#if anything it's grown better

[sylvies-kablooie]

episode 6 hits just as hard two years later.

i still haven't moved beyond sylvie's desperate why aren't we seeing this the same way? the realizing between them, so sudden and visceral, that this wasn't going to work out; that the mission came first for sylvie- after seeing the man who ruined her life, in her eyes, loki's hesitancy was treason, but that sorrow in the line, why? why can't we agree? the low below-the-belt punches in her "do it, kill me and take your throne"; she's spitting venom, she doesn't believe it in the slightest, she just wants him to stop, to agree with her, to tell her that it was worth it, all of her suffering she survived to get here, to set the rest of the universe free, but he won't. loki won't say what she needs to hear. the way they both cry when he begs her to think, to stop, take a minute. the way her blade catches the crook of his neck and he tosses his to the side to get her to listen, at the risk of his life, just to get her to listen, please. the way he pleads. the way she leans in to kiss him as if surrendering and how the moment holds in the air but she can't give up after so long. how she gently shoves him away with her fingertips despite his begging, the most sincere moment in his life and he is rejected. and then how she tosses hwr's desk away the minutes loki's gone, how she stabs he who remains, she snarls and asks him aren't you going to beg for your life. she locks eyes with him as she plunges the sword in and watches him bleed out. and before he's even dead she falls to the floor, the weight of what she did setting in, the lack of relief she'd always imagined she'd feel horrific. the terrifying loneliness hitting right at the moment, too heavy to even keep her legs supported. the terrifying loneliness loki feels from the other side of the universe, maybe the only thing coming close to matching.

like. yeah it's gonna haunt me forever.

#this is a big ramble but i can't believe how engrossing it still is after seeing it so many times #how i still caught my breath #if anything it's grown better #i just. cannot wait to see them again. #i hope the writers won't let us down #the weight of seeing each other again in a FUCKING MCDONALDS #is going to make me collapse #they were doomed by the narrative #there's a tiny part of me that loves the finale so much i almost wish it ended there #loki tv show #sylvie #sylvie laufeydottir #loki tv #loki series #loki s2 #sylki #pro sylki #loki show #loki #anything for sylvie #loki x sylvie #juni analysis

[cangrellesteponme]

well that. that sure is a babygirl

#wdym that's a grown demon in a suit? i only see my cute bbg #anyway #idk how i drew this so fast lmao #btw yes only one hand is uncovered because i did not want to draw the contract seal. work smarter not harder!! #i am. trying so hard no to say anything unhinged about this. i am so normal. #nvm i am not normal. i had a blood layer ready and i deleted it because i didn't feel like rendering it #because all bbgs are better covered in blood ofc #but yeah i didn't because i'm more lazy than wretched #AHEM. anyway #my art #sebastian michaelis #kuroshitsuji #kuroshitsuji fanart #black butler #black butler fanart

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

headcanon that scorpius was a sick child and was in and out of hospital constantly, perhaps related to astoria's blood curse but not directly. his immune system isnt very strong, and everytime he gets sick they're terrified that it's the blood curse but also whatever else it could be, because it's always so sudden and so intense and they call healers over to the house who recommend this delirious feverish 4 year old is hospitalised immediately, and you'd think it'd get easier to some extent because they'd be used to it, but everytime they feel like this is it, this is the time he'll walk in to the hospital and not walk out again

#this headcanon has no purpose im just thinking of scorpius in bed like a sickly victorian child with scarlet fever or something #asking if he'll make it to sunrise lmfao #so then he hates hospitals with a passion #my friend from school was in them constantly he was even a make a wish kid and he can not fucking stand the places so #headcanon scorpius becomes a healer anyway lmao #im sick and this is how im coping by putting baby scorp in hospital lmfao #it just made draco that little bit more protective #lucius made an insensitive comment about it once and draco was ready to throw hands #this headcanon doesnt really go anywhere ive just decided scorpius was a sick child #he has sick child energy lmfao #he still knows some of his doctors/healers because he was there so frequently #just imaging lil scorp in a hospital bed and draco and astoria are sleeping in the room on like uncomfortable chairs and the fever finally #breaks and hes like uh daddy im hungry and its like 4am but draco couldnt care less cause scorp hasnt been able to eat anything for days #let alone ask for food directly and baby scorp is wondering why his parents are acting so damn weird just cause he asked for some toast #but once hes grown up whenever he gets sick its on such a lower level than what it used to be when he was a kid because his immune system #got better that he struggles to gauge when other people would usually stop trying to do daily activities and albus has to start wrestling #scorpius back to bed instead of going to class cause scorpius really youre practically dying and hes like pfff you wanna see dying? use tha #timeturner one more time and go back to see me at literally any point between 2 and 10 i am FINE #(he absolutely was not fine) #scorpius malfoy #albus potter #draco malfoy #hpcc #scorbus #this is so many tags im so sorry

[kobracola]

ngl i really fucking hate the disparity between the way people treat gerard and lindsey in bandom

#i might elaborate on this later if i dont get burned at the stake or whatever but #fucking hell is it frustrating to witness the demonization of a woman in the music industry and the infantilization of a grown ass man #im not saying lindsey is a good person or that the allegations are irrelevant. #im saying shes SOMEWHAT unfairly demonized for affiliating with msi while gerard is treated like a paragon of innocence #despite being married to her and having a whole ass child with her #if anything he's equally as affiliated with msi as she is and unapologetically supportive of her and her career #but people act like she's some bitch that's manipulating and controlling their poor sassy uwu baby and that he deserves better #fucking!! frustrating!!!!! #mcr #my chemical romance #msi #mindless self indulgence #gerard way #lynz way

[kouhaiofcolor]

I really miss the natural hair community & watching natural hair content generally. That was so good for Black Women; we were thriving at it, too. And as rapidly as it rose to popularity, it’s crazy how dead the whole concept is now. I think it had more to do w all the division created over routines around maintenance than anything else. Everybody was entirely too pushy w trying to make what worked for them personally a staple for taking care of textured hair in general — & that shit walked so that colorism, featurism, texturism & misogynoir could run. Now the same ppl who was riding the wave a few years ago & swearing by all these products, brands, sponsors, wash day & styling methods have put natural hair away as a concept entirely.

Also, why the hell did we waste all that energy prefacing everything w, “Stop doing this and do these things for your hair to grow to tailbone length overnight🤡” — just to go right back to weave and perms? All that researching for what? All the dedication to disproving antiblack/misogynoir notions about Black hair for what? All the redefining of protective styles for what? All the trying to unlearn the belief structures around the colonization of Black hair for what? What did we teach ourselves fr? How did we make things any easier for Black Women and little Black girls? It’s tragic af. The Natural Hair Community/Movement is dead, it seems like. I don’t think we fought hard enough to prevent what happened to it honestly :\

#this isn’t to call out or demoralize weave or perms or anything like that either #I don’t think there’s anything wrong w black women doing any of that #but on the flip side I do kind of feel like #maybe weave is a bit of a crutch for us? #even w an understanding of it being a conditioning via white supremacy & antiblackness #I just don’t understand why it was smothered as a movement #& why black women seem to have like…. kind of just rolled over with it? #it was legitimately good for us before everyone else went to bandwagoning for relevance #and I get that too #but I still feel like we did a poor job at defending & teaching each other first & foremost #non black people definitely got in the way of that #but we also got in each other’s way ourselves #everyone I used to be subscribed to on yt for natural hair content stepped away from it #even those w natural hair grown & maintained beyond their waist or whatnot #the switch right back to unhealthy means of taking care of textured hair was flipped so easily #it just saddens me cus we were working at doing better #esteeming ourselves #our nieces #our daughters #our female cousins and mothers and aunties about the way we take care of our hair #and fell just short of actually taking something tangible from it #it wasn’t about having longer hair #it was about giving textured hair representation in ways it mattered #we were so driven in this & it was beautiful #there is no movement or dedication to this in 2024 tho #proud of black women who were independent thinkers & didn’t fall off w all the chaos #them trends had ppl clambering all over each other #& it ultimately killed the movement #nowadays you don’t even hear from the non black women who were vulturing for clout #i be floored w how sparse any content true to the hash tags are anymore

[feline-evil]

Never gonna be over how unutterably pathetic and in dire need of ANY kind of companionship or friendship that doesn't revolve around their band the entirety of dethklok are. I love these horrible idiots who are so devoid of any real connections outside of themselves that they will latch onto anyone unfortunate enough to get too close to any one of them! And GOD help anyone they latch onto!!

#jay talkin #metalocalypse #im thinking about the doubles episode where they just seem genuinely happy to have 'friends' #who arent like. industry people. these men are so starved of any kind of connection #and it takes them four seasons a rock opera and a movie to realise they can find that in each other lmao #also thinking about how quickly any of them bond and become really intense abt anyone in their life #aka: NATHAN TOWARDS ABIGAIL. oh dear poor abigail oh dear #but also toki to damn near anyone and this goes for the entire band tbh as well they all do this at least once #and yeah its mainly cuz 10min eps mean u gotta progress stuff fast #but also holy shit. charles these boys want friends so bad u gotta set em up on playdates or smth #maybe it'd get some of their dumb stupid idiot energy out and they'd be better behaved. well. no they wldnt but... u can dream #i do think theres smth to be said that yeah all of dethklok are cool theyre metal superstars they r good at what they do #theyre also fucking prophesised saviours too and theyre also incredibly dangerous idiots and terrible ppl #but never forget that they are also. so so SO pathetic and isolated and dysfunctional #these men have not lived in the real world in decades and are disconnected and unsocial and spoilt and u can see that this does impact #the way they interact w the world! they need like. anything other than the band in their lives hah. they do need to pal around #im glad they find that in each other eventually!! #i dont want 2 sound like im babying them or infantilising them these r grown asshole idiot men but like. listen these shitheards r lonelyyy #everyone in their lives is like. assigned to be there and is set as beneath them in a class and workbased system #they dont rlly have ppl who r just there cuz they like em. outside of fans. and fans arent rlly a real connection yknow #their only connections come via work networking sex and violence and worship baby!!!! its fucked up!

[miss-sternennacht]

Don't mess with Cure Dream

#I was happily clapping my hands seeing these red eyes #spoilers #power of hope spoilers #precure spoilers #precure #cure dream #power of hope #sternennacht update #but do not get me started on how they didn't change her appearance or change her animation #I really wish they did or kept them grown up to keep with the theme #otherwise the message feels like you can't be anything better than your younger self or stronger or happier which isn't true

[nicksmoderncouch]

hello fellow yardigans!!

i took it upon myself to make a compilation of all my favorite moments from ludwig and slime’s you laugh you lose videos. i’ve watched all of them soooo many times, like. way too many. and even though i have no video editing experience or tools, the vision of a clip video started rattling around in my dumb lil brain. so with iPhone screen recording and CapCut in my back pocket, i threw together this video and finally got it to a version i really like (i actually had another version of this posted a couple weeks ago but i wanted to tweak a few things lol). it doesn’t have an intro/outro or any cool editing flair but overall i’m proud of how it came out :> if u want to check it out that would be so sick and cool, if not that’s ok too!!! have a good day, friends :-)

#ludwig ahgren #slime machine #the yard #the yard podcast #really though is there anything better than two grown men giggling together #slimes face when hes trying so hard not to laugh…. what if i shot myself with a rifle #Youtube

[duraraross]

i think it would be really cute if the robins all called bruce different variations of "dad".

im sorry damian my hand was getting tired

#batfamily #daddybats #dick grayson #nightwing #jason todd #red hood #red robin #tim drake #damian wayne #robin #batman #bruce wayne #my draws #yall better not make dick calling bruce daddy anything weird #a grown man can call his adoptive father daddy #aint nothing wrong with that

[johnmeowston]

top ten guys who would shatter if thrown at a wall number 1

#thinking abtpers ERMM sorry always think abt him late and then i get self concious. BUT i think #''yknow that life we lived is over. and when we were living it it didnt mean anything anyways'' < THAT. THAT MAKES ME THROW UP AND SOB #because it DID mean something to him!! it meant everything !! #it was the one thing that kept him going he was trapped w laius or wahteva #the idea that if there was even a SLIM chance of him escaping and meeting back up with coyot and things going back to the way they were. it #was worth it enough to endure torment and try to not go crazy < wanted 2 be somewhat normal when he caught up w coyot #even though it never did turn into a reality and instead he came across gunner #and it wasnt until after he had grown to love his new life and the people around him that he saw coyot again . circumstances aside he still #was so happy 2 see he was alive and well. was happy to see that coyot also lived with the people he loved and was doing alright for himself #and was in a better mental state and was well fed and ! #he loved coyot. im so emo over that. love was there but it saved nobody < shaking and crying and throwing up #and thats why i think him dying would be the best outcome 4 him tbh. having to kill your old family must be fucking devastating #and he only did it to ensure a false sense of safety. FML!! #txt

[cobaltfluff]

「忘れないで、さぁ、進もう」

Happy KagePro day!

how the years have gone by, how so much has changed, and yet, some things will always remain the same...

#kagepro #kagerou project #art tag #animated #ngl im emotional #i feel so much older now with a job and so little time to draw #but i really wanted to squeeze something out #it's a little rushed but idk i just feel like it's something i have to do #it feels really special to me man #like i dont hype about it all year round but #august is kagepro month and you bet im going to sacrifice sleep to do something #it had such an impact on my childhood yanno #it's brought me so much happiness #and i know this could definitely be so much better #but i just dont have the time #idk it kinda makes me feel really sad but at the same time #that's what the series is about too isn't it? #just bc i've grown up and im an adult now #doesnt mean im any less of a child #and it certainly doesnt mean those times didnt mean anything #oh god it's late night emotional rambling hours #but anyway happy kagepro day y'all!! #stay safe and stay happy!!! #next time remind me to not do everything in like 2 days lmaooo

[motherhenna]

wanted to share an almost full-body pic for the first time in probably almost a decade because for once I'm actually proud of how I'm progressing and think that the changes I'm making will end up being permanent bc I'm genuinely enjoying them. Plus, the few selfies I have shared over the last five years have been very photoshopped and at flattering angles, so I feel like most of y'all don't know what I actually look like. So this is me in my children's theater teacher fit last monday!

I'm 17 lbs down from my highest ever weight, but my trainer thinks I'm probably up at least ten to fifteen lbs in muscle. I'm cooking my own food, eating more reasonable portions, and going to the gym at least five times a week because I want to, not because I feel shame or guilt. And now that I'm working as hard as I am, I'm a lot less triggered by looking at new pictures of myself because I know I'm doing my best. I'm still obese, and probably will be for awhile more, but I'm starting to appreciate what I look like and feel like. And hopefully it'll just get better from here!

#weight loss cw #sorry if this sounds super corny lmao #I probably sound so neurotypical rn but I swear I'm being totally honest #I'm obviously not turning this into a weight loss blog or anything but expect a lot more documentation of my journey going forward! #and if you don't like seeing this stuff I recommend blocking my 'personal' tag because I'm going to be talking about this a lot #I've struggled with my weight since premature puberty hit me like a truck in 4th grade so this is a big deal for me #I just wish my pediatrician hadn't treated me like shit for it because maybe if she'd approached me with compassion #I wouldn't have spun off the rails as much as I did #but either way I'm a grown ass adult and I did this to myself #so I'm the only one who can get me out of it #if you're also fat or fatter than I am please dont take it personally #but for me fatness is a physical manifestation of my long term neglect for my health and struggle w mental illness #and I want to get better #personal

[8rujaa]

my therapist really saved me….

#tw abuse // tw sa #i can’t sleep bc i keep thinking about this. #like i probably would’ve not been here if it weren’t for her #i started seeing her january of 2023… my life has changed entirely since then and she was definitely the one who got the ball rolling #literally so much has changed since then and it’s all because of her #i was so dissociated during our first few sessions #thanks to her i was able to get diagnosed and medicated for adhd. i was able to realize i was in an abusive situation and plan a way out #i was able to focus on myself and my healing and she’s helped me reframe so much of my negative thinking #i was able to process a lot of emotions and become a better version of myself with each session #she’s truly incredible. #i remember the first comment she made about the relationship had been ‘’so it’s like there’s an imbalance of control in the relationship’’ #i had put my partners on such a high pedestal that i had no idea they could be doing anything wrong #and i asked her what she meant and she said ‘from what you’ve been describing it’s sounds like a strict parents and child type of dynamic’ #she told me they didn’t need to understand why i wanted to leave and they didn’t need to make that decision. if that’s what was going to be #best for me the only thing i could do is let them know my reasoning and simply leave. i didn’t need their permission.’’ #i remember being so confused at that realization bc like… i had been putting their emotions over mine the whole time i had forgotten simply #doing what’s best for me was an option… l #ever since then i’ve been putting myself first and it’s been a steady uphill from rock bottom… i’ve made an incredible amount of progress #when i first started with her getting out of bed and walking to the kitchen was incredibly difficult and took all my strength. #yesterday i conquered a mountain!!!!!!! i hiked all the way to the top!!!!! :D #me a year ago thought it was going to take me years and years to recover. as soon as i left i made leaps of progress #im incredibly proud of myself and grateful for her. and my reiki lady she’s also been a great great help. #the silver lining is i realized who really matters. and the relationships i cared about deepened. #my sweet virgo friend was the one who was always like ‘THATS A GROWN ASS MAN WHO CANT UNDERSTAND BASIC CONSENT???’ #LMFAO i would be like ‘but he has trauma and bla bla bla’ she looked me dead in the eyes and said #’jess you said with your last boyfriend that you would never make excuses for a man who was hurting you again. stop defending him.’ #she’s really a gem and i treasure her with my life. i hope she knows i love her. she’s family at this point #she’s also literally saved my life before (like deadass called 911 for help) #im glad i had the support system i had. that was a rough situation with so many layers and im glad i got through it #my 22nd year of life was by far the worst of my life and i don’t ever want to put myself in that situation again. im glad i learned.

[quirkle2]

oh nooo that's quite a bummer :( but i'm very glad that i helped brightening up your day :") tbh your writing brightens up my day too (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

AND WAIT I'VE BEEN ACTUALLY QUITE THINKING ABOUT WHETHER ZOMBIE MOB HAS FOUGHT OFF A ZOMBIE WHEN I ASKED IF HE HAS EVER BITTEN SOMEONE and since you brought it up, well, would be okay to ask about the details of how it went 👁️👁️ (also him fighting off a fellow zombie to protect tome got me sobbing)

- 🪻

aww im glad my silly little words brighten ur day!! ur so sweet :]

and yes, it went horribly <3! tome prolly wasn't paying attention as closely as she should've been and got herself surrounded by a crowd. to be clear, that's not Always dangerous, since zombies arent like,, after ur brains in this constantly. but these zombies did look quite hungry, and human or not, she looked like a good meal,,

she had wandered off a bit from mob n ritsu, but mob heard the commotion first. tome has a big fucking baseball bat in this au that she likes to swing around, but a baseball bat can only get u so far in terms of self defense. she thins the horde but there's simply too many of them

mob lets exactly One zombie grab her and yank her toward them before he goes ballistic

watching zombies fight is a lot closer to watching wild animals fight than anything else, and it gets quite horrid sometimes. since their bites aren't rly "dangerous" to each other beyond the typical Oh No a Chunk of Flesh is Gone (not even painful for them, since their nerves r.. less than functional), the fight is a lot more close up and gruesome than a fight against a zombie and a human would be. humans usually back away from zombies immediately and try not to touch them at all in fear of getting bitten; zombies don't need to care abt that

most of the horde realizes that this meal isn't going to be easy and they wander off, but a few more hungry, more desperate ones try to rip into mob's throat at the first sign of defiance. it's not exactly a fair fight; it's like 1 against 4, so he's sorta bound to lose

thankfully ritsu shows up and shoots two of them down (he's Terrified of shooting mob by accident, but either way he'll probably die, so) and tome gets the last one with a good swing to the head. ritsu rushes to mob and is horrified by the amount of blood dripping from his neck and his arm; tome is equally as shocked, but she's mostly thinking, "ive Never seen a zombie defend a human before"

mob's neck is thankfully mostly just scraped up and clawed, but there Is some gruesome punctures where canines sank in and tugged. it's a lot worse along his arm that's bitten and gouged beyond belief. he loses a lot of blood here, but the whole nerves-no-longer-work thing is a blessing in disguise atm; he'd be in a lot of pain otherwise. while ritsu and tome are patching him up w shaky hands he simply glares beyond their shoulders like he thinks he's still in danger, even when they tighten the bandages. it's like he barely notices what they’re doing

his strangely alert behavior makes them think abt the possibility that maybe mob Knows he could've easily been shredded apart there, and he's a little scared and worked up abt it. the only reason he managed to fight as long as he did without dying is prolly bc the other zombies weren't as well-fed as mob—they were kinda weak and shaky from days of no food, but mob has humans taking care of him and keeping him fed 24/7

they're all shaken up by it pretty good.. tome is still reeling from the fact that mob defended her so valiantly, and ritsu is quietly horrified by the idea of another zombie killing mob instead of a human. he doesn't know which is worse

#qktalks #anon #zombie au #this isn't the first time ritsu has had to kill a zombie btw ^ #this is just the first time he's had to kill one since he started seeing zombies in a different light #it was either letting his brother die or killing a zombie. ritsu's upset that he had to make that decision at all #but he's not afraid to say that the decision was incredibly easy to make #it sucks that he had to kill one but . for mob ? literally anything goes #ritsu checked tome over after they took care of mob too. tome's very surprised when he's rly gentle abt it #ritsu's been known to .. lose his head a little in moments of stress #and sometimes he snaps at tome bc of it. he never means to he's just..worked up #but this time he's kinda fretting over her and it opens her eyes a little bit #ritsu has indeed grown to care abt tome a lot. they bicker Most of the time but it's usually not very serious #in all the excitement tome just hadn't rly realized that until now. ritsu is so high-strung that it's hard to get a read on his softer side #but now he's not just directing his softer side to his brother‚ but to tome as well #i have 15 more tags to explain smth i wanna make clear btw let's hope i don't start rambling abt smth else entirely #so i've been using a lot of vocabulary in these au posts that hint toward mob being ''special'' or ''abnormal'' in his behavior #he is not special or abnormal in any way #Every zombie is like that. every zombie has a personality‚ and a gentler demeanor hidden behind that desperate starvation #and remnants of their past selves in there somewhere #mob is simply one of the only zombies that have been taken in and cared for and treated like a sick person rather than a monster #as i've said before most people just.. either run away or shoot them between the eyes when crossing paths with a zombie #they don't give any of them a Chance. mob is a very very lucky zombie. #he is healthier than most other zombies and he is treated far better #and the way ritsu constantly talks to him is actually great for his health ! gets those rusty gears in his head rollin #exercises that brain‚ even if‚ to ritsu‚ he's only responding in odd gibberish #that's only one of the things ritsu gives him that other zombies never receive in their lifetimes #i'd say mob prolly ? has one of the longest ''zombie lifespans'' #most zombies either die of starvation‚ dehydration‚ or sleep deprivation within a few weeks #he's lived a long zombie life !

[socksandbuttons]

IM SCREAMING UYEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#sun and moon show spoilers #YEAH SO MUCH SCREAMING OVER THE WHOLE CONFRONTATION #LUNAR HAVING GROWN SO MUCH AS A PERSON #FINALLY UNDERSTANDING WHAT THE JAZZ IS UP WITH ECLIPSE #AND GOING 'alright then' PROCEEDS TO OVERCOME THE TRAUMA #ECLIPSE MAY NOT HAVE ADMITTED ANYTHING BUT THE FACT HE WAS SO PUT OFF ABOUT LUNAR #ASKING IF HE COULD HIT HIM??????????? LIKE???????? BRUH #'eclipse doesnt care' u caNT EVEN READ BETWEEN THE LINES OF THE COMPLEXITIES OF THIS MAN #WHO CANT EVEN FATHOM HIS OWN EMOTIONS PROPERLY #im screaming im so soaking up this episode hell eYEAH #LUNAR ACTUALLY ACKNOWLEDING HE BETRAYED ECLIPSE!!!!!!!! #ACKNOWLEDING THE STUFF THAT HAPPENED!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #yeah he may have hit u once lunar but it was enough for you bud. your in a better fam #BUT AHHHHHHHHH #anyway im totally fine after this dfont WORRY ABOUT #knowing my bean au was actually not to far on 'yeah it could be okay' #hell Yeah

[baezdylan]

definitely keeping this url!!!

#i have grown resentful of the md title and while i do miss amy i think this one is better #i don't know... there are so many people who become doctors only for the sake of being able to tell you they're a doctor #and that doesn't really mean anything on its own... what is a word without its meaning??? meaning on the other hand can exist independently #jo in the tardis*