#i just needed a second to be a bitch and vent

[blazichu]

Oh, right. I stopped visiting that person's blog because, even if they have good taste, they're insufferable.

#blaztalk #don't worry if you see this #it's not you #i just needed a second to be a bitch and vent

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

does anyone have any tips on how not to be a crippling perfectionist about your writing?? i have been staring at the same five paragraphs of the next chapter of four walls for a whole week and i've reached the point where i actually want to defenestrate my own laptop

#i've got the later parts of this chapter and a good chunk of the next one basically done #but this particular section is slowly driving me insane #UGH #why do i write characters with complex and conflicted emotions #it makes for a very complex and conflicted writing experience #(which i'm bitching about rn i know but i also wouldn't give it up for the world. it's just. a lot sometimes) #i end up second guessing myself constantly #also i haven't written anything this long for a good five years and i think the challenges of that #and the challenges of making a longer piece all tie together and work as one are really starting to set in #anyway sorry please feel free to ignore this mess of a post #i just needed to have a vent before returning to my keyboard and trying to make sense of alex's foolish little head #thanks to anyone who read their way though all this rambling 😅 #writing stuff #lulu posts

[the-autumn-apple-artworks]

University ever pushes you so low you have to go buy a couple of beers? /srs/neg

I'm gonna vent in the tags for a moment humor me for once /gen

#No but I'm serious this place is a nightmare /neg #Venting in the tags #humor me for a second. you go to this uni and they promise you a place that will teach you how to become an artist #on both like. morality and skill level. they feed you with bullshit for MONTHS. “oh mistakes are fine! they make you grow!” #or “oh this is a community we work all together there are no discriminations this is a safe place to learn and improve” #and we like. work on this projects - THAT WE ARE NOT PAID TO WORK FOR SO *WE* GET TO PAY FOR ALL THE MATERIALS AND SHIT FOR THEM. #to like “help the community” or whatevrr because “artists are born to inspire others and bring joy” and blah blah blah. BUT. LIKE. THE THING #THE THING IS. NONE OF THESE PROJECTS WILL END UP ON OUR CURRICULUMS. WHAT WE WORK 6-7 YEARS FOR ARE NOT SEEN AS REAL EXPERIENCES. #AS IF WE'VE DONE LITERALLY NOTHING FOR 6-7 YEARS. AND LIKE. THE PROFESSORS ARE SO RACIST AND DISCRIMINATORY AS WELL. #If they don't like you they WON'T EVEN GIVE YOU THE EXAM. BECAUSE THERE'S NO WAY TO DEMONSTRATE IF YOU WORKED OR NOT. IT'S UP TO THEM. #THEY DECIDE EVERYTHING FOR EVERYONE AS IF WE ARE SOME SORT OF FUCKING COMMUNIST KINDA BULLSHIT WORKERS. #Someone fucks up? *WE* FUCK UP AND EVERYONE PAYS. Someone succeeds? *WE* SUCCEED AND EVERYONE GETS THE CREDITS. #THIS IS ALSO WHY NONE OF THE WORKS WE DO END UP IN OUT CURRICULUM BECAUSE ITS MADE SO THAT *THE UNIVERSITY COURSE* DID IT AND NOT *US*. #IT'S FUCKING BULLSHIT AND I CAN'T EVEN GET OUT OF THERE BECAUSE IF I DO MY PARENTS WILL KICK ME OUT CUZ THEY DON'T WANT ME TO BE AN ARTIST #So I'm trying to STUDY for the exams and the “professors” are getting mad at me that I'm not staying 10 HOURS IN THAT MOTHERFUCKING ART LAB. #WORKING AT THEIR NONSENSE PROJECTS THAT WILL NOT END UP IN MY CURRICULUM. #“Oh if you're not willing to put all your efforts for the course this is not the place for you” BITCH I *AM* PUTTING ALL MY EFFORTS! #THIS EXAM IS *LITERALLY* PART OF THE COURSE!! WHAT KIND OF FUCKING BULLSHIT ARGUMENT IS THAT!!!!! #Istg I'm gonna cry I want to kms /NOT SERIOUS #I'm gonna cook dinner. chug my lemon beer. and try to study like a normal person and beg this shit will end soon #Don't worry I'm not going to become an alcoholic I just need something. anything and I'm ABSOLUTELY not gonna start smoking I hate it /srs #tw alchohol mention #alcohol mention #tw smoking mention #smoking mention #vent #tw vent #// mike speaks

[bigmeansweatydyke]

google search how to stop being so autistic because i'm apparently ruining my friendships by acting like an asshole and having no idea and i'm already so fucking exhausted

#my post #vent #like i don't think people get it lol #how fucking exhausting it is to have a million programs open in my head every time i have a fucking conversation #how i leave every fucking conversation wondering if everyone thinks i'm a massive dick #and it turns out that wow i was right to think that! just when i think i'm doing better apparently no i'm not! #it feels like the rules change every second and i don't know how everyone can just fucking GET it #like i'm trying i'm really fucking trying and apparently i'm not trying hard enough even though i'm so fucking tired #saw someone discuss this #how she feels the constant processing and the feeling over never being able to catch up is why autistic people kill themselves #and honestly yeah i agree because how the fuck am i supposed to fucking live like this #i dunno i'm just. tired #being like this just makes me want to not speak to anyone #hell maybe people would prefer it that way #i don't blame them i just wish people would understand it's so goddamn fucking hard and i'm so tired all the time #idk i'm being a lil bitch right now and i don't know what to do i just needed to vomit this out #peace and love and back to our regularly scheduled programming

[iricathel]

Remind me not to trust anyone from my work place again, please

#lil vent #like fr a gal just tries to not have trust issues and it always will be the “good vibes only” bitches fr sjsjsjsj #and never make friends in your workplace either #like don't get me wrong; i have a bestie there too that I know I can trust with all my life #but the second you see they start war if you just do your job even though it could affect them; RUN 🚩🚩🚩 #like fr bitch I need to risk my work just to save your ass??? hell nah. #admin's trashy shenanigans #admin lina

[fecto-forgo]

youd assume being able to fix my mood by just eating smth sweet would be easier than this but no bc SOMEONES BOYFRIEND fucking ate EVERYTHING SWEET WE HAD LEFT

#LISTEN HERE YOU FUCKING SON OF A BITCH HALF THE REASON I SURVIVE LIVING W YOU IS I CRAM SWEET THINGS #DOWN MY THROAT TO FORCE MY DOPAMINE TO GO UP N YOU CANT EVEN LET ME FUCKING HAVE THAT? #I THINK YOURE FORGETTING I HAVE THE FULL POWER TO GET YOU KICKED OUT THE SECOND I DECIDE ALL THE DRAMA #FROM THAT WILL BE MORE WORTH THAM TOLERATING YOU.WHERE THE FUCK IS THE COOKIES PACKAGE I LEFT IN THE #BROKEN FRIDGE.HUH? HUH DO YOU FUCKING NEED TO EAT EVERY COUPLE HOURS #EAT YOUR OWN FUCKING PILE OF JUNK ITS LITERALLY ON THE OPPOSITE OF WHERE YOU FOUND MY DAMN PACK OF COOKIES #BITCH. #ok vent over sowwy 🩷🩷🩷 im just not coping particularly well today n iii RLY NEEDED THAT SWEET BOOST!!! #analiceoriginal.txt #those packages last.two days.he ate my two days dopamine fix in 10 minutes while i wasnt looking.why me god.why.is this punishment? #have i sinned? have you left me? what have i done wrong? why me lord? why?

[buryam-soul]

Do i succumb to the temptation..... Do i rb someone's post to argue with them........

#someone on the hi tag said 'lol the gi and hsr fans fighting over worst female character designs when we know they both suck'-- #'we all know hoyo can't design female characters period' #-- and went on to say (in the TAGS btw not the main post) 'that's why I'll never try honkai impact i can tell its all oversexualized there' #like bitch. first of all. if you weren't gonna even bring it up in the post itself why use the proper tag?? you know we can see it now right #AND SECOND #most hua battlesuits would like a word. as do delta. bronie. kongming. ranger? bladestrike? snowy sniper? 6th serenade? HoR HoTr HoS?? #there's enough that trying to list them would be tedious #and like. hsr and genshin also. have some good female designs?? that's why the fanbases know hoyo can do better??? #yknow what maybe i just needed to type this out and vent. or maybe i'll look at the honkai impact tag again later and get tempted once more #who knows at this point

[saltybiowarefantears]

the dream: fantastical yearning to own a small little farm for gardening and raising some animals

the reality: needs to take a two hour break after pruning some raspberries because my body feels like jello

#i hate it here akdkadk #yeah yeah i can't even maintain what i have let alone MORE but i can dreamy sigh #maybe if the second half of this physical therapy regiment does wonders #which considering i couldn't even prune raspberries last year really ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ #i'll take what i can get #this condition sucks because it's just annoying and gets in the way #“oh i feel malaised from exertion and my heart is fluttering in my chest!” #ok dramatic victorian bitch we get it but i still need to wash the dishes #salty rambles #medical vent #kinda

[petitgalaxy]

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#i ran out of tags on the last post AJSJSJS #SO i cant close my eye or use my mouth as well as i normally can and my eye hurts like a bitch #dr gave me 1) a second round of antibiotics 2) swimmer’s ear meds which my parents had to pay for out of pocket (like $90!!!) #3) steroids for the paralysis 4) yeast infection meds bc last time i got one #5) artificial tears to keep my eye nice n lubed up since it can’t CLOSE #so now i’m all full of meds that are making my stomach hurt a fuck ton and fucking with my appetite and making me hot and flushed and angry #i can’t see super well and i cant hear out of the one ear literally at all so stuff like retail job and lab work with classmates are hard #i’m exhausted and sick and have no motivation for schoolwork which I already was struggling w as a result of autistic burnout and PDA #i also do think that this is a hilarious set of unfortunate circumstances and yesterday i was very giggly abt it but today i’m just pissed #i can’t sleep well under the best of circumstances and tonight i rly cant #i tried to go to bed early bc i’m so tired and i need to force myself to go to classes tomorrow since i’ve been skipping a lot of them #my profs know abt the issues btw but :))) academia is hell if you’re at all sick or disabled or having mental health problems or whatever #no room for flexibility or adaptation in my experience #anyway i just wanted to vent for a while!!! #i am not in danger or anything and i’m not a threat to myself or others or anything scary #just frustrated and sick #the paralysis should go away within weeks to months 🙃 #for some people it never goes away 🙃 #so fingers crossed #but i am thankful to have meds readily accessible even tho they’re expensive and stupid #that’s all!! time to put my sleep mask back on and try to pass out #i tried taping my eye shut per doc recommendation but it wouldn’t stick #💃🏼💃🏼💃🏼

[heyitslapis]

You kknow, sometimes im overwhelmed or anxious or agitated or whatever else and all i need to calm down it just like 30 minutes to take myself out of the situation. Or to just not be bothered for a little while. But of fucking course my fucking coworker keeps pestering me when i literally told her TWICE that im irratible tonight and normally i can handle just her but itsalmost 3am and im still having guests come up to me for shit when im obviously engrosed in my paperwork and my coworker is stand 4 feet away from me doing jack fucking shit but because the hateful energy she exhudes makes people not want to interact with her unless that absolutely have to (i.e if i walk away from the desk) no one wants to approach her so it falls on me to be the "friendly face of the hotel" fuck me tbh

#Literally been overwhelmed and in a bad mood because of it since like 20 minutes after i clocked in #That was over 3 hours ago & im still in fight/flight mode cause i haven't been able to have a second of peace #I just need to vent/bitch im not usually this hateful at work #like i genuinely like my job and i can tolerate my coworkers pretty easily usually but not tonight ig #IM JUST OVERWHELMED!!! I JUST REALLY NEED TO GO NONVERBAL FOR LIKE AN HOUR!!!! #THATS ALL I NEED! #emma vents #Personal #Work tag

[poptartmochi]

#prefacing this w the very handy #vent cw #negative cw #tags 🌄🍷 i will be a whiny bitch in this post beloveds 🧸😔 #that said. banging my head on the WALLLLLL. i feel like the most useless person alive #every time i think i am doing my job better i fuck up. i cannot do this job well consistently #i am no closer to achieving my actual career goals than i was 5 years ago #i do not have the energy‚ spoons‚ or time to get closer to achieving my career goals #everything that takes everyone else a few days to do at most takes me a few years #i wish i could pause time to do everything i need to do or alternatively drop dead. im so tired of being this way #and the worst part of being this way + being tired of it is that. i am just the blandest guy alive. nothing cool or exciting to talk about #to the family. i just continue fucking along. everybody else is moving forward and i am just stuck. the gap between us grows larger and #larger every day! it's like im a child except im 23. why! #i feel like my options are to get better or die 😑 and of course the second Isn't an option really so i just have to get better #but. 😔 it just feels impossible. i feel like i am running on a hard deficit of like. energy or willpower?? all the time #maybe it is depression or maybe it is so sucks disease but whatever it is.. it is my fucking enemy #sriracha.txt

[atlantis-just-drowned]

No, you are not a terrible person for not exposing yourself to extreme gore imagery from whatever violence is going on in this world. You are not a bad human being for avoiding photographs of cadavers and dead children. You are not someone problematic because you're asking the people around you to not show you videos of literal murders.

Just because you want to be supportive of a social or humanitarian issue doesn't mean you have to expose yourself or others to traumatizing imagery. Yes, you are privileged for not having to witness this violence. No, exposing yourself to this imagery won't lessen your privileges. Yes, you want people to understand the sakes of what's going on in this unfair world. No, traumatizing them won't help anyone.

I think the actual context made a lot of people forget that being exposed to extreme gore imagery is not, and sill never be, something positive, healthy, or productive.

#this is mostly vent tbh #i really spend my time feeling guilty for being uncomfortable with extreme gore imagery about war or genocide #when this is just A HUMAN THING #some of my friends have been showing me images i wish i didn't see about gaza by accident lol #so i just #i guess i needed to rationalize this #i know people are just trying to raise awareness about the situation there but this is not the most productive way to do it #everytime i fall on those pictures I just want to never hear about any of those things again #and then the next second i'm sure to be a horrible person and i just hate myself lmao #in conclusion gore is not the solution bitch #tw death #tw gore #tw killing #tw vent #whispers from atlantis

[flamestar126]

Dentist/teeth venting lol

#turns out i have inflamed gums and the cleaning hurts like a bitch #the dentists are always so rough stabs and leaves me bleeding near the end #told the liquid to clean my mouth was gross then proceed to lift my chair without warning me i ended up swallowing some out of surprise #did x rays and they dig into my gums so bad i literally could taste blood during #“you need to floss more” i dont know how to care of braces! the first day of getting them you guys said ok and sent me off without any info #google doesnt tell you shit as a 17 y/o then questioning me using terms ive never heard of before im not a dentist im confused dumbass ;A;; #they dropped my wire theyre supposed to put back in my mouth and couldnt find it i saw it drop under the counter and struggled to pick it u #also struggled to put a new wire on and spent over 10 min trying to put back my rubber bands #i cant open my mouth bigger than that! my mouth is small im a tiny person please stop stabbing me with those sharp tools every 5 seconds #guess who just found that tiny lost broken wire in mouth as im writing this #when they cut my wire to fit in my mouth they lost them of both sides in my mouth and i could only found one until now #gave me mismatched color bands so i have black and red im not going to open my mouth until i go back loll #took 10 min to put my bands back and struggled so hard they were pacing back n forth and cursing shit motherfuck fuck damn instead 1 min #that part was amusing no matter how long it took them they kept asking if i was okay when i felt like i should be asking them that #my venting is out of order but the first dentist was so apologetic and kind joking with me and trying to calm down when I wasn't nervous #i couldn't stop smiling at their clumsiness but 2nd dentist was rough and wanted to speedrun me it hurt #ive been there for two hours i dont care if youre slow i just want it carefully #left there shaking and bleeding #not my worst experience ngl but doesnt make me feel less shitty #the place i go do not care about me for the almost past 2 years ive been there #my anger left im just being whiny now #flame vents #dentist

[nosyhuman]

#this goddamn family really testing my patience with their stupid ass bullshit #ive already been bottling all the negative emotions for months and they really wanna test that as if poking to see if i blow up #me: expresses negative emotions once —> mom: why do you always have to act so mean :(( #bitch I've been this family's mature adult for years while you and the rest throw temper tantrums every three seconds #while you cry and yell at every inconvenience i have to hold it in because u cannot accept it in a mature way #thank god im moving in 1.5 months #all this venting because i nearly lost my shit at the market with mom #pls ignore i just needed a place to vent ugh #nosy.txt

[hollyseb]

YOU’RE NOT OKAY, YOU’RE SHAKING - oneshot

CEO!Bucky x Reader

Warnings: swearing, violence

just a short one for this week bc I’m in the middle of exams !! as always, please let me know what you thing :)

You’d been working as Bucky's assistant for a couple of weeks. You settled in fairly well, although you had to admit you found him a little intimidating.

You tried your best to stay out of his hair, planting his schedule on his desk before he got into the office, and scurrying out when the clock hit 5. When you did face each other, it often involved you sending him a squeaky “hi” with a small smile, and him shooting you a curt nod.

That’s why when one of Bucky’s clients was rude to you, no… downright nasty, you chose to keep your mouth shut.

Rumlow.

God, you dreaded every time you saw him on Bucky’s meeting schedule.

It started with exaggerated sighs, then emphasised head shaking whenever he laid his eyes on you. It was almost comical, really. You’d snort at his behavior if he didn’t make you feel so conscious. You could feel the dislike roiling from him.

It wasn’t until today though, that he finally let his discontempt be known.

You were acutely aware of your controversial presence at the office. You were much younger than everyone else, pretty too. So when you strolled in with your baby pink sweaters, and the fresh bouquet of flowers on your desk, you knew people were judging you.

You walked out of your office, hands clutching disordered papers, and unfortunately, you weren’t watching where you were going.

You rounded the corner and immediately collided with a wall of muscle. You were opening your mouth to spew out a hastened apology, heat rising in your cheeks, when you were cut off.

“Stupid bitch”, the man muttered, shouldering past you.

You were frozen in place, paralysed by embarrassment, unable to breathe. Your feet carried you back to your office, tears forming in the corner of your eyes. You sat down in your office chair, brushing your hair behind your ears when your office door opened gently.

God no. Your boss had seen the encounter. No, no, no. You were embarrassed enough. You didn’t need Bucky to see you cry. You kept your eyes locked on the floor as he approached you.

“Hey”, his voice much more gentle than you had ever heard it before, “are you okay?” He kneeled at your chair.

“Y-yes, I’m fine really, Bucky”, you shrugged him off, avoiding his eyes. Suddenly feeling conscious at the way he had positioned himself before you.

“Look at me”, he almost sounded like he was pleading with you. He placed a hand on your knee, rubbing small circles with his thumb.

You looked at him through blurry vision, afraid that the waterworks would burst if he paid you any more attention. You wanted to shove him away, to tell him to let you gather yourself, like a professional would. He continued, “you’re not okay, you’re shaking”.

“I just-”, you sighed shakily, “he’s always been like this, y’know just rude…”, Bucky listened intently as you rambled on, his eyes soft and sympathetic. He really listened to you.

When you finished your venting session, you felt undeniably lighter. Bucky’s hand still sitting on your knee. His other hand rose to wipe a stray tear from your cheek. You felt heat rise in your cheeks. You’d never seen this side to Bucky, he was… almost charming.

He cut your thoughts short, “come on, let me drive you home”.

You immediately shook your head, “no, no, I can’t let you do that Bucky, and plus, you’ve got a client waiting”, hinting at Rumlows presence.

“Him?” Bucky cocked an eyebrow at you sarcastically, “he was let go the second he called you stupid”.

You gaped at that, not expecting Bucky to fire one of his most frequent clients. You tried to start reasoning with him, about how one small issue couldn’t interfere with his business.

He interrupted your rambling, “you should’ve told me sooner, really”. He was guiding you up from your chair, placing a hand on your lower back and grabbing your bag for you.

Bucky drove you home, slowly and with care, keeping one hand on your knee the whole time.

When you pulled up to your apartment, your boss got out and opened the passenger door for you. A gentleman, as always. You smiled at that. Maybe your intimidating boss has a soft spot for you.

He ran a hand down your arm, “nobody will ever speak to you like that again. I’ll make sure of it.” His calm demeanor contrasting the grit in his voice. You could tell he would keep his promise.

You didn’t need to know how Bucky sped back to his office and beat Rumlow so hard his jaw broke. More importantly, you didn’t need to know the way Bucky reveled in it. The feeling of protecting you, avenging you. He was drunk on it.

Later that night, you received a bouquet of flowers, and a takeout from your favourite place. A smirk rising on your face… Bucky.

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@kandis-mom

#bucky barnes x reader #bucky x reader #ceo!bucky barnes #sebastian stan

[ambiguousfiction]

Ughhhh

#can my head just shut the fuck up for 5 seconds #i know I'm a dumb dramatic bitch but i really hate how often i make that everyone else's problem #maybe I need a new vent blog or simey tho idk