#high anxiety day

[laidenbreecatchall]

Warm ups from sketches today and yesterday

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#one piece #trafalgar law #my art #ryeart #sanji #art #I’m so sleepy no thoughts in my head #high anxiety day #sigh #I’ll probably draw more today but who knows what it’ll be #also the he wants to order one I’m sure someone’s done before but it it made me happy so I did my own #bepo one piece #also pre time skip Sanji is my fave Sanji I will not lie #there’s something about him post time skip doesn’t hit ya know #sorry babe maybe the homophobia is a major turn off ya know #fishman island is what did it for me. maybe I’ll change my mind later as the story progresses but damn #he’s so cool but I wanted to THROTTLE that man 80% of the time #also just pre time skip straw hats in general just have this lovely charm that I feel post hasn’t quite hit #any iteration of Law my beloved though #steven universe comic meme

[fourdiagnosesinatrenchcoat]

Today was a personal achievement in that I could recognize the difference between hunger and anxiety while I was feeling both of them but anxiety won out so I skipped lunch again. But still, progress.

#high anxiety day #alexithymia

[messrmoonyy]

Whoever the anon was that told me about that worry dolls app the other day. Just know you’re an Angel.

#messrs lil rambles #high anxiety day #and ready to slam my head between a car door #but there is something #just so therapeutic about giving that shit to them lil dolls in my phone

[julykings]

the last bits of 2023

#the last months I’ve mostly been busy with work but can say that I got through my first semester teaching successfully although struggled #along the way. my anxiety is at an all time high + I’m dealing with some medical stuff so I’m just trying to stayyy appreciative of every #day I feel good u kno. ugh. #I’m working on quitting my excessive weed usage lol. otherwise working out and doing pole when I can. #and watching lots of movies and doing lots of art . at least this past week since school is out #personal

[lucky-slice]

i am convinced that kevin is simultaneously hyper aware of how tall he is but also somehow completely oblivious. like he's banging his head on open cabinets and sitting in the car with the seat pulled all the way forward. he thinks andrew is the same height as him despite having a constant 0.5 lense view

#kevin day #gnat be quiet #but at the same time he has crippling anxiety and body dismorphia #so hes like i am literally a giant. the largest man to walk this earth and its disgusting #meanwhile jean is regularly standing too close to people so theyre forced to look up at him #and puts things on high shelves exclusively

[pippinscribs]

Struggling to enjoy digital art as much but have a Gorgug

#I’m filled with stress and anxiety cause I’m going on a plane in 2 days #so comfort character mode has been activated #gorgug thistlespring #dimension 20 #fantasy high #character illustration

[shannonsketches]

Why is the anime so weird, it's not even the same series dude?? It's like,

Anime:

GOKU: I have a great idea to bring peace to the universe, and my leadership and compassion alone will unite us all. I have No Flaws and am A True Relatable Everyman :)

VEGETA: NO! I AM THE BEST AND I WILL CAUSE PROBLEMS UNTIL I AM RECOGNIZED AS SUCH!!!!

Manga:

GOKU: Vegeta what's cornmeal made of? I know it's what the corn eats, but what's it made of? VEGETA: Hey Kakarot let's play the quiet game until one of us dies.

#silly hours #I do not understand this writing it's so bad aklsdlkasjd #Toei wants Goku to be Clark Kent SO bad and he SO isn't lmao #they're so good and dumb and rounded and complex in the manga what is the anime so afraid of #Toriyama said 'no no this man is a detached faux-immortal who has a dear pure heart but he's childlike and selfish even though he's kind' #and toei went 'got it goku's never done anything wrong ever in his life' #toriyama said 'Vegeta's gone through a lot and he's finally settling into his more mature leadership role with the confidence he's earned' #and toei said 'got it vegeta has the confidence of a high school bully except now he can interact with his family as a comedy bit' #girl hWHAT #Toei trying to group Goku and Vegeta as two people who would rather train than be with their families and Toriyama said NO Vegeta wants #to be HOME this is the first time in years that he's HAD ONE and it makes him HAPPY to be with his wife and children!! #Vegeta trains so that he can protect the things he doesn't want to lose again and Goku trains because it's the thing that makes him happies #They are NOT the same lmao And yeah Vegeta still wants to beat Goku but he also knows that Gohan could dogwalk both of them if he wanted #He also knows Trunks and Goten are going to surpass them it's not about being the best anymore he's past that he just wants to Not Need Gok #He just doesn't want to have to rely on Goku to save the day he wants to be Enough on his own he just wants to know he can be #because every time it's mattered he WASN'T and people he loved were lost to his inability to protect them and he carries that #Like Whis diagnosed him with anxiety and cptsd out in the open and Beerus said he was self-centered for feeling guilt #+ he lowkey enjoys the rivalry it keeps him goal-oriented so he can't get complacent and lazy which is what triggered his Buu Saga breakdow #realized how Fucked Up it was that having a home and loving family made him feel like he was failing and went 'wait no I won actually??' #now he's chill as fuck in the manga. cool confident leader. #and sometimes he is childish and dumb with Goku as a treat #you know what rocks about his rivalry with Goku in Super though is that it's Playful. Vegeta is learning how to Play. #You ever seen a shelter dog get introduced to a really playful dog and it takes a minute for the shelter dog to understand it's safe here #And then they're both running around the backyard playing hot potato with one braincell?? That's Goku and Vegeta's relationship #and the way the anime sleeps on that dynamic is so fucking criminal especially when it's literally canon it's in print it's out there #you had the playbook how'd you fumble it this bad #anyway that's my 25+ year blorbo thoughts I love Geets a lot okay #And I love Goku in the manga a lot I'd forgotten that he's actually a great character when Toei's not fucking up his whole vibe

[un-pearable]

knuckles knuckles knuckles kucnkws knuckles knuckles knucklesn d knickers munchkes knuckles knuckles

#head EMPTY #just read. very good role swap tails and sonic fic bc emerald fuckery i am for some reason DESPERATE for knuckles and emerald fuckery tonigh #i am in a VERYWIEEIRD MOODAND HAVE BEEN ALL #DAY. HIGH ENERGY TRAPPED INSIDE ME #ITS ANXIETY #i know it’s anxiety z and yet #hhhhhhhhhhh reading fic. is not coping . i do it anyway #hhh knuckles knucklss <- wish i ever had any meanrifuk thoughts about himmmm

[montymollusk]

“kids are so stupid these days, the ipad babies are ruining the world, ten year olds skip school and goes to sephora—“ do you have any idea what it’s been like to go to american public school within the last 15 years? can you blame a child for not wanting to spend 8 hours a day in a place where their safety and autonomy aren’t just not considered, but are blatantly denied?

mass shootings every day. funding being cut. school lunches— which were already the bare minimum in terms of nutrition— being removed. those alone would give anyone trauma, but even without those things the power structures inside of the average public school are designed to wring the individuality out of a child. (and that’s not even mentioning the way that neurodivergent kids are left out to dry by the school system, or how any marginalized kid can be tortured by their peers with no repercussions!) it’s designed to be miserable, and yet somehow people are surprised that kids don’t want to be there.

sandy hook happened in 2012, and nothing changed. uvalde ten years later, and still nothing. kids were forced back into overcrowded, unsanitary classrooms while covid was still killing thousands every day— most after having missed critical social development during lockdown, which there was no support for recovering from. children are being forced to see politicians debate the “ethics” of feeding them, letting them express their gender identity, allowing them to access accurate information about history as if their futures are just hypothetical. along with that is the social media boom, where marginalized people can create communities like never before, and those same kids are realizing that the systems they’ve been shoved into are broken. they’re being showed how awful the situation really is, and still completely powerless to change anything.

can you imagine having to go through all that and still pass your standardized fucking tests? my god, it’s a wonder that schools aren’t completely empty by now. we’re getting there though— i can’t count how many stories i’ve heard of kids dealing with truancy charges because of how many days of school they’ve “skipped” due to extreme anxiety or burnout. i’m one of them! i barely graduated in 2018, and the conditions were leagues better then!

people bitch about the “decline in intelligence” between generations, as if it’s the kids fault for the state of the world, as if this isn’t the inevitable conclusion for the public school system in this country. it feels deliberately ignorant— have you not watched the news recently? does it not evoke any empathy, does it not fill you with rage? how in the world could you pin the blame on kids here?

everyone says protect the children, and yet. fuckin sickening.

#mm says stuff #sorry for the rant i’m pissy about something i saw on twitter #people bitching about kids ‘skipping school’ because they were too anxious or depressed #like be fr right now #i BARELY graduated bcos of school shooting anxiety & bullying making me burn out so hard in high school #i can’t imagine how bad my sisters have it now. christ #have empathy for kids these days ™️ #they have it worse than you can fuckin imagine #school shooting mention

[erabundus]

HAPPY BLOG ANNIVERSARY!

it's  officially  midnight  here,  which  means  i'm  allowed  to  post  this!  so ...  happy  one  year  anniversary  of  enduring  the  plague  of  avalon  upon  your  dashboards!  alternatively,  thank  you  so  much  for  giving  me  a  place  to  babble  about  my  #1  favorite  comfort  character  who  has  experienced  zero  comfort.  (  i  swear  i  am  being  SO  NORMAL  about  this.  yes i did literally buy  cake  and  party  hats.  )  whether  we  speak  on  the  daily,  you've  just  gotten  here  or  anywhere  in  between,  i  want  to  extend  my  sincerest  gratitude  for  being  on  this  absolutely  wild  ride  of  a  blog  with  me.  there's  been  ups  and  downs,  but  ultimately  i  feel  like  my  passion  for  writing  has  been  ignited  stronger  than  it's  ever  been  before.  i  am  still  always  so  excited  whenever  i  get  the  chance  to  log  on  here  and  create  stories  with  all  of  you  —  and  i  wouldn't  have  that  opportunity  if  it  wasn't  for  this little  corner  of  the  internet  you've  helped  make truly special.

there  are  so  many  of  you  i  feel  lucky  to  have  met.  (  and  so  many  i  would  love  to  get  to  know  better,  too!  )  i  hope  we  can  continue  writing  together  for  many  more  anniversaries  to  come.  and  if  the  day  ever  comes  that  they  finally  pull  the  plug  on  this  cockroach  of  a  hellsite,  i'll  forever remember  this  community  as  the  rpc  that  got me to  laugh  at  petrichor.

have  a  wonderful  day  /  night!  i'm  sharing  the  cake  with  everyone  in  spirit.

#𝟎𝟎𝟏 : 𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧-𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯. ◟ ooc .◝ #( i struggle sometimes because i know i tend to hide behind my muses / headcanons / ic posts -- #because i am honestly just so bad about talking about / as myself & i think part of it has to do with me being really nervous / awkward ) #( we all love ye olde social anxiety & the myriad of ways it manifests etc etc ) #( but!! i just wanted to do / say something silly because i really do appreciate you all so much ) #( even if we don't actively talk / write imagine me liking your posts as a little high five of appreciation for what you create here ) #( this blog & rpc have helped me grow so much both as a writer and as a person. ) #( having a place to express my interests & meet other people with similar interests has had such a positive effect on my life ) #( i'm making plans to meet my best friend in person one day and it's only happening because i made this account & reblogged a gifset ) #( yes it's sappy but i really do mean every word )

[bigbootychuuya420]

“Dying is only for losers, and I never fucking lose~~”

#macaque is back #and less sexy as ever #jk he’s alwasy sexy #it’s the anxiety/depression #lmk #lego monkie kid #lmk macaque #six eared macaque #6 eared macaque #oh Jesus #how many tags are there… #monkie kid macaque #lego macaque #how many different variations of macaque tags are there!? #this was kinda rushed #as in I was on the High in my last swk drawing and thought might as well go out with a. bang #again sorry about the inconsistency;( #have a good day <33 #my bbg

[fourdiagnosesinatrenchcoat]

Watching Steven Universe season 1 and eating carbs to self soothe. Again.

#high anxiety day

[incorrect-riordanverse]

im so mad that this is a side blog account and not a main account. i started this blog when i was still relatively new to tumblr and i think i was… like. fourteen years old or something. i never thought i would continue for this long, and i never knew so many people would like the content i put out here (i have over 9k followers which is literally mind-blowing, like wow….).

because this isnt a main account, i cant respond to replies left on my posts, i cant really reply to anyone unless i reblog !! i cant even follow people with this blog, it just comes up as my main blog (which is not pjo-related… rip my failed attempts at organising my fandoms to different blogs). so my avenues of interaction with a lot of you are seriously impeded.

so i just want to say i am so thankful for all of you, i read every single person’s tags who reblog my stuff, i read all of your replies and every time im crying screaming rolling around on the ground in agony over the fact i CANT REPLY!!

i know my posts are super inconsistent these days, im glad so many are still here! i think i may change some of my content eventually (never gonna get rid of the incorrect quote stuff, i’ll just be adding some other things like pjo headcanons or analyses or something), just to spice some stuff up on here.

#also! im currently writing a fantasy book rn and have been so stressed over the fact that authors are expected to have a following before— #—reaching out to agencies with a manuscript. and i seriously stress about creating a following. #so my backup plan is literally you guys. my four year old pjo account on tumblr with its silly little quotes 😭😭 #and like. if that works. could you imagine. that you guys may actually save my future ??? like?? i love you guys for just following me bc ?? #YOU MAY SAVE ME FROM THE CAPITALIST PRESSURES OF SENSATIONALISING ONES OWN ART FOR INVESTED SUCCESS YAYYYYYY #anyways im not going to promote it now bc its still in the first draft area. not near for me to even go thru revisions yet. i may never- #-promote it on here. i dont want to annoy people with suddenly changing tracks. and i def wont transform this blog into a self promo for me- #-thats never going to happen! i would make another blog for it but for now everything’s just an idea! #i just wanted to say thank you because this has been giving me so much anxiety especially since graduating high school. the problems of— #—trying to be an author have become more pressing and immediate for me. i hope it will happen one day but who knows #you guys give me confidence though. and i literally cannot thank u guys enough (I HATEEEEE THE CAREER ANXIETY) #not riordanverse #not incorrect either #for followers #rewriting #sorry for the whole essay in the tags ☠️

[brown-little-robin]

あ

#Robin processes emotions on main #already I am struggling with studying Japanese #not with the language itself so much. I'm making progress on that #but with this horrible kind of anxiety #I writhe not being the best at things that I'm trying to do. I writhe wondering if I should just give up. #this is why I had a horrible time studying Greek in high school as well: can't know it well enough fast enough #it's like I'm dying a little every day convincing myself no it's FINE not to know everything right away. it's OKAY. #it's okay if you stop learning Japanese in the future and it's okay if you keep learning Japanese. it's okay it's okay it's— #hhhhhhhhhhhh #it's such a complicated language it's making my stomach hurt right now thinking about how I want to learn kanji but it's So Much #and I don't know HOW to learn it #I've never really learned a language before (Greek does NOT count) and I'm learning all the complexities of the Japanese language and going #going oh....... this is........ actually extremely much...... and I'm never going to be a native speaker....... #I'm trying So Hard to embrace dying a little to my perfectionism every day but it's HARD. WAILS #No one Told me learning a language would make me want to cry because it's simply impossible to master!!!! #WAH!!!! #I'm trying to keep sight of the fact that it's not about my pride it's about having fun and embracing Small challenge and Small rewards #I really do feel so happy every time I recognize a word or understand the grammar when watching anime #it's just thinking about the Entire language that's psyching me out #Robin learns Japanese

[cool-abed-filmz]

good to know the rest of d20 / fh tumblr also all genuinely remember the scooter cuz this is what i put in my notes last week watcbing the episode

#fantasy high #fhjy spoilers #when i tell you fabian’s horrible no good very bad day #was one of the most anxitety inducing moments of my life #and i literally have an anxiety disorder #adaine abernant

[strqyr]

my biggest struggle with writing anything for rwby is that my personal preference definitely leans more towards "as little technology as possible"; i like fantasy-medieval and stuff like that, and remnant definitely has areas that lends more towards that type of story, if by nothing else then stylistically and frankly, mainly by vibes that i'm personally getting, but... there's also high-tech stuff... that one just can't get rid of bc it's pretty darn relevant to the world and here i am, gritting my teeth like.......... it's...... it's so close................

so anyway i might have a new au :)

#complex weapons can stay #but the rest of high-tech is going -> #“might” they say #as if they haven't spent the past three anxiety ridden days developing said au in depth #(“in depth” means i've been thinking about strq)