#i cut out the religion questions because i personally cant mix a game with religion just confuses my little brain a bit too much

[keibea]

bold the facts

Was tagged by @lazysunjade and mentally (if they new i was around they would've tagged me...right? right) tagged by @thesimperiuscurse and @amuhav LONG POST AHEAD!!

- PERSONAL -

Financial: wealthy (previously) ▪ moderate ▪ poor ▪ in poverty Medical: fit ▪ moderate ▪ sickly ▪ disabled ▪ disadvantaged ▪ non applicable Class or Caste: upper ▪ middle ▪ working ▪ unsure ▪ other Education: qualified ▪ unqualified (but still highly educated) ▪ studying ▪ other (depends on what time in my non-existent story) Criminal Record: yes, for major crimes ▪ yes, for minor crimes ▪ no BAHAHAHAHAHA CAN U IMAGINE ▪ has committed crimes, but not caught yet ▪ yes, but charges were dismissed

- FAMILY -

Children: had a child or children ▪ has no children ▪ wants children Relationship with Family: close with sibling(s) ▪ not close with sibling(s) ▪ has no siblings ▪ sibling(s) is deceased Affiliation: orphaned ▪ adopted ▪ disowned ▪ raised by birth parent(s) ▪ not applicable ▪ emancipated

- TRAITS & TENDENCIES -

extroverted ▪ introverted ▪ in between disorganized ▪ organized ▪ in between close minded ▪ open-minded ▪ in between calm ▪ anxious ▪ in between disagreeable ▪ agreeable ▪ in between cautious ▪ reckless ▪ in between patient ▪ impatient ▪ in between outspoken ▪ reserved ▪ in between leader ▪ follower ▪ in between empathetic ▪ vicious bastard ▪ in between optimistic ▪ pessimistic ▪ in between traditional ▪ modern ▪ in between hard-working ▪ lazy ▪ in between cultured ▪ uncultured ▪ in between ▪ unknown loyal ▪ disloyal ▪ unknown faithful ▪ unfaithful ▪ unknown

- SEXUALITY & ROMANTIC INCLINATION -

Sexuality: heterosexual ▪ homosexual ▪ bisexual ▪ asexual ▪ pansexual Romance: romance repulsed ▪ romance neutral ▪ romance favorable ▪ naïve and clueless ▪ romance suspicious Potential Sexual Partners: male ▪ female ▪ agender ▪ other ▪ none ▪ all Potential Romantic Partners: male ▪ female ▪ agender ▪ other ▪ none ▪ all

- ABILITIES -

Combat Skills: excellent ▪ good ▪ moderate ▪ poor ▪ none Literacy Skills: excellent ▪ good ▪ moderate ▪ poor ▪ none Artistic Skills: excellent ▪ good ▪ moderate ▪ poor ▪ none Technical Skills: excellent ▪ good ▪ moderate ▪ poor ▪ none

- HABITS -

Drinking Alcohol: never ▪ special occasions ▪ sometimes ▪ frequently ▪ alcoholic Smoking: tried it "NEVER.AGAIN." ▪ trying to quit ▪ quit ▪ never ▪ rarely ▪ sometimes ▪ frequently ▪ chain-smoker Recreational Drugs: never ▪ special occasions ▪ sometimes ▪ frequently ▪ addict Medicinal Drugs: never ▪ no longer needs medication ▪ some medication needed ▪ frequently ▪ to excess Unhealthy Food: never ▪ special occasions ▪ sometimes ▪ frequently ▪ binge eater ▪ at least one treat everyday (usually chocolate-chip cookies that eli makes) Splurge Spending: never ▪ sometimes ▪ frequently ▪ shopaholic Gambling: never ▪ rarely ▪ sometimes ▪ frequently ▪ compulsive gambler

- PERSONAL -

Financial: wealthy (previously) ▪ moderate ▪ poor ▪ in poverty Medical: fit ▪ moderate ▪ sickly ▪ disabled ▪ disadvantaged ▪ non applicable Class or Caste: upper ▪ middle ▪ working ▪ unsure ▪ other Education: qualified ▪ unqualified (but still highly educated) ▪ studying ▪ other (depends on what time in my non-existent story) Criminal Record: yes, for major crimes ▪ yes, for minor crimes ▪ no ▪ has committed crimes, but not caught yet ▪ yes, but charges were dismissed

- FAMILY -

Children: had a child or children ▪ has no children ▪ wants children Relationship with Family: close with sibling(s) ▪ not close with sibling(s) ▪ has no siblings �� sibling(s) is deceased Affiliation: orphaned ▪ adopted ▪ disowned ▪ raised by birth parent(s)/but also raised by step father half and half ▪ not applicable ▪ emancipated

- TRAITS & TENDENCIES -

extroverted ▪ introverted ▪ in between disorganized ▪ organized ▪ in between close minded ▪ open-minded ▪ in between calm ▪ anxious ▪ in between but calmer than elodie girl is crazy disagreeable ▪ agreeable ▪ in between cautious ▪ reckless ▪ in between patient ▪ impatient ▪ in between outspoken ▪ reserved ▪ in between leader ▪ follower ▪ in between empathetic ▪ vicious bastard ▪ in between (but more towards empathetic) optimistic ▪ pessimistic ▪ in between traditional ▪ modern ▪ in between hard-working ▪ lazy ▪ in between cultured ▪ uncultured ▪ in between ▪ unknown loyal ▪ disloyal ▪ unknown faithful ▪ unfaithful ▪ unknown (except one time...but that was not with elodie....👀)

- SEXUALITY & ROMANTIC INCLINATION -

Sexuality: heterosexual ▪ homosexual ▪ bisexual ▪ asexual ▪ pansexual Romance: romance repulsed ▪ romance neutral ▪ romance favorable ▪ naïve and clueless ▪ romance suspicious Potential Sexual Partners: male ▪ female ▪ agender ▪ other ▪ none ▪ all Potential Romantic Partners: male ▪ female ▪ agender ▪ other ▪ none ▪ all

- ABILITIES -

Combat Skills: excellent ▪ good ▪ moderate ▪ poor ▪ none Literacy Skills: excellent ▪ good ▪ moderate ▪ poor ▪ none Artistic Skills: excellent ▪ good ▪ moderate ▪ poor ▪ none Technical Skills: excellent ▪ good ▪ moderate ▪ poor ▪ none

- HABITS -

Drinking Alcohol: never ▪ special occasions ▪ sometimes ▪ frequently ▪ alcoholic Smoking: tried it ▪ trying to quit ▪ quit ▪ never ▪ rarely ▪ sometimes ▪ frequently ▪ chain-smoker Recreational Drugs: never ▪ special occasions ▪ sometimes ▪ frequently ▪ tried it ▪ addict Medicinal Drugs: never ▪ no longer needs medication ▪ some medication needed ▪ frequently ▪ to excess Unhealthy Food: never ▪ special occasions ▪ sometimes ▪ frequently ▪ binge eater ▪ at least one treat everyday Splurge Spending: never ▪ sometimes ▪ frequently ▪ shopaholic Gambling: never ▪ rarely ▪ sometimes ▪ frequently ▪ compulsive gambler

#nonsims #butsortasims #characterasks #sim: elodie matthews #sim: eli cause i never remember his last name WHOOPS #i cut out the religion questions because i personally cant mix a game with religion just confuses my little brain a bit too much #i also cut out a few of the more spicy questions because...well im a prude #theres so much that i know about eli and elodie that i need u to know but to do that would mean i would have to write #and like das a lot of work #anyway thank you JADE for tagging me

[yvvaine]

A Meta on Madness

Here’s the thing with Targaryen madness. Most weren’t just born raving mad.  They developed it. Some as early as childhood, others well into adulthood; sometimes even instigated by some event (like the Defiance of Duskendale which affected Aerys II Targaryen’s madness). Grand Maester Phycelle even commented how Aerys had been “a good man. such a charmer....” until he became obsessed with his dreams of “fire & blood”. 

It seems that that is the commonality. Fire & Blood. And also obsession. Most of the “madness” starts out as personality traits, like unchecked outbursts and impusliveness. Some form of violence (during said outbursts) develops shortly thereafter. Mixed in is usually a god-like self-image and some personal obsession / quest. Also paranoia. Delusions and hallucinations, for the most part, dont develop all that fast. Theyre “charming good men” with hot heads, and that slowly escelates, little by little until it begins to snowball. Again, some earlier than others. 

But obsession seems to be reaccuring throught all the circumstances. 

They fixate on something (Fire & Blood, religion, beliefs, etc) and take it too far, and the more they do, the more obsessed they become, the more the ‘madness’ seems to set in. 

King Baelor the Blessed was overzealously obsessed with religion and purity, to the point that he starved himself into an early grave because he believed that food is of this world, and the material world is sinful.

Prince Aerion Brightflame, son of King Maekar and nephew of the Prince Rhaegel. Aerion killed himself drinking wildfire, believing it would turn him into a dragon.

Visery’s ‘madness’ (mostly outbursts, paranoia, and cruelty), according to Daenerys at least, was linked/instigated to a somewhat traumatic event; the selling of their mother’s crown. My guess is that he was old enough to be traumatized by the events that sent them into exhile, put all his hopes and dreams into that crown, idolized it, and losing it was kind of the final push. 

Madness ≠ Certified Crazy Person

In fact I dont even really like the term madness, because it denotes that the Targaryen in question is 24/7 insane. And dont get me wrong, some def are. But in GRRM’s world their ‘madness’ is MUCH more subtle than that. Its pathology is almost like a disease. And people can live with the most terrible diseases for quite along while and work around it/not have it effect them. As a Certified Sick Person myself, I know that particular lesson more than quite a bit of people (thanks autoimmune system!) Id say. Look at diabetes! People can live with diabetes and not have to cut their foot off or die (like the olden days) with the right amount of lifestyle and personal choices. But untreated, without proper checks and balances, symptoms get worse, other manisfate on top of one another.  To say they have the “Targaryen madness” is not a black and white issue, because their “insanity” is not as simple as : “that persons obv crazy and that persons not!!” You cant equivicate mid-story/life Daenerys with late-in-life Aerys. Its a cultivation of symptoms over years. Theyre not at equal points in their life to one another; obv shes not blinded by “KILL THEM ALL” attitudes yet. 

Early-in Life Aerys (perhaps a better parallel to Daenerys’s timeline) was: 

“...while not being the most intelligent, nor the most diligent of princes [I wonder who that sounds like? Cough Mereen] he was described as having an undeniable charm. He was generous, handsome and resolute, although somewhat quick to anger. [SOUND LIKE ANYONE. A good heart? Beautiful? Determined and passionate? SOMEWHAT quick to anger?] He was also vain, proud, and changeable, traits that made him easy prey for lickspittles and flatterers.” 

The last part is more up for debate but Dany does think quite highly of herself and is VERY proud. Shes also reminded frequently of her amazing-ness, as well as her beauty, which would bloat anyones ego. And while she realizes the difference between blatant kiss asses (“People used to tell that kind of thing to my brother”) she also prefers those that agree with her or her line of thinking and suck up to her. Shes kinder to those that fall into step and bestows greater favor on them in that moment (even when the person in the room disagreeing is a “friend”). 

“As he grew older, Aerys became increasingly jealous, suspicious and cruel, prone to furious outbursts.”

I think a lot of readers and show viewers see this increasingly “bratty” quality to her character. Even when her anger (toward the slave masters for instance) is morally and technically VERY justified (Personally I hate this POV, as I’m someone whos decided to dedicate my lifeswork to human rights law, so decidely I am not for cruel racist individuals. Moreover, I dont think many people, if there is any at all, who believe in dark!(or just a generally darker)dany are racist and pro-slavery - which is something i see stans misguidedly clapback with often in the face of criticism) her “justice” becomes all she see’s to disastrous consequences, including crucifying those that shouldnt have been.

“My father spoke out against crucifying those children. He decried it as a criminal act but was overruled. Is it justice to answer one crime with another?” - Hizdahr zo Loraq, S04E06 “The Laws of Gods and Men” on Daenerys crucifying his father because of the status he was born into.

She also seems to be developing more and more paranoia. “Betray me and I’ll burn you alive.” (obv betrayal should be punished WHEN IT HAPPENS, but like, shes already imagining scenrarios and felt the need to say something, ie paranoid). The entire beach tantrum and her turning against her ally and HAND Tyrion because she was upset at their(shared) battle failures. And while its great that she doesnt want to be the Queen of Ashes, in her right mind, in moments of anger and fustration she constantly has to be talked down from burning cities. So increasingly more worrisome. 

Shes also increasingly fixated on ‘the iron throne’. As her obsession grows....

Sorta like: Aerys in his youth. 

So while duh, shes not batshit insane like her father was right before the end of his life, people forget, her father wasnt “bad” or “mad” till his later years either. Comparing the two (her father right before he was killed and Dany now) is like comparing a seed to a flower. Same material and DNA. Same circumstances / needs the same to grow (unchecked symptoms like their anger and obsessions). But ultimately different stages in their lives, and as such different consequences and attributes. 

GA (and Stans)‘s Short-sidedness

The “Mad Dany” theory mostly comes from people woh dont neccisarily see dany as stark raving mad like Aerys Burn Them All Targaryen (i know, shocking) but rather see this similarity (past face value cough cough), and see the parrallels between young Aerys the Charming Good But Slghty Tantrum-y Tararyen with Dany now, and made educated forecasts in what that means for future-Dany based on her current arch. The same Dany who is increasingly obsessed with conquering an entire ass continent that shes held up as a symbol and put all her hopes and dreams of ‘home’ into (kinda like the way Viserys did with their mothers crown)  (also a continent that she knows nothing and hasnt bothered to learn anything about). She has no plans on creating a democracy or dispersing power to try to mitigate her faults because shes completely fucking blind to them. She plans on sitting on that uncomfortable ass stupid metal throne and being uncompromising because shes not a Politician shes a QWEEN  #fuckcompromise #fuckdiplomacy #fuckpeace #bendtheknee #ammiright :))))) Meanwhile dancing on really thin ice that could any minute crack under her, and the more it cracks the faster it makes new ones until it snowballs quickly out of hand and suddenly it snaps and kills you. Only shes queen in this scenario with two resusable nukes at her disposal so in this case its not just her but the entire country that drowns.

 Politics is a long game. We - in the real world - choose a leader who is not just best for us in the now, but who will create a better future for our children, and their children, and so on. 

Dany is not a good, stable bet. I originally meant to do a short sassy one liner about this but then I got on a soapbox and started getting all philisophical and now this could literally be my senior thesis its that long. (My apologies!) Im also know where near finished with this so this could maybe be Part One? 

#anti-daenerys #anti daenerys #anti targaryen #anti targaryen restoration #aerys 2.0 #mad queen no. 2 #got meta #mine

[miss-oscurita]

I can understand almost everything Michael does but I cant get my head around why he gets involved with epsilon, why do you think he does it?

The short answer is, Anon - I have absolutely no idea. The longer answer is a mix of possibilities, but I’ll keep them under the read more in the name of saving people’s dashes from my Mikey ramblings!

Okay, so…..We know Michael isn’t a fan of taking ordersbased on how he acts around Devin and Steve, so it doesn’t really make muchsense to his character to be bending over backwards doing stupid shit for theEpsilon Program unless he knows there’s something to gain from it.  Plus he’s a smart dude, who is a great leader but not a very good follower, so the whole“organized religion” thing just doesn’t seem to fit his character atall. I don’t believe he could be brainwashed by anyone either, because he’s tooheadstrong for that shit. It’s like he’ll believe his OWN bullshit but digs his heals in when it comes to accepting anyone else’s haha! So for me, the simplest answer for Michael’s involvement is that he knew it was all a wayto make money. It’s only a mission or two into it when they start demanding large sums of cash from him, so I’d bet he realized quick that the organization was ripe for the picking. That could be why he just kept saying “kifflom” by the end ofit all - he figured them out and needed to bite his tongue and just to go along with the bullshit for long enough until he saw hischance, but then when stealing the money isn’t prompted in the game…I just don’t know....Anyway you wanna take it though, there’s noquestion that stealing the money was supposed to be “canon” because you only get the gold medal objectives at the endif you steal the cash and you only unlock the “Kifflom” achievementif you steal it too. So….ugh! I dunno! I think Rockstar believe us all to bemuch more nefariously minded that we actually are because it didn’t even cross my mind to steal the money the first time around, so I totally let themtake it and was pissed as fuck that I got left with thatstupid tractor haha!But I gotta say, I think it’s probably my “writer’s-brain” but makingmoney just doesn’t seem to explain it all well enough for me….If you read the responses to the answers he gives to the quiz thing onthe EP webpage (it doesn’t matter how you answer, it always results in the samething) it all seems to really “get” him. It says he’s unfulfilled,depressed, lacking in purpose, everything that he really is and I think thatMichael just really wants to be understood (read: vindicated) by someone, somaybe he initially thought that he could find some kind of understanding through theprogram? That may have been enough to get him to investigate what would happenif he found that red truck….Once he’s involved though….I ain’t so sure! I mean, you can tell by the lookon his face and his attitude in all the early cut scenes that he’s skepticalabout what he’s up to, he literally says he thinks it’s bullshit so I don’tknow why he keeps on with it, but I guess it could be all the talk of beingunderstood by others and understanding himself and making sense of all the crapin his life, and being privy to some kind of “big truth” thatexplains everything is what keeps him going back. We know he’s got some seriousissues with being considered “ordinary” so maybe the whole mystiqueof the EP could have made him believe it was a way for him to be “EXTRAordinary”?I dunno, but I don’t think Michael is the kind of person to make an effort perusingsomething if he doesn’t think it’s definitely going to pay off in some way - especiallyfinancially! Also, I’m pretty sure Marnie says something about how she was lost beforegetting involved with EP and how powerful people have become that way throughtheir belief in the system and finding this big truth about life, and I thinkthat could have maintained Michael’s interest because he’s lost himself and issearching for answers and we know he likes being special/important. Maybe tohim EP seems like a way of achieving that?Another possibility is that he’s concerned about Marnie. There’s that one scenewhere he asks her why she got caught up in all the bullshit, and we knowMichael loves to be someone’s saviour and I guess it’s possible that in theback of his mind he wanted to help her out in some way….but I think maybethat’s a bit of a reach and giving him too much credit haha!   I really do struggle to find a clear way to explain his involvement, because itjust makes no sense to me that he’d get tangled up with them unless he haddesigns to make a profit either financially or “psychologically”. I mean, I understand it to a certainpoint because he’s just rolling his eyes and snarking his way through the earlymissions, but I struggle with understanding his motivations once it gets towhen he’s wearing those stupid robes for ten days and the fuckin’ running about in thedesert. I think he’d draw the line and say enough is enough but then he mayhave thought he’s in too deep and paid too much money out to not see thingsthrough until his chance arose. As a thief, he’s quite opportunistic so he could have literally just beenplaying a role and waiting for a chance to rob them the whole time and willing to stay thedistance until that chance arose. Or maybe the running in the desert shit waslike a personal challenge, I expect he ran as much -if not more- in high schooland we know he loves to think he’s still in high school haha! But yeah, over all, it’s difficult to explain. I will say though, that whateverhis real motivations - I think it was all intended to tie into some kind of DLCstoryline. Especially as Chris threatens to ruin Michael when he makes off withthe money, it was wide open for something else to happen at some point. Also,there are so many connections with Michael and aliens I feel like if there everis a DLC it’ll most likely be alien invasion centric because there is just sofriggin’ much about aliens in this game it’s ridiculous! Sorry I couldn’t be more decisive, anon. Thanks for asking me this though, youknow I love talking about my asshole virtual husband! :o)

#why so anon? #replies #Michael #GTA V #headcanons #meta #Anonymous