#here. do these words mean anything

[superhell]

house md is wild because house tells wilson that he’ll sacrifice many things but never himself and then he sacrifices himself for wilson. and then he sacrifices himself for wilson. and then he sacrifices himself for wilson. and then he

#also like. this is the guy who said that 'people dont change' for the majority of his life and then when wilson is dying hes like 'i can cha #nge' its that he doesn't talk about his feelings and he cannot bear to show weakness until it seems that he is losing wilson and then #he will literally say anything to keep him its that he is shown repeatedly to be a vicodin addict and that hes destroyed relationships over #his pain and his need for vicodin but he'll give wilson his own pills and go without to make sure wilson has enough meds its that he is #old and cynical and his beliefs about humanity have been written in stone and his walls are topped with turrets and barbed wire but the gate #s fucking open for wilson time and again and wilson is the exception to the rules time and again its. so fucked up #wilson is quite literally his anchor in humanity wilson is his achilles heel wilson is his entire support system the foundations of gregory #house's life have been built around one james evan wilson from the moment he saw that twink throw a bottle into a mirror. am i making sense #here. do these words mean anything #house #wilson #hilson #house md #hatecrimes md #house is a very very carefully constructed facade and wilson is a fucking sledgehammer.

[egophiliac]

GREAT GOOGLY MOOGLY, THE NEXT BOOK 7 UPDATE FOR THE JP SERVER IS SET FOR MARCH 1ST.

HOW WE FEELIN LADS!?!?!

AHHHHHHHH NOOO I'M NOT READY, I thought we'd be getting the fourth anniversary first and then Sebek's birthday and then maybe some more episode 7, I didn't -- I didn't think it'd be Friday --

oh god and they're rerunning the story cards, they didn't say this was the final part but it feels like...maybe the penultimate chapter? could the end of episode 7 finally be looming in the distance?! WHAT AM I GOING TO DO

#art #twisted wonderland #gif warning #gifs that accurately represent the inside of idia's brain whenever he has to have a social interaction #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #THE SHROUDS ARE BACK IN TOWN BABY #time to find out how the heck ortho managed to hack(?) his way into the dreamscape(????) via a couple of robot dogs(????????) #a-are they going to show us dream!ortho #i don't know if i want that or not. i mean i do but DO I? #(chanting softly) ortho fight ortho fight ORTHO FIGHT -- #okay no we're cool we're all cool here #preparing mentally to get exactly zero answers to any of my burning questions #(i kind of suspect anything involving crowley-and-possibly-revaan is going to wait until the presumed episode 8....) #(FEEL FREE TO PROVE ME WRONG THOUGH TWST) #man i just want someone to say the words silver vanrouge at some point #60/40 on whether or not i think it'll actually happen but i want this for my BOY #HE DESERVES IT #he's been through so much just let him have this #...there is something a little bit hilarious about sebek's birthday coming AFTER a big episode 7 drop though #we're gonna be in the middle of like. sebek manfully clasping silver's arm and monologuing about how they are brothers in soul or whatever #and smash cut straight into sebek in a sparkly silver bowtie screaming at a picture of goofy falling down a toilet #my kingdom hearts brethren...i am beginning to Understand

[meaningtotellyou]

it’s really bothering me that ana didn’t even get to see the show

#like idk how to word this but it’s like #not in a shallow way or whatever #in like a. this whole thing is so unfair way #this didn’t have to happen #do you know what i mean #this was preventable #idk #like i keep thinking about ‘’im going to see my blondie!’’ #and im not trying to make her loss about being a seiftie or taylor or anything like that #idk im just talking here okay don’t pay attention to me :/

[rapidhighway]

i want to write fic soooo bad but i feel like i just can't present a narrative in a way that anyone will understand idk it always just feels so nonsensical, whatever i write. Even just writing a plan its like after a while all words just lose all meaning idk what this meanss idk how to do this

#like its jsut so hard to explain it like everything becomes word soup or something #like the longer i write the more it feels like the story is pointless even if im trying to write about something concrete #AUAUGH i just dont have a way with words i guess. but its also about the way of writing idk man idkk the story is there but at the same tim #its nothing #i cant explain it #ive wanted to write fic and comics and even flesh out ideas and after a while of trying it just feels so pointless and like its about #nothing even though im not even writing stream of consciousness like I KNOW the things i want to write are here but the story is just. #nothing #AUAHHHFDD HOW DO I EXPLAINNNN #this is a very vivid feeling in my brain whenever i enter this stage of writing anything #UGHHHHHFVBHVD ok bye #i mean i dont really have good ideas either but uhh i would like too :^/ #idk im just looking if anyone feels this way too or if they fight it somehow -_-

[feluka]

the way a lot of the MEANINGFUL statements in support of palestine have come from people who have never touted themselves as activists and a lot of the silence/worse than silence have been from people who constantly sell an image of themselves of how humanitarian they are and how devoted to causes they are

#like. when i say 'i can't believe some of the best statements i've heard have come from macklemore and rupi kaur and nyan cat of all ppl' #i don't mean to say 'i can't believe it's coming from stupid/'lesser' people' because that doesn't mean anything. #nobody's words is inherently worth less even if they're associated with memes or such. BUT #there is something to be said that these are people who have never attempted to inject themselves into scenes as AcTivIsTs #or constantly talked about how good they are and how much good they do #so it's depressing when critrole that brazenly says corny shit like 'we're here to leave the world better than we found it' #and don't get me started on 'don't forget to love each other' #have been dead silent

[majorshatterandhare]

Today I, an aromantic, was getting ready to attend a wedding… with Stranger on repeat.

#the mechanisms #stranger #ttbt2 #i knew what i was doing when i put it on but also i am working on an addtion to my brian-jonny foils post so i was thinking about brian #its always sad brian hours #i cant really read that song separate from him anymore. honestly not sure i ever could but. its just so unconnected from anything else.- #actaea and lyssa is pretty disconnected. but its still almost certainly on the city. alice is pretty disconnected but its a result of- #king cole’s war. the most disconnected songs are redeath. the ignominious demise of dr pilchard. drop dead. hereward the wake. and stranger- #(and frankenstein but i consider that its own thing). and redeath and drop dead are my least favorite mechs songs.dr pilchard i didnt- #really care for for quite a while. stranger has so few words in it. it’s my favorite song. but the story is minimal fron the song (ie w/o- #knowing the crane wife story) so making a story around it sort of makes sense? im having a hard time with the words here. like we expect a- #story. cause that’s what the mechs do. and stranger has a story. it just doesnt have context and so creatong that context for ourselves is- #understandable. to be expected even. hope that makes sense #side note: i think it would make sense for hereward to have been from the same place (system I guess) as the people that made- #fort galfridian. i mean hereward was more of a real person than arthur (since there was no one person arthur was based on. like thats a- #whole thing) and hereward was anglo-dutch. so it makes sense hed be related to that story somehow #its just a theory. obviously. theres nothing in the songs connecting the too as far as im aware. #OH also achilles pointed out to me the anti-amatonormative/aromantic reading of stranger and i liked that a lot #hereward was anglo-danish. not anglo-dutch. sorry danish and dutch people

[rotatedaxis]

such love for "you're begging for tissues, all you get is confetti" like, you're in need of something so simple but you're given this ineffectual thing that can't actually help you at all. it just reads as your needs are forgotten or minimised to their smallest possible point and if that isn't being treated seriously then it's mocked or can be dealt with by something small. in line with the song, your nose is bleeding and the best thing for this is tissues, but all you have is confetti, just this little thing that really isn't going to help whatsoever but it's all the help you're gonna get. And the way this comes just after "but [your friends are] all bloodsucking vampires", just adds bc it's like, well they're getting something out of your struggles but you, it's safe to say, are not having a good time. it gives this impression of people taking joy in your suffering but acting as though they aren't or are doing the absolute barest minimum in giving something that might help but, in reality, doesn't, if anything makes it worse, emotionally-speaking.

and maybe it's just me, but the whole thing feels very defeated. like whoever the character of the song is, has just been putting up with all sorts of crap for however long and is just exhausted by it all, but cover it all up "wave hello 'cause nothing's wrong" and take their "heart off of their sleeve" and just act carefree and like everything's okay when nothing is, just bury it all, they don't "get tragic" anymore (perhaps suggesting that they, along with taking their heart off their sleeve, they don't show any of their emotions anymore)

. again, maybe it's me, but "i'm gonna die before you, it's the first race that i'll win" doesn't inspire a particularly hopeful ending and maybe that ties in with being carefree and "hectic", suddenly - people who know it'll be over soon tend feel okay about it, without getting too deep into it right here right now.

maybe, the whole lot reads as a bullying narrative. talking about giving the kids "something to shout back / as the books fall out of my rucksack" and not being "everything to everyone", by trying to please everyone you please no one, so that type of people-pleasing behaviour never worked out for our character, and just resulted in, at least, teasing. "I don't take my phone off silent anymore" could suggest, if you follow this theme, that they don't want to see what people are sending them or saying to them, so you could call them but they probably won't see it or notice. And then, of course, "while your friends sing happy birthday / but they're all bloodsucking vampires" suggests fake friends and people who turn their backs when you're in need, when you'd give them your time and energy and care - they act like they care, shallow things like singing happy birthday, but won't actually help when it's needed, like our character's nosebleed for which they 'beg' for tissue, but all they get is confetti. (and the word beg suggests that they're really trying to get what they need, but to no avail, so they just have to make do with what they can get their hands on)

anyway. I don't know how much or how little sense any of this makes. all I know is all you get is confetti is an excellent song that has me in a chokehold (despite only being out for not even 5 hours at this point) and it deserves to be heard and read into and loved.

#bears in trees #i don't what it is about this album era but y'all are reawakening my shitty gcse english lit “skills” #as i say englit “skills” i was not good at essays or anything - this is just a ramble let's be real here #again - whoever wrote this beautiful painful masterpiece we will be having words how dare you do this to me #maybe some of this is 'middle kid' projection or school-related-trauma projection or any kind of projection under the sun #bc let's be real it probably is #whatever the story or inspiration or meaning behind the song is - i love it anyway #it is so rare to find a song that registers as “beautiful” but this one truly does - it's something of a masterpiece honestly

[deityofhearts]

I honestly just don’t get how people default to thinking southern accents are like unserious and unintelligent, I know I live in a bubble and I’ve never been outside of the south so like my world view is skewed but like idk I can’t like conceptualize hearing someone’s accent and going “your accent is too stupid and silly for you to have a brain” like ???

#deity dialogue #sorry I’m rlly half asleep #obvs my worldview is different cause I’m southern I’m surrounded by southern ppl I hear the accent all the time #so it’s like normal obvs but idk it still baffles me #idk if I ever go north are y’all gonna be mean to me cause I talk in a way that y’all perceive as stupid and lesser than how you do?? #I’ve already mentioned that even here we aren’t safe from the ‘haha youre a dumbass southern hick’ statements #which is rich cause like bitch who are you to be talking you live here too I don’t wanna hear you call me a red neck cause you’ve been here #for a long ass time to and I’m sure if you went up north they’d be on your ass the same way they’d be on mine #like what gives you the right? #like I will say also that I do make fun of the accent but in the way that lexi and I will be heatedly talking and get more southern with #each word and that amuses and delights us like idk it’s fun to look at someone who just said one word in a more extreme southern accent on #accident and repeat it back to them #but like at the end of the day we like being southern we don’t think there’s anything wrong with it or like inherently worth mocking #plus there’s a difference between two friends being silly and strangers telling you you’re a stupid redneck hick :) #this is also coming from someone who compared to other southern ppl doesn’t have the most strong southern accent (it’s there onvs but ya #know) and I still have to deal with this shit :/ #sorry I need to go to bed and shut up no one caressss

[kyouka-supremacy]

Every Tumblr user ever: I hate tiktok so much I wouldn't get near it with a ten meters pole

Tumblr every three days: Here's a brand new way we tiktokified your perfectly fine Tumblr this week

#Rant incoming feel free to ignore this #:( #Read the new @/changes update and I want to throw up. #What's going on seriously they were handling this website so well up to like a month ago. #What do you mean people who create an account after May 8th won't get a dashboard as default... Are you insane. #Did you hit your head or something #What is going on???????? #“Some folks will start getting access to certain badges based on different actions/accomplishments” with all due respect. Kill me right now #What is this???????????????? This is even worse than all the recent stretching and highlighting on mutuals / followers. #I don't follow anyone leave me ALONE #Like seriously someone really needs to remember Staff that the best part of Tumblr is the low competitiveness– #that literally every other social lacks. They used to know back in the day??? #And now it's all “Here's who follows you (((and by evident extension who doesn't)))”. Have you considered I DON'T WANT TO KNOW #Next update they'll hit you with a “follower count / likes / following is all public now btw 😊” #and that's going to be the day I'll disappear from the entire internet once and for all #Tbh I think I'm going to write some very polite but strong worded submission to staff or something. #I know chances are they won't even read it but things are so bad I don't want to leave anything untried #random rambles

[gardennuggie]

REMEMBERED THAT LIKE A YEAR AGO I MADE THIS (UNFINISHED) GARDEN WARFARE HELLTAKER PARODY..

more notes under the cut

It's made in google slides because I hate computer science woo!

I originally made these two drawings and was inspired...

Originally there were supposed to be four Plant and Four Zombie options. The ones I didn't get to were Fire Cactus, Shadow Flower, All-Star, Marine Biologist, and some other zombie I can't remember. I kinda started All-Star but gave up lol

some sprite sheets here! wow this art is OLD...

#pvz #plants vs zombies #pvz gw #pvz gw2 #garden warfare #garden warfare 2 #my art #flashing lights tw #idk why it flashes in the recording it doesn't do that normally #plasma pea pvz #chomper pvz #sky trooper pvz #shadow flower pvz #all-star pvz #but yea this was just a fun little project #btw i don't mean anything weird by 'harem' here i was just copying helltaker's wording

[quietwingsinthesky]

Hiiiii! So, a few days ago you were talking about the whole thing with Amy, Rory, and River. And when I saw those posts a thought arose in my head and I wish to share it with you.

Since River grew up with Amy and Rory as Mels. And Mels was Amy's best friend do you think that they ever talked about children? Since I know that it can come up when talking with friends, and like... do you think that Amy might've ever expressed whether or not she wanted children?

And if she didn't, that Mels would've had to listen to her mother say that she doesn't want children? The idea is so heartbreaking and sooo interesting.

What do you think about it?

no, no, see, you're so right and this drives me wild.

because, the way i see it, i don't think amy wanted children. she's somewhere on the 'hasn't thought about it' to 'vaguely negative feelings about it happening' range to me, which falls sharply into 'Not Happening Ever Again' post-s6. (specifically, in terms of having a kid herself, even if she could, i really don't think she would. i do love that she and rory end up adopting a kid later, because that does make sense, for amy pond who grew up alone in one universe with her family swallowed by cracks in time before the doctor helped her set it right again, for her to want to make sure another child won't be alone in the world like she was. getting off-track here.)

and that's so. because the first real memory river/mels has of amy is of amy shooting at her. and depending on how well the silence fucked up the rest of her memory, it might be one of the very first memories she has at all. that's how she met her mother, crying for help and getting a bullet instead. her mother tried to kill her, so of course, you have to think. she must have needed to hear that she was wanted, right? even if she was taken away, even if amy shot her, at some point, melody must have been wanted?

river is good at getting people to do what she wants, but she is very, very bad at subtlety. and mels is younger, has less practice, so when she wants to know this, she's just going to ask. blunt and quick, easy enough because amy's used to the way mels will open her mouth and you just have to be ready to roll with what comes out if you want to keep up. it's why they're such good friends (like mother, like daughter.)

they're nine, and mels asks if amy wants kids, and amy wrinkles up her nose and says she won't have time for children, obviously, once her raggedy doctor finally comes back. they're fifteen, and amy and rory dance will they-won't they in a way that makes mels twitchy to watch, and taunting amy about wanting to have rory's babies is a good way to get on her nerves. but amy calls her gross, tells her she's got more life planned than children would leave room for, and besides, imagine her, a mom? it'd be a disaster.

mels does. a lot. she looks at her mother and just sees her best friend instead. she's not even sure what she wishes was there, but. maybe amy's right. and besides. imagine her, a daughter, instead of the ticking time bomb she really is? it'd be a disaster.

they're sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, and on. mels stands on the outside of a love story that births a universe. and her. how do you compete with that? not that she would know, not yet, she hasn't been there. but it doesn't make her feel any less alienated when amy and rory talk in whispers about a half-remembered world that's bled through to this life, about roman soldiers and boxes and the big bang of belief.

all these memories, they never mention children. on amy's wedding day, she's different, not like someone remembering a dream but someone who lived it. rory stands straighter, won't leave her side, and they're both so much older than they were yesterday. maybe now, right? a wedding's as good a time as any to decide you want kids.

mels not being at amy & rory's wedding is such an obvious lazy way of them trying to explain why they totally didn't just throw this plot twist together at the last minute that i'm not even going to acknowledge it. of course she was at their wedding. she's their best friend. there's too many people around the doctor, and she wasn't ready today of all days, so despite this horrible burning need under her skin to strike, she stays her hand. doesn't let him dance with her because she might just tear his throat out if he gets too close. stays with amy and rory as the maid of honor should. she must have been there for the awkward questions that always gets asked, 'so, any plans for a baby?' 'when am i getting grandkids?' 'oh, you two are going to have gorgeous children together.' standing a few feet from amy in her wedding dress and watching her mother tense and grit her teeth and brush off the questions. watching her look nervously at rory but never ask if he means it when his mom asks him if he'd prefer a son or a daughter, and rory answers 'either one, some day, not anytime soon.'

god i'm just going on and on, aren't i. but really, what's it like to know that amy never changed her mind. the next time she sees them, she's already been born and stolen. i don't like let's kill hitler for. so many reasons. but there is something compelling about how recklessly river lashes out at the world, at the doctor. even her sacrifice at the end is almost suicidal, throwing all her regenerations into this man without knowing if that will even work or if it might kill her to do it. but it makes more sense in the context of someone who has reached the end of a long, long wait for some kind of indication, any kind, that her mother wanted to have her. and finally been told, no. she didn't choose melody.

#like. to be clear also: i don't think the fact that amy didn't want kids and really didn't have a choice in giving birth to river #means that she wouldn't love river. i think it would make their relationship Complicated but i do think amy loves her. so much. #that's her daughter but it's also her best friend. #but like. god. to spend your whole childhood hoping you'll hear about some little glimmer of yourself. #a dream. a passing mention. a debate on baby names. anything. and to hear nothing. #and river is. like. she is really really bad at relationships right? we know this. #the person she's closest to is the doctor and she spends most of her life believing *he doesn't even love her*. #we're talking about someone whose base assumption about everyone is that they will try to hurt her at some point so she should always keep #one hand armed. #and her mother. didn't choose to have her. didn't have that choice. that has to fuck her up a little. #(and also serve as proof that river is. so so bad at knowing when she is loved. because maybe amy didn't choose to have her but she named #melody pond after mels her best friend. she has been choosing river every day for the past however many years since mels decided to come #here and be near her mom and dad even if only as kids. but river still can't see it. #and. given the nature of how the ponds disappear from her life. and we never get any closure about them and river. #you have to wonder if she ever did. river song do you know your mother loves you? #having the melody-as-river reveal be so close to the end of the season and then getting rid of amy & rory before they can actually do #anything with the three of them as a messed up little family unit is the show's biggest crime. because i don't know! i don't know if river #knew her parents loved her! i don't know if she *ever* came to terms with how she was born and how they didn't need to choose her then to #choose her now! i don't know if river ever really felt comfortable thinking of them as her parents rather than her friends? #according to the transcripts. river calls amy 'mother' twice. (and 'mummy' once jokingly.) she calls rory 'father' once. and 'dad' in angel #in manhattan. and it just. it drives insane right? it's almost weirdly formal. like the words aren't right but she knows she should say the #and. and. i don't think i'm ever going to get over river song. #i think that's the takeaway here. #ask #doctor who #river song #amy pond #rory williams

[sonknuxadow]

every time someone on the internet lies about surge's origins to prove that sonic is canonically trans an angel loses its wings

#well i guess lying isnt the right word. spreading misinformation would probably be more accurate #but its still annoying #especially considering the surge being a clone of sonic misconception being so widespread #can be traced back to one specific tumblr post that blew up and got reposted everywhere #that non sonic fans (or people who just dont read idw sonic) all accepted as fact without doing their own research #and then went on to spread further. PAIN #also even if surge really was made from sonic's dna i dont see how that would mean sonic is trans.... ? #because shes clearly not an exact copy shes a different species and a different color i dont see why her gender would mean anything #i say this as a trans sonic believer btw. people saying sonic is trans is not the problem here its the using inaccurate info as evidence #and then spreading that as facts #theres so much misinformation abuot sonic related things going around all the time in general not just this and its SOO ANNOYINGGGG #this along with stuff from the sonic bible being spread as canon info are things i see brought up most oftenn by non sonic fans #on random sonic related posts i think

[psqqa]

if they wanted me to edit these research guides in a timely manner they should have written them better

#is there a way to ignore all the awkward phrasing and shit and just focus on content? #probably??? #but not if you’re me #not when content and writing become intertwined by the bad writing making the content more confusing #what are all these sentences doing in these paragraphs??? #that weird kind of vacuous where they exist solely to introduce the next sentence #except the next sentence isn’t related to the point of the paragraph! #so you’ve got [information] [wait what does this mean] [wait what does this have to do with anything??] #rinse repeat #god i just tried to emulate the writing and i just fucking can’t #this is why i never get any writing done #i can’t just string words together in an approximation of meaning and call it a day #like i’m sorry my brain sees ‘if you drink water you should also eat food. for the nourishment’ and goes #‘yeah sure i guess? what are we getting at here and can we just get at it directly?’ #it is actively more difficult to try and ignore that shit than have my editing brain on

[unganseylike]

every day i see posts on this website just chock full of antisemitic dogwhistles and i will open the notes to see if anyone has said anything about this. and there will be one comment nicely explaining this to op and then 20 replies telling that commenter they are stupid sjw piece of shit and should kill themselves . anyway i think anyone who believes themselves an ally to jewish people should 1) read up on dogwhistles 2) stop fucking using them 3) stop fucking defending others who use them

#if someone comments on ur post that u did a dogwhistle even if u didnt intend anything by it #just like. look it up and edit your post. stop attacking the usually jewish people who call attention to it #tumblr: oh boy goblins=antisemitism!!!! #actual jews: hey can you guys stop using the word elites an actual antisemitic dogwhistle actually linked to instances of violence #anyways yea half the time i comment on antisemitism on tumblr i get messages calling me a cunt. wld be nice if this stopped happening :) #and before ur like hey people use words and dont realize what they mean! sometimes dogwhistles are actually dogwhistles #case in point: a while back i saw someome w a little dodgy language in a post but still in a tumblr way #so i sent them an ask like hey btw this language can be misconstrued as antisemitic just want to lyk :) #and they told me im in a ‘filthy desert cult’ so. sometimes people do indeed use dogwhistles on here and im not crazy for #wanting the casual use of them on here to stop

[oflgtfol]

#is this anything #hello to the five other razia enjoyers on this websits #anyway im a certified ahrima hater but O’s nonresponse here makes me hysterical. what the fuck does that mean #brot posts #razias shadow #music #well okay being serious here i guess that means like. Do things for your own sake and not for the validation from others #find your own creativity within yourself etc etc idk #but its worded so weirdly and is such a stupid response to someone who genuinely feels neglected - regardless of how right they are to feel #that way - and the fact the narrator says O says this ‘expressionless’ also makes it feel like a Nonresponse #rather than genuine insight

[daz4i]

how and why is there discourse about whether or not certain queer identities exist/if people should be allowed(???) to use them. why is "people know their own identity better than you ever could, and they're the only one who get a say on what they are" such a tough concept to grasp

i think if you find yourself offended by the label someone uses (especially if they're a stranger) or think it invalidates your own, it's a good idea to look inside yourself and question why that may be. more often than not, it's a result of insecurity or uncertainty of your own identity (or many other things, but i won't make a whole list here). whatever reason it is, until you resolve it, you shouldn't take it out on people for having an identity you don't understand

many have said it before but it's worth saying over and over. infighting only helps our oppressors. conservatives don't care if you're a cis gay or a xenogender aegosexual aplatonic lesbian, they hate all of us either way. trying to fit in by going for people who are easier targets for them isn't gonna help you, it'll just alienate you from your own community, and you're never gonna please them. the momentary rush you get from hearing you're not like "one of /those/ gay people" is not worth it and is gonna do more harm in the long run, i assure you

also, it is important to me to say this, but having some less than nice kneejerk reaction caused by confusion about an identity you don't understand doesn't mean you're a bad person or anything. as long as you aren't mean to that person, and you take a second to think smth along the lines of "wait a minute, this isn't any of my business" after having said reaction, you're good 👍 a lot of reflexive reactions we have to things are ingrained into us simply by. well. living in a society 🤡 and you're not terrible for having those thoughts. it's your actions that matter, and your second thought (the "wait, why did i just think that?") is more defining of your actual character and morals than your reflex. i know that having thoughts like this, even tho they're unwanted, can very easily make one spiral, so it's important to me that whoever needs to hear this knows this doesn't make you a bad person 🙏 you're good, keep taking actions to be good, accept other people even if you don't understand them, and you're on the right track :)

#i considered adding that last part in the tags but i figured it'll be too long for that 😭 #i noticed i'm posting a lot of rants lately. sorry. but i do wanna make sure no one's actually feeling bad over them #if i complain about something that you do or call it mean and such. that doesn't make you a bad person #you can always work to change and grow 👍 it's not easy but it starts with smaller steps than you'd expect #and now i just switched to a whole other topic from my original point. oops #i do firmly believe that any discourse about someone's identity is dumb as fuck #seeing it in poll blogs always makes me 😐😬 like how is it any business for any of us. why is this up for debate #if a person says they're queer then they are. they don't need to pass some test or go through initiation to be accepted #if they feel comfortable with a certain word that's awesome. why does it matter to *you* which word they use #'they're only using this microlabel to feel special' so? is there anything wrong with that? #'this label contradicts [insert other identity that falls under the same umbrella]' ok. but does that hurt anyone in any way #a lot of identities can even be self contradictory. does it matter tho? does it affect anyone in any way? #'they might realize that label is wrong later' again. what's the harm in that. #i don't blame anyone for these thoughts bc like. this is how cishets view a lot of the even more common labels #so you're basically taught to think this way from day one. that doesn't mean you need to stick to that thought process #you might have these reflexes forever no matter how hard you try. but you'll get quicker about moving on from them #but you do have to try. you do have to realize that other people's identities aren't about you #anyway. this post feels like batting at a hornets nest. really hope i don't get some bad faith readers here lol #(i noticed a lot of places one could apply bad faith but like it's 3:30 am i'm too tired to add this many disclaimer. #so i'm gonna trust you to not jump to conclusions and to approach this in good faith okay? mwah 🖤) #also my whole ramble abt morality (in the tags too) is relevant to. any topic really #i may just make a separate post about it really. .....tomorrow tho.