#i promise yall im fine!!!

[mxlcery]

taking a break from 13 Reasons Why cuz whenever they show Tyler all i can think about is that school bathroom scene 😐

ANYWAYS LOLOLOLOL - sometimes u wanna see ur fav male fortnite skin as a woman 🙃

#diamondchance #yapping #nolan chance #i promise yall im fine!!!

[kaladinkholins]

We all already know Mizu and Akemi are narrative foils. But you know what? Lemme just say it, here's what I think:

Taigen and Mikio are foils.

Not necessarily to each other as individuals in the way that Mizu and Akemi juxtapose each other, but mostly in the contrast between their relationships with Mizu.

I've covered specific parallels between Taigen and Mikio in other posts I wrote; but as the number of parallels I'm noticing between them keeps piling up, I'm compelled to just compile them all in one post. So! This is, thus, the post in question.

First of all, let's look at their similarities.

1. Their status in society is the same. They are both samurai who lost their honour and have dreams of reclaiming it.

2. They are also both diligent as they strive to achieve this goal, they both care deeply about their work, but here as they begin to contrast, as the work in question and way they go about their goals is different:

For Mikio, his work is in taming and rearing horses; in order to prove himself, he must tame Kai—a willful and strong horse—and present it to his lord. For Taigen, his work is in sword fighting and martial arts; in order to prove himself, he must kill Mizu—a willful and strong swordsman—and present her dead body to his lord.

In the parallel above, not only are Taigen and Mikio contrasting each other, but Mizu and Kai are placed in comparison as well. And of course, Kai is Mizu's horse, and represents her. Which is why, when later, Mikio sells Kai off, it represents the way he is tossing Mizu (and their relationship) aside.

From there, the rest of the details of their character begin to contrast and juxtapose each other more clearly. So let's look at those differences, shall we?

Their backstory:

Mikio was a great samurai who was banished. A somebody to a nobody. Taigen was a fisherman’s son who rose to the top. A nobody to a somebody.

2. The first time we meet them on-screen:

Mikio is an adult. An older man. Mizu's superior in age. He is Mizu's to-be husband. A love interest. Taigen is a child. A young boy. Mizu's peer in age. He is Mizu's bully. An antagonist.

3. Their maturity and growth:

Mikio is mature, but stuck in his ways. Taigen is immature, but capable of changing and learning.

4. Their overall attitude:

Mikio is generally relaxed, easy-going and unfussy. Taigen is uptight, irritable and severe.

5. How they talk to and conduct themselves around Mizu:

Mikio is aloof, soft-spoken, and serious. Taigen is obnoxious, brash, and sarcastic. Mikio is quiet, speaking only when spoken to, even when Mizu turns to smile at him and shows openness to be near him. Taigen is loud, talking while others are silent, even when Mizu turns from him and shows no interest in conversing with him.

Mikio doesn't show much of who he is to Mizu throughout their marriage, despite their growing affection. Taigen openly shares his traumas and life story to Mizu during their brief alliance, despite their mutual antagonism.

6. Their external vs internal selves:

Mikio is calm, gentle, and considerate on the outside. Taigen is hot-headed, rude, and selfish on the outside. Mikio is cowardly and deceitful on the inside. Taigen is brave and loyal to a fault on the inside. Mikio tells Mizu that he wants to know and see all of her. But he scorns and betrays her, the woman he loves. Taigen tells Mizu that he wants to duel and kill him. But he endures torture to not betray him, the man he hates.

9. Their hair, a symbol of their honour:

Mikio's topknot is untied by Mizu during their spar. This humiliation occurs in private, the two of them alone in a rural location where no one can see them. Taigen's topknot is cut off by Mizu during their duel. This humiliation occurs in public, the two of them being watched by many others in the Shindo Dojo.

10. Their power dynamic with Mizu:

Mikio believes he is Mizu's mentor. He teaches her to throw knives, how to ride and care for horses, and about the tactical benefits of using a naginata. Taigen believes he is Mizu's equal. He views Mizu as a samurai like himself who received all the same teachings he did, and who possesses the same values.

11. Their perceptions of Mizu:

Mikio sees Mizu's feminine side first. He sees her as sweet and gentle, but also clumsy and incompetent. Taigen sees Mizu's masculine side first. He sees her as terrifying and deadly, but also strong and skilled.

12. The way they approach sparring with Mizu:

Mikio only spars with Mizu once. As the fight progresses and she is beating him, he tries to put a stop to it. When she teases/provokes him, he starts taking the fight personally and seriously, finding no enjoyment in it. Taigen spars and brawls with Mizu all the time. No matter how many times Mizu beats him, he doesn't back down. When Mizu challenges him with a chopstick, he is eager to compete with her and gladly rises up to the challenge.

Mikio and Mizu's one and only spar is a friendly match; Mizu is smiling and having fun while he grows increasingly frustrated. Taigen and Mizu's last-seen spar is a playful wrestling match; both him and Mizu are having fun and laughing.

Mikio cannot deal with Mizu being better than him, so he scorns her and walks off, avoiding her thereafter. When Taigen cannot deal with Mizu being better than him, he follows her to observe her moves and continues training in hopes to eventually beat her. After being bested by Mizu once, Mikio leaves her and sells the horse he'd previously gifted to her. After many times losing to Mizu and fighting alongside her, Taigen commends her and admits she is better than him.

13. When Mizu pins them down in a friendly spar:

Mikio sees Mizu's whole face objectively. Taigen stares at Mizu's mouth and eyes.

Mikio gets angry when she kisses him, throwing her off of him and snapping at her, calling her a monster. Taigen gets aroused, apologising, so she pulls herself off of him.

14. Mizu's blue meteorite sword is a reflection of her soul. She believes most are undeserving to face it, let alone hold it. And on that note:

Mikio is the first person (chronologically) that Mizu fights against using her sword. Taigen is the first person (we see on-screen) that Mizu fights against with her sword. Mikio is the first person (chronologically) to ever hold her sword, as she passes it to him, letting him wield it. Taigen is the first person (we see on-screen) to ever hold her sword, as she passes out, and he picks it up and carries it for her.

15. Then, last but not least, in Fowler's fortress, when she is drugged and in pain, she hears Ringo's voice in the dungeon. She then follows it to an open cell:

Mizu first sees Mikio as a hallucination, the sight of him haunting her and causing her to lose her grip on reality. Her eyes glow a surreal blue to represent this. Her Mama appears then and says Mizu's name accusingly.

Mizu then sees Taigen, but he is real, the sight of him a relief and grounding her back to reality. Her eyes return to their normal blue colour to represent this. Taigen looks at Mizu weakly and says her name softly.

Then, later, when facing Fowler, her revenge awaiting her, she instead chooses to follow her conscience (represented by Ringo's voice in her mind), putting aside her vengeance for a time, in order to save Taigen.

So that's basically all the ones I've noticed so far, but even then, I feel there's already so much that forms a contrast between these two.

What makes it especially incredible about these juxtapositions is that Mikio was Mizu's husband, the man she had fallen in love with, the one person she had ever been intimate with, the man who made her begin to accept herself, to put down her desire for vengeance and instead live a life of peace and happiness.

So for Taigen to have so many parallels with him... Do you see what I'm saying here!

Not to mention that Mizu clearly already has some burgeoning attraction to him, as indicated by how she thinks of him when asked about her desires. And Taigen clearly has shown interest as well (see: him getting a boner after their spar, him holding her hand and telling her, "We're not done yet.").

And on the topic of speculating future possibilities of this relationship, this post by @stromblessed has pointed out yet another parallel between Taigen and Mikio:

Mizu promises Taigen to meet him for their duel in autumn. Mizu fell in love with Mikio and duelled him during autumn.

With all that said, I do believe Mizu and Taigen's relationship is definitely hurtling towards something. But whether they will actually end up together in a sustainable relationship and have a happily ever after? Well, that is a whole other story; we'll just have to wait and see.

#blue eye samurai #mizu x taigen #taigen x mizu #taimizu #taigen blue eye samurai #blue eye samurai meta #hope yall enjoy my thesis on virgin mikio vs chad taigen #this was written last night when i shouldve been writing the new chapter for my taimizu fic that i promised i would work on....whoopsies... #i will get to it eventually but i just have to get a firmer grip on characterisation before i can delve further into it yk #on that note. i kiiinda regret posting the fic on a whim! #my last longfic was written better because i had the whole thing complete and could go back and edit/polish/revise before posting #so it came out much more coherent and consistent ykwim? #this fic might suffer a bit for this reason 🤒 #but its fine i have to remind myself im just doing it for funsies #anyway here have another long ass meta post from yours truly #meta dissertations.pdf #shut up haydar #fandom.rtf

[redr0sewrites]

disneys wish spoilers!

today i watched wish and ohhh my gooooood the absolutely UNHOLY things i would do to this man

i need him carnally.

i got the photos from pinterest btw

#bro is so fine #i need him whimpering #i promise im normal #yall r gonna have to hear me out #rose rambling #king magnifico #wish #magnifico #disney #disney wish #disney magnifico

[felixcosm]

Everytime someone's like "fuck Eagle" or "fuck that guy!" I'm like well if you insist

#woe.begone #do not propagate #eagle wbg #dw guys ill take one for the team #yeah i promise im fine with doing yall a big service and sacrificing myself for this task

[lynxz-studios]

splatoon fans will see shiver winning a splatfest and immediately act like shiver herself crawled out of their screen and called them a slur

#sorry ive just been seeing like. so much shiver hate #its a video game yall. im hyperfixated on it HARD and even im not gonna get mad if the team i chose loses #like its literally fine ok. its ok. i promise.

[kinos-fortress-2]

does this even looks like a tf2 fanart anymore

#just experimenting! #i was gonna say im gonna delete this later bc i will ofc change the colouring here but just wanted to show bc i think is pretty #ONLY THIS ONE DRAWING bc is more... pretty me thinks but totally not from the way i wanted to go #but yeah little spoiler for something im doing bc i am so drunk and in love with them i cry a little bit but im fine now #i just love love #kino art #piss mauling #this looks very far away from my art style... but it reminded of my older style too... and like those 2016 shipp art if ykwim #this looks so personal im sorry i promise i will draw funny gore tf2 ugly art back again dont unfollow me bc im happy tonight is 1am buak #- i just wanna feel... happy and pretty and being in love space thats. how im feeling right now... dont drink wine guys my last words #watercolors dont go w my style i just realized that... but this looks pretty for me imo i feel kinda happy with this but is not the idea tb #ughhhh that sniperpauling playlist got me in the feels #really. this doesnt even looks like tf2 art anymore literally like. what tf2 game did yall play?? #this two are basically my ocs atp #im so annoying with them ugh

[b1mbodoll]

repeating “jealousy is a disease get well soon bitch” in my head every time i block rude anons and delete hatemail so i can try to brush it off but i am not ur strongest soldier so can you all stop being mean 🩷 please

#♡.gabi barks #im okay i prommy (im crying rn) #like omg seriously what did i do!!!!! i dont do anything but mind my fucking business!!!! and talk to my precious little friends!!!!!! but #apparently i cant even do that bc no matter what i always get meanies in my inbox 🤞 #like im seriously not doing anything i just came back and im already receiving asks telling me to kms and deactivate like do yall realize #im a person too.. like im literally real and i have feelings and im not a complete ditz #like what is so hard about treating people with kindness!!!! #ive spent all morning blocking mean anons and deleting asks and trying to brush off the mean words i see and receive and it hurts!!!! #im just a girl #if u send hate or tslk meanly to or about me im assuming ur a LEWSER and have no life bc i dont even do anything fr!!!!! im coolin!!!!! #i was gonna post this with the jealousy is a disease get well soon girl meme but i couldnt find it #anyway im fine!!!! (as im actively texting my therapist) #no bc im so upset and so angry WHAT AM I DOING WRONG #what am i doing to deserve this like please give me a valid answer so i can fix it im so tired of being sad and mistreated and bullied :( #i know i promised i was gna try to be more active but my little heart is so heavy and sad

[the-greatest-8]

The rain hits the roof and makes soft pitter-patter like noise, making a soft sound to ground myself in. I blink, slow and sluggish, with tired and reddened eyes. My thoughts swirl and curl possessively around my mind, trapping me in a cycle of self-loathing and fears. My chest is tight, and my breath stutters and catches as I attempt to breathe deeply.

I feel awful, truly, is an understatement. My head throbs in agreement as I wince- the clock on my side table ticks a steady rhythm as I spiral. The blanket on my body is soft, but too heavy, too much, it weighs on my body like bags of sand. I kick it off, frustrated and teary, and attempted to curl further into a ball.

A train passes by from afar, the rumbling of it on the tracks soothes me slightly, before the thundering blare of the horn makes me whimper in acute agony. I flop to my other side, molding myself close to the wall in an attempt to drown it all out.

My eyes burn even worse as tears drip from them, snot dribbles down my nose as I aggressively wipe it away. A pathetic and choked sob frees itself from my throat. I shiver and shake, too cold and too hot all at the same time. Too tired and too awake- with it being too loud and too silent.

My heart pounds in my chest despite the tight curl of emotions surrounding it and my lungs. My stomach heaves and twists, leaving me biting back vomit. My skin; it itches and shivers, my arms covered in small goosebumps. I sniffle and burrow my face in them, trying to hide from the shadows of my mind, trying to flee my bodies betrayals.

#writing #writing ideas #writing inspiration #fiction #i cant not go from wholesome to sad #im fine #i promise #yall ever get tired? but cant sleep? sucks. #im working on it #writing is my therapy

[jaetaimjadore]

cryingggggg enha just released what im positive will be the masterpiece of a century, @lebrookestore finally showed up in my feed (f u tumblr 🖕), and the weather is ABSOLUTELY DIVINE but here i am stuck in interview prep hell T^T

#im alive i swear i am #and i promise i will be back yall I PROMISE #these past 2 years have been so wOOOoooooOOOOOooooooOOOOooooOOOO #lots of hard work but also so much uncertainty about my future career/life etc #literally cant catch a break #(still cant figure out how i wrote doublure dargent last year 😪) #yall promise me that whatever you do #DO👏NOT👏SET👏YOUR👏HEART👏OUT👏ON👏MEDICINE #it will eat you up inside THIS IS YOUR WARNING #hopefully it will all be over for me on dec 3rd tho and ill get into my dream uni and things will all be fine 🤞🤞 #also i swear im not complaining.. just repenting #and brooke ily i miss u and im sorry for being such a phantom this year (does not excuse me nonetheless) <3 #and to the 201 followers that have somehow stuck by me: i love and appreciate every single one of you! #its really a miracle how i still see notifs on this blog ... #please stick around cause i actually have 2 new fics that im really excited about that i want to finish off and post within the next year!! #anyway rant over i will have a baddie comeback on of these days #i feel it 😌 #medz moodz.☁️

[supbitchss]

Girls when they are hit with the overwhelming urge to be held and protected

#obligatory occasional vent post #sorry yall im feeling angsty today #like its chill!!! i will be self sufficient and i will manage on my own!!! but also itd be nice to have my own parents get mad when i told #them i was raped ya know??? like sure i managed on my own but maybe i want to feel like people arent just apathetic to my traumas #like yeah i am in fact independent and cool and pretty much all the progress ive made ive done on my own but also it might be nice to have #somebody who would be willing to beat up someone who hurt me. to have a person outside of me who could hold me and keep me safe and shelter #me from the outside world #i had a bad dream the other night #someone at school grabbed me by the leg and was dragging me #i fought them off and someone else im good friends with came and beat them up and held me and kept me safe #and that dream has single handedly opened up a gaping hole in my chest #but anyways!!! #tag rambles #im tired #im doing fine i promise #tw: vent

[kanditvofficial]

Hoody 🥰🥰🥰😍😍😍🥴🥴🥴

(I'm normal and sane)

Credits:

Stage: Sakuseisanbo

Metal Pipe: The-Horrible-Mu

Body Texture: シロウスズキ

#im so sleepy and tired but god DAMN hoody is FINE ASF #im so normal yall i promise im so sorry #marble hornets #hoody marble hornets #brian thomas #mikumikudance #mmd #slenderverse

[rainy-anon]

New hc, I'd Dew/Sodo wakes up in the middle of the night he has a chance to get super emotional very easily. Like if someone starts talking about how he did bad he will sniffle softly and come curl up on their lap and apologize and they'll be so confused because they were playfully scolding him?? But he thinks he really upset aether yeah its aether now. He thinks he really upset aether and he's apologizing and aether is just there like "dew? Hey,, Bubba it's okay,, you're alright I was just messing with you,," and aether would gently hold and rub his cheek, throw a hand at his back and rub and soon he's rocking him back to sleep, whispering sweet things about how it's okay, he's here and he forgives him and even kisses the top of dews head. Dew is still mumbling about how he's sorry and aether will pull his hand back from his cheek to even find tears. Aether realizes 3 am Dew is a very soft dewdrop.

#im only projecting a little bit jdbdjdb #but it makes for a cute hc #because like!!! soft 3 am dew is adorable and i love him #and writing brings me comfort #friends if you recognize me or find me im okay i promise jdbfjfbdj im not sad anymore yall can scold me anytime ill be good lol #throw me back in the freezer ill be fine

[mud-nostalgia]

Hunched over the toilet and bleeding?? This is soooo ginger snaps

#dw yall im actually fine just joking abt a shit situation #it may be true but i promise its funny

[kroger-fr]

yk bloodletting makes so much sense i totally get the feeling of wanting to just like plunge a knife into wherevers hurting i cant blame them honestly

#/hj #dont report this for mental health concerns i promise yall im fine #i know someone will #i promise yall im ok #pinky even

[fortunately-bi]

...... If I went on a hiatus for who knows how long again would y'all hate me....... 👉👈

#i just spent like an hour writing and rewriting a post trying to explain myself amd its just so hard to put into words #im bored here but not in a ew not enough content for the dopamine hit shit #in like a every time i scroll through I dont smile I dont see anything that makes me happy at all i dont get a laugh or anything #its just mindless brain rotting scrolling nothing wasting my time hoping maybe ill see a new artist to follow or something #and every time its nothing #so much nothing taking up so much of my time and space in my life and i already dont have a lot of time to begin with #ive made some awesome friends here ive had lovers from here ive had people who are no longer on this earth from here who ill never forget #i dont think ive really enjoyed anything on here in 7 years #ive left before for a really long time i think like a year or more or something #and i wont be totally unreachable of people message me ill respond but im so sick of this stupid app taking up my life #and all i ever get out of it is getting mad or getting depressed over shit that really is t worth my mental state over #all i ever feel on here is that the world fuckin sucks and theres not even anything here to make hanging around worth it #im not new to this site making me suicidal for an abundance of reasons and im luckily in a spot where i wont actually hurt myself #its just ideation and intrusive thoughts but its a pattern i cant keep ignoring #also im old tumblr im old tumblr and i think i will always be old tumblr im just not catching on to new shit anymore #the fact im even saying anything about a hiatus should show how pld tumblr i am no one does this anymore lol #i just don't want to be here anymore i dont really want to be anywhere online anymore tbh #its always something and i cant mentally keep up with it anymore i have too much going on in my life #my wife is having cancer removed on Tuesday im a lead teacher who has to take care of i think 8 babies now #i have problems i have actual problems that need me and need me to be as there as i can be #i cant be spiraling over stuff online on top of real world problems im in no position to do anything about on top of personal life problems #that are drastically affecting my life at home and hurting my family and loved ones #i have a mass in my thyroid which is so big i choke to the point i stop breathing if I dont have my meds i throw up all day #i have to see a neurologist because at best i have a pinched nerve at worst im having seizures and i might have to move states again #i dont have it in me to come on here and see stuff that makes me upset for the chance i might see something i like #and i can unfollow people and whatever but I dont have the energy or time to sift through people i follow on here #if you want to talk in dms or asks or you want to send me posts pls by all means continue to do so thats fine #but i think i need to take the app out of my line of sight again for a bit and just be in the moment again same with twitter #anyways i love yall i promise i am safe and not in harms way im just stressed af and i have got to start cutting things out that #arent doing anything other then making me miserable

[bluebean09]

What is a drunk other than a hollow shell of a man who gave in to his sorrowful desires to not feel anything for once?

What is a drug addict if not a hollow shell of a woman who gave in to her sorrowful desires to feel something for once?

What is depression if not a terrible disease that makes you feel everything and nothing at the same time?

What is Hope if not a humble spirit to show you that, eventually, through hardship and sacrifice, everything will be okay?

-My brain, on the toilet at 3 am, for some reason

#my brain sometimes gets possessed by some or other Greek philosopher #im gonna start sharing them with yall #idk what to tag this as #philosophy #motivation #itll be fine #everything will be okay #i promise