#i felt okay on tuesday

[dummerjan]

i am so done with covid but sadly covid isn't yet done with me

#i felt okay on tuesday #but yesterday i woke up worse #today feels like a haze #i keep forgetting that there was a night inbetween #it #is all kinda blurring together right now #and i am so exhausted i can't even focus on anything #neither a series nor fanfiction #i keep reading like 1 or 2k words before i have to take a break listen to some music and try to get back to it #and i sitll have a bit of a temperature and now appetite #i should probably eat but ugh... i don #t even want anything #plus stuffy nose is the worst #meins #sooo exhausted but i also can't sleep #and its only half past 2 #i want the day to be over

[sea-buns]

ive had a horrible day. like fucking god awful. i thought it was tuesday. i open dropout thinking maybe ill watch a silly little game changer cuz frankly i dont even feel like existing rn

AND ITS NEW FHJY DAY?

WHERE THE FUCK DID MY WEEK GO?!

#recently ive also considered buying a physical calendar and this has only cemented that idea #what did they do with monday and tuesday are they okay #ive got such a post-mental breakdown migraine thank god there's no cr tomorrow lol #cuz idek if i can watch my silly emotional support millennials rn #its the episode where they introduce the stress mechanics guys #is it still silly funny jokes? will i be laughing today? or will we be hitting even closer to home this evening? #clicking on a d20 episode has never felt like such a gamble. this entire season needs a content warning. true horror. #sea rambles #d20 #fhjy #<- for my own organization needs. apologies to the main tags

[burger-goblin]

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#ok so this is probably gross and v tmi but y'all have been here long enough to know there's somethin wrong with me #just showered for the first time since last tuesday and i feel so good #the meds are still kicking my ass as i acclimate and i've felt very shitty and weak and faint for the last week and a half #but i feel okay rn!! gonna try cleaning a bit because we finally got the dryer fixed and i get to sleep on freshly washed and dried sheets😭 #ty to everyone that's been reaching out and supporting me. i'm still looking fot work and still trying my best!!! #TB is doing a great job at punching through all my intrusive thoughts and mania

[lexkent]

once again worked 12 hours today and have work to 12 hours tomorrow and 12 the next day, and my friend just text me and asked if she could stay with me this weekend and I couldn't say no, so now I have to clean my apartment and be social and be a host all weekend

#i warned her it was messy and she said it was okay #but it's not and im so tired! #i worked monday and tuesday too despite being shorter shifts they felt like 12 hours as well #i wanted the weekend to myself so badly #text

[collecting--stardust]

Triage is such an interesting topic I felt like I'm not even studying and instead reading on a random topic I'm accidentally hyperfixate on

#yeah i studied earlier than usual because apparently theres a lot of topics that will be covered on the test on tuesday #and its worth 30% and while i stop caring much about grades im not trying to take any risk of failing a class #plus next week ill be too busy with all the assessments so yeah better start early especially when ik ill be dead when i get to ventilator #extensive care is really not my interest i dread the practicum so bad ugh #ANYWAY yknow i wonder how doctors during war felt declaring a soldier they are close to as morgue and just move on to the next soldier #okay idk shit about history or how treatment work back then or if cpr is already invented or no but damn #after all humans have feelings and if i were to see someone i really cared about i would try to resuscitate them no matter what #hmmm the lore i could create... interesting #i swear ill write a medical related stuff one day because i dont suffer sitting through lectures and going to practicum to not utilize it #personal.txt

[the-velvet-worm]

thinking abt Vex getting back from Pandemonium and realizing she’s pregnant and just. feeling so many things because they’ve just saved the world ⎯ again ⎯ and she just lost Vax, and he would’ve been the first person she told (after Percy, of course) and he would’ve been so excited and happy for her and it would’ve given them so much to look forward to but he’s gone and there’s nothing she can do about it, she can’t tell him, her kids will never know their uncle, and it’s just a lot for someone to handle so soon after everything they all literally just went through. like how is she supposed to be take in such news when the other half of her soul is missing now? she still has Percy, her husband, her heart, but the one constant throughout her entire life is gone and she just. idk probably felt really lonely for a bit there. to have the knowledge that she was experiencing something so wonderful and joyful with the man she loves, while she’s mourning the fact that her brother won’t be a part of any of it is just... really fuckin sad, man lol

#I'm still very much in my feels abt this and I may or may not be exploring that through fic so stay tuned for that #critical role #cr1 #cr1 spoilers #critical role spoilers #vex'ahlia #vax'ildan #percy de rolo #perc'ahlia #and like yes this is something that has been explored by others through writing but let me have this okay lol #I haven't written anything i felt passionately about in a really long time and channeling my grief in a creative way is like #super cathartic for me #so I kinda just need a little bit of closure/catharsis before I can move on #and maybe it'll be an extended thing idk #but I'm just having a lot of feelings about the twins and their relationship and Vax's death and and and #anyway I hope it's a lovely Tuesday! #mine probably won't be skdjfksf

[bunnyb34r]

Okay finally awake/brain awake enough to talk ab Tuesday

So mom and I went to see Ghostbusters Frozen Empire. The last time she was at the movies was when we saw frozen lol so like 10 years ago (😩) anyway she was really excited 🥺 We ofc got snacks and thankfully I get 20% off snacks bc that shit is so stupidly pricey and we just had: 1 large popcorn, 1 large pop, 1 large icee = $20.

$16 with discount

We were in the reeeeally big theater and I was like oh well let's sit in row J which is like 2 rows from the back... we were walking up these stairs for what felt like forEVER sgdgdggdgd I forgot how big that theater is 😭

Anyway the movie was really good, super funny I loved Trevor's character and Phoebe was adorable. (Cast was uh... very white like there's like 3 nonwhite characters in the general cast.) Lots of flashing lights, which is kinda to be expected for Ghostbusters.

The StayPuff Marshmallow Men were so fucking funny I almost started crying laughing at the one part 😭

Story was interesting, funny cast (again could be.. better), the climax really couldve been better imo but it was good still. Anyway super fun time! I'm glad we went

Oh! And in the trailers they announced that every Monday in May is gonna be one of the spiderman movies like the first from each series so I can finally see TASM in theaters like I saw TASM2!!!!!!!! :D like a decade later....

Idk if I'm gonna see the marvel ones, but I do wanna see the Tobey McGuire one and ofc the andrew Garfield one

I'll just move hair washing day or deal sgdgdggd bc spiderman!!!

Also we went to cracker barrel after and I found the beanie baby Zip and I wanted to cry bc shes so perfect. I've been looking for a black cat with white paws plushie since our cat died and although zip has white on her tail, she looks enough like her that its perfect 🥺

We also found solar eclipse glasses!!!! I thought I was gonna have to dig up my old ones from 2017 and hope I found em or rush ship an amazon order (bc I've been having executive disfunction and delayed it...) but we got em!!

All in all it was a really great day :")

#marquilla #i know its Thursday agdggdgd okay i had no energy tuesday and Wednesday i felt shitty and didnt wanna rhink3 #think* i played acnh aaaalll day yesterday like 12 hours off snd on shdhdhdhdhd #we had so much fun at the movies though it was really nice 😭 i was thinking when we were watching that my dad would have liked the movie #and i kinda pretended like we were all there watching a movie as a family which was a rare treat growing up :') #he def would need earbuds though bc it was loud in the theater but i was thinking that he would have had a fun time if he was still here #anyway the cast was fun but yeah there was like 3 nonwhite people iirc: the og ghostbuster idr his name. lucky. and raheem. like that's it.. #patton Oswalt was in it and he was hilarious as hell and i think slimer has an asscrack??? like a John lennon up the back crack??? #anyway i reccomend it 4.5/5 #mom liked the reclining theater seats sgdggdgd i was like yeah these used to be imax only seating (i snuck in to one shhhh) but when they #did the remodel they gave all the theaters them idk how the imax seats are now if theyre different sggdgdgd but these are nice

[yangjeongin]

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#had one of those days that was just fawking awful for no reason like just felt like garbage the entire day #looked at the syllabus and workload for the online class i start tuesday and #it is soooososososo much work. and i'm already kinda behind on work at my FULL TIME JOB so i'm like. there's no way in hell #i can get a decent grade in this class and keep my job at the same time while not wanting to die #it's an eight week class so there are like six assignments due per week and the due dates are on weekdays so it'll be so hard #to use my usual 'finish the assignment the day before it's due' strat #so i just told my parents i was like idk if i can do this y'all. and they were both okay w me potentially dropping it #so long as i take 16 week classes from here on out #so it's going to take me two extra years to graduate after it's already taken me four for a TWO YEARS ASSOCIATES DEGREE #that's on the physical and mental health issues. #but the good news is. if i do drop this class and have a break this semester then aslkfdlskdg #hyunjin birthday countdown: back on! winnable! #i'm working on the most complicated set of the countdown now hoping it doesn't make me too exhausted for the others asjflasjldg #still a bit less than halfway done #anyways. time to go to bed so i can wake up and try to function at work tomorrow #carly.txt

[chaoticeddie]

snowed all day today 🙃✌️

#i was okay driving to work cause it hadn't started yet #but god. driving home? #I came so close to parking somewhere and asking my parents to come pick me up #I know it probably would have been safer and easier to get on the highway #but after I was in that accident last december where I slid on ice getting on the highway and totaled my car #I just couldn't make myself get on the highway #the side streets were so bad though it really felt like they didn't treat the roads at all #even though we've known it was gonna snow since like tuesday #I wouldn't have gone to work except I had to feed the cats and no one else was gonna be available #anyway #cried the whole way home #and it took me legit an hour and a half to drive what should have taken me MAYBE 25 minutes #and then I got into my apartment's parking lot #and pulled into a parking spot #and got stuck in the snow two feet out of the spot #so my dad and my brother and my sister's boyfriend had to come and push my car those last two feet #and then I had a panic attack when I got inside and now I'm exhausted yay #fun stuff! #I will not be doing this again

[lestatslestits]

✨i feel like shit again✨

#i started getting sick on tuesday #felt mostly okay by friday #but i keep ??? randomly feeling bad again???? #just like #nauseous #and very low energy #and just overall gross #when will it end #i have stuff to do

[inmydrcams]

I am so done with being kind of sick in a way that mostly manifests as random bouts of tiredness

#medical cw #that said I will be back at work tuesday and fingers crossed for me that it doesn't send me straight back to the doctor #cause last tuesday I thought I was okay and went into work wednesday #and felt like I was dying #( ;; we don't vibe with fanon )

[tiixij]

my physics grade.......

#felt okay about the test i took last tuesday but i got a 66 on it 😭 #that might be because i wasnt there for the whole momentum unit but ill never know bc we dont get them back #anyways i hate. like friction and momentum and torque and shit why cant we learn about particles

[queer-crusader]

Man I've run right out of spoons. Fucking despise shopping. Never again. Goodbye free time for the next 2 weeks now apart from MAYBE the coming weekend, wish me luck lads

#tuesday is gonna be my one comfort day bc i get to commit minor arson and put it out AND i'll be home on time #the arson is paid by work too!! it's part of the safety training i chose to do which has been a fucking BLAST #but yeah after that the best i get is the weekend bc i get to go home to scotland for 3 days #except it's for a wedding near Perth so a) not in Edinburgh and b) idk what my schedule will be or if i get chill downtime or what #man i do love referring to scotland as home tho 🥺 saying im going home just now was like giving myself a wee hug #like i need to do that regularly. reaffirm. how do i feel about Edinburgh? yup - still home ❤️ #genuinely (okay mini tangent here) the first time i returned after being forced to leave everything behind? i was so frightened #i feared i would resent the country for forcing me out. that i would only ever feel bitter again as i wandered its streets and landscapes #except the second i left haymarket station and saw the familiar streets i broke down sobbing #it was still familiar. it was still home. #i felt so fucking much in that moment #scotland has always been a choice. going there. staying there. wanting to build my future there #i had to consciously make that decision every year. even more so when brexit hit #i had to start figuring out what i wanted to do with passports. with residence status. with my future and identity #brexit and politics made me think and choose over and over again. i had to fight to validate my feelings to myself. i battled panic attacks #so yeah. going home to scotland #im still choosing. im still affirming. im still feeling #anne speaks #i really went off topic lmao but ah well fuck it #anyway no spoons left im gonna collapse a bit and maybe do some archaeology in elder scrolls. dig up wee artifacts. vibe

[bittersweetblasphemy]

NOT AGAIN

#guess who has the fucking rona again #10 minutes with my mother in law #both of us are vaxed #both of us were fine and magically felt sick on the same day #just found out bc she text my hubs she was positive and he took a home test #god DAMNIT #bruh i had so many fucking chores to run #i was okay with putting them off until maybe Monday or Tuesday #but now my ass is gonna be stuck at home god dammit #i cant do another week of not being able to stand more than 5 minutes before having to lay down due to lack of oxygen #this is fucking hell #i HATE #IM SO FUCKING SICK OF PEOPLE ACTING LIKE THIS IS NOTHING #WHY COULDN'T PEOPLE JUST WEAR A MASK AND QUARANTINE FROM THE GODDAMN BEGINNING #NOW WE STILL GOTTA DEAL WITH THIS BULLSHIT #vent #anger spiral

[catchmewjsn]

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#omg im so pissed #ive been feeling bad for monday and Tuesday...had some stomach issues etc and then i felt okay yesterday and today i have a sore throat and #idk if i wont get a cold 😭😭 and im supposed to go visit my grandad tomorrow for 3 days.....and like #o dont really feel sick but it can change ig and i dotn want to go sick anywhere ofc :////

[foldingfittedsheets]

Buckle up for another unhinged story time. Now, as I’ve said before, I used to work at a sex shop. At one point I had three roommates and we all worked the same dildo slinging retail job and lived together. It was extremely sitcom.

Now, as you’d imagine, living with three other people who also talked about sex toys all day created a microcosm of people who were all extremely comfortable around sex toys and related topics. No one left dirty toys laying around but seeing things left in showers or showing off a new purchase was just a Tuesday.

After some life upheavals I ended up living with one of those roommates again, just me and her. For the sake of this story let’s call her Betty. Betty and I shared a two bedroom, and the layout was all the common spaces were an open floor plan and then one hallway formed a T, with my room and bathroom to the left and Betty’s to the right.

Well, one day my cousin calls me up. He’s coming to town for a visit and I offer to put up him, his wife, and their more… sheltered friend. (Unbeknownst to me there was a full Briefing for this girl before she met me so that I didn’t overwhelm her with my blasé attitudes towards- well, most things).

They drove in from two states over and it was a long drive. I had to work and couldn’t greet them or spend the first day together. So I told them to come grab my key so they could all shower off and settle in before me.

I arrived home later that night and found the atmosphere a little awkward at first. Things quickly warmed up and I charmed their friend, impressing my cousin with my immaculate respect for personal comfort levels. We had a lovely evening. By the time we all said goodnight I’d dismissed the initial tension as being tired after a long drive.

The next day we all decided to go to the zoo. I’m a morning shower person, but I let them go first while I made breakfast. After breakfast it was my turn and I hopped in the shower.

Midway through my eyes fixed on it. A little pink sex toy, sitting brazenly on the rim of the tub. Oh no, I thought. This was why things had been awkward yesterday! I left out a personal object because I’d literally forgotten to ever put them away by that point.

What I felt wasn’t embarrassment per se, because that emotion had been utterly eradicated by that point. Rather it was a deep shame that I’d leave out something that might make a guest feel uncomfortable. They told me their friend was sheltered and I had left out a sex toy, it was the epitome of rudeness!

I rejoined everyone and said, “I am so sorry! I didn’t realize I’d left that in the shower, that was so rude of me!”

My guests all exchanged a Look. I looked from my cousin to his wife, she glanced toward their friend, and their friend looked at my cousin. No one would look at me.

“Well…” my cousin finally said, “you didn’t tell us which room was yours yesterday.”

I blinked in confusion, Betty’s room and bathroom were basically just like mine.

“When we got here,” his wife continued, “we went to the other side first. In Betty’s bathroom.”

Reader, Betty’s bathroom.

Had been absolutely covered in dildos. Sex toys of all shapes and sizes covered every flat surface, the tub rim, the sink, the shelves. Wall to wall sex toys. Apparently Betty was doing a spring cleaning and had left her entire extensive collection out to air dry.

These three weary travelers had opened a door to the dildo dimension and had no idea how to react. To this day I have no idea what context clues they used to figure out Betty’s room from mine.

But when I’d come home they were lost in the sex toy shell shock, presumably wondering how they could ever talk about it with someone who felt it was okay to leave out every sex toy they own when expecting company in some kind of bizarre power play.

By the time they finished telling me about this we were all laughing so hard we were in tears.

“When we saw your bathroom with one little pink toy it was so discreet we didn’t even care!” They told me.

After my cousin and his crew had gone on their way I finally told Betty the whole story. She listened with eyes growing wider and wider and finally burst out, “That’s why they were so weird when I got home!!”

#ramblies #funny #story #writing #nsft #ffs foibles