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cordeliawhohung · 22 hours

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Important:

Under the cut, I'm going to be talking about domestic and sexual violence, general unsafe scenarios, and my boundaries regarding my pet!au series (though, this heavily extends to ALL my works) and the expectations i have for people who interact with me through my writing and what is sent to me in my inbox.

While I understand that I write dark topics in many of my works, covering things from domestic violence, to graphic sexual violence; I am still a human being. I know it's easy to pretend I'm just some random person, some faceless creature through a screen, or whatever other way you may perceive me, but please, be thoughtful and courteous of the things you say to me/send me in my asks. It's extremely inappropriate to send me graphic descriptions of things you are going through/have gone through in relation to what I'm writing or what my works have depicted. It's unhealthy for both me and for you to send me unsolicited stories of detailed abuse, especially because I am in no position to help you.

It's normal for writing to illicit strong emotional responses, and I am genuinely so thankful that my writing has been cathartic for so many of you. You are more than welcome to share with me that something I've written has helped you, or touched you in some sort of way: I just ask that you please spare me the graphic details. It is damaging, and I will not respond to those asks and slap such heavy, unfiltered content for others to see.

You may think that you know me, and feel safe enough sharing such intimate details about the darker parts of your life with me, but I ask that you please don't because you truly do not know me well enough to dump anything heavily triggering like that onto me. It's very flattering, and I'm glad I come across kind, and as a safe person (because I try to be!!) but it makes me severely uncomfortable. I simply will not tolerate it.

I do not wish to discourage anyone from sharing their trauma, or experiences in general. Obviously, talking about things can be really healing and therapeutic. I am not saying you must keep everything to yourself and bottle up these very complicated feelings. I just beg of you to please ensure that the person you are speaking with is able and willing to bear the things you're about to share with them; and I am making it very clear that I am not that person. I wish I could be that person for everyone, but I simply cannot. The emotional turmoil, the stress of not being able to help, it's extremely unhealthy for me. Especially when I am essentially coerced into doing so. Share your experiences in a healthy, and beneficial way. Dumping an experience (or several) onto someone who has not had the chance to back out of the conversation is damaging, and something I can't afford and will not tolerate.

If you find yourself in need of someone to confide in, there are hotlines and other mediums of support you can seek. While I'll admit, sometimes hotlines or online help isn't always the greatest, it is certainly more effective than I'll ever be. Here are some resources (I believe based in the USA) if you find yourself needing them.

National Domestic Violence Hotline

RAINN Sexual Violence Support Hotline

It is gut wrenching knowing people relate to Bonnie in pet!au in any capacity, but I ask you guys to respect these very clear boundaries. I would hate to have to stop writing/take down the story because of inappropriate or harmful behavior in my inbox.

#announcement #important #pet!au

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luminouslywriting · 2 days

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hello! could you do headcanons of BoB mens with a nurse?? 💕

Hi sweet Nonny! I have a soft spot for this particular idea, so I hope you enjoy! As always, my requests are open and I don't mind spam!

Cut for length, more under the cut, light spice sprinkled in:

Dick Winters:

-Winters has a lot on his mind and falling in love with a field nurse is admittedly not on his radar....so that being said, it's a gradual thing that he's barely even aware of

-But you know who is totally clocking the way that he checks on you, takes the time to talk to you even when he's busy, and always is super kind to you? Lewis Nixon. Lew picks up on this and brings it to Winter's attention.

-He's not exactly trying to start anything with the war on, but once he's aware of the feelings, he tries to maintain professional decorum and courtesy.

-However....he can't help but be worried about you, especially during the winter months. It's probably at this juncture that he lets you know that he's thinking about you and worried often.

-He's very sweet and definitely needs a partner where there's an equality in taking care of one another, so this balances out beautifully.

-Also loves when you medically info-dump, he finds it adorable haha

Lewis Nixon:

-Immediately becomes besties with you in Toccoa because his brain cells told him you'd be the best person to be friends with. He was right, he just didn't expect to have a thing for you amidst his divorce.

-The friendship is honestly a lifeline to him and you keep him going for a while—there's just a lot of being there for one another and checking in on one another.

-It's not just friendship stuff though; he's a chronic flirt and can't help that the two of you already act like an old married couple (in the most positive and great way possible)

-When the divorce goes through near the end of the war, he realizes that it's all working out for the best anyway; you've been by his side the entire time anyway

-Has a really sweet confession with you when you're in Austria and expresses that he couldn't have done any of what he did without you

-Also is super supportive of career and life goals that you have for when you get back to the states

Ronald Speirs:

-Honestly, he sees you as one of the few people that he trusts implicitly because you're just good at your job anyway and you're there to help the men, not to gain glory

-It automatically endears you to him in a way that literally no one else (sans the medics lol) will ever understand

-I think the relationship honestly is a bit back and forth/will they-won't they for a while....and that leads to some hooking up casually in between missions or whenever you two can get a free second

-And he does want to make things official, but he also doesn't want you to feel committed to him and then have something happen

-So he doesn't commit to admitting how he feels until after the end of the war, at which point he romantically shows up at your home and confesses everything

-Please just say yes, he's been in love with you FOREVER

Buck Compton:

-Probably meets you when he takes one of his friends to the aid station and you're there

-He's immediately lovestruck with practical heart eyes....and yes, Donald Malarkey has to hear way too much about you from this point onwards haha

-Writes home about you to his family and starts making little visits to the aid station unannounced when there's precious little downtime to see how you're doing

-Things are a casual sweet thing and nothing really happens between the two of you since it's war and there's really not time for that

-But then he ends up at the aid station after Bastogne and is so mortified about everything and doesn't want to talk to you at all. He's ashamed of how he left things before he ended up back at home because he didn't really tell you goodbye or anything.

-Once the war is over though, he tracks you down to tell you that he's sorry and that he loves you.

Carwood Lipton:

-Honestly? You're a source of light during the hard times and just as much of a mom as he is a dad haha. The two of you are such mother hens over all of the men in Easy Company, no one can win if the two of you team up.

-That being said, you're also obnoxiously trying to get the other person to take care of themselves.

-He's not about to say anything to you, despite his many letters home to his sisters and his mother about you

-But when he gets pneumonia? After Bastogne? Just take care of him and coddle him and love on him a bit. All bets will be off the table as to when he tells you that he has feelings.

-Probably starts a relationship with you once you're both in Austria and asks you to marry him before the end of the war

-Everyone in Easy Company regards you two as the mom and dad since Nixon and Winters aren't around as much haha

Joe Liebgott:

-Doesn't wanna go to the aid station, doesn't think he needs anyone to help him, doesn't even wanna have medical attention—and all of these complaints literally shut him up the minute he sets eyes on you

-And suddenly he's very chilled out and okay to be there?? Yeah, he's chill now.

-Some light flirting and touchiness here or there, but nothing too serious

-He probably even convinces you to have a fling in the hospital closet or something—war is war, after all

-But doesn't consider anything you two have serious until after episode 9 and then he realizes just what you mean to him and he has a whole revelatory period where he treats you like you're God or something

-Absolutely proposes before you make it out of Austria haha

Donald Malarkey:

-This sweet man? Who constantly is taking his friends to and from the aid station and hanging out and checking on people? Absolutely and easily makes friends with you.

-It's not necessarily flirting, per say. He's very respectful and very sweet about mentioning that you're low on supplies to higher ups or asking if the aid station is still doing okay.

-Doesn't even realize he has feelings for you?? Probably not until the very end of the war.

-And then he's freaking out because you're all gonna be going your separate ways in the next few weeks and how is he gonna find you then??

-Well it's quite simple really, you already gave him your address haha. So he spends some time at home before making a trip out to see you.

-It's not a "date date" but it's definitely a date and it just progresses from there lol

Eugene Roe:

-Literally Easy Company's shining ship of dreams?? Like if you and Roe don't make it, then there's no hope for anyone else haha.

-You two have worked together since Toccoa and were always close, speaking in your own practical secret language and exchanging smiles, stealing moments with one another

-In fact, they wouldn't be surprised if the two of you aren't already married. Except for the fact that you're not and the two of you are being SLOW AF about your feelings.

-In Bastogne though? It's a whole catalyst for him telling you how he feels because you narrowly make it out of the church before it collapses and it's a whole shitshow.

-And he's thinking about the fact that he almost lost you and you would've never known how loved you are or how much he'd miss you

-Yeah you two are getting married in Europe before the end of the war haha

Bill Guarnere:

-This man is an escapee from the hospital wing multiple times. And those multiple times, he struck up a pretty good friendship with you.

-He wasn't happy to be there initially, but once he found out you were from Philly too, he chilled out completely and the two of you became great friends

-Bill writes you when he's in the field since you're always back in the hospitals at London

-And Joe knows that he may or may not have a crush on you, and is always prodding him to just admit things to you

-But it isn't until they show up together in the hospital, both missing legs, that things are admitted

-He's pleasantly surprised and shocked when you kiss him and tell him that he took way too long and you're too committed to him at this point haha

Joe Toye:

-A sweet man like this ends up at the aid station and isn't too happy about it—but he takes his medicine like a man and is very respectful.

-You don't really want to clear him to go back into the field but you do, somewhat begrudgingly.

-And when he ends up back in the hospital, leg missing and in total distress, it's you that keeps him centered and keeps him going.

-He doesn't realize until he gets back to the states that he misses you, so he starts writing you letters. He doesn't expect anything to come of writing you—who would want to end up with him, after the accident, after all?

-And slowly, the letters from him stop. And so you just roll up one day?? Like SIR, I LIKE YOU—WRITE ME BACK!

-The wedding is the cutest thing ever and only a few members of Easy Company are invited.

George Luz:

-He hits on you from Day 1 in Toccoa. And when you give him a shot in the butt, it shuts him right up and he does not flirt with you (verbally anyway) anymore after that haha.

-He becomes your most vocal supporter and parrots your instructions back to the men because you know what you're talking about

-Checks in on you after each jump to see how you're doing and make sure that the men aren't treating you rudely

-You two probably hook up after Bastogne and his near-death experiences, leading to a budding relationship between the two of you

-Don't worry, Lipton ignores it so he doesn't have to deal with the consequences lol

-And George? He's absolutely ready to marry you and proposes the same day that the war ends

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baby-tini · 18 hours

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Meet the Todorokis

@supernatural-hunter1 @dabisangle

Dabi told you about his family before he did the reveal to the whole of Japan. He told you about how abusive his father was, how his mom did nothing to help, how his siblings didn't understand what it felt like to be in his position and how he hated his youngest brother. From the little information he'd give you, throughout the months of being together, you.cpuld tell there was some serious trauma and his home life and family were anything but loving. Aside from the physical scars, you knew there was some pretty bad mental scarring, even though he tried to play off the hurt and pain by being cocky and nonchalant.

When the heroes found out you were involved with the league and Dabi, especially romantically, you became a top priority for Endeavor to capture and lock away, so that's what happened. When you were caught, you were sent to Tartarus and servailenced 24/7, heavily armed guards would be posted in your room and right outside of it. The room littered with cameras, there was an inch of privacy in that tiny space you now called home. But you knew, you knew Dabi would save you, it would just take a little time, until then, you had to grin and bare it.

It was the same routine everyday, sitting in that small, padded room with cameras covering inch after inch, doing nothing but letting your mind drift away and thinking about the league but especially Dabi. How was he doing, what was he doing, did he miss you, was he even thinking about you? You didn't doubt he was but curiosity was eating at your brain and heart, taking over your thoughts. So, it was a big surprise when you were told you had visitors and the Todorokis, nonetheless. They were all there, Rei, Fuyumi, Natsuo, Shoto.... and I guess the man that Touya had to call father was there too. It would've been sweet too have such a messed up family if you didn't know their dirty little secrets and the reasons for visiting in the first place. They all looked empty- heartbroken even, their eyes full of sorrows and regret while Reis eyes leaked salty tears ,only to be comforted by daughter... huh, you wonder if any of them tried to comfort Touya that way. Then again, given the family and their dynamic, you highly doubt it. But, sat in front of this fucked up family as they stared you down and asked invasive questions, you started too understand it wasn't out of love for Touya, it was because of guilt and that just pissed you off a lot more. They weren't trying too right their wrongs, it was because they knew that they were horrible for what they did and they tried too quiet their guilt. So you can't really blame yourself for snapping and going off on that horrible man- thing. That horrible thing. "What would you say you're relationship to my son is." You scowled at Enjis question, a scoff falling from your lips unintentionally but you didn't try too stop it. Your eyes narrowed at that abusive man, only obsessed with the image of the so-called greater-good. He didn't even ask how Touya has been, how much the thought of his old man being praised for being a hero when in actuality, he was more of a villain then most were, ate at Touya every night, kept him up for days- weeks even- on end. "Don't. Call him that, Touya is no longer your son, he is no longer the boy that yearned for your praise and approval, no longer the boy that was willing to kill himself too make you happy. He's better, different now. His eyes have been opened to your disgusting ways of bullshit parenting." It was said more aggressively then you thought it was but, he needed too understand Dabi would never be Touya- their Touya, ever again, he was your Touya now and forever.

Endeavors hands tightened into fists at that, while his wifes eyes dropped, looking away and squeezing tightly as she breathed in a stuttered inhale. "He's still my son, I wasn't the best fath-" there's a quick cut off from you as you shifted in your seat. "No. You weren't even a father to begin with, so don't give me that bullshit speech that you're sorry and you regret what you did because I don't care to listen to it, you can give your traumatized family that bullshit but I won't listen to it." It's spat at him, your voice raising in pitch towards the end of your sentence as you scowled at the false hero. You didn't mean to go on a tangent rant but.. it happened. "You, Enji Todoroki, abused your children. You attempted to use them for your own selfish desires and make up for your pathetic failures and all your overwhelming undoings. You. Are no man- especially not a father. No father would ever. Force their child to take on such a burden, so young in their life. No man would ever put his hands on a woman- much less their wife. The woman who gave you those children in the first place. The woman who took care of them and bathed them, dressed them, read them bed time stories while you chased after a dream you, yourself acknowledged would never happen on your own, so you tried to live through your children. And you, Rei Todoroki. The first time that man put his fucking hands on you or your children, you should've left him. Don't ever let a man put his fucking hands on your children. Ever. You. Are no mother. No mother would throw boiling water on her sons face because she couldn't stand the piece of shit man that she was forced too marry. Your kids are their own people and have their own dreams. The reason you both too even have kids was selfish from the get-go. I'm happy Touya got out- got away. None of your kids deserved that, but especially Touya. Now leave." By the end of it, Rei was in tears and Enjis teeth were clenched so tight, you thought they were gonna break as his fists were tight and shaking, his knuckles turning pale, ghost white as his eyes became wet and started too sting. The family left quickly after that as the door slammed behind them.

You couldn't wait for Dabi to end Enji Todorokis pathetic life of lies.

#baby-tini #dabi x reader #dabi #touya todoroki #mha dabi #bnha dabi #dabi my hero academia #my hero academia dabi #boku no hero academia dabi #dabi bnha #todoroki touya #dabi todoroki #touya #dabi angst #touya angst #touya todoroki angst #dabi x reader angst

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haveihitanerve · 13 hours

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“Where the hell is bats?” Superman looked up in surprise, finding a very angry looking Green Lantern standing above him, hands on his hips. Clark turned and did a quick scan of the tower. “Uh, meeting room with Barry and Ollie-” “Thanks.” Hal bit out quickly and turned on his heel, storming for said meeting room. “Hal wait-!” Clark stumbled to his feet and sped after him but Hal seemed to have no intentions of stopping and plowed right into the meeting room, slamming both doors open. Clark, unbelievably, heard Bruce sigh. “When the fuck were you gonna tell me?” The Lantern demanded. Bruce had removed his cowl, standing at the table with the other two men, who had both removed their costumes and were dressed in sweatpants and a Batman hoodie. Hal gave them both unimpressed looks. “Really?” “what?” Barry defended, stuffing his hands into his pockets. “B is the only one who actually has a change of clothes here thats comfy.” “Something that needs to change by the way.” Bruce informed him, pointing his pen at them. “Thats Dick’s and Jason’s and while Jason is sure to be fine with it, Dick gets a little stiff about sharing his hoodie.” Oliver raised an eyebrow, setting his feet on the table as he sharpened an arrow. “Really? He doesn't share hoodies?” “Oh he shares them.” Bruce corrected. “Just not that one. Not often.” Hal smirked, seemingly understanding the underlying meaning, then his face turned back to anger. “Ahem.” He growled. Bruce sighed, turning to face the man. “Why do-” “if you're about to ask why i even care i will shove his arrow up your ass.” Hal fired off before Bruce could finish. Bruce rubbed his forehead. “Its not a big deal.” “Its most definitely a big deal, especially since I only learned about it because fucking Damian threw an ingraved katanna at me that had it on it.” Bruce raised an eyebrow. “Really?” “Thats fucking scary and insane Bruce!” Hal shouted. “A katana?” Barry asked, interest piqued. Hal gave a quick nod. “Yeah. its actually pretty cool except it has that written on it and he didn't tell me.” Bruce sighed, slumping into a chair. Clark hovered in the doorway, extremely confused. “Why didn't you tell me?” Hal demanded, still standing. “I never intended for you to find out?” Bruce offered, wincing. “Wrong fucking answer Bats.” Bruce chuckled. “I know, I know. Its just- it wasn't important?” He offered instead. Hals face grew positively murderous. “Are you serious right now Bruce?” Bruce sighed. “Its- its not a big deal!” He defended. Hal scoffed. “Right. As if. I bet you even jason showed up. Thats how ‘not big of a deal’ it is.” Bruce sighed once more. “Jason- he shows up for it no matter what. Its- hes more reliable than Dick in that sense.” Hal glared at him. Bruce deflated. “Okay. Okay alright im sorry. I’ll- well you know now so..” Hal shook his head and looked at Oliver. “Were you there?” Ollie glanced at Bruce then back at Hal. Hal scoffed in disgust. “Wow. Wow. Barry, I don't even have to ask. I was wondering why you were vibrating the other day. Was the cake good, huh?” Barry rubbed the back of his neck sheepishly. “Sorry um, I’m still unclear as to what we’re talking about.” Clark finally intervened, stepping into the room. Hal glanced at him. “Oh. Bats here forgot to tell me it was his birthday.” “its not that big of a deal!” Bruce protested. Hal shook his head in defeat. “Alright whatever Batsy. It doesn't even matter. I got Dick to promise he’d invite me next year so whatever. But I am buying you dinner!” He pointed a threatening finger at the male. Bruce’s lips twitched. “Alright Lantern. If you insist.” Ollie chuckled and Hal finally released his anger, slinging an arm around Bruce’s shoulders. “I really do.”

#some bats and lantern banter #i need some more of their friendship #theyre such an underrated duo #i love them #hal jordan #bruce wayne #besties #batfam #batman #green lantern

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mutsukiss · 2 days

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Reading the first book is actually insightful on the last episode because without it the whole "you're so boring!!!!" rant comes very out of the blue. In the show Louis is SUPER tame about himself as a vampire and vampires in general because he reduces himself to this weird self flagellation cycle of "oooh I'm so bad and evil I kill people how will I ever live with myself *becomes a serial killer*" and he doesn't have much,, care? Love? Appreciation? For himself and his life. He's just stumbling around and being a victim of the narrative. Things happen to him and sometimes he's an active participant, and that's it.

In the book Louis is SO eager to go and learn to be a vampire and do vampire things and explore what being a vampire is. He makes references constantly about how his first experiences were rushed and messy and got him this extreme high he searches for everywhere, and is immensely frustrated because Lestat is instead reduced to someone who is solely focused on his own damaging cycle and has no desire to enjoy the trip, just to chase the high. Show!Louis engages in hobbies and has his own opinions and boundaries and makes them know but he also doesn't ask or suggest or even demand a lot of times, specially/specifically with Armand. He says "this is how I'm going to go through this thing, you are free to take it or not but I'm not following after if you decide to not agree" and it puts people in a position. He's paradoxically giving others the freedom to follow their own rules, but by creating a punishing situation. Don't come to see me if you want me to join the coven, we don't need to put a name to our relationship, ignore that I imagine Lestat when I'm with you. These are mostly understandable requests knowing his background and context that still put Armand in a difficult position and he's not really given any wiggle room around them. Armand attempts to get into Louis' world and enter him in Armand's, but Louis isn't really interested in anything outside of what he finds comfortable or familiar and doesn't have a lot of drive to go and pursue new things about him nor others around him unless he's accompanied or pushed by another character, the being exception the interview in the present.

The overzealous, identity-missing, heartstruck Armand; in all of his own manipulative and calculating skills and habits, agrees to Louis roaming around to cruise and drug, fuck, kill and get high from 128 !! persons in the 70's only, cleaning after him, and we are given the image that he has never complained about this ever, not ONCE. We see Armand giving in to whatever Louis says, having kind gestures to him, spending time with him, having what I believe is infinite patience. I dont think these are difficult or unpleasant tasks for him, i dont think they are tasks at all. He is courting and ¿dating? someone and these interactions are obviously pleasurable to him. Armand says if Louis wanted for him to go away he just had to ask, and even after we are made aware of him tampering with Louis' and Daniel's memories, i believe that had Louis asked him that he would have complied. So WHAT is Louis looking for that he couldn't ask Armand for and have him agree to. If what he is expecting or wanting is resistance, HOW does that make Armand boring. How can Armand refuse Louis when that implies a complete negative, a total refusal of future positive interactions. What more was there for Armand to do in that situation?

Ultimately I think Louis is coping as best as he can and he has realized he is resorting to harmful behaviors and attempting to recreate past toxic dynamics, and that it won't make him happy because it didn't make him happy in the past, but that he is equally unhappy now even when things are supposed to be "fine", whatever his defintion of fine is. And this is something that would have been incredibly more clear if Show!Louis had been given Book!Louis' wanderlust and eagerness to learn and do new things, because with that in context, the conversation in the flat makes complete sense to me, even if it's still unfair for both parties, but it's something that may feel so sudden and out of the blue for show only viewers.

#iwtv #interview with the vampire #iwtv book spoilers #interview with the vampire book spoilers #louis de pointe du lac #the vampire armand #shrug #iwtv spoilers #<- i forgot that one oops

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hello, it is urgent , but you're the only one who could do that, be a gojo student, and we try to commit suicide by hanging, for example, megumi will find us and call gojo, and just try to save us, I would be very happy and would recommend you to others, you can really make their personalities good (please🙏🙏) it is really urgent my angst era is now 💀

A/N: I’m buried in angst requests, so I had to write some other stuff to climb out of the angst filled hole I was in, which is why this took so long. This didn’t turn out very good tbh

You were late to go on a mission, so Gojo sent Megumi to go get you. He got to your door and heard a thump that sounded like something fell over.

“Hey (Last Name), you’re late, we need to go!” Megumi shouted as he knocked on the door of your dorm room.

You didn’t answer, so he just sighed and said: “I’m coming in”

You were hanging by your neck on rope that was tied to one of the ceiling supports. Megumi didn’t even think, he just ran to you and lifted you so you weren’t hanging anymore. He was just barely able to make the hand sign for his shikigami, which he sent to get help. It’s not that Megumi wasn’t weak, but holding dead weight in such an awkward position was getting difficult quite quickly.

Gojo appeared just as Megumi was about to run out of strength. He cut the rope and caught you just as you almost hit the floor. He set you down on the floor and knelt beside you, not really sure what he should do.

“Are they alive?” Megumi asked, with a hint of panic in his voice.

“I’m-I’m not sure” Gojo muttered, searching for a pulse.

Suddenly, you exhaled deeply and started coughing your lungs out.

“Take it easy, you almost died” Gojo said.

You sat up, and he placed his hand on your shoulder and looked you over. Your neck was already starting to bruise, and you were still coughing.

“Alright, you’re going to the infirmary” Gojo said as he stood up.

“Go away… both of you” you croaked.

“Huh?” Megumi exclaimed. “Are you freaking kidding me? I find you hanging from the ceiling, and you think we’re going to just leave you alone?”

“Please, just leave…” you sniffled.

You felt so embarrassed. You weren’t supposed to be found so quickly. You were supposed to be dead right now. This was not how it was supposed to go.

“I’m taking you to the infirmary, and I’m not asking” Gojo said and picked you up, throwing you over his shoulder.

Megumi was quite honestly stunned. He’d had no idea you would do something like this, he hadn’t seen it coming at all, and he was angry. He was angry at you that you hadn’t talked to him, or any of your other friends, and he was angry at himself for not having noticed anything.

“Put me down!” you yelled as Gojo started carrying you towards the infirmary.

“Not a chance” Gojo said.

You struggled for a moment, but it was no use, he was too strong.

Megumi walked behind you and Gojo. As you hung your head down, Megumi could see something falling from your face. He quickly realized it was tears, and he felt bad for you. What might drive a person to try and take their own life? He didn’t know, and he didn’t really understand. He just wanted to help you somehow, but he didn’t know what to do.

When the three of you finally got to the infirmary, Gojo put you down and told you to sit down on one of the beds while he went to get Shoko. Megumi decided to sit on the bed opposite to you and keep you company. You shouldn’t be alone after something like that.

The two of you just sat there as you cried quietly, trying to stifle your tears. You felt humiliated and so many other things, you couldn’t really make sense of it all. You just wanted to go to sleep and not wake up.

“Why didn’t you talk to us?” Megumi suddenly asked.

You didn’t know what to say, so you just came up with something.

“I didn’t know ho-how, I still don’t” you sniffled.

Megumi found himself getting irritated. Why wouldn’t you just talk to him? Or if not him, than someone else, anything would be better than this.

Megumi exhaled deeply, attempting to calm himself down, before saying: “Just come to me next time, or go to Kugisaki or even Gojo sensei”

You just nodded, not really sure if you were doing it to make him go away or to actually promise to do what he asked.

“Promise me? I don’t need anyone else to end up dead after what happened to Itadori”

“I promise” you muttered.

Megumi wasn’t really satisfied with your answer, because he wasn’t sure if you meant it. He really hoped you did, but he didn’t know for certain. He just really hoped you’d talk to him. Anything else but this, he didn’t want you to go through another attempt ever again.

#jujutsu kaisen #jjk #megumi fushiguro #satoru gojo #megumi x reader #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen x reader #jujutsu kaisen x you #jjk x you #jjk scenarios #jujutsu kaisen scenarios #jjk fanfic #jujutsu kaisen fanfic #jujutsu kaisen angst #jjk angst #jjk comfort #jujutsu kaisen comfort #suicide tw

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lorillee · 2 days

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something else i find kind of funny about the kakashi flashback part 2 in the anime is that it like completely blows up the foundation of the entire "is kakashi a good teacher" question and renders it basically entirely worthless as a talking point. not that it wasnt before, but still. like given the situation he was in he honestly went completely above and beyond all expectations in how okay it worked out like. okay. if you took some guy whos only parent killed himself when he was 4 or 5 years old, became a chunin at the age of 6, dumped into active warfare and promoted to jonin at 12, had all three of his other teammates die within a year or two (all of whom he blames himself for in varying capacity), then put him in the secret service for assassins for a decade, and without warning pulled him out and said "hey so how about you become a genin teacher" IN WHAT WORLD WOULD THIS EVER GO WELL.?

literally all of the positive adult figures who were actively present in his life died by the time he was thirteen. he was not given the luxury of a childhood in any sense at all and any of the children he has interacted with have been in the secret service for assassins. not to even mention that sasuke and naruto come with an insane amount of baggage on their own, NOT TO EVEN MENTION THAT THEY COME WITH AN INSANE AMOUNT OF BAGGAGE FOR KAKASHI SPECIFICALLY.?!

like as a solid rule you basically never want to be in a class where the teacher is teaching it for the first time because chances are your teacher isnt going to have the faintest clue what he's doing, and this is like with your average college class. god forbid whatever in the world is going on with konoha where they just pick whoever in the world they want to be jonin teachers regardless of qualifications or aptitude or current mental state. like in a vacuum if you look at kakashis teaching methods without any context at all he's certainly far from perfect, but like comparing him to literally any of the other jonin teachers is actually a joke because his life experiences are so vastly different from them that it makes absolutely no sense in any capacity whatsoever. YOU GUYS ARE STUPID ? Why is this even a discussion people think is worth arguing over.

like im certain so many people hate him in part for the scene where hes arguing for team 7 to be allowed to participate in the chunin exams and understandably iruka is like "tjheyre literally twelve what are you talking about" and kakashi responds that he made it to chunin by 6 and that they're soldiers under his command so it really doesnt matter what iruka thinks. its kind of a lot when you're watching for the first time because you have absolutely no context for where kakashi is coming from on this front and of COURSE he's wrong and of COURSE iruka is correct but iruka and kakashi have had a very very VERY different life and are not coming at this discussion from the same ground even a little bit.

of course kakashi thinks this is perfectly fine this is LEAGUES better than what his childhood was like and he thinks they're good enough to pass it so why would he hold them back when he knows what theyre capable of. again of course hes wrong of course this is a horrible thing to do but he has literally no reason to believe that because hes literally been completely indoctrinated in the konoha war machine basically since birth with no actual opportunity to look at it from any sort of outsider or objective perspective. no of course kakashi isnt worlds greatest teacher. why in the world should he be

#naruto #hatake kakashi #lorillee.txt

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01tsubomi · 5 months

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hi!! if you dont mind me asking, how did you manage to end up teaching in japan?? ive been researching but info online is so extense and overwhelming and i never have good answers....

hello!! first of all i wanna say i understand the stress - i applied to j/et first and was going to work on backups like int/erac and private hiring if that didn't work out and i'm always thankful that i didn't have to. honestly now that i'm here it feels funny that i stressed out so much during the application process bc i always find myself thinking "damn they'll let anyone in" (often about myself lmao). it can be really odd and unexplainable who j/et does and doesn't take but japan needs a lot of ALTs to keep the system going so if you've got the enthusiasm for it there's definitely a place for you!!

i would definitely recommend trying for j/et and int/erac first before worrying about the other options!! since j/et has the biggest reputation ofc there's the double-edged sword of it feeling the most prestigious and hard to get into but again they do hire a ton of candidates every year, plus it has the highest guaranteed pay and takes care of so much for you pre-departure. idk where you're at in life/when you'd plan on applying but if you wanna start the job as soon as possible, int/erac has pretty much a rolling application and their main recruiting cycle is for spring departures (while j/et won't start recruiting again til october, for departure in summer 2025). int/erac gives you a little less pay and a little less initial help, but it's still very reputable. int/erac ALTs also have a few more freedoms once you're in japan bc i believe int/erac has your school hire you directly intead of employing you to your city's board of education. so for example my BoO doesn't let ALTs commute by car, but int/erac ALTs and private hires don't have that restriction. knock on wood, if neither of those work out, there are lots of sites like gaijinpot posting private hire opportunities. i don't know about the competitiveness of those and they do often require you to sort out visa application or housing on your own, but opportunity is always out there! seriously though i wouldn't worry about that at first. that's the backup plan ace up your sleeve

in terms of what you can do to raise your chances of getting hired, again, i think the enthusiasm is the key!! people say the j/et interview is a glorified vibe check bc they've been known to reject people who sometimes seem overqualified for the position (maybe for good reason - the amount of responsibility you get and teaching you get to do is suuuuper variable and dependent on your school, and probably about ~1/3 of my work days every year i have no classes and little relevant work to do, if any). i don't have a background or certification in teaching but i did a lot of tutoring in college and minored in japanese so i had a lot to say about my passion for language education. i know j/et really loves the angle of "what will you get out of the position, and what will you give back" - i can tell you're excited about the idea of teaching in japan so i'm sure you already have your answers!! if you have hobbies related to japan it's good to explain how being in japan would help you continue them. or you can always research what you could do with your non-japan related hobbies in japan! i love cooking and i started taking classes at a chain studio that does a mix of japanese and worldwide cooking. again i know the hit-or-miss element of it is scary but really they just want friendly open-minded people who can share their culture, have enthusiasm about education and exchange, don't mind the hours/job restrictions, and are down to pack their bags and live in japan. if you have any other questions please ask!! i know this is random but i've helped a couple of friends with their applications so if you do want some extra eyes on a statement of purpose my inbox is always open!! cheering for you!! 🎉🎉

#seriously i got. so so stressed out during the whole application process. and nothing any of my friends could say abt how i #seemed perfectly qualified could help #i really do understand the position you're in #but seriously the job is so much lower stakes than i thought intiially and a lot of the reason i say that is because of how little #responsibility i get #i love my school and my teachers are really receptive to my ideas #but basically once you're here all the meaning's gotta come from you #the dreaded Every Situation Is Different applies ofc #but at my school i don't get directly asked for activities much and get told i don't have to come to class pretty often #so if i'm not taking the initiative and making stuff myself or going to talk to the students myself it can be very easy to just coast #which i think a lot of people do. which i can't blame anyone for because 1) i know people who are physically in the classroom less than #8 hours a week #disregarding if they're given an active role in those lessons or if they're just asked to read vocab #and 2) i also don't use all of my downtime on work-related tasks and i honestly find it hard to imagine how i could #i'm just getting into my thoughts about my job now which is something i could talk about for hours and hours #trust me i do really love being here and i actually like that i have to challenge myself to speak up and carve out my place #i'll cut myself off there because i have too many thoughts #but genuinely good luck!! you can do it!!#asks

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akalikai · 15 days

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I am a TMA women defender for life nothing can change my mind

#bc if you were in their position would you REALLY be any different #its easy to admonish them from the outside looking in #but you never understand unless you're in their position #especially georgie my god i will NEVER blame georgie #and i will never understand helen hate like she and michael were the same why do you love him but hate her #i dont condone gertrude's actions especially for michael. but dear god if it was between one person and the whole world. dont be an idiot #and also gertrude was being manipulated by The Web and emma harvey #actually wait i do hate emma harvey. because she literally took pleasure in manipulating people.#but yeah women of tma i will never hate you #the magnus archives #tma

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the-official-memester · 8 months

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Something that always bothered me about DNI lists is that 90% of all Tumblr users aren't meticulously combing through the blog of someone else before they reblog their cute stim moodboard or funny shitpost.

Hell, I even got a DM from some pissy person who was mad I had reblogged their stuff while we were on opposing sides of the "sHiPpInG dIsCoUrSe."

So, just to make it clear: when I say DNI, I don't mean don't even glance at my blog or reblog a nice post of mine. What I mean is; don't talk to me.

Please for the love of God don't acknowledge me or the fact I'm an actual person whom you can choose to interact with, because I really don't wanna have to do the same for you. Otherwise, go stupid go crazy, lurk on my blog or whatever for ten thousand years for all I care.

Just please, please don't talk to me about it lmfao

#proship #antiship #proship safe #proship positivity #proship and proud #i really think this is the way things should work #and it goes for my fellow proshippers as well #an anti reblogging one or two of your posts not related to ship doesn't excuse you to dming them to be an asshole #cuz guess what? that's harassment #and pro and comship are all about ANTI-HARASSMENT #(i completely understand that a lot of antis deserve it but after a while it starts to get a bit hypocritical)#(especially if you're going out of your way instead of doing it out of retaliation)

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relicsongmel · 4 months

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The Hawthorne twins suffered more than Jesus

#mel's musings #dahlia hawthorne #iris hawthorne #local woman going feral over sister iris ace attorney for the 261478th time. more at 11 #aa #thinking about. how at one point they were the daughters of the fey clan's MAIN FAMILY #meaning one of them was in line to become master at some point #(i waffle on which one it was bc there's no clear answer in canon but if anyone else has thoughts do feel free to share)#imagine being in that position. and then discovering you have no spiritual powers #and everyone (including your own mother) starts treating you like shit for it. and you're too young to really understand why #and then your mom gets shown up by her younger sister which only makes things WORSE for all of you #and then said younger sister makes a mistake and disappears with no explanation #and your dad takes you away from everything you've ever known. and your mom is so broken and angry that she doesn't even fight it #nor make any effort to reunite with either of you again. and at this point. in a world that hates you and has cast you aside time and again #all you have is each other. no fucking wonder they went off the rails after that #they are both so desperate for love and agency over their own lives that they'll do ANYTHING to get there #and the collateral damage is an afterthought. GODDDD they make me so unwell i love them so so much

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dimonds456-art · 1 month

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Maladaptive daydreaming.

#daydreaming #maladaptive daydreaming #maladapting daydreaming disorder #maladaptive behaviors #maladaptive coping #dissociation #immersive daydreaming #dimond speaks #yeah so adding this to my list here lol #my therapist helped me realize i dissociate a LOT and the primary way i do it is through vivid daydreams #they usually happen at work but they also pop up if i'm having a bad day or... anytime really.#i've also come to the realization that i have at least one of these a day which is not good fgsjh #my therapist says they're not inherently bad especially since they do have a positive effect on my emotions (if its a good daydream)#but it's gotten to the point that it's affecting the way i work #and they can last for a LONG time too #i haven't timed them but i do know they've been over 30 minutes at work before #this is either due to ADHD autism PTSD or a mixture of the three lmao #weeeee #anyway. this post isn't really intended to be a vent post #it's more like a 'this is my experience' type post #it just kinda comes across as somewhat vent-y #but that was because i wanted to try and immerse the reader into what its like to have these daydreams #like mine look NOTHING like this but making it more generic would help others understand it #the void is the general dissociation from reality #then you emerge in the dream #i can feel things as if i'm there- the sun the wind and sometimes even physical touch #and i'll stay there until something snaps me out #strangely i can get my work done while i'm doing this- i just wont have any memory of doing so. it's like being on autopilot #anyway. I hope this post was helpful to someone out there #if you also maladaptive daydream YOU ARE NOT ALONE! it's valid and you're not 'faking' anything. it's a genuine trauma response.

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todayisafridaynight · 2 months

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mine's done a lot of sexy things in my opinion but top five to me still is asking daigo if he wanted to prioritize The Family or one man Not In The Family

#snap chats #you know what i mean. that rggo story I Think That Was Very Attractive Of Him #i simply understand why daigo was like 'fuck man .............. kinda right with that ................ wanna get married--'#but no cause real shit daigo ily and its very cute that you love kiryu so much #and i get it i do. i live for daigo's idolization of kiryu it makes for delicious drama and many emo spiralings at 1AM #i just really appreciate mine being able to speak up. from his position. yk what i mean #like mine's relatively green to the yakuza atp and this is the first time he's personally going out with his boss but not just His Boss #THE Boss and he still sees value in being like 'idc if you're my superior i need you to really evaluate your values rn for the whole org'#its so sexy of him ........ love a man who can cut the bullshit when he gotta ...#ESPECIALLY in regards to kiryu cause like .... kiryu ily and ily because youre messy ... i just need others to call you messy too ...#its also just so good because it's exactly the type of thing daigo wanted from companions #people who could look at him beyond his name and money and status and tell him what he needs to hear ... its very yummy ...#so yeah thats one of my top five sexy moments thanks for watching im gonna kick my feet and think about mine #he's such an epic character ......... i wish i had blender so i could spin his model for an hour #ill just have to settle for doing that in my brain

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lesamis · 2 months

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i learned the grade for my phd thesis today (it's v good! i'm v happy!) & my supervisor took that as occasion to sit down with me and talk about The Future for a bit, and she clearly cares and i'm thankful for her, but the sheer ivory tower out-of-touch-ness of academics will never stop baffling me. like they'll ask you about your new job (admin & public service), and you tell them you're enjoying it and loving all the mental space it's freed up, and they'll be like cool! but you are looking for something better, right?

and it's like. no. i'm really super not. i understand that professors look down on this kind of work, which is one thing, they're snobs, i can't change that. but to not take someone's word for it when they say they find their job fulfilling and rewarding is kind of. ungenerous? not to mention condescending? like please don't call a less mentally taxing job a "waste of potential" when it was working in academia that stopped me from producing literally any writing i cared about or felt proud of for nearly four years

#if there IS any potential still to be reached i'm not reaching it in limited contracts worrying about whether i'll have a job next year lol #anyway i'm here to say if you're on the fence about whether to stay in academia.#do not do it. it really doesn't get easier from here on out in fact it'll probably get harder #and i know it feels good to be encouraged. and you want to do right by people who have faith in you. but god #i'm so tired of wealthy tenured profs who have 2 years to retirement thinking they can give advice without understanding our realities #ma'am no one is funding the humanities anymore. ma'am my friend recently applied for a postdoc position with 200+ applicants. ma'am

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non-un-topo · 7 months

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Every time I spend too many days in a row at home, I get it into my head that I don't actually want to transition, and then I go back into the world and go Oh. I remember what it's like to have a body and a mind.

#it's almost like a huge portion of our genders are determined socially. by those who are around us and by the situations and spaces we inhab #-inhabit.#it's almost like i study this at an honours level.#<< that doesn't in any way discount or devalue or delegitimize a person's gender identity and expression.#we do Live in a Society #can't really be disabled without the world that disables. might not know you want to transition until you understand your own position.#sometimes it's relative.#also sorry i've been using tumblr as like a complain diary lately. i'm going through some serious shit.#it is a blogging site so.#i'm sure i'm not the only person who thinks 'i must not be trans' the moment i don't feel intense dysphoria and self-hatred.#thanks to the medical/deficit model!#and i do feel intense dysphoria and self-hatred. oh i do. but sometimes it's easier in my home and i forget. and i go:#'Oh! i must be cis because i feel okay about my body and mind today'#*whispering to self* you're just scaaaaared. scaredy little peepeepoopoo pants who won't accept being wrong

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koishua · 2 months

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shining solo ep 8. my reaction rn 😐😐 took it a bit hard lmao