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phenomenalgirl9 · 2 years

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Elder Vampire! Seokjin x Newborn Vampire! Reader: Blood is Red

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Part ii

A/n: You need to read the first part before you read this. Idk how this is, its short though. Hope its going good.

(In this AU just the bute doesn't change you, it kills you untill you are provided the blood of an pure blood vampire within a certain time to get turned... my au my rules 😛) There are gonna be mentions of blood and almost death so read with caution.

Summary: Namu clan has always been very strict and secretive as to whom they let into their clan. And go strictly by the rules of the Vampire Community as to never put a threat to their identity. What happens when Jimin finds a girl on the verge of death in an abandoned street.

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"Take this" You noticed Seokjin giving you a box "This is your new calling device, what do you call it.. um.. a Felltone?"

You smiled and said "You mean a Cell phone?"

"Ah yes" he said sitting beside you "How do you feel?"

"I feel..." You trailed off thinking if you should really tell him. Then again, you did feel comfort in Him "I don't really know how to feel Seokjin"

"Jin" he said

"What?"

"Call me Jin instead of Seokjin all the time" he said smiling "and its okay to feel confused but you can talk to me or the boys anytime okay? Isn't it time for your weaponry training?"

"Yeah. Thanks" you said.

"So which weapon do you thing you can master?"

"I feel comfortable with swords. Did fencing when I was very small." You said

"Thats also happens to be my speciality" Jin said.

"Wow then I'll have to fight you to see" you said smirking.

"Are you challenging me?" He asked

"What if I am?" You winked and walked to the training areas.

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"Do you miss anyone?" Jimin asked.

"I miss my friends Hosu and Ciel, we were in the same orphanage after my parents died. I worked at a cafe but I'm sure the owner thinks I'm dead, which I technically am" you said shrugging.

"Hey! We aren't dead! Well technically but still!" Jungkook said sitting on the rails infront of you.

You both laughed at the bunny boy. These moments that you spend with them after training has become a routine now. They always tried their best to make you feel welcomed, all of them did for the past 2 weeks. You also learnt various new things about the people here.

You learnt that the vampires live in small groups under the clans. Every clan has different leaders and rules but a few basic rules are always maintained that are a few Lords somewhere in Rome. You've also learnt that vampires are not actually different beings but just humans with a bit different condition. Namjoon took a good hour to explain that being a vampire is not being immortal, but extra mortal, the body gets heightened abilities, more durability and the aging process goes very slow, but the body systems are still working and thus the need to feed on blood comes to keep the body healthy. And also so that one doesn't attack random people. A newborn nedd more often feeding, but as time goes the gap between 2 feeds can be prolonged. You've been feeding from blood bags warmed in the microwave every other day.

You've learnt that the one which you're in is the Bangtan house and here resides the Clan leader of the Namu clan, the one which all these people belong to and you too. And there are more houses belonging to this clan around the country. And there are other clans as well. Yes, the clan leader of the Namu Clan is Kim Seokjin.

You also learnt even though he looks young, Jungkook as actually one of the oldest turned Vampire, followed by Namjoon and then Taehyung. Then their were the ones like Jin, Jimin and Jihyo who were born vampire.

You had been better at using your heightened senses, being able to detect things from far.

"Hi Tae" you said as Tae appeared.

"Ah! You detected me! I was so fast!" He said

"I told you my senses were good even for a normal human" you said shrugging.

"Okay. But Jin hyung is calling you downstairs" he said. On hearing the name you felt like their were butterflies in your stomach that your slow heart beat faster, and so many more. Why? You don't know.

"Okay" you said and skipped downstairs.

"Hey Jin" you said, he was in the kitchen, that's when you realised, it was the dine in night of the house and all the members of the house are supposed to be present at dinner tonight.

"Hey! Yn-ah" he said, his voice sounding like music to your ears.

Suddenly you saw something that left you. "J-J-Jin! Garlics!!!! What are you doing!" You shouted.

"Yeah? How else am I gonna make Jjajangmyeon?" He said surprised.

"But! But! Isn't garlic bad for vampires?" You said. And as soon as the words left your mouth Jin burst out in laughter.

"You... Belive.... That?!" He managed to say and laughed again. Strangely, his laughed sounded like the sound of windscreen wiper of your old car.

All of a sudden, you hear a loud sound, you saw Taehyung, Jihyo and Namjoon run in

"We-we're under attack!" Jihyo said.

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charliedawn · 3 years

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What is their reaction when they find out that they may have grown attached to you ?

You know how Jason can be very insecure and self-conscious ? Well. Prepare for a whole new level. He will check himself in the mirror when you're not looking, and if he doesn't like what he is seeing ? He will smash the mirror and go in a corner to sit and move back and forth, to give himself some reassurance. He still remembers what his mother used to tell him.

" Persons are a nuisance, Jason. You don't need them to survive."

But then, why does he feel like he needs you ? He feels conflicted as to what to believe.

Super jumpy ! He will jump almost every time you touch him or lose his grip of the things he is holding, often ending broken and splattered on the floor. He would be as clumsy as Jason and would want you to spend more time with him. However, he would also be scared of you breaking his heart.

" I..I c..care.."

Like many of your patients, Brahms has trouble finding his words. At first, many thought he was mute, like Jason or Michael. This is why hearing him speak to you always means it is important.

" I..I care.."

He wants to say many things, how he cherishes every moment you spend together, how you make his heart race everytime you are near him or how he wants you to be by his side forever..But, he can't. He can just hope that what he feels can be expressed through eye contact. You may not understand what he wants to say, but you still try to understand. You put your hand on his and reply with a compassionate smile.

" I care about you too. You are a very good friend, Brahms.."

Did you just indirectly friendzone him ? Possibly..You walk out and Brahms sighs before sitting on his bed while hugging his doll to comfort him.

" You turn me on."

He will be absolutely frank about it. He will just step up and tell you in front of anyone. He doesn't give a damn if the others hear him as well. Also, creep alert, will watch you sleep. He will sneak in your bedroom in the middle of the night and just look at you sleep. He wants to touch you so bad, but he knows that that would wake you up. And he doesn't want that. He will just admire you from afar, even pretend that you may like him back. He would just want to get close to you, to look at you and wonder what you may be dreaming about..hoping that you are dreaming of him.

" Oh my sweet..You look so perfect when you sleep.."

Now..You know how Five is very serious about his relationship with Dolores ? Well, you better be prepared by lots of imaginary fights between the two of them, and even a break-up ! *gasp* Drama. He would be in a very bad mood and would scream and attack everyone that approaches his personal space. He would also smash everything in his room. Like, everything. So much that the other nurses would be too scared of him and ask you to handle it.

" Hey. Are you okay, Five ? Did something happen ?"

He would snort and look up at you with visible frustration.

" You happened. Dolores and I broke up. Not that she was one to share her feelings anyway."

You frown in incomprehension before asking with a small airy laugh.

" I don't understand, what does that have to do with me ?"

Your question seems to trigger a nerve and he suddenly stands up to look at you dead in the eye with anger and, somehow, pain..

" Everything ! You're too nice ! Too forgiving ! Too perfect ! You wiped our past as if it was nothing, goddammit ! We're serial killers, Y/N! We're monsters and you treat us as if we were..as if we were.."

He doesn't get to finish that sentence as he seems on the verge of tears. He jumps on his bed to sit and hide his face behind his knees. You seem to finally understand the problem and sigh before sitting next to Five.

" It's okay to have feelings, Five. You can't hide them forever. I'm sorry if it upsets you but, I don't think you're all that bad. Sure, you kill and even eat people. But, I've seen you change. You are a lot less violent and a few more months ? And I'm sure you'll be out of here in no time."

He looks up at you again with a sort of desperation, very uncharacteristic of Five, before finally asking in a tearful voice.

" What if..What if I don't want to go back ? Out there, I'm just a freak. But, here ? I got.."

He doesn't finish his sentence, but you guess what he is going to say and smile understandingly.

"..Friends ?"

He doesn't answer, he only suddenly hugs you tightly and hides his face in your skirt. You hesitate before slowly petting the top of his head affectionately. The gesture seems to relax him, but he quickly straightens up and wipes his tears away. He then stands up and apologizes.

" I..I'm sorry, it was highly inappropriate of me. I'll..I'll let you work."

Before you could say anything, he runs out of the room and leaves you confused and worried.

Lots of uncontrollable laughter. More than usual. He is very nervous when you're around him and sometimes cries while laughing, showing that he is deeply ashamed of his condition. He is very bipolar and will sometimes act very casually around you, only to break into tears when you leave the room. He will stare at you and turn his gaze away as soon as you would notice.

" Well, would you look at that ? Sir Sh*tty the clown seems to have a little crush on the nice nurse.."

Pennywise would tease him about it while Penny cackles behind him. Arthur glares at them both before either ignoring them or leaving the room.

No. Nope. Certainly not. He will try to hide from you. He knows very well what he is feeling, and also what happens to the people he feels this way towards. He just managed to get rid of his curse, he is not about to risk getting on a murder rampage again ! Every time he would see you, he would pretend to be busy or hide. One time, he even jumped out the window to get away from you. It is very odd since Michael is normally the most chill and calm out of all the patients. But one look at you ? And he becomes a panicking mess. He has to get away. He doesn't want to hurt you like he hurt everyone else close to him, like he hurt his family..

" Me ? Having feelings ? Ah !"

One word: denial. He doesn't want to hear about things like feelings. He saved you ? Bah. It was only because he was bored. He will deny everything, but still follow you and pop up out of nowhere to see what you're doing. He enjoys talking to you, even if he doesn't want to admit it.

" Pennywise..You're staring again."

Penny would gently warn him as his big brother would pretend to not have done such a thing.

" Can't an old clown appreciate to look at nice things sometimes ?"

Penny frowns, not understanding his big brother's words until Freddy intervenes by popping next to him with a huge grin.

" Let it go, kid. Your big bro is just too much of a chicken to go talk to her.."

Pennywise growls in annoyance at Freddy before raising his middle finger at him.

" F*ck off Freddy ! At least I don't watch her sleep like a total perv !"

That would result in a fight that you would have to break. Again..

" Pennywise..I think I'm sick.."

Pennywise would admit some day to Pennywise that would sigh in annoyance.

" Stop saying stupid sh*t. You know very well that we can't be sick."

But, upon seeing the devastated face of his brother, Pennywise sighs loudly before turning towards him to focus his whole attention on him.

" Fiiinnneee...Tell me."

Penny's mood seems to lit up as his brother seems to be willing to listen to him.

" OK, so it concerns the nurse, Y/N. Everytime they are near me, I feel things in my stomach, like a million kids were kicking me in there..Everytime they touch me, I feel as if a part of me in my chest is about to burst and I feel warm, very very warm. And then, I feel very very bad when they talk to anyone else..It's horrible. I want it to stop..Should I eat them ?"

Pennywise stays silent for a while before saying with an unusual straight face.

" Penny.."

He starts, but Penny starts panicking as he sees the sour look on his brother's face.

" Oh ! It's bad, isn't it ?! What is it ?! How long do I have ?!"

Pennywise rolls his eyes dramatically at his brother's exaggerated reaction before cutting him off in his worried questions.

" Shut up, you idiot ! You're not dying. You're just feeling.."things" for them."

Penny stops talking and frowns in confusion, his eyes diverging in deep concentration, as if trying to understand Pennywise's words.

" Things ?! What things ?!"

He finally asks with his eyes wide open in obvious loss and Pennywise face-palms himself before answering with a loud sigh.

" You're falling in love, you dumb f*ck !"

At the word, Penny's face freezes and his smile goes downwards as he realizes that his older brother is right.

" Oh, sh*t.."

He curses and Pennywise frowns, as Penny hates curses.

" Language ! I'm the only one allowed to use curses, remember ?!"

Penny nods before asking in a worried tone.

" How do I get rid of it ? I don't like it.."

Pennywise can't help but feel sorry for Penny, as he knew better than anyone that there was no turning back..

" I'm sorry kid. But if it's really love ? You can't..like I can't.."

Penny's eyes widen at his brother's confession.

" You..You..love her too ?"

Pennywise seems to realize what he just said and groans before walking away. He didn't want anyone to know, even though Penny is his brother. Penny understands the wish of his brother to be left alone and starts walking out in the garden to think over what his older brother said..Could it be ? Could he really be falling in love ?

Bonus : The deal

The Horde is blindfolded and dragged to another room where a man and a woman are waiting for them. At first look, he can already tell that this man is one of the unworthy. The unbroken. The weak..His interest is cut short and he then turns towards the woman sitting next to him. Now, this one was interesting..Her eyes betrayed a much deeper complexity and she had a scar running from her forehead to her left cheek that proved she was worthy.

" You..You are broken. Rejoice.."

The woman smiles, but before she could start talking, her partner does it for her.

" Mister Wendell Crumb, we have a mission for you."

But Kevin only grits his teeths at the man.

" You are impure..I want to kill you.."

The man arks an eyebrow, but ignores his threat.

" Fine. Whatever. But first, I want you to be my spy. We didn't get you out of this prison for nothing, mister Wendell Crumb. We want you to be our little spy in the facility. We want you to find out how a certain miss L/N managed to control the patients outside of the facility. Do that, and you'll be as free as a bird..Do we have a deal ?"

He frowns, they wanted him to spy on a nurse ? She must be quite special for them to go to such lengths, to use him as a spy..Yes, quite the unique prey. The Beast was already impatient and Kevin licks his lips before nodding.

" Fine, but on one condition. When you're finished with her, I get to eat her heart.."

The request seems to take the man aback, but it is the lady that Kevin is looking at. She smiles coldly before nodding in agreement.

" Deal."

Kevin finally smiles widely and can't help the excited giggle that gets out from deep within him. Then, the dark and low voice of the beast makes itself heard as the smile grows almost ferocious as he announces. .

" Let the hunt begin.."

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kiwikyuu · 3 years

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TUTOR ! YAMAGUCHI TADASHI

summary the yamaguchi you know in school is a lot different as a tutor

word count 948

genre headcanon ; fluff

warning(s) spoilers (third year yams), not edited

a/n tutor yams tutor yams tutor yams tutor yams tutor yams tutor yams. edit: i can't put a read more on this headcanon because it keeps adding repeats of lines :/

you were on the verge of failing math and if it wasn't for the pity your teacher took on you, you probably would have failed completely

she invited you to her office after class, taking a seat at her desk while you stood nervously waiting for judgement

"i will give you a chance to re-take your midterm in a week on the condition that you get a tutor and really try hard this time."

it was as if she had expected the question and she smiled; but before she could answer, the door to her office opened and in he walked

"ah, right on time!"

you wondered now if that was the day that you fell for him, clad in his school uniform with a warm smile on his face as his cheeks lit up red with embarrassment and awkwardness

"hi, i'm yamaguchi."

yamaguchi tadashi was the third year captain of the boys volleyball club. you had been to a couple of their games in the past, and he was surprisingly bold for someone who was usually so timid. not to mention the contrast of his shyness in comparison to his wilder friends on the team

you had only seen and heard of him in passing though. people always seemed to point out the difference between him and his best friend, tsukishima

he was what most called a "goody two shoes," and for some time, you even remembered the word "coward" being thrown around at his games in first year

"we can meet this weekend. i have practice in the morning but we can see each other in the afternoon."

"that sounds good."

"great. i know this cool studying spot by school that's not too far."

the week passed by much faster than you had expected and the weekend arrived quickly

bidding your family goodbye, you made your way towards the café yamaguchi had mentioned which was much harder to find than you had thought it would be

after some ten minutes longer than you should have taken, you stood before the quaint coffee shop. it was a hole-in-the-wall joint with soft, calming music and a sweet aroma that engulfed you in warmth

"was it hard to find? i realized a little late that it might be."

the yamaguchi tadashi that greeted you was neither shy seeming or soft looking

he had abandoned his school uniform for a pair of black jeans and a beige hoodie he wore under an oversized black denim jacket. his hair was slightly damp and when he turned to face you, you caught the light smell of cherries from what you assumed was his shampoo

if you were being honest, he sent butterflies straight to your stomach and you became painfully aware of how you were wearing sweats and a hoodie in comparison

"no, it was fine."

your voice was quiet as your eyes fell to the floor, and you were glad he didn't notice the heat flooding your face while you took the seat beside him in the booth he had been at

"okay, so i was thinking we could..."

yamaguchi was as charming as he was smart, and you felt your heart speed up at the rushing realization after your first study session

and as you two continued to meet up, you couldn't help the way your eyes followed down his to the slope of his nose and the freckles on his cheeks while he spoke about derivatives and logarithms

and you knew you were screwed when all you could focus on was how close he got to you, eyes peering over your shoulder to examine your work and hand brushing against your arm as he reached out to correct your mistakes while calmly explaining each one

it certainly didn't help that every time you saw yamaguchi, he looked even better than the last time

"are you nervous for the exam?"

you hadn't realized you had been staring and you averted your eyes, looking down at your notes instead

the midterm exam was tomorrow after long days of consecutive studying and you were finally feeling somewhat confident in your math abilities

although that would also mean life going back to its usual routine... without yamaguchi in it

"how about we make a bet?"

you glanced up at him as he ran his fingers nervously through his hair, a glimpse of a black stud pierced through his ear shining through and sending blood rushing to your ears

"what kind of bet?"

"if you get at least an 80 on your exam, i'll buy you whatever you want from the menu."

you looked over to the café's menu which hung up behind the cash register. you had off handedly mentioned that you wanted to try everything as an exaggeration after finding that the shop sold a variety of yummy treats, and your heart warmed at the fact he had remembered; but you shook your head at his offer

"then what do you have in mind?"

heart beating loud like drums against your chest, you swallowed all your anxiety and spoke with what little bold bravery you had

"i'm going to ace my exam, and when i do, let's go on a date."

his eyes widened with surprise, and you caught a hint of pink brushed across his cheeks at your request. for a moment, you thought he wouldn't agree and you were starting to beg for the floor to open up and drag you away from the situation when he nodded

"deal."

spoiler alert: you got a 97

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serenityseventeen · 3 years

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Love & Letter: To The Thirteen Boys I've Loved Before

The Tenth Letter

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To: Lee Seokmin

From: Y/N

Hi, Seokmin.

I have so many things I want to ask you but for this letter to you, I want to start at the beginning. The beginning of us. To me, you've been only sweet and caring and I couldn't have asked for more. I still respect your decision and I hope you won't regret choosing your dream over me.

I'm sure the public will love your voice just as much as I do. I still have the videos and mp3 files of your covers because your voice is just so utterly beautiful that I can't delete it, even though we broke up. Since I can't support you, an unborn artist, as your girlfriend, I'll support you as a fan.

When we first met, I was truly amazed by your vocals. I'm sure you noticed me staring because you looked at me and smiled at me while singing. At first, I was wondering why you were looking at me when there was everyone else in the crowd; and I later got the answer to that after.

I already told you this but yeah, because of you, I was late for my job interview. It was just for a part-time job and even though I needed a night job, I couldn't help but stop and listen to you sing.

At that time, I was having a stressful time. I had broken up with my boyfriend a few months ago and I wasn't fully over that yet. My dad was hospitalized for Cancer and I felt like I had no one to lean on.

Even though I was having a hard time then, I couldn't cry. I always thought that maybe it was because the hardships made me grow stronger. I thought that maybe I've cried too much in my life and now I just couldn't cry.

But when I heard your voice, my heart was aching, wrenching, and I just couldn't stop listening to it. I've always loved music but for some reason, your voice became a better medicine to me.

You were looking at me in that crowd when we first met because I had a tear rolling down my cheek. With fairy lights on the wall lighting up the corner of the store where you busked, I was crying because of the emotion and beauty in your voice.

At that time, after you performed, you asked me why I was crying. I lied and said it was because your performance was beautiful. This was the true reason behind it that I never got to tell you.

I still remember your pure eyes and sunshine-like smile. It was so bright. Your smile felt like a ray of sunshine slipping into my life that was a dark hole, offering me a hand.

Since I needed that hand, I accepted it. I reached for it and took it. That's how I would describe how we got together. You helped me smile with your pure, funny, and warm personality, and because of that smile, I could love you to the fullest.

You made me realize that sometimes, people need other people to help them cope with their problems. This realization caused me a bit of regret but I'm grateful that loving you could teach me this valuable lesson.

Seokmin, you were such a sweet and warm boyfriend.

For dates, whenever we did have time, you would bring me to the most memorable places. We would spend the day together having fun. Each place you picked left a memorable trace.

You were patient with me and didn't ask for much from me, which made me want to love you without any regrets. Sometimes it would be up to a week and a half before we saw each other again but each time you saw me, there was an even brighter smile on your face.

Our first kiss was at the beach and you took me there to help me refresh my mind. You were always thinking about me. When you took me to see the ocean, I felt it then, that I had to love you wholeheartedly.

That's why while we were sitting on the rocks, I brought your face to mine and kissed you. You must've been shocked at first but then you brought your hand to my jaw, massaging it gently, and began kissing me back sweetly. My heart was racing and that's when I was sure that I fell for you.

We celebrated Halloween together, dressing up as a ghost couple and I still remember the amount of fun I had painting your face with white. You were so playful and full of youth that I couldn't help but kiss you then too. My face got white paint over it because of you but I still enjoyed it.

Whenever you were busking, I would come to watch you and record you so proudly. Sometimes, I would be so sure that you were singing a specific song for me. It was like your way of saying “I love you”.

Even if you didn't tell me that you were busking, I would just happen to pass by and hear your beautiful voice. Once I heard your voice, I had to stop and find it.

With you, I was able to forget everything and have fun amidst my life crisis. You supported me with every choice I made. You gave me confidence and whenever I was on the verge of breaking down, you came to me.

I remember this one time where I was out just wandering in a park at night blankly because my father's condition worsened suddenly. I was ignoring your calls and I didn't have enough money, everything was falling apart.

I don't know how you found me that night but as I was wandering in the dark silence, I heard your beautiful voice call my name. When I turned around, you had already run close enough to pull me into your arms.

I burst into tears while buried in your chest with your hand reassuring me by patting the back of my head. You repeated softly, “It'll be okay, I'm here for you.”

In the winters, you would come and wait by my dorm early in the morning, knowing that I needed to work a morning shift. You gave me a beautiful red scarf and would always warm my cheeks up with heating pads.

I still remember the first time you came to my dorm unauthorized and waited for me in the cold. Your cheeks and the tip of your nose were cold and pink but once you saw me, a bright smile lit up your face.

You came to me with a beautiful smile and reached out your cold hands to my cheek.

“You shouldn't be dressed so poorly for this weather,” You took out the red knitted scarf from a bag and wrapped it around my shoulders, then with a hot pack in each hand, you cupped my cheeks.

I was surprised, that's why I couldn't say anything back then.

You then gently bumped your forehead against mine and smiled purely. “Have a good day at work, call me when you finish, okay?” You said, smiling softly.

I just nodded and didn't thank you until you started leaving. You turned around and smiled at me again, making me melt. Then, you waved at me and continued walking away.

Now I know why you did such a thing for me.

I was so happy to know that someone was caring for me. It made me delighted to know that that person was you, the man that I loved. With your blissful, blessing voice, I just fell more and more in love.

I just remember thinking, ‘this is it,’ and that you and I would have our happy ending.

I'm not disappointed that we didn't get the happy ending that I wanted but even though we didn't, life has more opportunities for both of us. Maybe a happy ending wouldn't come just yet because, from the looks of it, our journeys are just unfolding.

Since you were there for me and supported me in everything I did, when you came to me and asked if you should join an entertainment company, I wanted to support you too. You made me happy so if your dream was happiness, then I supported it.

“Y/N, should I join an entertainment agency?” I remember you asking me.

I didn't know how to reply then. I didn't want you to go but I then realized that I couldn't keep you here either.

“You can if you want to.”

“If I join one, I can't date you.”

“If it's your dream, then it's fine. Just remember me.”

You didn't reply for a bit.

“Are you sure it's okay? I love you and I don't want to leave you but...”

“If this is your only chance, take it.”

I smiled at you.

Seokmin, I'm glad that you were able to join the entertainment agency that you auditioned for.

I thought that when we broke up I would cry but I didn't. I was happy. I was happy for you and reminiscing everything that made me happy was enough. Being with you left enough memories for me to stay happy for a while.

Whenever I miss you during these lonely snowy nights, I listen to and watch your covers. It's almost hard to believe that I loved someone like you for a short while. Seeing you again in my gallery seemed like you were an angel who came to heal me.

I'm sincerely grateful to you, Seokmin. I love you too, Seokmin. I miss you too, Seokmin.

Are you eating well? Make sure you take care of your voice. Are you happy yet? Have you made any friends?

I hope that you'll reach your dream soon.

I'm sure that training is hard but I'll wait for the day I can hear your voice live again; not from the videos on my phone, but a local TV station, or someone else's phone. I'll wait for that day.

For now, I'll stay your biggest fan.

I'll still love you. My love for you will never change, even if I meet someone else. I'll love you as a fan.

All I can do now isn't much, and though you probably don't know, I'm cheering for you. I still am. I'm your biggest supporter.

I won't try to fall out of love with you.

I'm sure I'll recognize you on the day your dream comes true.

Yours truly,

Y/N

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7/4/21 - 3:59 pm

a/n: Happy July 4th. My family originally had plans today but apparently, we haven't done anything according to our plan? Whatever, I'm excited to see fireworks. + Perfect timing, our Kyeom has Instagram now and gosh can he stop being so cute!?

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shelby-love · 4 years

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JAY HALSTEAD

Mourning

Requested: yes

Prompts: “I let you down. How am I supposed to forgive myself for that?” ; "We have to tell him. He deserves to know." ; "He won't be able to handle it. He'll self-destruct." ; "You are always the 1st priority to me.”

Warnings: heavy angst (mentions of blood, stab injury, detailed hospital arrival, miscarriage, death), sad

Authors note: This made me shed a tear. The ending is sad but hopefully positive. Good luck!

You happily skip to work. Turns out your morning sickness is the first sign of your early pregnancy. You hold your still not visible belly and greet everyone in the district with a cheery voice.

Sargent Platt looks at you weirdly but decides not to press it as you lean against her reception desk. "Hello."

"What happened to you? You're glowing," She scans you top to bottom over the desk. You don't give her anything to make her suspect. With a bright smile and a wink you start waking up the stairs. You make the best of your current emotions because you know the moment you throw up again you'll have your day ruined.

You experienced the sickness quite early, but you went to the doctor after a full two weeks. You just didn't think anything of it. A yesterday it got so bad that you ditched Jay and drive yourself to the doctor's office. You're 7 weeks along.

You didn't mind. You knew Jay would be happy about this baby. A few months ago you brought up the subject and you two said that when you get pregnant, at whatever time or point in life, both of you will be happy whether or not the baby was planned.

"Good morning sunshine," Your boyfriend's voice startles you. He stands by the coffee machine with a cup of hot steamy coffee in his hands. He raises the cup, "You want some babe?"

"Nah I'm good," You approach him with the same glow and give him a kiss.

"Someone's happy," He notes and sits next to you at the table. You decided that, since today is Friday and you both don't have work tommorow you'd suprise him with the big news on a sunny Saturday.

Different ideas of how you'd tell him start blowing up in your head. One better than the other. He is going to be so happy.

You shrug innocently.

"Halstead, Y/LN. Noise complaint at abandoned building, thought you two might want to check out." Your Sargeant, Hank Voight announces. Since today started off calmly you just shrug and stand up. Those calls aren't that bad. "I'll have patrols near you two just in case."

"Don't worry we got this," Jay says and grabs you your jacket. You stand in front of him as he helps you put it on. An image flashes in your mind briefly. You with a big belly standing in front of Jay as he helps you put your jacket on. You smile.

"Alright. Let's go," You say and follow your boyfriend outside.

***

You hold the flashlight above your gun. You can see Jay's light behind you and that incourages you to step in further. Both of you swore that you heard a woman scream. It was loud and clear. But even if your hearing was messing with you (it didn't because you both heard the same thing), in places like this one, unexpectedly, you can find a lot of dope. Different types of drugs all gathered up at one place. It was worth looking into for sure.

You and Jay decide to separate from each other just for a little bit. When your whole unit is together in situations like this one, Jay and you never separate. But you needed to cover as much ground as you could.

You turn several different corners and find no thing and no one. You move your hand to grab your radio. At that small moment, with calculated movements a masked person jumped at you with what looked like a knife. The look in his eyes gave you creeps and you didn't have time to react before he stabbed you.

Not once. Not twice.

Three, four, five, six times.

After that you could barely stay conscious. Blood was pouring out of you like Niagara falls. And so were your tears. They traveled down your face in messy streaks. My baby.

Then you hear a gun shot. The masked man fell right down next to you. You didn't know where to look. You clutched your stomach. He hurt my baby.

"Y/N babe look at me. Hey stay with me!" Jay's rough hand cupped the side of your face and clutched your bleeding stomach. Instead of holding his hand over yours because he wanted to feel the baby, he held it close because he didn't want you to bleed to death.

"We have an officer down, critical condition, stabbed by the offender! The offender is down dead shot fired by the police. I need an ambulance here immediately!!" Jay was barking orders into his radio like a crazy maniac. He didn't want to loose you.

"Baby please stay awake. Talk to me Y/N please!" Your head is lies in his lap. His shirt is now gone completely, it's nested at your bleeding belly already soaked completely. You're barely holding on, you keep gaging and vomiting blood. And just this morning you couldn't be happier for vomiting.

"I-I'm sorry Jay."

***

"Doctor Rhodes! Stab victim, you're going to Baghdad!" Maggie instructed and Connor immediately fled towards the incoming patient.

"Y/N Y/LN, 22-year-old female. Heart rate 100, BP 50/30. Found diaphoretic, in respiratory distress, and covered in blood. 6 stab wounds to her abdomen. We performed intubation on the scene." Silvie Brett recited your dangerous condition as you were rolled into the Gaffney emergency department. Connor Rhodes was schocked to see you. "Page Will. Now."

Your vitals were jumping at dangerous heights. "Alright let's transfer on my count. One, two, three!"

"Jesus Christ... Y/N?" Will couldn't believe his eyes. Jay was just outside shaking because of your condition. Will read your stats on the monitor and came to assist Connor. Will pressed his stethoscope over your chest and listened carefully, "There's diminished breath sounds on the left side."

"Blood is gathering around her left lung. Alright, April give me the kit we need to do a tube thoracostomy." April did as Connor said and preped his request. He cut a small line with the scalpel and inserted the tube. Blood spilled everywhere.

"Give me the ultrasound." Will instructed and April handed him the transducer on which she put one some gel. Will glided the transducer across your belly to look for any more internal bleeding. "Her major organs seem to be fine..." then he moved it downwards and was shocked to see a small baby inside. "She was pregnant."

He looked outside towards Jay and immediately knew you didn't tell him. Hell, he didn't even know if you knew. The baby was still so small, but it did have a heartbeat before the stab wounds. Will cursed.

Your vitals dropped rapidly at that moment. "She's in V Fib!" Connor yelled.

"On it." Will immediately hopped onto the bed and started doing compressions. He kept repeating, c'mon Y/N c'mon. Jay who stood outside lost it completely when he saw what was happening. Security and Dr. Ethan Choi had to hold him down.

"Charge to 200," Connor said as he grabbed the the padels. "Everyone clear."

Will pulled away and Connor shocked you. Nothing. "Do it again."

After three more tried Connor wanted to announce asistoly. "No, no, no Y/N c'mon. Connor one more time."

"Will she's gone."

"No Connor one more damn time please!" Will was on the verge of crying. Connor nodded and charged them again. "Clear."

You were brought back to life. "Okay let's get her to the OR immediately! She needs a diagnostic laparotomy and a D&C."

You were rushed out. Will stood in the middle of the trauma room surrounded by blood. "How is she?" Jay had tears around his eyes, he was tense and uncontrollably shaking.

"I don't know Jay... I don't."

For a second it looked like Jay was going to punch him square in the face but instead Jay leaned against his brother's shoulder and cried like never before. "I was supposed to ask her to marry me tommorow."

Will's heart broke at his words.

But what broke him even more was the fact that his younger brother lost a baby he didn't even know he'd have.

***

"She just went through a major surgery, I'd like to monitor her before we go any further." Connor told Jay. The whole Intelligence unit was there. Everyone was deeply concerned about you.

"What are we going to do Will?" Connor and he stood by your bed and watched your sleeping form.

"She knew about it I'm sure of it," Will said. "Let's talk to her when she wakes up. Page me when she does."

Will went to attend his other patients and after a few hours you woke up. "Hey Y/N how you doing?"

You tried to get used to the bright lights but with no avail. Everything seems foreign to you. Dark spots blurry your vision but you blink them away. My baby.

Tears spill down your cheeks uncontrollably. "M-my...baby."

Connor and Will share a look. "Y/N does Jay know?" Will asks you before he sits down next to you.

You shake your head. "I...I was only 7 weeks along." There's pressure in your throat which makes you cough, "I wanted to tell him tommorow." Your heart broke at your words. You blamed yourself for your recklessness.

Will sighed, "We have to tell him. He deserves to know."

You shake your head rapidly at that proposal, "He won't be able to handle it. He'll self-destruct." You know Jay. Maybe even better than Will. He would be heartbroken.

"Y/N as your doctors we have to tell him," Will fought back.

"As my doctors you have to keep my charts a secret." You tried to blink the tears away but they wouldn't go away. You were fighting a battle within yourself. You wanted to tell Jay but he's been through enough. "I lost my baby today. I found out that I was pregnant today."

"Y/N but Jay was the father of your baby. He has every right to know that he lost his child whether he knew about it or not." You understood where Will was coming from. The truth in his words hit you like a truck. He was right.

"Then...let me tell him Will," You squeeze his hand. "Let me."

"I'll go get Jay," Will announces and rushes out of your ICU room to get his brother. To get the love of your life.

"You're doing the right thing, Y/N. I'm so sorry for your loss." Connor says softly. You just nod weakly and turn your head away from him. Connor leaves not long after and you sob. Just this morning you were skipping to work, delighted about the news of your unborn baby. You did a stupid thing by going to work today. You put your weak hand over your mouth to muffle your sobs.

Drained you once again slip into unconsciousness.

"Hey Y/N take it easy..." Jay. He's helping you sit up on the bed a little. His eyes are red rimmed from crying and he looks like he didn't sleep for weeks. He's still in his grey shirt, it's covered in your blood. He didn't change because he never left your side. "God I was so worried."

You hold his hands in your lap and bring them to your lips. You press a small delicate kiss on both of his knuckles. "I'm so sorry baby."

You shake your head, "This isn't your fault Jay."

"Yes it is. I was supposed to protect you. I let you down. How am I supposed to forgive myself for that?" Tears gather around his eyes once more.

"Jay..." You try to pick your next words carefully. "Can you give me my bag?"

He turns his head and stands up. Your bag sits on one of the chairs in the corner. He grabs it and sits back next to you. "Open it. It's in one of the pockets."

The best way to tell him about it is to show him. You stop breathing as you watch him pull out the ultrasound from this morning. The shock on his face is enough for you to break down is cries. "I'm so sorry."

He holds your hand in his as he looks at it. At first, a smile broke out on his face but then it was replaced by devastation. He realized you lost your baby because of today. That fact that your baby died from stab wounds broke his heart. You almost died from those stab wounds.

His silence killed you. You wanted him to yell at you. Anything. Just not silence.

Jay Halstead is a strong man. But when it comes to you all of his guards come down and he shows you his heart. He was hurting now. He lost his child but he was in no way angry at you.

The two of you cried together. You mourned the loss of your unborn child.

You blamed yourself and he kept reassuring you. He didn't have the heart to tell you that turns out, there's a lot more to the abandoned building noise complaint and to the man who he shot dead. And he was going to find them all.

"You are always the 1st priority to me." He cupped your face and kissed the free spirited tears away. "We're going to get through this. I love you Y/N Y/LN."

He loved you more than the world. You smiled weekly and kissed him. You poured all your emotion into the kiss. You were scared and sad but you will get through this. With Jay by your side and one day, you will have a family.

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ketsuyuki-hibana-typed · 4 years

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Requested by @michakune

So, heyooooo guys! I'm back

Not enough dumb-dumb Giyuu, I guess. Oh, just a reminder if you're western (because some cultures are different? Idk), I'm following the Japanese method on how to take care of sick person.

Tomioka Giyuu x Sick!Reader (ModernAU)

"(y/n), just stay on the bed."

"I'm not that sick..."

"You are, you are really sick. I'm going out to buy the medicine Kanae told me. So, rest."

You pouted. Giyuu didn't take it to his heart, his priority now is how he turned down your fever as fast as he could.

Giyuu might not has experience in taking care of sick person, but he Googled and had just called Tsutako for some advices.

He sticked the cold plaster onto your forehead, also, not forgetting to put mouth mask on your face. Slowly, he wrapped you in big haori to make you warm, and made you sweating faster.

"Rest." He kissed your forehead. Your reddened face, your half-lidded eyes, your heavy breath, Giyuu couldn't see you like this, not in sick state.

When he went out to drugstore, your stubborn ass moved from the bed, put off the haori. You're trying to do house chores like usual.

Because, we talked about Giyuu here. If you let him do all of these, this house will be a mess jungle.

But after you putting the laundry, you could feel a sharp pain attacking your head and it became heavier. You huffed your breath, slowly dropping your body and sagged your back on the wall.

Maybe, he's right.

When he came home, he was panicking because he couldn't find your figure on the bed. After checking and calling out your name, he finally found you ded on the floor

You didn't really recall but you remembered he called your names and brought you back to the bed. When you opened your eyes, you saw his worried face, seems like ready to call ambulance.

"Gi- Giyuu I'm fine, no need to-"

"Didn't I tell you to not move from your bed?!" He started to scold you. You knew you deserved to have long lecture, but after that, he just sighed.

"Don't scare me like that again." He tugged you again inside the haori plus the blanket. "I will make porridge for you."

You nodded.

Since Giyuu can't 'trust' you anymore, he locked the room to make you stay on the bed.

Wait, porridge? Could he cook? Now, you couldn't really sleep, thinking about him.

He walked to the kitchen, stared at the stoves, refrigerator, and the shelves.

Actually confused where he should start because he's not knowing a single goddamn thing about how to cook porridge.

And yet, he acted like hero who will feed you and hoping you say, 'It's delicious, Giyuu!'

Well let's try. Maybe Giyuu could make a decent but probably not really great on your taste bud. But at least, you could eat it.

He couldn't reach Tsutako this time. He started to surf again on the internet, tried to find easiest recipe.

So anyway- remember that I mentioned Giyuu is a dumb-dumb?

Now, make it 'Giyuu is a dumb-dumb-dumb man' because he forgot that the spare key on the bedroom is inside the wardrobe, so you could easily slipped off.

Well, actually, you wanted to let him cooking for once, but you abolished that mind when you sniffed burnt smell outside the room.

You grabbed your blanket, unlocked the door and stepped quickly towards the kitchen.

"Oh My God, Giyuu."

You saw him holding burning napkin, pans and pots were everywhere.

"I'm- wait how did you go out."

"Nevermind me, your hands are burning!

You tighten your haori around your body, walking towards him and pulling his hand to the sink. You turned the water tap, it started to flow under his hands.

"You don't need to do this for me." You pointed to the first aid box on the wall, signed him to apply ointment for his burns.

"But you have to eat something..."

"If you still insisted-" You sat down on the dining chair. "I'll guide you. You do as what I told, how is that sound?"

"I want you to rest but... I can't reach Tsutako-nee san either. Seems like I had no choice. No one sells porridge at this hour. Please tell me if you felt worse."

"Will do."

So, you told Giyuu on what he should do, what he should put first, where he could find the seasonings, and how long he had to wait until the rice became porridge.

"How do I rinse the rice?"

"Like this." You raised from your seat, walking towards him and guided his hand from behind, telling him how to make spin motion inside the aluminium bowl.

"I'm sorry, it will be fine now. So please go back to bed."

"Are you sure."

"I will not fail this time." He escorted you back to the bedroom.

When the porridge was ready, he's bringing the food on small table.

"Be careful, it's still hot." He patiently fed you, wiping your mouth from the mess.

"It's delicious."

"Really?" He smiled softly. "I'm too afraid to taste it."

Seeing you happy and content made him relieved that his cooking wasn't that bad.

After eating, Giyuu checked your temperature again.

"Still high..." He put off the plaster from your temple, sticking his forehead onto yours, tried to figure out if the thermometer didn't lie. "It's burning. You should really rest now."

"But I'm sweating. Shouldn't it be fine soon?"

"You'll be fine. Do you want to change your pajama?"

You nodded. He helped you putting off the layers, wiping your back with warm wet towel.

"Um... Giyuu... I could do... The front by myself."

"Oh, right." He hid his blush, averting gaze to another side.

After changing clothes, Giyuu gave you the medicines he bought earlier and make sure you drink them all. He put the new plaster on your forehead.

"...the plaster is cold." You shuddered.

"It decreased your fever." He swiped your bangs, hold the face mask by the ear loops and placing a loop around each of your ears. "Now rest. I will accompany you until you sleep."

He climbed the king size bed, positioned himself under the blanket. He gave 'hand-pillow-, pulling you closer to his chest. He patted your back, busy kissing your top head. His feet was tangled with yours.

"Um, Giyuu, you shouldn't sleep with me. You'll catch a cold too."

You coughed under his chest. He startled a bit, asking if you need water or something. You shook your head.

"No, I'll be fine." He continued to caressed your back. "Get well soon, okay?"

"Uh-hum."

"Tsutako-nee san will come to visit you tomorrow."

"Giyuu."

"Hm?"

"I'm sorry. We couldn't go to hot spring because of me." You curled into him while clenching his shirt.

"What are you talking about? It's not your fault."

"But... You've booked-"

"Don't worry about the money. I'm more concerned about your health, so you should too."

Giyuu put off his chin from your head, propping your body up and making you look his face. His thumbs made circle motion on your cheek.

Your teary eyes, heavy breath, and feverish face in this weak condition really made him sad.

"Hnn, Giyuu... I really wanted to kiss you. But I'm afraid that the fever will-" He cut your voice with quick kiss on your mask-covered lips.

"Your face became more reddened? Does the fever raise again?" He sticked his temple onto your plaster, his hand was cupping your cheek.

"That's not it... Suddenly kiss me like that... It's not fair..." He let out soft chuckles. You closed your eyes, sinked in his chest and heard his slow heartbeat.

Giyuu actually wanted to cry. He can't focus on anything but you, especially when he left you to buy medicines. He looks like totally calm, but if he could be honest, his heart can't take it, even though you're not in verge of death or anything.

He felt like he was incapable to take care of you. He didn't know how to do it properly.

He didn't know how to make you better.

"Giyuu."

"Yeah?"

"You shouldn't worry about me too. Thanks for everything you did to me. I will be better soon so you should rest too, okay?" You said before sleep.

Giyuu was just being quiet and exhaled in relief.

"I know."

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