#going to start SOBBING again

[whatohitsonfirewelp]

Guys can we please talk about how HUGE buck being bisexual is?

We have more people watching the show because a man was made bi and he hits NONE of the gay stereotypes.

People are doing it because this is so so so rare!!

People are doing it out of SPITE for the homophobic fans!!

People are watching the first season and are in SHOCK because oh?? There’s a lesbian black couple?? With a CHILD??? Oh there’s a gay 911 operator???

Guys it’s just

So many people are discovering this amazing beautiful show and the queer characters and now THEY get to see themselves as well!! THEY get to experience this joy with us!!

Because 911 is so much more than Evan Buckley. It’s so much more than Hen and Karen and Josh. It’s so much more because of them. It’s so much more because we have such a diverse and amazing cast. It’s so much more because they talk about topics of abuse, ptsd, family trauma (for SEVERAL characters), therapy for MEN, the grief of losing a partner or a parent or a child. It’s fully a found family show!!

And it’s so beautiful to see people hear about this show and watch it and feel seen. That Evan Buckley being bisexual opened a door for so many people that never knew it was ever there.

#THIS is what change looks like #THIS is queer media history #THIS is how you get a audience #because I’m seeing SO many people who are so supportive of buck #even if they don’t ship buddie!! or if they never in a million years thought buck was bi!! #they’re OPEN to it they are willing to have someone connect the points for them so they CAN understand!! #whatoh back at it again #going to start SOBBING again #911 abc #evan buckley

[moeblob]

I've been debating playing more RF4S so uh. Have he.

#rune factory 4 #vishnal #I actually have like.... only played otome recently on switch lmao #between that and some anime........ havent really played much... #i keep wanting to play things and then promptly settle down to play and then go nope! #and then do nothing lmao #also i have started two other pictures today and i just cant seem to get in a good art rhythm #why is art so hard this month lmao............... sobs #and its like ive already drawn the people im trying to draw before! so !!! it shouldnt be that hard right #ive done it before and can do it again right? nah #art hard is what im sayin

[astranauticus]

𝘚𝘤𝘢𝘳-𝘤𝘳𝘰𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴

#rolling with difficulty #vrla rwd #mrsn rwd #rwd starship #shoutout to fall out boy for writing lyrics that absolutely slap with no context i guess #get it. do you get it. cuz mechanites don't dream (starts sobbing) #something something the least mrsn could ask for is for vrla to remember him fondly and he can't even do that bc all his memories are gone #also yes it's a stylistic choice to draw mrsn as the starry apparition here but it's also absolutely bc the apparition is easier to draw #ITS SO FUN. i just do a white outline with a little gaussian blur then go to town on the starry background #between the astral sea and the mrsn ghost i just keep having to draw that kinda starry background and i have lots of custom brushes for it #and it's just. so much fun. just slapping colours and shinies on the canvas like a small child #the original idea i had in my head was significantly less... close contact but then i looked up couples dancing pose refs on pinterest #and got the fucking gayest reference image ever so here we are #WALAO TUMBLR MOBILE FUCKED UP THE RESOLUTION AGAIN NABEI #art I made

[agentark]

whatever you do, don't imagine a young J Corvin waiting every day at the end of their drive, hoping today is the day the mail carrier finally brings a letter from their very best friend

#i'm personally about to start sobbing #how many letters do they try sending #how long does that sweet gentle soul wait - I actually don't want to know #little too close to home frankly lmao #grandpa i don't CARE that something evil lives in fernweh and wants to eat me or control me or whatever - that's my bestie!! #I just did James's route and this part hurt so much worse #fernweh saga #like J is SO scared to ask MC if they can write this time & they're trying to be SO supportive-- #--of the fact that the last time they tried MC was going through an incredibly difficult time in their life #but that doesn't mean it didn't hurt so badly #and like it's obviously not MC's fault bc they never even got the letters in the first place #but now I want to cry thinking about how my MC hugs James at the police station when they meet again and how he's probably like ??? #my MC missed him and James is like 'weird reaction for someone who couldn't be bothered to write back' #'and shattered my little fifteen year old heart into pieces' #i'm making wild assumptions about the inner workings of J's mind here but anyway #j corvin #all i'm saying is if my best friend was ripped out of my life and I tried writing them I would be religiously checking the mailbox #probably far longer than I should but still trying to hold out hope

[lxkeee]

Ugh I'm really working overtime 😩

#I WAS LISTENING TO CHEMTRAILS OVER THE COUNTRY CLUB OKAYY #AND I WAS HMMMM FANFIC IDEA #UH OHHH THE NEXT MUSIC THAT STARTED IS PLAYING ALL TOO WELL 10 MINUTE VERSION 👁️👁️ #MHMHMHMMMM #lxkeee updates #RIGHT PERSON WRONG TIME #STAR CROSSED LOVERS #🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️ #SOULMATES BUT NOT IN THIS UNIVERSE #🥹🥹🥹 #CUZ HE'S GOING TO BE CURSED TO STAY IN HELL AND WON'T SEE HER AGAIN #SOBBING AND I HAVEN'T STARTED WRITING YET

[skitskatdacat63]

I literally can't stop thinking about this sequence of pictures, actually completely brainrotting me

#ever since i watched aus 2009 i cant stop scrolling back up in my gallery to stare at these #like pics that genuinely make me roll around on my bed and squeal #GAHHHHHH LIKE THE WAY SEB IS GRINNING UP AT AND HESITANTLY PLACING HIS HAND ON HIS CHEST #AND THEN JENSON NOTICES AND MY GOD THE WAY HES LOOKING AT HIM I CANT I CANT #THE WAY THEYRE SMILING AT ESCH OTHER IM GONNA LOSE IT #AND LOOK HOW HARD JENSE IS GRIPPING HIM GODDDDDDDD #like i really cant express in words how these make me feel its actually just *tv static noises* #i feel like im grinning so hard looking at these that im gonna explode #(also @grace if you see these: ive been reading solar flare lately and GOD YOURE SO RIGHT WHEN YOU REFERENCED IT) #(theres this part where mark says to jb that hes been looking up podium/press pics of them online) #(and that they look like theyre in love HE IS LITERALLY ME FRRRRRR LIKE IM GOING INSANE OVER IT) #(these pics brainrotted me before i started reading it but reading it has only made it 100x worse/better) #anyways i really really like 2009 sebson they're so endearing to me 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #ig its just smth about how theyre so affectionate with each other despite being each others rivals #like constantly patting/nudging/hugging each other IM GONNA CRYYYYY IM GONNA EXPLODEEEE #i put these pics in the comp i made if seb but like bcs of the magnitude to which they affect me i needed to make a posr for them #just imagine me wailing and losing my mind irl and in these tags sob sob sob #if i stay committed w watching races ill just keep on going to the end of the v8 era so dw my wailing can only get worse :D #every time i scroll up out of the tags to look at the pics again i feel my heart skipping a bit HDJFKGKGKGL #anyways unhinged wdym unhinged :) #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #jenson button #jb22 #sv5 #sebson #2009 australian gp

[icewindandboringhorror]

a quite simple outfit, trying to use the little blue and white apron thing (which is actually a dress I think, that I just leave un-buttoned in the back and added an apron-like tie to lol)

#self #mori kei #jfashion #NOT really but like.. it's.. adjacent I guess.. forgive me .. I may try using tags again though I kind of got out of the habit ghhj #I need to be... Seen to some degree. I want to start selling clothes and sculptures again to recoup the costs of having to euthanize my cat #and stuff . but that won't be very successful if I have like.. 15 people to sell to lol... #the eternal Hermit Conflict where you hate attention and Being Percieved in general yet in todays capitalist society it is nearly #a necessity to have some form of social network or media presence especially in creative fields. etc. etc. ... kicking screaming wailing #sobbing so on and so forth.. tearfully punching the cold mossy stone walls of my evil wizard tower... #I was also thinking of maybe opening a few sculpture commission slots and maybe Tumblr Blazing that post or something #but.. again.... sobbing crying interacting with the general public oughhf ouuch -500 HP #why can't I just be approached by some wealthy 65 year old woman who is nonsensically infatuated with my art for no #reason and gives me like $10.000 a week for food and art supplies and etc. and I can go fuck off into a cabin in the middle of nowhere #in the uk and just be left alone to work on my projects without even needing to build any form of connections or social presence because I' #already set for life and can just get funding and connections whenever lol.. WHICH not to be ungrateful like obviously I still appreciate #anyone who follows and interacts with my posts. I dont mean it in a 'grrr fuck all of you imbeciles I wish I could delete my blog!!!' or #whatever hhjkjk.. I just mean it more in a like.. I am very socially inept and my mental illness gives me severe social issues so any situ #tion where I'm expected to self promote or network or interact with others generally is nightmarish and stressful for many many reasons #and if I could somehow skip that part and just go straight to being a famous author or somethin.. that would be cool. Which I know EVERYONE #hates networking and stuff but I mean like.. on a level most people could not possibly comprehend.. I am not just an 'introvert'. I am like #doctors declare me incapable of functioning in general society very poor mental health prognosis probably should have a caretaker at #some point type Hermit lol.. ANYWAY ghbhj... alas.. I also feel weird about the sculptures in terms of what to charge for them #and always have which is part of why I stopped selling them. If I charged a fair even like $15 an hour many of them would be like #close to $150+. and nobody is going to pay that for a decoration. that doesn't even factor in like.. supplies or time spent communicating/s #etching the concept (if a commission) etc. etc. I thought it'd be better to just auction them then and let people pay what they want inst #d of a set price but etsy doesnt allow auctions and is it weird to just.. link people to an Art Ebay or something lol.. #AAAANYWAY.. the outfit.. I still love these shoes. they're nice and a little Older Style looking. always into pastel florals too lol #(everything is thrifted as usual. excited about the shirt because it's so puffy! it was in the halloween section though ghjhj.. like when i #s october and they make the special aisle in goodwill for 'Costume' clothes even though theyre all just normal stuff I would wear ghg)

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

no but it's the way the cat slow-blinks at the player in the final cutscene

#THATS what made me cry #i was holding it together until she slow-blinked at the screen and i just AAAAAAA FUCK FUCK FUCK #im insane over this game i am mentally unwell #everything about it #the soul of humanity persevering the hope the beauty in darkness #how one determined little cat can open the world i just - #stray 2022 #stray spoilers #im chewing on couch cushions like a rabid dog rn #fuckfuckfuckfuck #and how the last human never got to see the outside #BUT HUMANS ARE STILL GOING TO SEE THE OUTSIDE BECAUSE THE COMPANIONS CARRY THEIR MEMORY AND THEY WILL SEE IT #though i do think it's an absolutely heinous crime that we didn't see the cat reunite with her friends like what the fuck was that #even if it was just like #she slow blinks at us and starts to walk off #then we hear distant meows and her head and tail go up and she bounds away #WE COULDN'T HAVE HAD THAT??? CRUMBS??? #i need to know that she finds them again and she brings them to meet her companion friends #i just. i just. sobbing violently

[cal-cium-the-nerd]

Fandom: One Piece Words: 530 Relationships: Jean Bart & Hakugan Characters: Jean Bart, Hakugan Summary: “I’m not suited for it,” Jean Bart replies, instead. “It hasn’t been a month since I stepped aboard, it’s not wise to trust me with the lives of the crew.” Heart Pirates Week - Day 1 ღ Jean Bart ღ Cursed

Am I ridiculously late to this event? Yes, I am. Am I posting this anyways? Yes, I am!! I’ve got drafts for all nine days, but lately life has been bonking me with a window frame and then pouring boiling paint on my head, before rinsing and repeating, so who knows when/if I’ll finish anything else

#heart pirates #heart pirates week #heart pirates week 2024 #one piece #my writing #Past couple weeks: *rent contract ends and I have to leave* *have to move apartments* *break my back carrying the furniture* *have 1000 dif #*have to work extra hours at work* *get invited/accepted to zines and go ‘oh shit i need to work on that or i’ll have literally no time’* #*grandma suddenly started beef with my uncle (FOR NO REASON) and now there is unnecessary Drama added to the family* #*then my little cousin went to grandma’s house solely to have sex w his gf in there. once again adding to the Drama (for no reason)* #also my cat hasn’t let me sleep more than 2 continuous hrs bc the new place scares her and im tired. im so so so tired. #insert a meme of a sobbing cat. no i don't know which one. any will do.

[carryonmylovelies]

sometimes a sweet holiday short story will straight up murder you and kill you. for fun.

#the way that i just COMPLETELY broke down and fell apart and disintegrated into a fucking puddle of misery when i read that..... #PEOPLE HE GAVE HIM HER KISS #HE DID IT #WE'VE LITERALLY COME FULL CIRCLE FROM CARRY ON . IM GONNA START SOBBING I CANT DO THIS AGAIN TODAY QKWNSKSNSJ #IT ONLY TOOK 7 YEARS #IM GONNA GO LAY DOWN IN A GRAVE #its like a fundamental part of myself has been missing for years and years and years and now its finally in its place #i was 13 when i read that scene for the first time 😭😭😭😭😭 now im almost 20 and im STILL THIS FUCKED UP ABT SIMON AND BAZ #the snowbaz brainrot is eternal #that shit will not only stay with you but you will GROW UP ON IT #i have to go stare blankly at a wall for awhile goodbye #simon snow #baz pitch #snowbaz #snow for christmas spoilers #scattered showers spoilers #the snow for christmas sickness

[secondchoice-ragdoll]

#T's “what did u call me? do u think whatever that is is hot? okay then good” #i love the tour pic above K! #and i love how they r still plucked abt not being in Dune2 #K the avid winker... #its so cute how T is featured on this album of K's too😭😭😭 #T wants to be left alone (on the phone) on her bday and K wants attention... well... ((once again relating to K)) #T looked at Ks belly in a suprisingly like? soft way? idk i might have hallucinated that but who knows. #fuck whoever didnt visit K when she would have wanted them to. #its sweet how T visited her! (srsly cant u just communicate who wants what in this situation so its no suprise? ik its hard for them but😭) #T describing Ks party attending habits!!! they know each other soooo well🤭 #aaagh how they have to act like they cant easily spend 2 hrs together having fun when they literally cant wipe the smiles off of their faces #(lesbians..... lovesick idiots.......) #oh they r always facetiming! so adorable :( #T was so excited that they r linked! like girl u do not need more confirmation for that research do u?😭 #K watching the pod...... my heart...... #why dont they just sit closer if they will reach across a whole fucking room to touch eachother?? like it sounds easier for me but u do u! #i really get a kick out of K mentioning TRHPS anytime she does it bc ik it was such a big thing in Ts life and ugh😭 #constantly praising each other😭😭😭😭😭 what if i start sobbing huh #well maybe T is trying to get K to learn how to flirt so that she can practice on her? just an idea?😁 #K putting her leg up on T?????? hi what? jist sit in the other's lap u creatures... its okay we can all look away for a sec if u need it... #their art! i fucking love it! both of it! its art at its finest🛐 and id kill to see a collection of their drawings bc cmon they r amazing! #its cute how they r talking abt smth and then they go “oh wait we were there together!” #its almost as if they actually spend time hanging out😱 (dont let the police know!!4!4) #“if we were on DR now-” okay but why r u still dreaming of that miss T?🤭🤭🤭 (who could blame her) #them watching the movies the other one recommends is the closest we can get to them watching an actual thing together (outside of NF) #also im so happy T spent time w K on her bday :((( #trixie mattel #katya zamo #tbatb #the brians

[seiwas]

every time i think or speak abt hajime the words just flow out in an endless stream 😔

#he is sooooooooooooo oh my gos #to me default hajime is slowburn best friends to lovers with a bit of ldr OR an alternative pathway of going to college together 😓 #the slowburn is insane because he only admits how he feels in his 3rd yr of uni LOL 🥲 #another variation is meeting him in college 🥺 and he’s kinda shy? not super awkward but not the chattiest guy youve ever met too #by his 3rd year there’s a silent confidence to him that’s polite and respectful but u just know u shouldnt cross #ITS LIKE KIT SAID AKXNKDJXKD HES LIKE THE FRAT BOY WHO ISNT REALLY A FRAT BOY AKNDKXJ #HE HAS THE MAKINGS OF IT BUT JUST. ISNT ONE. 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 #perfect college boyfriend me thinks #the kind you eventually end up marrying years after graduation #CRYING SAWBING I NEED HIM #DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON GIRL DAD IWA I WILL SOB INTO MY HANDS #i talked so much again

[sharp-tooths]

Thinking about the fact that Knives loved western movies as a kid and liked the idea of gunslingers and how after the crash he took the gun from a man he killed and gave it to vash, not only because he wanted his brother to protect himself and join him in killing humans, but because he thought gunslingers were cool. He gave Vash a gun cause he thought having his brother be a gunslinger on a desert planet would be cool. Just like a western movie.

Im dying

#trigun stampede #millions knives #vash the stampede #im just gonna go lie on the floor and cry for a while again #kni at the ripe old age of maybe 7 years old: #my names going to be millions knives #and my brother is going to be a cool gunslinger #and were going to protect our people and kill all of humanity! #im sobbing #on one hand i can see why vash would still so readily forgive him despite the things hes done that alot of ppl would find irredeemable #but also. kni has already been so blindingly consumed by his fear fuled rage #that hes come full circle and doesnt realize hes committed the very same acts he condemns humans for doing to plants #on the very people he was trying to protect #his brother and all the remaining dependent plants #and i personally think the way he went about it was so much more unforgivable and horrific #cause what the ever loving FUCK that was in episode 11 makes me want to puke #and in the beginning of episode 12 i actually almost did #i didnt mean to start ranting in the tags i just have FEELINGS #trigun stampede spoilers

[b-dwolf]

you know i am so glad abc decided to take the plunge and actually make buck canonically bisexual.

because unfortunately, that is still a big risk that most shows are never willing to do in fear of losing viewers.

but the fact that abc was like, ok actually fuck you if you are homophobic (which literally HOW can you be when there has always been an established lesbian character since the very start + other side characters who are also queer?) we don’t want your views anyway!

and by doing that they are losing the bigoted assholes, but gaining SO MANY new viewers who can relate to buck, or who wants to see more queer representation in shows and it’s just..

god i am so fucking happy. i do not think i have ever been apart of a viewing experience where i got to witness one of the main characters, one of the OG characters, go through a coming out arc ESPECIALLY in their early 30s??? like this is just

so fucking huge for so many reasons.

and fuck all the people who are upset! go watch greys or something we don’t want you!

#evan buckley #bisexual buck #911 on abc #911 spoilers #bi representation #going to start sobbing at work again

[spacemancharisma]

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#I don't know how to do this #I don't know how to fucking do this #I had a fucking Hours long crying breakdown after my parents left today #bc i'll never be fucking good enough for them #but if I say anything then we're acknowledging it and maybe it's better to not acknowledge it #maybe we just go back to ignoring the distance #if I say anything then I’m the bad guy again #I don't want to have to do this I don't want to have to keep being the one who steps forward first #I just want to stop trying and let it be what it is and let it hurt in a dull distant way #i've started crying again just from thinking about it #and I don't cry. I haven't cried more than like a light sniffle in three years until today #(bc of antidepressants) #I don't know what to do #I don't want to make it worse I don't want to hurt her feelings I don't want to be the one that starts shit #and I knoowwww I’m gaslighting myself bc she trained me to do this and I Cannot ignore the. two hour bathtub sob #but god what if I *am* the problem what if I *am* instigating and actually we had a good day #what if I’m expecting too much from her and this is better so maybe this is as good as it gets #do I bear it? do I bear it because she can't? #I know it's not fair and I know i'm hurting but maybe that's better than her hurting #do I just carry it for both of us? #I’m not a kid anymore I don't have that excuse #maybe this is womanhood. carrying it so your mother doesn't have to #she's carrying it for my grandmother. maybe this is just it. #I don't know. I don't know what to do. #I’m so fucking tired and it hurts #whatever. #vent #sad kids with bad moms club

[partyinthemysterymachine]

stabbing my eyes out

WHY is it so FUCKing hard to find the EXACT REFERENCE I NEED when i KNOW that it exists and i CANT recreate it for myself, on GOD

AAAUAUGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

#ches writes #YELLING. SCREAMING. CRYING #YOUTUBE U BETRAY ME ONCE AGAIN!!!!! #falls to my knees and then the floor and starts sobbing #being an artist: is it really worth it man #….. yes. yes it is. #but i AM going to heartily complain about it the entire time too!!!!! LOL #(it’s the same with writing but AT WHAT COST???? JOY???? #yes. yes oh joy indeed. <3) #BLECH lol #ok bye <3!