#i cant cut out on weekends

[sneakyspades]

work has become such a shit show holy fuck why did you people give me supervisor without asking if i wanted it

#communication? nonexistant #i had issues on sunday but couldnt ask our sous anything because he was at least 5 beers deep at the bar #and ended up passing out in his running car afterwards #the other supervisor was a little bit more help but he wasnt sure about some things either so we just guessed #cause god forbid we text our chef at fucking 6:30 on a sunday when hes off doing a show with his band i think hed go insane #no one respects me as a supervisor- theres still another line cook who will tell me what to do even when im clocked in as supervisor #just bc shes been here longer #and being clocked in as supervisor is the only time i get a pay increase #and its only a dollar #so i only have a raise for 8 of the 40 hours im there every week #despite being there for a whole fucking year #and i still have to act as a supervisor for all 40 hours #why the fuck couldnt yall have just let me stayed on pizzas and nothing else. i wouldve been fine doing nothing but pizzas for 15 an hour #im literally at the point where im gonna walk in there one day and say either take me off of supervisor or i quit #you dont even have to give me a raise. the tradeoff of 15 an hour was that i could trade shifts. i could cut out early on weekends #but now? its the same 15 an hour except for 8 of my 40 hours #i cant trade shifts easily #i cant cut out on weekends #im also the Only One left now who closes saturday and then comes in on sunday to do a double #every weekend #and i cant even cut out early anymore! #this shit is not fucking viable for me anymore! #i want to do baking! not restaurant! #its literally shredding my body to pieces! #grips my hair and screams #it literally wasnt even this stressful at fucking HY VEE!! where i made 9.75 and basically managrd 3 departments! #jesus christ i want out! #ever since i got supervisor i just dread going to work! i used to look forward to it! #holy fuck i cannot do this! #half our food has basil in it so i cant even taste things to see if its still good or not!

[httpiastri]

more entertaining to watch him today 🤭

#he's so pretty #very very cute #love the turtleneck <3<3 #he always looks good with it #his voice tho 😵 i was so confused when i started watching #poor bubba #and he's coughing so much sdjhdfh im sorry love #ive missed him loads tho #i miss all f2 f3 drivers so much 😭 why cant they race all weekends of the entire year #52 races pls? #sorry james for cutting you out but the cowboy hat just aint it #as usual... only looking at his hands respectfully....... #oh i still have that clem hand compilation sitting in my drafts from like august #f1 #f2 #clement novalak #screaming meals

[thorasreblogpile]

s3 better open with that fucking gravedirt being burst through

#ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd s2e8 #ofmd s2e8 spoilers #ive never been so affectes by a piece of media but saying that is just me trying to distance myself from this bcos #what the actual fuck #djenks i trusted you #can the fucked up little guy not get a place in the future too? he had to die when blackbeard ended? #fucking trust issues now i cant. thats really the end. of the season #we have to sit on THAT #okay magic seagull buttons you better be bringing izzy back outta that grave opening shot of s3 #i know its a long shot but i swore i wouldnt believe an izzy death was final #qhy did i get so emotiobally invested i feel fucling sick #you guna cut con out of s3? jenks really??? what the fuck is the plan?? #throws hands in the air #i cant. i dont know. i was guna cosplay izzy this weekend too and now i just. this is fucking breaking me #and the ep was good overall so why did THAT. HAVE TO HAPPEN.

[newtness532]

im so annoyed with everything today, i think i need some tasty food and a million hours of sleep and then I'll be back to normal

#the teacher at the first class today was so dibsjdhdhdhdhsgs 😫 #like she was teaching us things that are like unrelated to the class that shes teaching so idek why she was teaching it #but also its things that we have been learning since the 1st semester and we've done them in at least 10 classes and she was acting like #this was the 1st time we were hearing about it #like oh yeah we're on the 7th semester of studying nutrition but no one bothered to tell us how many calories are in a gram of fat #and she gave us homework 'to see if we know this' like #oh yes i can make a meal plan for a child with crohns or cystic fibrosis or celiac disease or everything else we've done this semester and #all the other semesters but i guess i cant tell you what micronutrients are in this one breakfast meal #like fuck off and stick to what you're supposed to be teaching #anyway i know im getting more annoyed than i should but she was just even more annoying than usual today #like she interrupted the lesson every 5 minutes to yell at someome to be quiet i wasnt even aware there were people talking until she yelled #anyway #also my new earphones aren't working well idk why ive definitely not been mistreating them that much for them to break in less than a month #like i had my old pair for at least 4 years until the broke and i dont think the wire got cut in them like the sound was coming out weird #but there was sound coming out. in the new ones you need to hold them in a very specific angle for sound to come out #and like im careful with how i put them away so what is up with them? #my theory is that they make wired earphones shitty on purpose so that you will spend a lot of money and buy wireless #also we had said from Tuesday that we would hang out with my friends today but i guess they forgot or idk and they made other plans #(to go home and sleep) and during the weekend the one friend wont be here and next week my family will be here so we probably wont hang out #again until next year and we have exams almost immediately so we wont be hanging out much then either #also my period is supposed to come soon and i hope that it will either come today or it will wait until after Christmas #ideally it will never come ever again but we cant always get what we want #anyway im gonna go eat the rest of my μεσογειακό and go take a nap #jo says stuff #personal ramblings

[doggerell]

theres nothing I want Less than a second job but I kinda need one since my boss is like yah actually were Not putting your hours back up :) but like what the fuck man

#how do you cut me from 32/35 hours a week to 20? #like ooooh we can afford to pay you. well I cant afford rent. what the fuck man? #speaking #they opened up another day of the week and we all thought it would make our hours go back up but turns out! they just dont want us to have #weekends anymore. and we get punished for changing our avaliability to have a weekend. thnx 🫶

[hella1975]

i have an exam on monday but also my last exam was on the 9th. they really said 'give that little guy 2 whole weeks to prepare for a single exam' and expected me to get anything done. i havent even clocked it yet. you gave me way too much time. there is zero fear here. the Terror hasn't kicked my ass into productivity and i fear it never will. i'll fail it and come back later idc

#LIKE I CANT EVEN BLAG THIS EXAM BC IT'S IN PERSON SO THERE'S NO WAY OF CUTTING CORNERS #I /HAVE/ TO STUDY FOR IT I HAVE TO PUT THE TIME IN #AND TBH I HAVE CAUGHT UP ON ALL OF MY NOTES #AND THIS WEEKEND THE PLAN WAS TO MEMORISE THEM ALL #GOOD RIGHT? PERFECT PLAN RIGHT? IM DOING FUCKING NOTHING #IM DANCING TO NEVERENDING SONG BY CONAN GRAY AND CONTEMPLATING GOING INTO TOWN #JUST BC THE SUN IS OUT EVEN THO I KNOW I CANT SPEND ANY MONEY RN #IT'S SATURDAY SO MY MATE IS IN THE COFFEE SHOP I COULD GO RN AND HAVE A NICE LIL COFFEE SHOP SESSION #EXCEPT I CANT MEMORISE IN A COFFEE SHOP BC IT INVOLVES SAYING STUFF ALOUD #SO I KNOW ID JUST GO TO WRITE AND ACT LIKE I DONT HAVE A BIG FUCKING FINAL EXAM IN T-MINUS TWO DAYS #GIRL PLEASE #hella goes to uni

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#guess who fucking fried 3 very fucking expensive machines today. me. i did #bc a fucking cabled decided to burn out and there was only one little symptom so i switched out the sensor head and inadvertently fried #another instrument. then when i was wait. hang on wtf happened here? and i was trouble shooting. i fried another one. so im down to one #machine. fucking holy christ. one mother fucking cable. a problem i cant fucking control and then i just fucking spred the problem #god dammit. which means i either have to do 20 additional days or we cut the number of reps to 7 or 8 #and because of this. ive Disrupted the plans of 4 different labs bc it takes at least 3 months for them to do calibration #ugh. i was so angry. whatever. its fine. these things happen in labs and u kinda just have to deal with it. i dont really feel bad on a #personal level bc ive been working with these things for like 4 years and if i mishandled the problem something was pretty fucked up #bc ive fixed a lot of fucking problems on those machines. bleh. and as im like simmering with rage my family is texting eachother like #yayyy vacation soon ☺️ #ugh. its just so frustrating bc i onlu had like 7 days left and i could have got thru all 10 reps. its gonna b maddening on one machine #ans ill have to do more when i fucking get back from vacation when i want it fucking done now but whatever ive bought #my fucking plane tickets and i leave in less than 2 weeks. plus ill get to spend at least one day at home #god im gonna be such a fucking bummer tho. im gonna get of the plane and my fam will b like how r u? and im gonna b like not fucking great #i am barely a functional person and im sure ill b so stressed abt thr fact i have to come back here that ill b on edge the whole time bc #thsts what happened over winter break. whatever. next weekend ill b fucking outta here for like 11 days #and just a few more months until i can leave for good. never walk into thst fucking building again. not that i have anything ready for thst #move. bc again. im barely a functional person #god. now i have to fucking ask for thr stupid bottom of the chamber for this last machine. i swear to christ if i have to fucking drive #down to [redacted] i fucking dont even kno #unrelated

[widevibratobitch]

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#vent post vent post lalalala #i wanted to post some pictures from my weekend trip with my friends before its too late but then i saw my fucking face and now i wanna kms #like oh my god. oh my god this is really truly the face im stuck with forever and ever and ever till the day im fuckin rotting in the groun #incredible how unfair life can be lmao (<- girl who is having such incredibly superficial stupid fucking problems but is otherwise #quite privileged but of course that will never be fucking enough for her because she's soooooo fckn stupid and selfish and annoyinggg lol) #i dont know why im so obsessed with it now #like i genuinely remember KNOWING that im kinda ugly (and fat) in high school and being like 'so what lol idc' #so WHY is it such an issue now????? #idk. i just kinda wish i was dead every time i look at my face and realise there's nothing i can do to change it #i can dress in ways that will cover my ugly ass shapeless body. maybe i can even go back to my ed properly this time #and lose some weight. for a time. before i gain back twice as much and the circle begins anew lol #but my face is not gonna change no matter what i do lmao unless i fucking scrape it off with a grater or smash my head into pieces #and like. even if i do get that rhinoplasty (its not gonna change my faceshape anyway. nothing i can do to fix THAT fuckin atrocity) #every time ill look in the mirror i will only be reminded that its fake. and that my natural face was disgusting enough it had to be cut up #to be fixed somewhat. #i just wish i had ONE. just ONE nice thing about my body. literally just one its not even funny lol #and its so fucked up when you look at my mom who was so insanely fucking beautiful when she was my age. like. i cant blame her #cause how could she have known that the genes she'll pass on will not result in anything good lol but also i feel like such a failure #like its not really my fault i got the genes i got. but yknow. #anyway im tired of always being the ugliest person in any group im hanging out with. my cousins? check. my hometown friends? check. #my uni friends? my GOD check (how ARE they all so pretty and skinny??? insane). #god i wish i were dead. like fr fr. im not actively suicidal since i cant bring myself to *do* shit anyway. but i just wish i never existed

[zemnarihah]

ik i just get on here and complain about the same things all the time but god it is so fucking frustrating how difficult it is to get specific days off at my job i really feel that my time doesnt belong to me sometimes

#like i understand that my job absolutely needs to have a certain amount of staffing like its a liability thing whatever. but god sometimes i #remember working in food service and texting the manager two weeks out that i need a certain day off. and just getting it #now its like. i put in my time off wait list request a month before. dont get it bc the waitlist for this particular weekend was a mile lon #6 months ago. get scheduled 8 hour shifts all three days. beg people for coverage and slowly whittle my shifts down by trading in 2 hour #increments since everyone's schedules are fucking insane including mine and none of us can actually trade a full shift. I cant trade half o #these people because theyre not trained to the same level as me. i beg the managers to cut a couple hours in exchange for covering ops #literally in hurricanes. work a one hour shift after class since thats what i could get someone to trade. I still have 5 and a half hours #left to get covered #okay the good news is. erik is coming this weekend:) and i have a free weekend (except for 5 and a half hours)to spend lots of time with hi #i mean thats fiiiiiine like he can find something to do if i have to work. he can read his little law books for a bit #and i expect a hot meal waiting for me on the table when I get off! #i bet he would do that if i asked haha should i get him a little frilly apron and make him be my housewife on that day

[girlwithfish]

the daily coffee i get during my lunch at work actually does add up. im sick i dont even want to think abt it

#maybe i should cut down :( #Idk #im trying to make a budget and figure out all my.bills and whats going where lol #I need a coffee halfway thru work or i will DIE!!! #i also have not made a coffee w my espresso machine at home in 3+ weeks since i started this job ngl 😔 #always tired anyway when i get home and itslike 7 so i dont need a coffee and i dont get up early enough to make it in tje morning #and i habent on weekends idk why #i miss making my coffee for myself tho </3 #but yeah idk how else id get a coffee when im at work i cant like bring smth idk idk maybe i shld cut down on caffeine consumption tho. idk #lmaooo #😔 #it actually does add up but i dont wantnto admit it etc 😔or think abt it

[studiousbotanist]

shaking hands w my defense systems and attempting to come to an agreement that the guy at work that doesn't listen when I ask him not to do something ISNT an ultimate evil he's just overly helpful and Hates standing still and to come up w compromises . instead of snapping at him

#this guy finding one of my very spexific triggers and engaging it every single time i work w him sucks bad . but at least its only #twice a week vs almost four a week . #i dont like my space being invaded especially when i say im good !!! #its especially pissing me off cus he tries to sneak around and stock stuff behind my back cus he knows ill say no . #but were grown men i cant snap at him every single shift its exhausting to me and doesnt deter him At All . #ie: when he was stocking stuff he was doing it wrong btw . #he also tried to put breakfast sandwiches out 1. on the weekend and 2. UNCOOKED AND UNCODED ! #nevermind ranting about it in the tags im about to tell the store manager you either make him cut it out or im gone for GOOD !!!!! #does a bear blog in the woods

[bahoreal]

ask him out ;)

no

#like. hes going through it atm he spent most of the weekend talking with his ex about some really sad shit #i didnt actually get to talk with him one on one but im. im grey aro idk how to do any of thos #im gonna try and talk with him more (we used to talk literally every day right before he got with his ex #and i had to cut him off bc i was living in another country trying so hard to get over him but it wasnt working bc i was so gone lol) #and ill hang with him more. but i dont know how to explain i cant just ask him out. i wanna hang with him one on one a few times first

[orcelito]

Unsure if I've lost the thread for ladue or if I'm just exhausted

Probably more the latter tbh. I hope.

#speculation nation #ladue shit #i swear to fuckin god chapter 3 is currently 18k words and im SO CLOSE TO DONE #but i havent written anything the past few days bc ???? #my only day off this week was yesterday and i spent most of it lying down #coping with the rest of this week. #i mean i invited this. i need the money so i was like 'if u could put me at 30 hr Minimum. pls do' #turns out a lot of ppl r gone bc spring break so it worked out Swimmingly #i was scheduled for 31 hours and as it stands ive worked like 2 hours more than that. so. #it'll be GREAT for the paycheck. not so great for the writing brain. #i tried to write yesterday but i just kinda pooped out after 100 words. eugh. #it's a pretty clear shot to the end from where im at rn. no post-scene planned like in chapter 2 #i just need to follow this thread of conversation to its natural result. the culmination of this entire damned chapter #it's ALL been leading up to this. so no i cant just cut it where im at. i Have to finish it. #so close i can taste it. but i am So fucking tired. #we'll see if i can manage anything over the weekend. ugh.

[nerdie-faerie]

One of my classmates has asked twice this week for advice about cooking and food shopping and she's complained throughout the year about not knowing how to make her student loan last. Yet every suggestion we gave she shot down 'no I don't like that' 'I'm not doing that' like girlie if you can't afford your current spending habits you're gonna have to change them

#student living #like i know the cost of living crisis is ridiculous but you aldo cant indulge your every whim. middle class students seem to have the most #difficulty accepting that they cant finance the same lifestyle their parents provide for them and have to change their habits #like yes it sucks but you cant stand there and complain that you cant afford basics while indulging in festival tickets that cost you #thousands and constantly driving back home every weekend then complaining about how much your spending in fuel like yeah no sht #gotta make compromises that means not buying expensive shellfish jesus christ eating the same meals freezing your food & eating leftovers #she was surprised that my weekly shop costs less than £20 then immediately shot down every suggestion i gave like thats why its cheap #most of my suggestions werent ridiculous budget cutting type things it was literally like freezing fresh veg instead of throwing it out and #she turned her nose up about it and was like i prefer my veg fresh cus i care about my health maam your eating chips and gravy hop off #freezing your veg when you first get it is gonna be better for your health than leaving it for days to lose nutrients before you use it #anyway this happened hours ago now but i got pelted with hail and snow on the walk home and was in a foul mood thats only just passed

[blueside-hobi]

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#i swear every time my friend texts the group chat about her wedding i get closer to killing myself #she complained a couple years ago about being in a wedding and having to spend $300 #so when she got engaged she told me she didnt want anyone to have to do that #but then she wanted an entire weekend out of town for her stag night #and we're all paying about $300 just for that #then she didnt want to look for dresses in town so we had to stay at a hotel for a night like $50 #and my dress is about $150 #and i still have to get shoes #and she wants me to cut my hair #and she at first told me i dont need to wear makeup but then like a month or to ago she said i have to wear some #and now shes telling us that we all have to get matching pajamas for getting ready #and theyre not super expensive but shit is adding up #like i dont even know how much i spent for the shower #and i took her to vegas to see bts for her wedding gift #and i forgot that she wants to stay at a hotel the night before the wedding even though i live 30minutes away from the venue #shes acting like shes some fucking celebrity or something #shes spending $30000 just on the venue #and she keeps acting like all these things shes asking for are nothing #i cant wait for it to be over #and im so tired of being in this fucking group chat with a bunch of girls i dont know #and i really dont want to go to the stag night weekend thing but i have to #and omfg her registry is just a bunch of expensive shit #they live in a tiny ass apartment so i have no clue where theyre going to keep things #and she fully admitted to just putting expensive stuff on the registry just to see what people would get then #like if they ever get a divorce and she remarries im not being the maid of honor again #this has truly been one of the worst experiences

[waluigisgaybf]

Why do my really bad anxiety days always the days we run out of weed >:(

#I mean they happen otherwise too #and its not that anxiety specifically from wanting to smoke when I cant #but I swear we run right before or after I have a have a really bad out of nowhere anxiety spell #I feel so fucking garabagey rn :( #I just wanna play my game or even draw #but even while Im trying I just CANT focus and feel really really on edge and antsy #and also like curling into a ball and not doing anything what so ever #but also really really wanting something or someone to distract me #and weed helps big time when it happens #BUT OF COURSE WE HAVE NONE RN AND CANT GET MORE TILL THIS WEEKEND #I def have a problem and smoke WAY to fucking much #I wanna try working on cutting down on how much I smoke- #but tbh being jobless actually makes it way fucking harder #cause Im just always stuck around at home feeling extra shitty extra often #and the weed very very much helps my anxiety and my eating #BUT ALSO THE WEED WE GET SUCKS FUCKING ASS SO I DUNNO