✨It's the Wednesday Tag Gaammmme✨
happy wednesday everyone, this game has me feeling incredibly sentimental
thanks for tagging me @jrooc @creepkinginc @energievie @doshiart @energievie @lingy910y @blue-disco-lights @spookygingerr
How did you get into the fandom?
I watched Shameless when someone recommend it and loved the show for many many reasons but the unreal depth and chemistry in Ian and Mickey's relationship came as a real shock to me
How long have you been here?
I actually went back and looked for this question and found out this blogs one year anniversary was a couple weeks ago!
What’s the first fandom channel you found? (Youtube, Reddit, Tumblr, Insta, Twitter, FB, other?)
Tumblr
what’s your favourite now?
ditto
Which mutual have you known the longest in the fandom?
I honestly have no idea, but gallavichlover19 was the first person I really interacted with and they were really sweet about In Your Love
Which tumblerino’s did you have your first fandom crush(es) on and wanted to get to know?
I think @softmick and @jrooc and @callivich were the first who like, tagged me in things so I thought (and still think!) they're super neat
First Gallavich fan fic you read (or that blew you away that you remember)
I distinctly remember reading the broad shouldered beasts series and thinking oh wow, this fandom has some incredible fanfic quality
First fan art that blew your mind?
this one was the first that i really really adored, and again, still do
Fanfic trope that you were sure wasn’t for you but now you low key (or high key) love?
This isnt super original, but I havent been able to read highschool au since i was in highschool, its just not that fun or interesting to me but there are always exceptions
What surprised you most about this fandom?
I mean, obviously like everyone else, the gallavich community on here is so sweet and creative and welcoming and I think we generally haver very respectful and nuanced conversations about this complex show, which is awesome
Im also a little surprised by how many non-americans are in the fandom, the commentary that the show makes broadly about the culture of america and very specifically chicago could be more alienating than other tv/movie exports so the fact that it still resonates is interesting and super cool to me. i tried to watch the UK version and just felt like i didnt grasp the cultural context
Moment in the show (or YT vids if you’re one of those) that you fell in hyperfixation with Gallavich?
literally the first time they hooked up in Mickey's bedroom, like you could just tell these two matched each others freak and the love story that unfolded just grew so beautifully and organically
Ian or Mickey?
you know what? IanandMickey. if the gallaghers have to deal with the fact that theyre slowly morphing into a single being, so do we.
Which Gallagher or Milkovich are you?
Honestly, I think Liam. Maybe? Independant, clever, eclectic, resourceful and thoughtful. And i think hes probably the most introverted in the bunch
hi! tagging below
@iansw0rld @mmmichyyy @mickittotheman @ian-galagher
@mickeym4ndy @gallawitchxx @mickeysgaymom @deathclassic
@em-harlsnow @mybrainismelted @heymrspatel @thepupperino
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Just wanted to plant an idea if you wanted a bit of fuel: Mahiru asking Yuno to come to her cell before everything goes down.
Edit: I forgot the ask didn't say it but this is part of Kyanako's incredible Order Of Attack AU!
Didn't mean for this to become a mini Mappi study but here we are ✨ Thank you for the request! I fully intended to write them hanging out, but it's more right before they hang out lol. Went a bit on-the-nose with foreshadowing, but isn't that the fun part? It has become Emotional Over Mahiru Hour...
I kept things vague, but TW for mentioning her boyfriend's state of potential self-harm
Mahiru tried not to act superstitious, she really did. As much as she loved the idea of little luck charms, or avoided easy signs of misfortune, it was easier to keep quiet about such ridiculous things.
Maybe catching a bride’s bouquet meant no guarantees; maybe there was no real harm in stepping underneath ladders, maybe a coin tossed into a fountain had no real magic to its wish. However, the one thing she knew for sure held power was a lucky presence. Being in the right place at the right time could alter everything. And today was the right time for something. There was this waiting in the air. The prison had been holding its breath. Mahiru knew it was time to release it all.
“You must be so lonely, why don’t you let big sis Mahiru keep you company?” She beamed at Amane.
She often recalled the good fortune that she and a certain young man had crossed paths on the university terrace. She used to laugh with him about the wonderful coincidence of bumping into each other outside of the bakery, then the convenience store.
Though she’d never spoken about it to him, she was also grateful for many occasions where she walked in on him at the precise moment to talk him out of something reckless. She always told him that they’d do everything together. He didn’t need to be alone anymore.
“I wish to be alone. I need peace of mind to think.” Amane turned away from the cell door.
It was a good thing, too. Mahiru’s smile wasn’t as convincing as she said, “o-oh. Of course.”
She made her way around the panopticon, hearing Fuuta pace his cell in anticipation. He must have felt it too, this holding of breath.
Or perhaps not. He turned down her offer for a bit of company, including a few more colorful words than Amane had. Mahiru just apologized for bothering him and headed back to her cell. She wasn’t sure where Mikoto was at this hour, but she didn’t feel like smiling through a third rejection.
She shook her head back and forth. She wished the motion could rattle the voices inside, she wished she could shake them all away. With her arms secured in place she could no longer cover her ears. She used to hum to keep them at bay, but lately they’d been too loud to stifle. They just kept on talking.
Their words told her the two were right. Nobody needed her company. No – nobody wanted it. Being together hadn’t helped her boyfriend. In fact, being together had been the very thing that got him killed. No wonder Amane and Fuuta wanted to avoid her.
So then, this was for the best. She would rather deal with the brief sting of refusal than stumble in one day to find them hurt… or worse. As much as she tried to avoid the superstition of it all, the voices reminded her that her very presence could mean life or death.
“Mappi, are you alright?” Mahiru hadn’t realized a tear had slipped down her cheek until she hurried to swipe it away in front of Yuno.
“Hah, I’m fine! Just fine.” It was impossible to fool her, Mahiru had learned, but that never stopped her from trying.
At least she always spoke tactfully. “Rough morning?”
Mahiru shifted her arms in her uniform, making a small sound of agreement.
“Can I do anything to help? What if I stay with you for a bit? I can do your hair, and…”
The voices were right. Amane and Fuuta knew it, too. Presences did hold power, and Mahiru’s was cursed.
But she would sound foolish admitting such a fear to Yuno. She'd heard plenty from the voices about how stupid and airheaded she was, there was no use in getting the same lecture from someone as grounded as her.
Mahiru managed a weak protest, unable to explain her real reasoning. Yuno was insistent. She didn’t give much of a choice. Could she feel the strangeness of the prison, as well?
At last, Mahiru allowed her shoulders to sag. Yuno was lucky. And kind. Having her nearby would do her good. Amane and Fuuta would be alright. Mahiru had tried spending more time with them after verdicts were announced. Now, she made a mental note to pull back. If her love couldn’t save anyone, at least she could spare them from her curse. They would be safe.
“Yes. Please stay. The truth is... I don't want to be alone.”
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Non-Breath Oblige
Bisky was a good, calculated choice. Alluka and Nanika both love Leorio, and Killua does too, not that he’d admit it out loud to the old man, but Leorio couldn’t fight them. He would try, but Killua doesn’t want anything to happen to Leorio. If worse came to worse, and he has to confront his family…
Alluka likes Bisky too.
“Thanks…”
The air just feels so tight and heavy. He can’t breathe, he doesn’t want to breathe, but it’s a necessity. Bisky tilts her head towards him, and he just freezes. His own hands aren’t his, and his feet aren’t his, and he can’t ground himself to anything.
“I’m sorry.”
Of course, she’s disappointed; why wouldn’t she be? Why wouldn’t anyone be?
He grips the fabric of his shirt, the fibers itching against his skin; as he tilts his head up, the sun blinding, he can’t breathe. His throat burns, his head pounds, and he blinks back the tears.
“I…“
“I-I couldn’t do it.”
So hit him for it. Punish him for failing. It’s the least he deserves. He’s a failure of an heir… failure of a friend… maybe they were right to hurt him. Maybe he should’ve never left home… his father was right. Bisky was right. Everyone was right. But he can’t go back. Seeing Alluka and Nanika happy…
He loves them.
He hates himself.
“Sorry.”
He tries to be as blunt as possible, but his voice wavers and tears roll down his cheeks.
“Sorry… it took me so long… but I kept my promise…”
He left Gon’s side.
He slumps down to the floor, tugging at the ends of his sleeves. It won’t hurt. Not compared to how much he feels like he’s drowning. Like his lungs will never get a breath.
The pain doesn’t come, just a firm but gentle hand resting on his head.
“I am the one who is sorry, Killua. I failed you both as a mentor.”
His skin itches. He’s gonna drown. He’s gonna drown.
“N-no… I…”
It’s not your fault. His whole life, he’s been told he doesn’t deserve friends. Shouldn’t have them. They were right. He should’ve listened.
“I just…”
He wished he had listened. His own body is fighting him and tearing him apart. Some part really wishes he had left. Then maybe he wouldn’t feel this pain! Maybe it’s selfish… but if he had just left. Gone back home… Illumi could stick more needles in him, and he’d just forget it all. Forever… But he can’t do that to them. His sisters. He would’ve never remembered… if he had gone. He wants them to have a fun life…
It just hurts so much sometimes. He feels like he’ll die.
“I… I’m sorry.”
He whispers in a breathy voice, biting down on his lip till he can taste copper.
“If that is what you feel you need to say, but Killua… It is not your fault. I am sorry I put that burden on you.”
Her words have a sternness to him that runs cold to his very bone, but her fingers hold a gentleness, resting in his locks of hair and playing with them.
He supposes they are the same.
Liars. And terrible at expressing themselves. But he knows she cares.
“Thanks, old hag.”
She doesn’t hit him for once.
。・:*:・゚★,。・:*:・゚☆ 。・:*:・゚★,。・:*:・゚☆
He’s drowning.
The cold metal railing of the balcony is harsh against his feet, the wind whipping and hitting his bare legs, pain tingling right down his spine, a shiver coursing through his body. It felt like a harsh whip against his legs. He stares blankly at the light scars, wrapping his arms around himself.
The sun is coming up.
He looks down.
Just do it! He wants to do it! He can’t take it anymore!
Everyone! Everyone would have been happier! If he’d just never been born…
Everyone… All those people he was forced to kill. Gon. Gon. Gon would’ve been happier if he had never been born. Gon might’ve died with Kite, but what if he didn’t…? And it was all his fault. His fault. Everyone would be happier.
Maybe even Illumi. Maybe Illumi would be less twisted. Maybe Alluka and Nanika would’ve never been locked up… his fault…
Gotoh…
He can’t-
He wants to die.
Killua can’t anymore; once he dies… can he breathe again?
He falls backward, landing on the balcony, pain crashing through his body and breaking at his ankle. He sits up shakily, breathing heavily, and tears blur his vision; he can’t tell if he broke it; he can only see the mix of red and purple against his pale skin. Everything hurts too much to tell… he can’t. He’s gonna die. He hates it.
He can’t-
He digs his fingers into his hair, pulling and tugging, sobbing.
“Hey, buddy. Hey.”
Leorio…
Everything feels distant except his voice and warm, kind hands gently prying his fingers from his hair.
He’s so selfish. How could he…? Leorio already lost a friend, and Alluka… and Nanika… it just hurt so much-
“…’m sorry…”
imsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorry
“Hey. Hey. It’s okay, buddy.”
Killua recognizes the texture of the chalk that Leorio pushes into his hand; he hated it originally; it made his skin itch, he just wanted to scratch and scratch until he bled, but now there’s a comfort to it, and a weight that makes him feel like he is here.
“Why don’t you draw me a nice picture, okay, buddy?”
“…okay…”
A small breath into his lungs.
Leorio always treats him like a child. Killua doesn’t hate it. When he’s done, and it looks no better than a five-year-olds, and he sniffs and rubs his sleeve under his nose, Leorio just pats his head and tells him it’s amazing and takes a photo on his phone.
Killua’s not stupid; he knows it’s a way for Leorio to keep track of when he does this…
“…’m sorry…”
He doesn’t deserve Leorio.
He doesn’t complain ever, and even when Killua buries his face in Leorio’s pajamas or his expensive suits and cries, he never minds.
“Hey. Don’t apologize, buddy. You don’t ever have to apologize for being you to me. I love you.”
“I-I love y-you t-too.”
He can barely say it between hiccuping, but he means every word.
。・:*:・゚★,。・:*:・゚☆ 。・:*:・゚★,。・:*:・゚☆
“You’re doing that on purpose!”
The screeching of his best friend makes him laugh.
Killua takes another bite of the takoyaki, grinning.
“Oh, come on, no, I’m not. Besides… everyone knows you’re the best squid!”
Killua looks down, smiling and placing his skewer to the side, his red friend's eyes widening and filling with tears.
“D-do you mean that?”
“Of course I do.”
He smiles softly, swinging his legs back and forth, letting the edge of his sandals hit the cement.
“Killua. Gon is going to be here. Will you be okay?”
A cold slender hand rests on his shoulder, and he kicks some of the dirt, inhaling. Shouldn’t he be asking her that instead? She was obsessed with Gon once. Maybe that’s another reason… they somehow ended up friends.
“Palm. I’ll be fine…”
She sits beside him quietly with a pensive look as she covers one of her eyes.
“They will be arriving soon.”
“Yeah...”
Iklago jumps up, sitting on his other side, placing a tentacle-like hand on his knee.
They sit in silence. But it’s all Killua needs.
。・:*:・゚★,。・:*:・゚☆ 。・:*:・゚★,。・:*:・゚☆
“You look pretty, big brother!”
Killua gingerly takes the straw hat from his sister's fingers, admiring the pink ribbon around it. Joy pushes up in his chest, and he smiles, placing it on his head. It complements the long white sundress he is wearing, with the tiny pink lace in the front tied in a bow.
“Thanks, Alluka, Nanika; I love it.”
He stands up on his tiptoes, patting her dark locks before letting his feet sink into the sand. Everytime he sees them; his heart just fills with so much pride and joy. All the suffering in his life was worth it, just for that.
She puts on her own hat, the ribbon split in colors, red and blue, and marches off, humming.
Killua guesses he better go too.
He feels the ocean pulling him in again…
Killua looks over at the waves crashing down, grabbing the top of his hat as the breeze picks up.
He’s okay.
。・:*:・゚★,。・:*:・゚☆ 。・:*:・゚★,。・:*:・゚☆
“Woahhh! Killua, you look really pretty!”
Gon still has that same smile. Those same warm eyes. And he’s saying things that should make Killua’s stomach twist and his heartbeat flurry. It’s Gon. It’s Gon. The anxiety, the thought would drown him…
It doesn’t. He swims up past it.
Gon’s smile… his words… him… Killua doesn’t feel any anxiety. Sadness. Fear. Butterflies. He doesn’t feel anything.
He smiles; a polite one. Not like the ones he gives Alluka and Nanika, or Ikalgo and Palm, or Leorio.
“Thanks.”
He turns on his heel, looking as Ikalgo jumps up and down.
“Killua! Come on!”
He takes a step forward in the sand, running forward, laughing, letting the breeze whip up his dress and tangle his hair, and...
He doesn’t look back.
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