#idk sometimes it feels like i really have no idea what's going on in the larger picture and it just feels :

[comradekatara]

i read somewhere that, after the war, zuko at least hands hama over to the swt instead of keeping her in fire nation prisons 'till the end of her life. Which is nice, I think. But I'm also curious as to how that would work out.

Most notably: how do you think it'd go down if she were to meet Pakku? given they both have some sort of connection to kanna's life, the idea of them being forced to interact even once entertains me very much. like, old waterbending master pakku—white lotus member—who has grown up in a patriarchal society and actively forbidden women from training to fight, under the precedent they are somehow ontologically weaker, fragile, and belonging in the healing huts... THAT guy, meeting his former fiancé's old friend: (or current wife's if you go by canon, which, eugh) A woman who not only fought in the front lines but ended up becoming one of the most skilled, creative, and deadly waterbenders in history. How would he react when finding out that a woman came up with blood bending? How badly would Hama mind-fuck him?? Because I'm confident they'd hate each other's guts-- no way she'd tolerate him,,,

And on a similar note—how would Kanna feel upon reuniting wirh Hama and discovering what she put Katata through, in your opinion? Idk, I'm just full of puppetmaster thoughts today. Hama is incredibly interesting and I wish she wasn't handled so much like a Halloween Specisl creepy witch, (even though katara herself is handled and written pretty well in this episode, i think. but i digress.)

i mean obviously i think about this all the time. i personally think that zuko hands hama over to the swt upon katara's request, and she and aang personally deliver her on appa (sokka is not there, for the very deliberate reason that if he knew what they were doing he would very vocally disapprove). and so katara is sort of retraumatizing herself by doing this, but she also feels like it's necessary specifically because she needs to be able to look hama in the eye and tell her why they're not actually the same (especially now that she actually did bloodbend someone in cold blood). katara has the love and support and safety to step back from her anger and her pain and her grief and hang onto her own humanity and allow herself to be the bigger person even in moments of abject rage and acute trauma, and hama doesn't. hama is a victim of her circumstance, and that's part of what makes her so uniquely terrifying to katara, because katara has that same capacity to make people hurt, she has the same tools at her disposal, and she has the same justifications to exercise that power. but unlike hama, she hasn't actually been pushed past her limits. sometimes she can see the cliff's edge, and sometime she even teeters on the line, but hama was fully just shoved off without a parachute, and that's really what separates them above all. i think katara should be allowed to acknowledge that and forgive herself for that, even if hama doesn't directly apologize to her (although in my mind she does, and it's not enough, but it's also so much more than katara ever expected to hear). even if it is too late for hama, katara deserves to heal.

frankly, i don't really give a shit about pakku or his reaction to hama. i also don't actually think that he thinks woman are ontologically incapable of being talented waterbenders of whatever; he's a pretty worldly guy, the reason he clings to these traditions isn't born of the belief that they're grounded in logical evidence like sokka's is, it's because he believes in the preservation of a system that benefits and valorizes him. pakku thinks katara belongs in the healing huts because he comes from a culture that dictates that women belong in the healing huts. like, he might also subscribe to the bioessentialist logic that women are better healers and men are being fighters, but that honestly doesn't really matter, because (unlike sokka) his epiphany lies not in the fact that woman can fight, but in the fact that his role in upholding these systems has actively driven his loved ones away due to his cruelty. he decides to be kinder, to women and in general, because he realizes that being an asshole has negative consequences. but frankly, who cares what he thinks of hama. realizing that your sister tribe in the south deserves aid and protection after being subjected to a century of genocide is kind of too little too late imo. unlike katara, sokka, aang, or kanna, who can approach this situation from the perspective of being a genocide survivor who even remotely understands hama's trauma, pakku really has no place in this conversation to me.

as for kanna...... god. hama/kanna reunion is genuinely one of the most heart-wrenching concepts to me in all of atla. as a sidenote, hama/kanna fanfic goes so hard every time. there's a total of like 15 fanfics for them on ao3 (last i checked) but they're all sooooooo. fucking delicious. tide locked........... ugh. anyway. i cannot fathom kanna's reaction upon learning that her closest friend once upon a time is not only alive, but also a convicted felon, for crimes including but not limited to manipulating her granddaughter, violating her (and sokka's) bodily autonomy in cruel and perverse ways, and forcing her to participate in that mode of violence in a way that traumatized her forever. even if you don't read them as former lovers (although it is indubitably better that way) it's so gut-churning. kanna lost so many people over the course of her life, and to learn that one of them has returned but in the worst way possible must be mind-boggling and distinctly unreal. like how do you even process that. first, how do you process how much pain she must have went through to become the kind of person who is capable of doing this, and then, how do you process the knowledge that the person you once loved most in the world irreparably hurt the person you now love most in the world? obviously she would always prioritize katara's safety over anyone else's no matter what, but god. kanna has led such a fascinating and impossibly difficult life, and it's not over yet.

#kallianthi #asks #analysis #postwargaang #hama #katara #pakku #kanna #hamaxkanna #hama&katara #also i didn't mention it in the post itself bc i've talked about it before but yeah i very much agree that i wish hama had been framed #differently because i do feel like making her into a cackling witch kind of undermines the whole point of the episode #she's someone who is deserving of our empathy and understanding despite her violence and by reducing her into a caricature #we lose that nuance #but otherwise it's such a fascinating episode.... #kataraaa.... katara i love you katara <33333

[rainyfirecollection2]

out of curiosity what's the moment being a hardcore Ruben stan really clicked for you

Really good question, thank you for asking.

I enjoyed when he was onscreen, even on first watch, but that's not exceptional. Brennan does great voices etc, he's a very funny presence, but all this can apply to Gertie, or a billion other NPCs. His art is so huggable, but that wouldn't be it on its own.

He kept growing on me slowly every time I went back through scenes to fact check and he was there. Even when we actually had the episode where we found out about Jace's involvement in his life and the confrontation with Henry, I got more engaged with his character but I wouldn't say I reached my full tipping point quite yet.

But what happened was, there were a couple posts where people thought it might be a trick, and that Henry was being inappropriate. Jace snapped because he was under stress, but ultimately he wasn't wrong in telling Henry to butt out, kind of thing.

I don't want to shame anyone for having that idea, it's a mystery season and I think it's normal and fine to reach for possibilities that stretch what's likely sometimes. But ya know, I went back through the scene to double-check my memories, and get the quote about Jace saying that he didn't even read all of Henry's concerns. (Which I feel like made Jace pretty clearly Wrong in that scene, even if he had turned out to just be a shitty teacher/administrator and not Ankarna-connected.)

And as I was again going back through his scenes and he kept growing on me, I was making more posts about him and realizing how few other people were posting about him in the tag. I got to thinking about it, like

"well hang on, we have this character with a great design. he's presented a lot like the emo equivalent of Zayn's caricature of gothness in season one. they've already investigated and found out he doesn't have a history of being toxic to anyone even though he's famous now and has the opportunities. and we just got huge evidence that the 'maybe some of the RGs are being manipulated and actually fine' that people wanted for Oisin in particular might actually be true for him."

and my first instinct was to check myself and go like "well remember just bc you're super invested in small NPCs doesn't mean anyone else would be, he's actually very minor and has little screentime-HANG ON A MINUTE. he's had more screentime than any other Rat Grinder! So then why-ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" And idk something about this kid who had more people going "maybe his uncle is evil for trying to protect him" than "oh damn we just found out he needs to be protected" made me go you know what. if nobody else is gonna take this corner of fandom than somebody gotta

And I rolled up my sleeves.

#fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #fhjy spoilers #ruben hopclap #rat grinders

[loverboybrightsideghost]

i’m gonna be so honest i have no fucking clue what's going on in malevolent

#bluebird.txt #yes i am completely caught up. arthur goes on so many side quests that k don't even remember what the main quest is. #separate them??? king in yellow something????? #ik larson has yellow in his head. ik he has something to do with the cult of the fallen star. or whatever it's called #i know the butcher was out to get him but that's not a problem anymore presumably #i know kayne. i know john has a secret deal with kayne. i know those ladies from the beginning of the podcast. anna and sara i think. #um. #yeah #idk #malevolent #i need to relisten i guess #idk sometimes it feels like i really have no idea what's going on in the larger picture and it just feels :/ #i do love the characters but the plot is kinda losing me personally bc it just goes on and i can't remember the connecty bits #makes me sad #i am looking forward to the xmas special though

[asurrogateblog]

I feel like everyone has an opinion on rpf when your in these sort of 'fandoms' (for a lack of a better word) what's yours?

I find these discussions really interesting because it's very morally gray. I don't tend to think it's particularly harmful, but I wouldn't call someone wrong for being uncomfortable with it either. I do, for instance, think it's absolutely crossing a line to purposefully expose someone to rpf involving themselves or people they know. that's just basic human respect. it also gets iffy when the person in question has a heavy online presence and is likely to come across it accidentally. but for the kind of people that we're mostly talking about (dead or very old men), it's not like they're gonna be on tumblr or ao3 or anything, so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯.

to an extent, i do also think that part of the deal-with-the-devil you make when you want to be famous is that you have to accept being treated like a fictional character instead of a real person (I can get very philosophical about this point). things like fanfiction just come with the territory, so there's only so much you can judge it when that's...kind of what you signed up for

so, all in all, rpf is (mostly) fine? just be respectful.

#like. im -sure- paul mccartney would at least publicly object to mclennon fanfic #so then... don't... look for it? #idk. I get conflicted. its complicated. #I go back and forth on whether I disapprove of rpf about syd. #sometimes it seems like its violating his wish to just be left alone #but at the same time... no one is really harmed #this is an example of what we call 'moral dumbfounding' in my area of psychology #when you feel like something is wrong but when you analyze it you can't identify a specific negative impact of the behavior #i have my ideas about it. but now's not the time. it's just interesting. #asks

[ozymoron]

reading posts that come across my dash and sitting for a minute to debate with my mental disorder if not reblogging this will mean a hell portal will open beneath my feet and i will suffer for eternity for my lack of action or if its all good and i can just scroll on by (its usually the hell portal thing)

#⚠️ #personal #having ocd makes making moral decisions so fucking hard for no reason #cause ill see a post thats like info or seems important and like i can tell its that kind of post just by skimming it st first and somethin #clicks in my brain that just tells me if i dont share that post everyone will know and think im a horrible person #regardless of what the actual post is about #i need like a handbook on how to make proper moral decisions #cause like yeah i do care about things i try to share stuff about things i care about and believe are important but sometimes i dont have #the energy to read long as posts and my brain twists it to make it out that people will know and i am the bad guy #idk my ocds telling me even saying this makes me a bad person #the fact i even struggle with this #sometimes i think im not built for social media but really i think social medias not built for people like me #maybe i should get help for my ocd but the idea of describing all the shit going on in my brain to someone just makes me feel scared #cause like i dont know when to draw the line at making something a problem i should actively have a hand in helping #how much is too much when do i stop #<- in regards to my own mental health like the mental exhaustion that can come from it i hope this makes sense #like some things you gotta invest like emotional shit into and like sometimes im just tired and i come on here and im faced with one of #those posts and i just have to debate with myself what the fuck im supposed to do #this is more a me issue than anything i need to sort this shit out with some mental health professional or something #cause like i dont want to have people think i dont care about these things i do and ik pressing reblog takes like no energy but idk man #im not even sure if some of the shit i reblog is cause i care or is just an ocd compulsion #i feel like most times its both #i cant help but think im the problem here i want to be on social media its just so draining having my mind repeatedly hound me for not like #showing enough care (reblogging more posts) about a certain issue online #idk im so tired of it all im so tired of my mind i wish i didnt have ocd #vent #so funny right after i posted this i scrolled down and one of these posts was rigjt beneath it and the debate happens all over again #lord i need to get out of here

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

hey friends is it normal to just feel. numb. because I think that maybe it is not. but what would I know anyway.

#really tho it’s like I can barely feel anything anymore. idk if it’s stress?? depression?? #the enormous weight of adult life suddenly and unexpectedly crashing down on me with the weight of the entire planet?? #I used to feel so *much* all the time and now I feel like I can barely feel anything at all… #and everyone around me is living life so much and I’m just here feeling like I can barely keep up with conversations as they’re happening #I’m tired… I feel like God is a far away idea that I’m struggling to hold onto… I feel like my mind is a bent and jumbled mess #like I grabbed hold of it and tried to crush it into the shape I thought it should be and now all I’ve got is a broken frame #I /know/ who I am and what I believe. I /know/ what my life is. but I don’t feel anything. #the only time I feel anything is sometimes when we’re singing at church I just cry at the sense of glory of something I can’t touch #and sometimes I shake with fear at the thought that I’ve ruined everything that could’ve ever been good about me #I’m oversharing on the internet again but I just don’t know what to do. I’m so tired. I want to see something beautiful and feel #the weight and glory of it again. but I feel like I can’t. all I feel is numbness. #I feel like I could sleep for months but every time I wake up I never feel refreshed. and I’ve been having bad dreams too. #adulthood kinda does suck can I please go back to being 5 #gurt says stuff #personal

[blujayonthewing]

holy mother of god I have got to start dressing weirder

#[clutching my face] I need to figure out HOW!! I have no FASHION SENSE #I think a big part of my problem is figuring out bottoms #sometimes I'll buy a cool thrift store top and discover it doesn't really go with jeans and then I'm like '... now what' agdkfjsks #I also wear like... cargo shorts and cargo joggers but those aren't Fashion Choices (especially the shorts) #I need... colored jeans. or harem pants (or whatever else they're called that's not That :I) or. idk SOMETHING #honestly I feel like... those dickies cargo joggers but in fun colors instead of Olive Drab could be fun?? I really love those pants lol #I DON'T KNOW I spend all day in pajamas cause they're comfy and then when I actually wanna look nice I have no idea what to wear #I love sundresses because they are the idiot's shortcut to looking cute (just put on ONE THING and that's a cute outfit babey!) #but my heart wants pirate shirts and funky vests #and maybe blousy tops with weird pants I dunno #if I knew how to make pants. ... I still wouldn't because I never get around to sewing agdjfldvs but AT LEAST IT WOULD FEEL LIKE AN OPTION #why can't life be like animal crossing where you can try on fifty different outfit combos in five minutes to figure out what you like :') #about me

[vvanessaives]

finally began reading the infamous if. current mc is maverick/maeve de soto (they/she) & their band's name is VENUS' HAVEN, they are an alternative r&b for reasons unknown to me bc they have such a rock band vibes but whatever. probably a sevenmancer bc i love a good enemies to lovers and bc i can't have rowan 😔

#rena.txt #it took me under 3 seconds to like rowan. while reading his description i was already like this is my man. but okay. FINE. we ball #i still don't know what's the deal with maeve. they are cocky and arrogant but have a good heart. probably. maybe. i feel like she would #get involved in soo many scandals but idk. i will just have them flesh themself out and i'll just sit & look skfjskfsj #also i'm so not made for ifs tbh bc my attention span surely isn't on my side but i really like the vibe of the story so far :] #oh the band's first album is called far from home which i find funny (making me insane) since the name is venus haven so it's like. we are #far from that haven rn. we are going on a journey to get back there (through the albums) and idk love a storytelling through music #it has seven related reasons ofc bc i love drama skfjskdjs #also how are all my sexy mutuals pickings fcs for this like. this is the hardest job ever nothing fits as i want to HMM #also 2x. no idea if venus' haven is correct english or smth my grasp of this language sometimes it's so feeble when it comes to ' send help

[keeps-ache]

woke up with the feeling that 'something has been irreversibly changed'

#just me hi #which doesn't make any sense because i didn't really do anything yesterday lol #but then i got hit with that very accepting 'so this must be' feeling so i have No idea what's going on with my internals hfvsfhaj #though i Have been feeling odd‚ maybe it's turned over #i dunno! feelings are like magic is so many ways #/maybe that's why people like to tie it to Actual magic. something physical #because it's a way to see it‚ to understand it‚ to prove to other people it's there #but real magic is very hard to understand and sometimes even to imitate and sometimes people don't like to see it at all #which is sad because it's so pretty‚ and when you feel it in like your actual Body it's wonderful #but it showed how Physically strong you were then you aren't being awful in some way. then you're Scary and Powerful #but that's just awful too. they don't realize it until someone awful does it but they forget everyone else is like that too #i'm having Just Woke Up thoughts bfhvsbhfv #i want to like. just Be but things are kinda complicated you know? #like magic.. #lol! #//anyway #gotta finish this comic for REAL #truly really seriously !! #i'm almost done with the inks and i KNOW i can do it today i can do it i can do it !! #couldn't yesterday (idk why lol) but i Can today so i will :D #do i shall see you again soon! tooooodles

[jaeyunverse]

only 6 more days for 12th grade to officially finish and my exams to be over. perhaps jaeyunverse comeback with a long fic ????? 😳

#first order of business will be to finish that damn jeno fic #then i will work on one of the valentine’s event fics who’s masterlist i posted Last Year 💀 #i will prob make a poll for that bc idk which one to write 😭 i have 4k for the heeseung one but i’m STUCK #i have 4k for the halloween special fic i started in 2021 ummmmm maybe i’ll buckle down on it too #THE ALICE IN BORDERLAND AU???? i have the entire plot but it is going to be So Long i just know it. #i hope i can finish my current wips before any other long fic ideas come to me 😭 #i have to finish the stupid headcanon series too what was i thinking when i started it #IM TERRIBLE AT HEADCANONS #fffff i only have a few weeks of peace after boards 😭 i have to start grinding for my other exam in june once april starts #i hope i can be more active on this account and actually get some writing done bc ngl i have sm plans for the small vacation i’m getting #but i wanna be delusional too 🫡 #also i have so many unfinished projects here sometimes i feel like abandoning this account completely #and this place is lowkey dead in terms of activity ngl 💀 i will have try to revive it #but then i remember that i put effort into building this blog so seeing it go to waste would be sad #plus i Really do not want to repost my fics for a third time ppl will call me crazy

[ridiculously-over-obsessed]

You know this time next year, when I haven't spoken to mum in months and I'm not coming home for xmas, I hope she thinks back on days like today and is like "yeah that's probably the reason he went no contact"

#max rambles a lot #sometimes i think that maybe things will be okay and i won't have to cut off the other half of my family when i move out #and then days like this happen where both of them start screaming at me because idk the way i'm feeling is inconvient to them #and *my* autism and mh isn't an excuse for being 'bone idle' and 'lazy' (i swear i'm really trying i'm just Going Through It rn) #but theirs is an excuse to treat me like shit #i fucking hate it here #i've decided that whether or not this opportunity comes to fruition i'm moving to York in september #opposite side of the country while still being in the north #hate the idea of moving out of manchester tbh i love it but a fresh start is what i need so 🤷🏻 #yeah fuck them both tbh i worked so hard to buy them nice xmas gifts that i know they'll love #and almost broke myself on multiple occassions to clean this hovel of a house and it's never fucking good enough #i am the only one who is *still* sleeping on the floor because mum and my sister both have new beds and mattresses #and i got yelled at for trying to figure out if i could afford to get a bed too #because mum didn't want the hassle of sorting my room out too before xmas so i have to wait until the new year??? #like fuck off i'm so tired of being on the floor all the time i hate it here sm #anyway i'm sad and tired and angry i've really had enough i just needed to rant into the void #because if i go off at either of them it turns into 3 days of screaming at me and i'm way too tired for that honestly

[capaldiera]

man idgaf about what treville and richelieu have going on (mostly nothing) (they dont like each other but they work together a lot bc of their jobs.) (i guess treville holding onto a sense of honour whilst working with the cardinal is interesting but like that's not. thats not really those two having something interesting going on). lets talk about the king and the cardinal man.

#the way the king sometimes resents the cardinal's influence but is so easily manipulated to feel lost without it. #the fact that he'll openly acknowledge the cardinal wants him to rule unfairly and play favourites. with a fond look on his face #''i will disband their whole regiment if that's what it takes to make you happy. only please don't leave me alone'' with tears in his eyes #all of which was exactly what the cardinal was going for and he just gets away with it! #the queen finds out he was trying to have her Killed and she says yeah fuck you obvi but i wont tell the king tho bc he loves you ? #i'm not saying any of this is like romantic to be clear lol. it's just very interesting #i mean i dont think it can probably be categorised really. but im definitely not calling it that #it is super interesting though the way the cardinal needs to undermine the queen and place himself closer to the king to succeed in his aim #it would be somewhat appropriate for sure to say its kind of a parent-child relationship in some ways but that's definitely not all of it #in terms of the way the king relies on him and his guidance. but again thats not all of it and he's not a child. or not actually a child. #and i could say this about any of the relationships between men on the show but of course Because they're both men that means the #Possibility of it being anything but fully platonic is not something he can acknowledge and for that reason whether it is or Not there's #still going to be a level of repression and denial that just complicates things. even though/if theres not truly anything to deny #meanwhile honestly i think the cardinal is personally being normal about it even tho he's a freak about a lot of other things #i mean idk that was my impression. i am sorta-watching through s1 again so maybe i'll develop my ideas on that #anyway #me.txt #musketeers posting

[detritivoresquad]

Ik the new show is laughably bad but and so scooby doo is on everyones minds but im going to start throwing shit if I have to hear tumblr user #258 talking about how THEY would make an adult scooby doo. Not everyones ideas are bad this website is just too predictable and annoying sometimes

#{ds;purplespinel} #this is like the least sm feeling social media site idk where else to go but like #when you dislike a thing that this site has decided to be obsessed with its very annoying #before someone comes at me im not saying i dislike scooby doo. i love scooby doo. #i liked it as a kid I watch it as an adult and i read fanfic sometimes. #but I often dislike like the kinds of 'adaptations' and 'rewrites' that get lots of reblogs here #like everyone writing them as adults is either writing them as college age or in their 50s. which is fine like its not problematic #i just think its boring #or like they're arguing over what to do w fred. or what velmas backstory would be. and most of the ideas tossed around disinterest me #does that make sense. #like aughhh daphne is a popular girl NO daphne is a loser who hangs out w outcasts #NO shes a lovable autistic NO she's the party bard NO shes the muscle of the group #like idk guys it sounds like you just wanna get the Coolest Most Creative Interpretation Award #why are we even arguing like... idk i think the characters have a decently well defined base! #and every interpretation is a little different and equally valid! so! nobody can really Win here

[dallonwrites]

doing this sort of deep and detailed worldbuilding that doesn't really happen in my litfic works (well worldbuilding is still there, but even when i write litfic in a fictional setting it's not the same as this speculative project where there's lots of specific lore) has felt really nice because it's something to hold onto and familiarise myself with before i jump into the draft, but also because i'm not trying to outline the story alongside that i'll still get all the ways that discovery writing benefits me. making me think about how whether you're plotting a story ahead of drafting or not these sort of pre drafting rituals are really helpful and can take so many different forms depending on the story + writer

#i think esp with discovery writing a big thing is understanding what your anchor is going into a draft #that helps you get the benefits of discovery writing but also keeps you like. grounded?? #which i don't see talked about a lot probably bc of the 'flying by the seat of your pants' thing. which i think is a misconception #even when you ARE going into something fully unknowing. in that case the possibilities that come with unknowing is the anchor #because in that case the writer/story benefits from the questioning around their idea going into a draft. the mystery of it all #and then sometimes a very vague outline that gives you space to prioritise discovery writing is the anchor #basically something familiar to hold onto whilst you're uncovering everything around it #a lot of time for me it's the character but here it feels like the world itself #i dont think this is discovery writing specific but i think if you have an outline going in + prioritise plotting then like #thats most likely the anchor #dallon when he ponders new writing theory in the tags of a tumblr post #also i say not try to outline because inevitably with the worldbuilding im getting ideas and things #like understanding the lore means realising moments where certain lore is revealed etc. #but i'm not like. intentionally outlining ?? idk ?? we'll see #i tried outlining this last nano and it didnt really help me with prep and going in but it helped in the middle of the month

[peapod20001]

I actually do have very complex thoughts about many different things, it’s just a bit challenging to connect the inner voice to the outer voice sometimes </3

#random post #I have SO many thoughts and ideas. I love to create and I love to build on what I have and I like to connect to existing things #there is lots of oc lore in my brain! it graces my blog sometimes. not always. it’s hard to put abstract feeling and thought into words #and it’s challenging trying to find the best place to start talking about things yknow? like I as the creator of this whole unique universe #pretty much already know how things end up. how they’re going. how it started. some are easier to know than others. but that doesn’t stop me #from trying create for it. or searching for the missing piece to start the domino effect of development and fulfillment #it’s hard to see where the pieces fit sometimes. but getting a new angle or changing something about the piece can make finding where it #belongs easier. this is what I mean when I say I have very intricate and complicated thoughts. not spending too long writing my sentences or #overthinking them helps to keep things as they are in my head. since I’m not filtering them into something almost unrecognizable #writing a paper in a single sitting in a set time really helps me produce a unified and intricate product. I’ve been told I write well #which I find mildly humorous. I’ve never been a writer by choice really. I’m an artist that works with a physical visual piece rather than #letters that convey meaning. I’m more of a thinker than a writer. but in some instances they’re one in the same. I’m rambling but y’all know #that about me by now I’m sure hahagahaha. yea. my OCD makes me spend too long on words and that’s why I always talk in a short way #a more simplistic way. leaves less room for the mind to pick out flaws if everything is flawed on purpose yknow? haha yea. I like me yknow? #and other people like me too! that will never cease to surprise and amaze me haha. I’m one of those people that has an easier time with #people different from themselves. the people I’ve known and spoke to throughout my life are so very different from me. but they all feel #comfortable to share their experience with me. a lot of these people on paper would be ones I’d try to avoid I guess. differing opinions and #world views yknow? but the way I am. gives people comfort I’ve found. I’m not bragging about that it’s just interesting. it’s the same with #my whole household like we meet people that are like. idk a good descriptor but they’re very set in a specific way. and then we just?? they #like us?? idk it’s just funny to think about my dad getting along with legit crazy people or my mom being the person who’s the favorite of #the least liked / polite person in the office. or my brother and sister being very well liked in their schools but are just average students #who aren’t trying to be more than kind. or when I as myself. with the thoughts and opinions I have. am able to get along with anyone I #come across. I’m really not trying to be bright about that I’m just an. empath? I guess? I’m just very nice to people and meet them at their #level and don’t try steering the conversation to smth bad or controversial. but even then people will still talk to me and like me cus I’m #not putting them down or hating on them for how they think and feel. I listen. I can understand them. not agreeing with their views doesn’t #mean I can’t get why people think or feel how they do. I try to not be biased or entirely antagonist to things different than me #I’ve gone my whole life not understanding a lot of things. and over time I’ve learned them. I go into experiences with people like that #I may not understand yet. but I’ll learn to. that’s probably the main reason why people feel comfortable around me. that and also I have #a smile pretty much always lol. I’m small and non threatening lookin with a single dimple on the cheek and eyes so dark you could see the #faintest light reflected in them. anyways I have gone into several different directions with this and kinda lost the main point I was making

[rosicheeks]

gotta ask the follow up question...

What tattoo do you want to get the most?

Nooooo I want so many though 😤😤

#that’s probably the hardest part #idk what one I would want to get first #there’s this place by me and they do this sale sometimes #where they do a bunch of different tattoos #and then it’s super cheap and you go in and point to which one you want #i don’t remember the rules or anything so don’t ask me much about it #but I’ve always thought about getting a small simple one from that just to start with #since I have no clue what to expect #I used to have a whole tattoo idea notebook #I would draw ideas #I’ve always wanted to get a matching tattoo with my sister #I had a few quotes that I thought of #but I think I would really want to do some word or phrase in Greek #also have always wanted to do some sort of wings #Idk if I would ever do it but I think it would be stunning to do a huge back piece with beautiful big angel wings #also want a crown somewhere but I feel like that’s obvious 😂😂😂 #growing up my dream was to do a full sleeve #but idk what it would be of #also have wayyyyyy too many quotes I want to do #but my memory is shit so I don’t remember them all by heart #I just love quotes and I think it would be nice to have a reminder of a good hopeful quote #especially when times are hard #I can look at my tattoo and read it and just breathe and calm down a bit #definitely didn’t answer your question I’m sorryyyyy #it’s been awhile since I’ve seriously thought about getting a tattoo #I need to focus on other things so I don’t think I’ll have money for a tattoo any time in the near future #once I move out of my current place then maybe I can think more seriously into tattoos #until then I need to get a new tattoo idea journal and start doodling in there when I get bored! #thanks for the question sweetie 💖 #ask