#i was legit 8 years old

[dilli-vali-girlfriend]

so all of us desi girls collectively agree we had a major crush on varun dhawan after main tera hero?

#i meannn #seenu #he was hot man #i was legit 8 years old #ive watched that movie so many times #main tera hero #varun dhawan #bollywood #bollywood movies #desiblr #desi #desi tag #being desi #desi memes #desi tumblr #desi songs #desi aesthetic #desi life #desi movies

[belovedcherie]

current abnormal obsession is the trolls trilogy (TRILOGY!!!) and broppy☹️

#wish i could be a normal 16 year old but alas #I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY #it’s crazy bc i never rlly thought about it but i actually really like the trolls franchise #like i rewatched the first movie so many times #it’s just easy and fun to watch #and i forgot i binged all 8 seasons of the 2d netflix show 😭 #i was dedicated guys #yesterday i watched the 2nd movie for the first time bc i heard broppy was finally canon #legit watched the netflix series for broppy crumbs. CRUMBS. #and i just finished the third movie THERES SM TO SAY #abt the series as a whole actually #i just. wow. #im gonna rotate them around in my brain for a while tho #maybe i’ll ramble in a separate post idk idk but lemme stop filling the tags #cherie's chats #cherie watches stuff!

[vampryn]

im so excited to move so im no longer sleeping with boxes of my shit on my bed 👼 and because i can start saving to buy myself my v first synthesizer!!!

#then after that i have to save for a new computer bc mine is legit falling apart #v sad i dont want a new computer #but this one is like 8 years old and the model was flawed in to start with #ive had the keyboard replaced THREE TIMES

[undeadunalive]

HAPPY NEW YEAR! Have two photos I barely managed to get of this mischevious little madam this morning before we left. 🐈

#OOC: #{ the only time she stayed still was when she was eyeing me up to pounce from the side xD } #{ i was legit sat there like 'don't you dare... stop it I can see what you're about to do!' then she pounced lmao } #{ also you wouldn't think she's 8 years old } #{ she forever looks like a kitten xD }

[flappingpussylips]

#i forgot how legit scary this ep was for 8 year old me #or however old i would have been #i

[that-mifi]

some of y'all can't read

#i am not talking about legit illiteracy #or any legitimately diagnosable trouble with reading and writing #or disabilities #i am talking about the people whose reading comprehension peaked at 8 years old #mifi rants

[dexaroth]

i cant believe the day but i finally got a full tower pc. bought it already built and at a considerable discount of some 320 dollars off. its fucking huge and theres so many things going on inside... i was initially planning on choosing the parts myself but finding the graphics card was so hard and everyone else convinced me to just buy it built and honestly? good. id probably have fucked this up so badly by myself

i cant use it yet bc i took too long to buy the monitor that was also on sale and now its regular price -_- tho i managed to find a discount used one for now. well see how that goes since ill get it tomorrow. i tested it on out living room tv and it had some kaspersky thingy open and like thats so cute. i hope they left some treats in the browsing history for me to search through before i wipe it clean

#its a hexer case and wouldnt you guess the front has a hexagonal pattern. so pretty.. #it came with 3 fans installed there too that have a cmyk color style to them and it looks quite neat. im thinking of buying some leds to pu #inside the case to go with my keyboard tho idk if id go that far tbh (< gamer rot is setting in. im not immune to pretty lighting..) #its also got a lot of unused space inside. im thinking of making more sculptures to put in. though idk if thatd be safe for it #bc cold porcelain is glue and water. what if it evaporates inside and suddenly everythings covered in a glue film #i wonder if varnish would help? the transparent nail polish sure didnt do shit it came off like 2 days after sculpting the rw slug sleeping #which like yeah of course. its nail polish. but i didnt expect it to flake since all it does is sleep on top of my laptop keyboard #i need miniature glass cake cover tops to encapsule every sculpture inside for safety #looking at it still no wonder these are called towers gotdamn its legit so huge.. #it looks awkward tho bc i cant fully make it glue to the wall bc of the cables so its like. awkwardly a bit in front of the wall #im scaared as to how to tell if it ever gets too hot. on a laptop u just press ur head against the left half and feel how hot it is #i think im gonna need software for this.. sigh. tho maybe ill never get to that point since its supposed to be decent #AND its not 8 years old + the 3 fans and gpu fan and cpu fan. surely thats enough. the case even has space for more than that!! #the acrylic side reflects my keyboard too. so niceys. stimulation for my creature eyes #my desk is gonna be so fucked up when i have to organize everything too bc the one i have now is perfecly laptop-oriented #it sits on a custom wooden desk and the keyboard+drawing tablet sit below. but theres a shelf on top of my desk thats too low for the> #>normal monitor to sit to so i wont be able to use the custom desk. and i dont even know what ill do with my laptop either #finally a good change in my sad life routine fr. i cant wait to play watchdogs on this and overgrowth and other ones #AND LAGLESS KRITA SMUDGE ENGINE BRUSHES!!! AND DOUBLE BRUSHES. THEYRE SO LAGGY #A N D ACTUAL FULL HD NORMAL MONITOR. maybe that will get me to not draw in small canvases anymore #now im anxious i just want the day to be over to get the monitor tomorrow aouugh.. just bc i started coding my resources neocities page #dextxt #<the 'major life events' ((sorta)) tag returns. one for the books.. if something bad happens.. itll be here to remind me of the good times

[waluigisgaybf]

trauma caused by a therapist really makes getting therapy for trauma a bitch

#she was my first ever counselor at like age 8 too #I legit sometimes forget why I such a HUGE time trusting or feeling comfortable with a therapist no matter how kind they are #and why I feel weirdly terrified of saying literally anything to them #cause a therapist misunderstands you one time and gets in your face in a panic #and basically courses you into saying yes when she asks if your being abused by a roommate #and then gets the police to show up at your school and then you have to somehow find a new home #and it’ll def stick with ya :/ #the shit didn’t even make any fucking sense #I was 8 years old #and I spent so so long feeling like it was totally my fault #and that I was an evil child and a horrible fucked up liar #actually shit I think I was 6 or 7 #but when I started to really think about what happened and how it started #that woman totally fucking acted SO unprofessional and even if it wasn’t her intent she tricked me into agreeing with what she said #SHE made the suggestion and scenario and got in my face and acted so so panicked and freaked out #and I was a baby who was so scared and confused as to why she was in my face freaking out #so obviously I just like yeah I guess immediately #it was a fuckinf drawing of our roommate we moved in with #and he was was holding me in the air and calling me Little Bug ?????????? #I just didn’t like him so it’s what I drew #and she didn’t even ask WHY I drew it so didn’t think to be like #idk he annoys me so this represents that #she instantly got down in my face and went “IS HE HURTING YOU #DOES HE DO THIS TO YOU #and made me panic and freak out and basically liked me through making up more to the story #course when the cops and shit asked I was like yeah no nothing she said happened #because they weren’t screaming in my face asking super baited questions

[citrus-system]

We call the new guy ‘Ctrl+Delete’ because whatever doesn’t spark joy he just instantly attempts to get rid of

#examples: our kitchen trash can. like 8 pieces of clothes. this blog. a good chunk of our photo album. #to name a FEW #he fronted for like… 3-6hr on Saturday and was just like #‘’hm… minimalism’’ #he’s still getting the hang of it lmao #he’s not like being malicious he’s legit just like ‘’why… why do I need a lace cream blouse *tosses in goodwill box*’’ #/meme #// #♟ #<- that bitch #he’s an old split from like #6 years ago #who just popped back up ig #he’s so old he wasn’t even in the records (Lee’s comfort lists)

[firsttraintovictoriaville]

my half brother and his family came to visit me and i was really going to write about how cute his kids were and how excited they were to show me their sonic fanart but now they doused me completely with the water hose and i’m bout to go to jail for beating up elementary schoolers 

#i was just sitting there chatting with my sister in law when bam a torrential downpour #i legit thought it was raining out of nowhere but no it was my nephews #nearly threw hands with an 8 year old #personal

[weirdthoughtsandideas]

So I just found out they're re-airing a kids show called Dockäventyren "The Doll Adventures". It's about two best friends who play with dolls.

There's a specific episode I remember so vividly where they got a super special doll from their doll-collecting neighbor as a gift, and the neigborhood bully decides to keep it to herself unless they do a bunch of scary tasks. The final scene is them being forced to go inside a dirty and dark room, and the one daring to stay in there the longest will get the doll. But they stop each other and decide it's not worth it.

Anyway when I was 7 I thought this was the most powerful scene of standing up to a bully and showing how strong their friendship is, that I've ever seen... but seeing it now...

Side note but the fact that the logo for the show was a doll and a skull... this show was kinda edgy I think they buried a doll in an episode

#THE GIRLS ARE SO SMALL #I remember legit thinking they were BIG GIRLS sdsxsfdc?? #they are literally like 6 years old #and the bully is like 8. they are all so small

[freytful]

Being visibly queer rules. Today i met an old friend i hadn’t talked to since middle school and our spiderman meme “Oh!! Youre also gay now!!” reactions without actually saying it were so perfect

#this mf majored in interior design. incredible #We got along good so i guess we'll be talking every time he gets his lunch break now :) #he legit still had some old picture of us being silly together on his phone??? it would have to be like. 8 years old or something. #we would have been at most 11 when that was taken #he straight up didnt recognise me because I Am A Different Person from when i was. 13+ #? i guess we would have been 13 when i last saw him?

[fdragon-art]

Day 347 - Misunderstanding

So I took a self-diagnostic test and it turns out I'm probably autistic.

...hooray?

It still doesn't explain why I never did my homework. It still doesn't explain why I never really had friends at school until I left primary school and hit high school. It still doesn't explain how I stopped liking things enough to spend weeks on an idea, even if it eventually didn't pan out.

...right?

Does it explain my less-than-ideal coping mechanisms? Does it explain my need to be so unbelievably private? Does it explain why, even as I may overshare at times, I don't truly trust anyone with my whole self?

Does it...?

I don't think it really helps much with my current day-to-day. I don't think it tells me what's really wrong with me. I don't think, even, that it's entirely accurate, despite the test being reliable and verified.

*sigh*

...but what if I'm wrong?

#miscellaneous #year 3 #writing #cw: negative #(I'm not actually sure what tag is appropriate but I felt it needed something) #I'd call it ''venty'' but there's not even strong feelings here heheh #I was mostly trying a thing and seeing if it worked pfft #But the statements aren't entirely irrelevant though. I do wonder about them #But it's not a flat-out ''nope. Can't be''. (It's actually more like a ''...is this the case? -proceeds to not follow it up-'' XD) #I was also going for the idea of ''Rejection of a possibility despite the present yet unknown evidence'' since that's more relevant #I did the RAADS test and got 110 (and another one where the cut-off was like 12 and the statistically important number was 32 and I got 35) #So that...probably says ''Yeah dude. You /are/ autistic like your 16 year old self thought might've been possible'' pfft #But part of me keeps thinking ''How can you tell what's autism and what's just not having enough social experience?'' #(As if I didn't go to school for 13 years and live with a family of 8 for 23 pfft) #I dunno. I think I'm just a touch confused about it all since I'm not even sure if it legit being true would help with more relevant issues #(Still of the mental variety though heheh) #But for some reason I'm actually pretty happy(? XD) having a high enough score that it's relevant pfft

[blackllghtburns]

I miss the cat I had in high school. Frankie. I got him at a flea market as a kitten and named him after Frank Iero and he would sit in my window and eat ice cream with me. No other cat will ever be Frankie 

#): I had to give him away when our house got foreclosed #along with my ferrets. I think about him so much #I hope he's doing ok and is still alive #he probably is. he'd only be like #... 7 or 8 years old now? #I legit loved that cat so much. legit got my first job so I could afford to get him neutered lmaooo

[rootfauna]

Every time I hear a variation of the argument ‘human women are the only animals that actively resist mating or deny a male animal access to them bc FEMINISM’ etc I remember being on my great-grandfather’s land down on the Osage Reservation. He had a few head of cattle and one cow had gone into heat and the bull had taken notice, but she was having NONE of it. The more he tried to mount her, the more pissed off she got until she kicked him. 

It was so much worse than it sounds. 

Despite human males calling their erections ‘boners’, they have no bone in their penis. This is NOT true for the majority of male mammals, bulls included. When this cow kicked him, she snapped it so instead of being straight, it was fractured to a 90 degree angle. The bull was in unimaginable pain, and, having not seen what occurred, 8 year old me legit thought there was some mutant monster outside on a rampage. THAT’S what it sounded like, and the bull was in such agony my great-grandfather didn’t even wait for the vet before putting him out of his misery himself (the bull would have had to be put down anyway). 

Ground beef for thought.