#i am not gonna shut up about this man

[iwantahockeyhimbo]

this weekend erik johnson has: gone to “the titty bar”, done an insta live from the toilet, apologized for the way he’s behaved and will behave, not had one sip of water.

#and i love it #i am not gonna shut up about this man #or his absolutely batshit feral behavior #summer of ej #erik johnson #colorado avalanche

[soft-cryptids]

“Nice.”

#The Last of Us #Joel Miller #Ellie Williams #tlou fanart #Pedro Pascal #Bella Ramsey #my so called art #ramble: I love them so much I am gonna lie on legos and chew glass #old soft man Joel and Ellie are everything for me ok #to me #whatever #this is both my main source of serotonin and the reason why I need it in the first place bc jfc #the most dangerous thing is to love #sedate me #bc I cannot deal with it #or shut up about it #first the games now this dang show #* lies on the floor * #heR SQUISHED FACE AND HIS SMILE AND JUST?????????????????? #GOD #fucken dang it #tlou spoilers #just to be sure! #tlou hbo

[brookheimer]

looking at the 'midseason trailer' and seeing roman fighting his siblings, roman shitting on gerri, roman working for fascists, roman walking proudly through ATN like logan did just two days prior... it's not surprising, but it is fucking sad.

logan's death will not free roman. instead, it will reforge the chains he's worn all his life, casting them in iron -- that's what roman deserves for thinking, for the first time in his life, that maybe he wants the chains off. that's what roman deserves for killing his father by not loving him enough, by not loving him correctly or at the right times. logan's death will not free roman at all. if anything, it will imprison him.

(as always, this got very long, so keep reading under the cut!)

this was the worst case scenario for roman. not just logan dying, but the exact way everything played out. he betrayed his siblings, he fired gerri -- for nothing. he could have been on the plane with his father in his last moments -- he refused. his last interaction with his father was leaving logan a voice message that called him a cunt -- the first time roman has ever, ever, questioned or stood up to his father, and also the last. we don't know what killed logan. we probably never will. but god if it won't feel awfully coincidental to roman: the one time he fought back against his father or even showed the slightest hint of doing so, his father died. is it likely that logan heard roman's voice memo and keeled over because he called him a cunt? no. but is it just as possible as anything else? entirely. roman might have killed his dad. roman murdered logan when he could've been on the plane with him holding his hand, if he were a good son. he didn't even tell logan he loved him. not that he needed to, it fucking oozed from his every pore and the desperate nature of that love was one of the reasons logan could never quite stand him -- but that's not the point. roman's one attempt at agency, at setting boundaries, at standing up for himself killed his fucking father.

logan dying would never have been good for roman, at least in his current state, no matter how the actual death came to pass. people often talk about abusive relationships as if the end-all-be-all fixer to abuse is independence, and it's not. independence isn't always enough to heal, especially not when it's forced upon you rather than something you choose. this is especially true for roman, i think. what roman needed was not just to gain his own independence, but to realize that independence and love are not mutually exclusive, that gaining one does not mean losing the other. logan's always hammered in roman's weakness, his wrongness; roman was never someone who deserved to be loved on his own terms. roman's never considered himself to be someone with agency and authority in his relationships -- he's been told over and over again that he isn't a real person, that there's something deeply wrong and unfixable in him, and he believes it. he's never set boundaries with his father or even his siblings because i don't think he really realizes he has the power to do that. he's simply there until people decide they no longer have use for him or want him around, and he'll always come crawling back after a kick because he doesn't realize he's not on a leash -- that he doesn't need to be on a leash. independence has been unreachable all his life, he isn't normal or real enough to be a real normal independent capable person, but if he grovels and shows his use enough, then maybe he can be loved. but his dependence and loyalty is all he's good for. independence means no love, no family, no relationships. and roman desperately wants, needs, those relationships in a way that none of the other characters do (or at least can admit to) -- he wants his father in his life, no matter what; he wants his siblings in his life, no matter what. but independence, being his own person, separating himself from logan's side means he'd lose everything else, everyone else. he's not good for anything anyways. it's not like he has other options.

...until the start of season four. that's why this is all so tragic -- more than anyone else, it seemed like roman was on the road to healing. it seemed like he was finally realizing that independence and love might not be as mutually exclusive as he's been made to think: maybe he could be independent while still having a relationship with his siblings and even his father. maybe he could have his cake and eat it too. he's realized that he's capable, that he has his own worth, and that he can be successful without living under logan's thumb -- and, more importantly, could still text him on his birthday and try to rebuild a relationship, this time outside of business. outside of "that room" in waystar royco. an actual fucking family relationship. that's what escaping the cycle would look like for roman — not complete separation, not a metaphorical killing of his father, but the ability to live alongside him, to have a life outside of him, to love his father without living for him. so simply removing logan from the equation wouldn’t help roman, not when what he needs most is to realize that self-respect is not mutually exclusive with love, that being your own person isn’t a betrayal, that family and love aren’t dependent on how low you can kneel and won’t be whisked away the moment you stand up. and for the first time in his life, it seemed like he was on track to discovering this. maybe he and the siblings could have the hundred, logan could keep going with atn, and in a few years down the line they'd all get together to talk shop and joke around and coexist -- for the first time, he had started to think of himself as enough of a real, okay person to be allowed to coexist with his family, rather than naturally subordinating himself in every interaction.

roman could’ve been his own person, could’ve escaped the cycle, could’ve started a business with his siblings and tried to heal, but now he won’t. he can’t. roman can’t become his own person now, not when his first attempt to do so is exactly what killed logan. it’s his fault. he fucked up and now there’s no dad. he gained his independence, but at what cost? love. that’s the cost. it always has been and always will be. nothing could be more detrimental to roman roy than the exact series of events that occurred in this episode, because just as he started to see a world beyond his father, logan dies -- proving once and for all that the only world beyond logan is one without him in it at all. that’s been roman’s fear all along and why he’s stuck so close to his side: roman loves and loves and loves and is terrified, terrified, of death. of loss. but in a moment of 'weakness,' roman wobbled (he tried to stand up to logan rather than just taking the kicks as he's supposed to, as he always has), and his father paid the ultimate price. there’s no more dad. there’s no reviving him.

…unless, of course, there is. unless roman can undo his error by choosing his father again, and again, and again. becoming logan is the closest roman can get to resurrecting him, after all. and besides, doesn’t he owe it to dad after killing him? after calling him a cunt, choosing not to be with him on that plane he ended up dying on? after forgetting to even say “i love you dad” before the end? roman needs to fix things. needs to make it like dad's still here. needs to make it like he didn't kill his own father by refusing him for the first time in his life. so roman will be the firebreather logan wanted -- he'll do ATN, he'll push for mencken, he'll do whatever it fucking takes to try and make things right. if it's his fault logan's no longer here, then he needs to do everything he possibly can to fulfill his dying wishes, to do what logan would've done, were he alive.

"dad can't die, he's dad." he can't ever die. he's immortal, and his immortality was solidified by the circumstances of his death -- logan will not die. he’ll live on in roman, as roman.

roman will make sure of it.

#to clarify -- i do not think this is roman's endgame. i Hope it is not his endgame. i just think based on the previews and everything we #know about both him and the upcoming episodes... i think this is where his arc is heading for now. and it will be UNBEARABLE to watch #i'm hoping things get better by the end. that there's reconciliation and an ending open enough to allow for a slim possibility of future #healing. but as of right now... i think things are going to get a lot - a LOT - fucking worse before they get better (if they get better..) #k it's 1:30 am i haven't read over this at all so fair warning there. but yeah. told yall i had a lot of thoughts re: what this might do to #roman. hats off to jesse armstrong for creating the literal worst situation imaginable for him. fucking ingenious. i too love putting this #sad little man in situations! but yeah. gonna be watching thru my hands but eating it up while weeping etc etc etc #succession #succession spoilers #roman roy #succession meta #succession s4 #connor's wedding #logan roy #casey shut the fuck up about roman roy #100 #500 #succession speculation

[ourfag]

i think part of the resistance i’ve seen in response to the view of ed as an abuse victim—not just the view of izzy as someone who abused ed, but of ed as someone who was abused by him, as opposed to interpretations that pursue an image of Nuance and Complexity (unnecessarily, because their dynamic has heaps of both, but there seems to be a popular impulse to conflate complexity with shared culpability) by characterizing their relationship as being toxic/unhealthy in equal reciprocity, or as “mutually abusive” (oxymoron)—i definitely see the influence of racism there, but i think the racism is also working to amplify an adjacent issue where we tend to receive very specific cultural messaging about What An Abuse Victim Looks Like, and ed is excluded from a lot of that criteria.

he’s outspoken. he’s boisterous. he’s Very Cool and he Wears Leather. he’s physically bigger and browner than the person mistreating him. he spends the first season with a big grey beard, he’s covered in tattoos, he projects the image of A Man’s Man, to say nothing of his being a man in the first place. we see him get aggressive and we see him get angry (and sometimes we even see both at the same time). we see moments where he’s surly, prickly, insensitive, arrogant. his survival techniques and trauma responses incur collateral damage to other people, and in the second season this extends into affecting people we actually sympathize with. he’s extremely private about expressing fear. without examination, his professional relationship to izzy seems to position him as the one with the power slanted in his favor.

most damningly, we see him react multiple times to izzy’s abuse with physical violence. this is behavior that gets referenced all the time in the construction of narratives condemning subjects of physical abuse, let alone emotional abuse. which is why writing that intends for its audience to interpret a character as being unambiguously A Victim Of Abuse will often, for simplicity’s sake, avoid showing the character regularly engaging in anything of the kind.

and again, all of these departures from the image of The Model Victim are compounded by his being a man of color.

without any of the shorthand designed to point a big flashing arrow at his mistreatment, all we have left to work with are the words and actions we see from ed and izzy onscreen. who instigates conflict, and how does the other respond? how are they able or allowed to respond? how do we see them speak about each other to outside parties? does one go out of their way to control or isolate the other? what consequences does either party stand to face in saying “no” to the other? in acting against the other’s wishes? in trying to leave the relationship? when either of them attempts these things, how do we see the other respond?

i realize and appreciate what people are driving at when they garnish their analysis with disclaimers that they’re not saying ed’s just a poor innocent abuse victim, they’re not saying he’s a perfect angel who’s never done anything wrong, and that’s true, but these are points already contained implicitly in statements like “this show’s protagonists act like human people” and “ed’s emotional struggles are portrayed in a realistic and believable way.” my assumption is that these disclaimers are anticipatory responses to worst-faith interpretations of any discussion that attributes any victim status to ed whatsoever, so i definitely sympathize with their inclusion, but a (very small) part of me still worries about them potentially reflecting or reinforcing a belief that there is any way for someone to behave towards their abuser that imparts a responsibility for them to make right whatever damage the abuser receives, or for that matter any degree of ambiguity over their status as an abuse victim in the first place.

part of what i find so gratifying about ed as a character is that i don’t feel like the show’s writing is pressuring me to consider that ambiguity at all. which was a really nice thing for me to discover!

and tbh—did using ed to deconstruct The Model Victim even factor into the writers’ agenda?? ive got no clue. im guessing no? ??maybe?? probably not?? but if you create a main character whose central premise is that he feels trapped in a performance of exaggerated masculinity that he’s desperate to escape, and then you set him up with a character premised on embodying a tangible obstacle against that escape, then i guess that’s the natural shape your story’s gonna be inclined to take

#man thats a lot of words when i couldve just said ‘im not an ed apologist bc he has nothing to apologize for’ and yalld get the message #had to get it off my chest though #abuse tw #sorry about the verbosity Im Aware. Its An Ongoing Issue #this is actually after i went through and edited to make it as concise as possible #the good news is ive finally managed to limit myself to a mere half dozen commas per sentence #the bad news is all these words are mush in my brain now and i can barely tell if theyre actually saying anything #are any of these paragraphs related to one another? i dont fuckin know #i do know i agreed with them when i wrote them though #am i procrastinating in the tags because im nervous about posting this? maybe. shut up #im gonna go do todays wordle

[russellius]

torn between saying "god is real and his name is george russell" vs "god put him on earth for this"

#george russell #british gp 2023 #I AM NEVER #NEVER GONNA SHUT UP ABOUT THIS #HOLY FCKING CHRIST #I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS AND NOT A SINGLE ONE OF THEM IS SFW #GEORGE WILLIAM RUSSELL THE MAN THAT YOU ARE #the face that you have!!!!!? #you were made for this #you were BORN FOR THIS #*m #*p #f1

[pup-pee]

this is basically my kyle playlist

california girls is rlly carrying the angst so sad((she eants me(2 b loved) is not the sadest song ots just the 1st))

#most if the songs r about alex ngl i love her sm #goodmirbing!! my headaches gone yiipppee!!!! #tgus doodles from yesterday tho lol #i was gonna post it on my kyle doodle acc but like?? not anymore #i drew him kinda leaky srry man #actually no not srry CRY MORE #this guy needs therapy idc what u say #i mean most of them do byt like i will ralk about his silly lil issues hes got sm of those #i feel so bad 4 the ppl i talk 2 omfg #i just talk talk talk & never shut up & THEY DONT TELL ME 2 SHUT UP?? makes me frel bad like oh shit i just yapped @ u im so srry #not even talking about dc all the time #its worse when its dc omg #‘no i like hearing u talk’ like uhm DO U? i can make u regreat that here let me talk about kyle rayner #all the ppl irl having 2 deal w/me shuffling trough comics & me making them see smth on my phone 4 context #i swear i dont talk over ppl ot @ least i rlly try not 2 #srry im like sleepy @ am remembering going over 2 1 of my parents friends house &i just talked talked talked #i was ddoung basically a horrible stand up routine #skjfkfkvkkgg #anyaysd kyleee omgg kyle raynerr??!!! #im so srry kyle nation #my kyle tag lmao #kyle rayner #<- is scared #2 put that #dc #puppee art #i think instead of talk talk talk i should say ramble ramble ramble

[malikselfindulgence]

Sorry for the uptick in system stuff Im lowkey struggling and need to see system positivity posts or I'll explode

#malik's rambles #okay i know my ass is gonna vent in tags rn so . tw for that !! #iwill never shut up i missed tumblr tags so much wow #itsnot their fault and like . like i dont want to blame them . but its so isolating being and living this way #ill always be grateful for them and I know its just my brain trying to cope and like !! its not their fault but this sucks so bad like wow #also doesnt help that besides how scared I am and how I just . wanna be normal . I feel like I sound insane to other people #it constantly feels like everyone is laughing at us and is just playing along with our “roleplay thing” because they dont wanna bother #and like !! im trying really really hard to be positive about it and just live as well as I can . all of us are !! but it makes me feel like #ridiculous . it feels like everyone'll laugh and think we're playing pretend. which shouldnt matter people will always be assholes !! #I dunno aough im rantingso hard rn . and masa2 wont share which is fine but imscared and worried and scared and aauahhggggggggg #ik the point of the disorder is to hide memories from me so i can function but like . man this suckss9 bad #okay enough of this . Imgonna watch monsters inc i love monsters inc

[bloodanddiscoballs]

I love getting asked why I need a cane when I'm grocery shopping it's my favorite activity when I'm just trying to run errands

#I KNOW I LOOK YOUNG!!!!!!!!!!!! SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STOP TALKING TO MEEEEEEEEEEEE #i just wanted to figure out what cut of meat to get #i had this guy come up to me and “flirt” which A.) i very clearly am not choosing to look at you so why and B.) insulting me isnt gonna help #“why do you need that? is that just for fashion?” yeah totally its just for fashion thats why im actively leaning on it for support #i say i have back issues and hes like “oh but youre so young ;)” like ok??????? disabled people can be every age. #“what kind of back issues?” I DONT WANT TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT MY MEDICAL SITUATION WHO ARE YOU?!?!?!!? #just #can i not exist #be gone foul white man

[princessmuk]

Hey google how do I friendzone a guy so hard that he stops seeing me as female easy steps can be done while at the movies (he thinks it’s a date. it’s not.) doesn’t result in a lost friendship also maybe gets him to respect women more

#my post #I am so fucked #he asked if I wanted to go and I said I didn’t want to spend money rn #so he offered to pay 😭😭😭 #and then he spent all day texting me #and asked what I ATE 😭 and said I need to eat more bro shut up #this man is actually in love with me how tf did this happen #my feelings for him lie on a scale of nothing to kinda disturbed #like boo you don’t even like me you just want a relationship #I’m gonna dress as ugly as possible #and talk constantly about how I’m moving away soon #also maybe gayer than usual? #it’s extra hard bc I work with him #ughhhhh

[goldensunset]

i cannot stand those quirky overly-friendly-to-the-point-of-crossing-boundaries teachers and professors who make you do icebreakers or fun facts about yourself at the beginning of the semester bc their questions are always the exact sort of stuff that you never wanna answer. but they just keep asking bc they think you’re just being shy and cute. ‘what are your hobbies? what kind of music do you like? what’s a topic very personal and important to you?’ MAN i am not subjecting myself to public humiliation like that for being very far removed from the norm nor am i opening up about my deep-seated personal problems. i don’t know you i don’t respect you you are not entitled to anything outside of my graded work. i’m just trying to prevent everybody in the room including you and i from becoming incredibly uncomfortable. just take the hint when i deflect your questions and pretend to be boring

#my sociology professor was asking us all for our current favorite song to add to the class playlist that he plays a bit from every morning #even if i had a single favorite song i wouldn’t tell him #even if he wasn’t gonna play it in front of others i wouldn’t tell him #he was like ‘ahhh what a diverse and fascinating sample of different genres we’ve collected here from your responses!’ #three taylor swift songs. some respectable rock and rap stuff. basically it #i am not about to submit my japanese robots singing about the most unhinged and frightening topics known to man #some of us actually got bullied as children and learned to never be honest ever again especially not when we don’t have friends with us #i could explain to him why i like the things i like #but i’m not about to be that vulnerable?? hello???? i already know he wouldn’t understand or care even if he didn’t say anything mean #ok hot take but i actually kinda don’t like the discourse surrounding infodumping #like ‘it’s ok to just talk at me about the things you like! :)’ ok but if i don’t have clear confirmation that you like it too #then it feels like you’re just listening to me out of pity #you could be as nice as possible but if you don’t ask followup questions or express any sort of favorite part or interesting detail #i will feel awful and be like ok never doing that again #maybe that’s just my personal flavor of mental illness #i never got like. told to shut up or anything when talking #but i did get the awkward silence or ‘light-hearted’ mockery #so i figured shutting myself up was for the best #peach rambles

[jtownraindancer]

"I went out on a limb for you. Fuck knows why I did, but I did."

#much to my chagrin i am yet again thinking about Him #richard gates #the runaway #burn gorman #he's despicable. dastardly. faithful to a fault. amd maybe too pretty for anyone's damn good. #shut up ace #my gifs #man i need a tag for burn now fuck #the burn collection #i think queue and i are gonna end up bloody

[southern--downpour]

pros of new hyperfixation: dopamine :) 

cons of new hyperfixation: i cannot focus on school work all i want to do is read trigun nothing else is interesting rn

#i have so much classwork i need to do but all my brain can do is go 'hehehehehe vash :)' and i cant do Shit abt it #I HAVE *THINGS* TO DO #last time i fixated this bad was dsmp and i literally failed a math class bc of that #and like. logically i know i should be doing stuff. i know this is probably gonna make me crash and fail. however. #entire rest of my brain is in fact still going 'hehehehehe vash :)' and i Cannot Do Anything About This Other Than Read More Trimax #shut up virgil #anyways. hehehehehhehehehheheheh vash :))))) #i started reading trimax ofc and i am fucking in love w/ the black/blonde hair he looks so cute dude #i really liked seeing nightows artsyle improve so far too #love the early art still ofc but its a little inconsistent in quality? + the text placement was SUPER confusing at times #like. it was just hard to figure out who was talking #that was like the main problem ive had reading it so far #but like thats been gettin progressively better and the art has gotten INSANE and im barely into maximum #also. that one page. where wolfwood tells vash to shoot him. yk the one. #that is all. #trigun :)))))) #actually no that is not all that entire interaction has been rotating in my brain nonstop #holy shit its such a good scene #i really love wolfwood man #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this series is going to fucking kill me #/pos #this motherfucking hyperfix is here to stay apparently esp w/ stampede and the influx of new fans #like if this happened when i first watched og trigun i wouldve just been digging through old content and fan content #and probably wouldve drained it of dopamine pretty quick #but theres NEW content? that i can watch while its AIRING??? im not going to shut the fuck up!

[robinsnest2111]

still feeling bad even after food and a couple hours of sleep. how mean

#one of these days the yearning for an understanding person to come home to at the end of a day will end me #until then i will probably have to complain about my stupid suffering #why must humans be a social species and why must i crave things i cannot have lol #why must i be stuck living with people i cannot ever trust again. want to be around people i like and who i can be vulnerable with #tbh if i still was as whiny in real life as i am on here most days i'd only get to hear 'shut up' and 'tough luck. man up' #and that is Not It. would only make me feel worse. so i keep quiet and keep to myself #which does not solve my original problem at all #maybe one day. maybe one day i can just be a beloved pet that doesn't get scolded or belittled for seeking comfort #that one thing my parents said to me 15 years ago still haunts me #'only people who deserve it get hugs' which was used to deny me comfort/affection. because apparently i am not worthy/deserving 👍 #i was 13 going through the most vile shit at school but bc it affected me negatively and my parents didn't like me at my mentally illest #they just straight up denied me any type of comfort or support. took away my belongings. made me stay in my room for months on end #as corrective punishment. but none of it made me better. just made me worse. idk idk idk #all the shit they put me through. the emotional and physical punishments. the beatings borne from frustration #and still some part of me wants to seek comfort from them. BUT I SHOULDN'T. they broke my trust and my heart and soul so many times #it'd be straight up suicide to open up and be vulnerable with them again... lole running chest first into a wall of knives. no. #sorry. really in it tonight. gonna try to be more normal tomorrow

[videcoeur]

Yes I could watch the whole straight episode instead of posting a comment every 5 seconds but consider this: I might die if I don't talk about it

#( one piece liveposting. ) #this is how it 's gonna be and I would like to apologize but also let you guys know I do not feel bad about it #first episode was everything I hoped for and while the rest may disappoint (who am I kidding I'm biased as fuck) #there is no way I can physically shut up about it. #and you guys can mute me and block my posts #the man sitting by my side has to endure piglet squealing and weird noises every 2 seconds

[hecksupremechips]

Persona romance routes are all pretty bad but damn they really hit rock bottom with p3p femc route like the misogyny is very blatant and it’s almost hilarious like look at the Shinjiro romance. When you do his social link he’s like very clearly respectful of Kotone as a leader and explicitly says stuff like "oh yeah you’re clearly the best fighter we have, I don’t really know much about fighting like you do, I hope I’m not dragging you down, you’re doing a good job as leader just remember to take care of yourself, everyone looks up to you I know you can rely on them" etc. like he has faith in her leading abilities. But then when you romance him he’s like got dialogue like "bwah bluh i gotta look after you because you’re a GIRL and you need to stick by me, a big strong MAN so you don’t get hurt" and "don’t wear that revealing outfit in front of other guys 👺" and it’s like. Does he respect her or not and also like it doesn’t make sense for him to look down on her for being a girl cuz he literally has never not been led by a girl leader during his time in sees and Mitsuru in particular really has her shit together when it comes to being responsible and a good fighter and she’s always known the most about Tartarus

It’s also like. Idk maybe its just me I’m not a girl so FUCK IF I KNOW but to me the appeal of romancing Shinji is the fact that he’s sweet and sensitive and gentle and has respect for you despite the fact that he acts all scary. That’s like, what made me like this character in the first place. But the writers seem to think what women want is for a BIG STRONG MAN to protect them because they are just DELICATE WOMEN who are inferior in every way it’s like. Shut upppp thanks

#persona #persona 3 #shinjiro aragaki #this is soooooooo obviously not the only romance route that sucks in this game yall know which one im referring to 🤨 #and i actually tend to think of the shinji romance as the best one in the series cuz at least his confession scene is the only unique one #that really highlights who he is as a character and goes with the story #but ughh just idk its so annoying how the writers cant decide if hes sexist or not its really weird and its like #really shows how poorly the writers think of women playing their game its like all the romance options are trash and then your boyfriend is #sexist to you and its so clearly done in a way thats supposed to be romantic which is. ew #like idk if my partner was like talking about how i need to stay close to them because im a weak girl and they are strong man #especially when im literally the leader of the team and have been doing perfectly fine thus far and am clearly the strongest here #id simply run him over with a bulldozer #and its like this will all the guys in this game its like girl shut up and eat glass #meanwhile when youre a male protagonist your gf will kiss your ass to the point its infuriating #and their character arcs can never be too grand cuz then they might not wanna fuck you if they realize they have worth #uh sorry my brain is all over the place basically i hate persona romances lol and i hate how they wrote shinji in his #like dammit i dont want him cuz hes gonna protect me like a man i want him cuz he isnt great at fighting and prefers cooking and puppy dogs #and has respect for me and trusts my judgement and asks me to talk about my life and interests and smiles sweetly #but god forbid a woman in this series be respected i guess

[lecliss]

I really will never be over the loss of Tales of Crestoria. That game closing absolutely gave me gacha abandonment issues lol. The story was such a fucking masterpiece and really really spoke to me on a personal level. That game should never have been on mobile. That should've been a complete console release. It genuinely helped me with some shit too, but noticing the trend with Cresty and Good Night World, it seems like those kinds of stories don't really resonate with the general public. So I'll just go fuck myself then I guess.

#i hate the trend of stories about logic being 'evil' are praised while stories about embracing guilt and self blame get shit on #like okay thanks world. and BAMCO. i get the hint. i suck and should feel bad about it. well. at least im not gonna fall for it. #but man is it frustrating #both cresty and gnw hit so close to home but cresty gets shut down (and complained about) and gnw just gets plain torn apart #like. am i not allowed to have anything geared so personally towards me???? #well. i still have gx. and its not like gnw has been taken down or anything lol #it was just such a disappoint wanting to look up what people were saying about it and it was mostly lukewarm at best #not a single person saying it was their new fave or anything like that. #this went from cresty to gnw lmao whoops #theyre in the same category to me tho. #at least the cresty crew still lives on in rays and hopefully the manga doesnt get cancelled like i heard it might #personal