expect is the degree of liking my friends would garner towards her. I wasn’t sure if they’d interact with her with a little more caution and intrigue because she’s the first ever girl I’ve brought to the paddock aside from my family members. But looking back at the exchanges in my motorhome with Grimmy and Lambert, at my garage with all my engineers and mechanics, the whole bizarre interaction with Niall, and don’t even get me started on the fan event.

The fan event outside the paddock is apparently where Niall was heading to before my clumsy ass tumbled to him. And since I’d already taken his time and I just couldn’t begin to imagine not seeing anymore the spring in Sophia’s steps while talking to Niall, I let the two of them get to know each other as we all walked to the fan event where I was to join with all the drivers as well. Now I don’t know how it exactly began, but while waiting for the actual fan event to start, the backstage waiting room had turned to my Sunflower’s fan event.

Every single one of my peers at the current grid was flocked around the couch where we were sitting. The entire time that I secured her hand on my lap, Niall was sitting on her other side asking her about the different types of tea he should drink because somewhere along the thirty minutes they knew each other, Sophia has somehow convinced Niall to start drinking tea that can cool down his rabid personality. And then because we're talking about his favorite drink on the planet, Louis Tomlinson, the other Red Bull driver, materializes in front of Sophia. They hit it straight-off like I could even be surprised anymore. They started conversing about local Italian boutiques because he plans to shop for his plethora of little sisters. 

Speaking of sisters, my other close Mercedes driver friend, Jeff Azoff, joins in the exchange together with Liam Payne, my other friend from the same team because they happen to have sisters of their own. Again, I don’t know what took place, but from talking about Italian boutiques, it led to her opinions on the dating scene in Italy which brought the attention of Grimmy on the circle with us because he’s a self-proclaimed serial dater. 

In a blink of an eye, everyone was caught in the brightly burning orbit that my Sunflower possessed. It didn’t help that her automobiles and anything related to F1 knowledge was better than superb, because it finally pulled the attention of the reserved and observant, Mitch Rowland. Right when that finally happened, I knew I was completely obliterated.

All my closest friends in the world revere my soulmate. I think my mum and sister would 140% kill me for not introducing my person to them first. I’m not worried about their take on Sophia because I know they’d love her just as much as my friends. I’m more worried about being ignored by the ladies of my life when the inevitable time of the three of them to meet takes place. And with the combined mouths of Nick and Niall that never shut up, I won’t be surprised if I get a call tonight from Gem and Mum demanding me to fly Sophia to London straightaway for dinner.

“I can’t believe you’ve got Mitch’s approval in the first interaction you shared with him.” I shook my head in unmoving disbelief at Sophia who’s watching me do my last-minute prep in the garage before I step into the car for Qualifying.

“What can I say?” she shrugged her shoulders like it was no big deal. “My charm does attract the mysterious ones.”

She deserved the snort I let out. “Don’t let that quiet man fool you. He’s not mysterious, Sunflower. Mitch is just very protective of me because he was my first teammate ever in Formula 1. Which is pretty much the foundation of our unbreakable friendship.”

“And what about that then? Did he think I’d try to be the one to break that strong friendship because you’re suddenly enamored by me?”

I don’t comment on her last statement because I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t. But I did regard her with a contemplative expression. “Actually, you happen to be the first person I’d brought with me on any of my races aside from my family. So, who’s to say what he thought? Let's test your theory when I bring another person to the next race.”

I got the reaction I wanted. Sophia’s body straightened, hands closing into tight fists as it rested on her sides, chin held high ready for battle, and the pièce de résistance: her cool sapphire pools turned ablaze like the blue sky being completely washed by our favorite burning sunset.

“Oh? There are plans to bring another person next week?”

It should be quite concerning how I started to feel the beginnings of the adrenaline high that I crave every time I start to rile her up. “It isn't particularly set in stone yet. Like, I think it depends if you also happen to charm me with some luck this weekend if I invite another person or not.”

Sophia scoffed, hands coming to her hips as I casually began to put my gloves on. “I already told you I will not be your lucky charm.”

“And why is that again?”

To emphasize her incoming point, she moved directly to stand before me with her head raised as if I didn't find our height difference extremely adorable and not intimidating. “Because you’re the enemy, Bunny.”

I smirked at Sophia’s tenacity to maintain this act when I wordlessly know that she’s a full Harry Styles girlie inside and out now. I propelled myself to sit on the side counters of my garage, arms collecting Sophia to stand between my parted legs where I caged her presence in.

“I’m no longer the enemy, Sunflower.” I traced a confident circle at the bottom part of her thumb as Sophia continued to sneer at me.

“Your name on my phone is literally Styles, McLaren enemy and that hasn’t changed since the last time I checked.”

Alright, I didn’t expect that. I’m actually amusedly impressed at her creativity. “Are you for real?”

Instead of replying an affirmative yes or no, Sophia just hummed a soft noise that sounded like an affirmative one to my question, with her attention now drifting to my race gear. The way her dainty hands mindlessly began fixing the zip and collar strap of my race suit, made sure my gloves were fitted well, and even fetched my balaclava mask for me, it all points in the other direction. No person caringly and attentively dotes on their enemy the same way that she did.

“What do I have to do to get that unlawful title changed then?” I allowed her to help me put my balaclava mask on because I don’t have the heart to break her cute, mother hen-like concentrated face.

“For someone who I’m not even sure should keep driving, you’re taking a lot of risks promising me a Q3 and now the eagerness to change your very much lawful title on my phone.”

I stopped her methodological hands from reaching for my signature neon green helmet, intercepting both her hands to rest on my calmly beating chest. “I’m a ‘high risks, high rewards’ type of man, if you already couldn’t tell by my profession. Name the price, Sunflower, and I’d try my hardest to accomplish it. I’ll give it my full throttle effort.”

Since it was only my eyes she could perfectly see, there was no other way she could have looked at any other part of my face and spared me with that electrifying look. “Win me a race tomorrow. P1 on the podium and nothing less.”

Sophia’s request wasn’t a surprise in any means. Any guy would want to win the girl they fancy - and I more than fancy this woman if you can’t tell already - a Formula 1 race. But I guess I just found it funny because we’ve already talked extensively about my current shitty carrot car, and how I was certain I already made peace of not being in any podium this season as long as we score points for the Constructions. P3 already seems such a stretch from where I’m currently standing, getting her a P1 is like asking my sister to go on a date with Niall, which is so impossible because I don’t trust my sister with any of the twats here.

And that’s still the way I feel as I rolled my eyes with a silly laugh, allowing Sophia to lead me by the hand towards my car when we both heard the signal for me to head inside it. “I know I said I’d try full-throttle, but we both know my current car doesn’t even seem to have a throttle to begin with. I think I really need some lucky charm to not be your enemy anymore.”

I squeezed our clasped hands tightly before I was ushered to enter the car. Without the halo being attached to the vehicle yet, Sophia was able to help me put on my helmet that I didn’t even notice I still lacked. 

“Bunny, you don’t need a lucky charm.” Sophia expertly began strapping me in my seat like she does this every weekend.

“Why’s that?” I ask beneath my helmet just for her to hear, absolutely mesmerized by her precise and keen attention towards my safety.

“Because you also have a bright orange heart on your name in my phone. No one else is lucky enough to get that. I don’t think you need to look for any more luck than what you naturally already have.”

And then her face closed towards the top of my helmet where I felt her kiss the H.S imprinted on the protective gear. My eyes even closed shut like I really felt the softness of her lips on my own warm skin. The last thing I clearly saw was the wonder dancing all around my Sunflower’s big ocean blues.

“Keep driving, Golden Boy.” and she shut my visor for me, her words the only true thing penetrating my being as I took the signal from my team and drove to the starting grid.

Obviously, it was impossible that Sophia’s words were the only ones I kept on me because I did still have a Q3 to give her. A tough endeavor that requires a lot of serious attention to my driving skills, communication skills with my engineer, and channeling my focus into tapping my natural talent into maneuvering my orange vehicle. Nonetheless, her words are what I repeated mentally as a mantra every time I saw the opportunity to overtake the other much faster cars around me. I used Sophia’s words as a confidence boost when I got the chance to overtake Jeff at the DRS zone in turn nine, and I did the same when I blocked the overtake Grimmy tried to pull on me in the straights. 

There might have been a point near the few remaining laps where I screeched out loud Sophia’s words in absolute shock at Louis’ car suddenly spinning an alarming 360 degrees before hitting the gravel and sliding past the track limits in less than three seconds right in front of me. I’m pretty red at the face just thinking about Sophia hearing my outburst at the comms, not giving a damn what my engineer, team principal, and everyone else watching around the world thought. I was just stuck at the fact that my Sunflower probably now knows how I’m not just a goner for her confident actions, but her words had also absorbed inside me and took great hold of my being.

I was pretty much working on autopilot after that. Passing each curve, straight, hairpin and chicane with all my energy geared towards fulfilling my promise of a Q3 to the person who has embedded a part of herself within me in this drive. That’s all I truly thought about, so much so that I didn’t even realize I already crossed the finish line for my last lap. I wasn’t even coherent enough to count all the times I’ve gone back to the garage for my pit stops and to wait on the gap between Q1 to Q3.

“I believe that’s the end of Q3 for you, mate.” Will’s no-nonsense voice coming from my comms broke my concentrated haze. “And I can confirm that you’re starting at P3 for tomorrow’s race.”

If you didn’t hear my ecstatic scream all the way from where you’re reading this, then you’d also probably missed the way I acted like I won pole position when I parked my car at the P3 stand where the teams and media waited for the top three qualifying drivers. 

Niall took pole position as a surprise to no one, but I wholeheartedly embraced the shit out of him when he did tackle me to the floor to show his happiness for my best qualifying result for this season so far. Mitch, who scored the second position, only settled for giving me a tight normal hug without all the eager puppy energy our Irish friend exuded.

Though maybe sometimes I might have given Mitch less credit than what he really deserved, not when the words he whispered at me kept ringing in my ear the entire time we were interviewed and instructed to pose for the cameras.

“Maybe you should only keep driving when your girl is also coming right along with you for the ride.”

Mitch’s words and his casual tone took the forefront of my mind the entire time I got weighed by the FIA officials, and even as I reached the post-quali interview in the media pen. It still remained that way when I did media bits for the McLaren social media accounts to react to today's amazing session. It even followed me all the way to my walk to the garage, as it still held center stage of my attention as all my bosses and team staff embraced me and exclaimed their glee for today’s stellar performance for the entire McLaren team.

So maybe my preoccupied mind could be a justifiable reason why I almost dropped to my knees when I entered my driver’s room, completely forgetting about the fact I instructed Sophia right before qualifying prep began that she should wait for me in my room after the race. I had to physically catch my bearings as I held on to the sides of the door while I looked at a glowing Sophia sitting on my little massage table.

“Sunflower, you’re here.” It’s probably not the best thing to say, especially if you also count my lack of breath and the dazed manner I said it. But considering it’s the first few words I've uttered under full consciousness of my full thoughts, I give myself a pat on the back for A+ effort.

“I’m here, yeah.” Sophia’s face was etched with confusion, head tilting at my still out of breath form. “Bunny, where else would I be?”

And wasn’t just that the most fitting words she could have said in that exact, precise moment where it all came hitting me full force in all directions like a total stunner of a strike in a round of bowling. I must have also looked like I'd been hit by lightning outwardly because the way Sophia sprang from her seat when I began approaching her at the speed of light, showed every bit of concern her eyes couldn't contain on their own.

“Are you okay, Bunny? Is something the matter?” I wanted to instantly erase the apprehension in her voice, not when I felt like I was seconds away from bursting at the seams at how alive she made me feel being here with me. It’s not fair I can’t give her the same thrill like she did when she came along on the ride with me like Mitch had pointed out so offhandedly.

“I’m okay, Sunflower. Nothing to worry about, baby.” I cradled both her full cheeks on my palms, the skin-to-skin contact sent direct trembles from my fingertips all the way down to my tippy toes.

“Are you really?” The furrow on Sophia’s forehead didn’t soothe one bit, “then why are your hands shaking then?” I didn’t even notice that they were, not until she pointed it out and steadied them with a grounding hold on both my wrists.

To be honest, there’s no going around the truth that my hands were simply vibrating to life because I feel fueled-up, like I’m ready to go for another lap on the track just having my Sunflower’s delicate face on my hands. It’s quite terrifying how much I feel right now.

“I’m just so happy that you’re here, Sunflower.” I didn’t know if I was sounding repetitive but it’s what rolled off my tongue so effortlessly. “That you’re here with me in this ride, you were there with me in that ride for quali earlier.”

“Okay, I’m really lost right now.” Sophia confessed, “You seem fine to me so I’m not worried about you being dehydrated or anything like that. But I don’t understand what you’re trying to say, Bunny.”

Her confusion doesn’t deter me from rubbing soft circles on the apples of her cheeks, “I’m just trying to say, albeit quite poorly because of all the avalanche of emotions you somehow release from me, that you’re right.”

“I’m usually right about 99.9% of the time,” give it to this girl to make me laugh unattractively when I’m trying to be vulnerable and bear my feelings to her. “You have to be more specific than that.”

“It’s about me not needing you as my lucky charm, just like you’ve said before I headed for the track. I’ve realized why you’re correct.”

From where I was looking down at her with my head slightly bent so she didn’t have to strain her neck to see my face head-on, I could see the path of her gorgeous ocean blues that observed every move of my face just like I did hers unabashedly. 

“So why was I correct?” She whispered, my forehead dropping to hers while I felt the room begin to blur. My eyes only retain focus on the enigma that is my Sunflower before me.

With both our eyes closing at the exact moment, noses touching in a gentle Eskimo kiss, it was the first time I ever felt alive in the silence of the room. “Because all you had to do was use your genuine words with me and I felt your presence the entire time I was in my car, living and breathing my passion in that race track.”

I hear and feel the way Sophia’s breath hitched at my words, a catalyst for finding the adequate words to say. “I didn’t need to keep you in my pocket like some tangible lucky charm, because what you say impacts me just as much as what you do for me. And you do a lot for me, my Sunflower. You don’t even know the extent of how everything about you has a chokehold on my soul right now.”

“I was thinking about you, you know?” I felt the ghost of her admission near my smiling lips. “The entire time you were out there. I couldn’t think of anything else other than wanting you to prove me wrong.”

“I bet that would have been a really tough pill to swallow because you’re 99.9% right most of the time, naturally.”

Sophia giggled because I’m a fool who’s not brave enough like her in accepting the weighted words that I just know are coming. My Sunflower matches my confidence level just as much as the strength of my solidarity. If I pour my heart out, she’ll follow directly after my footsteps because she wants to be there with me on the same page, on the exact story, at all times.

“Naturally, I knew deep down there was no way I could keep you out of my mind, no less my entire bloody system. Not when I began rooting for another team because of you, and not when I challenged you yet wanted to be proven wrong. Because out of every single person present here and not, I don’t think anyone wanted to see you this fucking badly in Q3 than me.”

As if our minds collided to share the same thought, our eyes opened at the exact same second. What’s worse? The corner of my lips rose just as much as Sophia’s did like utter telepathy shit. “I felt you with me, Sunflower. I really did. That entire race all I could concentrate on was your words engraved on my soul.”

“That’s why you said it in the comms.” Sophia’s gems are not gleaming in smugness at the realization, it’s shining more content than anything.

“I wish I could play it all suave that it’s just the natural talent in me talking when I drive, but I’m not that much of an idiot who’d disregard something that held this much gravity on my racecraft and overall sanity.”

Sophia bopped her nose with mine in a giggle, “You’re just an idiot for falling on my pointless challenges when we all know dimple-weakness syndrome runs in my family.”

My mum never told me that accompanying the person who makes you feel alive in the silent of times, is the magical ability for them to turn the solitude moments of vigor into something serenely calm. Because as Sophia and I exchanged a laugh, our heads thrown back and arms wrapped contently around each other, I felt absolutely tranquil and still; like I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else other than the beam of her glowing sun rays.

But as much as the idea of a Q3 celebration is thrown at the window in favor of spending all my time with this girl, I had to catch a post-quali debriefing with the team like my career requires. It didn’t take long for Lambert to be the sacrificial lamb - he said it himself in faux nausea - to be the one to break our connection. Meaning, he literally had to peel me off Sophia's body because I couldn’t possibly care about my bloody racing career when I had every single thing I wanted collected in my arms already. 

Then of course, my Sunflower had to be the perfect sunshine that she is, one who actually gave a damn about my source of income, and promised a surprise treat for me after I went to my meeting. And like a lovesick man hooked on being the source of the sparkle in her energy, I succumbed to Lambert’s intervention after I made sure to leave a lasting kiss on Sophia’s forehead.

I’m unsure if she felt that lasting effects as much as I did the imprint of her soft skin on my lips, which was at the periphery of my mind the entire quali debriefing. Thankfully I was spurred on by Sophia’s mysterious treat for me, that I used it as an incentive to actually pay attention to the important words and information coming from my team. 

It must really say something about my love for my craft despite this season’s unlikely vehicle because soon enough, I lost track of time talking with the engineers and race data analysts about what could be further improved on the car’s pace, speed, traction, and grip for tomorrow’s main event. I do the same majority of the weekends every year, and yet it still surprises me the same amount when I emerge from that meeting knowing deep in my gut, I’d love to converse about that carrot of car all over again.

But that can wait for tomorrow’s meeting as I still had a surprise treat waiting for me. Sophia never really informed me of her plans before we parted ways, though one look at the railings that separated the pitlane from the track, I could perfectly see her yellow handbag sitting on one of the chairs in the grandstand. It’s the same bright one from the day we first met, and honestly, the audacity of Sophia to complain about McLaren’s signature bright orange aesthetic when she’s there sitting all pretty in the grandstand waving her equally eye-sore of a bag to catch my attention - as if she didn’t have that already since the morning when we walked inside the paddock.

I made quick work of jogging to reach the other side of the track, channeling my inner bunny energy as I hopped the stairs of the grandstand two at a time. “Sunflower, what are you doing here? You’re bloody late for the race if you were planning to catch my orange carrot to zoom past in front of you.”

Sophia just shook her head at my words, standing up from her seat to grab my arms and lead me to the chair she was previously waiting on. Without saying anything, she gently pushed my chest to sit on the chair, “Stop being a twat. I’m here bearing treats as promised.”

She then shoved a packet of something towards my face before taking the seat right beside mine. Thank fuck I have the reaction time of an F1 driver or else journalists would most definitely question me tomorrow on who caused the black eye I would have been sporting. 

“Are you sure you’re also not a fan of baseball? Because that throw was almost MLB worthy.”

By that point, the roll of Sophia’s eyes didn’t do harm as much as it did something pleasant to my nerve endings. “If I were a fan of baseball, I’d have thrown something less appetizing on your annoying mug.”

“Harsh.” I pointed out with a hand on my chest for my flair of dramatics. “But I’d let this threat of body harm pass, Sunflower, because you bought me some,” I looked at the cold package that she threw at me. “Some delicious Magnum ice cream. Thank you, baby.”

Naturally, I had to show my utmost gratitude at her thoughtfulness through closing the gap between our seats and kissing both her blushing cheeks. “You’re welcome, Bunny. Now start munching before I bite and take that away from you.”

I didn’t disagree with her words as we both opened our own packets to start munching. Sophia might have given me the highest honors of taking the first bite of the heavenly brownies from last night’s dinner at Angie’s, however she did not refrain from actually nipping my finger when I tried taking the last bite as well. My Sunflower is apparently quite notorious when it comes to dessert eating proceedings: I can’t take the last bite if I already did the first or else, I’ll go on dessert exile the next time I join them for dinner.

“So, what’s the plan?” I turned to Sophia while eating my ice cream after a good amount of comfortable silence surrounded us. She shrugged, sitting more comfortably on her chair.

“I didn’t really have a definite plan aside from getting you a sweet treat. I was actually supposed to get you some ice lollies cause you were looking for some during your post-race interview. But sadly, it looks like the entire population of Imola also had the same thought and all ice lollies were out. I had to settle with some trusty Magnum.”

“I was looking for ice lollies during my post-race interview?”

Sophia met my confused stare with her amused one. “Yeah. Your curls were all sweaty yet adorably messy, and your flushed face was blabbering about the scorching heat and how you can’t believe the FIA has budget for hosting galas and yet not even a penny was spent on providing ice lollies as refreshment for their drivers.”

That did sound like my carefree (and little diva, but no one’s really asking) self so I giggled along with Sophia, “I honestly don’t remember saying that, but good for my subconscious self who stood-up for my fellow drivers and I’s rights on proper post-race amenities.”

“Which are of course ice lollies - and you specifically emphasized that it only had to be strawberry, kiwi, and watermelon flavored.”

“Well of course!” I clapped at my genius subconscious self for being quite alert. “Only the best flavors for the best 20 drivers in the world.”

I smirked at Sophia’s heavy snicker. “For someone who’s so sure of his driving abilities right now, it doesn’t shadow the fact you’re as forgetful as my nonno.”

“I’d take that as a compliment if the reason your nonno is being forgetful is also because of the magnetism of Angie.”

‘What’s my nonna have to do with this?” She raised a brow in question, “and I suggest you don’t call Angie that in person or else I’d surely have to exert all my efforts in retracting her from you.”

If she only knew how I was absolutely threatened by her nonna’s deathly stares with just my thought of letting go of Sophia’s hand. “All I’m saying is you’ve had me preoccupied the entire time I was doing every post-race activity earlier. When I said that you came along for the ride with me, you really did some serious damage to my heart, mind, my entire bloody being, Sunflower. You’ve got me all dropping to my knees just thinking about you.”

I guess I should have known that Sophia’s faux wrenching at my admission meant she also has a daily limit to her sappy in-take. “Bunny, stop being sappy, per I’amor di dio. I’ve already reached my daily dosage of your kind words.”

I would have probably taken offense and proven to her that she deserved more than what I could physically give and tell her. Yet Sophia’s honestly seized my breath away. There’s no denying that the serene smile of utter contentment she directed towards my way, had left me no choice but to shut my noisy mouth and just bask in her glimmering happiness.

I might have continued to stare at her infectious energy for more than a second straight, because I don’t blame the way she flushed all the way to her ears as she cupped my jaw to turn it to the side herself. “Bunny, stop looking at me.” Sophia giggled, “Oh look! Let’s just watch the sunset like the first time at the beach.”

Any mention of that fateful day will always get my attention on the highest degree it can possibly reach. Who wouldn’t want to experience again the first time they felt the axis of their world shift upon realizing they’re one of the lucky ones who gets to meet and experience life with their soulmate?

I’m a self-proclaimed hopeless romantic who sneaks off to binge-watch Gossip Girl just to catch all the Blair and Chuck scenes instead of doing my homework, like that of watching all the official clips of previous races James personally compiled to review for me. So it fits my character mold when I tapped my lap to really recreate that afternoon’s premiere sunset.

“What? Why are you doing that?” Sophia motioned for my continuously tapping palms on my lap. Instead of verbally replying, I put my entire trust on our unbending telepathy. It clicked for her the exact moment I finished my serving of Magnum.

“Oh, sorry. But I’m not doing that.” Sophia glanced at my lap in disgust, like she didn’t name it her rightful throne already. I did not have a problem pouting at her.

“Why not?” I tried my hardest not to fall for the crinkles on the side of her eyes in full playfulness at my needy attitude.

“I’m not sitting on your lap, Bunny!”

“Well why not, Sunflower?”

“Because I spent the entire time finding the best seat in the grandstand that has the prime view of the sunset! I literally tried every seat just to make that possible, and now you want me to sit on your lap and throw away all my hard work?”

Just the image of Sophia sitting her cute little bum on every seat here because she’s an actual adorable tiny flower who gives a care for the best seat to watch the sunset, had me cheesing a disgusting amount. However, there was one single fact that shone brighter than others. “I thought you said you didn’t have any set plans.”

There’s no mistaken that I had caught her red-handed. “Huh? I don’t have any set plans, that’s correct.” Actually, what isn’t correct was the look of innocence she tried to pair with her guilty eyes.

“Are you sure?” I pressed further, the pads of my finger pinched my bottom lip in a contemplative expression. “Because I swear you just implied that the entire time I was in my meeting, you spent yours trying every seat here to find us the perfect one to undergo your splendid plan of watching the Italian sunset with me.”

The way Sophia’s shoulders sagged at my bullseye words, does nothing but to boost my smirk to cover my entire face. Not even when she threw me her infamous glare could have stopped it. “If you think saying that could get me to sit on your lap, then you’re seriously a tosser who knows no better.”

“I didn’t say anything mean, though!” I defended with my arms raised in surrender. “I used the word ‘splendid’ to showcase how I thought about your plans. And who doesn’t love a sunset? Jeez, well I sure am not a tosser for not liking an Italian sunset.”

Sophia decided to ignore my beaming face in favor of facing the sunset with her arms crossing below her chest. “Well, have a splendid time watching the Italian sunset on your own, without me on your lap then.”

Naturally, I couldn’t settle for that. Not when my needy ass is itching on the edge of my seat to get my Sunflower on the place where she truly belongs. And if you haven’t caught the memo yet, I was talking about my lap.

Because I was quite the type of person who found displeasure in a worried Sophia and knew that the telling worked both ways, I decided to prove Niall’s statement correct that I am a needy little bunny who needed more than just attention from the people I adore.

“I couldn’t get you a P1 for quali, so I guess I do deserve this punishment.” I sighed, laying the self-deprecation really thick to start with. I copied her position of facing my front towards the sunset. “I mean, I know I already have a shitty car this season, so I don’t understand why I didn’t push myself harder when I already got the chance of the lifetime to enter Q3. Seriously, am I this awful at racing already? I can't even capitalize on the best quali chance I can get for this entire year. I really should consider the new Formula E team they were telling me about, maybe there I won’t be such a shitty driver and I could possibly get you a pole position like you deser-”

“Shut up.” I was not expecting Sophia to cut my rambling by climbing me like a tree to straddle my lap. It was instinctual to steady her on the hips, but what wasn’t is how she crashed her full lips on mine without a second thought for my crumbling sanity concerning her.

My dainty and bright Sunflower kissed me for the first time. It did not take a dig at my non-toxic masculinity ego compared to the way it did steal my literal breath away. If Sophia thought our first kiss would contain just a hard press of her sweet lips on mine, then she’ll learn pretty quickly I don’t operate like that. 

I tugged her closer to my body, one hand coming to rest on the middle of her backside to make sure her short sundress wouldn't flow upwards, while my other hand cupped her chin so her sweet lips wouldn’t leave mine as I kissed her the way I felt natural. Passionate. Wet. Deep. Soul-binding.

Too bad oxygen is still an actual thing in the world you need for survival. Moving a few inches away from her parted lips to let her breathe for a minute, was probably one of the hardest things I had to endure in my entire existence. It was so difficult I couldn’t stop the way my lips gravitated towards her jawline and peppered my kisses there.

“First you tell me you didn’t plan a sunset date with me, and then you decline to sit on my lap. Now that you’re on your throne, you decide you have the power to claim our first kiss from me.” 

I captured her tempting lips on my own once more, suckling lightly at her tender bottom lip when the tip of her clever tongue tried to outsmart me. I might have allowed her to take the reins on our first kiss, but I’m not one to get Frenched in an Imola grandstand so easily. Sophia definitely took note of the way I gate-kept her tongue from tangling with mine as she pulled her lips away from me, accompanied by an undeniable groan of annoyance.

“I should have known someone so narcissistic like you won’t ever talk so lowly of yourself,” Sophia muttered those words directly on the moist skin of my lips, every single syllable I breathed like an intoxicated man. “It was all a ploy to get me on your lap. And now you’re being a downright twat not allowing me to get my way with your mouth. With that being said, I think you should just shut up unless you’ve got anything better to do than be annoying.”

She can’t say things like that and not expect to get a reaction from me. And reaction meant succumbing to my inner alpha male who cannot stand being a source of carnal displeasure of his lady. If it meant I grasped her jaw securely and rolled my tongue directly inside her sinful mouth, then I’m officially a goner for this woman’s demands. I’d pretty much allow her to French me in this Imola grandstand or in any other grandstands in all the countries in the race calendar if she wants this to become a new tradition of ours.

With one last deep draw with Sophia’s apparently very cunning tongue, I parted for air. “Who’s not bloody talking now?”

My smug aura did not bode well with the wanton hues burning in Sophia’s ocean blues. Not when she bit her now cherry red, swollen bottom lip from kissing. Especially not when she roughly closed her soft hands on the base of my neck to close the miniscule gap between our charged bodies.

“Bunny, just shut up, will you?”

If shutting up included her full lips encasing my waiting ones, and her nimble tongue pushing and tangling with mine, driving me outside the tracks of my depths for any coherent logic? My Sunflower doesn’t even have to ask twice.

From now on, I will always allow her to get her way with my mouth.

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If someone would have told me about a week ago that I’d be attending the Imola Grand Prix as a VIP guest of one of the current drivers in the grid, I would have told them to scurry away cause their delusional thoughts need some serious help. But since that actually somehow occurred and said driver had actually just finished eating breakfast with my nonna and I before driving me to the paddock with him, I’d guess there are much crazier things that can happen in my lifetime.

I’m just not sure if walking inside the paddock, hand-in-hand with a chirpy McLaren Golden Boy, while wearing an off the shoulder top in their signature orange color, could already be considered as one of the demented ideas I had in my twenty-something years of existence. I’m seriously questioning my life choices when I heard numerous whistles in the paddock with  everyone taking notice and adamantly documenting my conversion to the bloody eye-sore orange side.

I tugged at our clasped hands to stop Harry from his leisure walk, he smirked down at my furrowed brows when I rested my chin on his toned biceps to be able to look at his tall frame properly. “I don’t think this is a good idea. Bunny, please bring me back to your car so I can change my outfit.”

My jutted bottom lip didn't do the trick, well at least not the kind of trick I was expecting. But the way he easily bridged the gap between our faces, and captured my lips on his smirking ones for a quick tender peck, is something I’m quickly being absolutely dandy to receive in any circumstance. I don’t even mind the audible jaw dropped expressions of everyone witnessing our intimate exchange. PDA doesn’t faze me, but wearing the team colors of a non-Red Bull team? That actually feels like an ‘open the ground and eat me alive’ type of embarrassment that should not be circulating social media in any way.

“No need for your adorable pout, it’s very tempting, Sunflower.” Harry proved his point through seizing my bottom lip for another soft suckle, “Besides, you look extra adorable in your orange fit. I didn’t even know you could look even more irresistible than before.” He squeezed both my cheeks together like he just couldn’t contain all his feelings for me.

“You have to say that because my nonna’s got you wrapped around her witch-like finger. That traitor.” I shook my head in disgust just thinking back to our breakfast date earlier.

“Oh yeah, Angie was the one to buy you this lovely top,” Harry twirled the ends of the bow that tied the bust of my top. “I loved the fresh orange juice she made earlier, by the way. But I must say, the minute she brought this top for you to wear today, I swear you’re even more delectable in this orange top than any fresh produce.”

I, on the other hand, swear that Harry just gets the time of his life making me blush, “I can’t believe you just compared me to a fruit.”

He bopped his nose with mine in amusement, “And I can’t believe I easily converted nonna Red Bull fan to the positive, and orangey-bright side whi-”

“More like doubtful, and orangey-yuck side.”

“- while you’re here interrupting me instead of being the brave girl you proclaimed to be. Baby,” Harry pinched my chin to angle towards his smiling face. “You know I won’t force you to wear my team colors, but you’re the one who told me you needed this as a slow yet tangible commitment in transitioning to be with McLaren’s Golden Boy.”

What was I even thinking of making such a life-altering commitment like that? I solely blame it on being drunk on my Bunny’s intoxicating kisses, mixed with the high of a breathtaking Imola sunset. Who would have thought the two mixed together would be such a lethal concoction for my faint heart? Just remembering the pride surging through my veins when I watched Harry reach Q3, I knew then that I was at the right garage celebrating with the most hardworking team that I’ve ever been fortunate to meet. 

When we resumed our walk to the paddocks heading to the McLaren hospitality, I slowly made peace with my reality that wearing this orange color is the least I could do to support this lovely bunch. And can we really just be honest for a second here? The way Harry looked at me with so much wonder and appreciation as his team cheered at the new colors I was adorned in, is always going to be enough for me to continue doing it again and again in every damn race weekend I’d have the pleasure of joining next.

You guys already know that I have felt right at home in Harry’s garage ever since my first visit from yesterday. That’s why when he was whisked to do all his pre-race duties, I gave no qualms in being left behind in the comfort of his garage. Besides, time moves fast when I’m having fun and being right at my element with vehicles. Conversing and learning from his mechanics and engineers didn’t seem like a task that took hours.

But apparently it did. I was honestly shocked how time got away from me once more as an out of breath Harry physically dragged me away from my conversation with Lambert and Will. Thankfully they didn’t take offense at the racer’s rudeness, shouting ‘good luck’ my way instead, as Harry continued to pull me towards the direction of his driver’s room in the motorhome.

“Just finished the driver’s parade,” Harry quickly pushed the door open to his room, ushering me inside with a hand on the small of my back. “Now I need cuddles before they whisk me away from you.”

After revealing his demands just like that, Harry doesn’t even bother waiting for my response as he flops himself back-first on this bean bag looking couch that wasn’t in his room yesterday. I would know because I stayed in the room after his qualifying, trying to cool down from the burning and tingling sensations I got all over my body after watching Harry Styles drive his car while wearing that form-fitting delectable racesuit of his. But obviously he doesn’t need to know that he affects me in that way too or he might get other ideas instead of cuddling.

I arched a brow at his unbothered manspreading on the bean bag, arms folded behind his head in a lazy fashion. “What’s this about? I believe this piece of furniture wasn’t here yesterday.”

Harry doesn’t even bother on producing an alibi and gets straight to the point. “I asked the team to order one yesterday afternoon before we left, and I personally paid for same day delivery so that we can use it right now.”

I appraised him with a nod of approval, “I appreciate the bluntness and honesty. But I must say, it’s very bold of you to assume that a lady like myself would just accept that answer and follow your demands as if you know what I do and don’t.”

He must have known I wasn’t just easily going to agree with his needy ways. The way he stood up effortlessly from his comfortable sprawled position and stood before me with his head bending downwards to meet my ablaze eyes, tells a lot about his competitive nature in winning me over.

“Sunflower, I’m quite hurt you’d think so little of me after all the time I trusted you to spend in my garage,” He tucks a strand of wayward curls behind my ear because it’s been established that the McLaren driver has a thing for making my cheeks flame. “Only the special ones get to hang out there, and only the most special ones, like you,” he booped my nose with the pad of his index finger, “get to sit inside my precious car.”

“You calling me the most special doesn’t explain the things I’d personally follow along to or not.”

“Actually, my explanation to that is in what you just said,” If he thought I was going to be intimated at the way he stood back from my personal space to be able to stand tall and proud while completely overlooking my smaller form, then he better be ready by the dagger eyes I’d be sending his way.

“You gladly took my hand to help you inside my car because I was the one who initiated it, and you wouldn’t do it if I wasn’t the one who gave you the permission. Similarly, you’d cuddle with me on that bean bag I just bought for you because I asked like a gentleman. You only wouldn’t follow if I didn’t demand otherwise. Now tell me, Sunflower, since when did you start thinking I didn’t know you adore it when I initiate things first and make demands from you?”

Isn’t that always our downfall, fellow women out there? It’s always the confident, demanding, alpha male who knows what he wants and isn’t afraid to ask for, that we try to attract and then resist and then ultimately fall head over heels in love with. There’s no denying it’s the exact same Achilles heel I experienced with this needy and smirking man in front of me. And I’m not even confident to say that I despise this downfall because can it really be called that when I feel my panties dampening at his assertive aura alone?

But you know what differentiates me from the others? I don’t view this part of me as a weakness. I perceive it as a source of power that I’m not afraid to admit and welcome the kind of possessive and self-assured man that can consume every part of my being.

I had no problem in my confident facade crumbling before Harry. My shoulders dropped down in surrender as I embraced his innate calming energy. His own expression softened too, bridging the gap between us. Harry seemed to have no qualms of his own as he cradled my full cheeks; another one of his affectionate actions I’m quickly being very familiar with.

“Since you know me so well,” I sighed in complete honesty, “you could have just repeated your demands and I would have cracked the second time around.”

Because I also seemed to fall for the little shits, Harry pinched my smiling cheeks like I’m some adorable kid. “Now where’s the fun in that?” I laughed as he gently pushed my forehead away, tapping my bum when I turned around towards the bean bag. “Now get your little bum there and get comfortable cause I won’t let go of you until I’ve taken all my rightful fills of cuddles for today.”

I situated my yellow handbag at the side of the couch before gracefully sitting myself in the middle of the softest piece of furniture I have ever laid on. Jesus, I almost moaned in bliss feeling like I was resting on a fluffy cloud. The only thing that stopped me from doing so is the sudden appearance of a gloomy cloud that began to shadow Harry’s serene face.

I didn’t like that look one bit. Not when he looked so bubbly and poised just seconds ago. Hence, I tried to make light of the situation. “Even if I’m the McLaren Golden Boy’s girl now, wearing orange with me would only allow you cuddling privileges, and no bum touching, mister.” I solidified my point by moving my index finger from side to side directed at his face.

But it didn’t make Harry explode in that guffawing laughter that has become my favorite sound in the last two days. Instead, he settled with a closed lip smile - without dimples! “I promise to keep my hands to myself then.”

I wanted to shake my head at his wrong response; I don’t want him to keep his hands to himself! I slowly started to be seriously concerned by his sudden change of mood, when my Bunny didn’t eagerly banter back with my clear teasing words.

The furrow in my brows can speak for themselves, and it was easy to spot that Harry recognized my concern too. The way he tried to conceal his murky thoughts did not work in hiding the glint of guilt peeking from his evergreens.

Now I don’t want him to feel guilty about being gloomy around me because whatever emotions he may have will always be valid. I just want to make him feel better and soothe whatever these worries that suddenly came into him. With my arms wide open, I called for my wounded Bunny. “Hey, come here, baby.”

Harry didn’t hesitate in following. He carefully crouched down on the bean bag, slotting himself against my pliable body, long limbs tangling with my shorter ones as he rested the side of his head on the top of my chest. His strong arms took hold around my middle, my own coming up near his head to play with his cherubic curls, while my other hand Harry clutched in his own.

I couldn’t help but coo at the sigh of contentment Harry let out when I began dropping soft kisses on his forehead to soothe the frowns that were forming. “Bunny, I don’t want to force you if you just want to cuddle here silently, but I can tell something’s wrong and I don’t like it.”

“I’m sorry.” Harry nuzzled his nose in the middle of my torso, like he wanted to hide his face from me. I couldn’t let that happen so I freed my hand from his hold to angle his chin to look at me. He let out a whine when I did. “Heyy, give me back your hand, Sunflower. I was holding it to find comfort.”

How could I not feel absolutely enamored by his reasoning? It doesn’t take a genius to know that I allowed him to hold my hand tightly again, and that the growing soft spot in my heart that’s in the shape of him, began filling my eyes with unshed tears.

“Are you hurt, Bunny?” Just asking that felt like needles poking my insides. “Did anyone do something wrong? Did I do something to upset you?” My escalating frazzled tone caused Harry to stiffen in my hold, his eyes locking in mine with a shade of determinedness I’ve never seen directed at me before.

“Whatever’s going on with me, has nothing to do with you, my sweet girl.” He squeezed our clasped hands tightly, bringing it near his lips to litter the back of my hand with light kisses all the way from the tips of my finger. “You don’t need to worry about anything, I’m alright.”

“Then why are you finding comfort in holding my hand?”

The whiny accusation is poorly hidden in my question, though it produced some spark of light in Harry’s gloomy irises. “Why do I like them persistent?” He seemed to ask himself more than me, but I answered anyway.

“Because you’re a stubborn idiot who needs a person that can prove to you that you don’t have to shoulder every worry you have on your own.” I stared at his eyes with the utmost persistence that I can show. “You’re not a lone wolf anymore, Harry.” I moved our entwined hands to tenderly caress his cheek, his eyes never leaving mine. “You’re my Bunny now, love. I’m here for you when you’re shining the brightest. But I’m especially always here for you when your troubled thoughts dim your glow. I’m here, Bunny.”

I only hoped my words came across the way I wanted it to, because Harry just closed his eyes, still holding my hand on his cheek without saying anything. Until he did.

“I just remembered I’m starting very near the front row in the grid today,” His eyes remained closed, gorgeous long lashes resting comfortably on the top of his cheekbones. “It’s the best start the entire team has had this season, and it feels like a one in a million chance to achieve again. So that made me start thinking, and then the worries began to pour in all at once making me overthink. If we don’t have a reliable car, then that means all the pressure to drive well will all go down to how I drive later. Which I’m not mad about because I love racing, this is what I was born to do. But, I’m no perfect human. I’m bound to make mistakes every day. I just don’t want those to be in a few minutes from now. I can’t disappoint the entire team because they’ve been working so hard and they more than deserve this win. I can’t fuck this up for them, Sunflower.”

The moment Harry opened his eyes, the depths of his brewing troubled thoughts all surfaced, meeting my intent gaze all at once. If earlier I felt like needles were poking my insides, right now I feel like I’ve fallen down on my knees after my heart had burst at the seams from the overflowing admiration I have for this man’s kind soul. 

Because of course he isn’t an encompassing cocky racer who believes they never do wrong to lose. Because surely someone as revered as the McLaren Golden Boy would only care about winning for himself. But no. My Bunny is not that.

My Bunny is the type of man who would snuggle deeper into me, embracing his vulnerable side after being brave enough to realize that he isn’t alone in his own insecurities and anxieties. He's the kind of man who wouldn’t take all the credit for winning; would rather not be called the Golden Boy just to make the people most important to him feel like the golden ones.

I might have let some of those unshed tears run after all. “Harry Styles, you truly are one of the rare ones.”

I’m sure it wasn’t what he was expecting to hear from me, not when it caught him off-guard with a snort. “You can’t use that to describe me. I already refer to you as the rare one in this relationship.”

“But you’re such a darling boy, though.” I let him thumb away my tears because I see the beginnings of my favorite dents on his smiling face. “Can we compromise in agreeing to call each other as rare?”

I knew I sounded ridiculous but it did get me the laugh I wanted from Harry, even if he proceeded to roll his eyes at me. “No can do, Sunflower. Besides, how am I part of the rare league when I’m just like every single regular lad out there who’s insecure of failing people? There’s nothing rare about that.”

There was no way I would allow him to talk badly about himself, not when I’ve already gotten a great progress in returning him to his usual smiley person. I squeezed his cheeks together to look at me directly when Harry tried to hide his face on the side of my neck.

“That still sounds very rare to me, Bunny.” I told him earnestly without a shadow of a doubt. “None of the guys I’ve ever been with have ever confided in me on what made them hurt and worried. You’re a rare darling boy because you found the tenacity to open up to me. I don’t know about you, but that sounds like a pretty damn rare thing to do.”

He’s not wrong about calling me persistent earlier, and I recognized the way his eyes mapped my features for him to see that my intentions came from a good place. “Some shitty guys you’ve been with then, huh.”

He phrased it as a statement rather than a question which made me bite my lip because Harry’s smug self - my favorite character of his, but don’t tell! - was slowly coming back to life before my eyes. “Yeah, they were. Clearly unlike you who worries unnecessarily about their team’s reaction when you inevitably make a mistake later on the track.”

Harry’s jaw dropped open, “Wow. I can’t believe you just brought it out to the universe that I’ll make a mistake later. Jesus, I’m really fucked then.” That earned him a tough tug on one of his curls because the drama queen side of his is not really my vibe.

“Bunny, you making a mistake doesn’t equate to you losing in the race.” I clarified, the sincerity in my tone stopped him from trying to make light of the situation. “I’m not here to devalue your worries and fears, okay? Your emotions will always have value to me. I’m here to help you in making sense of them. Because let me tell you, Bunny, every single individual in your team, whether they’re in the garage, in the hospitality, or even those in the factory, will vouch for what I’m about to say.”

I pressed my forehead on Harry’s, wanting him to hear my next words without a single space of misinterpretation. “The last thing anyone in your team wants is to get in the way of your winning performance later because you’re worried about their reactions if things don’t go smoothly. That all you should think about is the present moments and not the ones for later afternoon. It’s pointless to stress about what hasn’t happened yet.” I pecked both his closed lids when I felt his arms around my cuddled body tighten.

“Bunny, my darling boy,” I whispered directly on the soft skin of his temple, sprinkling butterfly kisses on his supple skin. “You only need to believe that you’re going to win. Despite the inevitable hurdles that may happen, and despite your negative thoughts swimming in your head, That’s all you have to do. That’s just what we - your team - is asking from you.”

I thought it was the perfect time to actually verbally announce my new allegiance. And I believe Harry thought so too. The way his pretty eyes opened and peered at me from beneath his wispy lashes spoke of that truth.

“You really believe that?” His tone was soft, mixed with a touch of disbelief and a sprinkle of astoundment.

“Yup.” I nodded my head in full conviction, right hand returning to play with his curls. “I stand true to my words. And quite frankly, everyone else can fuck off if they’d think otherwise.”

Maybe all this time Harry was just waiting for me to cuss out everyone else that didn’t matter. Because the little shit erupted in rambunctious laughter like he wasn’t my wounded Bunny from earlier who came to me to lick and soothe his scrapes. He further proved the positive switch on his demeanor when Harry proceeded to swiftly maneuver our cuddled bodies to switch positions. I yelped as he easily took my place on the bean bag while he carried me, sprawled across his broad chest like I weighed as much as a feather. 

“Warn a lady when you manhandle her, please.” I cozied myself on top of him, my face finding solace on the crook of his neck where I decided to nip as punishment for his actions.

It was Harry’s turn to yelp, but the sting couldn’t be so bad when I went ahead to lick his reddened skin afterwards. But obviously, that doesn’t stop the menace from landing a blow on my bum cheek, making me hiss and glare up at him.

“I’m not going to warn you when I manhandle your body to my liking, Sunflower.” Harry’s smirking face is something I shouldn’t find as attractive as I actively do. “Where’s the fun in that?”

I didn’t have it in me to think of a witty retort to counter his; not when I feel relief wash all over my senses at being face to face with my fully confident and smiley darling Bunny. I was scared there for a moment that I wouldn’t be able to see him again in his usual glory that I fell for to begin with.

Without a mirror present in the room, I still knew that my face probably expressed all the overwhelming emotions I felt. Because Harry’s cocky grin that I adore transformed to that of his softer one, like the exact same one he gave my nonna earlier over breakfast when she told him to continue what the hell he was doing because she hadn’t seen me this full of vibrating energy for a while now.

Harry cupped my cheek and slowly led our lips to meet in the middle for a syrupy sweet kiss. “Thank you, Sunflower.” His words imprinted itself all over my tingling lips as he kept giving me tender kisses. “I really needed to hear that. I just didn’t know that I needed to hear it specifically from your angelic mouth.”

I let out a giggle in the middle of our lips meeting, “I just flipped off all the nasty people who don't believe in you. I don’t think that’s pretty angelic.”

“You’re my personal ray of sunshine I never knew I needed. That makes you angelic to me in all regards.” There’s no part of Harry’s tone that could suggest he was only jesting. And there’s no way I could hide from his soulful evergreens that are swimming with potent veracity. “I don’t think I’ve ever met anyone who believed in me so candidly; who can surpass my own confidence in believing that I can have a winning performance.”

“It’s not a ‘can’, Bunny. You will.” 

My interruption made the galaxies in his eyes explode in an utter disarray of perfectly imperfect fallen stars. Every single piece of them descending down straight to my beguiled pools as I looked at Harry in a fresher set of eyes.

How was I not able to notice the enigma that this man is before? Why am I only discovering this precious human now?

I don’t have any answers to that. But what I do hold is the one-off chance to make him believe and see the invaluable soul that he has inside of him. One that he only needs to utilize to be able to hinder all the anxieties to cloud his vision. And if that means I have to use both my words and actions, so be it.

I surged forward and kissed Harry with all the force I could give. “Styles, winning performance.”

He looked at me with a dazed expression when we parted from that fervent kiss. But it didn’t take him long to knock his forehead on mine with a manic grin. “Say that again.”

He doesn’t have to ask me at all. “Styles, winning performance.”

“Winning performance.” He repeated my words like he was testing if he liked how it rolled off on his own tongue. I guess he got his verdict when he repeated the same two words with more conviction than our last minutes together, crashing his lips on mine once more like he could actually tangibly take the words straight out of my own tongue.

Too bad that things don’t actually work that way as I made it known quite quickly to Harry.

When he was called to get ready for the race, I pulled at our clasped hands to stop him from walking. I raised his large and capable hand to my lips and drew soft kisses on the tattooed skin. “Winning performance.”

When we reached his garage and he proceeded to put his gloves and balaclava mask on, I intercepted his helmet from his hold to grasp him at the back of the neck so he could bend down and meet my waiting lips. “Winning performance.”

When he was doing last minute conversations about strategies with his race engineer, I tapped the arm that was curved around my waist so I could stand on my tiptoes and whisper directly in his ear, “Winning performance.”

And when he got the clear that I could be the one to strap him in his car just like yesterday, I uttered the same two words with just the same, if not more, amount of confidence I could muster. “Winning performance.”

“Sunflower, winning performance.”

That was Harry’s last parting words to me before I closed his visor for him, not long before he zoomed out from his garage and all of us took our headsets to hear the McLaren boys’ race live. 

As the three red lights turned to four and then all out in a second, I felt completely calm watching every single one of those rocket-like vehicles zoom past the tricky turn 1. I felt the stillness radiate in me because I know that my Bunny and I are in that race car together, repeating the same two words in the same assured breath.

That’s honestly the only thing that kept me level-headed the entire duration of the race. Nobody actually tells you that watching a Grand Prix straight from a team garage is 101% more intense and hyperactive than watching it with your mates at home over brunch and free-flowing mimosas. I couldn’t even count the amount of people who have shaken my shoulders in feverish glee when Harry was able to overtake some drivers in several DRS zones. Similarly, I couldn’t tell you how many people I’ve dragged to jump up and down with me in utter heated excitement when Harry set the fastest lap record in the middle of the race.

I wouldn’t trade this experience for anything. Not even when the inevitable mistakes came, in the form of going too wide in the chicane, and that random lock-up in two hairpins. I especially appreciated the high-spirited company during those moments. It made my heart warm being a first-hand witness on the positive, encouraging, and ardent emotions Harry’s team has for him, despite what his negative thoughts might have said. 

I only hope his worries have subsided while driving, and I think I might be quite right in that regard. Because when Harry came in for his first pit stop, the barely two seconds of changing tires allotted him some time to actually wave at me since I was near the entrance of his garage. I thought he was a crazy little shit for having time for that, and everyone else agreed with me in chaotic laughter. The only thing that didn’t make me worried that he might have lost focus, is the fact that my Bunny must be back in his vibrant self if he was able to easily switch to his usual idiotic character.

I just kept repeating our two words when there were only a few more laps left from the total of 63. How those lads are able to go round and round for 63 times without losing their minds is beyond me. I’ve been at the cusp of blowing up in adrenaline just watching them since the first five laps! Thankfully, I didn’t have to wait that long anymore.

In bated breath, I clutched Lambert’s hand for dear life when the 63rd lap finally commenced. Everyone in the garage is eerily quiet, all eyes focused on the screen which currently has Harry on P3 in the leaderboard. I couldn’t really focus on whatever the hell Will was specifying to Harry on the comms about the last part of their strategy, all I could focus on is the determination that coated his voice on every ‘confirm’ ‘confirm’ that Harry answered with.

I don’t even know how it exactly happened, but one minute all of us in the garage were holding hands waiting for drivers to pass the finish line, and the next second everyone was jumping out of their seats and screaming at the top of their lungs in complete jubilation. 

Harry Styles just crossed the checkered flag in P3. He reached the finish line in third.

“P3, mate! That’s your first podium this season!” 

Will’s announcement was the home run hit that I needed to fully comprehend what just occurred. And when I did, I joined Harry’s scream of unadulterated euphoria mixed with mine. “Winning performance!” He shouted for everyone watching to hear, “Winning fucking performance!”

“Ditto, ditto!” I screamed back like a lunatic, as if Harry could actually hear me. I had no time to feel embarrassed though, since I was blissfully pulled to the jubilant arms of one team member to the other. So many loving words were exchanged for our driver’s achievement that I didn’t even notice most of them started to make their way to watch the podium celebration.

Knowing how this win meant a lot for Harry as a driver, and how he was especially driving there for his entire team, I knew I couldn’t miss witnessing the grand celebration. So without care of still having my McLaren headset around my neck, I followed the flocks of people coming from different teams towards the podium viewing section. I knew it would already be packed by the time I arrived, having both the Red Bull of Niall and Louis as P1 and P2. But I genuinely didn’t care about the success of my previous die-hard allegiance. I just zeroed my attention in watching all the orange happy crowd from afar, waiting for their Golden Boy to stand on the podium.

I was honestly content at my position in the sidelines of the main crowd, because I knew Harry would rather share this grand victory with his team first and I’ll just congratulate him later in our own alone time. If he actually had his way, I’m pretty sure Harry would have preferred to have his entire team stand in the podium and he’ll be the one watching them celebrate from below the stands.

But I guess I could be proven wrong about all that because suddenly, I hear the distinct voice of Harry’s big boss amongst the chaotic crowd of other teams celebrating. “Move away, move away! Jesus Christ, I said move the fuck away!”

I watched in amusement as James Corden physically used his arms and legs to push people out of his way. “I swear to God I pay all of you to listen to me! Why can’t all of you move the fuck away?! I have a person to find! Where is she?! Why did you guys leave her, you absolute morons?! No one’s getting gelato from me after this!”

James’ heated words and animated display of comedic irritation, definitely captured everyone’s attention. The other team’s heads turned with their bodies clearing a path for him to pass, much to his favor. “Thank you, thank you! Looks like the Red Bull staff will be the ones receiving some gelato from me because they actually listened to my pleas.” He turned his head sidewards to his snorting McLaren team. “You bunch are about to get drowned in champagne once Harry finds out you left his girl alone in the garage. Enjoy all that while I actually be the kind and responsible man that I am - unlike you lot! - and I will look for Sophia. I hope Harry throws the entire glass bottle your way, fuckers!”

To say that I was shocked, was a complete understatement of what I genuinely felt. That entire rambunctious ruckus was all because Harry’s seemingly insane boss thought I was missing the podium celebration. And that it was going to be a total violation of some-sort, that warrants Harry to commit a crime of drowning his team in champagne. I honestly did not know how to react.

I guess that’s how James found me in the sidelines: eyes wide, mouth agape, body unmoving. “Oh, you poor sweet girl.” I heard him say as softly as his naturally loud voice could go. “You must be scared out of your life being left to your own devices at the garage by those brute men of mine.”

I couldn’t really utter a rebuttal to his very wrong claim as James quickly placed his arm around my shoulder and walked the two of us in the middle of the crowd towards the huddle of the McLaren team. “Don’t you worry about a single thing, Soph.” James assured me with an innocent smile I didn’t know if I trusted. “I’ll make sure you’d be at the front of the barriers to watch Harry descend the podium. Just keep calm here beside me for a moment.” And then he proceeds to do something that made me want to be the one to tell him that he should be the one to keep his calm. 

James cleared his throat loudly, hands coming around the circumference of his mouth for his voice to echo. “Yo dipshits! Move your idiot bums to the side and let Sophia pass!” I felt heat crawl up my cheek, and not in the fluttery way that my Bunny’s words do to me. “Oh, don’t give me those confused looks! You guys don’t know who I’m talking about? Well no shit because all you foolish lot left the most important person in the garage!”

And because my sudden embarrassment couldn’t get any worse, James placed me in front of him so everyone had a prime view on who he was screaming about. “So let me get this straight, you daft twats! The lovely woman here in front of me is Sophia. She’s the sole reason why our boy Styles got a podium today! I don’t know what the fuck she did to accomplish that - because our car is still performing like a bloody orange tractor in the grid - but she did it! And since I want her to keep fucking doing what she’s doing because my team is going to annihilate every single other team here in the grid, the least we can do is give her the front view of the champagne celebration. Was everything about that clear?!”

How can anyone in the entire pitlane - better yet the entire parts of the world currently watching this live telecast -  not get that clear? I assumed James also had the same answer since his proud smile of being more than heard, is the last thing I saw before he carefully pushed me to the front of the orange pack.

That led me to directly rest my front on the barriers, with my head raised above to watch the podium celebration take place. At that point, I was honestly too winded to care about the scene that James had caused. His actions were coming from a good heart, and that’s all that mattered to me in the end. Besides, I am now blessed with the best seat in the house, having the perfect view of Harry’s glorious entrance - jumping up and down pointing at his cheering team - when he proceeded to stand on the podium after his name was announced.

There wasn’t anything else to do than to cheer my little heart out when Harry raised his third-place trophy above his head, his blinding smile matching everyone’s in our orange team. I didn’t even care when my face was flashed on the big screen for everyone to watch, with my face-splitting grin and starry eyes pointed at a single individual standing so tall and carefree on that podium.

All I gave a damn about is the moment I felt the earth tremble beneath my feet. When all the triumphant cheers and exclamations around me seemed to disappear into the wind. All my being was centered on the emerald gems staring back at me for the first time since this race concluded. 

I’m wholly enthralled at the way his powerful stare remained on mine the entire time he jumped three feet of the platform to pop his bottle of champagne. The finesse he displayed on expertly spraying every celebratory grin with those drops of hard-earned champagne, made me see the true World Champion he’s nurturing inside him.

My baby was born to be on that podium. What I don’t understand is how in that same truth, Harry Styles peered down at me like he wanted no one beside him and his trophy and champagne celebrating that win, other than me. Seeing that kind of truth illuminated in his eyes, for only me to see, is world tilting, earth shattering.

“Come here.” Harry mouthed down at me; his high-on-a-win smirking face is a novel danger I’m quickly recognizing I have no power to avoid. I don’t even know if I’m allowed to be on that podium while the celebration was very much still on-going. But I still ran towards the stairs leading up to him, like an idiot who took the antidote to giving any single fucks.

When I reached the top, my head was thrown back in laughter when both Niall and Louis looked at me approvingly while they joyously clapped their hands at my violation of FIA Regulations. Like the total lovable idiots that they are, both Red Bull drivers made a clear show of moving to the sides, with their hands motioning for a pathway towards my destination.

“After you, my old number one fan.” Niall winked at me as I flipped him the finger for being a cheeky shit. I don’t understand how I was able to muster the audacity to do that to my old Irish idol now turned great friend, let alone in front of national television who is still streaming this entire interaction live.

But when I heard the voice of my favorite person in the world, calling me the name that has slowly yet surely became my favorite word in the entire English vocabulary, I knew it didn’t matter if I found the answers to those questions or not. 

What mattered is how we met in the middle, closing the offending distance that separated the two of us from being flushed-closed together. My arms curved their way behind his neck, just in time as he held me tight on my waist before dipping me down a few inches above the raised platform like we were at the end of a dramatic dance sequence. Clearly, we weren’t. But he still captured my lips in a dreamy kiss as if we were. 

Everything made me feel like I was suspended in time, stuck in a magical moment straight out of one of my dreams. From the way Harry’s ardent lips held mine in a spellbinding hold, to the cool stream of champagne our friends showered us in. If it weren’t for the contagious laugh Harry let out as he moved my body in a standing position, I would have really thought I was only hugging him this tight in my dreams.

“Congratulations, Golden Boy.” I reached on my tippy toes and kissed his impressive jawline, the taste of sparkling champagne coated my tongue. “I knew you had it in you.”

He bent a bit so he could meet my height in the middle perfectly, my favorite hands coming up to cradle my never-getting-tired-from-smiling-around-this-man face. “Winning performance.”

“Winning fucking performance.” I repeated his own rendition at the comms from earlier. He lovingly crushed my face on his champagne-soaked race suit, the vibration coming from his laughter was a calming feeling I felt against my position on his chest.

I let him leave as many kisses as he wanted on my temples, grinning up at him when I felt all of it electrify me. “So, why did you call me up here? Did you want to hang out or something?”

Harry’s giggles followed the sweet path the tip of his nose traveled, all the way from my nose and down to my chin, “Yeah, kind of. Something like that.” His adorable giggles easily blocked away all the noise from around us.

“What? You have to be more specific than that,” I moved my head away from his chest so I could look at him perfectly. My right hand naturally came up to brush away his sweat and champagne-soaked curls away from his pretty eyes. “You know how I feel about being ordered around.”

Harry rewarded me with a dimpled smile, “You love them.” He knows I do, and he also knows he’s got more to tell me than just that. I let him close his eyes, forehead dropping to rest on mine, and I kissed his tantalizing long lashes as I waited for his genuine words to flow.

“I knew I just won today, and I’m happy for my drive and that the team’s efforts are finally being acknowledged the way it’s supposed to be. It’s more than great to celebrate this win with them, for them, but I’d honestly rather do something else.”

I nuzzled my nose at his cute one, “Like what, Bunny?” And just like that moment in his driver’s room from earlier, Harry and I opened our eyes at the exact same time without prompt.

“I think I'd love to spend the rest of my sunsets with you.”

Somehow his response doesn’t surprise me, not when his angelic face is being framed by the beginnings of a majestic Imola sunset. I couldn’t possibly look away at how breathtaking he is being surrounded by so much orange warmth. “Sunset, huh? Seems to be our thing.”

Harry blessed me with his giggles once more, bending down to pepper my neck with small kisses that had my toes curling. “Yup. That’s why it’s my second favorite thing in the world right after you.”

“Really?” I asked incredulously even if I shared the same reality. Harry nodded his head, nose content in inhaling my scent and nuzzling the wet skin of my neck. His curls tickled a response right out of my lips. “You know I’d let you, yeah?”

That made Harry depart from his hiding spot, head tilting as he regarded me with a look that spoke words of fascination. “Every single one of your sunsets you’d spend with me?”

I found it absolutely adorable how he wanted to make sure of the fact so fiercely. “Yeah.” I nodded, fearlessly. “From now on, I’d love to share my sunsets with you. Including this one right behind you.”

And because I’m starting to believe that a post-win Harry is a person that is set on the highest degree to make me feel like I’m the only person who matters, I only have the ability to squawk in surprise as he disregards the gawking stares and regaled laughter of our audience, easily picking me up behind my thighs to wrap my legs around him. He began spinning us around like an F1 car doing donuts on the track; it’s dizzying as much as it fuels me with so much happiness that I could only hope to experience.

I’m so out of breath for feeling so alive that I didn’t even register that Harry began carrying me down the stairs in the same front piggy-back ride. “Hey! Bunny, where are you taking me?”

He didn't decrease the speed of his walk as he replied. “I’m chasing the sunset with you. Where else am I going to take you with me?” It almost looked like he took an actual offense to my question, which made me have actual tears of absolute glee stream down my face as my body shook with laughter in his hold. All these bubbling emotions have clearly overwhelmed me enough.

“This is not funny.” He whined which only increased my amusement.

“Is too! Bunny, the sunset isn’t going to disappear. Can you please put me down so we can walk together, comfortably, to wherever you want to watch the sunset?”

“No. I want you like this in my arms.” That made me snicker.

“I do too. But you seriously need to put me down cause I need to go somewhere first.”

That actually made him slow down. “What? Where do you need to go?” I only need to hear the whine in his tone to visualize the matching pout and frown he was certainly sporting.

“I need to get my purse. I left it in your driver’s room. You know, the yellow one?”

To my surprise, Harry Styles actually groaned for everyone in the pitlane to hear as he stopped from walking any further. He made a real show of looking absolutely pained when he gently dropped me down on my feet. “Why do you look like you need to shit?”

My teasing words only made him look even more adorable to my eyes like a grumpy cat. “I don’t need to shit. I’m just really annoyed that your bloody handbag is ruining the perfect sequence of our summer love story.”

“Excuse me?” I don’t know if I should laugh or be concerned because my Bunny looked quite disappointed, like he didn’t just come from the glory of a P3 win.

“Sunflower, our summer love story? The one we’ll be telling Angie and your family over dinner sometime?” 

“Okay. What about it?” Harry gave me a look as if asking if I was being serious. But before I could offer a rebuttal, he’s off rambling like the annoyed cutey little Bunny that he is.

“I don’t know!” He threw his hands up in the air like the exasperated drama queen that’s always hiding inside him, “The fact that I have this sheer romantic vision of the continuity of our love story, where you were the reason why I won my first podium this season, and then we became all bad ass and broke the FIA rules together like total partners in crime as I kissed you on top of the podium where everyone was watching and spraying champagne at us. And can I just say that the kiss from earlier was absolutely a rom-com movie spot-on? I didn’t even have to think about it! It just came to me naturally just like how my innate romantic soul is telling me to carry you away in my arms towards the sunset after such a cathartic race weekend. But no! Your yellow handbag - no matter how much it’s my favorite on you - is ruining the sequence of our summer love story! How can we now beat your nonna and nonno’s epic Italian romance back in ‘66?! He gave her his gelato! I can’t do that because I’m a caveman with my desserts! The least I can do is buy you two gelatos when we watch the sunset, but of course that I can’t even do becau-”

I jumped into his arms like a koala climbing up a tree, his strong arms easily bracketing my legs that wrapped around his waist. All the while, I made myself busy by crashing my lips into his as I felt the most potent kind of certainty flow into my veins.

Somewhere in the start or middle or end of Harry’s rambling, I found myself being hit by a force of a rocket ship that rocked my entire core, screaming: this is it. This is the one for you. Go ahead and say the words to get your adorable man-child under lock and key.

So that’s what I did, I imprinted the words straight to his lips. “I love you.” Our eyes locked without a tinge of shock, it’s only filled with that kind of serenity and contentment that’s special to our bond. “How’s that for an epic sequence to our summer love story?”

His vibrant kiss could tell me just as much, “I love you too.” But hearing him say it back still made me smile like a mad fool in love - which I am!

And you know what, the way my Bunny began screaming his love for me for the entire world to hear right after he whispered it again and again in my ear, I know I’m not alone in being so in love one began acting insane.

Harry and I are together on this ride towards our countless sunsets. We’ll keep driving just as insanely as we love.

🧡🏎️🧡

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[harrytea]

He legit disgusts me and it’s sad since I was a huge 1d fan first and his second he ruined 1d for me and I seriously can’t look at his face anymore the way he treats women ok Olivia in particular was bad but all women he was involved with is horrible and especially with Olivia I saw something that I can’t ignore he is a shit human being like how women not only haven’t cancelled him but worship him is concerning to me

 Because he puts on a good act. The relationship between hairy and his fans is based on the image that they have of him but also their own delusion. Harry does it communicate with his fans. He doesn’t do it really ever. The only time this guy post on Instagram is when he’s promoting something and the only time that he’s on Twitter is when he’s promoting something. Other than that this band is basically ghost on social media and interacting with his fans. Now I think people like, for example Taylor, Swift or Selena Gomez, who interact too much with their fans create this narrative that they have a close relationship with them and not their best friends and that also further is delusion, but then you have hairy who has no relationship with his fans and they grass, but anything that he does, and they make up an image of him in their head, based on what he projects, and they go off of that. If you pay attention to Harry, he is extremely problematic. From the people that he days to the people that he associate himself with he associates and talk with people that aren’t very good. His friendship with James Corden. James Corden is a terrible person. That has been proven. The Azoffs family are very good people that has been proven. The Kardashian Jenner clan are bad people that has been proven, but he continuously surround himself with people that aren’t very good for reasons that we don’t know. Olivia Wilde isn’t a good person, but he spent two years in a “relationship” with her. the reason he got away with treating Olivia the way he did is because number one his fans are never going to let him be the bad guy in any situation and number to his fans hated Olivia so they like seeing her get treated like trash. If you take away the hatred that you have for Olivia, and the fact that Harry is Harry Styles and you look at them as two completely normal people and you go over the facts of their relationship, he didn’t give a fuck about that girl and he continuously showed it. Let this go get bullied and made fun of, and was the punchline for so many people jokes. She was bashed for two(and most of it rightfully so) but still. She was a doxxed, her children school was docked, and not to mention she was bully to the point where she barely use social media. And the same thing is going to happen to Taylor Russell. It’s a matter of time before his fans turn their backs on her like they did with Olivia and every girl that he’s ever dated and the hatred on her is going to start. If you looked at her Instagram comments, the racist shit that they’re saying is fucking crazy, but he has yet to defend this girl and he never will. If you look at Harry and his patterns in relationships as a fucking red flag. But the fact that he’s harry styles no one’s ever going to point that out.

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[thesmutgoddess]

Hellloooo, I am genuinely curious about your take on some aspects of the trial. And I mean this sincerely, why do you think she didn’t donate the money, even before she was sued? Also it seems in my layman opinion that a a broken nose would have been incredibly difficult to cover esp when she was on the talk show. I wouldn’t want to be on the wrong side of history or anything. I feel like you wouldn’t feel so strongly about everything if you didn’t have information I must have missed!! I’d like to hear a take that’s not being pushed by the hegemonic rhetoric I’ve been hearing

On the donation: I genuinely don't know and don't care. Maybe she ran into financial difficulties but I don't think it is particularly indicative of her character because she still took much less in the settlement then she was entitled to by California law and donated more than many people far richer then her do. And once more Johnny Depp is guilty of the same. damn. thing.

On the broken nose: Look, I'm not a doctor but the fact is Depp does partially concede to headbutting her because his admission is on audio recording and thus he cannot deny it. She says a doctor did confirm that she had small fractures in her nose but the medical records were kept out of the trial due to hearsay or whatever. So if his story that he "accidently" collided with her nose while trying to restrain her or however the fuck he's trying to spin it then why is he turning around and trying to act like the photos of her nose are photoshopped or that she faked the bruises or whatever he and his fans are trying to claim. Like it doesn't make one iota of sense! To believe her, you simply have to believe what she says happened did, in fact, happen. To believe him you have to believe she waited till he accidently headbutted her but her nose was fine, then she faked the injury the night before she had a tv appearance scheduled?

Maybe I'm crazy but I do think she actually looks notably busted on the James Corden show. Still beautiful but definitely puffy and dark under her eyes. And again if she was going to fake injuries then why did she make them so subtle? Like, I'm so confused what people are actually accusing her of? Faking her injuries? Not being injured? Not being injured enough?

[limmastyles]

Girl how are you doing right not?

Girl I’m doing so fucking good. We all knew it was coming. The second she started photo shopping herself into photos with him at the gym I knew it was over. It was a perfect paparazzi photo moment. I’m going to the gym together. But he refused. And it was odd to me. He was going out of his way to not go to the gym with her. I thought we were wrong because of the fact that she was at the concert with her kids but that just shows me that she had no idea. I truly think that she didn’t know it coming out as soon as it was. On Twitter VisiblyBi talked about how Olivia apparently used James Corden to get into the concerts. Apparently she hasn’t been allowed in for a while. She exhausted her connections with Jeff and the Tommy’s and they weren’t able to help her, then started using Ben Harper and his wife around Halloween and there was a reason why she wasn’t with Harries management at the concert anymore. Then after Ben Harper couldn’t get her into the concert anymore she used James Corden to get in. That’s why we saw her the family and friends actions with a lanyard. Then all of a sudden she’s in the pit by herself, then gone before the concert ended. She try to go to make it look like they were happy and good. That article the day after reeks like it came from her team. Then the break up article was announced a day later. I truly think she had no idea what was happening. I think Carrie wasn’t obligated to be around her anymore. If you go onto Google you can see that don’t worry darling came out on the 17th in Thailand. That’s the last premier an opening that it had. Not to mention it’s now on streaming services. Harry’s contractual obligation to be with Olivia is over. And I think he wanted it to be done as soon as possible. It’s not a coincidence that the stunt was over not long after The final premiere in Thailand, the movie being put on streaming services, couple weekends before Thanksgiving, at the end of the LA residency and right before his South America residency and not long before Christmas. I don’t think he wanted her hijacking the South America to her, I don’t think he wanted her around her and the holidays and he is not contractually obligated to be around her anymore. Which is why he put out the break up article. Next year is going to be a really big year for Harry, with him continuing his tour abroad, the Grammys, the BRIT Awards not to mention acting awards for my policeman if it gets nominated. We might see him at some award shows but at the end of the day it’s a big year for him next year and I don’t think he wanted her around for it anymore. I think the last time that they had to be seen together was after the whole nanny story came out and now he’s free. I think she’s pissed off, I think she is annoyed because her meal ticket is gone. The thing that made her relevant, her 15 minutes of fame is over. You have so many of her fan sites deleting their Instagram‘s, deleting their Twitter‘s, making their Twitter is private, changing their Instagram handles. And forgetting about her. We all knew it was coming to an end, the signs were there and not to mention during the last couple months of the stunts she was bad for business. She was bad for his image. And the second he was able to drop Her he did. I don’t know why anyone thought that this relationship is real but it’s stupid if he did

[zx-yourmother-xz]

dni: cisgender people, heterosexual people, people who wear glasses without lenses, people who like milk, people with names longer than 8 letters, people with more than 2 middle names (thin fucking ice, kelvin), people who don't like nathan fielder, public radio dislikers, people whose date of birth fell on a waxing gibbous moon phase, people

who do not like flash cartoons, people with hair that goes further down than their butt, people who keep telling me to read homestuck thats not just the sweet jeff and hella bro part, people who think gendered language is important and good, rock haters, if a crab has ever pinched you (they didnt like your energy and neither do i), if you've never had a parasocial relationship that consumed your every waking hour, if you have or have had a crush on that big red guy from spooky month, if you have never at least TRIED to dye your hair, if you've never had your leg suddenly tense up after you tried to move it?? like what the hell did i do what was that, if you don't like sour candy, if you thought wreck it ralph THE FIRST ONE was a heartless marketing ploy, if you like elsa more than anna, if your favorite indiana jones movie isn't raiders of thr lost ark, if you pronounce arkansas "ark in saw", if you pronounce domain "dough main", if you dont pronounce room "rum", if you hate pirates, if you have never burped so hard your stomachache went away, if you don't brush your teeth every day, if your name is "harry" or "riley" or "bonnibel", if you are fluent in german, if you don't giggle when you read the word "aspen", if you actively keep up with the marvel cinematic universe, if you believed in santa claus past the age of 7, if you main spy in tf2, if you main ridley in smash, if your world history teacher ever assigned you the role of factory owner during the industrial revolution reenactment part of thr lesson (again. they didnt like your energy. neither do i), if you can't tell me the antiderivative of secant x off the top of your head without googli ng it, if you don't know how to read sheet music, if your age was in the double digits when you learned to tie your shoes, if you ship coach z with marzipan, if you don't know who coach z and marzipan are, if you don't like slightly burnt popcorn or slightly unpopped kernels, if you think the muppets are stupid, if you still to this day think that the blood that is inside your veins is blue because of lack of oxygen, if you never had surgery before, if you never had braces before, if you don't like monster high, if you don't have at least 2 alter ego-type people (i will accept self-inserts), if you like bbc sherlock, if you sided with kanye and not taylor, if you like that stupid big mouth show, if you like the newer seasons of the simpsons, if you think maia crimew is a bad person, if you hate nyan cat, if you boil water in the microwave, if you like your steak anything more than medium, if you watched fight club and didnt find edward norton attractive, if you don't practice facial expressions in the mirror before a big event to make sure you look extra classy when you smile, if you think james corden is funny, if you havent watched arrested development, if you didn't know that the bar above the decimal that symbolizes a repeating decimal is called a vinculum, if you don't know what a subtrahend is, if you never read diary of a wimpy kid, if the cheese touch was never a thing at any school you were at, if you did read diary of a wimpy kid and thought dork diaries was better, if you prefer c or c++ over python or javascript, if you hate mac n cheese, if you dont like the tomodachi life europe tts voices but like thr amwrican ones, and if you've read this far

[getawayheaven]

Heyyyy you... thanks for all the cutestesstttestt pics of louis..

I've a question for you.. I know that you might know as much as a next person about HL life, but perspective differs from person to person.. and I would like to know yours.. so here it goes, why do you think louis is singing 'I love him, I hate it' in back to you.. is he saying that he loves this person and he hates that he cannot do anything about it?? I know most of the people are thinking harry and B could just be friends.. but I don't think so, I came to terms with that when harry posted his backstage pic after brits and it had B next to him, even his manager, producer were all somewhere far comparatively.. I also realized that I don't care much about H being with anyone as much as I thought I would.. but I care about louis, like a loooooot.. I was a larrie or still am, I don't know it's all messy now but I always thought always you, habit, back to you are for harry.. Louis removing first 2 songs from setlist kind of felt odd, the songs which were received very well in his concerts irrespective of what or who they are about.. but him singing 'I love him' has surprised me.. Louis is very very private and he just doesn't do such things often, he does not let people know that he is anything other than straight.. except for people in fandom who is painfully aware that he is not..but him changing the lyric is kind of big deal.. is he trying to give confirmation that he is in fact not straight or that he singing that he still did not get over H and he hates that feeling(it's because i think they are not together) .. I would hope they still are, because I've never seen that adoration or love on louis face if its not for harry.. so I just hope he is doing fine..

You are most welcome anon. 😍

Louis is in his best phase right now. He has confessed that he's not taking much pressure and he's enjoying his life. The situation was much different when he started the tour and he used to feel pressurised and anxious. So even though I'm not sure if HL are together or not but I for sure know that Louis feels very content right now. In both his career and personal life. He's doing great on tour, we know how excited he is for another edition of his own festival this year too. He's very happy about his sister's pregnancy (the amount of baby posts he liked just to celebrate that news was insane lol). So please don't worry about him, he's doing great and he knows he's gonna get bigger and bigger with every album.

Regarding the 'I love him' line I really think it's just queer coded. He has been very confident about his approach towards fans and he knows people love him so he has been doing some things that I wouldn't have believed he would ever do before this tour. That include I love him line and fucked him written on screen behind him. So I don't think it has anything to do with his relationship status but it's much more about his desire to be seen for who he really is. All because he's so fucking confident in himself right now. I agree it really is a big deal. And m so glad he's taking these steps. And really Louis just removed songs that didn't suit his vibe on this tour. Those songs weren't in accordance with his current pop punk image. It was a decision based on his overall set list and new album. I don't think it has anything to do with who he wrote them for.

And Brad? He's just another white rich asshole feeding off harry's money and fame that Harry needs to keep around like a minion. I really don't think there's anything between Harry and Bread. He's just another useless addition to his team, much like Xander was, X's gf was, X's brother was, James corden was, and several others were. If harry wanted to start such a public relationship with a male then his team would have roasted it enough to get attention worth his entire lifetime. They won't leave such a perfect opportunity. And they definitely would have kept Brad's image pure and perfect to let harry come out with him. But there are enough reports of Brad picking fangirls up from the crowd. This braddary thing is just baseless tbh. It's just a ship made by people who goes by the moto "Anyone but Louis". Basically Louis haters. So just chill about Brad, he will fade in background when Jeff will lend another minion to Harry.

#ask #i feel good after venting out my feelings about two multi millionaires #after such a long day of hard work #lol #thank you anon