#i cant make one post that isnt stupid

[yikes-ajax]

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#i cant make one post that isnt stupid #animals #petblr #dogblr #doggo #dogs of tumblr #dog memes #cute dog #my dog #my doggo #dog pics #funny dogs #pet dog #pets #dog #pet pictures

[ghostespresso]

staff logging on to tumblr dot com today

#staff sweetie i Promise you an algorithm would kill this webbed site #changing the way reblogs look/work would Absolutely kill this webbed site too #this is a Blogging Platform i dont want it to be like tiktok or twitter jesus #if you NEED to change something literally listen to the the Tumblr Users you pretend you cant hear #if money is what you need make your userbase Happy and you should be fine #the shop is fine blaze posts are fine ad free subscriptions are fine but dont get rid of shit that Works For You in favor of making money #someone really laced up their clown boots today im. so tired staff please dont #tumblr staff #EDIT: staff updated their original post to say we were all misunderstanding but #that doesnt stop the post from being stupid #the whole post was worded for Investors and then presented to the userbase #if you say 'we have big changes planned!' and dont put in the 'as options' its Your Fault that people read it as 'were changing everything' #staff isnt stupid. they know how they Should have worded it better than what they did #so yeah. someone Did lace up their clown boots before they hit post #edit pt 2 lol for the record i dont think tumblr would actually go through with all their changes in that post #they know how the userbase is and there are A Lot of us #i just dont like how? idk. condescending? the post sounded #and out of every place on the internet being being burned alive in the name of money #tumblr is the one place i know enough about to be Actually mad at lol #ive really liked some stuff staff has done in recent years #but talking to your userbase that way wasnt one

[toytulini]

god I know this is like The Wrong Stance on AI. I know its not about whether the art is Real and Human or If It Has A Soul and how a lot of the arguments against it are the same bullshit arguments people made against digital art like I Know. I Knowwww. but god, I'm really sorry, not to post like one of those annoying poetry bloggers I cant stand (yall are valid, live your truth, theres nothing wrong with what you post I'm just a petty bitch who hates poetry. unless I dont hate it.)

But theres just something about the way AI art will almost certainly never be able to mimic the exact way my pencil leaves an indentation in the paper, the way some of the lines I can never fully erase cause I pressed too hard, theyll have to at least train them to draw with a physical pencil first, and sure, they could train it to draw with a pencil and even erase the exact same piece I drew, line for line, on a piece of paper with a robot arm powered by AI, but they can't replicate. idk. the lineage of lefty bitches in my family, and the way I grew up going through school with my entire left arm silver with graphite, from doodling on my schoolwork. not yet anyway. but I guess I do live for the day we make the ai sentient enough that we can traumatize it by giving it homework after kneecapping its executive functions so it copes by drawing a big tiddy lobster monster. sure

#toy txt post #reblogs OFF i dont trust yall to be normal with this one i do NOT want it getting notes #i posted part of this before in a chat to a friend but im feeling it again. so #i havent drawn my big tiddy lobster bitch in awhile i should draw her again #also yea SORRY im sure this is The Wrong Feeling To Have About AI but also sometimes im a little grateful that i dont think my style is #smth a lot of the ppl coding ai to make art find to be worth trying to replicate except maybe as like a fake progress shot on a piece #which is smth i used to be really insecure about. how unfinished all my art looks bc it isnt to the point i cant fucking watch #like speedpaints and shit bc i just start feeling stupidly insecure about all the points in the video where I Would Have Stopped and been #like. im not touching it anymore i dont want to ruin it #and ive been insecure about my inability to really do digital art with like a stylus and shit like the way i do it with a pencil #and i know that is just me needing to Practice it but being too frustrated by it #anyway i know its just a Tool and its Fine and the problem is the art theft and the labor problems of it but liiiiiiike #i just. #im sure there will be unique things and usages of ai as a tool and i genuinely hope that ppl can figure out a way to make one that isnr #isnt* just full of stolen content bc theres unique fuckin shit about like digital art programs u can write stupid poetry that you hate #about it. or stupid poetry that i hate. cos im the poetry hater. listen. i cant stress this enough: its fine. youre fine. keep posting your #poetry and reblogging shit that speaks to you. im just a Bitch okay Ignore Me #i should go draw bokrae like. eating a computer about this #the real reason for that graphics card shortage was bokrae ate them all when she was in the mood for a crunchy snack

[butchez]

people always talk about how ren is trans in both directions (which is true) and how akechi is trans in both directions (which is true) but theyre always silent on the matter of sumire ...................quite interesting ...........

but ya i think she has a lot of trans potential beyond just like . "shes trans bc i like her" reasoning. transfem sumire whose womanhood is constantly compared to her sister (both by herself and others), setting impossibly high and cis-centric standards that she feels pressured to achieve especially after she starts viewing herself as kasumi . and her learning to let go of those standards and embracing her transness and femininity in her own way

or transmasc sumire who represses his masculinity in fear of straying too far from kasumis path. after kasumi dies, he feels as though transitioning would sever the last tie between them. him learning to disconnect his identity from his sisters and finally being able to explore his gender

IDK its like kind of transgender to have your entire character arc revolve around pretending to be someone else to the point where you dont even know who you are

#put this under a readmore bc i was embarrassed sorry . #royal trio is so terminally underrated by everyone including atlus -_- #i cant really even be happy abt the p5t dlc bc theyre insisting on making it ''''''spoiler free'''''' #as if ANYONE who hasnt played p5r is gonna buy their stupid 60 dollar mobile game AND the like 30 dollar dlc #so annoying too bc they clearly didnt care abt spoiling naotos arc. whys he get to be ''her true self'' but akechi and sumi still have to #maintain their facades 🤨 #jude talks #persona lb #just know im thinking abt royal trio transgenderism at every second. #ok edit ik p5t isnt a mobile game it just looks like one. goobye #edit edit i took off the readmore bc people keep liking this post and im self conches in the opposite direction now.

[poisonouspastels]

#i figured this would be better suited for a separate post continuing from here #I've had people get angry at me for giving Steve a proper strongman build - thus making him fat and muscular in the process #ive gotten people mad at me for making him his direct colorpicked skin tone. got told I made him ''the wrong color'' for it #got called slurs #got told i need to just ''take a joke'' when im getting right fully angry at people telling me im wrong for making his AU design that way #been quite literally told our art looks ''ugly as hell'' when people ran out of bigoted arguments #its all just getting really hard and really tiring to keep doing what i love when everyone is vocal about hating it #and very few people are vocal about liking it #i do art for me dont get me wrong. and people have been supportive. #but i cant help but wonder if anyone would have even cared about the mega ref at all if it hadn't been surrounded by people full of hate #its just hard to stay motivated and put my all into something that's gotten so much backlash for stupid reasons you know #i've been putting so much love into my work surrounding this AU lately. my writing and my art. for over the past year now #i try not to ask anything in return other than for people to just pay attention to it at all. give it a reblog #but the one time we have something out of it become popular its because people are stupid and bigoted #i dont care about numbers this isnt about that. i just care about returning the passion i put into the world. #if anyone wants to send anything my way feel free. i could use it #sorry for venting

[mumpsetc]

I, Like Every Brony in the Modern Day It Seems, Really Like Vylet Pony But IMO Her Work Lacks That Same Punch Shit Like Cats Millionaire or SGaP Had. It's Not That Its More Fandom Based, Plenty of SGaP and Cats Millie Was That Too But It Just Feels More Disconnected From the Characters AND Specific Fandom Interpretations, It's Too General to Really Hook Me the Same Way

#Like OK What About Fluttershy Makes You Interpret Her as a Scene Kid Gir Hoodie Pony? Why are Maud and Derpy in Love? #Why is Pinkie Specifically the Lesbian Pony W/ a Chainsaw? (I Know The Answer to This One Im Just Whining) #Antonymph Esp Bothers Me in a Stupid Way. DGMW I Do Love the Song a Lot But Its Too GENERAL to Be Narrowed in on Fluttershy #And I Get It Isnt Technically About Her Its About Me the Listener But Its a Hurdle I Cant Just Easily Jump! #I Do Need to Listen to More Ive Only Listened to Cutiemarks and the Things That Bind Us and Tales From Equestria #Ive Heard Great Things About Carousel #And I Do Think Cutiemarks is a Good Ass Album I Do Love the Titletrack and Think the Exploration of Cutiemarks as a Concept in That Album #Are Really Good #I Just Love Pony Music When It Feels Like an Encapsulation of the Character or Concept and VP Just Feels Too Disconnected for That to Me #I Will Say Though the Production on Her Work is a Lot Easier to Just Toss On and Listen To. When I Got Sgap or Cats Millie On I Am in a MOD #And VP I Can Enjoy Basically Anytime So Her Accessibility is Definintely a Bonus Too #IDK Dont Listen to Me Im Just Somepony With Too Many Opinions on This. Sgap Was My Third Most Listened to Artist According to Spotify #Anyways if Antonymph Was Gonna Be a General Anti-Cringe Song It Shouldve Used a BG Pony and If It Was Gonna Be a Character Song #It Shouldve Been About Twilight #Also Rarity is Really OOC in Cutiemarks I Do Not Like Syndicate and Nonexistant Meet Cute is Good But #BUT... #Eh Whatever The Tags are Like Triple the Fuckin Post #Dreamy.txt

[lunar-fandom-eclipse]

Current mood: wanting to block someone so I don't have to see them being an asshole on content I like, but then if I do that I miss out on any content that's reblogged from their stuff, even if I'm subscribed to the post. If the person is involved in the chain of reblogs, the whole thing vanishes from my sight. And then I miss out on good content!

But DAMN do I not want to see anything that person says any more. I was giving them the benefit of the doubt but if anything they've gotten meaner.

#this is a dpxdc fandom issue #and im trying to avoid drama and do the dont like dont read thing #but i really want to see the majority of the content! and blocking that user blocks more than just them! #i cant see any reblogs from their posts even in the notes! its a problem! #i really was trying to give them the benefit of the doubt and just avoid them #but i just saw them make ANOTHER GODDAM POST being an asshole to other people #like. this fandom is basically an improv class right? and the first rule of improv is always to go yes and? #this person is doing a no (full stop). #or theyre coming in and saying “well your idea is stupid because of xyz” #or accusing people of needing to better research and put more time in to their fanworks #when literally this is supposed to just be for fun #and that energy is the opposite of fun #and i dont want any beef! i want to casually ignore them! #but i still want to see the posts im subscribed to! #i want to see all content made by people other than this one user! #even if its in response to something that user said! #i feel like this shouldnt be that hard but it isnt like this hellsite is known for useability

[strwbrymlkshake]

Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(

#mine #oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times #but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry #like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie #im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc #i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me #thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related #anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that #ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired #// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always #because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life #like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing #me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little #so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die #every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt. #well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he #is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him #every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again #but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh #i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT #I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time #like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me #he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do #he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away

[red-dyed-sarumane]

listening to the songs in that dj order & it does still make sense for the most part but unplanned apoptosis is throwing me off a bit with the sacrifice mention bc if it were right after oumen like the posting order suggests then sure the two could be happening relatively concurrently & it could be that she passed it off to the angel intentional or not. but to put it at the end?? after everyone else??? you mean to tell me they just lost 3 people forever, they KNOW the first sacrifice didnt work & theyre going to kill a 4th person for no reason?? i know she cant be a very likable person with how she talks and acts but it just doesnt make sense. if u put it at the end like that it feels too far away for that to be happening at the same time as any of the other deaths. i dont get it i need to study her like a bug.

#aru sekai series #this isnt a girlies post i just cant see why they would kill her #esp if they want to make progress with anything. shes not stupid she Can do the work #if she was the first choice i can see it. if no one likes her then yeah it would make sense #if they try to get her to be the sacrifice #but after tenshi? after both labo & yamete too??? theres no reason

[sunnydice]

man.

#i had this whole post ive been trying to formulate for so so long. abt my issues w ceewilbur and ccwilburisms and #to clarify i do like cwilb he is one of my faves. ik it may seem i wanna bite his arm off smtimes and i Do but #its mostly bitterness directed to the stuff Around him if that makes sense. yk the response to lots abt him #the way the overcompensation abt how he can be villanized swinging into a state where he Cant and never Did and wrong and if you critique #or acknowledge it you get snipped at and demeaned and treated like its a targeted hit on the mentally ill when its like #a mild disagreement with one of the most popular characters in the fanbase Easily #and w cc wil i do think he is just sm guy. im sure he's a nice dude idrc abt the ccs usually but he seems alright enough even tho he has v #goofy ahh takes and opinions but that doesnt make you Evil #but when i dive into what really has made me feel so alienated and snippy its. llmao its the racism yeah lol its super very much the racism #its very very prevelent and very common and very unchallenged. and it like. upsets me so bad its why i keep bailing on making my actual #full detailed post abt it. cuz everytime i try to formulate my thoughts i just get upset and frustrated i wanna rip my hair out #its hard not to feel like im talking to a wall when its so common and unchecked and. ive seen rightful critiques of these spaces and how #ppl interact with them Openly Mocked and brushed aside and treated like 'petty sensative internet drama' that ppl need to 'just get over' #sorry man im a fucking 🇲🇽 i cant exactly log off and Stop Experiencing Racism. and sorry that me feeling alienated and tired and sad abt #it is an inconvenience for you llol #and like idk. im not upset w anyone in particular this isnt a call out post or vague who give a shit and. #eh maybe im stupid but i really really believe a lot of ppl arent doing it on purpose #its just bein parroted ik i get it but #am i rlly not allowed to be tired? why should it feel like my responsibility to hold ppls hand and go hey mb treat poc and darker skinned #ppl like ppl. maybe you should examine why you need so many things made palatable to you through conventionally attractive whiteness first #idk. idk!!! am i crazy who fucking knows #but it has been weighing on me stupid style so bad #the shrinking fanbase and primarily yk common stragglers has just. rlly felt like a magnifying glass to my already existing issues abt it #idk man. idk im tired and im at work its 100°+ and my head hurts so this is all yr getting. lea me alone #and again this isnt a vague who Cares. just wanted to get it off my chest finally #huri.txt #discourse #<- ig

[cerealmonster15]

literally how i feel when im trying to make a shred of sense on artfight talking about the aus and how all the characters connect to each other

at least. on yale’s profile  l o l

#god. girlie you talk too much !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! chilll!!!!!!!!!! #it's fine. IT'S FINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i have simpler characters. it's fine. #yales just my FAVORITE!!!!!! #im excited about having my twst boys on there tho. i want to draw twst ocs this year #god my twst ocs have so much stupid confusing backstory lol #i dont even go into all of it on artfight #i have a longass post on here that i should probably just link on the profile #AND MAYBE I WILL. BUT . oohohohoo. #actually this pic is me with my like 10000 caterella branching aus #i have a relationship map thats just #so fucking hard to read #that one never left discord dms LOL it's. so embarassing klsdflkds #i mean /i/ like it bc it appeals to ME but. #i cant show anyone else besides the friend i talked about it with when i made it #ITS FKSLDFJKDLSJ #'it makes me look obsessed' i say as if my brain isnt 50% twst and 50% dndads like hello my man it's not a secret #ok anyway. whats up with me rn my head is going so rapid rn #theres a lot happening in my brain im feeling VERY CHATTY #so i just do it all in tags of posts teehee ok bye

[mothheart]

I know this probably makes me a bad person but being bullied over my nose has never left me. I hate my nose and I wish it was smaller and if I could afford cosmetic surgery I would get it

#like yeah obviously being bullied for basically all of my years in school would impact me but i feel guilty about it #i hated my teeth and i know i never would have been happy about them if i hadnt gotten braces. like it WAS medically necessary but #even if it wasnt #i know i still would have never felt happy or confident with crooked teeth and a severe overbite #when i say i got bullied for every little insignificant thing i am being so serious #people i considered friends talked behind my back about how ugly they thought i was and i would find out from people i wasnt as close with #the weirdest thing that probably seems so stupid is the one (1) time i wore shorts bc it was fucking hot and we had a day #at school where we spent it all outside #some guy made fun of me for the way my legs and knees look #i realize its not nearly as bad as fat people have it but i was bullied for being very skinny and for the way my body looked #i cant see myself ever being genuinely confident in any part of myself now lol #and i have so many body image issues that i wont go into #i try to shift my mind to the same place as all these body positive posts and i completely believe them in the case of anyone that isnt me #i know this probably makes me vain and a bad person but what can i do really lol #miles rambles

[boyfeminism]

i really Shouldnt use the for you page but sometimes i get bored and this time it was fucking Entirely ed posts mixed in with fanart for stray which fucking sucked and then like 4 posts abt bpd at the end which is not something that even has Anything to do with me so overall bad experience many people blocked

#anyways. #sorry if this sounds harsh but if youre posting abt an eating disorder and not tagging it in the simplest of ways #i hate you #i dont care what argument could possibly be made against me i genuinely hate you #ed tw #<- wow 4 letters! isnt that easy! fuck you #i did NOT like any posts related to eating disorders or bpd nor did i follow anyone new so. #not sure where tumblr pulled that one #on par with wei/ght lo/ss ads #killed the fun sleepy mood i was in. #idk it doesnt even affect me the way it used to its been like. long enough since the peak #that i am okay and every time ive like. idk relapsed or whatever ive recognized it and adjusted in that same day in a way that is healthy #and nothing really drives me to that behavior very easily anymore #but it still fucking Nauseates me i dont want to see it in my stupid tumblr bubble tbh and its as simple as that #and it makes me upset bc then youre just. subjecting ppl it DOES affect to the same thing! bc you cant fucking tag things #speaking

[caruliaa]

now one cares if ur mom loves you soooo muc and u love her soooo much and ur omg arent mothers soo great always bs. shut up !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#(BEING VERY PETTY BC MINE SUCKS SO FUCKING MUCH) #but also if i have to see the post bieng like 'oohh imagine sweet nothing with how your mother always loves u unconditionly' everywere #(which good 4 u stop acting like thats the universal experience for everyone it fucking isnt) #then you all have to deal with me platonic-fing it and making it abt friendship. sucks to suck loser !!!! #like what if the soul deconstructers *are* my parents in my experience. what then bitch !! #sorry im rly just annoyed abt that one post bc i feel like theres an obsession among swifties to only every understand each song in a way #that like. does or cld fit within her life instead of relating it to ur own experince esp in regards to them all being abt romance #like ppl being like 'i cant believe ppl think x song cld count as a platonic love song when its obvs abt romancce' #or not understanding how the emotions expressed in a song abt a traumatic break up could also be related to other trauma #including trauma inflicted by a parent/friend/ any other relation someone cld have to someone #but the one time !! relating one of her songs to smth other than roamnce is acceptable to swifties its the stupid fucking #'ohh my mom is soo great shes the best' bs thats a sure fire sign the person saying it will never take anyone whos been mistreated #by the parents serious and just respond w 'but its ur momm u have to love her bc shes ur mommm :(((((' #sorry ik im being needlessly bitter which sucks bc i have a a good point here like can we just let ppl relate to songs in whatever way they #want to and not care abt their being a 'defnitive' meaning to the song bc the whole point of art esp music is how YOU relate to it #also like. that post isnt bad at all its acutally completely fine im just bieng dumb and projecting ig bc i feel like the emotions of ppl #whos parents were good to them r always taken more seriously like. if i made a post talking abt relating the 'give me back my girlhood' lin #to my experince w my shitty parents i feel like it wldnt be taken as seriously as this 'uwu i love my momm' bs yk. anyway maybe im wrong !! #who knows !!!!! maybe i shld try to talk abt how i relate her songs to my personal experinces more #also i am being rly dumb sm bc ik other ppl have spoken abt relating her songs (esp mtr and tolerate it) to shitty parnets but iv also seen #ppl treat that like its dumb which is stupid !!!!! who cares !!!! ur being a dick let ppl relate music to whatever experiences they want !! #anyway. i think i seem more pissed her than i actually am im just annoyed bc this is a pet peeve of mine lol #flappy rambles

[knowing--clandestinely]

The upside of me getting seen messing up so bad at work at the end of the year is I don't think they'll be so keen to move me up to being a manager quite so quick. I don't want to be a manager. Being someone's line manager sounds like a nightmare for my disposition / I don't want to be more in charge. I don't want onus to fall on me and I don't want additional duties/more work to do from the position.

The downside is that I messed up and I start work again tomorrow for the year and I think the project manager got lunch with my line manager over the break and even if not she's surely going to have to be updated abt my follies and we have our weekly 1 on 1s on wednesdays and idk how this will come about and what I think is best to say on my part when the matter will surely come up

#my saving grace was literally that she heard from me that i was sleeping bad that week. and then when she went for a walk with me to ask #what was going on with my performance on this project in short i got to cite that lol. the problem is actually my brain! i cant say that #to an employer this isnt therapy i simply cannot say it's the attention deficiency and i wasnt doing my job right #i can just about skirt by without people realizing how much i screw up but this one manager is very very keen and got to see first hand tha #i made a mess of things #even some other coworkers there thought I did a good job! I'm good to most at making it seem like i havent screwed up when i am constantly #when she was asking if she needed to alter my workload etcetcetc and it's just like no my workload is literally fine i just struggle with #working at all it's so stupid when they see me doing 'well' and giving me more wiggle room and not checking up on me it's the threat of my #work being checked that gets me to do it i struggle so much to do things always without a specific terror #funny when the undiagnosed attention deficit disorder combined with the social anxiety disorder ruins my life. never wouldve thought. #it'll always be the same tho here's to it #text post #wrk

[gaystardykeco]

fun wednesday night activity: thinking about all the ppl who left me and how much better their lives are because of doing so

#like damn. i really am a person that only makes ppls lives worse!! #every single person thats stopped being my friend is so so much happier than they ever were being my friend!!! #nobody fucking misses me or thinks of me or regrets anything!!! im a problem and a burden and a causer of harm!!! #i like to imagine ppl that used to talk to me read this blog bc they want to know whats going on in my life and miss me too #but ultimately i know that isnt true like if they follow me they might see a few posts but no one is looking at all of them #i stopped telling ppl what was happening in my life and they stopped caring. bc probably they did not care in the first place tbh #i still follow all these fucking girls from hs on social media and keep track of whats going on in their lives #they havent thought of me in years i guarantee it #and im still sitting here at age 23 thinking about how much better my life would be if i hadnt been so awful at 17 and lost all my friends #anyway sorry for this annoying dramatic post im just like. so tired of not feeling loved no matter what i do and how hard i try #no one will ever care about me the way i care about them and it will never be good for anyone to have me in their life #and im so fucking tired of being this fucking intolerable and awful of a person #i just sit here every day trying to convince myself i dont need to talk to anyone or have friends to survive #but like thats not true lmao i am so lonely i miss talking to ppl so much but everyones moved on #everyone saw what a bad person i am and how much i hurt ppl and cut me off and moved on again #and this is just going to keep happening to me every time i make friends or try to not be alone bc who i am is the problem and i cant fix i #anyway sdlfkjsd sorry i know i sound pathetic and ridiculous jdskf i just need to put thoughts somewhere #and this stupid blog is the only place i have to say anything bc im so completely fucking alone